"I think this is the most inhuman; and human, that I've ever felt.." MUCH CAN HAPPEN IN A YEAR. IN FIVE YEARS. A DECADE. imagine how much can happen in a century. just ONE (1). How will you grow? what phases do you find? even in 5 years, you will find patterns.

doodle page from a couple months ago of Nico having way too many immortal friends

also yes i did just use Nyx’s Hades design. it’s a good design.

I’m fairly new to the fandom, but I do have a question if you can answer it! Why do people ship Daigo with Aoki / Masato? I tried looking to see if they’ve interacted before, but couldn’t find anything! Sorry for asking I’m just </3 dumb AND I LOVE YOUR ART OF THEM!!! Nerd looking ahhhhhh

hi ! welcome to the community i hope you're having a lovely time so far and ty for enjoyin my stuff :) no need for apologies it's a very fair question to have :]

i cant speak for everyone (all. ten people into masadai anyway) but Personally To Me i just think the idea of them together is very funny. thats quite literally it im afraid..

had a nearly 2 hour long interview yesterday and when they asked "where do you see yourself in 5 years" i felt like crying

Your Avendurer! Zenos comics are always so good, and I love how you write him. The touch about him being functionally doomed to immortality is the perfect level of extra spice on top, too. Imo it's the perfect motivation for him to genuinely try to better himself as a person.

Thank you! Tbh the concept has had a hold on my brain since the end of Endwalker, and I'm glad you really enjoy it ^-^

It’s the subtle character development he’s gotten over the course of the story and the potential he has that makes me adore writing Adventurer!Zenos and the journey he has in turn of following the WoL's (Meteor, in my cases) footsteps.

Making himself immortal is actually the main inspiration behind it too, it's a consequence that self-sabotaged his original goal. Maybe eventually becoming a wake up for him that Alisaie was absolutely right and that he may still have an opportunity to not doom himself to being alone forever.

It's actually why I also made him a tank too, having him turn away from being "the man who was willing to destroy the world for his own chase of his desires" to him being willing to throw himself in and to help and protect others even at the cost of himself for a time, a thought that has stuck with me since the theory of him saving WoL with the remote crossed my mind.

remember a year ago when i accidentally found and held a guy's skull and i was so shaken by it that i talked to my therapist about it and she told me trying to find out who he was and think of him as a person wasn't healthy or good

and then a couple months later recommended me a bunch of "gender resources" from the heritage foundation so i stopped going to therapy

anyway hes still Albert to me, a guy who liked science and the sea and writing letters to his sister and im admittedly still kind of fucked up about him

HI TUMBLR late footnote posting before i go to bed (i took a nap today........ ate up most of my time)

not a lot to talk about with footnotes today since i was Busy and my brain wasnt working pfndkmlfd i blame seven hours of modded oneblock

did a dooble and liked it a lot, so i'll toss it here

WHAOFH

This is literally so fucking funny I was just laying down thinking about all the potential for stupid family/found family dynamics and was like. Man... I really haven't given Thrasir a lot of thought .... I wonder when she'll be summonable again..... Oh? Now? Hm. Okay. Freyja color sharing? Augh.... it May be useful to get her........ for studying purposes .......... maybe I'll give it a shot -- AH

weeks have gone by and still im constantly tempted to post the transfeminism manifesto that my prof had us read for class. imo it was genuinely a really good piece overall, esp when it comes to understanding gender essentialism + why it's bad, but there's a few things in there that could be controversial(tm) such as What Trans People Experience Male Privilege.

the author is a trans woman and she does have a section at the end saying that she came back to the piece years later and finds it lacking in some ways (like nonbinary inclusion), but still thinks it's a good start to transfeminist works.

make some noise beloved!!!! cant wait for future eps

spare more vesper and fenix facts pleaaasee 🤲🏼

i love both of you SO MUCH. thank you for making me talk about these two. i'm going to answer the asks together since i'll be touching the same themes mostly mwah

I'll start by saying that yes, they broke up. They spent something like 2 years together as an “official” couple but ultimately broke up over the fact that...basically Fenix never being there. He would simply disappear for days, weeks even without saying a word, he’s a mercenary so sometimes he would just go get jobs done but other times he would be god knows where doing no one knows what. That’s what put a strain on their relationship: Vesper wanted someone to be there for her, during good and bad times, and he would simply..not be there (he also has...not the easiest personality to deal with). Like she would wake up one morning and see he’s gone and she doesn’t know where he went and when he’s gonna come back. She’s been alone since age 14 when her father died, she just wished to have someone with her finally. On the other hand Fenix never knew what having a stable home feels like, always going back to the same place and so on. He never learned how to live that kind of life. Funny (or sad?) thing is that they didn’t have a very dramatic end: Vesper had to choose to break off the relationship by herself, too tired of his treatment she just had to come to terms with the breaking up on her own, she had no way to contact him nor she knew where he was. Fenix came back after like 3 weeks to an empty home and he knew he was done for with her.

