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uunromanticized · 10 months

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hii !! my very first ask omg !! could i have joseph x fem reader thats very fairy-like and sings for him often, and also dances w him since he likes to dance !!

ty in advance if you accept my ask !! 🎀

OMG HI ANON!!! ur first ask that’s so exciting 🥺 i am honoured to be ur first ask and i hope that this is satisfying for u !!! if u come back ill call u fairy anon 🤭 i happen to be a joseph lover and also a singer let’s GOOO !!!

joseph with a fairy-esque lover!!!

𝙞 𝙘𝙤𝙪𝙡𝙙 𝙛𝙖𝙡𝙡 𝙞𝙣𝙩𝙤 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙚𝙖𝙧𝙩𝙝 𝙩𝙤 𝙛𝙞𝙩, 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙞 𝙘𝙤𝙪𝙡𝙙 𝙗𝙚 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙪𝙩.

- you and him waltz regularly idc idc !!! he absolutely ADORES going to your rhythm if you hum a tune while doing so

he is so very eloquent, and very well versed in the waltz; spins and dips and the like

i for some reason imagine him to spin whenever you hum a high note. don’t ask me why i don’t know why but i know in my heart of hearts that i am right

- i think, given your fairy-esque tendencies and hobbies, he’d believe you to be the best photography model ever (if we ignore the fact that his camera is… That for a moment). he’d take beautiful photos of you in nature; a natural element

- i personally don’t see him as one to listen to *lyrical* music; definitely prefers wordless classical, but whenever you sing he will always ask what you are singing out of a pure curiosity.

- if it’s something you’ve created with your own mind and vocal chords he will be significantly impressed. i imagine that while he’s not one for lyrics, he’d greatly respect those who write them regardless.

- if you’re one of the people that can read the emotion in music, he’d be even more impressed; i imagine him the type to listen to more somber classical sounds when he’s upset. if you pick up on that and ask him about it or try to cheer him up, he’d be impressed and touched.

- while he’s not one to go easy during matches, he also sees you as delicate; something to protect. you’re not immune, but he is significantly less harsh with his hits on you.

if anyone comments on it with disdain towards you consider them tunneled until he’s pissed at someone else

- might go friendly in matches you’re involved in if you’re having a bad day; at the cost of a song, of course

- he enjoys just watching you in your element whenever you don’t realize he’s there. not in a creepy way, he just likes watching how you act when there’s no one else around; more carefree

- he loves watching you dance. absolutely adores it. you look like what he would describe as a light fairy; absolutely ethereal

- makes sure you don’t strain your voice!!!!!!! absolutely makes you drink tea daily and it’s one thing he will almost never compromise on

- when you’re ill *he’s* the one humming because he knows you enjoy it, even if it’s not his thing

“are you up for a dance, mon amour?”

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julaibib · 2 years

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Asalam Alaikum Julaibib & everyone. 👋🥺😔

I have been taking care of my ill dad since I was 16 years old, while taking care of my school. My mother has sadly fallen ill as well these past few years, where I have to take her to doctor appointments and hospital stays and so on. Ever since I was a kid I have been taking care of my siblings, acting as a “second” mom to them (I’m the oldest).

I feel that my whole life has been about others. I am so grateful for my family and the fact that they are alive alhamdulillah. I feel so grateful for them and all they have done for me. I love them dearly. I feel so guilty when saying it, but I just feel so tired of being the one with all the responsibility. The one to put her whole life on hold for others.

I didn’t wish to raise my siblings, I wished to be raised with them. I wanted to be a sister, not a mother. And now that they have grown up and become their own person, they barely talk to me. They get along with each other, but I will never be a friend or a sister, just “the mean mom”. My father haven’t been a big part of my childhood (from age 5-15) because he chose to live with his other family. I missed him extremely much and cried nearly daily for him, wishing to have him back in my life. Just wanted to be chosen, and to have a father. And when I finally got him back in my life alhamdulillah, it wasn’t as a father but as someone I had to take care of. He had fallen ill and only I could care for him. I became the parent. My lovely mother who has always had my back, has now fallen ill so slowly.

So now I have lived my whole life, taking care of others, primarily the last 10 years. Having to be called up in middle of class because the doctor needs to talk to you. Having to stay home from school to take care of your parents. Having to cancel plans etc. And if I get married and have children soon I will just have to take care of them as well and have responsibility of them. Never got to be selfish and carefree. Always too much responsibility. And I feel so tired of it😭

AstaqfiruAllah I feel bad for saying it but my mental health can’t take it anymore. I feel so lonely, and exhausted. I feel as if I don’t matter and that I’m only on this earth to help others, but that I have no purpose myself. I love my parents so very much and it’s a blessing to have them and a privilege to take care of them, I know. I just wish things were different. I wish they were healthy and didn’t depend on me this much. I wish I could be the child; that I could be responsibility-less, that I could have been/be young and childish and immature and just like all the other kids and people my age.

I just needed to share this with someone🥺 Can’t tell to any friends. So please my sisters and brothers, remember me and my lovely parents in your duas tonight. I just wish for contentment and peace 🥺😔 and may Allah swt forgive me for my thoughts.

وعليكم السلام

One of the best deeds you have done for your family, and Allah does not waste the reward of the best work and you have done righteousness to your parents and taken care of your brothers, even if they forgot this good, but Allah never forgets what you did for them

Therefore, do not feel bad at all or feel sorry for your life, because it is all a good deed, in addition to establishing your prayers, hijab, and the rest of the other acts of worship. I do not know the status of your current circumstances, but you should ask your sisters to start participating in caring for your parents if they are able to do so

You should start by freeing up a little time for yourself, even if through the Internet, with friends or and searching for it through the mosque or your acquaintances

I hope you and your family are always well

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