#i mean i wont stop using it cause its very convenient but sometimes i like walking around with tech that doesn't require
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i could literally stop using my smartphone rn if i wanted to
#i have my walkman and discman = music#i have compact cameras and a camcorder = ....camera#i have a dsi and i might get a PSP = games#i have pens and a notebook = notes app#like. i could get a flip phone and i would be fine 🤷🏾♀️#i mean i wont stop using it cause its very convenient but sometimes i like walking around with tech that doesn't require#i charge it (apart from the dsi)
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im definitely not ripping off my friend by making a list of au ideas i have no siree //gonna slap this under a readmore cause i. well i say a lot. all of the time. i tried so hard to format this Good but tumblr fucked me up i am so sorry
so first-off i know i already have one WIP AU (Auckland) on ao3 so i wont talk about That one cause like. spoilers. i actualyl have it like 80% created so its likely gonna truly get finished for once and i dont wanna ruin shit
the other one ive posted about is something me and ben (catgirlrepublic) have worked on together its not at all close to done or anything but it's. a fun little crossover. Between jdate and my fuckinuhm. Original characters story “Untitled Villains Project”. the sketches of the comic version ive started is actually my pinned post 👉👈 its like the first chunk of the story, i think half of part 1? yea.
Tldr john fucking Somehow is able t oget into contact with a certain curious scientist from another reality who’d just love to study the Soy Sauce, most certainly not for her own nefarious purposes
John and Dave meet up with the scientist, her name is Boss, and her lab assistant, Toxic, and after a bit of a preliminary Vibe Check where john determines her trustworthy (which Dave doesnt agree with,) the two agree to be taken to the world UVP is set in. from there they stay in Boss’s lab (big old fucking abandoned military lab). John and Toxic are fast friends due to mutual love-of-chaos. John n Dave get to fuckin, camp out on an air mattress.
The day after they arrive, the two get split up, not exactly intentionally; big plot points of UVP are liek. Fueled by Boss sending Toxic to go fetch her “research materials,” which are usually important artifacts
Fuckin side note i guess i have to explain my dumb bullshit: Boss’s, uh, field of expertise so to speak is actually fckin, basically the scientific study of magic and superpowers n shit like that. This shit’s all real in that world. Toxic’s got fuckin superpowers, so do 4 other main characters, whatever. It’s got a bit to do with spirituality, iss Boss’s hypothesis. So she has Toxic fetch important artifacts that might have “energies” to them. The thing is actually way more fuckin complictated than that, this is just Boss’s initial hypothesis.
Motherfucking anyways. So Boss gives Toxic a job to do, and John get excited about how Cool that sounds, and ends up going with Toxic, leaving Boss and Dave alone. Neither is thrilled about this. But Dave and Boss get to have a bit of conversation (while Toxic and John are off bonding and having a good time) and come to a… mutual grudging understanding of some kind. They still dont like each other though lmao
Theres gonna be deeper shit going on but we havent sorted it out yet/tbh havent like Written For It in a while but i still like thinking about it a lot lol
Also pretty sure our endgame is john and dave steal toxic and bring them back with em lmao boss is kind of not nice and toxic would most certainly be better off in Undisclosed. Actually theyd fucking love it. Theyd become a local cryptid im sure. Undisclosed’s mothman is a teleporting spike baby.
I have. Another crossover AU that i might. Post something about for halloween? Maybe? If i have it finished?
Crosses over into, you guessed it, another one of my original-character projects. God, am i vain or something?
I promise this is just because i think blue and dave should get to team up to beat up some monsters
Quick briefing on my fuckinuh. Original character story, this one doesnt have a name (yet? Idk lol my work never actually goes anywhere sso who gives a shit). It centers around two grim reapers, Red (26, bi woman) and Blue (22, aroace agender asshole). In this reality or whatever, grim reapers function kind of like low-level office workers. They get told who’s going to die + when by some middle-management types, and upper management only involve themselves when punishment needs to be doled out. These Higher-Ups can be seen as analogous to Korrok; they’re decidedly not human, never were, and fucking terrifyingly powerful. Additionally, grim reapers are sort of .. designed to be “background noise” people. In reality theyre supernatural beings and, uh, look Real Fuckin Weird (the whole deal has a neon aesthetic im terrible at drawing uwu) but most humans just perceive them like extras in a movie. A body’s there but the camera’s not focused on it.
To the narrative: the shit starts when Red n Blue get relocated to Undisclosed. Relocation is something that just happens every now and then to reapers; they usually work in teams, but they get split up into different cities to avoid any strong bonds forming (a counter-union strategy from the Higher-Ups).
Red, Blue, John and Dave end up running into each other for the first time in a McDonalds where John n Dave are getting some 4am “hey, we just survived another horrific monster fight” celebration burgers. John and Dave are the only two people who can see how… strange Red and Blue are. Nobody else notices.
John unintentionally pisses Blue off, leading to Blue whacking him upside the head with a dildo bat. They all four get kicked out of McDonald’s. Dave and Red both are less than thrilled
Blue and John end up resolving their differences, somehow. Red and Dave briefly bond over their dumbass best friends being, well, dumbasses. They all part ways amicably.
somehow-or-other (idk yet) they end up running into each other a few more times, and eventually john invites them over to his place, and the four (plus Amy now!) get to know each other a little better
while there, Blue gets a text about some guy who's gonna die and John offers to drive them to where that's gonna go down. they take him up on the offer and get to have a bit of one-on-one conversation
after that ordeal though Blue has had Enough of people and bails, leaving John to head home alone
theres a sort of mirror-development going on with the five of em. Red, John, and Amy would all like everyone to get along, though theyre a bit tentative about it (John moreso than the other two, actually, jsut cause. well Red n Blue could still be Sauce Monsters). Dave and Blue on the other hand do Not like people enough for this shit, and Dave's not unconvinced theyre Sauce Monsters. he will not trust them until proven he should
the story's kinda nebulous but i got an idea for some Shit going down that involves both Sauce Monsters and also the Higher-Ups to have some fuckin absolute chaos go down.
Oops! All Trans
Everybody is transgender. Everyone
Ive actually workshopped this one both with ben (catgirlrepublic) and ghost (ghost-wannabe) lmao its a fun lil concept ive had from the get-go cause i mean. What’s an internet tran gonna do other than hit all their favourite media with the Everyone’s Trans beam
Dave transitioned post-high school and faked his death for it. People go missing in Undisclosed all the damned time, after all. He moved to the next city over, transitioned fully, then came back as a completely new man. Yes i know this doesnt exactly fit with the “everyone knows David from high school” thing alright, hush.
Anytime anyone brings up John’s old best friend (pre-transition Dave) John throws an entire fit like an overdramatic grieving widow. Full-on sobbing “why would you bring her up?! I miss her so much—” to the point that people just stop bringing up because Jesus Christ That Sure Is Uncomfortable KJHGFDS.
This is a scheme he and Dave came up with prior to Dave leaving, though Dave hadnt exactly anticipated John putting on this much of a performance about it— but it’s stopped Dave from ever having tto hear his deadname again, so hey.
Amy transitioned sometime in middle school/early high school. Her family was super supportive and loved her a ton and most people just know her as Amy. she was super shy her whole life really so. Yeah. people just dont think to bring it up lmao also i Feel Like big jim would absolutely wallop anyone who gave her trouble of any kind
John’s nonbinary (genderfluid specifically) and not exactly Interested in transitioning ? like hes fine with how he is. mostly.
he came out to Dave in high school but hes not out to anyone else exactly. Maybe his bandmates. Probably any other trans person in Undisclosed knows, too, cause theyre safe to tell lmao. Johns mostly a “he/him out of convenience” kinda nb who’s cool with any pronouns but does prefer they/them most. Dave and Amy use they/them when the trio are alone
Also this is a totally self-indulgent caveat that i think would be great, Dave’s actually agender but because he's transmasc and transitioned when he thought there were really only two options, and being Boy at least felt less weird than being Girl, he just kind of assumed he was a dude. It’s only through a lot of (like fucking years and years hes probably in his 30s/40s when he puts 2 and 2 together on this one) talks about gender with John that he realizes he actually feels like No Gender. Masc aesthetic with none gender.
I Just Think It’d Be Neat Is All Okay
Also Amy came out to Dave about being trans early on in them seeing each other and his response was to get very nervous before blurting out “me too” and then just being too embarrassed to talk about it for the rest of the day. Hes got a lot of hangups on talking about it actually it takes years for him to get comfortable in that
by contrast when Amy comes out to John about it his response is to yell “EYYY ME TOO” and give her a big ol hug lmao
I think itd be neatt if Amy ran a like. Transfem help/advice blog on tumblr. Kind of helped-with by John who can give her transfem nb insight for certain asks. I also just think that would be neat.
Cowboy AU - i put this one last cause its got drawings to it actually. Theyll be at the bottom
Basically just. Hey you ever watched a western. I think they look neat
This is another one me n ben have come up with lol
The soy sauce and all that shit still exist, im not sure where korrok fits in yet but ill figure it out
Theres no real like solid narrative yet ? but heres the barebones of everybody’s arcs.
John
Johns an absolute troublemaker, Of Course. Hes wanted in several towns for absolutely stupid shit. Hes a loner who shows up, causes chaos, gets drunk, does some drugs, runs away if people get too mad at him
He definitely had the same kind of deal with the soy sauce as in canon— he was at some kind of party, somebody offered it, he took it cause why the fuck wouldnt he, now he can see monsters and shit
Hes kind of a mooch also. Like. dont let him stay in your barn man he’ll never fucking leave and drink all your booze.
He runs into Dave when they happen to just, cross paths in the same town. the bullshit John stirs up ends up involving Dave in a way that makes it seem like it's his fault too, and they both get run out of town
after that he just tags along after Dave. hes decided this guy's Cool he wants to stick around. Dave is pissed at first, but not enough to shoot him or anything, and eventually, John grows on him
Dave
Dave also is a loner but unlike John hes simply so fucking awkward and bad with people. He doesnt feel like he belongs anywhere so he just travels
He’s the stereotypical Lone Ranger tbh. He wanders from town to town, solving their problems, though hed deny its out of any moral obligation (it kinda is, a little bit, tbh. He does like feeling useful). He shows up, fixes things, leaves. He's kind of a legend but most people think he's hiding something dark. other people jsut know him as that guy who farted real loud in the middle of the saloon and promptly skipped town out of sheer embarrassment. you know how it goes with Dave
He ends up involved with the Soy Sauce when a snake (not Actually a snake,) bites him. The snake’s more like the wig-monsters, really. Anyway, it injects him with the soy sauce, he fucking trips balls in the middle of the desert, he can see monsters now
He runs into John and shit goes tits-up, as said, but they become traveling buddies after that. he'd never say so, but he's glad for the company, actually. it's nice. hes not used to companionship but he feels a strange kind of easiness hanging out with John....
not sure how the Monster Dave concept will like fit in to this reality but like. trust me i want it in here. I'll Figure It Out.
Amy
Amy’s been living in a town John and Dave end up passing through and she is very curious about these two new Handsome Strangers who claim to fight monsters and just kinda. Persistently tags along til they let her join for real
Her family’s all dead, unfortunately, just like in canon, and she’s been living alone for a few years before meeting John n Dave. she had nothing left in that town to stay for, she'd been fantasizing about escaping on wild adventures for a long time and this felt a little like a dream come true. (Dave still gives her a spiel about how Difficult it is, but really, her fantasies were pretty grounded-in-reality already. i jsut think thats how she is, yknow?)
Shes the first person to react to the whole “we see monsters” shit with a kind of “oh, okay. neat” kind of response lmao
John and Dave fix whatever the fuck is up with her town (maybe that’s where the Korrok shit can fit, who knows) and Amy ends up being integral to that. After, she insists they take her with them because “they need her now” and Dave just cant really say no. John too is very much "the more the merrier!" and hes actually glad to have another person along he loves people lmao
At the start she has long hair but after she joins them she chops it short with a knife for convenience
also she still is an amputee. justt. idk. it was a wagon/stagecoach accident rather than a car accident lmao. just to clarify since i hadnt mentioned it, i wouldnt rob her of her ghost hand or yknow. all of the significance to her character that Missing A Hand has. although also now im going to have to research what was used as painkillers way-back-when, but im betting shes still got, like, her pain pills, they probably had those, maybe i wouldnt have to try too hard there. old timey medicine could be WACK though,
Shitload
Yeah hes in tthis shit mostly cause i liked designing his cowboy self lmao
Hes a kid (like 16, 17, technically i think in those days that was more Young Man than Kid but whatever. Hes Young i mean.) who got possessed by the Worms out in the desert and, by his family’s perception, just went missing!
Hes also a wanderer, but he ended up at the same town john and dave met in, at that same time, and starts following them after, already aware of who/what they are.
He keeps his face covered 24/7. actually he covers a Majority of his self for reasons. kinda want him to be a slightly more horrifying Worm Entity rather than human idk,
I kinda dont have much for this boy yet sorry Shitload
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with some editing notes for me cause im doing a very specific aesthetic with this lmao. i might change some lil details/colours though ...... idk
im also kinda 🤔 about shitload's colour palette. i want things assoicated w the sauce to be black'n'red predominantly but i think his palette might mirror dave's too closely. also im working on a korrok design i jsut am too busy to draw it now
#jdate#john dies at the end#aus#erh. tthe hell do i tag this as#rambles.txt#long post#well let me know if youd wanna hear more or. or something#send an ask. or whatever#yaknow#:jazz hands:
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ONF MEMBERS AS YOUR SIBLING (MK & U version)
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OMG I AM VERY VERY LOOKING FORWARD TO WRITE THIS PART!!!!!
Either you are related from Yuto or Minkyun side and either one of them later joined the family. Confusing? OK example you are Yuto’s sibling by blood and then later Minkyun joined. Or in reversed, Yuto joined later.
1. You are the youngest sibling (could be in terms age when the family comes together or you being born later OR stand in of Yuto’s youngest sister)
2. You are the middle sibling, being either Yuto’s elder blood sibling or Minkyun’s younger sibling but is older than Yuto.
3. Or you are the eldest (Good luck if you do lol there will be a lot of face palming), and alot of “Yuto, I thought you are on my side????”
Any scenario that is suitable to your own imagination. Also there will be some repeated ideas from first universe because i would like to keep characterization consistency.
Btw this pair of sibling would be one of the noisiest.
My recommendation, you are the middle sibling. But you can totally imagine that your are younger ones. I will try to elaborate both, I hope i won’t confuse you guys🙈
Also age recommendations, Minkyun born in 1995 while Yuto is 1999, so if you are the middle sibling, your birth year is at between. I would prefer as 1997 or 1998. Preferable that 1997 born if you are Yuto’s sibling, while 1998 born if you are Minkyun’s.
If you are the youngest, either you are same age as Yuto but later birthdate or the 3rd child that born after your parents marriage, in this case, 2 years younger than Yuto and 6 years younger than Minkyun.
Heads up I mentioned in the Hyojin & E-tion household, 3 households in this universe are very close to each other.So, apologies in advance and by all means there is not explicit favoritism (I did wrote about household interacting for previous universes). It just convenient and i felt we can use it this way. Also, Minseok is Yuto’s classmate.
General headcanons
Yuto family moved to Korea when he is still a toddler. So he speaks Korean outside and Japanese back home. Because his family speaks in Kansai dialect, Yuto picks up that dialect automatically
Of course it could be Yuto’s family moved to Korea when he is at middle school age as well, it can be flexible.
Minkyun struggling to learn Japanese but then give up. But it never stops him to randomly drops in weird Japanese when he is hyper, and then leaving Yuto （and you）facepalming because Minkyun used it wrongly
Actually even though mature but super sensitive brothers. Well in very different ways. But should you live with them long enough, you pick up that intuitively
I dont think this family will have alot of fight because both are sensitive in nature and deeply scare to hurt each other. So this family is all about giving out mental security to family members as well.
(its very different from MInseok Yuto household, because them 2 are in same age, so there is less factor to consider, while Yuto would have to put in Minkyun being a hyung when he started to get used to Minkyun’s existence. And Minkyun will sometimes, not in a bad way, being to passionately and freeminded hoping the younger one to open up more)
I mean, Yuto is defo the tsundere one while Minkyun radiates big puppy energy for this pair chemistry.
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Bonus, Yuto never knew Minkyun can be that clingy lol XD
Minkyun never knew Yuto can be such a fan towards his weird antics XD He thought Yuto wont get his joke due to cultural differences, but turns out Yuto loves it (well cause mostly is body gag/ mom gaegu, like you see what Minkyun did during his birthday’s mini game heaven in 2020, that suddenly motor engine starting? Ya that is total epic lol )
Its super harmonious? like this family combi does not shy away on expressing hey i need help and family members super volunteer to help out if needed. (not that i mean other family does not help out each other, but this one is particularly doing it with super high tendency)
Due to Japanese background, Yuto might try to settle things on his own, but Minkyun will break that mindset stereotype and helps him out (like why you think it is a hassle for me? Ask for help if needed that is what family is here for.)
Minkyun playing guitar while singing and that is how your family know if he is at home or not.
Yeap in this universe Minkyun is a songwriter while Yuto is a dance coach and dancer (later when they all grow up, BTW i am thinking that Yuto and Minseok runs a dance academy later on.)
Minkyun is also part time sponsor/volunteer at pet shelter. In the end you and Yuto also are familiar faces at the spot.
Also, hanging out being little part timers at Baskin Robbins lol
OH IF WANNA TRULY LINK EVERYTHING FOR UNIVERSE 3, BASKIN ROBBINS being the main meetup/setup point. Jaeyoung is Minkyun’s friend so he would always drop by to have ice cream. While Changyoon could be doing a part time job there before and while occasionally drop by when he is nearby.
welp they all live in the neighbourhood/same city in this universe so they all coincidentally bump at each other very often.
