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aroaessidhe · 8 months

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2023 reads

Wren Martin Ruins It All

YA contemporary romcom

student council president proposes to cut the school valentine’s dance because it's expensive and alienating for queer/single people, but instead the vice president (who he adamantly hates for being perfect) suggests they get sponsored by a popular friendship app

he decides to secretly give the app a go to “know his enemy” but ends up making a friend, and starts to catch feelings for him...and maybe realises the guy he hates isn't actually so bad either...

ace mlm MC, aro-questioning side character

I loved this so much! great MC with a funny internal monologue

despite the title most issues or misunderstanding are sorted out pretty quickly rather than drawn out for the drama and plot. which is refreshing

I was a little nervous about the concept of ‘ace hates the school dance and wants it shut down’ - there's a bit of a stereotype of aspecs being boring Fun Haters - but I think it did a really good job of showing the specifics of why, not dragging it out, and also that he’s just a snarky fun hater in general with not much weight behind it.

There’s also no discovering of sexuality or big coming out (just one-on-one) - he already knows he’s ace, and it comes up naturally a bunch, talking about how dances etc can feel isolating, the way the friendship app called buddy being called ace-friendly can feel infantilizing, avoiding dating because of the stress of having to check upfront if people about it, etc.

I would have liked to know more about his relationship with his mum? Though I understand that it’s clearly something he avoids thinking about - going too deep into his relationship with his parents might have changed the tone a lot. but still.

ARC from netgalley thanks netgalley

#wren martin ruins it all #aroaessidhe 2023 reads #asexual books #ngl as soon as i was like oh this boy is elliot schafer coded i was a lost cause #(re aro character - I have noticed a bit of a trend of “maybe aromantic but I don’t like labels” in YA #contemporary recently that I don’t love - but it’s not an inherent issue with this book)#I’ve read a lot of YA contemporary books where the portrayal of social media and made up apps doesn’t feel right; but this one did to me!#maybe it’s because it’s from the POV of someone’s who’s cynical about it.#(and types no punctuation no capitalisation…I could see my online-communication style reflected back at me…)#Even the confrontation at the end where feelings are confessed isn’t made into some big dramatic thing in front of everyone with no #communication. But it also doesn’t feel emotionally anticlimactic.#(maybe a couple of the reveals in the confession felt unnecessarily dramatic to me? like the story would have functioned without them. )#but it's common for comtemporary ya to overdramatise silly things for the plot and im glad this didn't #possibly this is just my adult opinion about teen narratives.#The adult characters (even though they’re mostly background) feel like real people.#and it has some good friendships. also he has chickens and they are very good #it did become increasingly obvious that it was the same ppl but also they’re emotionally stupid. and like….it's part of the genre.#we all know this going in.

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curioscurio · 9 months

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Most of my sinus infection has cleared up besides the occasional cough and irritated throat but now this ear infection.... everything hurts can I please have a break before I have to go back to work just a day without pain so I can clean up my sicknest without feeling like ass

#i live with my parents but my mom is having a horrible flair up of RA so she's bedbound and can't help me at all and dad is the only one #the only one working atm so he's not doing anything besides that #its just a little frustrating because whenever mom is sick from her flare ups or if dad gets the sniffles im like #I'm like what can i do for you are you comfortable do you need anything can i make you food let me clean up etc #but when i go down for 3 days of being visibly miserable everything i ask is the world #ask dad to pick up my perscription but god forbid i ask him to do any other task on the way home that involves making 2 SEPARATE LOCATIONS #ita fine hes just. idk #plus mom has her RA flare up and idk #it just feels like nobody in this house is particularly sympathetic when im feeling miserable but im ALWAYS sympathetic when they are #the first 2 days i was doing nothing but sleeping or rolling in pain in my room and no one came to check in on me to see how i was doing #then yesterday my mom says shes taking us both into urgent care but leaves without me in the morning when i was too sick to wake up when she #called for me.#she was like I just really was in so much pain and you didnt get up and i wanted to go asap and i called you #anyway so because i was so sick i couldnt wake up i had to drive myself to urgent care which is also fine im a big boy #anyway. circumstances or whatever. im also real salty bc ive felt like shit for like 4 days

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mossboys · 6 months

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i’ve been trying to stay off social media in general but honestly nothing has radicalized me like this has. i think about it constantly. i’ve never been on the verge of tears almost constantly because of anything in the news before

#text #most of all i feel absolutely fucking insane seeing the videos i do #reading palestinian testimony in gaza and in diaspora #seeing raw grief and anger just all over my tl every single day is doing a number on me i don’t know what to do with myself #i have never felt a rage like this before i’ll be real. rage at my own country rage at the jews who do nothing and rage at my family #i have family in israel i will never see or talk to until i die. there’s been a permanent rift between me and my parents for years #i am so angry at american jews who have been fed propaganda since childhood and never unlearned any of it at their big ages #i found out what palestine was when i was 13 because i was raised so ultra zionist i did not even know what the land was called before #and when i found out i cut off most of my jewish friends slowly and then most of my family slowly as well #i’m no longer part of any jewish community and i have not been for a long time because of this. it is such a specific kind of heartbreak #and it’s hard to really put into words #mainly i just want to scream i think.#being an anti zionist jew should not be this lonely. where are all your hearts.

