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不好惹 - Don’t Mess With Him
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Someone asked me to think on my sins, but I
reflected many times daily [1]
and found that the fault lies not with me.
Someone said that I’m a big monster [2], but I’m
just an annoyance who likes to hem for two seconds before speech [3].
A friend has come from places distant [4],
we must torment their spirit
and labor their limbs, yeah ~
starve their body,
impoverish their person,
cause disorder in their actions [5]
and whip them, maybe ten times.
Then finally, banish them to some other court [6].
Passerby A: Boss,
what are these hard-boiled eggs selling for?
Lü Shu: Boiled eggs eh, one-fifty each,
three dollars for two,
ten dollars for six
with a dollar change.
Passerby A: Then please give me three.
Lü Shu: This is a small business which doesn’t take credit ~
Excuse me, I shall leave now. Listening to you monologue
has wasted ten precious minutes of mine.
Of people with shared mutual dislike, there are many.
This decision to keep a distance is not bad at all.
If you ask me how far is enough,
I would say,
ideally, a separation by life and death.
This lifetime of mine, I’ve never asked anything of anyone,
besides the psychological SHADOW of everyone seated here.
I am naturally best at
filling people with impotent infuriation.
Oh, and cutting ties.
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OMG I saw the OP for this donghua 大王饶命 in December and was utterly obsessed. It’s SO GORGEOUS. Very very imaginative! I still watch it at least twice a week. Forgot I’d translated it for a friend bc I put it in our chat and never went back xD. We were supposed to be going out in two hours (to have tofu and then teaaaaaaaa), but I shared the vid and she said she watched it on loop for a while one year ago, but doesn’t know what the lyrics say.
So like obviously, I was a liiiiittle late to the outing. LOL.
Sharing it here now!
I don’t want to ruin the gorgeousness of the video with fonts so, here it is in English just so you know what it’s about (I think there must be quite a number out there!) ~ IT’S SO IRREVERENT AND FUNNY.
There’s a lot of it that must be references to the novel or donghua, and this amazing MV made its donghua a place on my to-watch.
Don't take any of the quotes too seriously 🤣 this POV is trolling all the way.
[1] 日三省吾身
From Analects, Chapter: Learning (学而) - https://ctext.org/dictionary.pl?if=en&id=1105&remap=gb#s10019801
[2] 大魔王
Big fiend / demon king. This is what you call a big troublemaker and plague on your soul xD
[3] 不过爱沉吟两秒的气人精
Pretty sure this is a reference to the character of the speaker who may also be the main character? The irritation caused by a deliberate indecisiveness perhaps? xD
[4] 有朋自远方来
Also Analects, Chapter: Learning (学而) - https://ctext.org/dictionary.pl?if=en&id=1102&remap=gb#s10019792
The absurdity of having a friend over to visit and instead of being a good host, you uh ↓ do that (’Heaven’) and shoo him away with a whip like a toad disturbing your fun.
