you ever get so horny when your messiah cousin kills your uncle you fuck

content. fluff, mentions of nudity, usage of celsius (the only correct way of measuring temperature iktr).

it’s an unwritten rule in your relationship with satoru that you two must sleep skin-to-skin. it doesn’t matter if the room is -4 degrees or if it’s nearing 32. you’re bare—partly or fully—and you lay touching the other. on some days, you lay chest to chest, on others you’re spooning each other (satoru is mostly the little spoon, but on rare days he switches it up), and on others it’s merely your pinkies intertwining as you two sleep peacefully during the night.

some part of you, no matter if it’s big or small, has to be touching him. actually touching him. without the barrier of infinity, that keeps him from touching the world in its entirety. and without the barrier of clothing, that keeps him from touching you—from truly touching you. the two of you need to feel each other, to feel the other on your skin and know that they’re here and that they’re real.

to be so vulnerable together, and to have absolutely nothing separating the two of you. it’s just you, and it’s just him. and suddenly the world doesn’t seem all that bad.

. . .yeah, sleeping skin-to-skin is an absolute must.

😭😭😭

if i had more time i'd talk about how if anyone were to be the cannibal of the cast of characters, it would be kabru

kind of obsessed (sick, insane) over the way feyd wants so much to kiss and be kissed. the desperate way he leans into margot fenring, the twisted affection for which he goes in for seconds from his uncle, the way he always gets so intimately close to his opponent’s faces like he’s ready to bestow the kiss of death alongside his blade

Actually the implications of John also being bisexual are so fucking tasty to me because like. OG John has no support system and no protection against the world except his own perceived strength so he learns to ferret out anything that can possibly be seen as weakness to those around him and that includes any affection or attraction he might feel towards men because nothing screams "stay in your fucking closet" like spending all your time around a fringe subculture of serial killing doomsday preppers in the Midwest during the Reagan era.

By the time he notices Dean starting to look a little too long at boys his age, he's probably convinced himself that whatever he felt (still feels but ignores) was a temporary youthful indiscretion, and of course Dean can't afford those, doesn't get to have those, he's got to be a soldier. He's got to be a better soldier than John, even.

I dunno I've just had enough conversations with family members who are loudly but somehow also mildly homophobic and yet say or do things that make me *eyeballs emoji* not to think this is not only possible but arguably likely.

had Rocky Horror rehearsal tonight and started thinking that really I should be playing Brad Majors....none of these bitches get him like I do.....

[thinking about my own character] god i am so right about him. no one understands him better than me.

what if i told u i ship feydpaul but in a paul tops kind of way

moon seeing a drawing of a raksuran queen for the first time, thinking of it as "unexpectedly sensual", then "trying to page to the back of the book to see if there were any more drawings of queens" is soooooo funny like okay local man discovers erotica of his own species and suddenly develops whatever the opposite of a monsterfucker kink is

I love that we have collectively agreed that Jamie is bi. But also… imagine bisexual Georgie Tartt. Like it just kind of makes sense. I can picture her maybe having a girlfriend or two when Jamie is younger before his dad comes back into the picture. I can picture them all going to an aquarium or something. I can see Georgie sticking with dating women for a while, because she’s still wary after leaving Jamie’s dad. And like the women she goes out with happen to be more understanding of her situation than the men. And they all love Jamie to pieces. But maybe she ends up breaking it off with them due to being busy. Or like maybe her girlfriend ends up moving away for work or something, but Georgie doesn’t want to leave.

And maybe James knows and he’s angry but not really worried, until he hears that she’s going on dates with girls and guys again. And then he feels threatened because he didn’t really see the women she went out with as anything serious. But the men definitely threatened his position in her (and Jamie’s) life. He didn’t want another man raising his son. He probably came with the scheme to get back in Georgie’s life because he realized he didn’t have control over her anymore. But he also knew he couldn’t be a dick at first or she wouldn’t let him back in. He was also probably a bit worried about whatever “soft bullshit” Georgie was putting in Jamie’s head. He didn’t want Jamie to end up queer just because Georgie made it seem like it was okay.

So when Georgie finally trusts him enough to let Jamie start spending time alone with him, he makes sure that his son knows that he can’t be soft, that needs to dominate and act like a real man. He takes him to Amsterdam to make sure any ideas Georgie put in Jamie’s head about being queer were stomped out. And then one day when he’s going on a misogynistic rant to Jamie, he brings up how he knew he had to try and win Georgie back once she decided to pursue more serious relationships. But Jamie is confused because she’s been dating other people for years. And when he brings that up, James just explains that those weren’t deal and didn’t count cause they were women. And Jamie just goes home confused and mentions it to Georgie, who gets reasonably pissed off. And then she kicks James to the curb for real.

And then on her first real date after all this, she gets stood up. But she ends up making friends with the pastry chef at the bakery she went to, whose name is Simon. And she ends up in a happy and supportive relationship, with a man who understands that her liking both is not a phase or wrong. And a man who does his best to show Jamie that it’s alright to be soft.

yeah nahhh i’m just gonna say it shipping hobie and miles seems kinda ick?? imo there’s a noticeable maturity gap and i think this is once again a case of “ppl online would rather romanticize what is clearly a familial connection bc they think it means more somehow” bc hobie is very much big sibling vibes

11. someone's a masochist and no one is surprised for the WIP ask thing! ✨

LOL thank you!

So this one isn't very far into the actual writing process yet. More planning. But it's basically Jancy Explores Kink Together, sometime in the future.

(I guess warning for discussion of BDSM?)

Jonathan probably has kind of a complicated relationship with pain, for a number of reasons that I won't get into (you all know them). So while I'm intrigued on his behalf by the possibilities of pure sensation play and sometimes a spanking or some other kind of painplay just feels good for physiological reasons uncomplicated by psychology... well, look, maybe that boy wants to control when the pain happens, on his terms, and learn to trust his body and feel his feelings and not stuff it down. Make peace with it. Maybe he wants to be treated gently and touched sweetly and then occasionally let someone whom he loves and trusts and would never fear push him just far enough to the edge of sensation that it's too intense not to tear up a little. And then soothe him and tell him he's a good boy and he did so great and she loves him so much. You know?

Nancy, for her part, I think would enjoy getting to do that. Nancy can have a little loving, conscientious, and very responsibly enacted sadism, as a treat. I think she's got some masochism in there, too, and probably more than Jonathan, if I'm being honest. But there's no way she'd ask Jonathan to do that for her, even if he offered. She knows him too well. So she's fine exploring this side of it. And I suppose I can let Nancy try the Clover clamps and heavy impact play with someone else, eventually. Probably not with a dude, though. (Gonna get distracted by queer BDSM thoughts here...)

Honestly I think my style of writing (which I'd boil down to smut that's more about overwhelming emotions and sexual desires that stem from a yandere) just doesn't gel with how I view Johan which is why I always feel so shitty and "off" when I write smut with him. I just feel like I'm jamming a very complex and multilayered peg into a Horny Obsession Hole and I wish I could give him and his potential relationship with someone Like That the depth it deserves

Anyway if you want that depth from someone who imo has a pitch-perfect interpretation of Johan and Johan/Darling, @ddarker-dreams has written the best fics I've ever seen with him

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