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whetstonefires · 2 years

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Hey, I just found you from that AWESOME meta about LXC's and LWJ's outlooks on life! I tried searching Jane Bennett and your tag #eldest sibling feels, but I didn't see anything else on that topic? Just wondering if you had anything else about LXC / JYL / Itachi Uchiha / Jane Bennett?

Thanks!

I have definitely rambled about Itachi and Jane at least once each in fact and I am. Staggered and on the floor laughing about Itachi being in this lineup because. Because you're not wrong????? You're. Not wrong. He is that Type. He is! You are correct.

But also he. He very much killed his entire family. 😂 I mean, okay, he participated and took the blame. Still.

Imagining Jane Bennett in a circumstance where she stabs Mr. and Mrs. Bennett to death in order to protect Elizabeth, Mary, Lydia, and Kitty from the government. I'm doing that now. That is my current occupation.

Okay. Sorry to say I'm not any more able to navigate my own blog than anyone else, so I cannot direct you to these posts! Except the Itachi one was an ask for 'unpopular Naruto opinion' I think. I am very Moved by your interest though, thank you so much for complimenting that meta! 😄💖🌻😊✨💕🌺 Feeling good about my rant's reception.

This is totally reinforcing my Be On Tumblr Too Much patterns lmao.

I do want to go off about Jiang Yanli a bit at some point because like. Her actress in the drama did such a good job but she's a systematically under-written character, a bit, and I've seen a good bit of work done in the fandom to cover the many ways she is, could, or should be epic and imposing within the bounds of her nature, so I want at some point to sit down in that sandbox with a big bucket of water and dig into the ways she is covertly a disaster person like everyone else in the book in general and her family in particular.

Because you can admire someone for the graceful way she manages her Eldest Daughter Syndrome all you want but dang it I have been that idiot who makes everything worse by walking into the middle of the shitstorm trying to patch her own feelings and sense of worth together by Helping The Younger Ones. That's genuine disaster energy!

That compulsion to make soup and peace doesn't come from a deep well of serenity, this is a reaction pattern rooted in need. Yanli also has mental health problems as a result of her parents' whole deal and I think that's very stylish of her actually.

Points to her for a like, relatable and human Getting Dead For Backstory motive, even if it's largely implicit.

Would love to see her kick her own ass for being a bad example to Wei Wuxian of How To Be A Good Person--not that I'm blaming her I just think it would be really interesting if she blamed herself, for encouraging the self-destructive end of people-pleasing.

But also I think she gets too much credit for self-awareness sometimes, no one with that much conflict-avoidance behavior is going to consistently face the uncomfortable parts of her own motives or the flaws of her attachment objects, so it would be a little tricky to set up without like, resurrecting her in the aftermath of wwx's slaughter meltdown and death. Hmm. Little dark.

...use the sacrificial array, put her in an unsuitable body. Oh no Jiang Cheng please do not. The fucking irony of Jiang Yanli running around in Jiang Cheng's body with Wei Wuxian's golden core tho????

I do like that per Phoenix Mountain incident we know that her conflict avoidance is something she can set aside in favor of weaponizing her own no-chill chill, and it's interesting to contemplate the ways this might generalize.

She and Lan Xichen are both weak to their families, in certain ways, and both appear primarily in the context of these families (+their respective Jins) but their spheres of responsibility are so different that it seems almost mean-spirited to compare them.

#ask #i am a sparkly princess eldest rat daughter with anxiety satchel #eldest sibling feels #jiang yanli #uchiha itachi #cherryblossomshadow #hoc est meum #mdzs #ramble #here is me with wet sand clinging to my hands and face

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whetstonefires · 3 years

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You are sky blue and friends orange with a dash of slurpee turquoise (?) For the colour ask meme

haaas;lkajfsd yes okay skewered I am an eldest daughter and I do live the stereotype, Sophie Hatter my girl can i get a high five.

and yes i do the bag thing and idk why people think it is but it is 100% because of the anxiety. how can i just leave the house without a notebook and pencil and emergency snacks and painkillers and bandaids and hand sanitizer and a book to read and earbuds in case of noise and two spare masks (unlike the hand sanitizer these are a plague addition) and a lighter and backup cash and some gift cards and a charging stick for my phone and a pack of tissues and a pencil sharpener and

actually i can leave the house without this stuff and sometimes do but it sure helps! like psychologically and, every so often, practically. i was so smug the other week when that kid fell off his bike and i had wet wipes and bandaids for his knee.

thank you on the rat thing this is a proud achievement i am wearing this tiara in my heart and chewing harder in appreciation of your support

...i've never been to taco bell.

#hoc est meum #ask meme #ramblebrambleamble #i really like your url have i mentioned #i am a sparkly princess eldest rat daughter with anxiety satchel #it's very well organized

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