[5] 必先苦他的心志 劳他的筋骨 yeah 再饿他的体肤 空乏其身 行拂乱其所为
From Mengzi's essay, 生于忧患，死于安乐 - https://ctext.org/dictionary.pl?if=en&id=1789&remap=gb
[6] 然后鞭数十吧 最后再驱之别的院
From Shen Fu's essay, Interesting Things in Childhood (童趣), about what he did to a toad which interrupted him watching insects fighting
https://m.gushiwen.cn/shiwenv_e6ea5cd95b75.aspx
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有人让我反省自己 可我
日三省吾身
发现错不在我
有人说我大魔王可我
不过爱沉吟两秒的气人精
有朋自远方来
必先苦他的心志
劳他的筋骨 yeah
再饿他的体肤
空乏其身
行拂乱其所为
然后鞭数十吧
最后再驱之别的院
路人甲：老板
这个煮鸡蛋怎么卖
吕树：煮鸡蛋一块五一个
三块钱两个
十块钱六个
找你一块钱
路人甲：那麻烦您给我拿三个
吕树：小本经营概不赊欠
在下先失陪 听君一席话
浪费了我宝贵的十分钟
彼此讨厌欠扁的人很多
保持距离这个决定还不错
如果你问我多远才足够
那么我会回答
最好是阴阳相隔
我这一辈子谁也没求过
除了在座各位的心理SHADOW
我本最擅长的就是
气人不偿命
哦 还有斩断人际关系
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I think the world is so wonderful... (Patreon)
#My art#Handplates#UT#Papyrus#I have not been able to get this idea out of my head for like - days now lol#It's only solidified the more I read! Heck!!#I dunno if I was necessarily hoping that reading further would point me in another direction but no now this is one of his songs lol#I really like Rugrats Theory actually :) The song of course it's lovely but I even have some nostalgia for the creepypasta haha#Been a while since I read it tho so that's probably just the soft haze of memory talking lol#But the song is still great! I'm partial to the English cover but I like the original as well :)#There are just so many fun lyrics! Especially for Papyrus specifically#''Everything I've been told I believe and yet people that I love just leave'' Gasterrr#''I think I'm old enough to understand so there's no reason to hide from me'' Sanssssssss#Once I returned to the scene of Sans trying to lie to him I just fjdslahfd these lyrics would Not leave me alone lol#I'm also Extremely partial to the second verse surrounding blindness and willful ignorance - his vision problems literal and metaphorical!#I wasn't planning to start a Handplates playlist but I guess by this point it's kinda too late haha#I also tried a different style of shading for this one ♪ Trying to style match a bit hehe#It's fun! Scratchy - tho some of that is from still using my usual brushes lol#I was Very inspired by watching the comic creation playlist - so cool! Very fun to watch and pick up ideas hehe#I knew I forgot something lol dang it - forgot the dash between WDG-2#S'what I get for using pre-plates references :P#For just a quick little thing I'm fairly pleased overall tho :)
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It's interesting to me how even though Thrúd has the aesthetic & air of the rebellious cool-girl archetype, she's far more sheltered than either Atreus or Angrboda, despite both of them being dorkier & visually softer. It's obvious in the way she talks about asking for her mother's permission to be a valkyrie, meanwhile Atreus has long stopped bothering to ask for his father's permission to do anything since before the beginning of the game, & Angrboda has no one's permission to even seek out since both of her parents are absent & her grandmother is estranged.
#something something asgard representing a carefully curated aesthetic of freedom while actually being extremely constricting#while the giants knew true freedom#I'm glad there's no upfront obnoxious love triangle even though imo you're obviously meant to compare & contrast#the potential of his relationship with thúd vs angrboda as proxies for asgard vs the giants#as more work was obviously put into angrboda as a character & into her section of the game I think it's safe to say she & the giants are#more significant to atreus. but still#anyways I love subtextual love triangles soooo much more than textual ones#that doesn't mean I'm not gonna go look for some stupid tropey love triangle fan fic once I'm done watching playthroughs tho lol#gow#gowr#gowr spoilers#god of war#god of war ragnarok#thrúd#thrud#atreus#angrboda#atreus x thrúd#atreus x thrud#atreus x angrboda
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More misc. daily life pictures and such
#image commentary in tags once again since they don't allow captions anymore and I feel weird using the alt text for that --#1 & 2 - Very bright pretty looking sky !#2. HUGE icicle that looked like you could kill someone with it or something.. Pulled from near a gutter on the side of a building#3. & 4 & 5 - various images from a silly party I had where I pretended to be some elf king turning like 204 years old lol (also not like#a REAL party. Only my roommates were there really and we're all in the same household bubble.#just to clarify. I would never dare have a large party anyway given#my hermitous nature but on top of that.. didn't want there to be some implication that I'm having a Party while covid is still ongoing lol.#NEVER.. But I do love dressing up as some fantasy character so much.. The only thing that could ever bring a true hermit wizard#to engage with others socially is the prospect of connecting it somehow to fantasy worlds and costumes lol. One must simply dress up#as a silly 200 year old man from time to time and pretend you've never seen a balloon before in your life. etc.