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jade-of-mourning · 3 months

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sorry sometimes i think about mako and my heart hurts so much. this kid raised himself and his brother on the streets in homelessness and utter poverty from eight through fifteen, promptly after seeing the violent death of his mother and father. he turned to the triple threats because they couldn't survive as a pair of wretched kids without any adult support, and the environment forced him to turn into the exact character that killed his parents in a terrible twist of irony. and after sheer-fucking-luck hits and they aren't homeless anymore, their livelihood wavers on the outcome of what's a literally game to everyone but them; and after things are finally starting to look up and their team is going places and things just might be okay, his gradually stabilizing world unceremoniously expands and everything goes to shit.

and the city that chewed him up and spat him back out, ruined him as a child and took away his ability to stay afloat in a true sense of normalcy as an adult — when it's on the verge of destruction and falling to pieces before his eyes, he gives himself to save it with the full expectation to die. he went from the kid who didn't and couldn't care about anything outside of himself and his brother, to finding redemption for his younger self in his police work despite its injustice against him, to willingly sacrificing himself to a world that had never loved him.

he's a desperate people pleaser, socially and emotionally stunted for the adult he had to be as a kid, unable to navigate interpersonal relationships easily yet still trying his damned hardest. he's intensely and entirely devoted to the things that matter to him and for so long it was only him, bolin, and ensuring their survival — yet by the end, that devotion has expanded to protecting the rest of the world. he starts out entirely self-reliant and ends in trusting the people he cares about to know their own needs, to be able to take care of themselves, to be okay without him despite having spent so much of his life defined by his role in others' well-being.

just. what the fuck i'm such a big fan of this fictional guy and i'm unashamed about it at this point. also let him cry please (if you won't i'll do it i'll let him cry)

#lychee's brain trash #mako lok #mako tlok #sorry for the shitpost i don't do a lot of those i realize #how tf did this guy not had a massive break down in canon at any point #nd like;; he never shows resentment for the unfairness of it all #he doesn't ever use his past to excuse any of his choices/actions that are influenced by it #which is pretty intrinsically linked to his relationship fumbles #he just quietly holds himself accountable and probably mildly despises himself haha #as much as i don't care for the love triangle it really does make complete sense in accordance to his backstory #anyway this is just a roundabout way of me expressing my salt at people writing him off as a malicious asshole lol #i literally cannot articulate the intense complex things his conjured up existence makes me feel #this does not even scratch the surface there is SO MUCH #i need to actually write the fifty fics that exist to my brain otherwise all these thoughts will never see the sun #trust that one day the avatar!mako au will emerge from my drafts;;;#and. you know. that one shot i've had in wip for the past 2.5 years #and the four other oneshots that will probably never be converted into actual words

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wardencommanderrodimiss · 3 years

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I had an extremely elaborate and very long and semi-lucid dream last night and I’m already struggling to pull back all the details to describe it, but I also woke up in the midst of it, rolled over and looked at my clock, saw I still had an hour till my alarm, and rolled back over to fall asleep and continue that same dream.

I was in this building that was made of a lot of concrete and big white bricks - kinda old, pretty barren. It reminded me of either the underbelly of a sports stadium or my high school. It has a lot of huge rooms and a lot of smaller hallways with a bunch of offshoot little rooms and closets.

I was Lucina. (I’ll just use “Lucina/she” as my descriptors, but this is all happening in the first person/is me.) There was some opposing gang of people who really had it out for her and her family for some reason. There was one faction of all girl gangsters, and then another of a bunch of guys, and they all kept trying to shoot us. She managed to get a handgun off one of them, shot them in the head, and then managed to get another pistol from the next person she shot. She had a jacket that I was trying to cram several pistols into one of the pockets. (The safety was on, we checked, I was worried about shooting yourself when you’re shoving, yknow, two guns into one jacket pocket. Just use the other pocket for one of them, honestly. Dream logic at its finest.) Also she kept having to break into ammo vending machines to get more ammo.

So Lucina’s family was made up of...Robin, her mother, Chrom, her father of course, and Morgan was her younger sister I believe, but she also had at least one older brother. Maybe two older brothers. This isn’t really that important, it’s just there.

