Things that make me a real star wars fan:

the og battlefront games are some of my favorite games ever

I've read over 100 of the books

I've read most of the pre-disney star wars comics, including the strips from the 70s and 80s, and many of the post Disney comics

I played all the Lego star wars games as a kid and then paid to play them again with the Skywalker saga

the 2003 clone wars specials are some of my favorite animated media ever, and I've watched the clone wars series several times over

I rewatch the OT and PT about every 3 months and actually force people to celebrate may the 4th and may the 6 with me

I own star wars Lego sets. Yes the small ones, but even those are overpriced. Still own them though.

I've watched most of the Disney+ cashgrabs shows

when I went to comic con the only thing I bought was a han solo art print that I got signed by the artist (I then left early because I have autism and had an autistic meltdown. I haven't gone to a convention since but I want to try them again, so if you're autistic give me tips you use at conventions pls!!)

i own the star wars archive books

i have several of the newer star wars games

Things that make me a fake star wars fan:

i constantly forget jango fett's name

i think that both luke and mara jade are gay and each other's beards.

one time at dnd i was talking about star wars and referred to basic as common

i call jizz jazz

Silver's Suit (part 4)

Silver is beginning to lift his mask when someone walks up to him. "Wow I love your costume it looks really good."

You and Silver look to see Mark. Silver is shocked and is frozen on the spot wondering why he is there. You on the other hand are speechless and trying not to freak out that Mark is beside you. Even so there is an awkward silence and you three are just staring at each other.

"Ummm thank you." Silver is trying to act natural. As much as he can tell Mark was also trying to do the same.

"Yea its funny to see someone dressed up at Silver here when i made it a surprise that i was going to be here giving out Silver Shepard comics." Mark smiles at both of you. "I'm sorry i just walked in on you two but i couldn't help it when i saw you. Hi I'm Mark its nice to meet you."

Silver feels nervous and just saids a soft "Hi.."

You on the other hand trying to be cool not freak out. "Hey im (Y/N). Can i just say i really love your videos. You are a really funny guy and thank you for the laughs and good times. You are a cool dude."

"Thanks. I wouldn't be where im at without you guys. I just wanted to make videos and well here i am now. Thank you for liking my dumb videos and sticking around for this weird guy." Mark points to himself and makes a funny face. "Do you guys want to come see the comic? We still have a good amount left."

"Ooooo really cool! Lets go Silver." You walk over to the table happily and pick up a comic. Thomas is there and you hold in more freak outs because you also know his web comic and are a fan. He talks to you and you try to act normal while Mark is with Silver.

"Mark what are you doing here! It would have been a good heads up if you said you were doing this." Silver looks at Mark.

"Like I'm suppose to know you were going to be here! I did this a surprise, i was going to come over to the house the next day to show you the comic but well... Surprise!" Mark smiles at Silver hoping to relax him.

"Not helping... I haven't told (Y/N) that im the real Silver yet." Silver whispers to Mark.

"I know. The others told me the situation. They were worried about you Silver. And so am I." Mark said.

"Wait are they here." Silver looks around and then it hits him looking at the group of cosplayers by the tale beside you. The pink mustache on Deadpool was a dead give away. "Wow those outfits look amazing. Did they really make those in the past hour?"

"Its Willford Silver. You know when he gets an idea he goes for it at full force." Mark looks at the others dressed up. "You got to admit Google looks really good in his."

"I was just about to say that." Silver admits. Mark and Silver look at Google in awe as he shows someone how his hand lights up.

"Anyway I just want you to know that im really rooting for you." Mark looks at Silver seriously. "I want all of you guys to be happy, yes even Dark if he behaves enough. I know it can be hard and im sorry for that but you know if someone really likes you they like you for whats here." Mark points at Silver's heart. "That comes first before anything else not just about who you look like."

