A Very Colin Christmas - Colin Shea x reader
Ch. 2 - The Proposal
a/n - hey lovely people!! here goes chapter 2, and this is where things really start to get interesting... enjoy;)
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Summary: You help Colin with some Christmas decorations, but it turns out he does have one more thing to ask you...
Word Count: 1.6k
Warnings: curse words, innuendos
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After Colin left to try and get a tree, you went back to your apartment to tidy up a little and write cards to give out. You wrote all the big ones first, for your family and close friends, and then wrote the ones for coworkers and other people for whom a simple "Merry Christmas" would suffice. It was a little extra to write cards for all the presents you gave out, but it wasn't too much of a bother.
You were just putting the cards in place when you heard a knock on your door. "Just a second!" you yelled out and finished with the cards.
You opened the door to reveal Colin, smiling. "Let's go," you said, locking the door behind you and going with him to his apartment across the hall.
When you entered you were greeted by the sight of a little tree in the living room, but more importantly with the delicious smell of takeout. You were painfully reminded you hadn't had dinner yet when your mouth watered at the smell.
"I got some takeout on my way as well," said Colin and made his way to the kitchen. "You want some?" he yelled.
"Yeah, I'd love some," you said, grateful. You started to look at the pile of decorations on the couch, wondering where it would be best to put each one.
Colin came back with two very delicious smelling plates, one of them you accepted before sitting down on the couch beside him. You ate and chatted a bit. He asked you a little about your job and you ranted about your shitty boss for a bit.
"Well, lucky for me I'm the boss of me. And I gotta say, I'm a pretty great one," Colin replied, smirking.
"Oh yeah, how's that going for you?" you asked. A week ago, you had seen him in the park with some kid and he tried to hide from you. "The babysitting business must be thriving with you in it," you grinned.
"Ha ha," he replied dryly. "For your information, that was my nephew, and I definitely did not get paid for that," he grimaced slightly. "But my actual work, which is music, is going great, thanks for asking."
"I'm glad," you chuckled.
When you finished your dinner, it was time for decorating. At first you were hesitant, asking Colin if the place was okay for every single ornament you hung, but you quickly realized he didn't really care, and started getting more and more confident. Eventually, you were telling Colin where he should put the stuff he was hanging.
At some point Colin started to put on some music from his phone, blasting a cheesy Christmas playlist. You started mindlessly humming along, and so did Colin. Gradually, you both started swaying to the beat, until eventually you were both just dancing around, singing at the top of your lungs. You grabbed a candy cane and started using it as a mic, offering it to Colin every other line, and he gladly sang into it, laughter dancing in his eyes.
When the song ended you both collapsed on the couch, side by side, each breathless to some extent. You looked at him and started laughing, and soon he joined you, your laughter booming through the apartment. Another song was playing now, but he lowered the volume so you could speak comfortably.
"Wow, you really are musically talented," you said once your laughter had died down, "I'm impressed."
"Thank you, thank you!" he got up and bowed with a flourish, waving at an invisible crowd. "You're not too bad yourself," he said once he sat back down.
"Thank you!" you said, your hand on your heart, feigning deep gratitude. "It means so much when an expert like you says that," you rolled your eyes.
"You sound like my mom," he raised his eyebrow and reached for his beer on the table, taking a large gulp.
"I can't tell if that's good or bad," you chuckled.
"Definitely bad. She's still waiting for me to give it up, and so is my entire family. They seem to forget I've been doing this for years now. My mom is very adamant that it's a phase. She is, of course, forgetting my expertise, as you framed so nicely," he said with a bitter smile.
"Sounds like a lovely lady," you smiled.
"Yeah. I love them but loving them from afar is easier. Soon they're gonna be here, so don't be surprised if you hear some shouting," he smiled.
"Why would you shout? It's the holidays!"
"Exactly. It's gonna be all 'Colin, why don't you have a job?' and 'Colin, when are you gonna settle down with a nice girl?' like I'm a fucking baby," he took another swig of his beer. "And because I do have a job, and I tell them that, that's when the shouting begins," he said with a shrug.
