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telomeke · 6 months

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Current Tag Game

Tagged by @colourme-feral in this post – thanks dearie! 💖

Current time: 9:59am (when I started this! it's now much later but I'm not gonna re-write...).

Current activity: Had a work deadline last night so tidying up the aftermath (deleting unwanted files, etc.).

Currently thinking about: How the project submission for work went. Annoyed that I skipped gym this morning just in case there were last minute changes to the project submission and we'd have to re-submit today; but now that's not needed I'm missing legs day. Also thinking about munching on something extra because breakfast was too light (hardboiled eggs, grapes and blueberries – all originally meant as a post-swim snack, re-purposed to become breakfast since gym was canceled). Maybe fry up an omelet and sausages, or grill some salmon? 😋 Or shall I just munch on some creamy Whittaker's milk chocolate since lunch will be soon and anything heavier might spoil it? 🤔

Current favorite song: I don't know if they qualify as favorites, but songs will enter my brainspace and then swirl around in there for a while, refusing to leave. So I'm constantly listening to them (on YouTube, not Spotify; don't have a smartphone) and/or singing along in an effort to exorcise the earworm. At the moment the playlist in my head is:

I Don't Think That I Like Her Anymore (Charlie Puth) Charlie constantly amazes me with his superhuman ability to churn out catchy melodic turns and unusual aural takes on percussion sounds for his backing rhythms (e.g., the light switch in Light Switch). This song continues with his quirky stylings, and I'm loving the pounding bass coming in to frame the heavyweight sock-it-ta-ya message of the song's chorus after the light plaintive vocals of the introductory and intervening verses. The second (melodic) line of the chorus ("Cause they're all the same") is so simple and yet so perfectly fitting after the bold hook of the first line – I find myself asking each time I hear it how could anything else ever fit better? And then it builds and builds to a big finish, at the end of each chorus and also at the end of the song – that key change from B Major to C# Major is quite a genius step, retro yet so fresh. (But still... C sharp? 👀 OK if your electronic thingamajig can auto-transpose but hell on a trad keyboard.) I know this song is from a year ago but I'm not simply wallowing in nostalgia (oh all right, so yes I am a bit) – there is nonetheless a BL connection that first got me hooked on this. The cast of my current fave I Feel You Linger in the Air did their own take on the TikTok Kpop dance challenge of this song (linked here, with other TikToks here) and they're just so cute dancing along. Nonkul attempts a little elbow jab in homage to the original choreo, while Bright gives up after a couple of bars and just goes on doing alternating wrist twirls like those you sometimes see in Southeast Asian dance… 🤣 Alee and Tian seem like they're having fun, as does Attila, but who knew Khun Robert could actually look this good, all goofy and charming when he smiles doing a silly little jig?

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All I Want for Christmas is You (Mariah Carey) Ever since Ms. Mariah broke her icy containment after Halloween (see this video here 😂) I've been singing along, getting in the mood for carols, fruitcake and Christmas decorations because it reminds me of time spent with (departed) family. Happy because those are happy times worth recalling, but also bittersweet because those loved ones are no longer around.

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One of Your Girls (Troye Sivan) While I tend to feel a pinch of resentment whenever Aussies of European origin seem to get opportunities in the West more easily than non-white people do, I have to remind myself it's the system and not the talent that is at fault. So credit where credit is due and I'm a fan of what Troye has done with this and his earlier releases (like his video with PP Krit 😃😍). One of Your Girls is just so beautiful and languid as it teases with its message, and consistently Troye is breathtakingly beautiful and languid in the video, teasing us with an offering of the forbidden. I'm feeling things I never thought I would. 😮 The choreography is pretty daring too. (Especially that crotch flare – where did they tuck the dangly bits? I'm wincing as I watch.) Also shout-out to all the different representation with the models. 😍

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Then I'm Gonna Give You Up (Rick Astley) This is Rick Astley spoofing Rick Astley (more explanation linked here) and just so funny. Especially since the original song is already iconic on Tumblr.

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Fast Car (Luke Combs) Another nostalgia trip, this is an absolutely stellar rendition of the already phenomenal original by Tracy Chapman. Almost like Marc Cohn's Walking in Memphis with its sense of urgency and of bottled emotions about to explode, maybe just a shade less of Marc's full-throated growl in Luke's voice, but earthshaking nonetheless. In these 21st century times (and in my corner of the world where BL and queer rep cross my dash all the time) I love that Luke (a married man with a wife and two kids, looking for all we know like the straightest of the hets) didn't change Tracy's line "So I work in the market as a checkout girl", paying homage to the original and smashing at the gender-obsessives everywhere in a quietly powerful way.

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Currently reading: My language study textbooks; not much time for anything else though I do miss having a good work of fiction to keep me company whenever the slate of Thai drama dips in quality.

Currently watching: I Feel You Linger in the Air – a really impressive work, solidly-grounded in its universe with overhanging familial, social and political intrigue that threatens to overshadow (but never really does) the chemistry between Khun Yai and Jom.