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waddles-ex-machina · 9 months

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personally I’m reconciling my worries abt Hilda’s dad showing up in s3 with the fact that it’ll be so funny if he does & tries to just rejoin Johanna and Hilda where he left off. just walks into the house to find his ex and daughter perfectly happy & living with a bunch of random creatures now. imagine coming back to your family after however many years and finding out you’ve been replaced by a tiny invisible guy, a nisse and a weird dog

#Hilda the series #Hilda netflix #crawls out of the woodwork to post this #post tag #i promise I won’t be annoying if the Hilda’s dad thing becomes real #like my only gripe is that I personally never felt like the ‘oooh but who is Hilda’s FATHER’ q ever needs to be answered #like some kids just have single parents!!#it doesn’t have to be a big mystery #BUT if that is how it goes it’s fine I’ll be interested to see where they take it #man better have a good reason for leaving his partner and kid for the best part of a decade tho

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crazyw3irdo · 11 months

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i just watched charlie's first qsmp vod and y'all weren't kidding that census thing is fucking terrifying

#qsmp #mcyt #crazwaz posted #like the whole scene where it appears just. wow.#idk what pronouns ppl have been using to refer to it im just gonna use it/its idk if thats the correct set ive just seen the one vod #idk how much sway i have given ive only seen the one perspective but god if you havent seen that any of the ppl there's povs its real good #its about 2 hours 35 minutes into his vod #just. wil charlie and quackity vibing and then jaiden running in yelling that theres 'a woman in the walls'#them all going to investigate and not hearing anything at first. talking over each other.#then charlie hears it too. and in the background you can see it slowly crouching and walking in but they dont see it #until quackity screams and then they all see it and theyre all screaming and they all realize theyve been cornered in #and they try to escape and block it in but then they realize its in creative mode and theyre freaking the fuck out #then they calm down when they realize its just trying to ask them questions #and while theyre typing in their books A CREEPER FUCKING EXPLODES BEHIND THEM #and as theyre freaking out and realizing theres like. 10 mobs behind them- including more creepers-#the census is cheerfully repeating 'yes! yes! yes!' and jumping up and down excitedly #like literally big fan of horror stuff here and that scene felt like it fit right in #very effective. loved it. like the bits with the duck being like 'you broke the one rule so you can never leave' felt very creepypasta #but the census guy felt like an actual horror short film or something. not to diss the duck or creepypasta yknow its just different flavors #the way it comes out of nowhere too is very effective. like charlie is doing his el backflippo bit when jaiden comes in #not even fully out of nowhere too! like the campier bits with the duck gives it precedence!#also yeah gay sex island charlie has already slept eith two guys and has flirted with many more #'are you.... cómo se dice en inglés.... circumcised?'#so funny tho thinking like. my number one favorite part of the vod is that scary census scene #number two is charlie singing about argentina #number three is charlie in the caves with roier mariana and fit and theyre talking about circumcision #10/10 love it. i was right tho it is fucking with my brain because im trying to learn japanese and my brain is now combining spanish with #japanese because my brain has sorted those two languages into one pile thats just 'a language i have very basic knowledge of'#so now every time i try to start a sentence in one of those languages the other one tries to creep in #i had that problem when i first started learning japanese and now it returns hasdfkjhasdkjfh

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starsandthorn · 4 days

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women 👍

#personal stuff #thorn plays genshin #really cool boss fight and design!!#not quite as difficult as i expected but fun mechanics #also i liked how up close and personal it was. felt more like a duel than the past few real Big bosses like the whale #reminded me of the raiden fight w her just ominously walking towards you with creepy boss music in the bg #AND THE CUTSCENE WOOOO. the traveler seeming genuinely scared.#i was wondering if they were having khaenri'ah flashbacks seeing her crimson moon. hehe. kicks feet in the air #like them thinking abt khaenri'ah when paimon mentions the eclipse hilichurl tribe #i do like how we didn't actually Win. like we've beaten eleven eight and god gundam six #but we barely hold our own against four who's holding back AND with having other people helping us #very fun. even if my personal fear of arlecchino has gone down with each piece of promotional material.#also listening to everyone talk back and forth about oh nooo the knave is doing something terrible #having watched the animated short and also read thru arle's voicelines. is very funny #ALSO TARTAGLIA SHOWING UP. just to show that yes she DID return his vision and he IS okay #he's so funny to me. he fought a whale and was on the brink of death and is like NO I HAVE TO GO BACK TO FONTAINE.#listen ME TOO i want to know more from skirk #i did enjoy them shitting on their coworkers together that was GREAT. i LOVE to see the inter-harbinger beef #and them being on alright terms is nice. i think arlecchino does see him as a kid kind of #also interesting to me that pulcinella and pantalone are seemingly more in charge with certain parts of the fatui as a whole #and that they work Together when they don't seem to get along in the lazzo trailer

