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autisticlancemcclain · 1 year

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Jackie, you haven't published a fic since the 4th. Are you ok?

i am so sorry everyone 💀💀 idk how many of y’all were here when i was originally writing eighteen (crazy), but what essentially happened was that i didn’t get a full fic finished on lance’s bday, so i tried to update every day to get it finished as quickly as possible while still being good, and i wouldn’t let myself post anything else or think about anything else really, and at one point i was getting dms and asks from friends and moots that were like Hey Bitch What The Fuck Are You Doing To Yourself and i was like yeah wait hold on wtf am i doing?? so i took a break from the fic and the stress went away pretty much immediately.

now. since i don’t learn from my mistakes, i did the exact same thing basically with the time loop fic, only this time i pushed myself farther AND i feel bad as hell because i said i would finish it for once 😭😭 unfortunately that fic compacted with the fact that it is march and i struggle in march freaked me out so bad that felt like i was going to explode so i ditched tumblr for a bit. i needed to Take A Breather so i dipped.

anyways i’m sorry for freaking you guys out, i def should have posted something. that’s on me. i promise i’m fine and i’m sorry to say that i will be pausing the time loop fic for a bit. but on the bright side, i’m gonna have a different fic for tonight!! i waited to come back until i came up w something bc i didn’t want to come back empty handed :))

#no one asked but like also it’s been a Time 💀#finals are coming and my roommates broke the lease so i have to move out and i hate moving and also i can’t accept the job i was offered bc #i’m moving so that’s stressing me out and idk if i’m going to get a job this summer and not only do i need a job but also i’ll be going home #this summer and my parents are not cool with unemployment so i don’t have an option lol and also my mom has been trying to get me to switch #my degree from an honours ba to a regular ba bc it will be cheaper and shave off a year and it makes sense but i don’t want to do that and #idk how the hell to say that and unfortunately since i’ve been living on my own this semester my anxiety is at an all time high and #generally just like ninety things hit me at once lol. so i had to drop writint for a bit #but i’m back!! so all is well #personal #ask

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nightswithkookmin · 1 year

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As for Tae, I think when Jimin suffers and does something self-harmful, he will cry and say stop to his fan but it will be too late. I don't mean to be pessimistic. I hope God will protect Jimin, but he is human and he has endured enough

Jimin is stronger than he looks but yea we all have our breaking points. he's human after all and the constant pestering and negativity can take a toll on him.

And it's funny you mention this cos somewhere in my drafts there are several posts I've made talking about this very topic in regards to two POCs I know out here who keep going at it with eachother.

Some people don't know when to stop and will keep going and going till they've inflicted maximum damage on others. It's not cute.

There's constructive criticism and there's badgering and hammering down on people and that's equally as toxic and harmful as the supposed evils we seek to correct in people.

Many words won't fill a bushel. A word to a wise is enough. If your intention is to draw a person's attention to their mistakes, you don't go pestering them with it. And humans have brains and hearts for a reason, give them room to reflect on their actions and do the internal work they need to do and once that is done learn to forgive them and not hold their mistakes over their heads especially if they grow from it. But we all seem to have lost the plot.

Somehow in this community, it's always aha that person slipped that one time I'm gonna weaponize that and use that as ammunition to drive them out of this space so I'm the last one standing. It's nuts.

And it's true not everyone is like that in this space, there are a couple of bloggers out here who I don't fuck with yet they'd slip into my DMs every now and there to ask for clarification or let me know Hey you said this and that's quite problematic.

I just thank them and post clarifications here on my page. I respect those accounts you know. Cos you can tell they don't have ill intentions towards me.

Thus it's difficult for me to equally start tearing into them out of the blues on my platform- I'd rather send them a private message to talk- if I care enough about it but most of the time I don't care💀

What someone chooses to do with their platform is none of my business really unless they wanna @ me then let's go. I will stab you in the guts and bug spray your eyes. Don't play with me.

Tumblr staff are paid to moderate the platform and keep people in check. If an account violates their community guidelines then it's their problem not mine.

But that's just the problem isn't it? We see ourselves as a community and thus some have assigned themselves moderators of this community and have appointed themselves judge jury executioner passing judgements based on ambiguous virtues and arbitrary social rules- very high school of us in here.

Quick segue- that bitch going around people's blogs screaming I'm evil because I'm a "Ted Bundy stan" WHAT'S GOOD? It's the she was "exposed" and the "she lied" for me. Bitch if you don't shut up.