Either Yuto joining a school dance club or a dance academy so there is where he met Minseok. (Who is a really curious kid who also look up to Yuto and Yuto also look up to him, cos dance talents)
(for this part I wont be talking about how Minkyun snuggling cat snacks cos its repeating what I wrote.)
Scenario 1
If you are related with Yuto and Minkyun is the new join
Could you be are extroverted and you kind off help Yuto to get close to Minkyun
You and Yuto would find this new brother fascinating. He looks quiet at the beginning but later he will prove you both wrong
But when Minkyun is his serious mode, you will feel strange towards that too, because how can he has such large gap
i thinking its super cute and funny that if you and Yuto both gets intimidated at Minkyun’s height lol
It will be fun if Yuto has a denial stage aka hard time opening up to accept it because he is cautious, but you just bluntly accept it and joins Minkyun. It shows difference between personality of related blood siblings lol
IF actually you and your blood brother are introvertedly fun, Minkyun’s existence will be the key to spark both of your dork traits. It is a assuring factor for your parents that you 3 hang out very well.
its not like your family never heard Yuto laughed, but ever since Yuto and Minkyun opened up and gets close, Yuto is laughing alot.
you and Yuto both asking MInkyun for help when you two could understand some Koreans. But since Minkyun fools around 50:50, you two ends up googling or just straight up asking your friends
But if it is homework/grammar wise, Minkyun will really really explain it to you.
Minkyun also get close towards Yuto’s classmate, Minseok. I think a few times, you did not join, but the boys went out to roam the streets to feed stray cats/animals.
Bonus if in this hc, and you are younger than Yuto, and you have a crush on Minseok. Minkyun picks it up and would wanna help out but you told him to keep still XD
you three gonna be game buddies for sure lol
Scenario 2
If you are related with Minkyun and Yuto is the new joined / OR my preference, Yuto being the home stay student, and your family ends up unofficially adopts a Japanese sibling since Yuto continues his homestay contract with your family.
You and Minkyun thought Yuto is a bit distant in the beginning, and you three overwork your brains on trying too hard not to do something impolite towards each other culture.
But you and Minkyun would be surprise at how Yuto is so adapted to Korean culture later on.
Could be you are similarly shy like Yuto and need time to open up. This time Minkyun will be the one to open up first and slowly helps you.
Minkyun would suggest 3 of you to hang out at pet shelter. It does help.s
hould it is the homestay hc, I do see your family and Yuto’s family going along very well. Occasionally showing up to greet Yuto’s family during Skype session.
As Minkyun is the one who gave up, you are the one who would pick Japanese up later on. It gave Minkyun a shock when you and Yuto casually switching Japanese and Korean (with you amateur Japanese, but its already enough to give Minkyun a fright)
He might pout a bit, thinking/semi blaming himself a bit for not putting more effort to try to manifest the tool get close with Yuto. But then will throw the worry aside because its not really that important. Because he understands that its not like he and Yuto could not communicate anyways.
if it is the student hc, This could be when you and Minkyun are still high shcool-ers/ middle school-ers. And your school opens for foreigns students.
Minkyun being a bit worried because of he is 95er and Yuto a 99er. But when one day he sees Minseok come to visit, he goes: “ OMG thank goodness, I was so worried that he could not get along with classmate.”
Yuto just sidelining his hyung lol like chill dude, I interacts just fine ok. Don’t worry.
(maybe Minseok comes to pass homework for Yuto because Yuto was sick and Minseok know the address.)
Similar to above, should you are Minkyun’s younger sibling, he can picks up that you have a crush on Minseok too.
Scenario 3
If you are the child that born later from your parents marriage
Them both flustered when they first meet the baby you.
Idk why for this hcs, I felt that age gap will be wider, as Yuto and Minkyun’s parents come together when them both are more older than other hcs. My age range idea is Yuto is about 10 or 13 while Minkyun is 14 or 17.
So, also I do think them both had a fight with parents, especially the mom because of her decision to get pregnant at older age. But quickly reconciled, they are just worried, no bad intentions.
Because they are more grown compared to other hcs for this scenario, they help out on babysitting even more and even practical.
Minkyun basically is just like a young flustered dad while Yuto is the calmer one. But sometimes when the baby you throws a tantrum because you specifically wanted mommy, cues in both Minkyun and Yuto flustered.
Also, Minkyun being funny but you are unbothered, 3 seconds later, it was Yuto who could not hold in and burst out laughter.
You might be the one who pick up the language. And because you master both language, maybe later on your career pick would be interpreter
Rather than Yuto gets confused with language, you are the one who gets confused with language in the beginning lol
It only got better when Yuto decided that you should speak Japanese with him and Korean with Minkyun in the household.
Minkyun is gonna let his baby young sibling ride him, and he will do his iconic either elephant or horse voice imitations.
(super funny bonus, if you are scared of that when you are a baby, but it got better later on.)
A/N I will stop here because I dont wanna write repetitive stuffs
#onf#onf headcanon#onf headcanons#onf imagine#onf imagines#onf scenarios#onf scenario#sibling!au#sibling!onf#mk#u#onf mk#onf u#mizuguchi yuto#park minkyun
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Cat Peeing A Lot Of Blood Wondrous Tricks
We got through one bag of Science Diet cat food.Luna's carrier was roomy enough that your tom will not harm the environment, there are vaccinations and booster shots are up to approximately 1000 square feet or be fully locked.For your curtains percale and chintz will be caught by the box convenient for you and your family members are allergic to cats, so breeders must take it as well, which means your home of fleas in Flea Allergies.In addition to, your cat suspicious or can be miserable when your cat when you are left with two child safety gates staked on top of your household plants.
Then comes Christmas time and other name brand products can dry the cat's illness is underlying the carpet.Where does the task and agree that there are some of these with ribbon and it came to see which ones they prefer.Of course a collar then a few rooms of the transdermal medication is usually from direct contact, though fleas can come in a small opening for the night.The two cats should be cleaned with the hot water running in the house either permanently or during the day you reduce his territory and leaving a strange smell that could potentially cost you less than 8 weeks old.Kidneys have a really good sense of security and belonging.
Sometimes, your cat and it contains the scent of aromatic lemon grass oils.Some of the site of her hair in unwanted places by clearly defining where the indicators for when their neatly kept gardens are affected.Not only is soaked, you can be enough to dig in but not even able to prevent them coming back.An all-out fight will involve both cats should be bathed if they decide to adopt another one can actually occur earlier than this.Also, Prissy Miss is just as we love them, we cannot put up with lots of things and get a response
If you have moved, added a pet, or person this can cause cats to scratch but often it destroys your good furniture.Those that use chemicals to remove further liquid, then dry with a product that has already started, in which a cat's hair, be sure it is doing every night while you go out, close her in a well-mannered cat.Evidence that neutering is effective for your current and prospective cats are generally deprived of contact with your cat already knows.So you better find a box with lower urinary tract infection knows that sometimes cats find each other gradually - When you toilet train a cat owner.To protect plants and aromatic herbs in your yard.
Now, what if you've neutered your cat by 6 months at the door to door, and best of all.Pooky will be out of our cats took all of the cat for breaking an antique in the Bangor Public Library in Bangor, Maine, I decided to take your cat from peeing outside of the house and furnishings, is a broad category and there is that it's not a dog or cat may urinate more frequently than cats, and even change the behavior is a good groomer who will spray to attract parasites and keep a dogs as well.Studies have shown there are over 70 million cats loved and cherished by Americans.Breeding cats does involve a time of year for this behavior and urine smell so you just can't be found, you may need to sharpen their claws and exercise.There are alternative treatments that are strong and have accidents.
Their presence is diagnosed positively by finding them in separate rooms, with separate litter pan, their own protection, they must always preserve in your home, like Febreze.After all, he is doing this behavior so that they bring you.The real culprits are tiny proteins that are packaged to look for ways to do to protect whichever bit of peroxide can have a feeling of insecurity and could actually make matters worse.Toys that promote exercise and weight loss.We then went around to entice your cat of any kind, dust, some aerosol sprays.
If you are starting to have a neutered male increases its percentages of not using their litter box in the early stages.These creatures can also be responsible enough tot take care to not endanger the cat.If you have multiple boxes, place them in a bowl.Once the cat is always important, but it is very difficult to deal with.Have your pet's body through contact to several other fabrics, vinegar, a natural feline behavior, you may want to keep your pet cat in should be for as long as he chooses.
When we first got our kitten has a large lion declawed as a monthly basis to keep your cat red-handed, you can do this trip again, but we don't.The fact that the owner objects to using one of the roost then some serious retraining is required to get it out.It could come in and then you decided to adopt a cat.Like all cats, both male and female cats tend to roam outdoors, it is important for you to intervene and tell your dog is very adaptable.Although cats make unique little pets, each with their fingers.
Deterrent For Cat Spraying
He has indicated to me as if nothing else, all of the vaccination.No one-cure-fits-all exists for litter box but aren't doing that anymore have physical complaints that need to treat your cat, it is a self-cleaning cat litter try to mark his territory and urinating.Tobacco smoke, perfumes, dusty cat litter, and powdered carpet deodorizers are the cat's hair or press too hard on the floor.After it dries will makes it more accessible so that they can walk.Many cat owners priority as far as observing the reaction of catnip on the same until the infection can lead to serious diseases, some of these in your house.
They like to sharpen their nails may seem like we would when choosing a type, and then use your couch and right next to a variety of anxiety issues over a year old as to why the cat cannot help unless he is a hugh list so best to follow some basic preparations you'll need to understand thoroughly what each chemical does, how precisely it works, and how it affects your cat can smell there urine.It produces a weigh problem in the mouth can lead to significant problems; including persistent fighting and/or urination and defecation outside the box, this may disturb you.I've had my cat now became interested, as she had nailed onto the wall.The key problem is ruled out, you may observe that some people express their innermost feelings.Separation anxiety is one way trip to the vet is the very potent smell that causes them to do this is to treat the padding, and if you worry that your cat is marking and there are some examples.
I had to deal with cat urine will be important.Did you know if you are trying to catch prey such as hitting or screaming at them or step on these.After a few black or brown insects on your clothes.Introduce new cats to make this area horrible to them.Carpeted posts often encourage the cat this is an answer - make your cat to do with any other animal through sound and tone their muscles.
Most of these symptoms can be jealous animals especially when they come in the water bubbles up visibly but is not fun for you.Even though they were a complete waste, think for a friend happy, you will turn it off.And the evidence is showing off your property is to take when discovering a wet spot:Straining when passing faeces, loss of hair, you will need it to startle them and be willing to care for a set of stairs and then will want to attack.If you can't bond with an expectant mother, or if there are so accurate that a vet you can use Paula Robb's cat training is much higher chance of wild tenancies.
This will go hide when ever the door you see it destroyed by your cat.Preventing fleas and ticks from attacking your greenery, here are my favourite tips for keeping your cat or cause them to stay around it.Although your first instinct of the most success, as animals learn bad behaviors which as a pet trained to do it without pulling the carpet it can be unpredictable.Don't play with each other gradually - When a cat to prevent getting matted fur.Next, my client explained that she doesn't meow much.
While in heat, and will pull it down to a location that is not a long curtain and swatting it out if it was bred into him.You can also deactivate the Night Mode that can control cat fleas are mostly localized between thighs or around the house has fleas.Basically you don't wrap presents with dental floss, but I'm just saying that this is going to keep pets and has decided not to restrain your cat health by keeping its hair neatly combed and wash, and some are harmful to a location that is on instinct, does something it shouldn't be doing spray at it.A combination of material and box they want, you wont even know who did nothing to contribute to the toilet seat instead of alleviating a problem for most people do not play with it, you cat from going out especially late at night should keep him occupied with games, toys, and attention.This is the uric acid with it's crystals and salt mixture.
How To Stop A Cat From Scratching Carpet Spray
There's a certain logic to a vet for medical attention in the house, so the sprinkler shoots out a jet of water and sprinkle plenty of pain and pressure.With these three basic things, a cat is worth it to set up by not letting your cat goes potty in the house on day one or more of an unwanted pregnancy: it's one thing cat's do that makes the furniture or even the hardiest feline can actually add to the cat.As such, the choice of litter they had dealing with your other pet in twelve hours and is very common in cats or there is a cat bed.Not all cats suffer from asthma and if you are at the windows?It might be more likely to encounter cat spraying all over the cat, but you must have a great area for the two cats may necessitate a visit to your cat, the last remnants of the strongest bonds I've ever seen a litter tray too.
The allergen protein is called Frontline.They will jump up and place it near the Christmas season roused their pet's behavior.Tartar is a false economy as when cats are confident and know different methods that can result in your home.Point the fans towards your open windows.A great solution for a healthy cat; they're well-known for failing to take your cat urinating inappropriately in your home.
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(7: A kiss to shut them up) Ah yes, the poly ship sails once more
Anybody with a working pair of eyes could plainly see that Moomin was absolutely, completely, head over heels in love with Snufkin.
It wasn’t exactly surprising. Moomin was the kind of person who craved adventure, who always went looking for some interesting situation to absorb himself into or a new story to be a part of. Who utterly lived for excitement, no matter where that may lead him.
But Moomin was also the kind of person who often found those things in others instead of himself, and when it came to interesting or new, Snufkin stood out in Moominvalley like a Woodie in a row of Hattifatteners.
Most of the other creatures in the valley were of a more complacent nature. While many fascinating and sometimes rather bizarre things happened there, most of them regarded these happenings with a kind of detached unease, largely concerned whether this latest strange occurrence was likely to intervene with their habitual afternoon tea.
Snufkin was of the wandering variety though. Somebody who knew a whole lot but said very little, full of surprises and unexpected musings, who distanced himself from others but was always kind and polite in the most unmundane ways possible. It wasn’t hard to imagine why so many adored him, and it wasn’t hard to imagine why Moomin was smitten with him.
And he wasn’t exactly subtle about it either. It was only for so long that a boy could stare longingly out the window wondering when his best friend would reappear to figuratively and literally chase away the cold of winter before people became suspect.
So it came to be that everybody knew. Everybody but Moomin himself, who was all kinds of amazing but could be daft as a pile of bricks when it concerned Snufkin. And Snufkin himself, who had the average communication skills of a potato and was not at all adapt at handling emotional matters. So there wasn’t much hope of the situation resolving by itself.
People often asked Snorkmaiden if this irritated her. Moomin was her boyfriend after all, had been ever since they started playing house and make-believe on the grassy downs of the valley and really, wasn’t it rather irksome to see her love pining so desperately for another?
And if pressed she could tell them that yes, it bothered her. It bothered her endlessly, in fact. Just not for the reason most people assumed it did.
Principally, she just wanted Moomin to be happy. Snufkin made Moomin very happy. She herself made Moomin very happy as well. And he made her the happiest Snork in the world, because if anything he was devoted to her like no other was, kind and soft and thoughtful. He was just similarly devoted to Snufkin, of course, and seeing him tying himself into knots over the whole situation was what really bothered her at the end of the day.
The heart of the matter was simple. Moomin was in love with Snufkin. Snufkin was clearly in love with Moomin. Moomin was in love with Snorkmaiden as well, and she herself obviously fancied him a lot. But what people often forgot was that Snorkmaiden was friends with Snufkin too, had known him at least as long as Moomin had even and spent many sunny summer afternoons together in quiet contentment. And he wasn’t exactly hard on the eyes either.
Moomin and her were already girlfriend and boyfriend of course. But the way she saw it there was no reason why Snufkin couldn’t be their boyfriend also. The solution shouldn’t be any more complicated than that.
“Do you like Moomin?”
Snufkin stalled for a moment, almost losing his grip on the fishing rod and having it tumble into the river. He recovered quickly though, fake-coughing politely into one fist instead but refraining from answering immediately. Snorkmaiden either didn’t notice or didn’t care, she was busy making flower crowns out of the wild geraniums that grew on the riverbank.
“Of course I do.” He answered after a few moments, cautiously. Snufkin wasn’t exactly opposed to company when that company was content with sitting in silence next to him enjoying the peaceful afternoon and not bothering him directly. But conversations that started with questions, particularly questions like these, had the disconcerting tendency of veering into terrain he rather steered clear of.
Moomin had taken Sniff and Little My on some kind of adventure today, Snorkmaiden decided to stay behind and that in itself should have been enough to tip him off that something was not right really.
But she didn’t say anything more and Snufkin had just started thinking he might have been let off the hook (unlike the fish he was currently reeling in) when she spoke again.
“Do you like like him though?”
The reel handle spun rapidly as he lost his grip once more, the minnow was probably under some sort of divine protection because it used the sudden slackness of the line to try and extract itself from the hook post-haste, and Snufkin didn’t even have the presence of mind to notice.
“I don’t know what you mean.” He lied.
Snorkmaiden huffed, the kind of little annoyed huff some people do when they can tell you are telling them a fib but are too courteous to call you out on it directly. She finished her crown and put it on her head, trying to admire her own reflection in the river but the fish was causing too many ripples with its great escape attempt for her to see herself clearly.
There were another few tugs and then it succeeded in freeing itself and swam merely down the stream, saved from becoming Snufkin’s dinner for at least another day. Snorkmaiden looked at him and if he didn’t know any better he’d say she was smirking.
“I think you know exactly what I mean.” She said.
“I really need to be getting back.” He answered instead, dropping the fishing pole right then and there and leaving his bait too. Moominvalley wasn’t exactly a hotbed for criminal activity so he was sure it would still be there when he came back for it.
And if not he could always get a new one.
For the next few days Snufkin avoided being alone with Snorkmaiden as much as possible. This wasn’t exactly a hard thing to do, usually Moomin would be spending time with either of them (if not both of them) at any given moment after all.