"What about the nice girl?" you smirked, and Colin just looked at you with a puzzled expression. "I mean, you just told me your answer for the first question, but why don't you settle down with a nice girl?" you raised your eyebrow at him.
"Well, it's simple," he leaned closer, putting his hand on the couch beside you, "I like 'em naughty," he murmured and smirked.
"Okay," you rolled your eyes and pushed him away playfully. "I hope that's not what you're gonna tell your mom."
"No," he sighed in defeat, "but it's sure as hell what I'm gonna tell Andy," he smirked, "that jerk doesn't know what fun is. He was like that even before he got married. Pity," he shrugged.
"Andy?"
"My perfect big brother. Perfect idiot if you ask me."
"You don't actually hate him that much," you said, convinced you were right.
"Not really," he admitted. "But he's a lawyer with a wife and a kid. You can do the math as to what expectations that sets for me."
"So you're jealous of him."
"God no, I wouldn't be a lawyer if you paid me in gold," Colin chuckled. "It looks so fucking boring."
"But you're jealous that he's getting your parents' approval," you remarked.
He stayed silent for a moment. "Maybe," he shrugged. "Whatever. It's not like that's going to change anytime soon."
"What, like you want it to? Colin, you've come to hide out in my apartment three times in the last week. I know enough to say you're not really looking for a girlfriend," you chuckled.
"I know, I know," he said, "but I kinda wish I'd have like, a girlfriend for the weekend, you know? Like a fake girlfriend to prove my family wrong, and then I'd go back to normal," he shrugged.
"Why not post an ad? People will do anything for money."
"I'm not buying a girlfriend!" he scrunched up his nose, "even I don't stoop that low. That's really fucking pathetic."
"Okay then," you chuckled, "how about ask one of your hookups?"
"Something tells me they wouldn't be up for it," he grimaced, taking another sip from his beer.
"Really? What about Stella from a couple of days ago? Two days isn't that long to ghost a girl," you shrugged.
"Oh, is that what I said her name was?" he furrowed his brows.
"Okay, I see your point," you rolled your eyes.
"Well, I do have an idea⌠but you have to promise not to hit me if I tell you," he grinned. You contemplated it with a smile before motioning for him to go ahead. "Maybe⌠you could pretend to be my girlfriend for the weekend?"
You reached out to swat him but he dodged your blow quickly, "You said you wouldn't hit me!" he pouted.
"That's before I knew you were going to say something stupid! Besides, I didn't actually say anything," you objected, but crossed your hands on your chest nonetheless.
"C'mon, it'll be fun!" he smiled hesitantly. "What are your plans anyway?"
"Sit in my apartment and watch Christmas movies," you grumbled. "My family usually meets after Christmas, because 'roads are always jammed on the holidays', so I stay in."
"See? Your family's weird, so you can help me get my annoying one off my back!"
"Hey! Only I can call my family weird," you bumped your elbow into his side. "But I guess I don't have anything that much better to do," you said after a few seconds.
"Yes!" he pumped his fist in celebration, "I promise you won't regret it, baby," he leaned in and you rolled your eyes and pushed him away.
"Okay, Casanova," you chuckled, "but I do have some ground rules. First of all, PDA to a minimum, okay? No kisses," you raised your eyebrows at him and he pouted in response.
"Cheek kisses?" he asked.
"Maybe," you sighed. "Rule number two â no funny business," you gestured vaguely.
"What does that mean?" he chuckled.
"I don't know," you said, "just⌠be normal?"
"I thought the entire point of this was that I didn't seem like my normal self," he scratched his chin as if in deep thought.
"Well, I meant be a normal person in normal people standards."
"You got it," he grinned.
When you got back to your apartment, he escorted you to your door.
"See you, Colin. Goodnight," you smiled.
"Goodnight. And⌠thank you," he smiled back, "for saving my ass. Today and hopefully over the weekend."
"Don't thank me yet," you smirked, prompting him to chuckle. "Bye," you said as you closed your door behind you.
So⌠looks like you're going to have a very interesting weekend.
