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babysundoll · 1 year

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So I guess magolor is Jesus now

They wanted to build a fort. Arthur was there for architectural guidance

#kirby #gooey #magolor #zero #zero two #magolor is jesus now i guess according to kumazaki from a mii post a long time ago #idk man #kirby and gooey wanted to have some fun and zero came over to see whats poppin. no other reason #sir arthur #good god i love sir arthur #i struggle so hard to draw him though

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gornackeaterofworlds · 1 month

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One of four bay vampires

@avery73 @luckycharms1701

Runs and hides-

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izzypaw · 5 months

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little fox guy is consuming my warm ups now i keep starting my day with little foxes

#wayyy happier with the shape language here!!!!#still frustrated with the design as a whole though😭#simplifying animals is so hard!!! i dont want him to look too busy or too yknow furry artist past warrior cat fan but thats what i AM and i #still want him to look like something i would draw and design??#idk!!! idk. any constructive feedback is welcome here!!!#little fox project #izzy art #fox #doodle #idfk #character design #struggle

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b1ackpaws · 5 months

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Literally a cat why is he so ear 🤨⁉️

#The owl house #toh #Hunter noceda #hunter deamonne #toh fanart #toh hunter #my art #little grimwalker hc thing #His hair is so hard to draw help #Idk how to descirbe it I struggle with drawing him so much #I want to draw him more though #Idk whats happening to my artstyle here ejdjdjsbag

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seagull-scribbles · 1 year

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what if they where T4T?! What then?

#TMNT #TMNT 2012 #casey jones 2012 #that episode where Casey said I liked being a girl really expected me to ignore the comment?#no #raphael hamato #2012 raph #rasey #I mean you don’t have to ship them to appreciate the concept #idk raph has short trans man vibes I love him #toxic masculinity is him trying to act the part in a house of males #he’ll get over it dw #though I do like cos man raph dressing as a fairy princess and having feminine qualities #I also love trans man raph struggling to accept his more traditionally feminine behaviour #especially when they are only exposed to these gendered roles through old media #these two go out and beat up transphobes for a romantic date x #Raphs not got any trans stuff on because he doesn’t need to explain who he is to anyone his family knows #oh I tried so hard not to scratch and bruise them up too much #but I still can’t draw people #sorry Casey’s heads too big I’m learning #really like the shades of green on Raph though #also Raphs names always been raph splinter was a ninja he doesn’t know how to sex frenshly mutated pet turtle tots #OH QUICKLY I AM LOVING LATINA CASEY SO MUCH #these two spray paint graffiti in every ally and drop one trans or personal cultural significance reference in each #trans casey jones #trans raph #lgbt hc

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wowa-bublord · 30 days

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Does Cloud ever have vague/fuzzy flashes of memories of when he and Zack were on the road or was he completely cut off from the outside world?

he remembers bits and pieces, usually when he's having a nightmare. Or he'll remembers information Zack told him while they were on the road, but doesn't remember when/where he was told it. He has the same level of memory about being catatonic that Zack has of being in the lab. (not much)

#sorry no art!! I struggled with thinking of something to draw for this 😭#this is why it's hard to pin down an age for these two LOL they lost so much time #though I think they both wake up with the feeling that it's been a long time and that a lot of time has passed. they feel older. they just #don't have memories to really connect with that feeling of being older #a lot of people seem to assume they were completely out for the four years but that's not the impression I got #seeing as in the original games Zack Fair cutscenes when they escape it's to an employee saying he has their food than opening up Zacks #tank to (assumedly) wake him up and feed him #that does imply they were woken up regularly to be fed at least. they weren't just put in a tube coma and left there #the two of them actively try not to remember it though. thinking about the lab sours their mood at best and leaves them nauseous and #distressed at worst #bubby talks #zack lives au #ffvii #cloud strife #zack fair

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stuffed-x-arts · 5 months

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I think they like to play card games sometimes. Often they drag in others to supsrvise for cheating. (it won't stop them from cheating but it means they've gotta work harder to be sneaky about it and that just adds to the fun!) Cheated has a score-count for everybody. for every different game they play. him vs opportunist. him vs cold. the whole group playing. contrarian is often banned for bringing other card games to the table. he also never gets to supervise despite often asking to. Hero volunteers to supervise a lot but often doesn't catch the cheating so he's denied the role. Cheated, skeptic, opportunist and cold are the best. Broken is also surprisingly good sometimes. Even when he has the best hand he worries he'll screw it up somehow, and his downer attitude tends to convince the others he's gonna lose too. erm thats all i think

i just know these two have the potential to end up breaking into a fight over their silly card games. After cold left and the two eventually got tired of their games and went their separate ways opportunist stuck his leg out so cheated could trip over. they push each other down the stairs, maybe.