If I have to deny being a fan of something then am I really a fan of it at all?? Have you met me?

Like no, imagine that for a moment. Me. Scared to admit I like something because.... wait for it

Ita so deviant I'm afraid it will offend a bunch of strangers I've never met on the internet and they will not like me for it???

If I'm a Stan of Mr O'Brian Bundy WHO'S GONNA CHECK ME? YOU? ANON 2297 HIDING BEHIND AN ANNOYMOUS BLOG TO CRY LIKE A LITTLE BITCH ON PEOPLE'S BLOG POSTS?????

I THINK THE FUCK NOT.

I promise you YOU ARE NOT THE ONE WHO'S GONNA CHECK ME.

I'm a fan of True crime FOR SURE said that ones I'll say it again but Ted Bundy is not the hill I'm finna die on I'm sorry. He is the least interesting serial killer out there. Yawned my way through a stranger besides me- read it twice and yet I still hate the Author💀

Just because I hate the Author, again DON'T MAKE ME A FAN OF TED FREAKN BUNDY- that's just insulting. he's so bland. BORING

For the record, I AM obsessed with BTK and have since fell down the rabbit hole of serial killers who leave erotic poems behind for their victims.

SUE ME.

Oh here's one I think you'll love!!!!!!

It's called "Oh, Nancy Anna why didn't you appear"

T' was perfect plan of deviant pleasure so bold on that Spring nite.

My inner felling hot with propension of the new awakening season

Warn, wet with inner fear and rapture, my pleasure of entanglement,

like new vines at night

Crime literary analysts have described this quatrian as remarkable and have compared it to the works of writers such as James Joyce.

"The poem is in many ways remarkable because of the levels of meaning that BTK suggests in the words he uses. Reminiscent of James Joyce's epic, Finnegan's Wake, BTK uses words that suggest several meanings. Starting with the very first line in the poem, the T with the superscript 1 is used in scientific research to designate the beginning phase of a study. Subsequent phases would be T2, T3, etc. On another more ordinary level, the superscript 1 could be interpreted as an apostrophe to create "T'was" except that "T'was perfect plan" is missing a word, like "a" or "the." It appears as though whatever BTK had in store for Anna was something "bold" and new."

Oh no, she's a fan of serial killers let's cancel her

You do that Karen, I'm gonna be here and do me 💅🏾

People have their heads so far up their ass all they breathe is shit.

You place a lot of responsibility on Tae when you expect so much of him as a friend and colleague to JM. He's equally just an Idol and like JM he has his own crucible and haters and people out to get him.

I seem to recall him going on a love all seven campaign right before they announced their Solos. Let's give him credit. Cut him some slack.

We all disappointed with the way things unraveled these past few weeks. And some of us might never really move on but like I said life goes on.

Don't know why Tae went silent on us, but with time the reason shall come to light. Personally I'm not too happy with him for that. He broken my vmin heart. I won't ship them together for a while but yall feel free.

Okay who wants to hear about a serial killer who drew a picture of his penis on a victims night stand

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themidnightcrimson · 1 year

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Here once again I hope ppl aren't tired of me yet

Well well well I want to publicly apologize to everyone who had to witness my whore outburst from the other day I just wasn't ready to see Wanda getting called 'master' and started acting up a lil... I realized I didn't even spell 'creature' correctly and wrote 'create' 💀

BUT! I want to compensate by bringing contributions to the table since I think bestie you said you were taking requests and open to ideas to get inspired??? (Please correct me if I'm wrong and if that's the case sorry for the message) Anyways I was reading déjà vu last night (again) and I thought that maybe you could write something involving Natasha?? I do love the way you make them interact it's saurrrr funny and wanda's competitiveness with Nat is just delicious to read 🤌 The interactions with reader are iconic too! "oh my god, you dumb slut." 😭😭😭😭😭 You don't understand I'll never forget that line cos the way I WHEEZED the first time I read it lmaoo yeah that's me girl

I have other ideas like maybe we could have an already pregnant reader and Wanda being insanely protective over her and the baby because you know protective Wanda is always hot... We had a glimpse of that in the darkhold (my Bible) but I thought it would be nice to see that more at display and maybe bring in agatha and the coven of chaos to the mix idk 🤔 Doesn't have to be in the same fic or anything, just vague thoughts for your genius mind to shape if you do find them interesting

