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cuyahogafalls-ohio · 2 months
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I used up all my good mood and happy and not angsty and pissy on work and now I'm alone in front of the TV feeling Bad and shitty and like no one likes me and they shouldn't anyway ugh
I'll feel better in the morning plus I'm at the fancy steakhouse tomorrow instead of my stupid cafe/sportsbar/diner/fine dining/fuckit let's just make it everything venue which should be less stressful
But right now fuck everything including myself
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rabidravi · 6 years
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God's Angel🙏👼 (Taemin Scenario)
A/N: uhhh well this was a joke I wrote specifically for a friend a timeee ago and since this blog is where I post all my shit posts I thought why not unleash this mess for the whole world. I think it is quite needed in these circumstances to bring spirits up, make you question life or just have a laugh over stupid content or something iDK JKDSF. IT’S STUPID AND IT WAS JOKES BETWEEN FRIENDS AND I WROTE THIS IN LIKE HALF AN HOUR SO HJVJ. I edited it so it’s A BIT enhanced from the original which was a straight draft so ye editing WAS NEEDED to some extent
It was just your average ordinary day; the sun was shining; the birds were chirping; a truly beautiful day. You couldn't possibly imagine that things could get any better. Since it was such a nice day you figured you walk along what looked like a peaceful, flowery road instead of your usual boring route home from school. It was as if the road possessed you to travel down it as you traveled forward, giving not a second looking back. The further you walked, the darker the path grew with each and every step forward you took.
"My family didn't raise no chicken on our farm. _____, you can do this," you assured yourself as you carried on.
You trudged ahead, eventually reaching a part of the path that was covered in mud which you began to struggle through. Each lifted foot equaled a sink lower into the mud. You began to panic.
"Please God, don't let me die like this. I have yet to see my mans in real life yet."
At that moment, a burst of light shone in your view, it was too bright to catch a glimpse of what was happening. Only seconds later the light cleared and your feet were left feeling lighter and free. When you opened your eyes and looked down at your feet, you noticed the mud that seconds before you were surrounded by was no longer there.
"What the hell..."
"You're welcome."
Your head shot up at the sound of the familiar voice.
"T-TAEMIN?"
"Hello ____!" He was bright, not only because he was wearing bright yellow colors or because of his attitude but because his skin glowed. It was hard to look at him. He couldn’t have been real.
"Now before you ask, I am here because God summoned me. And I’ll admit I was hesitant to come because I was in the middle of watching anime but you know how God is, so demanding."
You looked up at the sky and mouthed, "Thank you."
Taemin burst out laughing. "Wow bitch you bout’ gullible as hell!"
"But then why are you here?"
"I was just bored wandering around when I heard a voice interrupt my peace of thought. Yeah yours. Talking about chickens and whatnot."
"Ok but what about the mud...where did it go?"
"I swished it away to save your dumb ass. Again, you're welcome."
"YOU HAVE POWERS? THATS SO COOL. I ALWAYS KNEW YOU WERE A GOD."
"What you so loud for? Jeez. Keep quiet or I'm gonna make the mud reappear. Sooo you're my fan? Do you have a fan account? Because you seem like a person who would. Lemme see your phone."
All Taemin had to do was lift his hand for your phone to come flying over to it like a magnet. He smirked at your lock screen of him before unlocking it with his magic hands. You didn't bother to comment to avoid getting blasted by Taemin again.
"Your tweets are funny."
You blushed at his words. He continued to scroll through your page for a solid minute until he suddenly stopped. He stared blankly at your phone without saying a word.
"Is something wrong? OMG PLEASE DONT TELL ME YOU'RE LOOKING THROUGH MY DMS."
"Hakyeon. From VIXX? You ult him?"
"....yes...? Is there a problem?"
"I THOUGHT I WAS YOUR ONE AND ONLY. YOU TRAITOR!"
"TAEMIN I LOVE YOU DON'T BE RIDICULOUS."
"IF YOU LOVE ME THEN WHY IS HE YOUR PROFILE PIC AND NOT ME?"
"I CAN LOVE MORE THAN ONE PERSON AT A TIME WHY YOU ON MY DICK."