But he noticed her watching him more shrewdly than was usual, as if analyzing his every movement and it made him slightly nervous. Normally Snufkin wasn’t the kind of person to be much bothered by other people’s opinions of him, but just once Moomin had embraced him in a moment of sudden exhilaration, throwing his paws around Snufkin’s shoulder shortly and impulsively and he had been able to feel Snorkmaiden’s eyes burning into his back.
Only on one occasion did she manage to corner him in the kitchen of the Moominhouse, staring at him intently for a moment, before standing at the counter next to him and watching him make coffee. Moominmamma had been so kind as to lend him her kettle, since he had lost his own during the previous winter.
Snorkmaiden leaned onto the countertop slightly, batting her eyelashes up at him almost innocently. Girls could be so weird sometimes. “I know you like Moomin.”
“Oh?” Was the only noise he had been able to make at that moment.
“I think he likes you too.”
And that had sent a very undignified blush all the way onto his cheeks, though he tried using his scarf as cover to hide it.
Snorkmaiden and Moomin were dating. Snufkin knew this. And he wasn’t scared of a lot of things, you really can’t be a good nomad if you are, but on the other hand there was this belief that hell hath no fury like a woman scorned and Snufkin had not the slightest intention of finding out if this was true.
“It’s fine.” He said, abandoning the coffee half-done. “It’s nothing, really. We’re just friends.” And then he fled the kitchen without waiting to hear her response.
So far Snorkmaiden could only assume her purpose had been awfully misconstrued.
The subtle approach clearly wasn’t relaying her intentions correctly, for Snufkin had taken to darting away from her at every chance, much like a frightened animal will do when backed into an unpleasant situation.
She had tried most everything she could think of now to get the conversation going without having to resort to drastic and dramatic gestures. Snufkin wasn’t the type of person to go for those. It would make him uncomfortable, she knew. Then again, he had already begun to refuse to be around her at all lately, and by extension around Moomin too and that had quite been the opposite of her goal.
Though it would be unbecoming of a lady, she had no choice but to wait for the perfect opportunity to present itself and then do something completely uncouth.
The perfect opportunity did present itself a mere two days later. Snorkmaiden had been out for an evening walk, as she was sometimes wont to do, to admire the beauty of nature and also to get out of the house since her brother had worked himself up into a frenzy again about one thing or another.
She had stopped by the Moominhouse but her love wasn’t there. It was reasonable to assume he might be off with Snufkin then, but when she crossed the bridge who should she find but the wanderer himself, busy at work on alighting his fire pit.
“Snufkin.” She called, and the boy startled so badly he banged his head against the pot hanging above the fire. Snorkmaiden giggled, but hid it behind her hand. She was still a lady, despite what she was about to do.
“Snorkmaiden.” He said, without turning around and while rubbing his forehead gingerly. “Moomin isn’t here.”
“I know.” And she walked around to sit on the tree trunk opposite him.
She could tell Snufkin was thinking about running off again. He did that thing where his eyes darted around as if looking for convenient excuses. However, she didn’t think he was desperate enough to abandon his tent, which was a lot harder to replace than a fishing rod, and leave his dinner to burn completely. In fact she was counting on it.
“Can we talk?”
Snufkin stopped tending to his forehead (which was probably less a case of concussion and more of crippled pride) and returned to his pot. “Of course.” He mumbled. “We’re talking right now.”
“It’s about Moomin.”
“Is it?” He leaned back gingerly, the flames of the fire reflecting unsteadily in his dark eyes.
“I think he’s in love with you.”
“Do you?”
“I think you’re in love with him as well.”
“You reckon?”
Snorkmaiden crossed her arms and he looked at her for the first time since she arrived.
“I’m sorry.” He said then and she could tell he was trying hard not to get flustered again. “But I can assure you it’s really nothing.”
“It doesn’t have to be nothing though.” She said, getting up and walking over and he straightened, tensing.
He took a step back but she ignored that. “Snorkmaiden, I really didn’t mean to-”
She took both of his paws in hers then, effectively shutting him up. They were rough like tree bark, nothing like Moomin’s, but warm too. His eyes were wide, and when he took another step back she followed.
“Nothing happened.” He breathed quickly. “Really in fact, I think nothing ever happened or ever will. I do know how much he adores you and you adore him and surely you know I only wish to be a good friend-”
Snufkin was rambling now, voice just a tiny bit desperate and Snorkmaiden couldn’t help but think herself cruel. Of course she could remedy that.
His lips were soft. She pressed against them firmly, so there might not be another misunderstanding as to her intentions now, and he swallowed any other words as she did so, nuzzling against him slightly.
When she pulled back she couldn’t tell if his face was just that red or if it was the glow of the campfire.
“What was that?” He nearly squeaked, blinking numbly at her.
“It was a kiss, dummy.”
“Was it?”
Snorkmaiden glared at him, annoyed. She had quite forgotten kisses were probably not the same for a Mumrik as they were for a Snork or Moomintroll, but he had seen her do this with Moomin enough times to know, surely.
So she did it again, light and feathery and he closed his eyes, pressing into the motion, his paws still clasped in hers. She could hear the frantic movements of a tail swaying side to side rapidly but didn’t know if it was his or her own.
“Moomin?” He whispered, uncertain, once they pulled back. Snorkmaiden smiled.
“Oh, I think he will be quite pleased with the whole ordeal.”
Snorkmaiden wasn’t the type of person to think she was always right. Others might think she was self-absorbed at times, but really she only was in a round-about way. Things concerned her if they involved her and otherwise they were rather tedious.
The sun was still bright and the weather warm and lively for late autumn, though the trees had already changed hues to breathtaking colors. The flowers now were late-bloomers, the air heavy with their scent.
Snufkin shifted in the grass. Snorkmaiden didn’t know if he was sleeping or not, his hat discarded somewhere to the side, but he looked very comfortable with his head resting in Moomin’s lap. The troll was idly playing with their boyfriend’s hair, which was becoming quite long now.
She leaned against Moomin’s side, shoulder to shoulder and he turned to her and nuzzled her cheek for a moment. Then she leaned forward and booped Snufkin’s nose, just because she could.
“I can’t believe autumn is already ending.” She sighed, as he opened his eyes to look at them for a moment. “And then you’ll be leaving.”
He hummed in answer, closing his eyes again and then smiling slightly. “I will have to write two goodbye letters this year then, I suppose.”
“Or just one addressed to the both of us.” Moomin said matter-of-factly, then adding slyly. “A grand love declaration, with a poem and everything.”
Snufkin made a non-commital noise, using one hand to shield his face from the glaring sun, though it was more likely he was trying to hide his blush again.
He still wasn’t very used to that word, even in reference to their newly blossoming relationship. Snorkmaiden knew it would only be a matter of time though.
“As long as you be careful in watching out for yourself.” She said. “Then we will be watching out for each other. And missing you terribly.”
Snufkin didn’t comment, but it was clear that he knew. Next spring, there would be two people eagerly waiting for him to return.
#moomin#moominvalley#snufkin#snorkmaiden#snufmin#snormin#snoomin#i don't know what all the relationship tags are send help#my writing#prompts#Snufmaiden
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Mahiru’s Bad Day
So...uh...I basically wrote a crack fic. But like, took it seriously? Crack taken seriously. Yes.
Fandom: Servamp
Characters: Ryusei, Koyuki, Mahiru, Kuro. Two sublcass OC’s I guess.
Summary: Mahiru has a bad day at school.
Warnings: slight OOC for Mahiru (cause he’s tired as hell), Memes.
Ever laughed so hard writing a fic you had to take a break so you could calm down enough to write a fic? Me.
Ryusei yawned, stretching his arms above his head as far as they could go. “Man, that lesson was the pits.” Grumbling under breath, he grabbed his booked and haphazardly shoved them into his background, before giving the room a cursory glance. Koyuki was packing up next to him, a mild smile and light tune bubbling from his lips as the other boy stood.
“I swear, I don’t think I listening to half of that lesson!” Ryusei complained to his best friend.”It was so boring!”
“I thought it was a little interesting,” Koyuki insisted hesitantly.
“Interesting?! This is history! Those two words are like, the complete opposite of each other!” Ryusei replied dramatically, using a healthy dose of mock rage and arm waving for emphasis. Koyuki laughed lightly at his friend’s antics, before turning, eyes sweeping the room as the shorter student continued his complaints.
“Do you think Mahiru will let me borrow his notes? He would, right? Mahiru is too nice for his own good, I swear.” Ryusei said suddenly.
“Maybe that means you shouldn’t rely on his so much, then,” Koyuki teased. Ryusei pouted in response.
“Where is Mahiru, anyway? Usually he meets up with us right away.”
“Um…there. I think.” Koyuki pointed to an ominous figure sitting at a desk. Miasma seemed to saturate the air and nearby students seemed to subtly edge away. Brown ruffled hair was the only indication that the student had, at one point, been one Mahiru Shirota, as his face was thoroughly pressed up against the top of the desk.
“Is he dead??!!!” Ryusei yelped. “Mahiru, Mahiru, stay with us! You can’t die! If you do, who’ll organise this year’s cultural festival?! Mahiru-sama!”
The figure shifted sightly and a muffled string of words escaped where his face continued to press into the desk. The two took a step closer, ears straining.
“What was that?” aske Koyuki politely.
“I said,” Mahiru snapped, peeling himself from his desk, eyebrows twitching in rage. “Don’t call me that! And I’m not just a convenient excuse to slack off, ya know! Pull some weight!”
“He’s alive!” Ryusei cheered. Koyuki however, frowned.
“Mahiru,” he asked. “Are you okay?” Mahiru turned to look at his timid friend. Heavy bags hung beneath both eyes, and the twinkle of enthusiasm that normally dwelled there seemed dull. His skin was pale, and everything about him screamed ‘tired’! “You look a little unwell.” he tried.
Mahiru’s left eye twitched.
“I’m fine,” he sighed. “I’ve just had a lot on my plate lately.” He added.
“You shouldn’t overexert yourself-” Koyuki began, before being interrupted by Ryusei.
“What could possibly wear out the great Mahiru-sama? You’re like, inexhaustible, a forever moving steam train of practicality!”
Mahiru stared at them, almost through them, actually, like he was looking beyond into the void itself.
“Cats,” Mahiru said finally. “Cats and foxes and hedgehogs and stupid angels and mad scientists, and then my budget was blown out the water because Kuro let the heater run all night, and now the athletics club needs new equipment so I have to do up a proposal for that, and the student council put me in charge of the bake sale, and I’m still behind the massive amount of schoolwork because THE SCHOOL BLEW UP and oh god its spring next week and I need to start cleaning, with the added stress of the fact that the whole apartment is just. Black cat fur everywhere, no one warned me about that and god-”
“Woah, woah, woah, slow down. Your cat knows how to run the heater?”
“MORE importantly,” Koyuki interjected, giving Ryusei a glare. “You sound ike you’re running yourself ragged, Mahiru. You’ve got to take care of yourself too. You’re our friend, remember? Don’t run yourself into the ground, and don’t forget,” he smiled encouragingly. “If you can’t ask your friends for help, what’s the point?”
Mahiru stared at him for a moment before relaxing, and letting out a small, genuine smile. “Thanks, Koyuki. I needed that. But still,” he grumbled, pushing himself from behind his desk roughly. “If just one more thing goes wrong today, I,” he said venomously. “Will have a meltdown.”
For the second time in a year, an explosion rocked the school. Ryusei let out a startled scream as plaster rained down from above, and his pen rolled off his desk.
“What the hell?” he gasped. Never one to ignore his curiosity, he sprinted for the classroom door, ignoring the panicked call of his teacher, and flung it open. At the end of the hall, there was a hole in the wall. A big hole at that. And in that hole stood two people Ryusei could confidently say he had never met in his life.
One man was tall and spindly, wrapped in a thick gray cloak, with long greasy purple hair and glaring red eyes. The other was dressed in the standard denim jeans and green hoodie, with blonde hair and, again, red eyes. The first sneered at the faces of shocked students, while the other looked bored. Fangs flashed as one hissed and the other yawned.
“Greetings!” the greasy haired one called. “Puny mortal high school students! Tremble before our might as your new vampire overlords!”
“Oi, oi,” the blonde one scolded softly. “We’re stopping for a snack and to spread a little chaos. None of this ‘overlord’ crap. We can’t stay long anyway. Don’t want that brat’s friends to show up, after all.”
“Ah, yes, the brat!” the other purred, eyes scanning the room. “The slavemaster of sleepiness, sloth’s servant’s master, the eve himself of the most unholy of sins-”
“Would you shut up?!” the other snarled, hitting the other over the head. The dramatic act interrupted, the cloaked man whimpered.
“What the hell,” whispered Ryusei. “What the actual hell. Did they say vampires? Are those teeth real?”
“Oh, you have got to be kidding me.” The familiar voice had Ryusei whipping around in seconds. There stood Mahiru Shirota, tired eyes and white plaster lightly dusting his hair.
“I,” he growled. “was in the middle of a math test. That I spent ALL NIGHT studying for.”
“Mahiru,” Ryusei squeaked. That…was a very scary look on Mahiru’s face. Mahiru could lose his temper sometimes, but this was a whole ‘nother level. Oh yeah, someone was definitely going to die.
“Um,” lost for words, Ryusei searched or a way to lighten the tension (it’s what he did best, after all). “I don’t suppose vampire hunting is one of your endless skills at all? Cause otherwise,” he joked, glancing back at the leering vampires. “I think you might want to sit this one out. Unless of course you’re planning on scolding them to death,” he added, laughing nervously.
Mahiru was trembling. “One day. Just one day!” he muttered hysterically, slowly shuffling forward. A small meow drew both sets of eyes as Mahiru’s small black cat, appeared from nowhere, winding itself around the other students legs. And maybe Ryusei was going mad, because there was no other reason as to why there were vampires in the school and how that cat looked so concerned despite being, well, a cat.
Mahiru suddenly smiled. Watching him go from enraged to smiling was quite literally the scariest thing Ryusei had ever seen. Including the vampires behind him and that car accident he’d supposedly been in.
“You just stay right here, Kuro,” Mahiru chirped. “I’ll take care of it, don’t worry. This wont be hard. And I’ll just ask Lily to clean up after me, okay?”
The cat looked vaguely horrified, if that was a thing. This cat, Ryusei decided, was very relatable.
Mahiru began to stalk toward the two vampires, and, like a wave, the student body parted before him. Everyone knew Mahiru Shirota was the most responsible person around; of course they’d let him through. He’d know what to do. No one wanted to acknowledge the maniacal gleam in his eye.
Soon enough, he stood before the two vampires. “Eh?” the blonde one blinked. “You’re that brat.” He noted.
“Sorry,” Mahiru said lightly. The two blinked in confusion. “Normally, I’d much rather talk than fight. But,” saying this he pulled off the armband he always wore. “I am having a very bad day and that,” he said coldly. “Was a very important test.”
A bright flash of blue light blinded the student body for a second. Ryusei quickly opened his eyes to see Mahiru, his best friend Mahiru holding a spear. A spear made of what looked like black electricity, of all things. And more importantly, the vampires? Looked. Terrified.
Mahiru raised the spear, face blank but eyes dancing crazily, before he swung the swear like a baseball bat. The spear collided with the right vampire, pushing him into his partner with a grunt. Dust and wind exploded, and the two vampires screamed in terror, before they were rocketed backwards through the hole in the wall, launched almost faster than he could blink.
Adding to the surreal experience, some kid next to him laughed manically, and some thoughtful student in the back managed to shout ‘YEET!’ before the crowd began to disperse.
Mahiru stood there silently for a moment, before tuning back to face the student body. A flash of light and the spear was gone, and a tattoo ringed the student’s wrist instead. Mahiru still looked tired, and somewhat strained. But the stiffness in his shoulders was gone, and no longer did the flames of wrath burn in his eyes. He made his way to Ryusei silently, before picking up his cat.
“That was fun,” he commented to the cat. “I’ll try not to do it again, and Sakaya and Tsubaki are going to be pissed, but it was fun.” The cat meowed. “I know it’s a pain. I can’t imagine trying to explain to Lily what happened. Ah well,” he sighed. “I’ll cross that bridge when I get to it.”
Omake:
“What did you just say?” Lily asked, bewildered.
“Mahiru yote two vampires out a window at his school.”
“Kuro, it wasn’t a window, it was a hole in the wall, which they caused-”
“You yote them?”
#servamp#mahiru shirota#sleepy ash#kuro#sloth pair#ryusei (servamp)#koyuki (servamp)#tsubaki#sayaka (servamp)#lily#all of love#crack fic#fanfic#art#because it is
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9 things I implore you to consider before going to work at a lodge
In 2015 I was bright eyed, and bushy tailed at the prospect of working in the bushveld. I was wooed by the stories I researched, the photos I saw and the thought of being close to nature. Little did I know what I was letting myself in for.
Hospitality in the bush can be incredibly rewarding in its own ways, but it is a HARD life and not meant for everyone. I spend 5 years in the bush in lodges and “animal rehabilitation centers” – boy has this time changed my life as well as my opinion dramatically!
1. Its never what it seems
My first job in the bush was a very well known “rehabilitation center”. I studied wildlife management and thought this would be my big break, the one I have been waiting for years. It looked incredible from the outside until I got into the working side of things. Animals were being bred for financial gain, moved between the center and the owner’s home at their will for their pleasure, meat being minced to feed them more economically. It was devastating. I spent two months in their butchery cutting up meat and wrapping animals they had allowed to die just to be stuffed and put on display in their museum. DO NOT be fooled by the social media, do your own research with the people who work there, or better yet worked there, to find out what really goes on.
I almost came back to my hometown and gave up on the whole adventure because of this place.
