as a kid this scene in coraline where she makes her parents out of pillows and clothes the night they disappear made such a big impact on me and when tubbo died i couldn’t stop picturing sunny in the same situation. i think the night he died and she went home alone after all the stuff with creation, she curled up in bed with a pillow version of her pa. she probably used his jacket and his goggles to try and find some sense of familiarity. it’s always been her and her pa against the world and now he’s gone and she comes home but it doesn’t feel like home anymore because her favorite person in the entire world is gone and dead and she had to watch him die and listen while everyone around her joked about it for hours afterwards and every word said is just more proof that she is completely and utterly alone and yes she has fit but he’s not her pa it’s not the same and her heart is broken and she is exhausted so she goes to bed hugging her pillow-pa because she knows in the morning when she wakes up everything will feel too real and too empty and she wants as much time with him as possible even if he is only a jacket and a pair of goggles now