"IM NOT ON YOUR DICK BUT YOU SHOULD BE ON MINE, AND MINE ONLY."
"Um. Okay. I mean. If you want me to."
"YES I WANT YOU TO."
"Like literally right here? Right now?"
"DO I HAVE TO SPELL IT OUT FOR YOU?"
So you did as he pleased. You were down on your knees, ready to show him your loyalty, when Taemin suddenly grabbed you by your hair.
"You think I'd let a snake like you have a taste of me? Think again."
He covered your eyes with his other hand and with a poof, you fainted.
You woke up with the inability to feel your legs. As you slowly blinked your eyes open, your view was lower than before. It pained you to lift your head and when you tried to pull yourself up, you couldn't at all.
"Loving the new look! You're looking more like yourself which is great!"
"Taemin, what did you do to me?" you stuttered.
"Well since you want to be a snake, I made you one. Does it feel good to finally be your true form? No need to thank me this time, it was my pleasure. Now if you'll excuse me, I have some anime to watch. Toodles!"
And so you were left there. Alone. Luckily, he left your phone on the floor. You slithered to it in hopes of getting help but with no hands and just a tongue, it was no use.
"All this just cause of another man...men are really trash."
"You sssaid it sssisss," a long bodied snake agreed, its voice sounding too familiar.
"...Hakyeon?"
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uniformbravo · 7 years
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ramblin abt my ocs (a lot)
i think im starting to care abt my ocs again, which is good bc it seems like every time i go hard in a fandom for a while i get extremely apathetic abt my own characters (bc the ones im obsessed w/ at the time seem to outshine them in every conceivable way and make them look painfully boring in comparison), so im glad the current wave of those feelings is finally starting to wear off bc god
anyway i’ve been thinking about some old ocs lately (like from when i was 13/14) and i wanted to look into them some more so i pulled out the notebook that had their story, which was coincidentally the one that silan & sythra are originally from and wow it turns out there was actually a legit explanation for their alternate eye colors?? 
i know i’ve gone back to find this story before too (quite recently actually) so idk why i didn’t already know this, i think i literally just keep forgetting every time fkdfksjd
tbh it’s probably because it doesn’t apply anymore because ok their original story had a whole cast of characters with super powers (i’ve talked abt it a little before), and originally their Thing was that they could read each other’s minds, which is kind of still how they work now but the other thing they could do was share their literal sight? here’s the actual description from the story
If they are apart, they can do something called sight division, where they can choose to see what the other is seeing. It’s like because their eyes are opposite colors, they can match their missing eye with the other’s and share the sight.
like it makes sense and it’s a pretty cool idea tbh? and idk how i forgot about it but somewhere down the line their psychic relationship developed past the point of something like sight division even being necessary, like
in may 16th, the story i transferred them to after this, the link’s concept changed from simply being able to read each other’s minds to being a constant connection between them- it’s not a conscious decision they make to “read” what the other is thinking, they’re just always there in each other’s heads, aware of what is happening with the other person at all times 
but even then the story would often have them mentally speaking full sentences to each other as a means of communication, whereas now it’s evolved even further past that; the current idea is that they are two separate entities that share the same mind space, constantly influencing and being influenced by each other’s thoughts, feelings, natures and personalities to the point that the line between the two of them distinguishing who’s who would be more accurately described as a gradient
so the concept of “sight division” has been rendered completely obsolete at this point because why would they need to share their sight when they literally know exactly what is happening with the other person at every waking moment of their connected lives
the reason for their eye colors became merely symbolic at some point between the original story and may 16th (i probably just forgot about the sight division & didn’t ever go back to check tbh) and the idea i’ve had ever since was that it was just a physical manifestation of their mental link; sythra’s eyes are originally blue and silan’s are originally brown, but because of the connection it’s like they have a little piece of each other within them, ergo the switching of their left eyes