And lastly I saw about the new masterlist you made and all. So sorry tumblr is fucking you over crims you're a wonderful creator and I hope the app does something to fix it soon :((

hi bestie!! no i absolutely love your whore outbursts, i cherish them for a while before i decide to answer them to the public so i can keep it secretly hidden in my asks to chuckle at throughout the day😭 oooooh those are really good ideas! i’m taking just an itsy bitsy break from writing currently but i def am looking for fresh ideas for when i do write again and those are really great! i LOVE adding natasha to fics just for the jealousy element😭 i also want to write more funnier fics like deja vu! also it’s no worries, i got a bit mad at the entire situation but i’m just gonna keep chugging along haha. and thank you bestie <3

#cancciablood

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brandnewhuman · 2 years

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HI HOW ARE U DOING?

omg i haven't been in tumblr for a while D": i mean i wasn't that inactive, i logged in when i felt like it but i was not that active and interactive

so how have you been? :D have you been drinking enough water? have you been eating properly?

From my part i haven't been really well, i feel like everything is going bad instead of good, like i am not getting better but just getting worse and acting like i'm aren't. BUT luckily everything will get better :D i try to keep that mindset when i can ;;

BUT I'M NOT HERE TO COMPLAIN, MAN I AM SO MAD AT HALLOWEEN END, IT'S LIKE, I DON'T KNOW HOW MANY MINUTES PASSED AND WE DIDN'T GOT A CHANCE TO SEE MICHAEL MYERS. IN HIS OWN FUCKING MOVIE, i mean yeah corey was kinda hot but 😔 like man i wanted so bad to be horney for michael and in the end we didn't got as many scene moments to see him, AND IN THE FINAL MOMENTS HE GOT INSTANTLY KILLED, AND WHEN WE HAD THE CHANCE TO HAVE SOME SCENES HE WAS JUST GETTING BULLIED BY COREY, I JUST- i don't know dude i got so excited for the movie and i just ended up dissapointed 😭 but well, at least it entertained me :D

ALSO, I WANT TO DRAW SOMETHING BUT I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DRAW AND I WANT IT TO BE SLASHER THEMED SO PLEASE GIVE ME IDEAS. IF I GET TO DRAW SOMETHING I WILL SHOW IT TO U ( >▽< )

(Also- i got another of those weird dreams with slashers 😭 i was really short but it was about billy lenz. I remember that in the dream i woke up in my room and billy was there in a corner and i obviously started screaming (i don't know if from fear or from enthusiasm) but then he tried to kill me, and all of suddendly i grabbed an fork from under my pillow (i don't know why) and started to threaten him HAJSJJA and for some reason he also had a fork and well we started having an fork fight. Then i woke up 💀 my dreams are really fucking weird but they are so funny i just can't get enough of them-)

WELL BYE SORRY IF THIS IS LONG BUT I LOVE INTERACTING WITH THIS ACCOUNT ;;-;;

OH MY GOD BRO HIIIII. I WAS GETTING KINDA WORRIED

You did the right thing in taking a break if you needed it. Don't force yourself into interacting or doing stuff that drains your already very low energy. Take good care okay? Eat, take your meds, drink water, try to go for a walk if you can and do something that makes you feel happy and relaxed. I DON'T WANT ONE OF MY FAV GREMLINS TO GET SICK OR ANYTHING OKAY?

But no for real bro, I may not know exactly what you're going through but I know the feeling of not getting anywhere good with your life and its really hard when you feel like that. Not gonna tell you yOu hAVe tO bE poSiTivE or yOu dOnT hAVe to WoRRy abOuT it. If you need to feel sad or you need to say rant ecc then do it bro. You have every right to feel bad or sad and to complain about it.

You're very right about the fact that things can't stay forever like this. One day it would be less hard to go on and other days won't, you just have to find some reasons to keep going until the good days come back. SO YEAH TAKE CARE AND DON'T LISTEN TO ANYONE GIVING YOU SHIT OR SAYING HOW OR HOW TO NOT FEEL.

Now speaking of halloween ends THAT SHIT WAS ASS. THEY BULLIED MY BELOVED PEEPAW, THEY TURN HIM INTO A USELESS OLD FART USING A SEWER AS A RETIREMENT HOUSE. THEY LET A DERANGED TWINK BEAT HIM UP AND STEAL HIS MASK AND CALL HIM AN OLD MAN.

