a taakitz commission done recently for a friend on twitter

what if they were an ultimate frisbee team

Aaaand they're finally done! Now I can mo—

Wait—

Gawd

Damit

happy disabled pets day from this problem child

I really appreciate the "secretly writes self-indulgent-but-not-necessarily-sexy Reader x Goldmask fanfic in his spare time" vibe that Brother Corhyn brings to the (Round)table (Hold).

For now, the kind-hearted Sethys is happy he was able to reunite the two, apparently forgetting that they are all characters in a Fromsoft game and that one thing one really never wants to do in a Fromsoft game is meet one's heroes.

Went to a 1920s themed murder mystery party for my friends 30th birthday!

I had fun dressing up and vaguely attempting to play a character

I am a little disappointed in myself because he had a cool photo drop set up and I didn’t get a photo. I asked my BFF is he wanted one and he said he didn’t care, and instead of saying that I would like one (to which he almost certainly would’ve come and taken one with me) I just said okay. And know I don’t have a photo because I didn’t ask for one.

But I did have lots of fun putting the fringe on sequin dress to turn it into a flapper dress. And I got to drink more of my sparkly purple cocktail left over from my birthday which was great.

And then the next morning me and the boy went to see the little mermaid 😊 he had no interest in the movie but went because I wanted to see it. It was my favorite movie as a kid so it fun to relive the nostalgia and overall it was v cute, but I think I prefer the animated version. It was fun that they had new songs but they just weren’t as good as the originals. And flounder was quite frankly horrifying. But I still had a good time and I enjoyed the mermaids and all the scenes where they were exploring the island were really fun and delightful.

But then on the car ride back it was just really quite and when I would ask him things I would just get short or even one word answers and he wouldn’t ask me anything in return and just felt like trying to talk to a brick wall and it made me so sad. And then he collected his stuff my house and left and like as soon as I closed I burst into sobs. And just like full on cried for several minutes. And then found my self looking into trying to change my Japan flight, but I bought an un changeable flight so there’s nothing to do there. Because I was convinced that being that sad over nothing had to mean it was a sign that the relationship was over and completely doomed and that it was a sign that he no longer liked me.

And then several hours later I felt better about everything and back to day dreaming about how we’re going to be together. It’s so strange. Objectively everything is fine with the relationship. We hang out a couple of times a week, he’s super considerate and generally a really good boy friend, I still think he’s super attractive, wee still mostly have a good time together. It’s just sometimes a little quite. And he does leave the toilet seat up. But that’s it. That’s the list of complaints. But have had this nagging feeling sometimes that he likes me in spite of all of quirks (like he finds all the purple and glitter annoying instead of endearing) and not because of them. Like maybe maybe I’m just the hottest person he could get to date him so he’s settling for me. It doesn’t help that last fall I lost like ten pounds so when we started dating in January I was the smallest I’ve been in a while, and now I’ve very slowly gained back maybe three ish pounds. Which like in the grand scheme of things is nothing, but you can’t logic with insecurities.

Or maybe he’s just been super tired lately and I need to supportive and do more for him instead of him always doing things for me (he doesn’t legitamently Plan most of our dates, admittedly partly because he just cares way more about food places than I do). And that I should generally stop freaking out about nothing. But also if like half of our interactions make me cry that’s not a sign that things are working. Even if I can’t pinpoint exactly what, it’s not a good way to be.

Anyway the party was fun!

Would it... would it be too much to name my dog fuffy?

the other stupid thing I've been bummed about is I've been hanging out with two of my best friends from high school every once in a while but it just feels like the onus is on me to plan everything if i want to be involved and to come up with fun affordable stuff to do. and they're closer to each other than me which is fine and has nearly always been true and like I love and respect it but it just made me sad when we were all at the state fair yesterday and it felt like i didn't even need to be there most of the time like they were enjoying nearly everything just together and i was just. there. and yet it's my role to figure out what we're doing and who is hungry for what and when we're all done and like even when we talk about what to do next it's just my ideas and half the time one of them doesn't even respond which makes me sad and it's like . Ok. I'm so much less lonely than I was a year ago and i have other friends I care about and see on my weekends too it's just like. We've been friends for so long. And I've really never felt so left out with them as I do now :(

GUESS WHO'S BACK BITCHES!!!! >:D

Lake day!

do you think if i started talking about how all the people who had unrequited crushes on me were creepy as hell in front of one of those guys he’d get the hint or hed go “i had a crush on you and im not creepy!”

captain marvel’s been hit by a truth serum \ ✧ / accepting anonymous sent: “If you could date an Avenger, which one would you pick?”

“I…” 

Goddamn it.

“Would pick Steve.”

I have now accumulated two stress balls, a fidget spinner, three water bottles, a frisbee, a pet rock, at least two pens, three stickers, five shirts, and a plastic cup as free items from my college 

today was such a day (negative, mostly)

NABLA FLOATING AROUND

gym outside is so weird because when a ball or frisbee goes over the fence someone has to hop it to go find it but over the fence is literally my backyard