Silver feels happy knowing Mark really cares and how he is trying to encourage him in this. "Thank you Mark. I just hope that (Y/N) feels that way before i tell them... what if they don't? What if they don't like me after all?" Silver fiddles with his gloves.

"If they don't Silver then it is their loss. Your a great guy and if they cant see past your looks then they are not meant for you. Anyone would be luck to have you." Mark pats Silver's back. "Hey lets get to the table before Willford gets a hold of Thomas about his comic book."

"True. We need to save Thomas." Silver smiles.

Silver and Mark make it to the table and you are there looking through the comic happily. Sadly Silver and Mark didn't make it fast enough to save Thomas as Willford continues to slide him more of this drawings for his future comic. Thomas is scratching his head as Willford is explaining a arc where aliens invade Earth and he has to time travel to have Abraham Lincoln help him. You look up at Silver and jump to him.

"Silver look at this!! It so cool!!" You hand Silver the comic. "Isnt it neat. It is only one issue but i love it. If there was a series i would defiantly get more."

"Really? You like it that much." Silver blushes.

"I mean yea. Silver Shepard is a goof hero but he does his best to save the people. It makes for a good series don't you think. I mean you are dressed like him and your nickname is Silver and all right." You smile at Silver.

Silver feels it coming. He has to tell you now. You are looking at him so happy, eyes sparkling. Silver just wants to hold you and snuggle you so badly. "(Y/N) can i talk to you. Ummm in private." Silver feels his face go red from nerves.

"Umm sure but i don't know where we would go to be alone its pretty packed here." You shrug as you look around.

"Um hey if you want i can ask someone to let you two step out in closed off area." Mark speaks up beside Silver. "I mean its the least i can do. You did dress up as well you know." Mark is trying to act casual.

"Wow really? Thank you Mark. Your a really nice guy." You smile at him.

"No problem." Mark talks to some security and they say they can take you somewhere private. As you two walk away Silver looks back at everyone. Mark is giving him a thumbs up and Thomas nods. Willford gives double thumbs up and Bim waves. Google lets his face show to smile at Silver. Ed is doing a happy square dance and Dr.Iplier along with Host are hoping everything goes well.

Once you two are alone you look at Silver curious. "So what is it?"

"(Y/N) i need to confess something..." Silver twiddles his thumbs.

"Ummm is something wrong?" You start to get worried.

"No its not that. Well maybe but i ummm. You know how i told you i like to be called Silver. Well that's actually my name. And my cosplay is not a cosplay. This is how i always dress..." Silver saids slowly.

"Ok then... so your really into this character then." You are getting confused more.

"Well that's actually the thing. I'm the real Silver Shepard." Silver holds his breath.

You don't say anything for a while. "Am i being punked? If so where is Ashton Kutcher."

"No no your not being pranked (Y/N). I'm being very serious. I'm Silver Shepard." Silver is shaking.

"I mean i know the egos are around. I couldn't go to that meet up with the egos but are you really being serious." You look at him in disbelief.

Silver takes a breath and rolls of his mask. He looks at you nervously. You look at him taken back. You knew that the egos look like Mark but you never met any to see it for yourself. Silver was the spitting image of Mark but one thing that was different was his hair style. Silver's hair was longer before Mark had it cut to the way it looks now. His eyes look soft as he looks at you waiting for you to say something. "See..." He tugs his cheek. "Its really me."

"I have been with the real Silver this whole time..." You feel your heart beating fast.

"I didn't say anything because i wanted you to like me for me. Usually it is because what is under the mask and well not for me. I had a relationship once and they only wanted me for who i looked like and not for who i really am. And i am someone who is a hero that feels comfortable in this suit and mask. I don't like taking off the mask because i like being me a hero. I know it looks weird i do i get that sometimes from others. I just wanted to be me. I wanted to say something sooner but i was to scared to do it... I'm sorry i didn't say anything sooner. And i asked you here because i really like you (Y/N). I think your a cool person. You light up so much seeing something you love. You can talk all night about something you are passionate about. You may thing it is annoying but to me i love that about you.  I want you to be yourself and feel comfortable with it and when you are you are such a sweet person. I like you a lot... So im here the best hero doing a very scary mission that terrifies me more than that rhino. Will you go out with me..."