#i dont know anything about poker #beaks are forever the bane of my existence #opportunist is Always ready to cheat but cold sees no point calling him out on it unless he actually does it #i know they play other games too #cheated has been caught off-guard by broken pulling out a good hand too many times he's started to catch on #i started this months ago #i only just finished it now #i love these birds though #i miss the narrator #i hope to draw these guys more but its so hard im shaking the bars of my cage chewing at them #what do you do when youre an immortal entity?#play card games i guess #cheated and opportunist both have specially decorated decks #ive got more drawings i should make for this fandom but it is a Struggle.#regardless i hope u guys have fun with the silly birds and princesses !!!#slay the princess #stp fan art #voice of the cheated #voice of the opportunist #voice of the cold #these are just headcanons ok believe what u will. have fun. take care <3

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yumemiruuuu · 5 months

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Mo Ran: Idk what to say

Mo Ran: My shizun… He belongs in a museum

Mo Ran: He looks like a painting from the rain a sauce

Mo Ran: Rainesaunce

Mo Ran: Ressasaunce

#My shizun… He’s beautiful. Please draw him.#I cried laughing from reading that whole exchange with the artist 😭😭#he’s so real for that though like i would struggle so hard #apparently someone made a meme where the artist is hua cheng and he just draws xie lian?????????#the character name guide page where for mo ran it says mo as in moron #MO AS IN MORON like…. LMAO HELP I-??????#mo ran is so silly goofy aa #erha incorrect quotes #2ha incorrect quotes #waiting patiently for volume 5 #the DUMB husky and his white cat shizun #the husky and his white cat shizun #二哈和的白貓師尊

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aqqleshiqqing-archive · 8 months

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respostober day 1: alright it's oc x kam.inari let's go

#i was a huge denki fan back at 2017 #i think I would've drawn more art of him if i didnt struggle with his hair so much #its admittedly hard to draw #he's still my favorite character in mha followed by jirou #though im not really interested in mha anymore #repostober tag

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thesilverlock · 11 months

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Girl- your art and your OC Jey Cleary is SO GORGEOUS I CAN'T- I NEED TO KNOW MORE ABOUT HIM

I know your OTP is Joey and Astral, so, I must ask, how would he behave or act around Dark Mist if he met him?? 👀👀👀

Would he hate Mist? Would he tolerate him??

And what is Joey's relationship with Eliphas and his previous obsession in reaching purity by removing all the chaos??

(( AAAAAAAA! THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH! ;A;;;

THESE are also Super fantastic questions, thank you for the opportunity for me to gush about my boy and his antics with other characters 💙🩵✨ i’m so sorry this got SO long agshdj! There are doodles/art for your reading troubles down there too!))

- - ⟢〖 MIST 〗

So Jey’s whole deal is; Despite hailing from Astral World and being obligated to participate in their favor during the war ﹣ he’s actually the Son of Balance. His father, Protos, (the Heart of Astral World, as some called) was the guardian/overseer of the harmony between Chaos and Order. Before shit hit the fan in every conceivable way lmfao On top of that, Jey’s just.. a rogue and a rapscallion ahsgdhjs He never was keen on how black-&-white the war seemed, but relearning about the complete villainization of one half of a necessary energy was the final coffin nail. And that disagreeance is literally in his soul makeup! He was created in equal Chaotic Energy and Pure Energy. That balance is intermittently tied throughout him; He is meant to be the harbinger of Balance. Even Jey himself isn’t fully aware of how ingrained it is due to his own amnesia, but he does know obliterating all Chaos is not the answer, there’s something in his bones defying it. It’s a rather big plot point in his story that he starts to feel divided from the main crew because of this. Not Yuma﹣ Yuma is the only one backing Jey up at all ﹣but Astral. And it’s Astral’s rejection (spawned from the envoy's own rigid ideals and mission) that hurts Jey enough to push him out of the group for a brief period. ✨breakup arc woes✨

