Asking mostly because I'm a trans man with nondistressing bottom dysphoria (like, my brain is mystified that I don't have a dick but I'm never really upset about it) who personally finds trans bodies to be both aesthetically and sexually appealing no matter what, but talking about bottom dysphoria can be kinda awkward with how funky Americans are about genitals, so this is a way to sort of 'chat' about our experiences anonymously

(anyone on the trans spectrum/questioning their gender identity can vote! please rb so that it can get to a bigger audience, though)

Eleven Questions Meme

I was tagged by @the-empires-weapon, thank you!

Favorite band? Sleeping At Last. It’s like streaming music straight from my soul

Would you rather live by the beach, or by the mountains? BEACH. I grew up in a coastal town and have always lived close to the sea (and rivers). I feel quite lost if I don’t live by the coast or some other body of water

Have you attended university, and if so, what did you study? If you didn’t, what’s your area of expertise, or what would you have studied if you went to a school of higher learning? I attended uni in Sweden where I studied video game development - 2D graphics. It was pretty awesome but I dropped out halfway through because the programme was just too nonsensically academic whereas I wanted to learn more practical skills. Also for personal reasons

What character has influenced you the most in life? I don’t know if I can answer this with a singular character because there are many that have probably had a pretty profound effect on me. For starters, Link from the Legend of Zelda, who was like the first character I as a child identified a whole lot with. Gave a quiet kid a bit of extra courage. Mass Effect’s Commander Shepard was really important to me during my art school years, she was a symbol of like everything awesome in humanity that I aspired to. And of course, my own Roscoe, he’s been incredibly important to me for these past 6 years. I’ve learned a lot about myself through him. I’m not joking when I say that I think he’s helped me explore and find my own queerness and I love that. There are others, I tend to pick up stuff from characters all over the place, like Luke Skywalker and Fox Mulder and many others, but those are the ones that stick out to me right now.

What kind of art do you like seeing from others? What’s your favorite style, of sorts? I like seeing a whole variety of styles! But of course I’m a subjective little goblin with my own goblin hoard of favourite art. I tend to prefer (and strive toward) a somewhat realistic painterly style where the painting/drawing hasn’t been overworked and you can still see elements from the painting/drawing process, like the brushstrokes. Some of my art heroes are Alphonse Mucha, Anna Dittmann, and Ali Franco (nsfw)

What do you prefer: Youtube, Netflix, or cable? All 3 bring something different to the table. I don’t go to Youtube for films or shows, just as I don’t go to Netflix for independent content creators. I only ever watch cable if I’m at my grandparents’ place, but it’s kind of nice to not have to pick something, you just turn the TV on and get your eyeballs blasted with whatever happens to be on. If I had to pick, I’d probably go with Youtube because that might be the only place where the contents of all 3 intersect

What kind of sensations belong with sex? (I’m curious because I’ve *always* had the idea that pain is just a part of sex, regardless of virginity, and apparently that is not the case??) Depends on what you’re looking for. My automatic response would be pleasure. Some people might enjoy more of an edge with that, like pain, but only if it’s deliberate.

To my trans friends: how and when did you learn that you were trans? It was more of a drawn out realisation through experimentation than any one exact moment for me. At some point it was just the only way forward and it suddenly seemed incredibly obvious, looking back at how I related to gender all my life in the past. The seeds of gender questioning have been there for an indeterminate amount of time, but I consciously thought of it maybe 5-6 years ago, and then I seriously started considering transness about 3 years ago.

What is the earliest meme you can remember from your first days on the internet? Oh shit. Back when the first “memes” were forming, they weren’t even called memes. The first actual meme I remember (as in when people called them memes) were the fucking rage comics. But like before that? Ancient flash animations and the like. Also when I was in 4th or 5th grade, there was a Swedish website that had sound clips parodying a stereotypical Finnish man complete with the accent and swearing and everything, which was peak humour for a bunch of 10-11 year olds. The teachers were of course not pleased.

What’s one weird thing that fascinates you? Not sure how we define weird in this case. I mean, space is weird as hell and it sure fascinates me to no end. But as an interest, it’s not that weird. I guess getting obsessed with little seemingly inconsequential details can seem weird, like the iridescence of magpie feathers, or the etymology behind some of the words in my dialect, or aurora borealis, or--

Do you believe in the supernatural. If you do, what kind of things do you believe in? If not, what’s the reason? I believe that the supernatural is really just the regular natural that we don’t understand or can’t explain yet. I’m fascinated by--ayyy there’s one--the paranormal, I’ve tried hunting for ghosts and I always scan the sky for UFOs but I haven’t seen shit. Which is disappointing. Because a lot of people claim they’ve seen things and I believe that they believe what they saw (exception for people who make it up for shits and giggles)--however they might not have seen what they think they’ve seen, or what they have seen must be perfectly explainable by science. I grew up in a “haunted” house that several people with no connection to each other would claim they saw the same thing all the time in--I never saw anything weird apart from mirrors breaking or stuff flying/falling over but it was an old house, could’ve been anything. But my point is, I’ve heard some shit and I don’t think the people I’ve talked to are lying, I just think there’s a perfectly reasonable explanation for it. And I’m of the mind that everything can be explained scientifically, that’s the only way the world makes sense to me. Maybe ghosts are echoes from a different dimension or a parallel universe? Quantum physics or some shit, I don’t know. I’d love to see something one day though. Basically; I want to believe. One day we’ll be able to explain all the weird shit throughout history, and laugh at how we didn’t understand.

Thank you for the interesting questions! Now for my 11 questions for you guys, I’m going to steal my own from when I did this meme years ago because I’m lazy:

1. Do you have any persons of note or otherwise interesting stuff in your family history? 2. You have been given a budget of several million dollars by your developer/company of choice to create something (film, TV show, theme park etc.) for your favourite franchise. What do you produce? 3. You’ve been offered a spot on a one-way trip to Mars, do you take it? 4. Sith or Jedi? 5. Which one of your own OCs is your favourite? 6. Congratulations your government has approved a citizen wage/basic income system and implemented it flawlessly. What do you do with your time now that you don’t have to work to survive? 7. Playing it dirty or by an honour code? 8. Do you have a certain type of character that is always your favourite? 9. Any guilty pleasures? 10. What’s your favourite word? 11. You now have to fight a superhero, which one do you pick?

11 tags: @starrypawz, @aspyforthethrone, @lhunuial, @tehjai, @darthvronton, @hoiist, @catpella, @s0tc, @cathuia, @lukeskywalkersbutt, lastly I’m tagging you back, @the-empires-weapon As always, feel free to ignore