UM HI ??

I know I've been gone since October last year but I actually got my life together now so I'm back 😭 honestly didn't expect much to happen when I was gone but I've come back to so many notifs abdbfbbf

Idk if I'm going to start writing again but I have a few things in my drafts piquing my interest and seeing my work get so much love despite my inactivity is kinda inspiring so 👀

But I missed you guys so much how have you been 😭😭

I usually look into your acc everyday for updates and interactions. But recently I haven't come by to your acc for days since I was busy, and I said to myself that maybe a quick peek today wouldn't hurt. And here I am, speechless. Man there are so much that is happening. 😭 And I'ma say all my thoughts at once.

Btw, I'm the anon with a crush, with an involvement of a japanese girl. I hope you'll remember HAHA. I have sent a little update about it, do you think Tumblr may have eaten it up? I'm sad that Tumblr won't let you read it.😭

Next, about that Mommy Issues's Issues? 😭 I'm only just a reader here, and yeah it's quite a trigger for you as a writer for your reader's thoughts about your character. But you are trying your best to clear up things without being harsh about people's different perspectives. Especially you're now careful, Mommy Issues and the Conqueror has quite of the same issues. Like about concubines, women's and child issues. Well, I never send any ask about the 3 jk characters, but I read some asks about them as a joke rather, to see how the character will react. But you are doing great, so well as a writer to pin point something HAHA. To be honest, I do not want to be either of the jk's. It's a pass for me, even though nobody has ever made me feel special, y'know, infatuated maybe the word, I'd prefer to be alone than to be any of them. But if I had to, maybe Mommy Issues Jk HAHA. (Or maybe I want to be with them all three together, yea uhuh I'm crazy) Regards, my point is I appreciate you for everything. You're doing great as a writer.

Next thought HAHA, Mommy Issues had just been a Teaser but I think all of the answers on the asks has been giving us spoilers and insights HAHA.

Next thought. Your ask about 'After Conqueror' I think I wanna see Teach Me and Mommy Issues hehe.

Next thought!😭 Not bunny koo wants to be a stripper😭😭 as a way he thinks it will help y/n. Though since jk has been learning so much on the television, I think oc needs to let him watch some healthy relationships related things. I don't know how to explain this HAHA. Right? Idk HAHA. Maybe it'll help the situation of him being So so SO SO S O CLINGY AND POSSESIVE. To atleast help...a bit...

I also gonna add that #little piece of shit istg —HAHAHAHA god he needs a time out at the back😭

Next issue!😭 about the problematic behavior? Well, I don't/probably think you've kinda been immature to some past issues. But you've apologised for it. It helped you to clear things up and you having to have an open mind about it. A new perspective about it, that you handled very well. And I think we all got some things to fix with, but you know what's right or wrong. You don't need to prove anything to them. Just think of it as you developing to be the best version of yourself.

Next, thank you for that link about deres, I never knew about any of those. Interesting.

Next, YES I KNOW MATILDA! And Miss Honey is literally you can picture how y/n is or would be.

Next, "dora-the-whora" 😭😭😭 I need to be friends with her/him.

Next, Unpopular Opinion: Me having my period, loud rain outside, me alone with full food on the fridge and watching telly. I... Like it. I love it.😭😭

Next and maybe last?😭 At first, I thought jk was depressed or like his whole life has ruined and changed because of the death of his child's mother. Which I thought that it's because he loved her or like the love of his life which he lost forever. Turns out I was wrong HAHA. So when the oc came to his life and filled it with hope and colors touched me. And of course who wouldn't like oc, who is a fond of children. It's lovely. So I thought of oc must give him a chance somehow HAHA. Though of course, it's scary since he has issues but who gives a fuck? HAHAHAHA. I also thought that maybe he needs to do the first move but boy I feel like he's gonna pee his pants. Like Clyde from Loud House who's could've nose bleed. This could've add up to your ask about 'Assumptions for Characters'

+ MAKE ASSUMPTIONS ABOUT MY FIC + CLUB CHARACTERS AND THEY WILL RESPOND

MI jk would've pee his pants and have a nose bleed if ever y/n would talk with him or her asking him on a date.

Ps. Sorry for my English. Sorry for the long ask. 😭💐

You are so sweet and CUTE. You took your time to write all of this to me and that is so sweet, I read this ask like 3 times and thank you for ALL YOUR OF YOUR PRECIOUS THOUGHTS. I really love your way of understanding and thinking 🥺💕🙏

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¡¡Small TW for implied SH¡¡

Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.