. . . And this is how and when Mist finds him. They make an alarming well fit duo. Their personalities mesh, and they do surprisingly? Okay? To avoid overt toxicity in their alliance? Mist doesn’t get preached at to change, or to “join a side of the war”, or be force locked in his card, so he tolerates having Jey around. And obviously Jey can’t be affected by Mist’s number influence, and he's naturally domineering enough to counteract when Mist gets too... himself lmao. Jey has a Robin Hood type of suave and charm whereas Mist acts increasingly seductive and invades people’s space because he wants to intimidate. Jey knows how to beat Mist at his own game, which both intrigues and aggravates the Number. Like two people who know one another via a friend-of-a-friend, and go on this epic journey and end up unconventionally thick as thieves like halfway through the movie. ASDFGH

Mist likes Jey’s assertiveness and darker side - the viability to resort to vicious methods and being such a rebel personality despite supposed loyalty to the world of “pure” ideals. Jey is pulled in by Mist’s unapologetic “take me or leave me” nature and his recognition of the hypocrisy regarding the war from both ends. And ofc the Number's unique brand of effortless beauty and free-bird, unaffiliated presence. Those two tend to, pretty universally, have a quick chemistry and natural connection. [ It’s also thanks to that natural connection that a certain lightbulb gets his first experiences dealing with an ‘unknown’ and green-eyed emotion. 😉 ] Also also, fun fact - if it could not already be told by these answers lol - These two are my second highest OTP, right after Goldenship (Jey x Astral /JeiAsu) ! I call them Pierceshipping. Since they have a lot of piercing qualities (particularly their affinity for bedroom-eyed stares and smirks) And because they each canonically stab someone through the chest.

I’m so sorry I ran out of space for the Eliphas portion of the question, I’ll have to return to that! ♡ ;v;

But TLDR; For a lot of the same reasons already listed here, Jey and him do not get along. Can’t always do much ‘bout it tho cause that’s their technical boss, gotta play civil or else Jey and boifren don’t get as many missions together :(

#(( THANK YOU So much for the ask!! This was so amazing and fun to answer <3 I treasure when I get stuff like this ;v; ))#| my oc ❦ |#| my art ♡ |#| saved ✧ |#| pierceshipping ✶٭༌ |#(( I’m not actually sure why this is;#but for some reason Golden just always ends up being the pair I *DRAW* more #whereas Pierce is the one I *WRITE* for more?#And I rarely RARely ever write stuff to post.. gshdjf #so it ends up with Pierce being like my ~secret~ ship ppl don’t know about lolol ))#(( Rest assured though it’s up there and sittin' easy with that close 2nd place title GSdhjk ))#(( Honestly it probs just comes down to me having a hard time honing Astral’s voice. I struggle with 'orderly/proper' characters ))#(( the day that I get a lock on writing him tho - watch out~ sfgdHfj #my ao3 gonna turn into a minefield of ✨⚜️🌟🏆🏅👑 lmaoshjd))

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britneyshakespeare · 10 months

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I don’t think he ever read any of my poems now that I think about it

#tales from diana #when we first met i told him about my poems and i gave him some free copies of this small local literary magazine they're published in #he pretended to be interested but never actually said he read them. i dont think i asked more than a couple times #but if i recall correctly he told me unprompted a few times he hadnt #perhaps thats why he thought of me as more of an artist than a poet. he had seen me draw but i dont write poems in front of ppl #and it takes one second to look at a drawing (and to not appreciate it) (as he didn't for the most part)#even though i explained often that id only been drawing for like a year and im still very much a beginner and it's a huge struggle for me #it's very very hard for me to draw i don't consider myself good at it. ive made a FEW good works but im not a good artist #im not confident but that's ok ive enjoyed my progress #there were a lot of little things id do for him that he just wouldnt acknowledge much or seem to care about #so much for trying to make an impression on ppl #i think some ppl only want to be around you so they can suck up your company and feel validated #i have to be honest. that is nothing like me at all #im fine being alone. i could never be addicted to ppl as some are.#long story short this guy never cared about me

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welcometogrouchland · 1 year

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whats your favorite toh character to draw!