Whatever massive building we were stuck in was filled with a lot of people. Only a few of them were out to shoot her, but that meant she had to pick out the enemies from a crowd and avoid getting innocent people in the crossfire. Also Lucina got shot at one point and that only sometimes affected her, like sometimes she’s running around, rolling, sliding, jumping, like nothing happened, and sometimes she just curled up on the ground and cried for a little while and whoever is with her at the time is just awkwardly trying to have a conversation over this.

Because the bad guys recognize Lucina as the person fucking up all their plans, she ends up getting a mask at one point that’s just a foam costume jester’s cap with a Mardi Gras mask attached. (Also because she is still me, she wore glasses and had to put them on uncomfortably under the mask because if she wore them over it, that would be recognizable as us, but not wearing them at all, she just can’t fuckin see.) Then everything got very chaotic and she was separated from her family and had to run and hide in a coat closet. The mask notably did not work as a disguise because blue hair is pretty distinctive, but when the guy who found her (who’s now not some random gang of evildoers but now there’s also cops out to kill her) turned around for a moment to yell to his buddies that he found her, and she takes the opportunity to bolt out of the doorway, down the hall, and finally out the front doors to get out of this building.

She bounced around between a couple different groups of people, trying to find information about where her family went. The first group was of a couple ladies, I can only remember that one of them was Say’ri, and that they were all sitting on some wooden bleachers discussing some plan while Lucina lay on a lower bleacher, trying to take a nap, but being in too much pain from being shot to sleep. (Also where she was shot was inconsistent, it was mostly her left side but then at one point she has a pair of wings?? and says she was shot in the wing and couldn’t fly but then she ended up flying anyway, absolutely miserable the whole time.)

Then the next group she fell in with was....some human characters who I can’t remember, and Starscream? Why is Starscream here? I don’t have an answer. We saw General Grievous briefly before he got murdered by someone else with a lightsaber and this never comes up again. Dream logic! Anyway Starscream (specifically his TF: Prime incarnation) was there, and being suspiciously conniving, but not outright evil, so Lucina begrudgingly decided to tolerate being in his orbit as she used his help to get a bit further along. They were in a huge parking lot at that point, just cars as far as the eye could see, and moved along by...jumping on top of the cars and sometimes flying. This is when “Lucina/I have wings” comes up and then is never mentioned again.

After leaving Starscream, she ends up hanging out with some Three Houses characters. Annette, Dedue, and Dimitri were the ones I remember. This was back indoors somewhere, in a big plain room that had some bleachers and really tall tables. Lucina ends up becoming friends with Dimitri pretty quickly and cries on his shoulder for a while about how she doesn’t know whether any of her family is alive or dead. Which honestly yeah, that’s rough shit. Then from someone passing by, Lucina is given a...it’s referred to as a “telegram” but it’s not. It’s a large piece of paper, folded up a bunch, with pictures of all of Lucina’s acquaintances, friends, and family, and it marks off if any messages have been received from any of them. There was...some person, I forget who, it doesn’t align to anyone from FE canon, whose message was basically “wow it’s been really rude of you, Lucina, to not even send any of us a message saying that you’re okay” and she’s like “I’VE HAD NO WAY TO CONTACT ANYONE, WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU ON ABOUT.”

Anyway she sees that the sender of this “telegram” had a message from Robin, indicating that she’s at least alive, though there was no text of the message, but there was nothing from Chrom, so Lucina still doesn’t know if her father is okay. She also finds out that Robin and some others - Chrom, presumably, if he’s alive, and perhaps Morgan - are going to some generic evil location with a lot of lava or whatever, to fight the evil found there, because that’s the kind of people they are. They see evil, they fight it. The boss at that location is Tarn [a particularly nasty Decepticon], and when Lucina asks around for some more information, she finds out that Tarn’s true identity is actually Megatraon [this is assuredly not true].

Lucina realizes that if she wants to get there and save her parents, her best bet would be to find Starscream and get his help, because Starscream’s entire character is “always being super down to murder Megatron”. So she sets out to track him down again.

And that’s when I woke up the second time from this dream, and when I slipped back into a doze I did not continue the dream again, and then I woke up again and it was 3 minutes until my alarm went off. So I never found out how it ended or if Lucina reunited with her parents.

#roddy dream diary tag #my next fe: awakening AU is just 'everything is the same except lucina has a gun'

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cupcakeshakesnake · 7 years

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Watching SWR for the frist time: Through Imperial Eyes

Yep, been looking forward to this episode. Again, not sure if I’ll do any more SWR reactions, but yeah, I’m gonna do this one for sure.