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a/n: i spent so long on this only @simplyaroha knows. jael iâm so sorry for keeping you waiting LOL. and i want to gift @chenleplanet with this because ryne your love for chenle is unreal and ily <3 i also want to gift @jenoist with this as vivi youâre the nicest and you make me cry jscudnvifjsdb ily2. lastly, gifting you, a reader, with this because iâm thankful that youâre reading this (or going to?). if this is my first fic youâre reading then hello i hope you stay and read my future tales ahaha. if this isnât the first then hey!! thanks so much for staying. i really appreciate it! merry early christmas everybody. p.s. italicised words are for dream talks and texts in case you get confused
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The 11th night of each monthâthe only night when you donât dream. Tons of people labour under the misapprehension that they donât dream every night, but thatâs simply because they donât remember what they were dreaming of.
Tonight, an endless tenebrosity stretches before you.
You think of âHeyâ, and immediately the word appears in the darkness, faint and in the colour of snow.
Thereâs no reply. Which sucks as this means youâll have to spend the next seven hours or so in total nothingness, unless the person at the other end of the country (or world, you donât know for sure) answers you. It shouldâve been somewhere near an hour when a foggy yet enthusiastic âHi!â comes into view.
Sorry, I was catching up on some homework, it continues.
What time is it? you think instantly.
My phone tells me it was 1:04 am the last time I saw it.
You should start going to bed earlier, loser, you respond.
Communicating with soulmates wouldâve been a lot easier if names arenât eschewed. Youâve tried thinking about the most uncommon names, but they refuse to come to light. This explains why you and your soulmate decided to call each other âloserâ on the fourth encounter a few months ago. Itâs not the cutest, but itâll have to do.
Donât tell me what to do, loser.
Fine. What do YOU want to do?
I donât know.
You sigh, if thatâs even possible at this moment. Do people sigh while dreaming? You assume they do. Tell me more about yourself then. The only thing I know about you is that youâre an annoying boy.
His reply comes a little late. You got the gender right but the adjective wrong. Now let me go to sleep.
Youâre already sleeping, dork.
You can almost hear him chuckle. You feel a wistful longing for his voice.
Iâm just kidding. What do you want to know about me? His words emerge, a colon and right bracket following close. They join the string of words disappearing above.
The hall is snug after walking in the icy wind outside. The assembly that all students attend religiously will begin in a few minutes. Your eyes dart from one student to another, in search of a boy with lilac hair. But he finds you first.
âIâm right here, Y/N!â Chenle yells, clamping his hands on your shoulders with the largest grin on his face.
âI wasnât looking for you,â you say, turning around to face him.
His smile seems to get wider if thatâs feasible. âYeah, I believe you.â
You know youâve lost when a smile threatens to surface.
Every school year starts off with students sitting according to their classes. However, by mid-February (sometimes earlier), the rule is long broken with students scattered everywhere in the hall with their companions from other classes or grades. One clear example is a senior hanging out with a junior, and in this case, Mark and Donghyuck, who are laughing over the funniest joke theyâve ever heard.
âLetâs go look for Jisung,â Chenle says. He clasps your wrist and pushes through the crowd. You feel a strong beat of your heart, something you experience whenever he does that. His touch feels like wearing gloves on a snowy winter day, tucking yourself under a blanket on a cold winter night. You shake your head. You shouldnât be feeling like this. You canât be feeling like this. Chenle isnât your soulmate.
But⌠Itâs okay to prefer someone to your soulmate, right?
You decide that itâs wrong as soon as the question slips. This feeling for Chenle, you convince yourself, is patently temporary. Besides, Chenle doesnât like you in that way. Itâs indubitable.
It also feels extremely strange to enjoy being around someone so much, especially if that someone isnât who you talk to every 11th night of the month.
Maybe you donât even like Chenle. So what if you feel accomplished when he laughs heartily at your jokes? So what if your eyes light up every time you see someone with lilac hair on the street (not very often), only to be disappointed when said person wasnât who you thought it was? So what if you associate love songs with him? So what if your stomach flutters whenever he grabs your hand? So whatâ
âY/N? Y/N!â Chenle waves his hand before your face. You blink at him.
âYou okay? You seem to be deep in thought,â he continues. He has no idea.