that’s the explanation i’ve been using this whole time & i thought that’s how it always was, so reading the original concept kind of blew my mind & made me a little sad that i can’t use it anymore bc honestly??? good post op
anyway i rly want to do more with silan & sythra bc i feel like they have a lot of potential and i’ve had some cool ideas for them in the past, so maybe i’ll develop those more hmmm
i think i’d have to migrate them into another story separate from may 16th to really explore them, though. which is kind of a scary thought because may 16th is my baby, but. i think that time in my life has passed and it’s time to do something Bigger with these characters, because at this point they deserve so much more than Shitty High School Romance In Which Sythra Is Pretty Much Shoved To The Side To Make Room For The Main Relationship Plotline Where The Most Mediocre Dude Ever Shows Up & Steals Silan’s Heart By Being A Complete Dick To Him Wow (But Like, A Handsome Dick)
and ok that’s being a little harsh because that’s only the original draft- i’ve been salvaging it & rearranging it to make it leagues better, but the thing is, in the process i’ve only come to realize that it needs to become something bigger; my ideas are evolving it past that original high school romance setting, and while that setting will always hold a special place in my heart, i want to let this story and these characters breathe and grow to their full potential instead of caging them with nostalgia, you know? i think i’ll remember may 16th as the high school romance au, that is how it will live on in my heart
god i dont even know what i would do with chris in a new story though?? he is Truly the most mediocre and the only reason he was a prominent character in may 16th was because of his relationship with silan; if we’re gonna take that relationship away though then what is he even here for. his motivations include 1. Playing Sport and 2. Ignoring Every Emotion Especially The Gay Ones like god what an uninspired character what am i supposed to do with him. i mean i have been working on him lately but deep down i really do think he’s a boring character and i probably care about him the least out of all my main ocs hgjdgkdjksdg I FEEL BAD BUT
literally the only thing that has ever made him interesting to me is his relationship with silan like he has a fun dynamic with him and pretty decent development as a result of his interaction with him but as soon as he’s on his own he’s just sUch a boring character im snoring i need to fix chris somebody save him (read: me)
that’s the big problem here, i think. if im going to transfer these characters into a new story that’ll focus primarily on silan and sythra (or at least a lot more than may 16th did), chris would just be a huge distraction like he was in may 16th; if silan is what makes him interesting then he’ll just end up immediately latching onto silan and stealing the focus away from sythra bc chris only exists to be with silan, right. so the options im looking at here are 
omit chris completely because he’d just be an unnecessary dead weight on the story or
find another purpose for him, give him new depth that doesn’t conform to a romance, reinvent him as a compelling standalone character who could fit right into any given setting- discover what defines him and build on it until he feels like he could be his own protagonist
....obviously one of these requires a lot more energy & dedication but. i cant just abandon my boy. my dumbass mediocre af shit boy
aaaaaanyway i’ve definitely gone on for way too long Oops i didnt mean to shit on chris for so many paragraphs hghdghsdgdj but im kinda glad i did bc that was smth i really needed to admit & come to that conclusion so That’s Cool. if anything u at least got to see a bit of what my brainstorming documents usually look like (theyre a mess)
but uhh ya Cool Glad We Could Have This Talk
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survivethearctic · 7 years
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SAM’S JURY SPEECH
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I think with this game constantly going to rocks and changing targets the majority was ever changing. What did you do to keep yourself in the loop and part of that changing majority?
And in case that's not enough, give everyone on the jury a genuine compliment (and I mean genuine not just "icon, Queen omg").
Roxy’s Response: Hey sam :) I know you probably aren’t considering voting for me and you have your winner clear in your mind but I’d like you to at least consider my game.  The thing about my game is: I didn’t really need to stay in the loop to survive. And when i did i was in the loop. The moment i became in the loop was the day i started tryna get you out and jay went out instead. how was i in the loop? i had carson as a loyal ally to tell me things like how nicholas voted with us and not pippa. I was aware who was close to who. nicholas x carson  sam  x pippa sam x nicholas ( a bit)  sarah —> sam but sam still wanted her out lmfao mostly cause of pippa i feel.  
