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i demand for you to elaborate more on qpr things with wars and ledge. especially on how they deal with each others trauma with their own adventures <33 (also hi !!! how are you i hope youre doing well <33)

HII REI i am vibin . a solid 6/10 rn <3 i hope ur doin well too!!!!

WOOOOOOOO you've come to the right place i am going to talk ur ear off

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at the start of the journey when they didn't know each other super well but were friends, it was much harder to comfort each other. wars' go-to when comforting others is touch—that's just how he does things and it's what he's most confident and versed in—but legend, back then, had a weird relationship w that w the whole touch-starved, touch-adverse thing. at the beginning, it kinda seemed like they were just very different people and weren't super compatible

they're very different in terms of how they like to receive/give affection and reassurance. but i think the important thing w them is that Both of them were willing to compromise and adapt to each other. without crossing boundaries, they have a system in place where they Communicate and Ask Permission for shit.

^ wars never touches ledge without asking either verbally or w a silent raised arm and a questioning look that says hug? and he never makes a face or gets upset when ledge says no. conversely, ledge never pushes and prods too hard when wars shuts down on him and won't talk about anything, instead sitting w him and simply keeping him company

i think one of the biggest problems that ledge faces w this stuff is that he's so emotionally constipated that he genuinely has no idea where to even begin, both with speaking about his own trauma, and reassuring wars w his

he never knows what to say, how to say it, what movements to make, whether physical touch is even appropriate here,, he doesn't know. he often finds himself completely out of his depth. he usually gets by w the things he does know how to do, but sometimes he ends up in hard situations where he has no idea what path to take or how to make somebody feel better

during nights where the vibes r quiet and everybody is asleep but him and wars, they talk and laugh and giggle, and sometimes it strays into deeper territory where they share stories from their adventures to get them off their chests. wars usually doesn't like talking about the more gruesome memories too much, but it sometimes even gets too heavy for him and he needs to let it out when he feels comfortable enough. and ledge?

ledge wants to. he never used to want to, but now he feels safe enough and loved enough to share these vulnerable things w wars and yet when he opens his mouth everything's just,,, stuck. like there's a physical barrier he cannot get past, to let these words out. he barely knows how to form such complicated emotions into words in his mind, much less mold it all into a coherent sentence

and wars is good at People, like i've mentioned. somewhere along the line, he realizes that ledge isn't uncomfortable w sharing (not,, fully anyway). no, it's that ledge doesn't know how. either he was simply never taught adequately (given his young age when his uncle died, it's possible), had trouble grasping it from the start, or it's trauma making him fear vulnerability to the point of being nonverbal, wars doesn't know; what he Does know is that he can see legend wants to get past it

so during one of those sleepover-vibe nights where they spill their guts to each other, wars decides to lead the conversation instead of going quiet and letting legend have the floor, like he'd been doing before. he asks questions instead, guides legend through it with subtle little nudges, and watches in delight as legend responds much better to that than just,,, silence and the expectations of him to make his emotions make sense to others

questions give him a template. they give him a sentence structure to mimic, an underlying logic to follow, and even when legend feels too overwhelmed to answer those, wars switches to simple yes-or-no ones (legend loves him. he loves him with all of his heart). eventually he's able to roll around the usual questions warriors asks in his head and sorta reverse engineer them to come up w ways to say things for himself; picks out the patterns in them, says them to himself next time they share things and he answers them aloud, like a script he's memorized

it's probably not how most people usually do it, and sometimes ledge feels a bit silly abt it, but it does a rly good job of teaching him how to say things in ways other people might understand—it allows him to hear these things in a way he can understand. it finally gives him an outlet to let it all out, and even though sometimes it's exhausting, he always feels lighter afterward

i do wanna talk abt the dynamic of legend having a lot of trauma abt knights and his best friend also being a knight. when they first met, legend didn't trust him one fucking bit. legend was afraid of him. he always avoided him wherever he could, let the others talk instead of risking getting stuck in a conversation w the guy—it was bad.