He waves to Jisung. The latter has two empty seats beside him, and he beckons both of you over.
The hall is calmer than before, with most already seated down. Chenle sits between you and Jisung. They start talking about everything imaginable, frequently laughing mid-sentence. Your heart melts at this exuberant duo, and you often catch yourself staring at the older of the pair.
Someone catches you doing so too.
âSomebodyâs real busy.â
You snap out of your reverie to see Jisung looking at you knowingly.
Chenle has a look of confusion and embarrassment on his face. âAre we boring you?â
You shake your head just as the principal taps on the microphone twice.
âIâm sorry. I know this isnât really your thing,â Chenle resumes. At this point, you donât even know what heâs talking about in the first place.
âItâs okay, Chenle,â you reassure him. âYouâ Both of you never bore me.â
You spend the next hour listening to the principal drone on about God knows what and stealing glances at a boy with lilac hair and inappropriate laughter.
âWhatâs your soulmate like?â Chenle asks you from his desk. His highlighter is poised over a page of his science textbook as he waits for a reply.
You look up from your calculus worksheet and eye him sceptically from where youâre sitting on the wooden floor of his bedroom. âThatâs new.â
âIâm just curious.â
You turn your attention back to the paper resting on your lap as his question replays in your head. Youâre at his house studying for a test, mainly to seek for warmth. It isnât snowing, but itâs freezing. Youâd left your house keys on your desk and arenât keen to be outdoors making beats with your teeth. Also, no one will be home until dusk.
âHeâs nice,â you murmur. âFunny.â
Chenle goes back to highlighting some texts, occasionally writing on Post-it notes. âDo you, uh, like him?â
If you were brave, you would say, âNo. I like you.â
But you arenât, so you say, âI guess.â
Chenleâs tense shoulders sag. He leans his back on the chair, tapping his pen on the edge of his desk.
âWhat about you? Do you like your soulmate?â you question. You look at the naked trees outside with gnawing uneasiness in your stomach.
âYeah"âhis cheeks redden slightlyâ"but IâŚ
âNothing. Weâre supposed to be studying.â He pulls his chair closer to the desk and uncaps another highlighter. You want to argue that heâd started talking first but decided against it.
The next time he talks to you is to ask you what you want to have for dinner.
You spend your days taking tests, hanging out with friends, and being muddled by Chenleâs behaviour.
âDid I say something wrong?â You and Jisung are standing outside the soccer field, the question accompanied by your foggy breath tumbling out your mouth before you can stop it. Jisung stops observing the senior practising his kicks and turns his head to look at you.
âWhat?â
âItâs nothing. Chenleâs just being strange.â
Jisung clears his throat. âHe is?â
You spot Chenle running wildly on the field, engaged in a friendly match with some sophomores.
âNot now. But when weâre alone he becomes awkward.â
âMaybe he, I donât know, likes you?â Jisung pushes his bangs out of his face. âHowâs alone time with him?â
You look down at the ground, fingers gripping the fence, face pink from the cold and something else. âDonât phrase it that way.â
âHere comes lover boy.â
You grimace at his words. Chenle skips towards you and Jisung, his hair sticking to his forehead and shirt soaked in sweat despite the numbing temperature. Jisung wraps a towel around the older and helps him put on his coat. âThat was fun. Thanks for waiting for me.â
Chenle reaches for your hand and freezes at once.
Jisung doesnât seem to notice anything. He takes off first, shoving his hands in his winter coat. âRemind me to hit you when I can feel my hands again.â
Chenle chuckles, and you canât say you relate to Jisung. It feels like youâre touching hot coal.
Chenle once told you receiving coals for Christmas wasnât bad at all. âJust burn them and roast marshmallows.â
You had watched the fire flicker through his eyes.
Chenleâs hair is dyed a hazelnut brown colour when you see him in school. Itâs as if your lungs are caught in a mesh and entangled. The air feels thick and suffocating.
âWhat do you think?â is the first thing he says when your eyes meet.
You force yourself to breathe. âWhat happened to lilac hair? That was such a look, man.â
âI got tired of people giving me weird looks.â
And why would people do that? You canât understand why a change of his hair colour has this big of an effect on you.
