#i had a huge fucking tonsil stone in my mouth for A YEAR AND A HALF about the size of the head of a tack
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kinda gross tmi in the tags but it's driving me crazy. if you read the tags we're gonna be a lot closer after i'm warning you now
#cw mouth#cw medical#covering my bases#anyway#i had a huge fucking tonsil stone in my mouth for A YEAR AND A HALF about the size of the head of a tack#like if I opened my mouth you could see it just sitting in there even my doctors were like wtf#but it didnt hurt or anything so they didn't remove it#but the other night i woke up genuinely choking and coughing like full on tears in my eyes super confused#and i couldn't catch my breath for what felt like 5 minutes but it was probably less#and yesterday i looked and the tonsil stone was just gone??? so i'm guessing that's what i choked on. it just randomly popped out#but it must've left a hole or something bc my throat's been so sore ever since and idk what to do for it. my voice is so fucked up right now#people tell me i sound out of breath bc i'm struggling to talk 😭 i'm gonna take a guess that this isn't a common experience#that someone will magically have advice for#so i'm hoping it'll go away on its own bc idk what else to do#vent#basilspeakss
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Just doing this since I’ve always wanted to do one of these lol (found this from @inquisitor-julia)
Were you named after anyone?
I believe I have the middle name Sara because that is my aunt’s name.
When was the last time you cried?
Recently, about Shingeki no Kyojin (regarding Bertholdt and Erwin-I read all of the chapters last week.) I have so many feels for him and Reiner XD Also for Made in Abyss (watched the anime and read the manga). It regards Mitty (last scene with her, Reg, and Nanachi T-T).
Do you like your handwriting?
Fuck no. I’m tired of looking at other girls’ handwriting where it looks beautiful af and mine looks terrible. I also can’t write in a straight line OTL
What’s your favorite lunch meat?
Turkey, salami, or mortadella.
Do you have kids?
No, I want some in the future but I am absolutely terrified of childbirth. I’d adopt but I want to have a child that came from me, one who is directly related to me.
If you were a different person, would you be friends with you?
Yup! As long as I was into the same fandoms, I would.
Do you use sarcasm?
Not really.
Do you still have your tonsils?
I think?
Would you bungee jump?
I want to, but in reality I’d be too afraid of things going wrong and me dying.
What’s your favorite cereal?
Lucky Charms, dry and without cereal. I don’t eat it anymore but if I have it, I will cram that shit in my mouth.
Do you untie your shoes when you take them off?
Not unless I have to.
Do you think you are a strong person?
FUCK. NO. I am a really sensitive person. If I get angry at someone, I start crying while on the inside I am arguing my side. I just can’t argue with people even if I tried. I instantly break down and it pisses me off XD I don’t think I’m strong but I feel like I can handle the affects of my decisions. I want to be able to decide things and face my decisions head on.
What’s your favorite ice cream?
Mint chocolate chip.
What’s the first thing you notice about people?
What they are wearing.
What’s your least favorite physical thing about yourself?
My chubbiness. I’m not fat but I’m not skinny either. I absolutely hate my stomach and thighs. The fat goes to my stomach and behind my legs. In pictures I look fine but when I sit down, the fat on my legs makes me look fat.
What color pants and shoes are you wearing right now?
I’m wearing white and grey fuzzy pajama bottoms with some sort of design on them (the only light from my room rn is the light from my computer).
What are you listening to right now?
I’m on pandora, but Pick Me Up by Perfume (one of my favorite jpop groups and songs) just came on.
If you were a crayon, what color would you be?
Emerald green or blue. Blue is my childhood favorite color and I love green. I started loving green because it looks good regarding things like medieval and fantasy clothing (with brown hair, which is my hair color) and because it’s the color of Slytherin and I have so much Slytherin pride.
Favorite smell?
I honestly don’t know. Money is definitely one of them.
Who was the last person you talked on the phone with?
My grandmother.
Favorite sport to watch?
Quidditch! Outside of the fictional world, one of my friends is on a college Quidditch team :)
Hair color?
Darkish brown. It used to be lighter when I was younger to the point of almost being blonde or dirty blonde, but as I got older it went to light brown and now it’s dark brown since I don’t really go out that much lol
Eye color?
Blue-green I believe. I think it also depends on what I am wearing.
Do you wear contacts?
Yes.
Favorite food?
In-n-out, Little Caesars, chick fil a nuggets with chick fil a sauce, chocolate, basically everything unhealthy. Also, I could live off of sandwiches for the rest of my life.
Scary movie or comedy?
Scary movie! I fucking love scary movies and am also a huge fan of the halloween holiday. It’s funny though. My twin sister and I both love scary movies and other scary things like creepypasta and scary stories but she usually covers her face when we see a horror movie in the theater.
Last movie you watched?