I miss you so much. My best friend. Idk your opinion on soulmates, but I think you were mine. We were soulmates. I hate myself for what I'm doing and continuing to do. I just don't know anymore. I'm on the verge of doing something very bad (to myself) right now and I wish it never came to this and I wish we could start over. Where did it all go wrong? I wish I wish I wish I weren't fucking like this. I want to be soulmates still, but I know I don't deserve you at all anymore. I fucking hate the things we couldn't control.

FUCK CANCER.

I would still see you every day if it didn't exist. It's no one's fault, and it's just life being completely unfair, but still. I look through our messages all the time and wish I had the guts to text you. Because I miss it. I miss staying up until four am just talking on Discord. Sometimes I see a picture, or watch some funny video and think '[redacted] would love this!' I go to send it to you and then remember. Talking to you has always been the best part of my day and I miss it.

Do you know how many songs I've written about you? How many poems? Long ass pieces of writing on tumblr that no one will read? You are my muse, always have been, and possibly always will be. You are the sole reason I am who I am today. Our past conversations will both haunt and bless me forever.

You made last year the best year of my entire life. Do you know what that means to me? Life is hard. Previously it has been extremely difficult to determine which year was the best, because they all hurt. You make the distinction easy. Additionally, this year has been the worst one yet. Maybe it's because you aren't here with me. I genuinely believe that you have forever changed my life for the better.

God, I really wrote all this just because you messaged me. It's a simple text, just one two letter word. 'hi' what do I say to you? All the emotions are all coming out, and it would be so awkward to send one of those sentimental paragraphs we used to send each other so often. But I can't just say hi back. That wouldn't even get close to getting my point across. You aren't a simple 'hi' to me. You're more like:

'AAAA [redacted]!!!!! I miss you so much. I wish we talked more. Here's a song I wrote about you it's kinda bad, but I'm still learning. Here's some poems. The titles spell out you name. Do you want the playlist I made you too? I know you were never a big fan of music lol. How have you been? How's your leg? Last time we talked said you were relearning to walk soon right?? Have you gotten used to it yet? It must've felt so strange to have a different foot and shin 'n stuff. I wish we could see each other in person sometime soon 😭😭 I missed you so much. I love youuuu /p'

But I can't say that. You just said 'hi' I've always been a little much, but that would just be weird wouldn't it? I could tell you about my life now. I got a boyfriend. You're older than him. You've never been older than anyone in the friend group. He's one of your friends too, so you probably know a lot about him. I'm failing gym class because I suck at athletics. But none of that would be important because I'm finally talking to you again.

Maybe I should respond to you now. I guess I'll just say something normal. Although we both know nothing about us is normal. But just know, I feel more about you than you could ever possibly know. /p.

You changed your URL kjkjshjskhjskkk. Ngl this one suits you. But I miss the old one 😭 And gotta agree with you. I saw many fans get annoyed at others calling jinyoung a mom. He called himself as the mom of the group. The other members called jinyoung and Jayb as the parents of the group. Idk why others get so annoyed at this. There's a blog I love so much in Tumblr but I unfollowed due to this. That blogger being so angry at the fact that fans call jinyoung a mom. Sorry for my rambling. Glad you also think the same.

fjojeswdf i did!! i've only every changed my user maybe once for a few months before switching back. xxcaribbean is my ride or die, so it's still saved, and i can 100% guarantee i'll be back. i haven't been feeling the best mentally this past month or so, and i figured maybe a name change would just be a little fun? but i'm glad it suits me, fejsdsf. i didn't even have this one saved??? i just made the name, and it wasn't taken. i was shocked, lmao.

but on to your point!!!! literally this. jinyoung - and any of the boys for that matter - haven't shown any distaste with the name. even further, jinyoung has used it himself. i understand people think it has homophobic undertones (at least ig that's where they're coming from), but i don't see anything wrong with identifying someone's qualities and behaviors as more mom-like because it's not insulting. any femininity shouldn't be an insult, and i think the more we stick with "he's a man" ideologies just adds to the toxic masculinity bullshit. it's a very nuanced subject, and i realize i'm just scratching the surface here (esp if we want to go down objectifying components that asian men go through). however, i think it says a lot that jinyoung - and quite frankly, all of got7 - have no issues with with it and have more or less said fuck gender norms overall.

really, if people don't like it just scroll past or ignore it. but saying fandom is wrong for this one is a stretch. there's a few ppl i enjoyed who feel the opposite, so i completely understand having to unfollow or just not interact. idk why this subject comes with so much vitriol because i think it’s a non-issue, and there’s way more issues to discuss if we wanna get meta about fandom but ah well.