You shrug, trying to look nonchalant. âIt looks good on you.â
You nearly miss the way his face reddens as he looks down at his dirty Converse.
âY/NâŚ
Y/N.
Y/N!â
âWhat do you want, Chenle?â
âLook at me.â
He raises his right hand up to your left cheek and draws comforting, tingly circles with his thumb. Then heâs leaning in, closer. He looks at you through half-closed lids before coming closer. Closer.
âY/N. IâŚâ
You feel your heart throbbing loudly in your ears, like drums beating on the street during festivals.
You donât feel anything on your lips. But your eyes stay closed.
âY/N.â
You love hearing your name roll so effortlessly off his tongue. You love it. You love him.
âY/N. Iââ
âYou what?â
âI swear if you donât get up right now Iâll really kill you!â
You shoot up from your laying position, your hair a mess and your eyes swollen with sleep. Jisung stands at the foot of your bed, his hands on his hips as he lours at you.
âWhat are you doing in my room?â you ask, groggy.
âAre you serious?â
You free your legs from your woollen blanket and shudder when your feet touch the gelid floor.
âWe were supposed to study at Chenleâs, remember?â Jisung sighs. âClearly not.â
You give him a bashful smile, eyeing the bedroom doorway.
Jisung taps his foot impatiently. âHe isnât here. Heâs helping his mum with groceries.â
âI wasn'tââ
âJust get ready and meet us at his place, Y/N.â He gives you one last look before disappearing down the hallway. âYour face is red. Do you want me to open the windows?â
âI thought you were joking!â You uncap the half-filled bottle then cap it after a second. âWho associates Jisung with textbooks and homework?â
Jisung throws a tiny ball of paper at you. âJudgemental. I do study.â
âStop it, you two,â Chenle chuckles. âLetâs actually get stuff done. We can also ask Y/N since sheâs the smartest one here.â
âShe is?â Jisung snorts. He earns a punch on the arm from you while your face glows with embarrassment.
So the three of you study. Chenle and Jisung have tests on different subjects this week but you donât. You work on your assignment, which is a research on a historical building. Apart from occasional questions from the duo, the room is otherwise quiet. Itâs slowly getting dark, the sun dipping below the horizon.
You look at Chenle discreetly. His eyelids are pink from him rubbing them. He looks cute when heâs serious and focused. Thereâs a knock on the door before Chenleâs mum pops her head into the room and smiles. âDinnerâs ready if any of you are hungry. Donât overwork yourselves, alright?â
There are hums and nods, then the room is quiet again. It canât have been more than five minutes when Jisung says, âGuys! Itâs snowing!â
Turns out there are only little specks of snow, much to everyoneâs (Jisungâs) disappointment. With the assignment and scrawled notes forgotten in Chenleâs bedroom, you and the pair stand outside just in case white flakes fall again, wriggling about to stay warm.
âThis is annoying,â Jisung groans.
Chenle nudges him playfully. âThere are a lot more days to come, Jisung.â
Jisung merely shrugs and says heâs hungry. Everyone trudges back into the house, relieved to soak in its warmth.
Itâs late when Jisung leaves Chenleâs house, which is starting to slowly lose its heat. The sky is an inky black but there are no visible stars due to the light-polluted city that Chenle lives in. You sit on his cabin bed, head tilted towards the night sky, watching a scintilla in the midst of the darkness.
Your eyes drift to Chenle. He yawns and rubs his eyes for the nth time.
âHey,â you say softly. âTake a break.â
He stifles another yawn, pushes his arms in the air and stretches. âMy mum will murder me if I fail this class again.â
âShe did tell us not to overwork ourselves.â
His smile appears. He pushes his chair back and ambles towards the bed to sit beside you. âWhat are you doing?â He bumps his shoulder against yours.
You point to the tiny spark in the sky.
âOoh,â he gushes. âLetâs make a wish.â
âThatâs not a shooting star, Chenle.â
âThatâs fine. I made a wish at camp last year when I thought I saw one. Until I realised it was Renjun throwing a piece of trash across the campsite.â
One end of Chenleâs lips is lifted, and soon both of you are collapsing into gales of laughter.