Now Vesper thought she was done dealing with him forever, during the times they are apart she meets her brother (who she never got to meet since her mother left her and her father when Daniel wasn’t even born) and they start living together as a family. THAT’S when Fenix suddenly shows up to their door asking help from Vesper because he fucked up something big with the wrong people and needed a hand to fix it. At first she refuses and sends him away but she cares about him, she’s upset about it but she’s not able to stay away from him so she decides to help (and they manage to get Fenix out of trouble for a while)

After that Fenix starts to hang out more and more around her and Daniel, at first she’s fighting it, “what are you doing here now” she would say but slowly it became almost natural to have him around (when he decided to show up)

So basically they are living all together like a divorced couple hkjfhjs and ofc Vesper and Fenix would have their moments from time to time: an unxpected gentle embrace, a very strong tension followed by a kiss, a night spent together that “it’s never gonna happen again”. It’s the memory of the old times, the few moments when everything was perfect

This is also the phase that is my delight to write because it’s either Fenix being jealous, Vesper trying to fight the subtle feelings for him (and cursing herself when she can’t), both of them fighting each other over little things and Fenix being his damn charming self

Vesper also has a kind of relationship with Rogue during game events and Fenix is basically always there trying to get between them and antagonizing Rogue until Vesper has to put him back in his place 

The thing that has me so irremediabily lost with them is that...it’s like they attract each other whenever they are in the same room? Or even when far apart. There’s always something that brings them back together, like destiny. Which takes me to what my main point of the story with them and Daniel is: family. We have Vesper and Daniel, brothers separeted before even meeting each other by their own parents and that are trying to catch up on all the time they lost together, all the things they couldn’t do together, and then we have Fenix, someone that never had a family, doesn’t even know what “family” means, someone who was betrayed by his own blood twice (his parents abandoning him and his brother when he was 4 and his brother shooting at him and leaving him nearly dying). I think they all found family after a long journey of never having one and i’m just so emotional about it AAAA

Also to focus mainly on ves/fenix bc that’s the main thing here: truth is that Vesper loves staying with him so damn much that she can’t help being sad and upset that he’s so elusive. She would observe him being like a big brother to Daniel, a best friend, and she would wish for him to stay there forever. Fenix looks at her and he sees the first person he knows he can trust, home is a person to him and that’s Vesper. Family is staying with Vesper and Daniel. LIKE the fact he always comes back to her, for help or for simply gravitating around her world. HE JUST WANTS TO BE THERE but he never experienced a feeling so strong to be part of something, to be loved, he can only run away from it!!

I’ll give a little spoiler but i’m maaaybe developing his story on the road of healing, or even better: learning in this case. Might even have a second chance with Vesper? Can’t say anything more, we will  see ;))

Like one point i like to analyze with Fenix is that you don’t always change for the better because of love/a loved one. Sometimes people...stay the way they are and can’t change, that’s life. Doesn’t mean he can’t learn tho. His personality is still.....a whole mess to deal with but i think he might deserve to go through the process of learning something that his own parents had to teach him: what family means.

also just to end on a funny note: Vesper was and still is the one in the relationship that goes “excuse me, he asked for no pickles” with Fenix <33

relating the laptop time post- i intentionally set a watch we have to a few hours ahead because its fun to figure out the actual time </3 we don't wear it often but its confusing when we do and forget its like that. also that one time we went on a weird streaming website and got a virus that set our pc to like 5/6 hours behind and only noticed when the sun started rising and we realised it wasn't actually midnight :/

HANFHNF pc virus of fuck your clock

................ I am more fond of Black Eagles house than I have previously been willing to admit,,,

speaking of genbu's "serious" sounding tone in his voicebank, i think that might be why he was such a dead ringer for teto pre-synthv-bank-release with just a couple little gender parameter tweaks. wait do my followers know this. sorry i know most of my vocal synthesizer talk is genuinely gibberish to my beloved and loyal long time followers but do you guys know this. for a few years, people had discovered that since utau teto and genbu have this similar strong enunciation and dark sounding tone plus teto can have a bit of a tomboyish edge to her voice anyway -> if u mess with some parameters and phonemes he'll sound close enough to her, so it became a bit of running gag in the community, along with just being a genuine and novel use case for his voicebank. actually recently i found out about someone who made a couple of synthv scripts to set genbus voice to his falsetto pitch and set the tension to drop during each syllable automatically to make him sound like the utau sora amaha. genbu's purpose is to impersonate other vocal synthesizers

i know every time i try to talk abt or liveblog p5 i Cannot physically shut up abt Akechi but contrary to what that may make u believe. he is not actually my favorite. hes in 2nd place on a good day