(spoilers ahead)

-Through Imperial Eyes. If you take the first letter of every word, you get TIE. What else has the word TIE in it? Yes, the TIE fighter. Let’s take a look at the TIE fighter, shall we?

According to Wookieepedia, it was “the standard Imperial starfighter seen in massive numbers throghout most of the Galactic Civil War and onward.”

-But wait!

Did you see that?

ILUMANITI CINFORMED!!!11!1!!

-*cough cough* Okay, let’s get back to the actual episode.

-Did he just wake up? What time is this, 2a.m.?

-He sleeps in his uniform?

-”Battle stations, sir!” “Yeah i’m just gonna ignore that and go back into my room to waste water.”

-If the top button closes doors and the bottom one opens doors, what happens if you press one of them repeatedly?

-If I was on a Stardestroyer I would get to the nearest one of those doors and just keep pressing the two buttons alternately until the troopers throw me out of the airlock. I love buttons. I’m so gonna break all their doors.

-He sleeps in his armor?

-I finally understand all the Kallus Simulator jokes on my dash.. but seriously, Imperial Agent Simulator 2017 v3.16, created with Unity Engine and supported on Space Windows Vista, 8, 10 and Space Mac OS 7 and up...

-At first I was like “Holy hell, his room is dark,” but then I realized I had turned down my monitor brightness a lot over the past few days.

-*turns brightness all the way back up to 100* That’s better.

-His sink doesn’t have a drain?

-Yep, he’s definitely been sleeping.

-How do time zones even work in space? You could determine it based on the part of the planet you’re orbiting on, but then you could go to the other side in a very short time. Maybe time just loses its meaning when you’re in space. Only relative. Two hours of sleep, sixteen hours awake, ten hours sleeping because you're going to a faraway planet, it’s not “Lunch on 2o’clock”, it’s “Lunch 5 hours after your last meal”.

-Eyyyyyyyy it’s Yogurt List again

-If you’re not under attack then why the fuck did you ring all those sirens

the fuck did you wake me up for bitch

-That shuttle looks like a plastic lunchbox.

^+kallus= the sideburn squad.

for a moment I thought either the stormies were super short or Kallus was on stilts.

-DUN DUN DUN it’s Ezra

-Nice voice changer mask Ezra, did you get it on eBay?

Sabine Paintjob™

-You were expecting Ezra

bUT IT WAS ME, DIO!

-(I’m so sorry.)

-AP-5, sassy as always, and Chopper, with that Imperial paintjob tactic again.

-I just realized the letters C1-10P are supposed to look like ‘CHOP’.

-WHY DOES AP-5 SOUND LIKE SNAPE FROM HARRY POTTER

I see an A, a B, an X, a Y, aaannnnd some illegible symbols.

-Wait, sure the Empire is big, but if Ezra is a rebel Jedi on the loose, wouldn’t there be posters of him all over the place?

-Kallus: *stands and does nothing* Ezra: “Stop! I’ll tell you anything!” Lyste: wow he’s good

-THRAWN

-WE’RE SEEING THRAWN

-I’m sure AP-5 would have winked there if he had eyelids.

-Poor Lyste. On the other hand, I don’t think being summoned by high-ranking officers in the Empire is all that good. They might be out for your throat for all you know.

-How the hell did Thrawn get that drawing on his ship? Seriously, that’s an Imperial Class Star destroyer according to the Internet, it’s supposed to be 1.6 km long, did he just get a bunch of droids to turn the ship upside down to get that gigantic paint job?

yep, no visible barrier, nothing is being sucked out into space because Star Wars.

-KANAN AND REX ARE WEARING STORMTROOPER ARMOR AGAIN

-DID THEY STEAL ANOTHER SHUTTLE

-Jesus Christ the Empire needs better anti-theft mechanisms

Heyyyy it’s that officer again, what was her name? Oh yeah right, Captain Brunson. I spent ten minutes looking for that name on the internet.

-But Lyste has a cylinder right there...

-I feel like I am constantly reminded of how those are not pens these days. Okay, okay, I get it. Also I know in some other places I said those were insignia, and it’s not a precise term but it’s not wrong either because 1) the code contain information about the officer wearing it including their rank, and 2) the numbers and colors of the cylinders differ based on said officer’s rank/position.

is that a fucking hat

-THERE’S THE CLIP THE ENTIRETY OF TUMBLR WAS GOING CRAZY OVER.