Like for real WHO THE FUCK THOUGHT THAT MOVIE WAS SOMETHING RIGHT TO DO

Like I was so happy too about it cause I have been feeling like shit and I was so hyped to see some peepaw content JUST FOR THEM TO PULL THAT FUCKING SHIT.

Yes corey was hot, yes he was a good character BUT THEY RUINED HIM TOO SO WTF WAS THE POINT OF PUTTING HIM IN THE MOVIE.

ANYWAYS BRO YOU SAID YOU NEEDED SOME IDEAS FOR SLASHER DRAWINGS? I've been trying to draw slashers but like as cute ghost and doing Halloween things I KNOW ITS BASIC BUT YOU COULD TRY. YOU'RE CERTAINLY WILL DO BETTER THAN ME

Bro your dreams should be subject of study CAUSE AT THIS POINT NOT EVEN I CAN KEEP UP WITH THEM. WHERE DOES YOUR BRAIN FIND SO MUCH IMAGINATION

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cxmplexity · 3 years

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Here's some food for today :

My man Geto

My man Geto, again

Love of my Life, colour of my soul Nanami

And without further ado, some new songs for your playlist:

Joji- Slow dancing in the dark

Hyukoh- Jesus Lived in a Motel Room

RINI-Meet me in Amsterdam

Also, to the anon who appreciated JANNABI's rec, I HOPE YOU HAVE AN AMAZING LIFE TOO🌚🌚

That's it for today babie, hehe, talk to you soon, take care.

-🌒

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Aaalliiii😭😭 I feel like apologising for being MIA is gonna feel like lip service at this point, my finals are over (Thank fuck) but I jumped right into writing an academic paper and had my nose to the grindstone for a while now. I AM GONNA READ IMPULSE TODAY AND HAVE MY HEAD FILLED WITH CHOCK FULL OF THEORIES. Thank you for the recs! I will be sure to check it out (the book's totally going to in the top ten of my to-read list now), I would love more non-fic recs since I am pretty out of phase with the genre. I have read Mahmoud Darwish and Adonis's works and oh my god they are so beautiful! It's seriously so effusively fervid, I can only imagine how beautiful it is in its original language. I do the same thing when I read poems from my native language, the feelings don't tend to transcend the same way, it's really strange when you think about it because translation is supposed to bring the world together. Lmao, not you saying you feel guilty for pushing back your reading plans, bestie, I will be here for a long time, so no worries there. Almond sounds interesting, I would love to read it(right after I finish the short stories I brought a few weeks back💀💀 ISTG, I end up buying books before I finish reading the old ones).

"Seeing you in my inbox is truly the highlight of my day" Girl, you are turning me into an emotional mess right now, don't make me go all soft now. I am so glad I came across your work and I haven't been more glad than now for breaking out of my no-active interaction space on Tumblr 😭😭 Seriously, I am befuddled and happy at the same time. I don't even know if we ever will be able to meet IRL, but I so hope we do.

GIRL, GIRL, Percy Jackson and the lightening thief was the first mythological fiction I read, well, apart from an anthology of Greek Mythologies which was actually the very first book that I read back when I was in the 2nd grade.

I brought the Song of Achilles a while back after seeing some quotes flying around on Social Media, and it's been sitting on my shelf ever since, sjsjjs, I am literally such a sloth. I am definitely making a movie watchlist with your recs, I have a feeling I'll be blown away by your recs since we almost have the same taste and also because your writing is top tier so your taste in the Arts will slap too (such a no-brainer).

Now that I think about it, the intense pressure of holding myself to a high standard at the expense of my own well-being has been a perpetual feeling ever since childhood, and it's true, once the seeds are sown, it permeates the whole being like poison, a poison which becomes your life source in a cruel twist of fate, because I really cannot imagine letting go of this apparent need to suceed anymore. I will be going for a Master's instead of a PhD because I want to keep my options open(since I am still not sure if I want to go into academia). Lol, it's not surprising at all, certificates and achievements just literally make me feel things, and I totally get what you mean by having a wall solely dedicated in pursuance of it. And seriously, I won't even deny being an ambitious person, I am very obsessed with the idea of being professionally successful, it's just what it is(╯_╰).

