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from my perspective the fact that they already found yukiko is so funny bc its LITERALLY been a day im on easy for the story and managed to day one yukiko's castle (which never happened the entire time i first played p4 i was spending at least a week on each dungeon sometimes in real life at least 3-4 days working on a boss or dungeon and i was on normal this game is HARD) and theres no blocks to progressing the story until you get to a certain date like in p5 you absolutely CAN and often will day one palaces in p5 but no matter when you complete it you will have to wait for the dead line to move on to the next arc p4 didnt do that i was able to do all stages aka bosses of yukiko's dungeon in a single trip i only went to the velvet room once after maxing all 8 of the personas i have to complete the compendium (and was able to get to level 20 in 8 floors and unluck 8 persona slots when you start at level 1 with 6 slots) like this is so fast yukiko went missing i think late yesterday so its been exactly 24 hours shes been found so the freak out to immediate relief is kinda silly to me i love it lmao
#og#destiny p4g replay#bUT ADACHI WHY TALK ABOUT ITYOU STUPID ITS PRIVATE POLICE STUFF i cant tell if hes actually good willed bc he lives in a completely#different persona with every single persona he knows he is constantly switching faces to appease the social situation so like as the man he#is in front of dojimas nephew / son does he ACTUALLY care about yu to some degree and want to relieve his stress with good news that his#friend is okay? persona is all about relationships baby and the point of adachi and yu's connection is they have SO MANY DIFFERENT#relationships that makes their situation so complicated. theyre opposed forces as hero and villain. theyre connected as persona users. they#connected by god and power. theyre connected by family. they had a genuine friendship. adachi was wrought with jealousy for yu. yu to some#degree had earnest love or at least respect for adachi as his friend his older mentor his uncle's / dad's trusted friend. theyre relationsh#p is SO COMPLICATED and thats what makes good rivals characters its why people like hero vs villain why so many people are adachi to joker#akechi its a very specific enjoyment of fundamental opposition with the added bonus of personal relationship complexities sprinkled on top#ts so delicious and why so many people like tense relationships in a story theres DRAMA and love and sometimes hate and hate of the love an#love of the hate its so good these relationships are so fascinating to me aaaaa#adachi posting#narukami posting#the fool and the jester posting#ig
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nctdream · 1 year
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i hope sm stays on brand and does NOT follow through with their Q3/4/5/6/1278392&:&:$/« /$, schedule 😁
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newwave-lesbian · 7 months
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guys i think i might be able to get my old job back yayyyy that means money but also i am going to throw up and pass out and cry every day but that's normal
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twistedappletree · 8 months
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at this point i don’t even want to know about the current political situation in america
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kimmkitsuragi · 1 year
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ughhhh i literally cannot take how my classes start tmrw and i will have to work on a stupid project for another whole semester............ *applies for masters programs while saying this*
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unnamed-atlas · 2 years
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I think the most important post on this website is that post about choosing to love on purpose because it has been the most helpful mindset in getting through this month and this holiday and coming out on the other side still having had a good time despite everything
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mrfoox · 2 years
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Just me who find it Hard to approach people to potentially befriend if they have partners (irl)?
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iwantabatlleaxe · 2 years
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Vent in the tags my beloved OMG THE LIMIT IS 30 TAGS NOW??
#im upset bc my boyfriend made a joke w a really sexist 'slogan'#he used quem cala consente which means who doesnt say anything is consenting which is just... i hate it so much#ive heard this so many times throughout my life and my teachers would say it frequently when it's about excusing rape#he said he wouldn't do it anymore bc I was uncomfortable but that + my gender journey + his red flags of anger issues are just... too much#for me rn. i feel stuck to him in a social context. i just wanna be myself#i hate the idea that guys are misogynists and stuff. i really want to believe my group friend isn't- and they've proved over and over that#they arent but this joke really upset me for some reason.#im tired.#also good news! i got a cane in case I have leg pain until my next appointment!#but uh. my bf kinda joked about that too.#it isnt as bad as it sounds#actually no im tired as fuck#i miss him only when I'm in need of uhm. comfort if u know what I mean#and the way he keeps saying ily makes it hard to break up. its not like i dont have reason to but still#i wanna be with him... but in this moment its hard. im. trans. and hes straight. he's straight. and I wanna be in a relationship with#someone who gets me. respecting is the minimum but I wanna be with someone who I can talk to about being trans without explaining#or- oh fuck home is playing rn. im emotional#i love him. hes great. but he has some red flags i dont want to ignore#i know he wouldnt do anything bad to me- he's always extra careful and respects my bodily boundries but I need this space for myself#what a shitty situation#im having a heartbreak?#i dont even. know anymore.#home just ended playing and a tear broke#also he keeps making jokes about me breaking up w him in like two weeks bc he keeps making shitty jokes#none are ever sexist/anyphobic#he loves and he loves with his full being and I just don't think i can handle that. i love with my fingertips then hands he loves with his#blood and smile and it's a lot#fuck#.#vent
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desertdragon · 2 years
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I hate raiders, mostly the hardcore's bc they're just cunts, but whenever they are in tune with looking at the game from a gameplay perspective (not just looking at logs), everything they have to report is shit I can feel even as a casual though I can't explain it as in depth as they can; and I have to agree it feels like the devs have forgotten how to make and balance a game in the last 3 years, as much as most players themselves suck at understanding and playing the fucking game (and how poor the game's learning tools and mentors are as well) since it's seen as a vehicle for story cutscenes or mashing buttons