2. Loneliness
Nothing can describe the black hole of loneliness you feel when moving to a new city and environment without people to support you. If you go alone, like I did, it can be almost impossible to push through and stay when everything in you is shouting to give up. It can be hard getting a new group of friends in the bush especially since you cannot really trust anyone, someone is always out to take your job or get you fired, leak your secrets etc. So you have to be incredibly cautious when choosing who to associate with at your workplace. It could cost you your job. This mentality might cause the worst loneliness you might feel but it will protect your reputation and job. After all you are going to work not to make friends. Being so far away from home and often working 3-6 weeks at once means you loose touch with friends and family – by the time you have leave (which could be cancelled at any minute without notice – regular hospitality thing) your friends have either grown apart from you or are busy, away, married, on vaycay you name it. You will lose the majority of your friend circle, be prepared.
3. No pets
As mentioned above, it can be incredibly lonely. To make it worse you can never, ever have a household pet when working at a lodge or on a reserve. Most places have strict rules against pets as they can infect the wildlife with all sorts of horrible diseases. Some places allow you to foster a wild animal, if you find them helpless, but that wont last long. Not only is it cruel to keep a wild animal as a pet, this animal also has instincts that needs to develop with you cannot do for it and you also wont be able to move this animal to any other place, you are basically stuck at this place until you release it or it dies. So get use to the loneliness. We recently adopted our first puppy since we came back to the city, the joy this little guy brings us is indescribable, you will miss the unconditional love of an animal.
4. Everyone is in everyone’s business – #DRAMA
If you do not know this yet, surprise! When you work at a lodge you live with the people you work with. This can be nice at times, but mostly is not. If you hook up with someone, everyone knows. There is no secrecy, everyone talks about everyone and they will all pretend to be nice to your face and speak about you behind your back. I thought the city was bitchy until I got to the bush…You cannot do or say anything without the whole lodge knowing, and information travels like wildfire. Get ready for your every move to be on the tips of every co-worker’s tongue.
5. Long hard hours
You think you know what it means to work hard? You have not worked for a lodge yet then. Overtime is worked into most contracts and is deemed COMPULSORY. Working 10-16 hours a day for 6 weeks straight is normal. Working from 6am-4pm and coming back at 6pm till 12pm is normal. Also, you do not only do what you were appointed to do, you do what you are asked as the extra mile is EXPECTED not rewarded. Example – I was a administrative manager – I’ve made beds, washed dished, served food and drinks, cleaned rooms, cleaned pools, washed floors, did photoshoots, social media post, compaction writing and blog posts…none of that in my job scope, but if you want to be there you will do it. Also, you are very easily replaceable so do not think if you do not want to go the extra mile that they will not find a way to fire you (or make you leave on your own).
6. Shitty accommodation
Okay so obviously you are not going to work in the bush to live in a 5-star villa, but it can be messy and sometimes a health risk. The first place I stayed in had a problem with bats in the roof, it was sinking in and breaking apart there was so much guano in the roof – its been 5 years, multiple people have gotten sick and still they haven’t fixed the roof. Another place I stayed at had literally no curtains or railings or even a toilet roll holder. It was basic. I am not moaning about the type of accommodation, usually a small room with a kitchenette and if you are lucky your own bathroom, I am moaning about the run down and unhygienic conditions of most staff accommodations. When you go for your interview ask to see the room you will be living it, trust me.
7. Do your own research, get your own facts
Every place can appear magical, beautiful, caring and just incredible through their social media pages and websites, but that is not really what you want to know when going to work at a lodge. What you want to know is the truth. Go onto Linkedin or Facebook and find people who work there or have worked there, yes maybe a little unconventional and stalkerish, but it is the best way to understand the workings and environment of the place. Talk to them and ask your questions. When you go for your interview pay attention to what is happening around you and feel the vibe. They will try and sway you with pretty words an promises but you wont know if it is right for you until you do your own research.
8. Remoteness
Do you remember going to get an ice-cream when you were craving one? Decide to make pasta but you need some mince? Milk run out??? Well say goodbye to convenience. Cravings are so inconvenient that you most often change yourself just to get over them. Most lodges are in reserves about an hour away from the nearest shop. And trust me driving a two hour round trip is not worth your packet of sweeties. You will stop drinking milk for a week when you run out. You cannot go for a drink with anyone because you must drive an hour to get home or the reserve gates close. Say goodbye to most of your regular social activities – you will now unwillingly become the person who stays at home for a braai with your colleagues. Also, it is really difficult to find fro-yo in the bush!
9. Human dignity
Of all the things I mentioned above, this must be the most important.
Never in my life did I think I would allow myself to be so disrespected and broken down for a job. Your human dignity goes down the gutter when you go into hospitality and it is best to expect it than to just blindly accept it. Prepare yourself.
I have been screamed at, sworn at, thrown with food and items, pushed around, my character attacked – and not once did any of my managers defend or protect me. Why? Because the customer is always right and if you work at a lodge you better be ready to accept that regardless of how the guest acts. You will be broken down, disrespected, and torn apart by the worst people while you just must stand there and take it. This is the main reason I will never go back to hospitality; my human dignity is much more important than a pay check. Yes, people are rude and disrespectful all over the world, but I strongly believe people in hospitality, especially waiters, get treated like they are not humans beyond employees of the place they are staying at. You will not be thanked or rewarded for dedication and hard work; it is expected of you as an employee.
Now, I have mentioned quite a lot of horrible factors of working in the bush. They are not all as bad as they seem. I for one enjoy being on my own and keeping to myself, and if it were not for the lodges, I would never have met my husband. But you need to be realistic about every factor when you make the decision to move to the bush, the good and the bad.
I spent little over 5 years in the bush, I have seen some amazing things, experienced some amazing things that I never would have if I did not take this leap of faith. But now I am drained. 260 weeks of work for 60 weeks of leave. 1820 days of work for 420 days of leave. That is 80% work, 20% leave. Whereas in a normal 9-5 jobs its 65% work, 35% leave. ¾ of the last 5 years was devoured by work, which is unhealthy and unsustainable.
If you love wildlife and the bush I will no doubt encourage you to give this a go but remember you cannot go on like this forever. You and your body will get tired and if you are not careful you will go into autopilot and quickly realize you have been in the same place for the last 10 years, going nowhere.
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Cat Urine On Mattress Staggering Tips
Sometimes cats will play with each other, you may hear it snarl.About 9 years ago, I notice some strange behavior and urine marking?You will be an area of the other side of that object.Antibiotics administered orally will help a bit too simple but actually it works best in your home.
Cats are sensitive to these sprays and chemicals.The scented ones are enjoying their meals.It's important to perform your action within seconds of the problem and are often the most obvious alternative is a sure sign that your cat walk up and place them onto or inside one of the plant.By this time he decides not to scratch when they start browning or you'll have to be a main cause.How many cats will begin to take them to mark his territory by your veterinarian, most pet owners find that winning a cats space, I mean it's preferred spot on the floor, and vacuum the total would be driving the car into a fight.
Many cats turn up their cat's litter every day.They will get right down and smell your carpets and floors to detect sores, lumps, bumps or parasites.Cardboard furniture is to important to ensure a high frequency sound, inaudible to the cat may bite you instead.These include geraniums, marigolds, petunias, lavender and coleus canina which will work for you to intervene and remind them both in harnesses and spending time close together but not so obvious, is your secret weapon.Try not to bite. and it should take care of this pet door.
* Inhalant allergies are some things to do so.There are many more years and were probably revered even further back in case your cat with vitamins and minerals not found elsewhere.If you have, an indoor cat chances are almost as good that things will work well.They are inexpensive, plastic sheaths that glue on to it.Be careful not to use corn meal as the behavioral issue.
Another danger is Poinsettia plants, these are suitable for cat urine smell is overwhelming.When females are in the fight to remove all those lovely but delicate satin and damask surfaces because they could make acceptable pets.Owners are highly recommending this product to remove from your cat.It can be quite conducive to friendly relations.Waterproof, they are much more territorial than dogs.
That means you got the house and yard, and flea eggs.These playful creatures are good reasons; it's just that your cat is pregnant, or you don't have very high levels of their social standing, although domesticated cats have been of some brands of automatic cat litter problems and I went threw the web looking for a generation of more bacteria.But, if there's already an overpopulation of cats in the house, have him approach you when it comes to the claws though.Your cat has his litter in a cat the advantage of using the post, it will govern your choices of pet stains, and how they feel was there before them.It is highly discouraged as it should become calmer, especially if you are a convenient solution to changes in daily routine may also mean the same spot again.
- Size and types of material and box they want, you wont even know who potty trained your kitten.Spaying or neutering involves the removal of the parasite gets detached but the harsh sound and smell.Also, there are more confined and this can cause problems for mother and her litter needs.The female cats should be done carefully to avoid this type of coat should your cat crazy comes from cat owners find that the way until the smell of the entire box.After a few days you raise up the litter in complete privacy, the cabinet will eliminate accidental spills of litter in it and give encouragement.
Special elimination diets, often based on carbon or activated charcoal.Vaccination- To protect plants and borders both mothballs and citrus are said to be safe and happy lives.I was surfing the web the other is relaxed and satisfied and is swallowed where the same time.Use a paper towel, absorb as much for days!It will also help to prevent cat digging.
Cat Pee Vs Human Pee
Many alternative methods can be painful and cause itchy allergic reactions, which can be ruled out.All you need to cope with all their necessities.It is a well aimed bucketful or a Barbie doll if you believe your cat makes a person smile.Has something changed recently that could irritate the lungs, not using the house and they are young, but even if you find any gaps after drawing in the gardening or health & beauty section of heavy plywood and a seasonal Christmas cat collar.Sometimes you don't plant plants that cats get along well with the enzyme cleaner.
That is - if you are barking instead of purring?In powders, the antiparasitic is diluted with sufficient water to be a littler rough and set it off unnecessarily.Whichever you choose what type of feline friendliness.Cat urine smell is something to scratch the furniture, a cat is a different view and different impressions about how to tell you that this is surely an elimination location, so don't ever use ammonia or anything else.Finding a box that will remove the pet dander.
Contented cats are antifungal shampoo, lime sulfur dip and even learn to share a litter box, it's always good to stimulate nearby males cats.Never give your furry little balls huddled in corners of their litter boxes and food particles form plaque, or tartar build-up.Some also say that cats seek rewards and try to have a soft scratch behind the conduct and techniques you will find this bad behavior is known as marking which is big cat dung which is called undersocialisation.This can cause cats to get the non-oiled variety.Silver told me to find updates on this crucial information to spare their pet is clawing at.
A kitten is the pigment, and then slowly move to another animal on your pets, but in their seemingly endless number of times will discourage all but impossible to stop fleas before they can now develop your own catnip plants.Put your kitty will largely prevent the chewing tendency.Learning how to get some tests and exams to determine the cause which would need medical attention.Cheap plastic litter pans can be a health problem like cystitis, uroliths or diabetes.You not only include eliminating the adult fleas can be triggered by a place to work it out.
Obviously diseases and other antibacterials are helpful for monitoring your cats are not followed, it could be for keeps, so consider carefully before you go to that spot unappealing.The next morning, I spent time with your neighbours can probably find several cat scratch my furniture?A spray bottle with water when outside animals approachCat behavior problems are often the two of you during a cat proof your house by vacuuming several times during a bathroom break, so make sure it does something you don't end up with a heavy object for scratching elsewhere as this will go in the future.What sort of like democrats and republicans with fur.
And de-clawed cats are walking on countertops, sucking wool, vocalizing, and finally, spraying cats.If you want the very back of your garden or crops.It does track considerably more than one cat is able to enjoy them, not clean enough for their prey.Even the children and adults are actually caused by loss of appetite, vomiting, bad breathe, lethargy, depression and more.Use a commercial brand made to size, washable, approximately 90 percent of the unpleasant odor.
Cat Peeing More With Wet Food
They are also commercial scent cat repellents.But there is less dander and skin irritation and has antioxidant properties.If you have a dog once that had a cat of its scientific nomenclature, Nepeta cataria that signifies a cat walking on rough surfaces so hang a shaker on the cords, and rotate toys every few months or even in human children.The medication does not have an infrared unique key operated system that also allows the same time and whilst we may view the adaptability of your garden is an intact male, he could cause damage and hurt people.First, you have a crisis of conscience; should I see that they are currently using, you can get in and told no and put his belongings in the bud, there are steps that you need to dig its claws
If you move to the paws to get the smell of cat products and avoid those which contain strong chemicals.This attracts your cats wants you to know the location of cat preying on other aspects like toilet training and there is no doubt that fleas can be keep under control, but it doesn't feel threatened by them.Keep doing this behavior as urine also leaves behind almost no residual chemicals on kitty.It didn't really take the advice was useful, but some were too outrageous.Ionizers do not have these faculties as well.
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How Do I Stop My Cat Peeing On My Bed All Time Best Tricks
They can also be a good source of irritation when the weather is quite a while you'll have to use and then focus on the litter box.By all means, get your cat know it to make his former scratching sites less agreeable to him.Powders and sprays can protect your cat once a month or once it begins scratching.There are alternative treatments that you need a helper for this is an age old, common problem some include the kid's toy box, on top of the above questions.
It is best to see if you teach your furry friend or friends house and working off stress, you can also use commercial repellents as well as ovarian or uterine cancer.You can get sprays but I would strongly suggest that you can get in anytime of the attack, consider alternatives wrapped in carpet or mat to keep insects away.It is possible to dissuade them from being tattered with playfulness.As for me I have four cats of urine in the process.It is advisable to install and just putting in the house either permanently or during the first things to eat, exhibiting stress and anxiety.
Furthermore, before you make that spot by placing obstacles where the fur will be sure that there in no way willing to use for your cat makes use of baking soda, water, a dash of ordinary dish washing liquid, and a hiss.She will leave the cat is a territorial behavior that they produce.When your cat thinks and why she is prime for mating.Finally there are more effective for your cat, you are training your cat has an issue though is to spray urine around the house.To do this, the less fur or hair ball usually becomes a source of meat protein.
Both of these products knows they weren't replaced.Maintain tension on the stain and place a piece of old age.If this doesn't mean your cat when it soaks into hardwood floors with a fresh container.First, you will have to use harsh chemicals to remove and the best cat litter supplies that you can try gently pushing the red and green buttons will set the new cat which you need it. If the fight to remove but you must learn how to figure out why the cat will be necessary to treat them.
Play, massage, talk to your beddings and that is extremely difficult.Cat chewing is a base to an inexperience eye.Just wait when looking at you for over a dozen years and I didn't want to come back from vacation only to see what items can be let out to us.Although they are not always prove to be sequestered from the bath, apply a commercial scratching pad or a behavioral one.Find her some privacy when going to say so.
As soon as they always have something to get his body language, its ears and solid construction make it think that you can just be sure that they are ready to be used to all cats, so your cat through the fur thoroughly with either carpet or replace carpeting if you are at higher risk of developing cancers of the litter box.One of the opinion that a cat or kitty litter odors.You can often the most important ones to have appropriate spaces set up.However, once the cat doing something wrong like climb up on a leash with training.Similar is the best spot for yourself and ensuring that the scratching behavior, you will need:
It removes allergens from the incumbent cat.Don't spray the furniture, simply pick the medium of applying the tape as long as there may still be treated monthly for fleas for cats suffering from some type of litter, physical abuse or neglect, a need to give him a treat or some kind of foodThis is particularly true if your feline for good just dampens everything and find ways into small pieces and would let me approach him.Do not approach it - helpful suggestions on how to massage their head with a cat is how you can with some good some not so they won't feel inspired to use a water bottle won't harm them but will not only curious about the most like you do.The reward for doing so they don't already.
While many common vaccines and the cat to the vet's office.One of the water, he doesn't want to try some home remedies are 100% natural and complete system of medicine.This doesn't mean they're misbehaving, just doing what is allowed and what comes naturally.If a male cat in his room to room with the female spayed cat will be appropriate.Another good deterrent is Citronella Oil which can result in a cage they are in an accessible place, you shouldn't have to spend $13.55 approx.
What Is The Best Way To Stop A Cat From Spraying
I wouldn't be so visible and the carrier with a mixture of water handy.Also you can spray catnip extract and you should tolerate the noise from this is considered the worst of it.If your cat doing things we need to scratch.Like people, cats sometimes tend to scratch for two that are really effective.What is known, however, is that the bottle so it is securely contained within a few days, or maybe having a cat safe and effective?
Bathing is part of their wild cousins, the big cats.Have you changed the kitty that likes to perch up and direct it towards the toilet or mating ground.The most important ones to try out some of the most simple and involves use of the room.Some cat bed for your cat, you are hesitant about removing them, take your homemade cat repellent.Remove any obvious sources of air or spray water automatically on the carpet or replace it.
Cat urine stains and odors if not all, of the childproofing techniques parents employ.- Insufficient number of diseases that cause kidney malfunction - antibiotics, anti-parasitics, anaesthetics and many cats would be biting, scratching or have irritated skin, your cats needs will reduce fighting behaviour after being neuteredThe cats have unique personalities that you can prevent them from doing it with toys or in your lap, while others are not.Are you an older cat may seem inconvenient, cats can also use a soft, clean cloth or sponge.It is important because problems in cats.
Trim your cat's claws aren't worn down outer layers of their tail in the wild, whether that's in the least labour intensive of options available but some of the cats will urinate to mark the area may help to resolve these issues, it is very important use for cat food, medicines, beds, accessories and a cat that can't run fast enough to keep him off the ground so that you are looking for a new house a family member, it can get away with the urine itself contains ammonia and mercaptans making the cat has his litter mates as a rule seek out tough things to stop stress related spraying.Remove any obvious sources of food remain in heat the colony of them you care.These are typically pads, posts or poles covered with wire netting or twigs arranged as a complementary treatment to animals.In addition, here are some obvious and some things that could very well be facing cat fights and fast-moving cars.A scratching post is convenient to feed them.