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lion-buddy · 10 months

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being the resident nezuko liker is such a challenge sometimes

#ooo these tags contain complaining if u dont like that then see ya around <3 #i would love to scroll through the tag without being bombarded by. awfulness. both bot and fandom posted #yknow. yknow. that is a 12 yr old #it has become!!! genuinely frustrating! it always has been #and i dont mean to complain but. man. im just disappointed #and.while kinda begin the kny mascot she is barley present in fan made content. with meaning. and its all mostly reposted art ugh.#and even official stuff has her only as little child nezuko and!! i get it its cute whatever but it feel so pandery and wrong all the time #i just poitn. that is not her that is a facet u r choosign to hyperfocus on show me the real her #and lets be honest the og stroyline isnt kind to her etiher she is nonexistent after swordsmith #i remember for a time when idid post abt her i was one of the inly consistent nezuko artists who wanted to like. put her in scenarios #and i want reiterate again that drawing cute art and gifs of her is fine it doesnt hurt anyone. i love to see it actually #but like. in a fandom as big as this youd think. youd think they like her more!!!! but no #and. the last thing i want to insinuate is “if u dont like my fav character then u suck” cus thats is not how fandom content works. at all #fandom is a experience for u to cultivate for yourself. and sometimes it just comes up short!!! i guess #it jsut felt weird being lonely in your liking of an aspect of the series where there are so many ppl. yet they all only like the hot men.#which again. u do u. nothign wrong with it. its anime afterall. it can just be frustrating sometimes.#idk! im also not very social so maybe its just my fault but. man. id love to find some other resident nezuko likers that. isnt just shippin #i feel interacting would be so much easier if my fav was like. one of the main boys like everyone else. or i made ship content or somethin #but like i said fandom is for u and u only if that makes sense. the point is to create things u want to see. which is what i do and enjoy #just with nezuko specifcally. i dotn want to put my stuff of her in the tags anymore cuz i just. dont trust the fandom with her. its weird #but also. appreciate those who did interact. i hope ur all doing alright <3 ty for talkign with me :]#i just needed to get this out cuz its. kinda why i dotn post abt kny anymore. especially the s3 fandom im sorry i just dont vibe with it </

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foxgirlmoth · 9 months

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I don't talk about this stuff on here pretty much at all, but a past relationship really broke a ton of bits and pieces of my brain and heart in weird ways (I'm finally thinking about him almost never but the shit he pulled was abusive as hell and still affects me sometimes). Being in love with my current girlfriends for a while felt almost. Painful? Almost like I should be ashamed I can fall so deeply in love with people, and especially how quickly that can happen sometimes too. Thats how it kind of felt. I tend to get overwhelmed with emotions if I'm feeling them very strongly, and that has been extremely embarrassing and also felt almost like I was being a burden to those I love (which love is the main emotion that can 'get dialed up to 11' for me). It IS debilitating in some ways!!! It hasn't gotten bad enough I've been nonverbal in a really really long time but that happened this past week and it was wild to me.

Things are getting better now though! Therapy in the past has helped, and honestly having such patient and understanding partners has made a world of difference ;w;. my wife is someone who was one of my best friends and I had a huge crush on and now I can ask for cuddles and we can nap together and I've fallen so much in love. Her and her presence are literally heaven for me, I don't know if anything has ever made me happier than just laying next to her and feeling her warmth.

Worries of course flare up and I feel like I need to lean on her a lot during those moments, but I don't feel like too much of a burden to her. I love seeing the posts that say stuff like 'Its okay to be a burden' or 'its okay to be annoying' because really truly I think I need to be those things to survive sometimes. I can be 'a lot' and I can be a little bit obsessive and those things aren't inherently bad or evil of me. I just make sure I'm feeling okay during and after and make sure I'm checking in on myself often. I'm a bit of a broken girl, but that doesn't mean I'm not extremely happy and living a life I love. I've written poems and everything about how it feels like it must hurt to love me and my broken jagged edges, but hey, even if it does a little bit, it doesn't mean someone like my girlfriend/wife won't go through a little bit of burden to love me, and I'm more than happy to return all of this and more for her as well if she's ever in need or feels broken ;^;