Before i didn’t really need it. I didn’t need to vote in majorities.  If i needed it i would’ve been out long ago! but I’m in f3. I was aware when i needed to be. I was utr when i didn’t need to play it up and overplay!   Why did i need to be part of rocks knowledge? lol rocks are dumb they are risky! you can loose your closest allies! the goat can leave ur f2 can leave. Why on earth would i wanna be part of a rocks pact?  The only time i was aware of rocks was the day jay left. Getting you out was something i thought was important so i decided to risk it going to rocks to try getting you out. There was no logic to keeping you in. you were part of a side i wasn’t part of. we barley talked and when we did it was made clear we didn’t see eye to eye.  before that vote. i didn’t need any of it! i was aware pre merge through shea  and through my alliance  with sarah and kjay and i was aware of darain’s targets (lol he was super vocal about them) and when it was time to stop being utr, the day my meat shield got voted out, that was the day i became aware. carson came to me and suggested to vote sarah out. she was my ally she was in an alliance with shea and i. I led votes on the  game’s threat or  at least the game’s threat’s ally (pip is the threat). Pip told me she voted  you. through carson and sarah i learnt that it was nicholas who voted with us. more from carson. now lets think about that fact. I learnt more about the game from the guy i allied the day before than from the girl i was allied with since day 1? i was able to form a bond with someone and make myself seem  trustworthy enough to  depend on and to share information with after only 1 day of talking?!?!  now who says i got no social!!  When votes started flipping on carson i knew  but i vote with carson 1. to stay loyal and 2.  in hopes there was any chance of saving him.  even though he was gone i was still law aware. everyone’s  targets were clear in my eyes.  when i wanted you out over pip  cause i knew you were better at challenges and pip deserved at least 4th place and sarah wasn’t up for that? i was informed about it by nicholas. when i didn’t need info i didn’t need it.  i didn’t search for it. when i did need it it came to me and fell on my lap! i didn’t even ask for the  information! ppl just came to me! lmfao.
rob: I talk to you now  and you are geunanley super fun to talk to. You are smart and fun and I’m sad we never got the chance to work with in this game. I hope to become close to you cause i see a best friend in the making. 
Jay: you are chilled cool dude. loyal to your allies and admirable for your sacrifice for sam. You are fun to talk to and you were fun to be hosted by. You seemed to have a  solid game with solid allies. unfortunatley i wasn’t in the position to be one of them since we started the game in starkly different situations.
Julia: you are honestly so beautiful. not looks bu personality. Yo usay what is on your mind and you don’t take shit. i admire you and the moments we genunaley talked were the highlights of my game. Being your fight buddy was fun. being your ally was fun. I enjoyed sharing the same name with you although julia isn’t my real name lmfao.
Carson: oh god mate where to begin. I owe you so much. Im so glad we made up from wonderland. In wonderland i was too stubborn and only saw one target on my mind. i wasn’t foexible enough to let myself work with those from the other tribe because i feared the numbers and the premades. Im so gal dee were able to work if even for one tribal in this game. You were edu not talk to and a great ally while it lasted! You were the kick i needed in this game and I’m happy to finally be able to call you my ally in a way i wasn’t able to in wonderland! 
Stevie: I honestly don’t really know you. I can’t praise you with false praises when idk what makes you you. I hope to change that going forward since we are in a new game together. I hope to see what your allies saw in you and why people wanted to keep you around as long as they did :)
Shea: seriously. no words describe what you mean to me. you are my no 1 since arabia. you fought through many orgs with me and i can’t than your loyalty enough. Its not meta our friendship. every game you are a blast to talk to. seeing you get further and further each game excites me. slapingthe haters is my hobby. You are beautiful boy and I’m so glad to have met you. You are gonan win a game one day because you deserve it. You will probably even win one before me! I hope that even after our org passions die we can remain close!! Take care of yourself and find something irl that makes you happy <3 l u 
ryan: From the few convos we had i really enjoyed em. you say lol like me which is iconic . I didn’t really get to know you too well. We didm really get to be too deep of allies. But you seem like a great person.