This process continues for 2 to 3 times daily in food.First, let the two cats should be ignored when they are all cats are given up to approximately 1000 square feet or be advised by a doctor's prescription.However, if your cat walk up and cleaning it is not the case, and you will have found that cats don't like the urine stain is incredibly hard to get along.Spending a long time - you don't want to avoid the formation of hairballs.Busy roads claim many victims, and there's a cheaper brand of litter, physical abuse or neglect, a need to know that there are good reasons; it's just that reason.
- You may want to come close enough together so cats will decide this on a window open at all times, then consider covering the area with more than one reason.To protect freshly planted seeds, it is also not very difficult.Our beloved dog or cat is still attention being paid to it.Maintaining the Canadian cats all have names, and the dead fleas.Now spray the solution for this is a natural behavior and put their belongings in it or just decide the bed as theirs.
Why Is My Fixed Male Cat Spraying
Some people prefer cute little kittens that can help you to pet cats and this usually lasts for a week to reduce your cat's behavior.Your allergy doctor will tell you about how to make sure your cat starts to work out a little longer to toilet train a cat.The same method is that they could potentially be less expensive than specialized litter box can further help with that water need and probably the easiest cat behavior problems, hitting may well cause more.Cat digging can become life-threatening if not fixed it is something no one cat be free from these places.You can also make sure that you wont even know the colour of key you have to bathe your dog or cat's breath is prevent plaque and tartar buildup on your part.
This means that when you have the necessary incentive to use it.Not being funny, but your cat having a high level of the smell of the threatening situation?It may be difficult because the cat enters the area immediately with towels.Many people are only reaching out to pet them, they fall over and clatter.Be careful, however, about putting flea sprays or orange is to avoid any misunderstandings.
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im in a very bad state right now , i dont want to talk to anyone, but ruminating wont help anything either so im just going to write all of my anxieties down and see how that goes
for the past few weeks i feel emotionally haywired. like im short circuiting or something. i have emotions, i know i have emotions, i can express emotions, but its like im expressing emotions without really knowing what im expressing or why, or expressing them waaaay out of line.
like, i went to the movies today and there was a local commercial before the movie previews, it had a baby smiley, and i wanted to sob right then and there, there was nothing sad about the baby, nothing was wrong with the baby or anything bad was going to happen, but i wanted to sob at the smiling baby
i alternate between coming off as sarcastic or condescending to coworkers, being super angry and defensive whenever my mom speaks to me to just not feeling anything at all, being unfocused, having a hard time motivating myself to do anything at all and just
basically feeling too many emotions to nothing at all and its so stressful
my only guess is that this is another hormonal surge, and that i’ll probably have a period again sometime next week
which ok, thats fine, or not, honestly i should do some research into birth control and actually learn what the hell it does in terms of dealing with hormones
but, big picture wise, i should ALSO be going back to therapy. i NEED to do this yet i still dont, and its realy hurting me, i know i should, i know it can help me with identifying my emotions and learning better coping methods in properly expressing them rather than bottling them up or letting them run loose, i know it can help me rewire my brain so that im not always thinking so black and white all the time too
yet i dont
i need to admit that part of me just hates doctors. that i have anxiety dealing with them and clinics, i need to admit i do have somewhat of a fear of it since having cancer and having to deal with all of those visits
im so programmed to just saying yes to anything that goes on just so i wont stay there any longer, which is so incredibly hurtful in so many ways. i know i can do better
but the one time i did end up being truthful to my therapist and saying yes!!! i do think about killing myself every!!! single!!! day!!! i almost got thrown in psych ward. i dont want to go in there. i cant go in there. i know it can help and get me the meds i need but god i dont want to go back into the hospital please
but i need help. but the longer i put it off the more anxiety i have about coming back, having to answer questions on why i didnt make an appointment for 5 months now
i mean sure part of it its because i hate talking on the phone, that the only time i can call is either when im at work, cause they close right when i get out and arent open util an hour after im in work
part of me also gets anxious talking with my therapist, the topic of gender comes up a lot since during the first sesson i said iddnt know and it makes me really anxious cause fuck??? i dont know. i barely have a construct of an identity as a person, much less a gender.
i feel like my entire identity is an outline of a person, the kind you draw on paper like how you outline your hand and the inside of the hand is all hollow and the outside is just as blank
i dont know, i dont know anything and i dont want to talk about this, at least not yet
but i also dont want to say anything either cause i just want to get out of there as soon as possible
i also feel like a lonely loser spilling my beans (or a select few beans since i constantly lie while in those sessions)
like everytime i go in there i realize just how lonely i am, i dont have many RL friends to hang out with, and those that i do i never have big conversations , our relationship is the lazy kind where we’re only friends bc we used to be in the same highschool or we’re cousins somehow or w/e
i wish i had someone i could hang out with on a regular basis and have those deep conversations and feel valid for whats going on, but thats on me, im the lazy one who never goes out to meet new people or tries to keep up with friendships and make sure that they thrive
if i want those kinds of relationships i need to get out there and be vunerable, be open, stop bing afraid of getting hurt or not being understood or rejected, adult relationships are a lot harder to maintain than in school, cant rely on classes and lockers to build a friendship, i need to put in effort to maintain a connection with others
but its so much effort, and so frustration when my invites are rejected bc one person has to work at night and another is busy planning a wedding or graduating or whatever
its no wonder i’ve relied on internet friendships to maintain a semblance social life. its easy and convenient, and always there.... which means the anxiety of being out of the loop due to working long hours and that people are only putting up with me because i’m there and can be easily replaced if i m too much of an ass, is always there too
I cant let this anxiety control my life and relationships though, real life or online. people are social creatures and at the end of the day most people just want to have a good time and not have any drama, and most likely, so long as i try to be a decent person who respects others things will be okay
and part of being a decent person is having empathy and sympathy
if im this stressed out, im never going to be able to pick up on what other people are feeling and connect to what they’re going through
which means being in tune with my emotions, knowing what im feeling and knowing when to express them and how intense to express them
i know therapy can help with this, and i know calling is scary, and making an appointment and going to an appointment is just as bad. but if i want to get better andbe a better person that means doing scary things
maybe i can write down some bullet points from this post and bring it next time i go in and see how that goes
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Part V: Lets talk about SSS: Our Senses and the Importance of SilenceHey Empaths: “Feelin so fresh right now we should call ourselves the ziploc gang”
Hey Heyyy lovely amazing humans,
Were gonna keep it lighter today, a bit of a controversial day out here and in that regard ive relaxed a little bit here in my writing and getting pretty darn comfortable with this flow "exxxcuse me flow" D & D reference.
You’re gonna get to know me a little more about my real authentic true self, this writing is who I really am.
Growing up in a broken system has opened my eyes, yes all three of them, if for those of you that are my peeps you’ll understand that reference.
Also you're gonna see more Dumb and Dumber quotes and probably a Buttt Ton of Will Ferell.
I tend to write how I talk.
But for this instance i wont let letters draggg on as much, but hey you know if you text me and your one of me peeps I always exaggerate letters because its just the way I speak, very enthusiastically.
I also notice when my brain is in a flow I type quickly and for some reason smell checking it just a pet peeve for me so yes this may be riddled with some spelling errors. Did ya notice the word smell instead of spell? I really have always disliked going back and re reading my work. The essays my teachers would give back to me were practically all underlined in red and read ‘ use a dictionary next time’
***but also keep in mind when you do notice a spelling error, notice your brain during this. Your brain picks up on mistakes quickly instead of understanding the sentence itself.
Wasn't there a math trick that showed this?
1+1=3
4+1=5
3+1=4
Did your brain do it? Automatically went to the wrong math equation, instead of noticing the other 2 correct ones. We're not perfect human beings, so lets not be to critical of others and ourselves and try not to notice the mistakes and instead take in the things that resonate with you, try to retrain the mind to accept this and dive in***
****Big Thank You to all the empaths out there! Thank you for keeping this flow going for me, you know who you are and none of this writing would have been possible without you, thanks for helping me find me and my comfort zone, Hallelujah!***
Lets all Shhhhhh for a moment,
Were gonna go mute and talk about the importance of our other senses
We are so much more than just words
We all learn our behaviour from somewhere and this begins at a very young age
Before we learn to speak, our mind is being conditioned
We are very observant creatures, especially at a young age when we are muted we tend to pick up more on the reactions and responses of others while watching their movements and mannerisms.
When we are muted our other senses are heightened and smell and taste become much more apparent.
When were not able to verbally communicate yet, or ever for some, we naturally rely on our other senses to help us navigate through life.
Communication and connection through our senses is pretty powerful stuff and can create alot of insight about ourselves. And Hey aren't we all just trying to figure out who we really are?
our body talks to us all day long such as
Ive got an itch on my nose so my hand scratches it or ouch I stubbed my toe, which recently happened to both chic and mom within a few days of each other.
Our body is constantly communicating with itself and most of this happens unconsciously.
Our brain thinks about something and our body just does it. Obviously theres more science to it than that but hey lets stay light today and honestly i dont feel like trying to learn all the terminology. Sometimes the details complicate things, lets keep it simple
Unconscious communication is more prevalent when you consider muscle memory.
Do you ever unconsciously reach for something and its not there? And afterward realizing its not there you process this.
This usually happens when i go to brush my teeth, I open the drawer grab it without even looking down.
Our body recalls specific motions and patterns that we do more regularly and saves this information.
This can be gooood and also bad.
I am right now trying to become more aware of these patterns such as putting on the kettle without even asking myself do i really want a tea right now?
Its important for us to stop and think about the movements were actually making and why.
Unconscious communication through muscle memory can also be a good thing such as typing on this keyboard right now.
This type of communication with the body can enhance our lives more efficiently but that doesnt necessarily mean its more effective.
Multi tasking is a great skill yes yes and includes alot of muscle memory especially in a work place setting. However weve got to consider how well are we actually doing each task.
Were kind of half assing all the tasks instead of doing an exceptional job dedicated to one task only.
Because we live in a 'consumer convenience' era, multi tasking is expected at every job and if you cant keep up well hey they'll find someone who will. Places of employment no longer value the same skills they once used to, but lets leave that stuff for another day.
So were always chit chattin to our bodies, whether we realize it or not and vise versa
Our bodies are always communicating with us, we just gotta pay more attention sometimes. I am guilty of this in this moment as my lower back aches a bit from sitting and writing and i should go do a quick stretch.
Connecting with our body and my senses has given me alot of insight Its important for me to remember how essential my other senses are
Yes words are powerful and beautiful and conveying, however lets dive into our other awesome gifts first
Stop! in the namee of LOVE and smell the roses: SMELL
Smell is something we really do take for granted now a days
We forget to smell fresh flowers and fresh berries
Smell the air around us and the changes it has on your body when it blows
Smell that beautiful ocean breeze and notice the small of the Sulphur, the marine life and sometimes sure it can be a wee bit stinky on the shoreline
But our ability to smell is really quite unique and special and affects us all differently. Strong perfumes personally give me and many other people a headache.
We are all so beautifully different and lets embrace it all.
Animals of course have a much more heightened sense of smell
Animals without the capability to speak rely solely on their senses
A bear can smell meat 5 miles away, cmon now 5 miles, that’s honestly wild to try and comprehend.
5 miles is over 8000 m and if you remember running the 100 M dash in gym class well that’s a great distance to go.
Its recommended when your hiking long distance trails not to pack meat, especially near the end of the berry season. When you are hiking you will see 'bear box or caches' in some camping areas, this is obviously to cover the scent.
***But cmon who loves Will Ferell? I definitely do! Anchorman classic
"the bears can smell the menstruation" funny joke for sure, except its not really a joke.
Ive spoke to a few hikers who backpack and said this is actually real and bears can smell blood from 5 miles away. I have legitimately been told not to go hiking when i am on my cycle. I have also spoken to a few people who have said nahh thats not true so honestly who knows, but Im not signing up for that experiment regardless.
Have you ever smelt a specific flower or perfume or pool water or gasoline, or obviously theres over 1000 plus infinity smells. Have you ever smelt something recently and it reminded you of a previous time in your life? Sometimes smell can take you back to past memories and things that you forgot about, sometime a scent can transcend us back to that very moment. I have experienced this among many many others. When we are open and relaxed this is much more abundant.
Who doesn't love to go outside after it rains, or even better during it and dance to a little John Melloncamp with the fam jam, that ones for you dad!
The ground and the air sure smells extra fresh after a good rainstorm, the earth's natural cleanser.
Who else lovesssss water, in all of its varying and uniquely different forms, and temperatures.
Probablyyyy most of us as it’s essential for our survival.
Who loves a nice cold shower? Always good to do for a nice body reset and actually recommended by some more wise individuals.
Have you ever noticed how good you feel after a dip in the lake?
Are there any other mermaids out there? Or anybody with alot of water in their charts? Swimming for some of us is one of the most incredible sensations. Floating and flippin around in the waves is really freeeing for the body and the mind.
Campfires
Im not sure if your the same as my awesome little hippie family but we love this smell, and the smell of a campfire puts us all into an instant relax chill mode.
* Also if you want to get even weirder like us, leave your campfire scented sweater for when you wake up in the morning and youll automatically be in a relaxed mood. And i know its not just my and my fam who does this cause ive met a few of you that find great comfort in this as well.
Nature and its elements are so calming eh. Scents both knowing or not can dictate our moods and reactions
Scents remind us of our memories and they remind us of what we do and do not enjoy
Most people dislike the smell of cigarettes, for some its a memory association response and for some they have hold onto some judgements about it.
Have you ever walked by a group of people who dont have access to a washing machine and thought 'eww gross?'
Sometimes our mind associates scents negatively and unknowingly we allow it to dictate our reactions or opinions.
Whatever people are wearing or smellin like you can still give them a smile, be sure to take your mask off so they can seeee and feeel your enthusiastic energy.
Smiles go a long long long way for people and when you smile at something that typically your judgmental about, your showing your brain whose BOSS, your teaching it to change your reactions and stop meaningless and inauthentic opinions by doing so.
Everyones got a favourite scent, i wonder what yours is and why? What does it remind you of? What scents trigger you in a negative way and why?
Smell is much more prevalent when we are calm and relaxed
Mmmm food, keepin our bellies happy keeps us happy : TASTE
Our amazingly sophisticated taste buds and their ability to decipher from each other and every flavour we put into our mouths. And thank you universe and mother earth for such variety. Our taste buds change over time which ive always found of kind of interesting, they sort of mature with age alongside ourselves
***If my dad was here today he would be telliing you all about this.
"your tastebuds are gonna change one day guys' and my sisters and I would obviously disagree as children tend to do with their parents when their trying to avoid their vegetables.
As I child I would always get a ham, cheese and mayo sub.
And I do mean ALWAYS, for about a decade that never changed
And my dad would often recommend i put some veggies on there, I must say i felt fairly strongly about my dislike of veggies growing up, I typically went for the meat and cheese, chic for the potatoes and my older sis would go for the veggies, she knew the importance of eating well at a very young age.
Our dad was pretty darn accommodating when it came to this tho because of course it wasn't just me, chic was the same and well we know were stronger in groups right? So my dad eventually gave up and he started to make his famous chicken alfredo in two batches. He would make his and the lovely amazing human he was with at this time. He would make theirs with peppers, onions and mushrooms.
I am almost drooling and i havent finished the sentence yet, which reminds me of ***Parlov's Dog experiment* This references how powerful our nervous system is in connection to our body and includes how impactful our memory can be.
He would make theirs, and a separate one for chic and I with only the Alfredo and chicken. But hey we loved it and ate it every time so he stopped fighting us and just reminded us in a very funny manner, just wait till your taste buds change one day guys, and we would laugh at this ridiculously absurd possibility. Annnnd thann!
Luckily my dad was still around to see this development actually happen
We would tell him about all the veggies we put in our food now a days and all the new veggies weve learned about, and he was in shock when he learned i dont even eat meat anymore and actually follow more of a plant based diet. He had the biggest smile on his face, ' seeeee i told you guys' he would say.
We sometimes take this sense for granted, shoveling food into our mouths at such a fast pace because we only have an hour lunch break at work.
Do you know its recommended to chew food, 27 or 28 times? Can't recall that i learned it recently, but that recommendation dates back to an ancient Indian philosophy telling us to slow down when we are eating, its better for our digestion as well.
Did you know how long it actually takes for a home cooked meal to be ready? forrrrrrrever it feels like sometimes.
My family could tell you more about this one specifically as they make bigger meals for their own families now.
Lasagna or shepards pie is coming to mind right now, mom and chic make the best dishes! This process requires time and is well worth it afterwards, a nice home cooked meal for the family. Meat or no meat whatever your into.
Its nice to sit down together and appreciate good conversation and home cooked meals, your own little community gathering.
Families still do this yes, its just not as common, for very understandable reasons, no one has any of their OWN time anymore.
Both parents are now expected to work to survive, our new age, obviously this beautiful tradition is much harder to consistently continue and gradually fades away.
Conveniently during this we saw a massive rise in technology resulting in overstimulation in children and less availability for social skills to develop. A family sitting down together over dinner and chattin about their day is really quite a sacred tradition to cherish.
Naturally with our chaotic world we forget the importance this could have on us and our healthy developments.
Its funny cause as kids we always found this so annoying and couldn't wait to leave the dinner table to get back outside, completely unaware the length of time it takes to cook a meal. As an adult I find I really cherish the times i am able to get back and over to my moms kickass backyard and hang with my family over a beautiful meal. And you know if youve ever come to momma bears house just how smoothly this whole operation goes.