#6. bapy boye... feets#7. The main food that I made for the elderly elf man 'party'. which was a Deconstructed Beef Wellington (kind of as ajoke since I watch s#o many silly cooking competition shows and they always make stuff 'deconstructed' at the last minute when under time limits or whatever.)#I've wanted to make beef wellington a few times but Ithink to do it well I'd need like..an actual kitchen and a lot of time and#an oven that fully works to bake things and etc. etc. So I thought this would be an easier method. A thick steak cut round to kind of mimi#c the round tenderloin or whatever it is in a wellington. instead of the puff pastry being wrapped around - I just did star shaped cut outs#of pastry and baked them and put them on top (to go with the star theme). instead of mushroom duxelles being wrapped around in pastry#its in a little circle under the steak. and instead of mustard being brushed onto the meat I made a mustard gravy sauce type of thing#Then of course asparagus on the side.. my favorite... Though I know some wellington#also has a layer of prosciutto I think. or I saw one person use crepes. I didn't feel it was necessary to incorporate that too lol#8. bapy son helping me do a giant puzzle that took me hours and I had no idea it was actually that large of a puzzle#until I started putting it together and for some reason it made me stressed by the end instead of relaxed lol.. puzzle fatigue#photo diary
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sooooo much to say about tomshiv fight oh my god. holy fuck
#succession#succession spoilers#my mind is 48 essays mixed together all at once#little heavy handed at parts but still i just love shiv this season they like wrote her to specifically appeal to the kind of portrayal i s#desperately want to see#like… the scorpion…. the incapable of love….#yes it’s on the nose but something’s gotta be. v necessary meta commentary imo#i could honest to god write a dissertation on this i mean it. vocalizing the Strong Female Character boundaries and disproving them all at#once. like that’s exactly what everyone online says ab shiv — she’s a scorpion she’s incapable of love she’s unfeeling#that’s what her character needs to be in order to be respected both in show and out#it’s the fact that tom said that to her while she was crying because he called her unlovable…. he didn’t know her and never could.#like the contradiction is right there in her reaction#she’s as much of a person as anyone else but people can’t view her as one bc then she stops being Strong and turns her into just a woman#not phrasing this well i’m like half watching half typing rn#but#much to say#fem theory shiv readings my beloved#casey shut the fuck up about shiv roy#(in the tags this time lol)
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LADIES AND GENTLEMEN..... WE GOTTEM!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thank you so SO much to everyone who commissioned (read: enabled) me!!
Now that I've reached my goal of +10ing my boy, and since my time is (unfortunately) still quite limited due to work, I'm going to be closing comms tomorrow! So, if you have an idea and haven't decided if you want to commit or not yet, now's your last chance for the time being! ;) And to all those who have already paid, I know I do still have quite a few to get through- I was a FOOL to think I could just bang these out in 24 hours, lol, but please rest assured they will be coming within the next few days!! I'll get through them slowly but surely. Admittedly I did take a break to draw this guy because I was so pleased to get him, but I'll get right back on the horse tomorrow lol.
Thank you so much again everyone!! ^O^
Ferdinand went to a tea party and came back Different
#if you're wondering why I drew him with gullveig's serpents its bc i immediately fed my free gullveig to him xD flare sparrow + oath 4 yum#and then gave him her accessory for forging bonds so i can use him to grind bonus affection & sp lmaooooo#and while i wish they'd given us gullveig/seidr's floatie rocks as an accessory i love the broken halo-y look of the one they did. its neat#anyway i just love the idea that when you inherit a skill to a hero they gain a little bit of the sacrificed units traits. :)#Oops! Gained a little more than you bargained for there! Everything good comes at a cost- but the Order doesn't tell you until its too late#It's absolutely eating at him btw. he is now Experiencing Visions. a human's mind is not meant to interpret gullveig's cyclical nature#and i think its difficult for him to tell the present/what once was apart from what has yet to be/never was.#like watching two movies at once on the same screen! :) + hc that he gets the little floatie crystals when he's having strong visions#also lmao ferdie now sets EVERYTHING on fire. flame emperor who?#you can tell he's been somewhere bc he leaves singed footprints behind if he's not careful :)#GOD ANYWAY IM SORRY LOL too much random info. i'm done i promise. thank you so so much again if you supported me!!! <3#i hope you have a fantastic rest of your day/evening!!! & keep an eye out if you're still waiting on art :)
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Okay I lied here are some more thoughts on the mlb movie including some actual criticism.