I've fallen in hard love with this and just hope that Tee Bundit will display the wisdom associated with his name (for those as linguistically-obsessed as I am, Bundit is the homologue for pundit in English, pandit in Hindi and pendita in Malay) and wrap up the finale with more finesse than he has done on his other shows. (Something tells me though that the sense of foreboding you get while watching IFYLITA is partly due to the dread that Tee is going to rush and stumble through the last bits, leaving viewers less than satisfied with the ending like he did with Lovely Writer, Hidden Agenda and Step by Step.) However this goes, I'm a new fan of Nonkul and Bright's acting, and can't wait to see more of them.

As to what else I'm watching – I'm still trying to finish Only Friends, if only to be able to say that I've finally watched a Jojo show all the way to the end. It's not for me, though it has some moments that shine (like Neo's performance, and all the shirtless scenes) but I struggle to find anything that satisfies on a more cerebral level. I'm not opposed to sensuality and messy drama being foregrounded over more intellectual underpinnings (all hail KinnPorsche) but for me it doesn't go earthy and raw enough to make up for whatever else it doesn't do.

Current favorite character: Pat and Pran from Bad Buddy will always be on this list, but because I'm currently enjoying IFYLITA I'm sure I've been visited by Por Jom, Khun Yai, Khun Ueangphueng, Ba Prik, Ming and Khun James in my dreams lately (and also a certain racing piglet 🤣).

Current WIP: All in my head, but I have a final wrap-up post on Bad Buddy locations percolating, as well as one on the graphics in the show (that give us hints of Pat and Pran's interior worlds).

Tagging names I've seen more than once cross my dash and/or notes:

@neuroticbookworm @airenyah @alexis-mika @belladonna-and-the-sweetpeas @wen-kexing-apologist @twig-tea @pandasmagorica @respectthepetty @dribs-and-drabbles @waitmyturtles @dimplesandfierceeyes @writerwithoutsound @bengiyo @grapejuicegay @lamonnaie @lurkingshan @callipigio @italianpersonwithashippersheart @recentadultburnout @kattahj @theheightofdishonor @fiddlepickdouglas @dc-alves @brazilian-whalien52 @slayerkitty @silvercrystal1 @dudeyuri @ranchthoughts @suni-san @chawarin-panich @lurkingteapot @solitaryandwandering

and anyone else who'd like to play. 😍 Apologies if you've already been tagged; point me to your post if so! And apologies if I've forgotten to mention anyone; if I follow or if you follow me please know you are loved and do play along if you wish! 💖

Also a special tag carved out for the lovely @visualtaehyun as a part-apology; you've tagged me before on a couple of other games and I wrote out about half of my replies – but then work deadlines became urgent and got in the way. Ruefully I had to abandon those posts (especially since they're now weeks out of date). So this is my way of saying thanks for tagging me on those tag games, sorry for not replying, and I hope you'll play along with this one because I love getting to know like-minded people on Tumblr! 💖

#tag game #current tag game #YouTube

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nattawinlove-andmygaytea · 1 year

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so @letsabandonthisworld (wow I love your url!!!) tagged me ☺ Thanks 💗

❥ name: Okay soooo my first name is......Cindy.... cause my dad is a crazy fangirl of Cyndi Lauper 😅 but I hate it, 🙄 the energy of it just don't match with me. Call me Cih or Stephan, which is my second name.

❥ sign: yeah I'm an Aquarius bitch 😝But I don't take signs serious..... I'm cool and kind I swear

❥ height: 164 cm

❥ time: 7:36PM

❥ birthday: february 9th

❥ fav band/artist: Band: Fall Out Boy, Palaye Royale, creeper, trash boat, Trophy Eyes,troye sivan, yungblud,BMTH,MCR,P!ATD,ATL...

❥ Fav artists: PP Krit in thailand is making great representation for the queer in his mv's.... So I'm like 😍

❥ last movie: Slumberland

❥ last show: the lasted ep of Never let me go

❥ when I created this blog: don't remember, maybe 2012

❥ what I post: Everything that brings me joy to live another day.

❥ other blogs?: Nope. It's all here, all that I liked since I created a tumblr.

❥ do I get asks?: they aren't much, but they are cherished! U hear me???

❥ followers: 132, cause I don't have the patience to block the porn bots so whatever. I feel unappreciated right now 🔥🙆🏻

❥ average hours of sleep: It depends on some facts like depression, anxiety, like 5 to 6 hours these days 😕

❥ instruments: unfortunately no.

❥ what I'm wearing: Right now? my pajamas all day all night, you know, living la vida loca...

❥ dream trip: right now it's Thailand, like Phuket and Bangkok of course.

And New York, Egypt, Tokyo.

❥ fav songs right now:

-Fever Dream by Palaye Royale

-The Loneliest by Maneskin

-Older by 5SOS

I don't know who to tag cause I think most people I know already was so 😸😽

#tag game #ask game #😅😅😅#i'm unhinged #it's the holidays anxiety/depression acting up!

