i am so miserably in love today......................

ryen ok so my best friend i went on tuesday to get merch and i saw a MAN wearing your shirt!!! i would’ve mentioned it earlier but i’ve been avoiding the internet until today bc i didn’t want spoilers. but i was there last night!! i’m sad we didn’t meet but things happen 😔 but also i feel STRANGE rn like all day yesterday i was legitimately nervous but then when we got to ubs it’s like all emotional response shut down 😂 it’s so funny bc i went absolutely insane right like you can hear me screaming in my FRIENDS’ videos and my throat and abs and knees are sore (idk how i didn’t lose my voice) and i cried during snooze but it’s like i was in shock or something like i didn’t actually believe i was there and i still don’t? my love and respect and admiration for each member of bts is overwhelming so i feel like my brain was trying to protect itself LMAO but it’s kind of disappointing that it feels like i wasn’t fully present even though i was TRYING to be!!! ANYWAY regardless of that i had the time of my fucking life and i feel so lucky to have been a part of that INCREDIBLE crowd and i hope you had so much fun too!!!!! i think it’ll all hit me eventually that it happened and i’ll cry a LOT hahahaha

AHHHHH NICKI WAIT that’s fcking cool as fck!! Why didn’t we meet up on Tuesday now I’m so damn sad😭😭

Yeahhhh the pre/during/post-concert surrealism stays with you no matter how long it’s been. But the main point remains: you got to see YOONGI?? LIKE?????? come on that’s amazing!! You’re okay. Even if you felt like your body couldn’t accept what was happening, it seems like you were enjoying the moments regardless and you’ll still have plenty memories to cherish.

It’ll hit you. It’ll hit you hard and you’re gonna be in awe that this actually happened. Remember to treasure every second you got🥺💕