I was just listening to the soundtrack a little and I feel like? A lot of ~character~ is injected into the songs. I mean, it's a musical, it's how they work, characters burst into song when they cant hold back how they're feeling / what they're thinking anymore. But I feel like people who are calling the movie soulless must have just tuned the songs out when they came up, because without them yea, it kinda feels like its just going through the motions. But... It's a movie, so they cant have five million scenes of Mari being awkward, especially since they need her to outgrow it bc ~character development~ so these bits go into her intro song + her first outing as Ladybug. It's obviously stated in Chat's number that he was high off the freedom of being Chat Noir, which explains his cockier attitude towards Ladybug (which is? Not too unlike their dynamic in Origins pt 1 tbh, anyway).
(A detail I love is how in "You Are Ladybug", Marinette's whole point is that when things get rough she "makes excuses", which is a level of self awareness that I don't recall her having to that degree in the early show. At least in season 1, she'd always ALMOST do the things she wanted to, only to stop and second guess herself. I love the interpretation that it isnt just shyness or being frazzled and nervous in front of her crush, like the fandom interpreted, it's her ACTIVELY being aware that she's self sabotaging bc she's afraid of taking chances. It's such a fun little spin on her actions in the show. )
Like. It's all there??? It's in the movie???
Anyway.
Wanna see an ACTUAL criticism? What some songs imply just isn't represented as well visually, which makes the movie more confusing. Most notably Marinette's Sad Song after Adrien turns her down. If you actually listen to what she's saying, it feels like they skipped a few scenes, lol.
Like, listen to it, it's like she's saying she - as Marinette - isn't enough, just being the silly shy girl that she is. This is right after Chat confesses to be falling for Ladybug, but Adrien turns Marinette down. The song is implying that Mari went from not thinking she could be Ladybug to gaining confidence in herself (she's kicking butt as Ladybug, she's overcoming her shyness/awkwardness and making friends, she even managed to ask Adrien out, so its not like the old fic trope in which Mari always had a low self esteem and always considered LB to be perfect, she's getting better as a whole), to only now second guessing it all. Is only Ladybug, her more heroic, responsible side, the one people (boys, "both" of them) like? Is being "just" her softer, klutzier, dreamer self not enough?
It ofc leads into the final fight against Hawkmoth, and how Marinette is so down about it that she now thinks she NEEDS Ladybug to win. She still tries to save Adrien on her own with a last nudge from Tikki, and tho it isn't enough to keep Hawkmoth from getting to him, it's enough for herself. Like, she very clearly Has An Arc in the movie.
The thing is, it can get a little fuzzy because we don't really see this contrast between Ladybug's self assuredness and the parts of herself that Marinette prefers to identify with as a civilian, not if you haven't watched the show. The montage just skips throughout their "pound it!"s without lingering on her resourcefulness, her confidence, and how different Ladybug feels from Marinette. Like, it's there, but only superficially, and its hard to notice it unless you have the backstory from the show to back you up.
It's the same issue with Adrien's feelings towards Marinette, we know from the montage that Mari is special to him, we only ever see him open himself up about Emilie to her (when Nino is Right There and actively letting him know he can talk to him if Adrien wants to), and the end credits song (that seems to match the reveal in both melody and lyrics) basically states what we do know - that Mari is aware that Adrien is Chat Noir and was waiting for the right moment to tell him - and what we DON'T, which is that Adrien always felt a degree of familiarity and a special bond with Mari, possibly bc subconsciously he always knew (which actually calls back surprisingly well to the cut Wall Between Us number and how that poor catboy was SO confused). So he was and wasn't surprised at the same time bc OF COURSE it was her, of course the girls who held his heart on both sides of the mask were one and the same. Ergo the smiling through the tears.