Pip: honestly i really enjoy your company. when we talk i have fun. I enjoyed our time together when it lasted. even when we weren’t on the same side you were fun to talk to and you  were amazing to watch. you slayed so bad and i admire you so much.  we tend not to talk much pre merge and start of games based on the past games with played. idk why we didn’t  get too into each other at the start. it was osorta awkward at first but as we got deeper into the game it was easier to talk with you.  and i feel like i got to know you a bit! hope to get to know you as a person more  though because still have a lot to learn from you!!
sam:  The few times we talked you seem super kind. You were kind and bright and intelligent. You had a way with people and you were able to have peole so loyal to you they risked rocks for you.  because of this i tired to talk with you but we never were able to see eye to eye and I’m sorry that the game’s scenario’s didn’t allow us to be closer. We started off on diff tribes. random.org even put you at the bottom of my favs list during the first swap lmfao and yet you still managed to be in the most liked group. says something about you as a person :P I’ll pray for another game with you and this time we might have scenarios where we can depend on each other! id love to see how that feels :)
Sarah’s Response: Heres the thing. I knew there were people in this game that would always be the first to throw out a name. I knew who they would tell, and I always made sure I was close with the people surrounding me. It has been proven on multiple occasions that Pippa decided the vote. She was always the first to throw out a name, and we always did a recourse of that. Either going with her, or going against her. For the majority of the time up until the Jay vote it was with her. Vs after that when I really started to go against what she was saying. Its always good to just keep your enemies close, which is exactly what I did for the majority of merge. While Pippa was calling the shots and painting a target on her back. I kinda just sat back and made moves to counteract that when needed be.
Here are some compliments coming your way so watch out http://i0.kym-cdn.com/entries/icons/original/000/021/971/saltybae.PNG
Rob: For someone of your age, you play these games exceptionally well. You always give me a run for my money and I can tell you have so much drive and passion for these games and you are always improving with every game you play.
Stevie: I always have a blast working with you in these games and getting to know you more and more. TB TO WHEN YOU U WERE THE ONLY ONE THAT DRAFTED ME IN R&R!! MY ONLY TRU SUPPORTER Never forget as well, that you are a true cutie pie.
Ryan: I have said this in my ROP but for someone who played his first game you did SO WELL! Honestly you did better than me in my first game and I am so proud of you. You were loyal (which I totally appreciate and respect) and you went down swinging! Good job man! :~) [3/14/17, 3:07:52 PM] Sarah: Julia: Ive played bangladesh with you, ive played this game, and india. Honestly I love playing with you sometimes more than I like playing with Ned. You are super loyal and are extremley hilarious. We just connect super well and you're just one of my favourite people in this community. p.s next time you get drunk on a call with me and karen PLEASE LEARN TO GET OFF AND NOT COCK BLOCK ME BINCH (is this going in a text post? oh well idc) :~)
Jay: I said this in my ROP but I am so glad I met you! Youre someone I def love in this community because you seem like a standup, genuine guy. Youre funny to talk to and you and I just mesh so well together.
Carson: Your motivation is ridiclous. When something knocks you down you get up, dust yourself off and punch back ten times as harder. I appreciate and respect people like that. I really do. I'm susprised you're not sitting in ftc rn thats how motivated you are.
Shea: YOU ARE THE SWEETEST PERSON I HAVE EVER MET. I am not kidding. Youre always happy and even when you're not, you still give off that vibe. I legit was so gravitated towards you and your personality throughout the game I was like!?!? omg. Seriously youre a cutie. Oh hot damn
Pippa: Hi pips, youre such a strong player that it scares me. You had the physical and social and strategic down pat in this game. So much so that I felt intrigued but mildly threatned. Pls take it as a compliment because not a lot of people threaten me. Strong strategic girls are my kink truly and if  our roles were reversed I would have had a hard time not voting for you to win. I honestly think youre gr8 af
Sam: You said not to call people queens, but honestly.....you and I both know you are one. Whenever you and I play a game together were either facing off against eachother or working together and its fun to have the push and pull in our friendship. You are so smart and strategic that I legit want to copy some of your moves from previous games, thats how much I look up to you. Seriously you amaze me with how youre always able to make it to the top. UHM HELLO I ALMOST FORGOT TO MENTION how GORGEOUS you are
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