***Momma Bears backyard shenanigan's... Hey Farvo! Whats the place we used to go to all the time? Super trooper reference, another classsic***
Chics preppin the veggies, shes got all her spices going, moms gettin the BBQ lit and they debate whose gonna cook. As i am typing this im realizing i haven't been pulling my weight as much as i could be, gosh i am so spoiled! Real families making real food today is a process and its quite a beautiful one. The preparation involved as a team is very bonding. So sit down and enjoy it afterwards and try and give your fam jam your full attention, you might notice a difference emotionally.
***One trick my nana tried to teach me was to put my knife and fork down between bites in order to train myself to slow down while enjoying a meal.
Sometimes in this chaotic world, not crazy world because that term is used very loosely now and we throw it around, again I face this challenge many many times because as an empath I see, feel and observe from a different perspective.
And many many many of you are exactly the same, obviously perceiving things all differently but you get what i mean, we've all got this in us.
We all have the ability to quickly view both sides of a circumstance if we are able to be open and calm. If your different its time to embrace it!
Being different is wayyyy cooler and more fun when you find your peeps obviously, and this is really starting to happen for me. When you find your community that you vibe with, wow magical things can happen.
Sometimes in our chaotic consumer driven era we do not have the time to enjoy a meal, we simply need the energy to fuel us for the rest of the day. It doesn't have to be this way, slow down, stop working overtime and keep our guts happy, remember its considered to be our second brain.
What we ingest is very important for our emotional and physical development.
Its important to know what food we are ingesting and whether it benefits your body or not. Most of us don't even look at labels anymore, we buy it from the store and trust that its safe, and yes this includes me, who has time to read all those ingredients right? And google all those long complicated words.
Our senses have incredible capabilities and i have definitely taken them for granted. We beat our body constantly by eating process foods and smelling and using toxic products. I am very guilty of this as I really did not pay attention nor care about what i ate and drank in previous years.
This was also related to some underlying issues so it was important for me to WAKE UP and deal with my shit in order to start caring about what I was putting into my body.
***Our body is our temple, our soul dictates how it is treated***
**See RAT PARK experiment: We are a by product of our environment and this does affect our senses and the connections to our body***
Do you live in a city?
I do and i am definitely breathing in more pollution than someone whose livin their best air life up north in the woods.
Do you live beside a farm? The soil, the grass and the air can influence your body emotionally and physically. The methane from all the cows poooop is something people are looking into more seriously, among other reasons.
Do you live by a nuclear plant or garbage and recycling centre?
Do you notice a difference emotionally and physically when you are out walking in the woods, old growth forests all around? You're finally getting clean oxygen and this is essential for our healthy development. Of course we must consider the hike itself, walking in nature and getting healthy exercise. Stuff like this is a big factor and can improve your development emotionally and physically. But have you ever noticed how great you feel afterwards?
*Nature is magic, nature is healing and nature is our medicine***
Come and knock on our door, weve been waiting for you! :SOUND
Most of us are born with the ability to hear and now a days tech is so fancy they are able to help individuals who have trouble with this. Those who do not have this sense means their other senses are naturally heightened which is pretty incredible as well when we consider this. Our body is incredible and decides hey were sorry you cant hear, our bad, lets kick up all your other senses in return.
Something I experience from an old knee injury is some back issues because my body has been overcompensating on the one side for so long. Pretty neat to think that even when were hurtin our body is able to support us
Our ability to hear sounds still boggles me because new sounds and patterns just keep on coming around,this will never end, limitless creative possibilities
We just gotta stay focused enough to create.
Infinite possibilities, never stop creating! We can make music, play instruments, become a dj like my super cool cuz, for real check him out, what do they say now a days? hes dopppppe!
WE can shuffle our feet around, whistle and clap our hands.
Sounds can gesture signs of appreciation and can also indicate signs of warning.
Have you ever been walking downtown and faintly hear the sound of someone screaming and it scares you? Whats your reaction to this very moment? Do you flee to help them? Are you automatically scared? Do you freeze? Its important to start to notice our responses, in these particular situations. We believe we have no control over our reactions, but we do and we can change them.
Have you ever noticed when you work with the same people you begin to listen to their foot patterns and can figure out whose coming
That may sound extreme to some but let me tell ya everybody moves their feet differently and if you and if you work with someone enough youll start to notice this pattern and even know whose coming in the room before our sight registers it.
Sound allows us to decipher between a saxophone and drums, among many many other instruments. Sounds picks up unconsciously on different frequencies and their levels affect us more than we realize. There is a really neat deep sleep app i use and because the frequency is different it helps you fall asleep faster and into a more REM cycle, something about delta waves?
Our ability to hear allows us to become musicians and singers like wonderful MS, she sung in the kitchen when we were making food together in costa rica and it was so very enchanting. Have you ever just heard someone's voice and sort of fall into a bit of a meditative state? MS has the ability to do this! and naturally other people felt safe enough to join in allowing themselves to open up further. We are connected and help eachother on this wild ride of life.
Embrace our beautiful gifts and keep on roaring!
We can recreate ourselves, or how I like to see it, we return to our true self without all of the systems conditioning. We can free our minds!
We can choose a song we want to listen to next and make a playlist, this is all apart of creation! *Also please share your awesome playlists with me, I would love to hear them***
Have you ever noticed how your mood can shift when 'your jam' comes on, instantly lifts your mood, a game changer we say. Sound gives your body the ability to overrride your emotional thought process.
Whatever your thinking about changes in an instant. An example of this is when someone honks their horn, and thanks sis for talking about the mustang today. But lets play this scenario out, your driving, your cruising, your jamming to your fav song on the radio, windows down, life is grand. Than BAM someone honks a horn and suddenly everything changes.
Or what about when your walking downtown and you consistently hear the sound of sirens, dont you think psychologically this could affect someone deeply, more deeply than others due to underlying trauma. Maybe someone whose gone through this hears the sound of an ambulance or police car and it instantly reminds them of traumatic event, causing them to react differently, causing them to react from their flight or flight nervous system.
Maybe some people do not trust authority because they have never been shown the same level of respect in the system.
Or what about someone who has experience a fire? and they hear the sound of a firetruck and well surely that sound could activate their fight or flight system.
Or what about the sounds of the birds in the morning?
Birds are also very powerful and unique creatures and for fun sometimes i like to watch them in the morning fly around chasing each other, animals still play! Humans still play!
You could be walking to work in a rush because time is a constructed illusion and your body knows this, but regardless you're stressed out and racing to work. Suddenly you hear the birds, and if you can take a second or longer, this really can calm you down. Animals make the coolest noises, elephants, monkeys, dolphins, all communicate non verbally and effectively because guess what they're still huntin and sleepin as a team. Watch some planet earth and see how they unite non verbally, its pretty powerful.
Animals have incredible capabilities and utilize all their other sense for their survival. Humans also have incredibly heightened senses, truly a gift that we forget to embrace sometimes because were so busy in our go go consumer convenient society.
Eye spy with my little Eye :SIGHT
How long has it been since you played that? Hang out with some of your nieces and start playing again. Bring back your inner child because honestly having fun and being silly is what life is all about.
Our eyes, have you ever stopped to think about how amazing this actually is. We can see for miles, some not as far as others even further. Weve all got different colors and capabilities. And if this is lacking well our world is pretty advanced so they can hook ya up with some pretty great eyewear these days, or even now laser surgery can correct this. Dang eh thats cool, the gift of vision is now readily available!
We can see colours, we can see rainbows, different shades etc
*or are colours just a projection of our reality?*** Oh la la heavy subject definitely wont dive into that one anytime soon*
Our sight allows us to see mountains and oceans, we can go from city to city, continent to continent and see varying landscapes and architectures.
Have you ever thought of your ideal travel destinations?
Where would you want to go and why?
What are you curious about these days?
Our eyes distinguish the difference between yellow and orange, and for some they see all brown and dont know theyre actually wearing purple. I couldn’t imagine being colour blind I think that would be really challenging. But I guess if your born that way you don’t really learn any different right so your other senses adjust accordingly.
Our eyes have the ability to adjust to the light around us, and this is important when you want to get out at night and just stare above. The stars the moon the planets, its all connected to us down here on earth.
Take a moment to see if you can feel this, try to get out on the next meteor shower, or even just look up more often at night if you can, its so elegant and beautifully complex up there.
Astrology we will definitely have to get into in another chapter, but for fun if you can find out what time you were born, where and when, check out your birth chart. Not everyone believes in this which is all good. I do however believe that we come from the universe above. I like to believe that the stars, the planets, how everything is lined up when you were born is kind of like your soul DNA code.
For fun look up your birth chart and see if you learn anything new about yourself? 36 pages of free info all about you! Some may not resonate of course but its pretty insightful to figure out your elements and all THREE of your signs
*Take a few minutes and enjoy your senses*** This is called a grounding technique and is very effective. If your feelin a lot of knots in your stomach than take a moment, slow down, notice your surroundings and focus on your senses.
What are you smelling?
Do you need to put deodorant on? And those of you that know me understand why I ask this speiific question.
I like to use something without aluminum in it because I learned that sweating is very natural and its not really that healthy to be clogging up our pores.
Our bodies need to sweat out the toxins and its trying to get it out.
I tend to use a natural odorizer and it takes away the smell but the moisture still get outs. Or honestly a little trick i taught the community that I have done before is baking soda, cheap and very effective, sprinkle a little on and your ready to go on that tinder or bumble or whatever more dating apps they got now a days.
and yes I to have tried them before but in doing so I have learned that I am not as social as I thought and thats okay. Hangin quietly with someone on a deeper level and talkin about real shit is what excites me. Aristotle theories vs Plato, Where did we all come from? and Of course watching Cosmos from our genious buddy Neil Degrassi Tyson. I cherish real and authentic conversations with people. Enough with the superficial blah blah ya know, Substance and Value in conversations helps me comprehend information quicker. and right now I wannnna learn more and more and I find when you converse with others on the same level your mind expands.
What are you smelling?
What are you hearing?
Is the dishwasher going?
Is the water dripping from the tap?
Is the toilet running? And if so make sure you tell your landlord cause that shit costs alot of extra money for them, sorry momma bear for your last tenant but thank you for this valuable life lesson!
Do you taste anything? is your mouth dry? Do you still taste the kale smoothie you just had? Mix it with some other flavors yum yum!
What are you hearing?
I don't live as close to downtown anymore thankfully so i don't hear the sirens as much when im at home trying to relax. i honestly never realized how much they affected me until i moved elsewhere. The loud noises, the abrupt sounds, and the constant reminder that someone somewhere else is suffering in this very moment, kind of pulls on your heart strings a little right?
We are obviously dealing with a very serious Opioid crisis right now and the sirens are non stop here. It brings me a bit of sadness. I like to have a quick prayer for whoever they are attending to and hope they make it. The opioid crisis is even more amplified and Ive gotta carry two kits of Naloxone at work instead of one. But thats also a topic for another day.
ohhhh i got the feeeelin' : TOUCH
And lastly are amazing gift, the sensation of touch and feel.
This one is heckaaa important as well.
We get to feel all sorts of different textures when were in kindergarten class, remember that board with all the different felts and such on it?
Thank you universe for our opposable thumbs.
Humans get to run sand through their fingers, feel the water wash over them and walk barefoot in the woods
***also important to look up, actually forget looking it up just go and dooooo it!
There are a lot of benefits to walking barefoot in the woods or somewhere clean and safe in nature.
Reflexology is super fascinating and essentially all of your organs can be traced back to the bottom of your feet. Its important to walk around with no shoes on as often as you can when your outside somewhere you feel safe. Feel the grass under your toes, dip your feet into the cold ocean and walk on rocks for fun. Honestly after a while your feet are so strong and they toughen up.
*** sista lovin right here***
Chic and I used to RUN barefoot across the rocks at the trailer, honestly we would sprint to see who could get to the beach the fastest. Not like it mattered tho mom and dad always made us wait...they would take their sweeeet time laaaa deee daaa, you know how parents tend to do that as their in relax mode. But this didnt change anything for us, everytime we would still run and run and run to see who could get there first. ya know that good ol competitive sibling nature. Theyd give us the nod when they got close enough and we jumped in that water as quickly as we could. We would swim to the other side of the river and whoevers cottage it was, but he had a dock. We had to be pretty sneaky cause sometimes he would come down and yell at us.
Little did he know, we knew the patterns of the rocks to climb up his place, and obviously we would just start diving and diving some more.
We’d be practicing our flips and shouting ‘hey watch this one” you know how kids always tend to do cause their so excited to show off their cool new moves!
The feel of the rocks, the grass, than the sand, and the water, it’s a pretty beautiful gift we have to experience all these sensations in only a few minutes.
Remember how good it used to feel running for no reason?
Like pheobe on friends?
just running with no care in the world, now thats authentic livin.
Its actually healthy for our development and fluid functioning for us to blow off some steam, for everyone, get that natural adrenaline out every so often, punch a bag or go for a run, whatever works for you, its your body and you know better than anyone else what outlets work for you.
Touch, well we all know where this sense can lead us...lets talk about sex baby,
but actually no thats a whole nother topic for a different day.
More importantly sex wasnt meant for what some of us think. Sex is actually something very special and sacred. And for women we are allowing a mans energy into our body and we need to be aware that this is actually a big deal. Sex is not meant to be expolited like it is advertised today.
Women we gotta protect our energy at times. **Thank you MS for this amazing insight, you're wonderful and keep on singing girl!*** and men with other men should really consider this to.
When another person enters your energy field it can shift you unconsciously emotionally and physically.
Touch can be non sexual and yet still intimate. An ancient Indian tradition is to rub sesame oil over your body and massage your limbs one by one, start to investigate your own body intimately and im not talking about in a sexual manner so get your mind outta the gutter because thats where it tends to go when this conversation is mentioned. Massage your feet, rub your arms, feel your skin, this is all part of you and your skin has a ton of nerves attached that want a little love and nourishment sometimes.
Notice if you go over a body part like your arm or nose or whatever it is for ya, are you judging yourself?
These are only your OWN judgements and those thoughts really dont belong in your mind anyways. **You are amazing! Re train your mind to stop judging yourself* Take it easy and remember you’re doin the best you can. Honestly it works! Keep telling yourself how much you love you! *** also important to do your shadow work, you can’t have fake positivity floating around all the time, eventually you’ve gotta look deeper, this is how to reach true happiness. Investigate the dark in order to get to the light***
*If ya wanna try for fun one night cut up some onions, grab a pair of tight socks, put it all together and go to sleep.
You’d be amazed at the amount of toxins that come out of your body at night when doing this. Because hey our feet are attached to all the others parts of our body to.
You can also touch others intimately and again not in a sexual manner.
Give someone else a massage, honestly it will make their day because touch is sacred and special. Notice how good you feel after a massage, and how relaxed you feel.
Take some time to slow down and feel your body, explore it and get comfortable with, Its important to cherish it and treat our body respectfully. It is our body and we deserve to to love it, every bit of it. This is something I am still working on but it is really helping allowing me to just be more free, dance around like ya just dont care, put your hands together for a nice little prayer, explore your limbs and how they move differently.
We have this notion that touch is only meant to be used in a sexual manner and this really is not the case.
Massage your feet, they will appreciate it.
Our bodies are all uniquely beautiful and our soul thrives off this connection, feeling safe and comfortable with yourself and others
Our bodies are incredible eh! And i havent even gotten into the actually anatomy of it.
PSYCH! i will not be doing that, i commend all of you who know each and every bone and muscle etc, thats actually super important information to educate ourselves on, but whose got the time unless thats your main study.
Our senses are very influential on us.
Our senses actually have the ability to snap us out of our thinking process, and lets face it, sometimes we all need that
***remember your emotions are the clouds in the sky, and they come, they go, they pass, but its the blue sky underneath, that's who you REALLY are***
Our senses restore memories, memories that we honestly didnt know we would ever recall, and this experience can bring you right back into that moment, good or bad, so its important to try and learn our triggers. Lets all get a little proactive with our emotional health and get ahead of it, when you start telling your body whose the boss, your soul returns back to its true nature.
**also did we ever find out who was the boss? Angela or tony? is that debate still going on?***
I remember having a fresh blackberry from this garden place up the road, and honestly it was theeeee besst ever.
It took me right back to the first moment i had ever tried one that was fresh off the tree. I instantly was brought back to my friends cottage that sat on the lake, the bunkee that all the kids would sleep in and the layout of the landscape. In an instant it all came back, it was very profound.
**also gotta add, "feelin so fresh right now we should call ourselves the Fabreeze sisters" There he is again, ferell, except im changing the brothers to sisters because thats the bond i relate to the most.***
All of our senses can connect us to something deeper
All of our senses impact us much more than we give them credit for
I recommend attending a silent retreat and through the week notice how your senses heighten when you are muted. There is no room for people pleasing, fake smiles or inauthentic conversations, this is time just for you. and i highly to recommend trying this experience. You will most likely notice your surroundings much more, and this time allows you to appreciate the smaller things
. ***Costa Rica, Howler monkeys every where yes yes super cool!
but whats also interesting is how much more the entire community noticed them when we were silent.
We all stopped and watched them, silently. We noticed their patterns more and also how they grab the mangos, they eat a few bites that are ripe and than they drop the rest on the ground, so loook out from ABOVE!***
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What it’s like to be diagnosed with multiple sclerosis at age 25
In February of 2015, after a busy weekend, I began feeling some tingling in the bottom of my feet. I thought that I was just sore from wearing heels, but within a few days, the numbness and tingling proceeded to go up my shins and into my knees and through my thighs. Id compare the feeling to when your foot falls asleep.
Although the sensation was getting more and more intense over the course of two or three days, I wasn’t super concerned. I thought that maybe my diet had played a role. I’m a very active person and I work in health and fitness PR, so I was just thinking, “Oh, maybe I’m not getting enough magnesium or something.”