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duskrelyk · 3 years

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song shuffle tag

rule: put your playlist on shuffle and tell us the first 10 songs, then tag 10 people.

i was tagged by @dangerous-button , thank you!!! he did a thing where he talked about each song, so ill try to do that too

my current playlist is only 8 songs long so to make this more interesting i did 5 songs from my playlsit from last semester and 5 from my current playlist, which is a work in progress!

hindsight (fall 2020 playlist):

1. walls - all time low

this song has a significance in that i first heard it when i was maybe 12 and it has stuck with me. the reason it's on this playlist is bc i felt the words "im gonna break down these walls", but specifically hoping that i could break down someone else's

2. home - cavetown

this song was a favorite of mine for a while, and its on this playlist bc it was still a favorite of mine at the time. a comfort song.

3. too good - troye sivan

ooooof lmao i got rejected last semester so this one made it on the list

4. i wanna get better - bleachers

in the aftermath of ~the incident~, this also made its way onto the playlist

5. iscariot - walk the moon

after a friend (cayden) got me to listen to more wlak the moon (i already knew some songs like anna sun), i found this song, and i really loved it

now for this semester! (spring 2021)

it's called "i may be depressed but at least im gay" (working title)

1. this manhattan man - the altogether

this song was my favorite song at the start of 2021, and was the first song on the playlist. the altogether is also featured in every other song on this playlist so far lol

2. ride home - ben&ben

this song has a bit of a story!! i had been trying to figure out where "im coming home to you oooooooooo" came from and i failed so many times that i took to my public snap story (which i almost never post on) to ask a bunch of people. my friend john figured it out using this app that identifies songs (i think? apparently it works with singing now) and then sent it to me and i realized i was from gaya sa pelikula/like in the movies which is one of my favorite bls/shows in general!!! highly recommend it 💜💜

3. sophie - the altogether

this song is another by the altogether! probably one of their more well known songs. it got stuck in my head for a while, so its on the playlist

4. landslide - fleetwood mac

this one is the most recent song on the playlist. it was added bc it got stuck in my jead and i started thinking about the fleetwood mac concert i went to with verse and i was feeling nostalgic

5. skyline - pp

another one of my favorite bls/shows in general is i told sunset about you. this version of the song (the chinese language one) is my favorite one, its so soft and beautiful, and i love it so much

tagging less than 10 people, and yall dont have to do it, but if you do, go for it! also if i didnt tag you and we are mutuals, feel free to say i did!

@strawberryjehan @dennysparkinlot @ritzcrackers15 @amyzingsantiago @beige @pass-me-jeez-it @sgtxam-blog @confusedpaladin

#tagging max even tho ik you dont blog bc roommate solidarity and you have to answer even if its in dms #tagged #tag game

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such-a-melt · 5 years

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➳reluctant

Pairing: Bobby x mc

Summary: you’ve convinced yourself that Bobby is too perfect to be true, and with thoughts of a single tweet fueling your paranoia, it’s hard not to be wary of the hypothetical player. (Takes place on Day 8, after the mean tweets challenge)

Warnings: a lot a bit of angst turned fluff, cheating, Bobby is sad:(

Note: REQUESTS ARE OPEN!! Bobby mentions that he’s been burned in the past but it’s never specified, so I assumed he got cheated on. And in this the mc also got cheated on in the past, cus what’s better than bonding over mutual suffering?

ps. I was listening to Blue by Troye Sivan on repeat, which makes this 100 times more emotional.

pps. thank you for all the lovely responses on my other fic! You guys really made my day and the comments encouraged me to finish this faster, so thank you again!

You didn’t think being alone with Bobby would ever feel like a punishment.

And yet you found yourself sitting across from him, a heavy silence hanging over the two of you. The heated water of the jacuzzi lapped across your skin, bubbles dancing across your legs before rising to the surface in a flurry of air. A sweet fizz invaded your tastebuds as you downed your glass of champagne, and from the corner of your eyes you saw Bobby enjoy his own glass, only more leisurely than you had. The two of you were meant to be bonding, relishing in the reward of winning the afternoons challenge, but you couldn’t bring yourself to start a conversation.

‘Calling it now, Bobby is the biggest player on this year’s Love Island.’

Every thought you had centred around the one phrase that managed to flip your world upside-down. Okay, maybe not your whole world, but it still stung. Your mind seemed to be mocking you in a masochistic melody, ‘he’s a player! he’s a player!’; the cruel voice sung out.

You knew you shouldn’t trust a random tweet from a random person online. It was so stupid. Not only that, but the tweet said ‘calling it’, so nothing had actually happened. ‘Yet,’ your paranoia replied.

But what if? What if this random person happened to have an intuition so strong they could tell he was playing you from a single glance? Doubt filled you to the brim, clogging your throat, clouding your common sense, sealing your mouth shut. You recognised these strong emotions, but you didn’t think you’d feel them around Bobby, at least not so soon. You felt like you were drowning in a sea of your own feelings, your life line waiting for you just out of your reach, but all you could do was drown.