But we don't SEE that, unless you take what the music numbers are saying AND you have watched the first season of the show (I am once again reminding folks that the movie was conceptualized during the season 1 hiatus). You don't SEE Adrien go from a slightly weirded out stranger to someone fondly amused at Mari's antics to blushing and shuffling awkwardly when their fingers touch when playing videogames. You don't see how LB takes control and appears to be a natural leader, heck, the movie does a better job with Ladynoir but it STILL doesn't match how it feels to watch it knowing things like Chat straight up being willing to die for Ladybug in Timebreaker or knowing they kiss once in Dark Cupid or how Chat keeps himself from peeking at who LB is in Lady Wifi. You don't have the Adrienette side of the square to explain some of those lyrics away and the Ladynoir Song(tm) or even the sparring scene, with all the implicit trust they gives us, don't hit as hard as they do with the proper context.
Some of it (Ladynoir) can be excused by it being a movie and having a much more limited runtime to tell a story, but others (Adrienette) just NEEDED a little bit more. Even if it was just one more scene showing how their civilian relationship has ALSO evolved.
That said, it makes me wonder, it's been ages but I loosely remember being told that the movie was supposed to show the origins of Ladybug and Chat Noir back in the day. I wonder if the things we see changed between series and movie (the power ups for instance, details like Nino always having a crush on Alya) weren't originally, and the movie was originally going to be released as both the beginning and the end of season 1, showing how LB and Chat met, revealing Gabriel as Hawkmoth, and concluding the love square shenanigans and giving us a reveal before setting up a season 2 in that post The End scene.
Mostly bc I've been watching season 1 again and if you take Origins out and ignore the smaller incongruencies as just edits reworked into the base story later in order separate the movieverse from the showverse as a way for Zag and Astruc to find a compromise... I'm using an old friend's personalized episode timeline instead of just the release/production order and you can SEE the development there. It's subtle but it exists, and it works surprisingly well.
If you look at it this way, the movie wouldn't need to show things like Adrien's modeling career and Gabriel's micromanaging (which in season 1 STILL works with movie Gabriel, especially knowing he gets obsessed to the point of neglecting his personal hygiene. He's distant and cold but not aggressive), so the show could explore that. The show could set up Adrienette and Ladynoir (and the other subtler sides of the square)'s base dynamics so the movie could do its thing by flipping the love square (had it had more time to properly show the Adrienette side. as I said above, its an actual issue with the movie) and resolving the tension. Even the earphones symbolism would hit harder knowing Adrien went through a whole season without them, only to falter and fall back into using them after LB rejects him.
Idk, I'm too fond of Origins to ever delete it from my heart, but I think its a fascinating concept to think about.
#miraculous ladybug#miraculous awakening#miraculous movie#mlb movie spoilers#awakening spoilers#mlb#I am Trying with the tags people#I THINK this is all I wanted to say unless I end up gushing a bit about specific scenes bc I can treat myself to just fawning over things#y'know once in a while without a text wall lol#Origins is STILL my beloved but it's been a REALLY interesting experience to watch season 1 ignoring it#like it fits suprisingly well#all those little changes aside ofc#especially bc you cant really have Mari learning the status quoyo spell only at the end of the season lol#tho I do like the symbolism of her wanting to create things and literally being able to do it at the end#long post#inke speaks#my 2016 self needs to express her Opinions and she will not be held back#its been fun tho.#as i said in my other post about it#its closure.#its nice#I do still really like the movie tho#it gives season 1 the character depth it was missing#or rather that it had but it was wayyy too subtle#it brings it to the forefront of the story#I really like it!#I am once again upset that the show isnt set in this universe#there ARE some things I like about what we actually got... well in seasons 2#and 3 which was what I watched#buuuut I legit really like the idea and implications of this universe
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Hello, my belovedest petals 🌸
It’s been,,, 365 days since I started posting on here 🎀 (the first post made on this blog, for reference!), and I just wanted to thank all of you for being here, from the bottom of my heart ♡