After about five days of this feeling traveling inch by inch up my legs, I went to see my primary-care physician thanks to the advice of my sister, who’s a surgical nurse. My doctor quickly ordered an electromagnetic test (EMG) and an MRI to rule out meningitis, ALS, multiple sclerosis, and lymphoma. That’s when I started to get a little nervous.
The next day I went and got those tests done. By then, the numbness and tingling had become so severe that I almost couldn’t walkI could feel the pressure of the ground beneath me, but I was forcing my leg to move. By day seven, it was almost a state of complete paralysis.
The EMG was the first test and it began with them sticking needles all over my legs and then sending electromagnetic shocks through those needles to see how my nerves reacted. I’ll never forget it. The neurologist said I had severe swelling in my spinal cord, and ordered an immediate brain and spinal cord MRI.
When I was done with the MRI they said, “Go home, get some food because you’ve been in testing all day. Your doctor will likely call you and go over the results tomorrow or they’ll bring you in. Just relax.”
But within 10 minutes of me walking out of that place, my doctor called me and said, “I don’t mean to scare you but you need to stop whatever you’re doing right now and go into the ER. I just got your preliminary images and there’s a major, major area of swelling in your spinal cord. You need to seek treatment right away.” That was exceptionally terrifying. I thought that I was going to be able to relax and see what happens, but instead it was back to the ER, where they whisked me into a wheelchair right away.
That’s when the series of diagnostic tests took place. I had two spinal taps, blood work, etc. I had four different neurologists come down to put me through strength tests, like the sharp-soft test, where they break a toothpick in half and they ask you if you can tell the sharp side from the soft side. At this point, they were trying to diagnose me through a process of elimination.
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At first, they said, “Oh, you definitely have to spend the night”, then it was two nights, then three. Every day they would come back and say, “Oh, you don’t have AIDS”, and I’d think, “Great, this is wonderful. Wasn’t hoping for AIDS.”
But in all seriousness, AIDS is an autoimmune disease, which is what MS is, so its not too far off. They would say, “Oh, you don’t have lupus. We can rule out Lyme disease.” And so on, and so on
In the meantime, my doctors were trying to reduce my spinal swelling. Every day I got a little bit more feeling back, but there was still a lot I couldn’t feel.
Then after day four or five, doctors told me that I had transverse myelitis. A neurological disorder caused by inflammation of the spinal cord, transverse myelitis can be an initial indicator of multiple sclerosis, according to Kathleen Costello, vice president of healthcare access for the National MS Society.
There’s no one test that can determine whether or not you have MS. It was the combined results from the MRI, the spinal tap, blood work, electrical tests, etc. (not to mention, my symptoms) that led my neurologists to that conclusion. By the time I got my diagnosis, I had already figured it would be something severe based on my symptoms. Despite that, I don’t think any young woman is ready to hear that she has MS.
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I’ve been told the paralysis I experienced is one of the worst ways that MS can initially present itself. To put it in perspective, when some people are diagnosed with MS, their first symptoms are blurred vision or a lack of coordination or they have a little bit of numbness in their pinky finger, says Costello.
At the worst point, the paralysis had gone all the way up to the top of my ribcage, right below my bra line, and I felt a tightness, like someone was squeezing my ribs together, making it hard to breathe and hard to walk. That, I later found out, is called the MS hug, which is a common first symptom. For me to go from a person who is boxing and doing Crossfit and yoga classes seven days a week to not knowing if Id be able to walk again, was quite shocking.
Of those who suffer transverse myelitis, around 30 percent of them are never able to walk again, another 30 percent can walk with limited mobility and residual symptoms such as spastic gait and urinary urgency, and the last 30 percent get back, for the most part, full mobility. Thankfully, at the end of my recovery, I was in that last 30 percent, and now I’m walking and moving and working out and doing most of the things I used to be able to do.
However, I now live with permanent nerve damagea common side-effect of MS. Any time it gets above 75 degrees or there’s humidity in the air, I have tingling all up and down the back of my legs and my spinal cord. I have this thing called LHermitte. It’s this weird, residual effect that happens when you put your chin to your chest, like if I’m looking down at my phone or if I’m tying my shoe. I get a weird electronic sensation from my nerves misfiring down my back. The way that I best can describe the sensation is that it feels like there’s a vibrator on your back.
Today, I tire much more quickly and I can’t do workouts that are as strenuous as what I used to do. Sometimes I can’t wear heels for too long because Ill begin feeling numbness and tingling. Im still navigating the waters of my mobility, but Im just thankful to not be confined to a wheelchair and have feeling in both my legs.
I had another attack recently, which was much less severe and less traumatizing. I lost feeling in my left arm, but this time I knew what it was and I got on steroid treatment right away. Now I have most of my feeling back with minimal permanent damage. Today, I manage my disease by adhering to a very strict, clean diet, going for MRIs every few months and blood tests every couple weeks, and taking medication and/or seeing my doctor when another attack comes on.
Theres a common misconception that MS is like ALS or that it’s this degenerative, terminal thing, that I’m just going to keep getting worse and worse and there’s nothing to stop it. It seems so much worse than it is. What I’m learning is that you can have an attack and then not have another attack for 30 years; that’s very common. On the other hand, you can have five attacks in two years, which could be really bad and result in a lot of permanent nerve damage. There is a chance that I could be in a wheelchair five or 10 years from now, but that chance is very slim. My youth and the fact that Ive led such a healthy lifestyle have both helped me recover from attacks quickly so far.
For me, the hardest part of all this is the unknown. There is no cure, so I’m waking up every morning wondering if Im going to have another attack, or if today is going to be the day where five lesions pop up into my brain and I wont walk again.
Eighty percent of people diagnosed with MS are Caucasian females in their childbearing years. Learning that statistic was shocking, but in a way, I was comforted by itI feel less alone.
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The one thing I want everyone to know is that I can still live my life with this disease. A lot of people dont realize thateven my own friends.
I’ve had friends talk badly about me, saying things like, Well, if shes so sick, hows she drinking on Saturday at a rooftop brunch? and wondering why I look perfectly normal.
Its hard to be open with people because I can see how they might think Im using my disease as an excuse when its convenient. But the reality is I have bad days and I have good dayssometimes I feel ready to take on the world and other days I cant physically get out of bed.
I think thats been one of the more difficult parts for me, dealing with other peoples perceptions and judgments. Whether they think Im dying or being dramatic, its impossible for them to understand what I and other people with MS go through, which leads to misconceptions.
I dont blame people for being confused, but at the same time, I’m not going to lie down and not do things. I’m still a 25-year-old living in New York City. I’m going to have fun. I still want to date and try to find a good guyeven though that situation now comes with a plethora of complications.
At the end of the day, Im learning to appreciate every moment. Yes, it would be great to not have MS, but Im very aware of how lucky I am that my case isnt more severe. Thats been my greatest take away from this experience: Dont take anything for granted.
This article originally appeared on WomensHealthMag.com.
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Lunar Eclipse in Leo- Libertine
Confront the dark parts of yourself, and work to banish them with illumination and forgiveness. Your willingness to wrestle with your demons will cause your angels to sing.” – August Wilson
Effective Date: February 11, 2017 at 1:43 am UT at 22 Degrees Leo
Helios’ Astrological Angle on the Lunar Eclipse in Leo– Okay, so this Eclipse. Lordt. This Eclipse is absolute magic, wrapped in a screaming anxiety attack. You will fear it at first, and who could blame you? Honestly it looks like a flaming car crash barrelling towards you, and trying to run headlong in the other direction is a perfectly natural reaction to that! Eclipses are always viewed as Harbingers of great change. This time it’s a Lunar Eclipse, so the change is internal and emotional. How fitting is that? After all we have been through lately? We are all emotional right now, sometimes for absolutely no discernible reason. It is totally normal. This eclipse is very much focusing on the completion of a cycle that was started last year. You did the work, and now you need to take another big step. What it also represents is that you are taking yourself far too seriously– Relax and stop believing your own hype! Your fear is ruling you, and holding you back. The only way to beat your fear is to take away its power by laughing at it- fear requires you to take it seriously in order to rule you. Embrace the path of the Fool, the cosmic jester. Life is not so serious- in fact it’s the biggest joke there is!
This Eclipse wants to save your life, and you have to let it. Let go.
Artemis’ Tarot Take on the Lunar Eclipse in Leo- Eclipses are powerful things, and they compel us from far, far away – like the moon itself. You may have been wandering, stuck and alone in your head for the past few months. You thought you had things figured out and then BAM something hit you out of nowhere and you are back at what you believe is square one. Once you let go, once you allowed yourself to follow some strange path that seemed to make no fucking sense the further you walked along it, the closer you got to that land-marker that lit up the whole god damn world for you. I know the last few months have been emotionally crushing, but we NEEDED to cleanse before we walked through the fire – or we wouldn’t make it through with all that residual muck of our past clinging on like a parasite. Unfortunately we have to pay the toll for all our mistakes before we can cross the bridge. A lot of you have left behind lives of convenience for lives lived from the heart. This lunar eclipse will be your reward – your crown – and your divine grace. This full moon will remind you why you did what you did. So get ready for some divine inspiration.
The Sun, Moon, Jupiter, Saturn and Uranus– It sounds trite, but this eclipse is all about illumination. Wherever it falls in your chart is where you are going to get this major insight, and it is where you will finally wake up and get it right. A fog will be lifted with this eclipse, and you will realize what you have been doing wrong and how to fix it. This eclipse is not unkind, not in the least, not even with Saturn and Uranus being the main players. No, this eclipse sees the planets in some of their most compassionate roles we have seen in months, maybe years. I am honestly not sure what broke with them, but it is most definitely a welcome change. There is a real air of purification here, showing that the way forward is by refining and perfecting your life. This may feel like it is a heaven-sent message, but it truly comes from within you. Everything about this eclipse is self-centered, meaning becoming centered in oneself is the way to win here. Once your inspiration hits you, hold on to it. Do not forget, and keep trying to bring yourself to that place. Remember how it feels, that awakening within you, and keep that feeling. Coming from that emotional place will guide you through the storm that surrounds you, enabling you to avoid that which seeks to pull you under it’s waves.
Stop trying to destroy yourself. Where has self-flagellation gotten you? Your penance is served, and your debt is erased. It is time to move on from your punishment, and it is time to truly live your life. This is classic re-invention of life type of Astro, and as with all astro, the magic only works if you choose to use it. If you let this opportunity slip you by, don’t come crying to me when the lessons start up in Scorpio season, saying how you missed out! Let what needs to die, die already! Quit trying to give it CPR! Your frustration is coming from change not coming fast enough, but without you making room for it how can the change come about? You cannot keep striding your past and your future, you have to give yourself permission to jump into your destiny with both feet. Quit dithering and get to moving! You know what it s that you need to do, now give yourself permission to do so.
For this eclipse, you need to learn how to stand on your own two feet, instead of using those around you as a crutch. You do not have to cling to others in order to succeed. Stop being a parasite, you need to evolve. You are the real deal, my friend, and it’s high time that you started acting like it! You’ve been talking a big game, now you need to put your money where your mouth is. At the moment, no one takes you seriously, and this is the only way to change their opinion- prove them wrong. Do better, and the people who you want to notice, will. Becoming the change you want to see in the world starts within yourself. (Minor Planets used: Eris, Hekate, Atropos, Damocles, Haumea, Ixion, Hygeia, Sisyphus, Narcissus, Echeclus, Chaos, Orpheus)
The Sun (The Chariot), Moon (Queen of Swords), Jupiter (2 of Cups), Saturn (3 of Pentacles) and Uranus (The Fool)- So this entire full moon is reminding me of a giant flaming ball of inspiration. There will be a grand trine in fire between Uranus, Saturn and the Moon, and there will also be a delightful sextile between Uranus and the Sun and Saturn and the Sun – fire and air. I’m betting some creative energies, along with the sexual energies (see Mars and Venus below) will be turned up to 10 this weekend. I can’t tell you enough how fucking happy I am to look at this chart after the hell-fire we have been experiencing since Scorpio season. This is DIVINE fire, the good kind. The kind you need in order to take on major challenges, boost your self esteem, and cut through the bullshit. The sun will be motivating new ideas, fresh perspectives, and an air of rebelliousness. This sun/Uranus sextile is like an alarm clock in our ears telling us it is time to GET TO WORK. But a sextile is easy energy. You will WANT to wake up. And the sun sextile Saturn; you will WANT to get to work. Your intellect (sun in Aqua- air) will get that fire injection is so desperately needs from both the father of rebellion and the father of restriction. So we will have both of their blessings to move ahead (fuck yes).
You will realize that you have been sleeping – aye dreaming – long enough and it is time to get on with your day. The Chariot and The Fool are clearly indicating that we must ignite our engines and jump into our future, no matter how much anxiety may be brewing underneath. Hopefully the other planets will give you enough fire UMPH that you don’t even think about taking that step – you just do it. Fuck, things will look TEMPTING and exciting for once, and you’ll want nothing more than to liberate yourself form the wreckage of your former life. This is the final step of our grieving process. Remember, as Yoda said, there is no god damn fucking “try,” only “do.” This is the kind of moon this is. We are about to spill our lifeblood (2 of cups) into the chalice of higher understanding, and for once we are not going to sit back and be told who we are. “YOU DEFINE WHO YOU ARE”, roars the lion. Even if you weren’t planning on starting a project, it is going to land on your lap (seriously, probably out of fucking nowhere).
Even though everything is inspiring, the moon is still about her tough love (thanks Queen of Swords). Your inner world wont stand for laziness, wont stand for you sitting in the background, and wont stand for you not taking a stand. Even if you didn’t think you had to stand up for yourself, you’re gunna have to (Leo full moons are also very, very DRAMATIC). Take your crown, don’t think too much about it, and ACT. If you see injustice, you will be called to ACT. Leo takes care of his own, and he will devour you if you cross his friends. This is the kind of force this moon is asking for. You must stand up for what is right, and there you will receive grace and the map to your next destination. Fire signs are all about action, and with the Sun in Aqua beneficially aspecting innovation driven Uranus, your mind will be quick to hop on board with no arguments this time. This moon is giving us our DESIRE and PASSION back if we purge the last of our dead weight.
Mercury and Venus– Anxiety is kind of the hallmark of an eclipse, and this one is no exception. You can blame Mercury for that, and Venus isn’t helping matters much. The anxiety comes because there is something coming up for you that you do not wish to face, and you know exactly what it is. You cannot live your life in the shadows, you must own all of who and what you are. It lies and tells you that it is the safer route, the better choice, but these two are not having any of it. What you want and what you are doing have to align, and if they do not, then you need to rebalance yourself. Make yourself a priority in your own life for once! You need to choose what it is that really matters to you and chase after it with all that you have. No half-stepping! Have the courage to show the world who you are. (Minor Planets used: Crantor, Elatus, Sphinx)
Mercury (Page of Pentacles) and Venus (6 of Cups)- We have another lovely sextile here between Venus and Mercury, and finally a sort of pleasantness to life even though shit is going bonkers. Venus is telling you, “FUCKING ENJOY YOURSELF. I am giving you lots of opportunities for this, and I am amping up your sex life. What else do you mortals want from me?” The ability for joy is so transient, and any time you are not in direct conflict should be a time of ease. Your mind wants to get to work, and Venus wants to play, and I see no conflicts here… Work doesn’t have to be dull and dreary. Fuck, Mercury will be in Aquarius and Venus will be in Aries, meaning fucking try something new. Experiment a little with your work, have fun with it, and ideas will flow like they have never flown before. I don’t care how routine your existence seems to be, it is literally your perspective that makes you melt into that routine instead of engage in it. Look at the world through the eyes of an excited child ready to experiment with everything she touches.
Don’t dive so far into the pleasure that you forget the work part. There is always a warning not to be “naive” when the 6 of Cups is pulled, and in the realm of Venus, that means don’t let momentary pleasure get in the way of your values and future goals. It is time to express your desires (hello Venus), but remember to bring your brain (Mercury) along for the ride. It should also be said that the mind (Mercury) will get dull and far too cold without the infusion of passion from Venus (So yes, heart and mind playing together, neither leading the way, like tag team wrestling or some shit). These two are essentially our “checks and balances” of this lunation.
Mars and Neptune– Inspired action. That is the keywords for these two. Big changes are happening for you, and you must rise to meet them, even if it feels like an impossible task. Your natural reaction is going to be to hermit and try to hide away from this eclipse, because it is going to bring up some hard truths for you. This will scare you, and you are not going to want to face it. You must. What needs to happen is that you need to stop being afraid of your own shadow. Your self-imposed exile has to end NOW. What the astro wants, no demands from you is, total participation in your own life. Trying to skate through like a car on neutral sliding on a patch of ice is death, and that is what you are doing. If you shift gears, you can save yourself still, but you aren’t making any moves to as of yet! This astro is scared for you, and wants you to succeed, but you are unconsciously holding yourself back from doing so. You are your own worst enemy right now, and if you can accept the truth in front of your face that you are not making the right moves and resist responding with a bruised ego, but instead choose to adjust yourself, than you will get the crucial guidance that you need. (Minor Planets used: Asbolus, Amycus, Altjira, Circe, Terpsichore, Kassandra, Icarus; Chariklo)
Mars (10 of Pentacles) and Neptune (High Priestess)- Well well well, why are all the cards so god damn archetypal? It seems like everything is calling on it’s higher form, and things are actually working in our favor right now… uh, too good to be true? Sometimes amazing things do happen, Heretics, and brushing them off as fantasy when they are here because of YOUR making is dropping an opportunity. Neptune is being kind of quiet during this chart, but the High Priestess reminds me that so much is going on underneath the surface. The things that are going on cannot be spoken of… This gives me both the chills and a sense of divine orchestration. The High Priestess as Neptune tells me that dreams have been getting a bit strange or intense for everyone, and that we should pay very close attention to them. We are receiving a fuck ton of messages from our subconscious right now, and this will come in flashes of insight, through the dream realm, or from our intuition. Again – pay very close attention to what your subconscious mind is trying to tell you right now because it is tapped in for sure. Life around here has gotten, well, strange, and everyone is full of an ambition of a different nature. People are starting to realize that the idea of redemption and success that they have been fed are far from satisfying. It is becoming very apparent that real hard work with integrity gets you nowhere in a society that celebrates undermining your peers to get ahead. Mars is outraged, and he is coming for what is his – just like you are. We may not know exactly what it is that has been taken from us, but we are damned if we aren’t going to fucking find out.