OUGH that's hard.. probably a toss up between Luz, Lilith, Amity and Willow though?

Luz and Willow are two of my favorite girls and both are great for getting to do soft shapes and fun shorthand.

Lilith's great bc I love the shapes her hair makes (straight and curly) and her big glasses give me fun shorthand to work with.

Amity's mostly fun for her hair (esp s1 and 3) and face (it was all over when I gave her the hooked nose <3)

It's very hard to chose tho </3

#ramblings of a lunatic #asks #i can tell you who i DON'T love drawing though and that's Eda Hunter Raine and Gus #Gus isn't too bad i just have a hard time getting his face shape right (too round and it looks like s1 gus. too sharp and he looks Wrong ™)#RAINE IS SO HARD TO DRAW THEIR FACE IS SUCH DIFFICULT SHAPES FOR ME. I HAVE TO DO STUDIES EVERYTIME I WANNS DRAW THEM #THANK GOD FOR THE S3 MULLET COVERING UP THE VOLUME OF THEIR HEAD THAT SHIT IS SO HARD TO GET RIGHT #Eda's just got a weird face shape for me? like long and pointy. i can never fit all the details of her face into that space. it feels wrong #FUCK HUNTERS HAIR. ALL OF THEM. EACH ONE IS SO HARD. ALSO IT'S SO HARD TO DRAW HIS FACE AT CERTAIN ANGLES #HIS HEAD IS JUST A SQUARE IN CANON THERE IS NO DISTINCT CHEEKS AND IT MAKES HIM LOOK WEIRD IN MY STYLE #ALSO IT'S HARD TO FIT ALL HIS FACE DETAILS ONTO HIS FACE HE'S GOT EYEBAGS AND SCARS AND A BIG NOSE AND I LOVE IT #BUT IT'S SO MUCH PRECIOUS SPACE I'M STRUGGLING TO WORK WITH #GOD #anyway. rant over im silly again lol <3

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oldbookist · 2 years

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I was working on a history paper today and found a book from 1826 that seemed promising (though dull) for my topic, on an English Catholic family’s experience moving to France.

And it ended up not really being suitable for my purposes, as it goes. But part of the book is actually devoted to Kenelm, the author’s oldest son…and man, his dad loved him.

Kenelm seems to have had a fairly typical upbringing for a young English gentleman, although he is a bit slow to read. At twelve he’s sent to board at Stoneyhurst College—often the big step towards independence in a boy’s life, as he’ll most likely only see his parents sporadically from now on, and then leave for university.

When he’s sixteen, however, his father moves the whole family to France, so Kenelm gets pulled out of school to be with them again. Shortly after the move, his dad notices that he seems depressed. Kenelm confides in him that he’s been suffering from “scruples” for the last eighteen months—most likely what we’d now call an anxiety disorder.

And his dad is pissed—at the school, because apparently Kenelm had been seeking help there and received none, despite obviously struggling with mental health issues. So his dad takes it seriously. He sets him up to be counseled by a priest—there were no therapists back then—and doesn’t send him away to be boarded again, instead teaching him at home himself.

And his mental health does improve. His dad describes him as well-liked, gentle, pious, kind and eager to please others; at twenty he’s thinking about a career in diplomacy or going into the military—which his dad thinks he is not particularly suited for, considering his favorite pastimes are drawing and reading. He’s excited about his family’s upcoming move to Italy, and he’s been busy learning Italian and teaching it to his siblings.

Henry Kenelm Beste dies of typhus at twenty years, four months, and twenty-five days. That’s how his dad records it. That’s why his dad is telling this story. It’s not an extraordinary story—Kenelm’s story struck me because he sounds so…ordinary, like so many kids today. And he was so, so loved. His dad tried hard to help him compassionately with his mental health at a time where our current knowledge and support systems didn’t exist. You can feel how badly he wanted his son to be remembered and loved, to impress how dearly beloved he was to the people who knew him in life.

I hope he’d be glad to know someone is still thinking of Kenelm over 200 years later.

Anyway, that’s why I’m crying today.