To celebrate, I’ve changed my blog theme entirely (both on mobile n desktop) >.<! I wanted to do something ~unusual~ that is not out of my reach and capabilities, so I thought maybe this would be a good idea... I mean, everyone likes to look at pretty things, right? So I hope you guys can look at all the pretty gfx I made and feel happy in some way 🦋✨🌆! It took me whole 4 days and probably 40+ hours of brainstorming and working on everything, so I really hope my hardwork paid off! 💖💜
Tumblr has never been an easy place for me to be on as I struggle with interactions, building connections, and as a result get lonely very easily. More than often, I’ve felt like an outsider on my own blog, because of how unwelcomed I had felt in a space that is created by me. But, I’m trying to work on those things slowly, especially on how to be rational with my own feelings, and not listening to my brain whenever it’s being unnecessarily mean. About interactions though, it’ll probably take me a long time to actually show improvements, but I promise I’m trying my best always ^^! I appreciate everyone who has ever made an effort to interact with me, I see you and I appreciate you lots, even if it doesn’t feel that way 🫂
That got a bit heavy, no? Don’t mind it, please :( those who have seen me for long enough probably know that I’m kind of like this, but still ╥ ╥
Lastly, I wanted to say thank you so much, once again! I hope my presence here can be a positive one for me and you all as long as I’m here; let’s be happy in this silly little corner of the internet ♡
much love,
aleyna 💌
#✦🎖️✦ milestones!#happy 1st anniversary to euphor1a 🌸💕✨#it’s been a less bumpy ride than my previous blogs#still pretty bumpy but hey i’ll take this over my previous experiences without any complaints#so happy to be here and to be able to see this day with so many people who chose to stick around for one reason or another 🤎#aaaaand a very special shout-out to those who have been with me since cupidchois & lushtans ♥︎#me thinks it’s crazy that some people are still here even after watching me have like a million breakdowns over a variety of things#sorry to anyone who’s new here you actually signed up for a low-key insane person writing stuff once in a while#but always losing her mind over someone or something aksgsjks#🎉 – tumbversary!#i wanted to post this like 12 hours ago but i wasn’t done with all the work yet#i hope everything looks okay.... tbh i’m pretty disappointed bc it doesn’t look the way i thought it would :(#but too bad ig. i won’t be changing my theme until next year again. lol
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I need to look into how difficult hybriding sooms are with their weird neck parts because I saw a couple old heads for sale that I think could work for Faolan (if I dyed them a light tan, which honestly I like dying things. The closest I get to being a mad scientist after soap making xD). I hadn't really looked into soom too much because most of the ones I've seen second hand are full dolls and the bodies don't really work for him/ the scale I want for Vanora (also I'm cheap and don't want to pay that much for a second hand doll lol). But the head sculpts I think have a similar sort of aesthetic to dream valley compared to some of the other companies I've been looking at.
That would mean possibly breaking my "wait until her head gets here in case you decide it won't work" self imposed buying ban, buuut...I already paid her head off. I might as well try my best to make it work. Which I guess means I'm just going to end up with a collection of 1/3 scale dolls, whoops
#quill's bjd adventures#i could wait and just watch the listings. one of them has been up for a while at least#but her head probably won't be here until may or june :/ so like...i could get his now. or wait and hope its still there#and if not try to figure something else out :/#i am impatient i want to work on them now! i dont need to do mods on them and they have simpler clothes than moshang!#but nooo i am doomed to wait because of pesky things like production times for pre-orders lol#im going to try to figure out some kind of face up mock up for vanora in csp at least#maybe that will help#once i figure out blending mods and what brushes to use
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I've only thought about my gladiatrix au and revenge western au in terms of hws brainrot in the past few months so i can safely say I've been quite distant from the Hetalia fandom for much longer than what I'm used to (although i did sell my soul to that cursed fandom so I'll probably never stop thinking about it totally)
Anyways I've reached 400 hours on BG3 now...