âWhat did you wish for?â Chenle asks.
You shake your head, grinning. âSecret.â
Itâs the 11th night of the month again. You go to bed quite early, feeling completely knackered from interminable assignments. You wait and wait, looking at lyrics of your favourite song arise as you think of it.
This soulmate of yours sure sleeps late.
All of a sudden, a Hey pops up.
Hi, you reply in your head.
Sorry, I forgot that itâs the 11th.
I have a question.
What is it?
You pause, letting the words disappear as they go higher. You think of your question. Do you like anybody?
Yeah.
He awaits what you have for him next.
Then, have you confessed to that person?
No. Iâm too scared to do that.
How do you cope?
Uh, I have a blog where I write what I want to say to her. Yeah, itâs cheesy so go ahead and laugh at me.
You feel yourself smiling. No itâs not. Itâs cute.
I can show you it if you want. No one knows about it except for my best friend, only because I foolishly left the page open while I went to the bathroom. Thatâs how embarrassed I feel about it. But now you know.
Iâm honoured.
The website and username he uses show up in a minute. You know the website well, however, he has an odd usernameâpractically like everyone on this planet. It reminds you of Chenle with his strange usernames for all eight of his accounts.
âWhy 'dirtykitchenfloorâ?â you had choked out. â'terrifyingpickleâ. Iâm leaving.â
Chenle had grabbed your hand, all but laughing. âDonât. I have six more.â
You there? These two words knock you back to the blackness.
Yeah. I was thinking about some stuff.
Like the person you like?
What? No. Thanks for reminding me though, Iâll go think about him now.
HAHAHAâpauseâwell have fun. Iâll be here, roaming.
You imagine the lilac-now-hazelnut hair boy standing beside you outside in the snowy city. The street lamp winks as snow starts to pile up atop and around it. His hair is sprinkled with stardust and snowflakes. His eyes twinkle and his hand feels like a cup of hot chocolate. The fallen snow feels soft beneath your shoes.
Everything feels right.
âI think Iâm in love,â Jisung says dreamily.
Itâs a frosty afternoon, and you find yourself again with Jisung and Chenle, everyone either sprawled on Jisungâs bed or floor. Drinks and bags of snacks litter the ground. No one pays attention to them.
A weird noise escapes Chenleâs mouth. âWith who?â
âMy soulmate.â
You snigger and say, âTheyâre called soulmates for a reason.â You then remember that Chenle isnât yours. You also donât know if itâs bad that your soulmate likes someone else. You figure it isnât, knowing youâre not breaking any hearts around here and you like someone else too.
Jisung prattles on about his soulmate. You nod blankly, and catch Chenle gazing at you. He points to Jisung covertly before shaking his head and rolling his eyes. Thereâs a beam on your face.
âYou arenât even listening to me,â Jisung groans. âStop flirting with each other.â
âAt least I have someone to flirt with,â Chenle sneers.
A thick shade of red mantles your cheeks. âS-stop talking nonsense.â
Chenle looks at you the way a child would look when heâs caught going through presents on the night before Christmas. A reddish hue branches out across his fair complexion.
Jisungâs frown steadily turns into a soft knowing smile. âSince Iâm done talking about my amazing love life, itâs your turn. The smarter person starts first.â
The branch tapping on the windows is the only thing disturbing Jisungâs hushed bedroom. You wonder why he hasnât gotten rid of it. Youâd find it difficult to fall asleep on a blustery night.
âSo none of you are smart? Not a surprise to me, I guess,â Jisung teases.
âMy soulmate has a blog where he writes what he wants to say to the person he likes down,â you begin, ignoring Jisungâs raillery.
Jisung lets out an impressed-sounding âhuhâ the same time Chenle says, âThatâs stupid.â
A grim line forms on your mouth as you stare at him. âI donât think it is.â
"Really?â Chenle coughs deliberately. âThat seems so cowardly.â Jisung cocks his head a little to the right twice out of habit, a small smile playing on his lips as he watches the exchange between you and Chenle. âI think itâs stupid too,â the younger of the pair blurts out.