#history

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factual-fantasy · 1 month

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Grimace has a lot of internal struggles that he deals with.. primarily his sense of worth and belonging..

This comes from the fact that he loves his friends very dearly, and he wants only the very best for them.. Which in turn makes him analyze himself and whether or not he's good enough for them.. if he's worthy to be a part of this great team.

He tries his best to make them laugh. To be strong and protect them. To give them all a shoulder to cry on when they are sad.. he just wants to fill their lives with joy. Just as they have done for him.

Though sometimes he falls short. Someone needed advice and he didn't know what to say.. or he wasn't strong enough and someone got hurt. When this happens Grimace takes it very hard..

Of course Grimace never tells the others about any of this. The last thing he wants to do is burden his wonderful friends with all his problems.. Instead when he gets overwhelmed by these feelings, Grimace will hide away in the shadows. That way not even Gloria can sense his distress as he tries to cool off on his own.

In this particular drawing, I imagined that Grimace left while everyone was sleeping to work through his feelings. But this time he was so distressed that Gloria could sense him through the shadows.

She woke up Sylvester and sent him after Grimace. He wouldn't usually show himself during times like these.. but Sylvester was worried about him so.. he came out.

Sylvester tried to comfort him with his ribbons auras, and it helped calm his nerves some.. V kept asking what was wrong but Grimace refused to tell him. "I'm just stressed.." "About what?" "..nothing.."

He would eventually simmer down and they'd return to the group. But Grim would never tell anyone what was wrong. Even days later. He just keeps all these feelings to himself, not wanting to burden his friends.. 💔

#pokemon scarlet and violet #gengar #sylveon #my ocs #long winded ramble/mini fic at the end there-#but it was fun! XD

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hor3nee · 2 months

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• Fatherhood •

What kind of dads are the JJK men ?

CW/TW: GN! Reader, Mentions of crappy parenting, BREIF mention of pregnancy in Geto's, (Lmk if I should add anything else!)

Characters: Gojo, Geto, Nanami, Sukuna, Toji x Reader

AN: Almost cried writing this the baby fever is going HARD rn dude. Headcanons !

• Gojo •

Menace of a father, but in the good way! Gojo spends his years raising his kids as if he's their best friend, truly and genuinely treats his kids as equals and in a sweet way, allows his children to have complete trust in him. Because Gojo is quite childish himself, he loves playing with his kids, making a fool of himself, and indulging with them.

Has a bit of a bad side to this though, his lack of traditional discipline or making himself the 'adult' in the situation leads the kids to both be very spoiled and not really ever listen to him.

"Sweetheart, darling, my perfect angel, can you please go to bed?? pretty please! Help your old man here, please??"

"Nuh uh!" And with that bout of defiance, he's back to running up to you, like HE'S the child, begging for your help. Because it seems you're the only one who can get the kids in line, and you do.

Plays pranks and teases the hell out of his kids as they get older, always in a loving way of course, but nonetheless loves getting them flustered over his stupidity. Type of dad to do dumbass dances in the middle of a Walmart to embarrass his kids.

• Geto •

Geto is optimum of what it means to be a gentle parent. Cannot, for the life of him, bring it in himself to yell at his kids. He's so soft-spoken, never so much as raising his voice against his children. Geto has children who respond to his voice alone, because it's so lulling, he's familiarized them with it and made them feel safe with it.

Doesn't mean he can't discipline them, of course he can, and he does so extremely gracefully. Whenever you're on your last straw with the kids, fighting the urge to start scolding them and yell, he steps in, smoothly taking over and the kids instantly listen to him.

"We're your parents, honey, c'mon that's not very nice to say, is it? They carried you for 9 months you know. Say sorry." Like magic the kids shut up and come over to you apologizing while Geto stands back, calmly having fixed the situation with ease.

With everything Geto does, has done, experienced etc, he can sometimes feel conflicted. Geto knows what he is capable of, and what he has done, he's extremely self-aware even if he justifies it, and he can struggle to balance the weight of all of it while also remaining a dutiful father.

Despite it, he does wonders keeping it separate from what his children have to see or experience, teaches them respect and kindness and hopes they hold true to it.