“What’s on your mind?” Bobby asks, effectively snapping you out of your thoughts. You looked up at him with a shy smile, almost guilty for the thoughts that seemed to take your mind over. He had no fault in this, really. He had been completely loyal, even when he was picked by Priya; one of the most stunning women you had seen, may you add.

“Just the challenge, I guess,” you responded, leaving out your less than stellar thoughts about his intentions, “it gave a lot to think about, didn’t it?”

Bobby hummed in agreement, “it gave me an idea of what the public thinks of us. It’s weird, you kind of forget about all the cameras in here, but now I’m suddenly aware of them again. Especially after that tweet about Hope and Noah.”

You scoffed, pouring yourself another glass of champagne, “I mean I was surprised at first, but after thinking about it for a while...”

Bobby gave you a look of disbelief, but if the smirk on his lips was any indicator, he was more amused than shocked, “So you actually think Hope is playing him to get to the final?”

“Well, not necessarily..” you sighed, taking some time to phrase your next words carefully, “they’ve got issues. And they’ll have a lot more. Hope is too bossy and Noah’s too reserved. They seem like a good couple.. but it makes you think. What are they like when we aren’t watching?” You took a sip of the cold bubbly, “it’s funny. People on the outside see more than we do, but they don’t see everything either.”

Bobby gave a sound of understanding, taking your words into consideration, “So you reckon those tweets were onto something?”

You took note of how carefully Bobby was watching you as he waited for your answer. Were they all true? Even the one about Bobby?

Looking into those gorgeous eyes, you almost wanted to slap him. God you liked him so much, but why was everything so complicated all of a sudden? Within just a week, this man had managed to become a very important part of you life. His affections seemed to grow on you, and he crept his way through your defences, a hefty root burying itself in the soil of your heart. Your instincts were telling you to run, to shut him out, that he was too good to be true. You wanted to believe that he was genuine, that he liked you just as much as you liked him. But what if? What if the tweets were all true?

“Oh, definitely.”

Bobby snickered, “So you think I’m actually a player?”

“Are you?” Your eyes stared straight into his, almost challenging, but he remained unfazed.

“Only time will tell..” he giggled, fingers wiggling in an attempt to be comically mysterious.

The uneasy feeling settled in your stomach once more. You knew he was trying to lighten the mood, but you broke the eye contact to look away, anywhere else. Tired of his cryptic answers, you just gave a thoughtful hum, not knowing how to reply.

He appeared to sense the mood turning sour, because his smile faltered slightly. You felt his feet poke yours through the warm water, tickling yours teasingly. You hated how you couldn’t stop yourself from cracking a smile.

“Hey.. are you mad at me?” He asked so innocently, like a little child getting scolded for the first time. As if he couldn’t get any more adorable, he pouted his bottom lip out, eyes pleading with you. He was giving you the most adorable puppy eyes, and you could tell he was trying his hardest not to laugh.

“I don’t appreciate the emotional manipulation,” you joked, but he could tell your heart wasn’t into it.

“I’m gonna keep annoying you until you tell me..” he grinned, and it become harder and harder to avoid the way his feet tickled yours beneath the water.

You groaned, looking up in exasperation, “fine,” you huffed childishly, “you’re a little leach, you know.”

“One of my many talents,” he retorted, “now are you gonna tell me?”

You hesitated, but knew it was best to just tell him. It was now or never.

“I know it’s dumb, but that tweet actually got to me,” you sighed, “I know it shouldn’t have, and I do trust you, but there’s just that doubt, you know?” Your voice suddenly took on a softer tone, exposing a vulnerability Bobby hadn’t seen up until now, “I guess it just reminded me of the way things ended with my ex. We had been together for a long time, and trust me I’m over him, but the way things ended..?” You sighed and stared into your glass of champagne, circling the rim with the tip of your finger, not knowing how to finish your sentence.

“It just makes you second guess everyone’s intentions,” he finished for you. You felt the water swish as he placed his glass on the side and moved to sit directly next to you, “I get it.”

He hesitated slightly, but eventually his hands clasped yours under the water. You felt him trace faint shapes with his thumbs, the simple touches comforting you. Your drink was long forgotten as you relished in the simple affection he provided.

You met his eyes, and just like that, you knew he understood.

“I was dating this girl, and I was convinced we’d be together for a long time. Turns out she had been cheating on me for months with a guy I thought was one of my best friends.” He sighed sadly, “and same as you, I am over her. But it still left a mark on me. And I guess... it’s since then that I’ve found it really hard to see anyone as more than a friend. Maybe because it was hard for me to accept that anyone could actually have real feelings for me.”

You were left stunned, anger bubbling up in your chest. Tears gathered in your eyes at the way he spoke, at just how broken his heart had been. The fact that anyone would dare wrong him so deeply -and more importantly, the fact that you had doubted him so hard- hurt you more than you thought it would.

“Fucking shit Bobby...” you wanted to find words to comfort him, but they seemed to get stuck in your throat. Instead, you leaned over and wrapped your arms around his torso, enveloping him in the warmest hug you could muster. Without hesitation he returned the gesture, arms wrapping around you securely. You leaned into his warm embrace, cheek flush against the skin covering his heart.