and sure, that was unfair to wars bc he'd rly done absolutely nothing wrong to ledge. but all legend could ever see when he looked at him was the shiny armor and the sharp blade on his back; the bow over his shoulders; the perfect stance; and the death-like, mindless stare of every other brainwashed soldier he'd ever met. legend would hear his armor clink and he'd flinch. wars would unsheath his sword to sharpen it and legend's hand would dart to his own, ready to fight

but eventually they started talking. legend stopped trying to outright avoid him and instead sorta,,, let himself exist in the same space vaguely uneasily. that turned into goofing off together, that turned into smiles and laughter and Uh Oh he realizes this guy is pretty fuckin sick. Uh Oh He's Becoming My Acquaintance,,, Uh Oh He's Becoming My Friend,, Uh Oh He's Becoming My Bes—

and i think it's just . rly rly nice that ledge eventually got over that hurdle. he's not scared of wars, not even a little anymore. and the strength behind each and every thing wars does for him ?? hugs him and kisses his knuckles and rings, says he loves him like several times a day, sleeps wrapped around him in a protective little hold, kisses the scars that were caused by other knights. that's just ,, ougoh /pos

in a way it sorta,,, softens the blows from his past i suppose. it doesn't completely reverse his trauma from other knights, of Course not, but it most certainly does help in a way i can't rly explain, and in a way that legend most definitely never will be able to either

beyond the war and the trauma that comes w that, wars also struggles w some self-doubt. i mentioned it before, but he's not super confident like common depictions of him, and due to :sparkle: circumstances :sparkle: of things in his past, he often feels like he's only kept around because he's useful, not because he's loved. couldn't be further from the truth, but sometimes he gets in these awful mindsets where he feels he has to justify the space he takes up

legend helps him a lot in that regard simply w time (the,, concept, not the man). it takes time for wars to believe it when ledge says he loves him—near the beginning when ledge didn't say it back bc it felt like Too Much to him at the time, that unknowingly set wars' belief in stone that maybe ledge doesn't return the sentiment. they figure it out in the end, and they Know they love each other very much now, but wars' fragile self-worth mixed w that,, didn't go over so well

but the little things legend does for him constantly pile up into this big heap of I Love You, Idiot, and eventually it even gets through wars' thick, self-doubt filled skull. little things like going out of his way to sit next to him and collapse in his lap, bringing him drinks when he's noticed wars hasn't had a break in a while, coming up to him all excited and feeling comfortable enough to infodump abt shit to him. eventually, the point reaches through

a bigger thing is that sometimes wars will end up,, shutting down. if he's too stressed or too overwhelmed, and then one little extra thing sets him off, he'll kinda dissociate i guess?? a bit similar to wild's memories deal. he'll be,, Somewhere Else in his head—often times reliving memories/emotions he doesn't want to—and he'll go on auto-pilot and just kinda go through the motions until he gets to a point where he can take a break

sometimes it happens after a battle, sometimes it happens seemingly randomly even if everything's calm. there's been times when wars isn't even totally sure what set it off, and there's been times where wars slowly blinks out of the trance and ends up not even remembering most of it. he'll hear a fire crackle in just the right way and suddenly be back on the field w flames burning his troops; he'll see a certain type of flower and remember being dragged across a clearing of them by enemy forces

it's hard to see him like that, staring off into space w a haunted look in his gaze, so it always worries legend to death. he'll usually sit w him and try to talk to him, tell him whatever he's seeing is not happening again and that he's safe. he doesn't touch him unless wars is aware enough to approve of it, but when he falls out of the trance and starts coming back to himself, legend will usually hug him and hold him, do his best to keep him calm. they usually sit there for a good while afterward, just listening to each other breathe

legend is terrified of lightning storms and wars always stays up late into the night w him just to keep him company, holds him until he falls asleep. when they're in wars' era, he's fully aware that ledge is afraid of the other knights that Cover castle town, so he holds legend's hand the entire way to let him know he's Safe