You don't know what to say. You are trying to take it in still and everything feels heavy. You look at Silver who is waiting for you to answer looking like he is holding his breath. Thinking to yourself you know he hid that he was Silver from you but you do get why he did. however it makes you think that he thought you were going to only want him for that reason alone. You feel yourself doubting yourself and thinking did he always assume that is why you would want to go out with him. You are confuse with that idea and feel worse wondering if the thought more bad things about how you would possibly react.

"I... I don't know..." You whisper. Silver's face falls.

"Did you really think i was only going to like you because you look like Mark. I couldn't have cared less what was behind the mask before you took it off. You really didn't think good about me before i got here did you..." You get teary. "I thought you knew i wasnt like that. I do like you Silver for you but it hurts that you thought i wouldn't... I like you.. so how can i trust you when you didn't believe in me fully.. how-"

In that moment Silver pulls you into his arms. He holds you so close and snuggles into you. You don't know what to say and your heart races. Silver feels horrible.

"I don't deserve you..." Silver whispers. He lets you go and walks away head down. 

Digimon frontier ocs?

Randomly started rewatching CactusCasual's great Digimon Frontier critique series. He's leaving youtube soon and making the weird decision to delete his whole account and everything he's ever done. But he's uploaded a bunch of his best stuff to google drive so if people wanna keep.it they can. Still i think its a lil dumb to not just leave the account open even if you're not using it? I dont know anything about why he's quitting the site though so maybe he has his reasons.

ANYWAY this got me thinking again about how Frontier is so goddamn boring and weirdly cliche and badly paced, and like everyone just focuses on "but they changed how digivolution works" and ignores all the actual reasons its bad. Like, kids have fused with digimon in previous seasons too! And haven't we all wished we could be the awesome characters like angemon and etc? A digimonny power rangers henshin thing isnt an inherantly bad idea, it was just executed badly. I dislike it cos it meant we completely lost any sort of digimon and human bonding experience plotline. They gave us two recurring digimon characters but they were just basically a pokedex and the world's least funny comic relief. Gimme a version of the show where the kids actually talk to their "spirit evolutions"! Like maybe they have a digimon partner but its forever stuck in baby form or spirit egg form and cant fight without fusing with a human host? Or just give us a better non-combat digimon pal like bokomon and neemon but like.. Fully developed with their own character arc and relationships with everyone else. Maybe ophanimon could have been around the whole time and been a mentor and parental figure? And we could actually explore her moral ambiguity, cos seriously the show makes her kind of a "ends justify the means" asshole and just NEVER AKNOWLEDGES IT. Wtf was up with that scene where she illusions Cherubimon with a fake dream of him being purified and getting to just go back home and be friends? And then she just backstabs him and we never mention it again. Like seriously even if she couldnt actually cure him that scene at least revealed that he WANTED to be cured and it made him so much more sympathetic! If he can be reasoned with, maybe they could have talked him down and then gone on an adventure together to find an actual cure for him? Also seriously what is up with his entire plot! Cos he just gets 'infected with darkness' cos he 'had darkness in his soul' but its just cos he thought the humanoid digimon were being racist against the beast digimon? And like.. The council was 2/3rds humanoid with him as the only beast representative and since he got infected by evilness they never remotely tried to recruit a new one or listen to what beast digimon have to say. So he was kinda right, yo! Also wtf with the reveal that actually no everything we just said is pointless because his REAL motivation was just blindly obeying ANOTHER humanoid digimon that comes out of nowhere to be the final boss. Also what is up with all the increased sexism in this series!! Its so weirdly worse than even adventure which had the excuse of being "a product of the times" yet still had way better variety of female characters and less bigoted stuff! And frontier came right after tamers which was one of the best series for gender equality and even used the medium of the setting as an opportunity to talk about the subject. Shame they censored that in the dub tho, Renamon talking about how digimon have no biological sex and how she only came to think of herself as a girl when she came to the human world. And rika's family accepting her and inviting her to family girls's night and stuff! Like as a metaphor for transgender issues it really worked to try and explain it to a younger audience in a natural way. And then one season later in frontier we have ONLY ONE GIRL IN THE CAST and wah wah whining about fashion and oh no she cant ever win a fight and her goddamn spirit form is in skimpy lingerie despite her being 12, and the show is always perving on her! And then she loses her powers halfway through the first season without winning a single fight, and has to be the damsel in distress to motivate the dudes in a stupid love triangle. And even when she does get to fight she's only allowed to fight the ONE SINGLE GIRL ON THE VILLAIN TEAM and they have stupid slap fights and "who's the most pretty" and BEACH EPISODE and GAHHHHH