“I’m sorry. I was dumb and doubted you without thinking..” you whispered.

Incredibly, he still mustered up a dry laugh, “you don’t have to be sorry, MC. I wasn’t exactly helping my case either, was I?”

You smiled softly, leaving the softest peck on the freckles across his chest. The two of you remained that way as the sky’s colours shifted to an array of pinks and purples, the full moon watching over you, and in that moment you knew you had nothing to worry about after all. You suddenly felt really lucky to just be able to hold him under the night sky, a gesture more intimate than the most desperate kiss.

note: damn I really am a fool, making myself cry like that

#litg bobby #love island the game #bobby x mc #whos a player now huh #yall are all fools #our mans would nEVEr cheat on us #LISTEN TO BLUE BY TROYE SIVAN GODDAMNIT

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dusty1302 · 5 years

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Music Time

Rules: Put your entire library on shuffle, write the first ten songs, and tag ten victims. No cheating.

(I have over 400 songs in my library, so this'll be interesting...)

1. When Has Become Now - Michael Giacchino

2. King of the Clouds - Panic! At the Disco

3. Love in the Dark - Adele

4. I am the Doctor (feat. The BBC National Orchestra of Wales) - Murray Gold

5. Animal - Troye Sivan

6. Convergence - Joseph Trapanese

7. All Time Low - Jon Bellion

8. Maz's Counsel - John Williams

9. I Was Made For Loving You (feat. Ed Sheeran) - Tori Kelly

10. Legend - twenty one pilots

So basically my inner nerd has been revealed... yes I have tons of soundtracks in my library. I'm an Orchestra nerd, I can't help it! John Williams is literally amazing. My music overall can be categorized as: Ed Sheeran, Troye Sivan, Frank Ocean, P!ATD, TØP, Orchestral, and misc. I have a lot of random songs. So that's a little piece of my exposed library!

I was tagged by @drawingdawnart and I tag @kirjastorotta, @best-moonchild-in-all-the-land, @catsanddnp, @abirdonalilactree and anyone that wants to do this really! :)

(ps: if I tagged you and you don't want to do it that's totally fine, just ignore me lol)

(pps: hmu for music recs if you want them bc I've got so many, I could talk about music for hours tbh)

#i have an obsession with music #it's kinda bad but i love it #i play violin btw i'm so cool #i'm not that cool tho i kinda suck at playing lol but i've beemn doing it for 7 years now so aye #basically i'm a music hoe and that's it tbh #and an art hoe #thas me #twenty one pilots #tøp #panic! at the disco #p!atd #troye sivan #ed sheeran #adele #music #song recs #mine #em talks

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whatsqueergottodowithit-blog · 6 years

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Text Set

Transformation through training: application of emancipatory methods in a housing education programme for rural women in South Africa

Hanna Kessel

ENG 215 Youth Culture

May 16, 2018

Tumblr and LGBTQIA+ Youth Communities:

A Text Set

Scholarly Articles:

Article: Stein, Louisa Ellen. “Collective Authorship and the Culture of Feels.” Millennial Fandom: Television Audiences in the Transmedia Age, University of Iowa Press, Iowa City, 2015, pp. 154–170. JSTOR, www.jstor.org/stable/j.ctt20p587m.15.

· Article speaking to millennial culture, tumblr, and the #feels movement among millennials. This idea of “feels” and how it transverses beyond online communities like tumblr related to my project as a reoccurring theme I saw throughout mood boards and aesthetic focused pages.

Article: LaPoint, Velma. “Guest Editorial: Accepting Community Responsibility for African American Youth Education and Socialization.” The Journal of Negro Education, vol. 61, no. 4, 1992, pp. 451–454. JSTOR, JSTOR, www.jstor.org/stable/2295362.

· Article introduces socialization as key factor for youth in a racialized context. The article looks at the way that media is used to contextualize youth’s surrounding but how parents and adult figures play a prominent role in “teaching” kids about society, specifically looking at how this can be unique within black communities.

Article: Miles, Margaret R., and Hiroko Sakomura. “Socialization.” Getting Here from There: Conversations on Life and Work, Lutterworth Press, Cambridge, 2012, pp. 16–24. JSTOR, www.jstor.org/stable/j.ctt1cgdw7s.6.

· Article is interactive and essential in laying the framework for what socialization means in a modern context. The format feels like an interview, but it looks from a personal and scholarly lens about what it means to learn society and understand identities and groups from how we are socialized to frame them.

Article: Valkenburg, Patti M., and Jessica Taylor Piotrowski. “SOCIAL MEDIA.” Plugged In: How Media Attract and Affect Youth, Yale University Press, New Haven; London, 2017, pp. 218–243. JSTOR, www.jstor.org/stable/j.ctt1n2tvjd.16.

· This article analyzes agency and access for youth self presentation on social media. I thought it would be important in contextualizing this project textually to think more broadly about the role that social media is playing in the lives of youth as a unique and developing space that changes how people grow up and interact with the world.