• Nanami •

Not a single man on this list fathers as hard as Nanami fathers. He's built for it like no other. Nanami treats fatherhood with his all, he puts his all into it and makes damn certain he does right by it. Stern when necessary, sweet when needed, provides for his kids and refuses to miss any important milestone of theirs.

Nanami is a calm man but the second work starts piling potentially making him miss his kids school play or something he's arguing with his supervisors and ready to throw hands.

He keeps the drawings his kids make on his desk, alongside a photo of you and your kids. Literally just stares at it while working smiling, unable to wait till he's home with the kids. They are his pride and joy genuinely.

No matter how over-worked Nanami may be though, when he comes home you are basically on vacation. Insists you rest and he takes over literally everything involving the kids.

"Darling, darling no, I got this covered. You take rest. You know I love spending time with my kids." He says with an earnest smile, both kids in his beefy arms just dangling around and playing with their father. He's definitely exhausted from work, but that never stops him.

• Sukuna •

The King of the Curses, as cruel and terrifying as he is, taking pleasure in all sorts of sickness and treating love as pointless, legitimately likes his kid.

He doesn't care about fatherhood, or the responsibilities that being a parent entails, but it's nice having a mini version of himself around. That he likes. An extension of himself and you, it's nice to have around he doesn't mind it. He may act aloof about it, not outwardly showing affection like hugs or kisses, but he clearly enjoys it.

He gets a massive ego trip when his kids cause chaos and disturbances. Points at them laughing with his belly "See that? That's mine."

Sukuna never minces his words though, and his kids have to get used to his bluntness. Again, he doesn't care for the concept of 'parenting', and will in their face call the kid some extreme insults and weak and they have to learn to take it.

On the flip side, Sukuna also never minces his praise, and Sukuna has an abundance to give his kids. Every accomplishment or show of strength that they show he'll let them know he's proud. A good ol' fashioned fatherly slap to their shoulder while he praises them.

He treasures his children, and even if he doesn't put much effort into parenting them, you taking over most of it, he's definitely a present figure in their lives.

• Toji •

Went to get milk, hasn't been seen since.

#sukuna x reader #gojo x reader #geto x reader #nanami x reader #satoru gojo x reader #geto suguru x reader #suguru geto x reader #nanami kento x reader #kento nanami x reader #ryomen sukuna x reader #gojo saturo x reader #jjk x reader #jujutsu kaisen x reader #sukuna x you #gojo x you #geto x you #dad!sukuna

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princessbrunette · 15 days

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when did you know you loved me? pt.4/4 ♡

it was rare bunny!reader and rafe got a day off like this. one where the kook princess’s boyfriend wasn’t running off on business, dragging her along or leaving her to run her own personal errands — like getting her nails done or shopping. today, the two of them relaxed on rafe’s boat in the hazy june sunshine. bunny stares off over the water, pondering..

you’re snapped from your thoughts when rafe arrives at your side, giving your ass a little swat and grab the way he always did as you looked over the ledge across the water.

“you good, kid?” he enquires casually as his hand slides up your back to grasp your shoulder, hooking his sunglasses back into his shirt.

“mhm, just thinking.” you muse, leaning into his side a little. you always went a bit brainless around rafe — it was second nature. he did the thinking, it was his job as a provider — well, that’s what he’d tell you anyway, and he’d drilled it into your head enough times for you to remember it.

“m’yeah? thinking about what?” he converses. he’d always get worried when you looked a little too pensive. rafe was an overthinker like that, the nagging voice in the back of his head telling him not to let you think too hard, because you’d uncover all his flaws and leave him. though you knew that could never be the case, rafe had some unpacked abandonment issues that often sat at the surface.

“us.” you hum simply, and his hand slides off your shoulder.

“well what — what are… why?” he struggles his word his concern, a frown forming between his brows.

“jus’ that i love you a lot, and i was thinking about how much i love you.” you shrug, not taking in the edge in his concerned tone. he relaxes a little, nodding though you weren’t looking his way as he draws in a long breath.

“right, yeah… yeah.” he plays it cool, scratching at his cheek before stepping away in the direction of the mini bar, deciding he needed a drink to take the edge off. “well, daddy loves you too, yeah?”

the casual assurance in his tone makes you bite your lip, gaze snapping over to him as he wanders away — and you speak once more, only wanting to prolong the time spent by his side.

