As an immigrant child, your new fic had resonated with me. It made me tear up eating dinner with my family.

When Saffron said, “This selfish desperation to know that I haven’t lost my connection to my home." It instantly took me back to being constantly teased by my friends for not being 'in tuned' with my culture like how they were, or how I desperately tried speaking in my native tongue with my parents, despite having a very clear american accent and them constantly assuring me that speaking in english is fine. My grandmother had passed earlier this year, she was the grandparent that I knew the least. I started asking about her from her sisters as my mother isn't in the state to answer anything, I've tried so hard to pick up the pieces of what her sisters have told me to construct an image of her personality. She used to constantly ask me to call her so when I read about Saffron talking about how video calls have were never the same and never enough, it hit me like a load of bricks.

Your fanfiction is so tremendously beautiful in describing the feelings I have felt all my life. How I know that where I am right now isnt home, but my actual home has been so unfamiliar after my grandmothers passing. I have constantly felt like I have disappointed her, so when Sunset confessed to the same thing, I couldn't hold my emotions in anymore. The ending with Saffron talking about how she would be waiting for Sunset to come home if she was her mother made hope that was true with me and my grandmother, if I were to ever reunite with her again when I pass away myself.

Thank you so much for writing this story. It was the most comfortable yet intense stories I have ever had the blessing to read. I am sorry for rambling and I hope this entire message makes some sort of sense? I hope whatever you're dealing with gets solved to the way you have hoped it would.

You have also made me see dal in a new light, it was never a food that I used to like, but I am willing to give it another shot lol

i looked at this ask earlier and had to take some time to process how to respond to this. i think tho i still dont really know how to, so i hope thats ok!

first of all, thank you so much for being comfortable enough to tell me ur story. it really means a lot that you would open up to me, a stranger, and the fact that you did so bc something i made had an impact on u quite actually moved me to tears. im a bit of a soggy mess rn lol. thank you again, truly.

second, i want to express my empathy for you and your situation with your grandmother. my grandad passed away before i could graduate, and it was during the height of lockdowns, so i hadnt seen him in a while. i didnt go to visit him in the hospital, so theres always this feeling of "what if i had called more? what if i had tried harder to visit? what if i spent more time with him?" that doesnt really go away. and, as a kid of 2 immigrant families, i can also really empathize with feeling a disconnect from your culture--when ur not surrounded by ur parents culture but u also visibly dont look like ur "from" the one u were raised in, it can feel really alienating, even though you havent done anything except just. exist in this sort of inbetween?

all of this i guess is to say that, i put a lot of my own experiences into this fic. and it's almost relieving in a way to know that u saw what i put there, and that this experience is something that other people have felt as well. thank you so very much again for reading ;v;

So apparently (as discovered by my partner, who doesn't know i like tickling but is an asshole(/j) anyways), the sides of my neck are a lot more ticklish than any other part. and also the space just above my kneecaps

i already knew my sides were pretty bad, but they also helped reaffirm that 👍

Deacon loves two things: Ymber and digging himself a grave.

Fulj hates one thing: Deacon.

I feel like a lot of this can anti ai sentiment can also be boiled down to people worshipping auteurship and clout. Its like people have a weird hierarchical relationship with art where Artists with Things to Say are imparting culture on the masses and the ideas presenting in such works Must Be Revered. When the creation of art is intrinsically contextual and requires a dialectical relationship between artist and audience. meaning is created in the dialogue. Culture is made in the sharing and not every artist is going to cite or even remember all their inspirations. Like why does credit matter for non-commercial works where we're not considering fair compensation for labour input?

I think it's kind of disappointing to see that people are so poisoned by this Big Wig IP propaganda that's all about protecting the sanctity of auteurship when art is inherently collaborative. Movies are made with whole cast and crews, huge installations often have helping hands setting up and helping with manufacturing. Most notably, all artists will be inspired by other artists and be incorporating styles and aesthetic sensibilities from those that came before them. Even Picasso "inventing" cubism wouldn't have happened without exploring abstraction found in African art. There's nothing that AI does that's intrinsically that different from manual artists, other than the incorporation of machine logics which is an exciting and developing field of interest and culturally on our minds. Medium is the message etc etc sorry it got long bestie x cheers

yeag ^

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my brain is still to covid fogged™ to make a long post abt this rn but like…

idk. There’s Something about the way that Cassie is feminized sometimes that feels almost violent. especially in comparison to how uncomfortable she was with femininity when she was created.

Job hunting in Today's Economy tm has got to be a greek mythology punishment of some sort

me giving advice: 'honestly just say what you mean! being honest is important in relationships'

me when i have to be honest and say what i mean:

I don't even think of David Copperfield as a Victorian novel. I think of it like it's the Peanuts or the Simpsons

ok i took a nap sorry for miseryposting

everyone at my job might be leaving at the same time 😶

being aceflux is so fucking wild

im gonna go to the gym today i think

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it’s a mental breakdown *kazoo sounds*