Article: Sinanan, Jolynna. “Conclusion: Social Media through Ethnography.” Social Media in Trinidad: Values and Visibility, vol. 11, UCL Press, London, 2017, pp. 199–208. JSTOR, www.jstor.org/stable/j.ctt1xhr53j.11.

· This source feels less directly connected to my topic as it is located in Trinidad, but the ethnographic element struck a cord with me and inspired me to conceptualize my participation on Tumblr as a form of mini-ethnography. I think personal participation on tumblr is almost impossible no matter how unrelated your blog’s content may to your life so it was important for me to find sources that investigated this personal participation academically.

Article: Griffin, F. Hollis. “Wanting Something Online.” Feeling Normal: Sexuality and Media Criticism in the Digital Age, Indiana University Press, Bloomington, Indianapolis, 2016, pp. 140–168. JSTOR, www.jstor.org/stable/j.ctt2005trt.9.

· I liked this chapter for how it talked about homosexuality and technology. Looking at dating apps, it moves queerness into the digital age, especially for young people involved in hook-up culture. These apps are closely related to tumblr and images from these apps are easily found, making this article relevant to how the communities talk about and engage in queerness in their lived romantic lives.

Music:

Link: https://www.huffingtonpost.com/2015/02/08/songs-lgbt-themes-_n_6638744.html

· 27 Songs That Shaped The Way We Felt About Ourselves As LGBT People

· Article talks about how the songs listed contribute to community feelings and definitions of self worth. Not all songs listed are stereotypically “queer” or written by LGBTQIA+ artists. But I think it is interesting how these communities are claiming these songs and identifying with the themes they discuss and turning them into communal symbols. Tumblr is a space that often does the same thing with songs. LGBTQIA+ communities on tumblr embrace songs with various themes and they evolve into a part of the woven, internet community.

Link: https://www.pride.com/music/2016/12/20/10-best-lgbt-music-videos-2016

· 10 best LGBT Music videos 2016

· Music videos are an important aspect of tumblr because of gifs. Artists can be trending on tumblr but gifs from their music videos or their performances can remain popular in communities regardless of whether or not the song or artist is still popular. These images contribute to the creation of what queer youth are seeing as visual representations of their community. The articles above often point to music as a major point of socialization for culture, so tumblr shows us how LGBTQIA+ youth are taking the current media like music and music videos and categorizing it to be representative of the online communities and giving them a life of their own.

Link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TV-_Yuc228s

· Haley Kiyoko: Feelings

· Haley Kiyoko is all over tumblr right now. Throughout my time exploring tumblr I saw a lot about her music and performances, showing how she is really individually emerging as an icon for these online youth communities. There are a lot of gifs out there from this song in particular, which is one of the more popular from her most recent album which is almost entirely consisted of queer themes and topics.

Link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ao4o-XRU_KM

· Halsey: Ghost

· Halsey has been regarded as a heart-throb, queer icon on tumblr for a long time. Her angsty persona and music perpetuates an imagery of “teen angst” that I found to be popular among a lot of blogs that I visited. This song is one of her most popular, along with Strangers, and I think both speak to themes of same-sex youth relationships and love and navigating the complex feelings associated with them.

Link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e3hjpNuvapQ

· Halsey: Strangers

Link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TdrL3QxjyVw

· Lana Del Rey: Summertime Sadness

· Lana Del Rey is a controversial artist in a lot of communities for how she portrays sexuality and how she talks about age. Nevertheless she is evidently a part of youth communities based on the popularity of some of her songs like Summertime Sadness, which became a major radio hit. I found a lot of quotes from this song on tumblr but I think the queer elements of the song really come across the music video that has two female leads. But the themes of summertime romance and fleeting, forbidden love is another reoccurring theme we see targeted at youth communities, and again the angst of this song resonated within the communities I explored on tumblr specifically through the content of the lyrics.

Link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=il9nqWw9W3Y

· Demi Lovato: Cool for the Summer

· This is another song that made it big on the radio. Demi Lovato has also recently emerged as a form of queer icon, recently navigating her sexuality in the lime light of fame. Her music video for this song is interesting, and I saw a lot of references to Demi and this song specifically within bisexual communities specifically.

Link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XYAghEq5Lfw

· Troye Sivan: Youth

· Troye Sivan has a specific style of music that is becoming very popular on the indy scene. I feel like the alternative, indy scene is even more popular on tumblr than the main stream pop scene, based on the time I spent navigating music blogs and playlists, but this again could be related to the communities I was primarily concerned with. If tumblr is gay, and tumblr is indy, does that not by default make indy/alternative music a gay aesthetic?

Link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fdXNNveYOfU

· Troye Sivan: Wild

· This is another one of Troy’s songs that directly talks about sexuality and explores youth development by telling a love story over time that started out as two boys being friends as kids.

Youtube channels:

Link: https://www.youtube.com/user/TroyeSivan18

· Troye Sivan

· I talked about Troye’s music above, but his youtube channel is also very popular as a youth/gay vlogger scene. I had never heard of him before this project but learned who he was through references to his youtube channel first before I heard his music. I am interested in some of his early episodes, but I think the whole channel speaks to his career as a young person navigating not only his sexuality and relationships but how those elements of his life are changed by being a youtube personality.