wars has a huge phobia of any fire that's not contained in a pit and rly any enemy that is able to shoot fire at Him; if legend notices he's dealing w one on the field they'll quickly trade places and let wars handle whatever ledge was fighting. wars is also terribly claustrophobic—it is hard to get wars inside a cave of any kind—and legend typically walks him through the panic he feels after a trigger, gentle as all hell. when wars gets injured, legend Knows he sometimes jumps to conclusions that the chain might leave him, so an i've got you, i'm not leaving you comes out to calm him

legend has chronic pain from a,,, multitude of things, but some of the worst stuff is usually joint pain. heat often helps w it; if it's bad enough, wars will set the fire rod by him so he can warm his hands up, but if that's not needed, wars will simply hold his hands and massage the knots out and he's so so incredibly gentle abt it

legend also loves physical pressure on him, and a Lot of the time the chain can find wars just,, lying on top of him. ledge always looks so content when he does that

they both have these, but wars gets some pretty bad phantom pains from the burns along his face and shoulder—half of his right ear is straight up burnt off, and it causes some Problems sometimes

occasionally it'll feel like he has an infection there, in lots of pain and really nauseated, and the ringing that's usually there gets much worse. he's usually MIA on those days, too dizzy to do much of anything but lie still, and legend will always keep him company, playing w his hair and talking abt random stuff to keep wars occupied

nightmares....................dear god VGEAIYG ledge has a lot of nightmares abt koholint. usually they're pretty tame, thankfully—just little snippets that jerk him awake and, while he usually stays up the rest of the night, they don't make him panic too much

but sometimes they are Bad and he wakes up sobbing, gets back into that horrible box of it was my fault, is This real, is the chain even real, and wars holds him so gently and repeatedly tells him it's all real and does his best to ground him w every single technique wars knows. sometimes he brings him back to the present pretty quickly, sometimes it takes all night, but either way, wars is there the entire time, never leaving him once

wars has a lot of nightmares from the war, but he also tends to have a lot about losing legend and the others, and those affect him terribly. he wakes up screaming sometimes, hyperventilating and whipping around to count heads around camp to make sure they're all there and alright

legend is always there to hold him—tells him that it wasn't real, that they're all safe and okay, hugs him so so tight, and when wars' sobbing has dwindled to little hiccups, they'll lie back down in the blankets and wars will cling to him like both of their lives depend on it. legend will let him rest his head over his chest, ear right up against his heart so that he can hear it beating, alive and well. sometimes it even calms him enough for him to drift back to sleep

and lastly, sometimes u just,, feel off and don't know why. sometimes they know Something is wrong, but everything seems to be in its place in their heads and there's only smth slightly to the left that's teetering everything off the edge. sometimes one of them has an off day where they act differently, they're stuck in their head, they're sensitive, they're unusually quiet,,

and the other is always there to ask if they want company, or if they wanna be alone. no matter what they chose, the other will respect it. if they wanna be alone, if they wanna talk, if they wanna sit w the other in silence, they're always willing. they're always so understanding w each other and always so Willing to help each other, even when the solution isn't obvious and even when it seems rly hard to get there

#tw trauma #tw death mention #tw dissociation #tw derealization #qktalks #soul-of-rei #qpr wars and ledge #this is longer than my other ask abt wars. jesus christ VGAEIYVU #i won't apologize . the urge to apologize 16938561936 times is STRONG but i am resisting .#tysm for enabling me i think i'd kill for u btw #i love nothing more than talking abt them. they r perfect #they love each other............................. ... ........... . ... ..... .....................#BIIIIG sucker for wars kissing the scars ledge got from other knights. holyfucking shit #ohmy god. jesuscrhsit jesusfucki gn god holy sh #that'sso nice. that's so fucking good #he'sso affectionate he's so gentle #makes ledge MELT. 100%#''quit that mushy shit (do it again.)''

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