#lmao i knew it was over once i started making bg3 AUs#i've been drawing bg3 shit for a while too so i'm pretty deep in now#watch me come back to hws brain rot in like a couple months as i come back with a sheepish look on my face#literally every waking moment has been thinking about bg3 - the hyperbole is way milder than you'd think--#i am still drawing like hetalia aus but only those two and like not that much ngl lol#the world is healing#hetalia#big brain michi
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the curse of having big drawing ideas and not yet being at the level required to bring them to life orz
#so many loz related thing i wanna draw...#i need to start soon while my passion for these games is still strong. once it fades it's joever...#though i feel i won't finish totk in august lol. really taking my time here#which means i still need to watch out for any spoilers augh#quacks
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I can plank for 3 minutes but I know I could get to 4 soon if I keep at it. My goal is 6
#textpost#Got bored of trying to get to 100 push-ups again. 60 is close enough lol#After a while they honestly just get boring. Can't even like watch a show or something while doing them....#Planks will probably be the same way once I get good enough. Right now they're still hard enough that-#-all I can focus on is my muscles lighting on fire after 2 minutes hahah Gotta DBZ power up to make it to the end
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im awful at taking hiatus’ srsly but just as i did at the top of last year, its time again to take a break away from hellsite. there’s stuffs that i need to prioritize first! will return at the back end of feb 💛 queue will cont on as usual but pls tag me (#userjjessi) in all your edits
— see ya around ✨
#this is jessi#ill still be catching a few shows live while im away#lll be watching todays gap later tonight and then every live ep coming up#and i should be caught up on msp by mid feb so ill def be back before the finale#ill pop in a few times once im caught up to lurk the tag#who will keep the bots away while im gone tho lol#theyll have to keep you company until im back#they dont say much anyways
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I have found a beautiful perfect humble rock specimen that is light yellow with a weird dark yellowy brown lining, somewhat resembling a chunk of smoked gouda cheese... effervescent
#I am still very into trash collecting at the moment and even went out and got one of those grabby sticks for cheap and a little#bucket I can carry around and put trash in. so I am going on walks in nature a bit more (not really to enjoy nature but more to play the#very fun Real Life Hidden Object Point And Click Game that is 'hunt for bottle caps and cans' .. but eh.. whatever gets me out of the#house lol).. anyway.. some nature places near water will have cool rocks#Which I know you're not supposed to take them and I MOSTLY dont.. but every once in a while it's like... when else will I ever find a#gouda rock... I have cleaned up 4 buckets of trash today.. I have helped the environment.. mayhaps.. i could take a One Single Rocke as a#treate... ANYWAY. but yeah. I don't know the names of rocks but there's a rock that's a matte muted marigold yellow sort of#color and I call them 'cheese rock'. I'm pretty sure this one is of the 'cheese rock' species but it just has weird brown coloration#like maybe it got stained or something on one side of it. Most of the other cheese rocks have no markings. though sometimes there will be a#auburn reddish sort of hue on a corner or something.. hrmm.. curious. I also got a Beginner's Hobby rock tumbler and some supplies#so I might try polishing some of the rocks from my enormous rock collection. even though they're all street rocks I picked up from sidewalk#and stuff. I saw a video where someone put random gravel and stuff in a rock tumbler and none of them were Stunning Gems or whatver#but some still turned out cool enough that I would be pleased with the result... OUgh.. I want to post more I need to like do costumes and#sculptures and stuff and be Active On Social Media and think about my Future and Career and how it always benefits artists to keep an#active social media or etc. but I just feel so tired and bad lately. I think the summer heat waves have really exhausted me. I also have#been trying to make new friends + on a weird schedule so I've been socializing and also watching media too much. I notice I always start#to feel this kind of unsettled stress of not making any forward progress in my life if I do that for too long. like 'Okay this week I've#done nothing but meet up with two friends & watch like 10 episodes of tv and only worked on a few projects on the side.. this is HORRIBLE!'#(ppl who follow me here that I talk to on discord: this isn't about you! Im specifically just referencing being tired of introductory talks#with a new round of random strangers during my Friend Hunt. Just clarifying so it couldn't be misinterpreted as vaguepost implying that I'm#secretly bothered by talking to you or etc. lol.. anyway) . Which I know to MOST people 'I talked to a lot of friends and watched some cool#stuff!' sounds like a GOOD relaxing time but.. to me it is not ghhj.. Those are 'external' focuses on things outside myself which bothers#me if not moderated. Like.. i MUST retreat internally to work on my worldbuilding and my own thoughts and etc. at very regular intervals or#it will really start to bear on me too much. Brain Mandated Hermit Isolation lol. Just being too detached from my world and stuff for#too long feels increasingly bad. PLUS. every day I don't make tangible progress towards my goals is a day wasted that I could have been#investing in my future by working on novels/games/sculptures/actual career relevant stuff. Not even in a Capitalism way i just genuinely#enjoy Completing Tasks & feel miserable if I don't for too long. EVEN the media I'm watching I turn into A Task since I rank in a detailed#google doc list after viewing lol.. Like EW movie too boring on it's own. NEED to turn it into something I can categorize and analyze ghghj#LOVE to make things more complicated than they need to be. like YAAAY organizational tasks! yaay meticulous sorting!! BOO ''mindless fun''!