Lmao, I can definitely visualise you belting out beats and breaking into stellar choreos now, yes girl, absolutely divine,is what I conclude. I have had Angus and Julia Stone playing on my headphones and read Paulo Coelho while lazing around on the sofa, but not at the same time * Lenny face * stellar deductions, we vibing too much rn.

🥺🥺 OML, A playlist by my alias,awwww, Aaaaliiie, I will melt for real now. Kskwks, this only calls for more song recs. Oh YES, Suna and his languid hawk eyes, serotonin who? It's Suna hours.

Just want to thank you for always taking your time to read through these word vomits and always being so sweet and replying to them with so much care. Honesty, talking to you like this, and reading your works is one of my favourite parts of opening Tumblr. Literally, appreciate you so much. Keep slaying baby, keep slaying.

P.S. Girl, I saw mentions of knife play, and I....I just want to thank you for making me discover yet another kink of mine.

P.P.S. Thank you for the food as always, Toji's Tiddies were DIVINE.

P.P.P.S. Now that I think about it, Geto's fic is what made me reply here for the first time, so Geto is someone who is responsible for our friendship then? * Lenny Face*

Take care baby🌒

i don’t know why but every time i see an ask in my inbox that starts with a dramatically, elongated Aaaliii my suspicions are confirmed that it’s in fact, you, that sent me an ask snsnns.

welcome back babes! please don’t feel the need to apologise. i was actually gonna ‘summon’ you since you’ve been gone for a while but i remembered you had important finals queued. it’s really good to have you back, you’ve been greatly missed. how did they go btw? hope they weren’t too taxing, although i’m sure you’ve excelled them. and I’m absolutely not surprised that you engrossed yourself into a paper right after exams. yup...definitely not peak intj behaviour. what paper are you writing, if you don’t mind me asking? just sticking my nose into other people’s academics since i’m not back in uni for another month lol.

ooo native language? bilingualism is thexy. what languages do you speak? i’m just stuck with english and arabic lmfaoo. i’ve been learning german on and off but i’m trying to get back on track with sign language hehe. honestly? same, i still have loads of books that i bought ages ago—mostly philosophy and psychology—that i never got to read, and i still went on to buy another batch of books that i’m currently struggling to even finish...but i’ve been dabbling with some poetry lately, so i guess that’s a start.

an anthology of greek mythologies is a lot less embarrassing in comparison to a kitten book snsnsj. not you saying my taste in arts is top tier when yours completely surpasses it. your recs (whether it be music, books etc) never fail to amaze me. please never stop providing them because they’re an absolute delight!

i couldn’t agree with you more; academic success seems more like a necessity than a conscious choice to make. especially if it’s been germinated in your head from a really young age thanks to peer pressure. it would be difficult to untangle one’s self worth from their grade book because you suddenly find yourself wrapping your whole identity around it to the brink of self sabotage. powering through 5 hours of sleep and an incomprehensible amount of caffeine was definitely not how i wanted to spend my youth. i tried to unlearn it, but i’ve adapted myself to live with it anyway.

you really need to stop with all this sweet talk because you actually spoil me too much with it....you’re ruining my street cred i’m not supposed to be turn mushy lmfao. please remember that you are an amazing person and talking to you is an absolute pleasure. any “word vomit” you send is extremely appreciated. thank you for sticking by. i hope i continue to see you in my inbox as long as we’re both on this hell space of an app, which i can see will be a very long time hehe. (quotations marks around word vomit because they aren’t really that, just us gushing over our interests like two intjs should)

i swear you’re the third person that started developing a knife kink because of my reblogs sjsjsjsj and hold on...another? there’s more? 😭 nope, i definitely don’t have a knife play toji fic currently in mind...no i will not put all of my current wips on pause just to write it on a whim.

now that you mention it, maybe it’s time to construct a heartfelt thank you letter for a fictional man with long onyx hair and genocidal tendencies since he’s the reason we crossed paths....might get called a worthless monkey but it’s worth a shot.

thank you so much for the fanarts and song recs. i’ve listened to them all last night but i absolutely fell in love with meet me in amsterdam. for this to be a fair exchange, i provide you with:

Childish Gambino — Sober

Barnes Blvd., Taneréllr — Love from NGC 7318

The Weeknd — True colours

i hope you have an amazing weekend. take care lovely, catch up with you soon 🤍 x

#cxmplexity: asks #🌒#cxmplextunes

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