If the gameplay keeps going dumber across the board that would take away the last legitimate reason I have to play it and surprisingly I don't like the thought of that conversation with myself
#my attitude is like half a toe in the raider mindset and half the toe in casual i can't commit to either bc i dont like either enough#but if you have a brain and have been playing as long as i have or longer its so obv we are downhill rn#Stormblood was the last time the entire game as a game felt engaging for a majority of time#ive been kinda lucky as a DRG main bc they haven't butchered it as much as others but idk how long that will last every patch#and the healing situation the last 3 years is fucking ground zero Chernobyl elephant's foot#anyone who had / has followed me long enough knew / knows i already feel this game sucks but if you make the Game part worse#then it'll Fucking Suck in a way where i don't think i could say I Hate It But I Like It anymore#it feels weird being someone who came in when Stormblood was Brand New bc i was there for all of it when the story sucked not the gameplay#then being here since is like watching the story have a seizure and the gameplay crashes into a fucking cliff outside of a few#DRGs are workhorses so if we go down too w these rework trends idk man... we're traditionally the burst#concerning to me that other classes are also revolving around bursts now plus shittier braindead buttons#homogenization sucks#i will say though im glad the frequency of LOLDRG jokes has gone down these few years bc it was never funny#its been used way too much to target and harass every DRG or if you made even one mistake- got called a lot of slurs & things bc of it#one last thing you may say There's More Than Fighting Here Wtf Are You Bitching About-#the main function of the game IS fighting it has ALWAYS been fighting its the main interface by which you play its why DF & MSQ are tied#combat is integrated into quests into dungeons into raiding into socializing into the MSQ etc whatever isn't fighting is subordinate#so yes if the combat system gets worse then that's a huge chunk of the game now shit- its not a visual novel go play a VN if you want that#now if you say the only reason i still play is bc i wanna eat Yugiri out then- *Squidward running meme*
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depresseddepot · 2 years
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so like. after i realized i had adhd it felt like my adhd got worse bc i was seeing symptoms everywhere, but it was really just bc i was paying full attention to it for the first time. now that i know i have autism too, it's doing the same thing, where i feel like its getting worse and harder to manage so i'm going to have to get really good at acting really quickly or i'm going to have to figure out how to not have a mental breakdown when my masking isn't working like it's supposed to
#i know nobody asked but. ive been out of sorts for the last month now#im also trying to keep this relatively light hearted but uh. uh! i don't know anymore if my personality is something i made up or not!#my sense of self is completely tied to my ability to mask and adapt to social situations i don't understand and it isn't working right now!#who am i outside of this construct!! bc right now i feel like im 10 years old again wearing the costume of a 21 year old!!!!#have i really not progressed past that!!!!!!! has all of my efforts just been to improve this fucking shell and not who i actually am!!!!#anyway. light hearted.#i hoping this is just exacerbated by current events and not like. the way my life will be from now on#i repressed that shit so desperately and hated myself so much i didn't even stop to think that maybe it was something i couldn't change#ive always been too slow at changing behaviors or too hard to understand etc etc#so i just repressed everything that was making me that way and somehow came to believe they were personal faults and not. u know. symptoms.#cant look anyone in the eye and am so tense in public settings i get exhausted right away from sheer exertion?#yeah that must be normal. im just a piece of shit who can't grow up and am so stupid my peers are passing me by ♡ /s#can't do anything new socially like making a phone call unless i see someone else do it first so i can copy their words and make a script?#yeah its definietly normal to have a social ability completely made up of patchwork quotes /s#and get paralyzed when someone asks something The Script can't answer bc you don't know how to use your own words#hmm. hmm! i hate myself (and i hate living here ♡)
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cinnabeat · 2 months
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anyways i was speaking to a friend the other day (yesterday????) and have come to the realization that the year before graduation curse has struck me again
#i. in ALL my school years. have mever had a good hear before graduation#fourth grade? terrible. i got forcibly introduced to social situations i had to navigate that i didnt understand nor care abt#AND had the worst teacher in my life who genuienly hated me personally#seventh grade? crash course into bullying and also learning to Be A Person#would not recommend#eleventh grade? gun to my head i could not tell you anything meaningful that happened to me that year beyond having a breakdown in the girls#bathroom bc there was something incredibly wrong with me and school was no longer easy (adhd my beloved)#AND also new social situations AGAIN and being forcibly befriended with people that in hindsight i didnt actually like very much#AND the stress of college and sats and ap tests and acts and everything and trying to figure out what kind of future i envisioned for myself#when i had literally never thought abt my future beyond what classes i take next school year#this year? i dont know what the fuck is happening but it is perhaps a combination of the covid lockdowns and having like. zero friends. and#also again trying to figure out what future i envision myself that is Not working a retail job for the rest of my life bc i kind of#cant care less#now i am not naive enough to believe medicine would fix me#however i think adhd meds would in fact fix me#i dont think im experiencing shrimp emotions#i think im experiencing like. amoeba emotions#or like. the ant that for one brief second understood what it is like to be a human#and then is forever left with the haunting feeling of wrongness#otherwise known as cosmic horror. or like worm emotions idk#michi tag#anyways. its five am god help me
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and what if i tell you the thirteen minute flight was by an estate company because she long sold that jet, i don't think y'all are here for reason. accept it taylor swift is the poster child for your hate
the thing is you people are so hateful towards her that you don't care about the actual issue but bringing her down.