...anyway as you can see i have a lot of reasons why i didnt really like the series. But what i meant to make this post about (BEFORE I GOT DISTRACTED) is that the fundemental concept itself isnt bad, they just wasted all its potential. And its a really good concept for ocs! Make your own digi superhero person and explore the fragmented world doing stuff offscreen during the series! Like they left so much open?? We know that other kids also got on other trains to the digiworld and they all just failed or gave up or got captured by the bad guys. And we know there's a bunch of spirits that the heroes never use because the villains got them again, so its cool to imagine an alt universe where the roles were swapped. What if different kids became the chosen heroes? What if different spirits were corrupted by the villains? What would a good guy Grumblemon be like? What would the kid be like who got that spirit? Would their evolution form be wildly different from grumblemon? Do the villain forms and purified forms look as different as Duskmon and Lowemon did?

SO MUCH POTENTIAL!!!

So yeah i wasted so much space here blabbering, so i'll probably make a separate post about my oc ideas lol. But i'd love to see other people's ideas for ocs/reinterpretations/other ways to fix that wasted potential!

So! Digimon frontier oc ideas!

To start off,have an undeveloped idea of someone on the team having Angemon as their spirit evolution. Cos it would have made the transition to such a new series a lot easier if they had some sort of "hey this is for you" to the fans of the previous ones. And angemon is the Adventure digimon that already looks the most like a regular human in a weird mask.

SPEAKING OF WHICH! less regular humans in weird masks! Whats the point of "you turn into a digimon" if you dont turn into a digimon? Like i know the whole gimmick is "humanoid mode and beast mode" but even the beast modes often look like humans in a costume! And there's been so many humanoid digimon before who actually looked like HUMANOID MONSTERS rather than just normal dudes cosplaying! There's literally nothing "monster" about agunimon, he's just a guy in some knight armour. Like the most you can do is charitably assume maybe the horns are his own and not just attatched to the helmet. And its annoying cos the villains have way cooler evolutions! And also double annoying that they always bend the humanoid/beast rule in such transparently self serving ways. Tommy gets two beast forms cos he's meant to be the cute mascot-looking character. Zoey gets two human forms cos she's meant to be grossly sexualized all the time. When kouichi turns from bad to good he loses his interesting looking actually monsterous evolutions and just becomes another dude in an armour. A friggin palette swap of his brother!

Anyway anyway LOL IM RAMBLING AGAIN yo...

Ideas for ocs!