I don’t remember, maybe Annabelle: Creation?
What color shirt are you wearing?
Brown (Hogwarts shirt).
Summer or winter?
Summer because everything happens during the summer and I equate it to summer break but also winter because I can wear fuzzy pjs and those are my life. Also getting Dutch Bros. hot chocolate and chilling.
Hugs or kisses?
Hugs. But i’ve never had a boyfriend and I’ve never kissed anyone before *cries*
Book you’re currently reading?
I recently found my middle school books so I’m going through them to see if I want them. Currently reading The Iron King by Julie Kagawa. Also reading The Monster Book: Creatures, Beasts, and Fiends of Nature by Nick Redfern.
Who do you miss right now?
SOLAS. And that hot ass assassin from the House of Repose lol
What’s on your mouse pad?
I don’t use one since I’m on my laptop but I do need one for my desktop when I start playing MMORPGs again (Bless Online I’m waiting for you!). I want an oppai mousepad because they seem comfortable (and not for the obvious fanservice).
What’s the last TV program you watched?
Real: Victoria (BBC). Anime: a lot of ongoing anime plus Aikatsu (watching it for the 2nd time) and the Precure series (more boring than I thought unfortunately). For Precure I’m on Heartcatch Precure.
What’s the best sound?
Solas’ voice, Ardyn’s voice, Tom Hiddleston’s voice, Bendydick Candysnatch’s voice, idk lots of stuff.
Rolling Stones or The Beatles?
Neither, I don’t listen to them.
What’s the furthest you ever traveled?
Florida. Both for universal and because I stayed there and went to Flagler College for my freshman year.
Do you have a special talent?
Existing.
Where were you born?
Northern California (still live there).
Anyone can do this tag :)
#about me#tag#tags#i doubt people care but fuck it#tag meme#personal#information#fandom#california#you can tell I live in california from my food choices lol
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Identity Crisis
Does anybody know who I am?
Half the UofR population was from South of Albany - Yonkers, Westchester, Manhattan, Long Island, Bronx. The whole world was on their islands (Chinatown, Little Italy, “The Village”, Wall Street, United Nations) including American popular culture (Letterman, Saturday Night Live, Broadway, Times Square). They had no need to know what lay west of the Hudson River. Their apathy toward geography was most disconcerting, and I had a huge complex about it.
For me, geography is a part of identity. Regional accents, regional foods, regional past-times all contribute to who you are as a person. Those who grow up transiently, living in one part of the world for a year, then moving on, learn to appreciate those regionalisms, and their very transience becomes part of their identity. “Worldians” my brother calls them, those who, for whatever reasons, moved frequently during their formative years. Part of getting to know another person includes learning their geography. I felt no one cared about my geography, and so didn’t care about me.
My parents were both born and raised in West Virginia. My childhood holidays were spent riding along old Route 52 along the Ohio River from Cincinnati to Charleston. As a pre-schooler my family lived for a time in Caracas, Venezuela. The summer of 1982, between my freshman and sophomore years of high school, I bought a plane ticket to London. For over a year I saved babysitting money, gift money, “found monies” and put them in my passbook savings account. My brother Jack lived in Berlin for a time, and I had it in my head that I needed to see Europe. I bought a plane ticket and a railway pass. My parents arranged for Jack to pick me up in London, and he and I "did" Europe, in a way. He was producing/directing a play as part of the Fringe Festival in Edinborough, so off we went. We rode the train from London, and spent several days in Edinborough. Jack dropped me off at a tourist site, left to take care of business, then hours later returned to pick me up. We did this sort of thing in Edinborough, London, again in Paris, then on to Strasbourg, and to Jack’s girlfriend’s family’s cottage in West Germany and finally on to Berlin (years before the wall fell).
I had also been a part of numerous (too numerous!) road trips with my folks across the U.S. As a pre-teen, I rode down the West Virginia turnpike in the backseat of various automobiles to deliver Jack to Wake Forest University in North Carolina. We crossed Paint Creek no fewer than eleven times each trek. As a teenager, I rode trains from Chicago to Denver, Denver to Salt Lake, Salt Lake to Portland, OR. I rode in the back of a car on both the east and west side of the Cascade Mountains. I visited the lava fields of what is now Newberry National Volcanic Monument, saw Crater Lake before the snow melted for the summer, and attended plays at the Ashland Shakespeare Festival. I rode the train from LA to Seattle, passing by the devastation of the eruption of Mount Saint Helens, and rode in the back of a car from Salem, OR back east through Idaho, to Yellowstone, then on to Mount Rushmore and through the Badlands. Mom drove right by Wall Drug without stopping, but Dad refused to miss the Corn Palace in Mitchell, SD.