“when did you know that you loved me rafey?” it’s a demure request, spoken hopefully through pouty lips and batting lash extensions. he spins around, blinking at you a few times before shrugging his shoulder.

“look, uh — i don’t know. i just did, alright?” he turns his mouth down like he hadn’t given it any thought and your face falls. you forget rafe wasn’t like you. he was a man of logic. fact over feelings (thats what he’d tell people, anyway.) he didn’t have time to ponder such things.

“oh.” you whisper, nodding your head. it wasn’t a big deal. you just wished he would gush over you the way you did him sometimes. he licks his lips, hesitance in his body language when he turns away once more this time, wishing he never saw that disappointment on your face at the way he brushed you off. he was still trying to get used to the whole being open with your feelings thing. his father hadn’t exactly lead by great example.

he cracks open a beer, and five minutes later he’s lounging on the white couch out on the deck, an arm strewn along the back of the seat and the other holding the bottle, reaching out towards you to gesture you over to him.

“come sit with me, dunno why you’re so far away.” he welcomes you, and you quietly pad over in your pink bikini, never once shying away from the unabashed way he watches your body move towards him. “mm. looking good.” he comments quietly before you’re climbing onto the couch and snuggling up to his side. there was no ‘thanks daddy’ or glossy kisses being pressed into him like usual, you were pensive, distant, thoughtful. he knew he’d brushed you off and you were trying so hard to seem like it hadn’t phased you, bless your little bunny heart. after a sigh, the kook begins to speak.

“it was after the whole thing with me getting arrested. you know the… the thing with the sheriff.” he relays, staring ahead over at the water even when you turned your head to gaze at him, blinking slowly in relaxed confusion as to what he was talking about.

“i…i wanted people to respect me, you know? like- like i had proven that i was willing to do anything to protect the people i care about. anything. enough to get me sent to fuckin’ jail, right?” he rambles, before shaking his head with his tongue in his cheek, thinking. you stay quiet, curious as to where this was going. you wanted to give him space to open up.

“but like…ahh, i don’t know. when i got out, people…people didn’t wanna hang with me anymore. i used to be that guy, right like — like everyone wanted to talk to the rafe cameron but after i got bailed out i… people were scared of me. thought i was some… violent, unhinged creature like… like i was some killer.” he squints, shaking his head in disagreement.

a few moments pass as he gathers his thoughts, before he speaks once more, this time glancing at you.

“so a little while after that i was down at the club, you know just… just tryna socialise again, blow off some steam. shit, i even told everyone that beers were on me, you know? free for everyone at the club. went back to go get my golf club, came back n’everyone had left. clearly they still saw me as some kinda monster.”

whilst you was unclear on why he was telling the story, you remembered clearly this time how hard it was for rafe to drag himself back up. he wouldn’t talk about how hard things were, and sure — eventually things had blown over and he was the life of every party once more, but you remembered the shift in atmosphere clearly. it was strange.

“uh…” he clears his throat. “so yeah i uh, i come back and you’re there, right? you’re just sat there by your self at the table… and shit you… you just looked so happy to see me,” he chuckles, shaking his head fondly at the memory. “like, i had left for two damn minutes and you were still happy to see me. you didn’t even — even care that everyone else had left… and that’s real ride or die shit, okay like — someone… someone who’s not gonna just up and leave you when shit gets tough like sarah did with my dad. nah, nah you stuck around. s’when i knew i wanted to put a fuckin’ rock on that little finger.” he takes your hand suddenly, holding it between the two of you like he’s envisioning the ring on your second to last finger, taking a moment to indulge in the fantasy.

you’re grinning ear to ear, understanding the significance of the story now as you flutter your eyelashes.

“rafey…” you coo softly and he shrugs, his wall fighting to come back up.

“yeah, well. you wanted your story, there’s your story.” he brushes it off casually, but even his lips curl up a little into a fulfilled smirk, catching your gaze with an unspoken awe.

“guess what, i loved you the second i saw you so i win.” you giggle and he rolls his eyes, pulling you into his chest.

“yeah? shit i didn’t know it was a competition.” he banters lightheartedly over your giggles, his cold heart thawing at the sound.

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