I was thinking of a main girl character who's basically just a "fuk u" to all the stereotypes they did with Zoey. Actually gets a monster lookin beast form and a warrior lookin human form and actually gets to goddamn fight! Maybe her name is Hilda or Hildegarde? And i'm imagining her as a chubby nerdy kid with glasses and curly hair and a super cute oversized sweater kind of fashion sense. And her main spirit form would be this super badass lady knight giant orc thing who can Protec All The Peoples! Maybe earth element or the irony of being light element but she's this big ol monster goblin with just a tiny pair of angel wings on the back, lol! And then her personality is normally super shy and socially anxious, but she actually finds the digimon world kind of freeing? She's a total badass in battle and acts like a big ol powerful protector of all her friends! And she's always super excited aboyt adventuring and gets carried away comparing stuff to her favourite books. And now we must learn everything about this new place!! TO THE DIGI LIBRARY!!! So she's able to be confident and bubbly when it comes to actual adventure stuff, but she's still shy about regular life and anything social. Maybe its her weakness? Like she's scared about going home because she thinks she'll be "just a nobody" again, and lose all the great friends she made here. And also maybe a backstory of her heroic side still existing even before she got magic powers, but in the most tragic way? She managed to fend off a burglar once all on her own, she just snapped and did everything possible to defend her family, even though this was a man three times her size! But instead of being seen as a hero it just made all the neighbours and kids at school spread rumours about her being dangerous. Oh she must be in *a gang* if she knew how to fight like that! Oh its so *dangerous* for a kid that age to have such anger inside! Maybe she's a *scary mentally ill person*! So the whole situation ruined her social status even more and made her retreat even more inside her shell. And this is why the circumstances of the digital world are such a wish fullfillment for her and she's so scared of just waking up and it all being a dream. I think the villains could manipulate her fears, and it could maybe lead to her Skullgreymon Moment?

And then another idea i had was for a trans boy? I just thought this would be a good framework to explore LGBT stuff. He'd maybe be the wind element? And his personality would be very "classic shonen hero" but without the "dumbass" part, instead he's the cynical planner type dude while Hilda is the "i didnt even think, i just wanted to save everyone" type. But he's still super peppy and tries to be the class clown all the time so people will like him, and loves to climb trees and stuff. I think maybe his fighting style would be all about trickery and random chance? If there was such a thing as an element of surprise then he'd have that one! And then his story is that he doesn't have anyone supporting him for who he truly is at home, and he's afraid that his new friends will call him a freak too if they find out. He took the opportunity and cut his hair short as soon as this adventure started, and just introduced himself to everyone as a boy. But he's scared that people will find out he "lied" even though he didnt, he's just been so beaten down with the idea that he's not allowed to be himself and he has to pretend to be everyone else's idea of an ideal cis man or else they'll reject him. So maybe he starts off a bit obsessed with cliche masculinity and has low confidence about himself? And this could reflect in his digivolutions actually changing! He starts off with a really over the top buff warrior dude form, even though his fighting style is entirely about speed and trickery. So he tends to get into trouble with this fake form getting in the way of his ability to fight. And then when everyone accepts him he gets all powered up and changes into a new form! A way less "cliche macho" dude who looks like a stage magician instead and actually synchronizes with his element to become super powerful! And he's all like "oh no i became less manly" but everyone is like "wtf dont let yourself believe you're any less of a man because of dumb stereotypes!" And Also Big Friendship Hugs.

And then maybe this provides a resolution to both him and Hilda's plots? Like when the story is over they still stay friends in the real world, and having a friend who supports them gives them enough power to withstand all the haters and stay confident in themselves. But itd be kind of a coincidence for all the digidestined to live in the same city lol! So maybe in real life they live at least a few towns away, and they become long distance pals who send letters/emails. Because I LOVE ALL MY LONG DISTANCE PALS!! Also itd make sense to have a Internet Good message in a digimon show, lol.

And then i dunno about the rest of the team yet but i thought itd be good to have a sort of moral divide? Like these are the two who have a shitty home life and dont want to leave the digital world. But then the other half of the group has big reasons to wanna go home. So the villains could play on this difference in goals and make them fight amoungst each other. Just generally make the villains more actually competant, yknow? Oh also if there's a Dark Agunimon on the villains he needs to be EVEN MORE of a boring human in a costume! Cos it sucks that all the villains have better character designs and the show seems to think theyre worse ones. Give me one case of more boring not meaning more heroic!