Chenle glares at Jisung. âNo, itâs not.â
âYou said it was! Iâm just agreeing with you.â
âIâm just⌠just agreeing with Y/N.â
You snicker as they start to banter. They stop and stare at you, and soon the room is filled with three friends who are attacked by uncontrollable laughter.
Jisung wipes at his eyes and after heâs calmed down, he says, âI wanna love like Y/Nâs soulmate.â
âMe too,â Chenle says, albeit having a faraway look in his eyes.
âDonât you already?â
âSh-shut up!â
âSh-shut up!â Jisung mimics. Chenle simply gets up and flicks Jisungâs forehead. He whines in pain and flicks the former back. You sit up on the spot on Jisungâs bed and smile.
Happy. Happy is what you feel.
You donât know how you or Chenle do it, but itâs three in the morning when you finally shut your laptop and let out a wavering cry. âIâm done. Spent.â
âLetâs get some sleep.â Chenle yawns, lumbering to his bed and pulling the sheets over his entire body.
âThrow me a pillow and blanket.â
âWhat?â Chenle peers at you. âYouâre not sleeping on the floor. Itâs not carpeted and itâs freezing.â
âIâll be fine, worrywart.â
âWho even says that?â He gives you a blue pillow dotted with white clouds and a soft blanket. âYou wanna swap spots instead?â
âGo to sleep, Chenle.â You tuck yourself under the blanket, which comes with his scent and a hint of flowery laundry detergent. With heavy and teary eyes from yawning too much, you lie facing the ceiling, the floor a tad cold for comfort. Your mind threatens to drag you to sleep, until a weak voice breaks the silence of the night.
âAre you asleep?â
âYes,â you mumble, your eyes shut, hardly able to contemplate what youâre saying.
He laughs lightly. âI canât sleep. Talk to me.â
âNice.â
âY/N.â
âChenle,â you mutter, pulling the blanket up till it covers your chin.
âCat.â
âDolphin.â
Right now youâre starting to wake up. You lie on your side and prop the side of your head in your palm, facing him. He mirrors your position.
âI actually hate you,â you quip.
âNo you donât.â
âRight for once.â
He closes his eyes, his head drooping. You study his soft features, feeling your eyes beginning to close again. Your head hits the pillow and you pull the blanket over your shoulder. Your teeth chatter slightly, but thatâs okayâyouâre too tired to care anyway.
You wake up when the sky is still black and starless. Chenleâs scent seems to have gotten stronger. You sit up, using your elbows as support, only to see the bed empty and rumpled. Something breathes against your arm, and you almost smack yourself from pulling back too fast.
There you see Chenle curled up beside you on the ground like a foetus. His blanket is thrown over you, but itâs riding off his body, his tummy exposed to the cold. You remove his blanket from yourself and cover him up to the neck. He stirs but stays asleep, sighing with satisfaction.
âYouâre an odd one,â you whisper in the unlit room. âI donât mind it one bit.â
You mirror his position this time, dreams taking you on different adventuresâall of them with this boy who makes you feel warmer this winter.
âYou chose to sleep on the floor when you have a bed,â you say between munches of your cereal the next morning.
âI didnât choose.â Chenle dips his bread in your bowl of milk. âI fell off the bed.â
âHa ha. Remind me to laugh again later.â
Tap tap.
Jisung stands at the door. Chenle opens it to reveal him clad in a sweater, coat and fuzzy pants with matching shoes.
âPfft, what are you wearing?â you joke. You spoon some cereal into your mouth.
âYes good morning and thanks for inviting me to the sleepover,â Jisung says, throwing his bag on the floor and plopping himself down on the high stool opposite you.
Chenle returns to the stool to your left. He pulls his bread apart and waves a piece at Jisung. âYou turned us down!â
âOh right. Because you two are boring.â
âAnd somehow you like hanging out with us?â you say with amusement.
âWhatever,â Jisung says. âSo⌠are the two of you a thing now?â
Chenle splutters on his juice, orange liquid flying out his mouth. You feel the heat on your face even though the cold air that followed Jisung in is still lingering in the kitchen.