Link: https://www.youtube.com/user/tyleroakley

· Tyler Oakley

· Tyler is a very famous youtuber and one I had heard about before this project, but I couldn’t have pointed him out to you before I saw his picture on tumblr. Among the gay specific blogs I visited pictures of him are very popular as a internet celebrity.

Link: https://www.youtube.com/user/MyHarto

· Hannah Hart

· I love Hannah Hart and think she is so funny. There are entire tumblr blogs dedicated to her as fanpages and I saw a lot of gifs of her interacting with other youtubers while I was on tumblr. I liked exploring her channel and thinking about how the popularity from one of these sites relates to and can build off of the other.

Link: https://www.youtube.com/user/flips8trgrl3

· Shannon Beveridge

· Shannon is very popular on instagram, which I found to be linked to tumblr all the time. Her personal instagram page is full of pictures of her and really serves as another queer fashion/aesthetic page. But her youtube channel shows another side of her and her sense of humor, advice, opinions, etc. She is very popular on tumblr for her former relationship with fellow youtuber, Cammie Scott, and their couple pics are still featured on couples blogs as #goals all the time.

Link: https://www.youtube.com/user/CammieScott

· Cammie Scott

· The other half of a very famous former youtuber relationship, Cammie also has her own youtube channel where she posts videos. Cammie is also very funny and features a lot of the other people on this list as guests in her videos. Both Cammie and Shannon are also pictured on tumblr with their new partners.

Link: https://www.youtube.com/user/ConnorFranta

· Connor Franta

· Connor Franta is a good friend of Tyler Oakley and another very famous youtuber. I liked coming across his channel. I felt like tumblr introduced me to some of the more famous youtubers and then I feel down a rabbit hole and found a bunch of others and they’re all friends with each other or dating each other and are all over tumblr.

Link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h4QzRfvkJZ4&list=PLbvYWjKFvS5rX2yv-k5AJ8oxPoZ9zHcpe

· Carmilla

· This is a youtube series that is really interesting in how it relates old time inspiration and themes into a present day youth context and features queer characters heavily. It also is sort of about vampires so it adds another level away from the reality-centered channels I have discussed above. Seeing fans of this show on tumblr showed just another way that youtube also contributes to the construction of what’s popular in youth LGBTQIA+ communities. The ability to link videos and youtubes to tumblr has been key for how tumblr has evolved past just popularizing gifs or images of these icons to serving as platforms where fans can share their favorite videos or channels with their followers.

Podcasts:

Link: https://www.npr.org/podcasts/527636117/nancy

· Nancy

· I didn’t see as many references to podcasts on tumblr as I expected. I am still unsure from my time on tumblr if podcasts are widely popular amongst tumblr-using youth or if this is more of a niche circle. But I found a couple of lists that recommended queer podcasts to even if they didn’t feature young people. I liked listening to an episode of this podcast and found the host to be relatable.

Link: https://soundcloud.com/anzalduingit

· Anzalduing it

· I love Gloria Anzaldua and coming across this podcast was awesome. I liked how they talked about identity in a really fluid way and navigated how identities relate to space/confinement.

Link: https://soundcloud.com/femme-collectively

· Femme Collectively

· This podcast is directed a particular audience of “femme” identifying queers. I think that it is interesting especially in thinking about how tumblr communities talk about femme and how that term fits into queer identities. It is definitely a common topic of discussion just as much as it is an aesthetic. So I liked this podcast for how it appealed to those youth audiences that may feel varying levels of inclusion in tumblr communities.

Key tumblr Blogs:

Blog: https://real-lesbian-thoughts.tumblr.com/

· Lesbian

· This blog engages textually with the lesbian tumblr community. In my opinion, the texts set norms for this community, i.e. tons of people relate to the “real thoughts” shared, making them a collective consciousness. This can serve as a site to create what those norms are, but also for young, new, or seasoned members of this community to learn, or socialize, norms and thoughts that are associated with the lesbian community.

Blog: https://gay-purelove.tumblr.com/

· Gay

· The most common blog type whenever I search “gay” is always couple pages. Pages that repost images of gay people or gay couples, showing them looking cute and happy. I think this is important for how it teaches youth what gay people look like, what the community deems to be “attractive,” and what the standards for happiness in a relationship look like.

Blog: http://bisexual.tumblr.com/

· Bi

· When I search the word “bisexual” on tumblr, I get a lot of mood/aesthetic focused pages. This blog is almost entirely nature themed but represents a calmness and color scheme that it is attributing to the bisexual community. Here you learn how nature can be thought of as bi, and that by being bi and like nature, you are fitting into the dominant aesthetic.

Blog: http://transstudent.tumblr.com/

· Trans

· This blog is almost entirely educational, as I found with most of the blogs when I search “trans.” These blogs are educational for trans people looking to learn more about themselves or others in their community, but are also designed to inform outsiders about the parameters and experiences of being trans. This is a place for discussion and advice giving as well, serving as a means for spreading information and thoughts on the identity.