The summer before my sixteenth birthday, Dad flew to Toronto for work, and Mom and I drove up via Niagara Falls. We spent a couple of days at the company apartment in Toronto, and then took the train to Moncton, New Brunswick. In New Brunswick, we stayed at the Tidal Bore Inn and I witnessed the creek reverse its flow as the tidal bore rolled in from the Bay of Fundy. From there we rode the ferry to Prince Edward Island. During my Junior year of high school I spent a long weekend with friends in Chicago. Then in my Senior year I rode on a Greyhound bus from Cincinnati to Chicago and back. All the time I was growing up, my father traveled extensively for his job. When he was home, we pulled out the map, atlas, or almanac as the dinner table discussion required. I know my geography. But I had NEVER been to Boston or New York City.
I was so frustrated with this prevalent attitude, this oblivion toward anything west of the Hudson, that I was moved to try to educate my ignorant peers. I wanted someone to care about my geography, and hence, about me.
Ken was from Gallup, New Mexico. Like many of us on the floor, he went as far away from home as he could manage. He was from a close-knit family, his parents were traditional to the core, and Ken battled his budding homosexuality all through adolescence. He was anxious to get away and become himself. He needed distance in order to blossom. We laughed a lot together. We were both homesick, both asserting independence. He struggled to establish himself with the campus gay community - a real challenge in the mid-80s. Proverbial closet doors were still firmly shut, and HIV/AIDS was a nasty “gay disease” in the U.S. He and I laughed together about dating and how he would find someone without looking like a total moron. What does a gay person look like, anyway? He was also enthusiastic about the local queen scene, and got the girls on the floor to dress him up for Drag Queen nights at one of the local bars. Also like me, he was annoyed at the attitude of the students from New York. So, he willingly went along with my scheme.
A system of underground tunnels connects the campus buildings. During inclement weather, this was truly a blessing. One particular tunnel was given over to graffiti. Mostly, the fraternities and sororities painted it to advertise a particular Greek house, or party, or some other social function. But there were few rules and the tunnel was there to be painted by whoever wanted to paint. Enlisting Ken’s help, along with some other friends, I acquired the necessary paint, and painted a map of the United States. It was large – very large – we found a ladder, set it up and climbed up to spray the outline of Maine up near the top of the fifteen foot high wall. Then outlined the coastline south to Florida, brought the St. Lawrence Seaway West into the mitt of Michigan, adding in the Great Lakes. We highlighted the Mississippi from Louisiana on up north, and finally on the West Coast, drew the line from Puget Sound to LA. I noted landmarks as best I could – and included what states I could reasonably reproduce; Washington, Oregon, Idaho, California, Arizona, New Mexico, Nevada. Illinois, Indiana, Ohio, Pennsylvania, West Virginia, Maine. I put a large asterisk at the appropriate bump in my rendition of the Ohio River and sprayed, “Cincinnati, it is a place” across the Midwest. I signed the work with a smiley face and “Allny, Allny, Allny” as an homage to my identity with Ross.
Amazingly, that mural stayed up for a couple of weeks before some fraternity finally obliterated it. When walking through that tunnel, I overheard students questioning it, wondering why it had appeared. Asking, “What’s ALL NEW YORK?” I wanted to scream at them, “It’s NOT FUCKING NEW YORK YOU SELF-CENTERED BIGOTS! IT’S ALLNY, WITH YOUR TONGUE BETWEEN YOUR MOLARS.” But realized any attempt would be futile, and I’d only alienate myself even more. But, if any students were intrigued enough by my efforts to look beyond the Hudson River, I accomplished something. I find it appropriate that the closest friends I kept since leaving college were NOT from New York City. Instead, they hail from such diverse locales as Albany, Syracuse, Maryland, Eastern Pennsylvania, Eastern Oregon, South Central Massachusetts, even a Worldian, but only one native New Yorker.
Irony of ironies, David fell in love with New York City. He spent a summer as a bike messenger in Manhattan, and later lived there for several years pursuing a career in video production. He was enthusiastic about life in The City, and left only reluctantly. Ken and his partner live there now, Ken never wants to live anywhere else.
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My wisdom teeth started coming in. My gums were sore and swollen. My mouth itched like crazy. The bottom teeth erupted first, irritating my gums even more. I called my dentist at home – the one who had fixed my two front teeth just over a month previous – and asked what to do. He checked my records, determined there were no problems with them, they weren’t impacted I had plenty of room for them. “But they itch like crazy!” “Gargle with hot salt water and hydrogen peroxide, and call me back if there are any problems.” So, while I was unlearning dumness, I still was constantly using my tongue to massage my gums. This led to another quote in Stephen Paul’s little black book, “My wisdom teeth came in and it itches, so I play with it.” It seemed everyone else in the dorm endured wisdom tooth impaction and pending extraction. Another rite of passage I missed. No tonsils out, no appendicitis, no braces, no broken bones, and no wisdom tooth extraction. I am still intact today. Even my twins were born without surgery.