-Override code: *german word*

-(I know it’s not German but it just sounds like it... I am learning German and their ‘ch’ is so hard to pronounce correctly...)

-How tf did he close the door though

-I have a feeling he let them hear the override code on purpose.

-Or... HE WAS SIDING WITH THE REBELLION THE ENTIRE TIME

-DUN DUN DUUUUN

-Sorry.

-Oh it’s that guy now. Disney certainly didn’t feel like modeling any new Imperial officers.

-Ahahahaha lizards Let me guess, ysalamiri?

-YULAREN

-YOU’RE CANON NOW- hold on, A New Hope. YOU’RE 3D ANIMATED NOW- oh wait, Clone Wars. YOU’RE IN REBELS NOW

-WOOHOO

-When Yularen has had more canon appearances than Thrawn.

-Every single Imperial acquaintance seems to come from ‘the Academy’. “Hey, remember me? We ate lunch in the Academy together.” “Remember me from the Academy bathroom?” “I’m from your Academy, remember?”

His eyes are saying “yes you Kallus, you little shit, i know you’re fulcrum you lil bitch yes you right there”

He still has the Phoenix Squadron graffiti... and the lothcat doodle

-”--must be unmasked quickly” Idk why but at first I thought he said “must be on Mars”

Free the Rose Quartzes-- oh, wait, wrong show.

-And now we run into Irina SpalkoPryce... It’s like they scraped all the Imperial characters together and put them on one ship. Except those who are dead. R.I.P. Aresko and Grint,Grand Inquisitor, Minister Tua, Fifth Brother, Seventh Sister, Eight Brother, and countless stormtroopers.

-Kallus: whoops another person i hate, let me just get rid of this person i hate so he can go with her

-Kallus: actually lemme just make them hate each other

-Kallus: i am such a genius

-Kallus you manipulative mutton chop

Aw come on, you can’t get tired of his shit already! How are you going to survive among the Rebels?

-Was Ezra hanging by his chin or something

-Lyste is so serious about this omfg He wants to prove himself Poor dude

-EZRA IS WEARING AN OFFICER’S UNIFORM

-Wait

-How the hell did they find the right size

-Are there smol officers on board

-ARE THERE

-”We’re not here to steal art!”

-Yep, because Thrawn’s definitely gonna look at that map later and go “Welp I guess this one planet here suddenly moved twenty light years to the side, nothing weird about that”

-Lyste’s in big trouble now. I feel sorry for that guy.

-Thrawn smells the traitorous scent.

-KALLUS WAS HIDING THERE

-WHY IS THIS SO FUNNY

-HE DIDN’T PULL ANY CLEVER ANTICS, HE JUST WENT AND HID IN A DITCH IN THE WALL

Is... that supposed to be Imperial insignia as well?

-How the hell did Kallus change the override code

-Wooo, Thrawn action!

-Ouch. He alright tho

-What did he say? “Nix”?

-”Shuttle TY992, you are clear to land.″ NO IT’S NOT IT’S A TRAITOR SHIP WITH TRAITORS IN IT

-”There must be some kind of mistake sir--” Pryce: HOW DARE YOU ASSUME MY GENDER

-But really, gotta love how she didn’t even let him finish the first sentence, didn’t take any of the Jedi bullshit and just said “shoot him”

-She chill af

-DAMN SHE’S A BADASS

-I feel really sorry for Lyste but I can’t help cracking up for some reason

-Yularen why did you come alone

-You could have just brought a bunch of stormtroopers and tased the lot from a distance, or would Ezra’s huge plot shield deflect that too

-Annnnd Pryce faints. Again.

-Dammit Lyste.

-Poor Lyste, and poor Kallus.

-THRAWN’S ACTUALLY PAYING ATTENTION TO THAT PURPLE LOTHCAT DOODLE

-Thrawn knooooowwwssss... He aaaaalwaaaaayyyyssss knooooowwwwwssssssssssss...

-But seriously damn I’m gettin’ chills here.

-”I believe Agent Fulcrum will prove far more useful to the Empire than Kallus ever was.” DAAAAmn

-Kallus is so screwed

-KALLUS. IS. SO. FRICKIN. SCREWED. D’YOU. HEAR. ME.

-This is such a good episode; I don’t usually rewatch episodes, no matter what franchise, but this one I want to watch again.

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