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#i let the shit and the garbage pile up until hes overwhelmed cause i cant fucking bring myself to do simple fucking human tasks
strawbearydreams · 1 month
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#so ive never really done a vent post like this on here (or anywhere for that matter)#so idrk how this is gonna go but ig im gonna try it anyway cause idrk what else to do at this point lmao#look. listen. i know. i know *logically* that if i did die or disappear or whatever i know people would miss me#i know people would be sad and heartbroken and i know people care about me listen. i *know*#but i just. i cant help but think that everything would be better if i just. wasnt here#like. i just feel like such a burden to everyone around me. like i feel like i make everyones life actively worse#especially my dad#god he deserves so much better than me#i treat him so fucking badly like. all he asks of me is to keep my spaces clean and i just fucking. dont#i let the shit and the garbage pile up until hes overwhelmed cause i cant fucking bring myself to do simple fucking human tasks#cause of my fucking adhd or whatever#even though thats just an excuse#i should be able to do these things! i should be able to function like a normal human being!#i should be able to keep up with my hygiene and my chores and my school and work responsibilities!#but i cant! i fucking cant!#god im so fucking tired im fighting. im so tired of trying over and over and over again all for it to not fucking matter in the end#cause im right back where i fucking started#god all of this is just a shitty excuse to continue being a shit fucking human being#i dont even feel human anymore lol i feel *less* than human#god i wish i was less than human. i wish i was a fucking dog or something#that way i wouldnt have to worry about this bullshit world#that says a lot about me huh#im gonna end it there#ignore this pls#vent#tw vent
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yeehawgame4ever · 5 years
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han/will but all 20 for the otp meme :)
socks this is my choices blog!!! 😤😤😤
but ok fine im down 2 talk abt han/will 24 hrs 7 days a week
1) who can outdrink the other?
han could outdrink will but he wouldn't want to try. which means that will thinks he's king alcohol.
2) who says “I love you” more?
will does will does will does. han is less of a talker and more of a doer but will absolutely fawns
3) who has trouble sleeping alone?
both? neither? han and will were both sort of perpetual loners before they started becoming close, so they're like.... used to it, but they don't like it.
4) who swears more?
han.
5) who does more of the housework?
han but if he asked will would help. will's just like... a bastard who lives in garbage. will 'wears the same shirt for five days' lyons and han 'brushes his teeth after every meal' lyons
6) who forgets their anniversary?
NEITHER OF THEM they r devoted and would Never miss an opportunity to show it NEVER
7) who steals the duvet in their sleep?
will but if han wakes up without it he Will kick will in the shins and steal it back
8) who keeps the other awake at night with their snoring?
actually theyre sinus champions and dont snore often enough for this to be a problem
9) who finds stray animals and begs the other to let them keep them?
will might joke about it, but he's on the road too often for it to be feasible 😔 they both like dogs and dogs like them well enough but they're too practical to consider it seriously if they're going to keep living the way that they have been
10) who usually makes dinner?
han! but will is also in the kitchen making a nuisance out of himself (making bad jokes. leaning his chin on han's head while he stirs pasta or smth. taking the spoon han is using and replacing it with a fresh one, pranking him super hard by leaving him with a pile of like ten spoons.) sometimes he helps! but not a lot.
11) who plays their music out loud?
will. will big does.
12) who hogs the bathroom?
neither of them. this is a doors open [motel]
13) who gives the most compliments?
will but only because han thinks saying things out loud and in public is embarrassing and will doesnt know what shame is
14) who usually starts/causes arguments between them?
honestly theyre both pretty good at this but will normally does it because he thinks its funny
15) who isn’t afraid to embarrass the other in public?
id say will but he doesnt Actually like making han uncomfortable
16) who gives the other cringeworthy pet names?
neither! will cant even remember that han is a surname let alone remember some kind of nickname . besides, he loves han's name... its Him
17) who fusses over takes care of the other when they get sick?
han does this the Most over like, smaller things. will gets a little overwhelmed and doesnt start fussing full-throttle until han starts getting tired or cranky
18) who finds it impossible to stay angry at the other for long?
both tbh. theyre honestly p good at communicating
19) who clings to the other for comfort when they’re sad or scared?
this is Also a communication thing sort of? as in, do they share whether or not theyre sad or scared, or do they repress that shit 4 fun and for sport. and its also a privacy thing, cause theyre both more likely to seek comfort when theyre alone.
20) who is more ‘physically passionate’? (hugs, kisses, or maybe more…)
will. but it depends on the day and how sexy he was.
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