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hey wait. so if you grow up as an only child or with siblings who like the same tv as you how do you learn tolerance?
#that football poll really made me reflect on how much tv i've had on in the background that was just absolute white noise to me#altho back when we were all younger there were more tvs in the house. mostly small ones#there was one i remember vividly that was like only a foot wide. it sometimes moved around#it had a vcr player in the bottom#i so clearly remember watching lizzie mcguire on it while discovering if you smash a marker youre coloring w#all the ink comes out at once. but then youre left wo it being pointy at the end#and that tv could be moved around. i remember watching shrek on it in my mudroom once lol#i also remember watching whose line is it anyway and not understanding improv but just seeing the men sit in chairs#and stand up and just looking at the colorful background. it was somehow still entertaining to me i dont remember AT ALL why#tales from diana#one thing that is somewhat understandable to me from what i understand about childhood entertainment in the streaming era#is that children THANK GOD still seem to fight w their siblings about what to watch on tv#they just dont even say 'on tv' they say 'on disney plus'#it shouldnt feel so strange to me but i just cant imagine coming home from school and selecting something from a list of programs#and then watching that in full without commercials. i'm like what. that's not tv#you're supposed to get home in the middle of an episode of spongebob that they play twice a week and quote along w it like karaoke#youre supposed to argue and flip back and forth one thing and another when one turns to a commercial break#THATS AMERICA!!!!!
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wth why would i suddenly not be able to watch a live stream on youtube? i dont think its an adblocker thing? i was watching a different live stream like 2 hours ago, i can watch regular videos and vods. but now when i bring up a stream it just goes gray and says "Your browser cant play this video". never seen this and having a hard time finding an answer online that is about a live stream, everything so far is for videos that dont work for anyone else either
#tried to bring it up on my tablet but that just didnt load the page at all like its not connected to the internet but it is#but i can watch the stream just fine on my phone on mobile firefox#weird. really really weird.#like i even had the tab up earlier while waiting for it to start. but then the extension to put tabs to sleep put it to sleep and#when i went back suddenly this is happening on all livestreams ive checked#opened in a different tab group and private mode. same problem#chat still works tho lol#maybe i'll try turning off the tab sleep ext?? hmm#my phone's at like 32% but also its after midnight so i probably wont watch the whole stream#(i say like i dont end up watching full streams everytime i go ''i'll just watch for a few minutes''#and also octavio is so adorable and funny and he's making a puppet that is already cursed)#anyway i'll either keep looking online or trying turning off that other extension or ill give up and just plug in my phone haha#eta: hey hey... guess..... guess what i did.... i watched that whole stream....#and then another hour long one after it..... this is why i didnt watch live streams for so long#i cant just watch ''for a few minutes''#then a few months ago i got sucked into the tempus rabbit hole and look where i am now#tanking my sleep schedule once again it is 3am -.-
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