awh, you know me so well............... im free tomorrow night if you are?
#taylor swift#look. im fine with discussing the nuance in these situations. i have consistently and you'd know that if you took a quick scroll#i like taylor swift as a person as a musician and as a businesswoman overall but lately it has not been minor issues#or things that can be swept away#the fact is that she holds an immense amount of power right now and she is squandering all the good she can do with it#i believe she should cut down her carbon emissions just as i believe anyone on that top 10 list should.#like where is steven spielberg even flying to that much??? there is absolutely no excuse.#and we can argue that it's for the tour but taylor swift was the biggest celebrity carbon emitter of 2022 -- theres a Yard article on it#i can share the link if you'd like but its a quick google search. she was not on tour during that time.#and i believe that she is just as awful for being a billionaire because there is no ethical way to hoard that much money as rihanna and#jay z and paul mccartney are#the reason i talk more about taylor swift is 1) i genuinely just know more about her and am a fan so i have a right to criticize#and 2) she arguably has more influence than all of those people combined right now. over wealth she has power and the public eye on her#does it suck? yeah. but clearly not enough because she's still doing what she does at the same level#i dont hate her. i just dont like her very much. at least not right now.#and this is JUST economic and environmental issues to say NOTHING about political and social issues. i dont need her to acknowledge#everything and anything. but maybe three headlines in the new york times. she can pick the timeline#i probably shouldve made this its own post but tbh. i dont care that much especially not if yall are reading it in bad faith#asks#the tree speaks#ily anon
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jade-curtiss · 7 months
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"Let me take nothing you care about seriously and make fun of your traumatism on top of creating new others, it'll be fun"
"how come you hate me? It wouldn't have happened if I would have listened you communicated more."
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strawbebyjam · 8 months
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need someone to take the ex RO trope away from me
#every single time i’m like Yes. Yes This Is Helping. Yes I Feel Stronger. Y- [passes out sobbing]#i mean it’s delicious angst but i’m a hurtcomfort demon and hurtcomfort is not the genre of my life so it just ends up making me feel crappy#but it’s sooooooooooo. like i love it. and the. like the lingering sense of But Maybe and the way it’s validated in games. and th-#like i need someone to come over and blacklist all lovers to strangers to lovers content it is NOT good for me ‼️ [continues reading]#anyways everything feels bad again and i can’t do anything about it and my escapism all reminds me of it and the news is horrible and home#is horrible and uni is horrible and social stuff is horrible#and being this hopeless and negative about everything makes me feel entirely un-myself but i haven’t been myself in weeks#and i don’t know what being myself looks like in tbe midst of all this#and i’m working really hard to be good about it but then i think like this and it crumbles HDJDHD#going to my highschool reunion tomorrow where not a single teacher or classmate will remember or recognize me. that’s exciting#also been repeatedlyjaving the thought that id just be fine with it now to be some random mans nonsexualhousewife. family would ve happy.#and i wouldnt have 2 get a job and id just have to take care of a house. like as long as i can find sum1 who doesnt want sex it could work#and id never have to worry abt being alone again even if itd suck and id hate myself forever. but no job. n happy family#idk i promised myself i wouldnt like. give up like this. but i dontsee any other situation that doesnt end in me#like left entirely alone? i either give up family for the possibility of a fulfilling life as a lesbian but only certain ill be alone#or i try and make the best of things and make like. doing what they want. livable#anyways. back to the same dilemma as 14 year old me but this time knlwing im a lesbian and not bi. so theres not even a chance ill be happy#fun times#mano.mindtalk#neg
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michi-chelle · 11 months
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you’d think after having grandpas hit on me since i was in elementary school i’d be more able to say “fuck off” whenever it happens nowadays but i still can’t and i hate myself for it
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