âAre you okay?â Jisung laughs, slapping him on the back.
You rub your temples. âItâs too early for this.â
âI thought you talked things through last night.â
âJust shut up, Jisung. Eat your cereal,â Chenle rebukes. He hops off the stool to go wash his mouth at the sink. Jisung shakes his head in disappointment.
can you come out now? reads Chenleâs text at 12 in the morning.
You compose a new message. I donât plan on getting murdered by either one of my parents tonight
please
omg fine. why are you here so late
i just wanted to see you
Your heart leaps in your chest. ok chenle.
You drape your woollen blanket around you and lift your window up, feeling like those furtive teenagers in movies. An icy gust of wind slaps your cheeks, but the coldness dissipates when you see Chenle stomping on the crunchy ice on the gravel path outside, his hands shoved deep into his coat pocket.
âYou okay?â you say after jumping from your window sill (cautiously).
âCan I ask you a question?â he says with foggy breath.
âYeah. I mean weâre already here.â
He closes his eyes and gulps. âCan I kiss you?â
âChenleâŚâ
He blocks your view by putting his hand before your eyes. âDonât look at me. Iâm embarrassed.â
You grab his arm with your shaky one and pull him towards you. Heâs so close your cloudy breaths mingle. Itâs a test to see who makes the first move.
He does.
And your lips feel like itâs on fire.
He really is an odd one, but you donât mind it one bit.
You fall asleep with pink cheeks that night and the feeling of Chenleâs hand at the back of your neck, spreading warmth throughout your body.
Hey loser. I kissed him. Youâre starting off bold tonight. You couldnât care less.
In a split second, your reply comes. Really?
Yes, really.
How was it?
It was⌠I donât know.
Like you were going to melt? Like you were floating with the clouds?
Yes. Very much.
I felt like that too.
You think of the winter spice jelly sitting in the fridge, knowing completely how it feels. Because youâre just as stiff as it is.
You refuse to analyse the words. Ohh, you kissed her too?
I did. I went to her house 30 minutes before it turned 12. Stood outside considering if I should just go home and keep my feelings bottled up forever, or put our friendship at risk by doing it.
You feel like tearing up. I think you did the right thing.
Me too.
You search for the hazelnut hair boy in the crowded hall. Itâs been tougher as almost everyone has that same hair colour. Mark and Donghyuck are chaffing each other; a group of juniorsâRenjun, Jeno and Jaeminâenters the hall, chatting incessantly. Pretty much a common sight to see.
A hand rests on your shoulder from behind.
âI know I know,â Chenle grins. âYou werenât looking for me.â
âYou knew?â you ask. Both of you move to a less packed area.
He nods. âBut it was after I told you about the blog.â
âWhy didnât you say something?â
âI thought you were smart enough to figure it out.â
You scoff, but a smile forces its way onto your face.
âI guess Iâm smarter than you in some way,â he adds, punching you lightly on the biceps.
âGuys!â Jisung bounces towards you and Chenle. He eyes you suspiciously, before moving his attention to Chenle. âSo⌠Are you two a thing now?â
You exchange glances with Chenle.
âShut up, Jisung.â
Jisung doesnât get an actual answer, but youâre sure he knows when he laughs with you and Chenle.
âI canât believe you have a blog filled with your feelings about me,â you tease. âHow cheesy.â
âCan we not talk about that now?â Chenle groans, covering his face with his hands. âYou said it was cute.â
âIt is.â
âIâll just delete it later and stop liking you.â
You reach for his hands, fisting and trapping them in your palms. âNo. I need to read it when you start losing feelings for me.â
âThen I guess you wonât be reading it at all.â
You and Chenle walk under the jet black sky side by side, enjoying the windâs whispers. His tickles your palm with his pinky and says, âI have more stuff I want to say to you.â
âGo ahead.â
âYouâll have to wait for the 11th.â
You realise your wish came true even before you made it.
a/n: hey!! you made it to the end! for this i want to say thank you once again and i hope you enjoyed this. low-key found the part where renjun threw trash across the campsite funny LOL
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