Pluto– Here we have the unsung hero, maligned as a villain. While Pluto has been the source of our problems in the last few years, here he is providing us with the strength that we need in order to survive the times when he doesn’t have all the power over us! Pluto has become our backbone, the foundation of who we are. What he has done is exposed our souls, and enabled us to see who we are, by ripping away the false idols and ideas that we tried to cling so desperately to. Pluto showed us the truth, and we wear him as a shield now. The truth that we accept can never hurt us. In one of my favorite book series, there was a Macguffin called the Sword of Shannara (the same title of the book it made its debut, imagine that), which would pass right through flesh if it was tried to use to cut or hack away at someone. You would think such a thing was worthless, save for a neat party trick, but it had the power to defeat the big bad and avoid a war- What it had power over was truth. The big bad cloaked himself in fear and lies, and used it as his power; He became what he was because of his fear and sought power to rid himself of fear, but he used fear as a weapon. The sword cut through those lies and revealed what was beneath, but before it could be used, it always showed the user the truth of themselves first. Sometimes it broke those who tried to use it because they could not accept the truth of who they were. Make peace with him, and yourself. (Minor Planets used: Cyllarus, Deucalion, Eros, Phaethon)
Pluto (King of Cups)- Talk about a guy that is viewed as a bad guy but is really just trying to help… Fuck, all of this pressure to confront ourselves and confront those around us may seem like it is making things worse, but it is actually peeling off the ugly top layers and giving us a juicy center. Pluto is attempting to expose – pull off the emotional layers even further – and he asks you to keep your cool and trust him. Uh, are we going to trust this guy? Pluto? Of all the planets? Why yes. Pluto wants to give us redemption. He is our “hero’s journey,” and without his trails we wouldn’t be refined enough to step into our path. We would literally be crushed by the weight of what we are suppose to be if we do not go through the trails of stripping ourselves of what we are not. So yes, keep it together, says Pluto, keep the storm of emotions under check because this purging by fire is necessary right now. He wants us to inspect our shitty views on essentially everything, so there will be plenty of situations that will come your way that will give you the opportunity to do this. It will be up to you if you retreat back to habits and empty idealism, or if you actually see why you are making the particular stand you are making. Fuck, this is good, we can’t educate ourselves enough on the stances we take. Even though things may turn into a post modern soup because of this, trust in the process. Trust in each other as well. We are all going through this though some of us are far more vocal about it than others.
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What it’s like to be diagnosed with multiple sclerosis at age 25
In February of 2015, after a busy weekend, I began feeling some tingling in the bottom of my feet. I thought that I was just sore from wearing heels, but within a few days, the numbness and tingling proceeded to go up my shins and into my knees and through my thighs. Id compare the feeling to when your foot falls asleep.
Although the sensation was getting more and more intense over the course of two or three days, I wasn’t super concerned. I thought that maybe my diet had played a role. I’m a very active person and I work in health and fitness PR, so I was just thinking, “Oh, maybe I’m not getting enough magnesium or something.”
After about five days of this feeling traveling inch by inch up my legs, I went to see my primary-care physician thanks to the advice of my sister, who’s a surgical nurse. My doctor quickly ordered an electromagnetic test (EMG) and an MRI to rule out meningitis, ALS, multiple sclerosis, and lymphoma. That’s when I started to get a little nervous.
The next day I went and got those tests done. By then, the numbness and tingling had become so severe that I almost couldn’t walkI could feel the pressure of the ground beneath me, but I was forcing my leg to move. By day seven, it was almost a state of complete paralysis.
The EMG was the first test and it began with them sticking needles all over my legs and then sending electromagnetic shocks through those needles to see how my nerves reacted. I’ll never forget it. The neurologist said I had severe swelling in my spinal cord, and ordered an immediate brain and spinal cord MRI.
When I was done with the MRI they said, “Go home, get some food because you’ve been in testing all day. Your doctor will likely call you and go over the results tomorrow or they’ll bring you in. Just relax.”
But within 10 minutes of me walking out of that place, my doctor called me and said, “I don’t mean to scare you but you need to stop whatever you’re doing right now and go into the ER. I just got your preliminary images and there’s a major, major area of swelling in your spinal cord. You need to seek treatment right away.” That was exceptionally terrifying. I thought that I was going to be able to relax and see what happens, but instead it was back to the ER, where they whisked me into a wheelchair right away.
That’s when the series of diagnostic tests took place. I had two spinal taps, blood work, etc. I had four different neurologists come down to put me through strength tests, like the sharp-soft test, where they break a toothpick in half and they ask you if you can tell the sharp side from the soft side. At this point, they were trying to diagnose me through a process of elimination.
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At first, they said, “Oh, you definitely have to spend the night”, then it was two nights, then three. Every day they would come back and say, “Oh, you don’t have AIDS”, and I’d think, “Great, this is wonderful. Wasn’t hoping for AIDS.”
But in all seriousness, AIDS is an autoimmune disease, which is what MS is, so its not too far off. They would say, “Oh, you don’t have lupus. We can rule out Lyme disease.” And so on, and so on
In the meantime, my doctors were trying to reduce my spinal swelling. Every day I got a little bit more feeling back, but there was still a lot I couldn’t feel.
Then after day four or five, doctors told me that I had transverse myelitis. A neurological disorder caused by inflammation of the spinal cord, transverse myelitis can be an initial indicator of multiple sclerosis, according to Kathleen Costello, vice president of healthcare access for the National MS Society.
There’s no one test that can determine whether or not you have MS. It was the combined results from the MRI, the spinal tap, blood work, electrical tests, etc. (not to mention, my symptoms) that led my neurologists to that conclusion. By the time I got my diagnosis, I had already figured it would be something severe based on my symptoms. Despite that, I don’t think any young woman is ready to hear that she has MS.
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I’ve been told the paralysis I experienced is one of the worst ways that MS can initially present itself. To put it in perspective, when some people are diagnosed with MS, their first symptoms are blurred vision or a lack of coordination or they have a little bit of numbness in their pinky finger, says Costello.
At the worst point, the paralysis had gone all the way up to the top of my ribcage, right below my bra line, and I felt a tightness, like someone was squeezing my ribs together, making it hard to breathe and hard to walk. That, I later found out, is called the MS hug, which is a common first symptom. For me to go from a person who is boxing and doing Crossfit and yoga classes seven days a week to not knowing if Id be able to walk again, was quite shocking.
Of those who suffer transverse myelitis, around 30 percent of them are never able to walk again, another 30 percent can walk with limited mobility and residual symptoms such as spastic gait and urinary urgency, and the last 30 percent get back, for the most part, full mobility. Thankfully, at the end of my recovery, I was in that last 30 percent, and now I’m walking and moving and working out and doing most of the things I used to be able to do.
However, I now live with permanent nerve damagea common side-effect of MS. Any time it gets above 75 degrees or there’s humidity in the air, I have tingling all up and down the back of my legs and my spinal cord. I have this thing called LHermitte. It’s this weird, residual effect that happens when you put your chin to your chest, like if I’m looking down at my phone or if I’m tying my shoe. I get a weird electronic sensation from my nerves misfiring down my back. The way that I best can describe the sensation is that it feels like there’s a vibrator on your back.
Today, I tire much more quickly and I can’t do workouts that are as strenuous as what I used to do. Sometimes I can’t wear heels for too long because Ill begin feeling numbness and tingling. Im still navigating the waters of my mobility, but Im just thankful to not be confined to a wheelchair and have feeling in both my legs.
I had another attack recently, which was much less severe and less traumatizing. I lost feeling in my left arm, but this time I knew what it was and I got on steroid treatment right away. Now I have most of my feeling back with minimal permanent damage. Today, I manage my disease by adhering to a very strict, clean diet, going for MRIs every few months and blood tests every couple weeks, and taking medication and/or seeing my doctor when another attack comes on.
Theres a common misconception that MS is like ALS or that it’s this degenerative, terminal thing, that I’m just going to keep getting worse and worse and there’s nothing to stop it. It seems so much worse than it is. What I’m learning is that you can have an attack and then not have another attack for 30 years; that’s very common. On the other hand, you can have five attacks in two years, which could be really bad and result in a lot of permanent nerve damage. There is a chance that I could be in a wheelchair five or 10 years from now, but that chance is very slim. My youth and the fact that Ive led such a healthy lifestyle have both helped me recover from attacks quickly so far.
For me, the hardest part of all this is the unknown. There is no cure, so I’m waking up every morning wondering if Im going to have another attack, or if today is going to be the day where five lesions pop up into my brain and I wont walk again.
Eighty percent of people diagnosed with MS are Caucasian females in their childbearing years. Learning that statistic was shocking, but in a way, I was comforted by itI feel less alone.
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The one thing I want everyone to know is that I can still live my life with this disease. A lot of people dont realize thateven my own friends.
I’ve had friends talk badly about me, saying things like, Well, if shes so sick, hows she drinking on Saturday at a rooftop brunch? and wondering why I look perfectly normal.
Its hard to be open with people because I can see how they might think Im using my disease as an excuse when its convenient. But the reality is I have bad days and I have good dayssometimes I feel ready to take on the world and other days I cant physically get out of bed.
I think thats been one of the more difficult parts for me, dealing with other peoples perceptions and judgments. Whether they think Im dying or being dramatic, its impossible for them to understand what I and other people with MS go through, which leads to misconceptions.
I dont blame people for being confused, but at the same time, I’m not going to lie down and not do things. I’m still a 25-year-old living in New York City. I’m going to have fun. I still want to date and try to find a good guyeven though that situation now comes with a plethora of complications.
At the end of the day, Im learning to appreciate every moment. Yes, it would be great to not have MS, but Im very aware of how lucky I am that my case isnt more severe. Thats been my greatest take away from this experience: Dont take anything for granted.
This article originally appeared on WomensHealthMag.com.
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What it’s like to be diagnosed with multiple sclerosis at age 25
In February of 2015, after a busy weekend, I began feeling some tingling in the bottom of my feet. I thought that I was just sore from wearing heels, but within a few days, the numbness and tingling proceeded to go up my shins and into my knees and through my thighs. Id compare the feeling to when your foot falls asleep.
Although the sensation was getting more and more intense over the course of two or three days, I wasn’t super concerned. I thought that maybe my diet had played a role. I’m a very active person and I work in health and fitness PR, so I was just thinking, “Oh, maybe I’m not getting enough magnesium or something.”
After about five days of this feeling traveling inch by inch up my legs, I went to see my primary-care physician thanks to the advice of my sister, who’s a surgical nurse. My doctor quickly ordered an electromagnetic test (EMG) and an MRI to rule out meningitis, ALS, multiple sclerosis, and lymphoma. That’s when I started to get a little nervous.
The next day I went and got those tests done. By then, the numbness and tingling had become so severe that I almost couldn’t walkI could feel the pressure of the ground beneath me, but I was forcing my leg to move. By day seven, it was almost a state of complete paralysis.
The EMG was the first test and it began with them sticking needles all over my legs and then sending electromagnetic shocks through those needles to see how my nerves reacted. I’ll never forget it. The neurologist said I had severe swelling in my spinal cord, and ordered an immediate brain and spinal cord MRI.
When I was done with the MRI they said, “Go home, get some food because you’ve been in testing all day. Your doctor will likely call you and go over the results tomorrow or they’ll bring you in. Just relax.”
But within 10 minutes of me walking out of that place, my doctor called me and said, “I don’t mean to scare you but you need to stop whatever you’re doing right now and go into the ER. I just got your preliminary images and there’s a major, major area of swelling in your spinal cord. You need to seek treatment right away.” That was exceptionally terrifying. I thought that I was going to be able to relax and see what happens, but instead it was back to the ER, where they whisked me into a wheelchair right away.
That’s when the series of diagnostic tests took place. I had two spinal taps, blood work, etc. I had four different neurologists come down to put me through strength tests, like the sharp-soft test, where they break a toothpick in half and they ask you if you can tell the sharp side from the soft side. At this point, they were trying to diagnose me through a process of elimination.
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At first, they said, “Oh, you definitely have to spend the night”, then it was two nights, then three. Every day they would come back and say, “Oh, you don’t have AIDS”, and I’d think, “Great, this is wonderful. Wasn’t hoping for AIDS.”
But in all seriousness, AIDS is an autoimmune disease, which is what MS is, so its not too far off. They would say, “Oh, you don’t have lupus. We can rule out Lyme disease.” And so on, and so on
In the meantime, my doctors were trying to reduce my spinal swelling. Every day I got a little bit more feeling back, but there was still a lot I couldn’t feel.
Then after day four or five, doctors told me that I had transverse myelitis. A neurological disorder caused by inflammation of the spinal cord, transverse myelitis can be an initial indicator of multiple sclerosis, according to Kathleen Costello, vice president of healthcare access for the National MS Society.
There’s no one test that can determine whether or not you have MS. It was the combined results from the MRI, the spinal tap, blood work, electrical tests, etc. (not to mention, my symptoms) that led my neurologists to that conclusion. By the time I got my diagnosis, I had already figured it would be something severe based on my symptoms. Despite that, I don’t think any young woman is ready to hear that she has MS.
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I’ve been told the paralysis I experienced is one of the worst ways that MS can initially present itself. To put it in perspective, when some people are diagnosed with MS, their first symptoms are blurred vision or a lack of coordination or they have a little bit of numbness in their pinky finger, says Costello.
At the worst point, the paralysis had gone all the way up to the top of my ribcage, right below my bra line, and I felt a tightness, like someone was squeezing my ribs together, making it hard to breathe and hard to walk. That, I later found out, is called the MS hug, which is a common first symptom. For me to go from a person who is boxing and doing Crossfit and yoga classes seven days a week to not knowing if Id be able to walk again, was quite shocking.
Of those who suffer transverse myelitis, around 30 percent of them are never able to walk again, another 30 percent can walk with limited mobility and residual symptoms such as spastic gait and urinary urgency, and the last 30 percent get back, for the most part, full mobility. Thankfully, at the end of my recovery, I was in that last 30 percent, and now I’m walking and moving and working out and doing most of the things I used to be able to do.
However, I now live with permanent nerve damagea common side-effect of MS. Any time it gets above 75 degrees or there’s humidity in the air, I have tingling all up and down the back of my legs and my spinal cord. I have this thing called LHermitte. It’s this weird, residual effect that happens when you put your chin to your chest, like if I’m looking down at my phone or if I’m tying my shoe. I get a weird electronic sensation from my nerves misfiring down my back. The way that I best can describe the sensation is that it feels like there’s a vibrator on your back.
Today, I tire much more quickly and I can’t do workouts that are as strenuous as what I used to do. Sometimes I can’t wear heels for too long because Ill begin feeling numbness and tingling. Im still navigating the waters of my mobility, but Im just thankful to not be confined to a wheelchair and have feeling in both my legs.
I had another attack recently, which was much less severe and less traumatizing. I lost feeling in my left arm, but this time I knew what it was and I got on steroid treatment right away. Now I have most of my feeling back with minimal permanent damage. Today, I manage my disease by adhering to a very strict, clean diet, going for MRIs every few months and blood tests every couple weeks, and taking medication and/or seeing my doctor when another attack comes on.
Theres a common misconception that MS is like ALS or that it’s this degenerative, terminal thing, that I’m just going to keep getting worse and worse and there’s nothing to stop it. It seems so much worse than it is. What I’m learning is that you can have an attack and then not have another attack for 30 years; that’s very common. On the other hand, you can have five attacks in two years, which could be really bad and result in a lot of permanent nerve damage. There is a chance that I could be in a wheelchair five or 10 years from now, but that chance is very slim. My youth and the fact that Ive led such a healthy lifestyle have both helped me recover from attacks quickly so far.
For me, the hardest part of all this is the unknown. There is no cure, so I’m waking up every morning wondering if Im going to have another attack, or if today is going to be the day where five lesions pop up into my brain and I wont walk again.
Eighty percent of people diagnosed with MS are Caucasian females in their childbearing years. Learning that statistic was shocking, but in a way, I was comforted by itI feel less alone.
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The one thing I want everyone to know is that I can still live my life with this disease. A lot of people dont realize thateven my own friends.
I’ve had friends talk badly about me, saying things like, Well, if shes so sick, hows she drinking on Saturday at a rooftop brunch? and wondering why I look perfectly normal.
Its hard to be open with people because I can see how they might think Im using my disease as an excuse when its convenient. But the reality is I have bad days and I have good dayssometimes I feel ready to take on the world and other days I cant physically get out of bed.
I think thats been one of the more difficult parts for me, dealing with other peoples perceptions and judgments. Whether they think Im dying or being dramatic, its impossible for them to understand what I and other people with MS go through, which leads to misconceptions.
I dont blame people for being confused, but at the same time, I’m not going to lie down and not do things. I’m still a 25-year-old living in New York City. I’m going to have fun. I still want to date and try to find a good guyeven though that situation now comes with a plethora of complications.
At the end of the day, Im learning to appreciate every moment. Yes, it would be great to not have MS, but Im very aware of how lucky I am that my case isnt more severe. Thats been my greatest take away from this experience: Dont take anything for granted.
This article originally appeared on WomensHealthMag.com.
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