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Roadway construction continued; I couldn’t get over it. One crew finished the piping and wiring and such while other crews worked to replace the curbstones. I was fascinated. First shovels excavated the soil to the side of the new roadway, and then specialty cranes lowered the curbs into place. Using small loaders, the men wrestled the stones to level. I saw one crack, but they salvaged it using some sort of bonding agent.
After the curbs were set, HUGE dump trucks brought in load after load of gravel to fill in the roadway. Loaders moved the piles around, spreading the gravel as level as possible. Rollers, brought in on flatbeds, ironed the rocks flat smoothing the surface to the necessary grade.
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Rules: Complete the survey and say who tagged you in the beginning. When you finished tag 5 people to do this survey. Have fun and enjoy!!
Tagged by @barrnesI’m so used to just reblogging memes by myself in my little corner of tumblr doing this kind of thing feels super weird
1: Are you named after someone? Nah, my mom just liked the name cuase she thought it was pretty.
2: When was the last time you cried? Yesterday. I have been listening to Hamilton songs for the last week but yesterday I actually listened to the whole thing in order and everything and man it was a wild ride.
3: Do you like your handwriting? Absolutely not, I hate it with my whole being. It hasn’t changed since I learned to write when I was 6 so yeah...
4: What is your favourite lunch meat? Serrano ham is the best thing ever in the world.
5: Do you have kids? Not that I know of lmaoo
6: If you were another person, would you be friends with you? Oh damn I don’t know, I hope so. Probably wouldn’t unless I talked to myself first but I feel like that doesn’t make any sense at all.
7: Do you use sarcasm? Depends on the situation but I’m not against it. I honestly love sarcasm.
8: Do you still have your tonsils? I’m pretty sure I do?
9: Would you bungee jump? Mmmm I guess? Maybe? Kinda want kinda terrifies me
10: What is your favourite kind of cereal? Muesli with chocolate all the way
11: Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? If I can avoid it I will, too much work.
12: Do you think you’re a strong person? I suppose? Not physically though
13: What is your favourite ice cream flavour? Stracciatella and orange with chocolate.
14: What is the first thing you notice about people? When I first meet someone for the first time I don’t notice anything at all about them, which sometimes means that I’ll see them again the next day and have no idea who they are, not a great starter tbh. After a few times I’m just suddenly aware of their entirety.
15: Red or pink? I lookAMAZING with red hair but pink is just so pretty. I guess it depends for what.
16: What is the least favourite physical thing you like about yourself? My facial hair, I’ve gotten a lot of shit for it...
17: What colour pants and shoes are you wearing now? Black leggins and white and navy slippers.
18: What was the last thing you ate? Instant noodles, but like the fancy ones that taste amazing.
19: What are you listening to right now? FUCKING HAMILTON THE BEST THING EVER
20: If you were a crayon, what colour would you be? The white one?? No one really knows why it’s there but just keeps being there.
21: Favourite smell? Aything citrusy.
22: Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone? I actually had to check it cause it was 15 days ago, and it was actually @barrnes that called me.
23: Favourite sport to watch? Figure Skating. I’ve been obssessed with it for two years now but I’ve recently chilled a teeny tiny bit.
24: Hair color? Naturally a pretty dark brown but some strands are bleached and dyed red, even if now they look like a dirty orange blonde.
25: Eye colour? Kinda chocolate-ish brown.
26: Do you wear contacts? Nah.
27: Favourite food to eat? Lasagne and canelloni.
28: Scary movies or comedy? I hate scary movies so comedy.
29: Last movie you watched? Swiss Army Man.
30: What colour of shirt are you wearing? Grey with Totoro’s face on it.
31: Summer or winter? Summer all the way.
32: Hugs or kisses? Hugs. I dunno if it’s just the experiences I’ve had before but kisses in the mouth are pretty gross to me, the cheeks are fine though.
33: What book are you currently reading? The first book i the A Series of Unfortunate Events series.
34: Who do you miss right now? My kitty cats and my dog.
35: What is on your mouse pad? I never use a mouse...
36: What is the last TV program you watched? RuPaul’s Drag Race.
37: What is the best sound? Cats purring, specially if they’re close to you and you can actually feel the vibrations, it’s almost therapeutic.
38: Rolling Stones or The Beatles? I’m a huge Beatles fan so yeah...
39: What is the furthest you have ever travelled? Either New York or Cuba, not sure which one ir furthest.
40: Do you have a special talent? I think I can write decently, I can bullshit my way out of almost any oral presentation and I can make my big toe stand completely perpendicular to my foot.
41: Where were you born? Málaga, Spain. Everyone should visit it’s great.
42: People you expect to participate in this survey? I dunno man, I don’t actually know anyone....
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