Blog: http://queerlection.tumblr.com/

· Queer

· This blog came up when I searched “queer,” and I think it’s emphasis on visual art and art that conveys a direct message is a common thread of what I found when I searched this word. Images like this are a quintessential part of all the tumblr communities I have identified here and I think they establish messages and color ways that are now associated with those distinct communities.

Blog: https://myintersex.tumblr.com/

· Intersex

· This is another very educational blog. It again serves as a place to ask questions, learn about what intersex means from an outside perspective, and stay up to date on current politics around sex assignment at birth and intersex rights. This blog also comes across very personal, another thread I found within this search category.

Blog: https://asexualartists.tumblr.com/

· Asexuality

· This blog is focused on art by, and calling attention to, asexual artists. This may not have been the most common type of blog I found under this search category but I liked this approach a lot of using the visual space of social media to collect this artwork together, and see what common themes and images it engages with.

Blog: https://lgbtqia-identities.tumblr.com/

· LGBTQIA+

· This blog came up when I used the entire acronym as a search term. It focuses on only posting positive messages/appreciation for LGBTQIA+ people. I think this is representative of how the community creates a sense of self-pride and positivity through shared words of support on platforms like tumblr.

TV Shows:

Show: The L Word

· Seasons 1-6

· This show is iconic among almost all lesbian communities, youth, online and anywhere in between. But the characters really take on a life of their own on tumblr as gifs and images of them circulate frequently despite the show ending in 2009. People identify with different characters and “tag” themselves with traits that the icons from this show represent.

Show: Queer eye for the Straight Guy

· Current Season on Netflix

· Queer Eye has recently come back to life and has made a big splash on Netflix and apparently on tumblr as well. I found numerous blogs that not only were fans of the show but embrace the idea of providing fashion advice. I think this really contributes to how the gay communities talk about fashion and what brands, looks, and aesthetics are popular among queer youth on tumblr.

Show: Queer As Folk

· Season 1-5

· The show is literally about gay people. That is kind of it. It follows the lives of a handful of gay men and eventually works in female characters and other sexual identities. It is talked about on tumblr from fan pages more than specific characters are discussed.

Show: Lost Girl

· Season 1-5

· This show is sci-fi, and originated in Canada. It is about muggles and is rooted in a supernatural setting. But the characters include a spectrum of sexualities focusing primarily on bisexuality, serving as a really interesting community representation.

Show: The Fosters

· Seasons 1-5

· I love this show personally so I was so excited when I saw images from characters, quotes, or gifs of them from episodes on tumblr. I think it is really interesting not only in how it shows homosexuality in parenting, which is an angle of youth culture and socialization talked about a little bit less often. But seeing people on tumblr embracing this parent figures is really interesting. But another main character gives a really interesting portrayal of growing up queer and discovering your sexuality. I love how the tumblr community ships Jude with other characters and how the actor has become a popular queer celebrity on tumblr.

Show: Sense8

· Seasons 1-2

· My girlfriend loves this show for the intersectional identities of the characters and was so upset when it was only two seasons. Again this places a multitude of people with varying sexual identities into a sci-fi setting. I felt like the content I saw on tumblr about this show was just focused on the sci-fi world created as they were the characters and relationships.

Show: Everything Sucks

· Season 1 (so far)

· This show is really centralized in how it is focused on LGBTQIA+ identities and coming of age. The main character is essentially navigating her young life coming out and I think makes a statement on how youth sexuality is represented on media.

Show: Pretty Little Liars

· Season 1-7

· This show is incredibly popular on almost all forms of social media that I am on. Though not only about sexual identity, one of the main characters is gay and her relationships are definitely represented on tumblr. Her role on major tv show about young women is an interesting portrayal of how the LGBTQIA+ communities are moving into the mainstream.

Show: One Day At a Time

· Current Seasons

· I recently started watching this show and haven’t made it very far. So seeing funny gifs and memes of the gay character on tumblr really made me laugh and has made me excited for the rest of the episodes. This show puts the context of youth sexuality within the family dynamics of living in a Hispanic (Cuban-American) family and how those identities interact.

Show: Glee

· All Seasons

· This show was so popular when I was younger. The characters and gifs from episodes are still incredibly popular on tumblr. Kurt obviously serves as a gay icon and is featured around tumblr but the lesbian and bisexual characters that emerged later on in the series really caught the attention of tumblr communities. I don’t know if it is because they relate to these characters or if it’s just because Santana and Britanny are such loveable characters. But the images of them on tumblr are equally of adoration and of humor as the two and the show in general definitely had some funny parts.

Show: Skins

· All Seasons

· Skins is definitely regarded as a queer tv show. Though it is controversial in some of its representations and adaptations, it is undoubtedly about queer youth and its fans still create communities on tumblr to discuss characters, plots, episodes, relationships, etc.

Show: Degrassi: Next Classic

· Seasons 1-4

· This show has been around forever. From Drake till today, I’m glad that this show is emerging as a platform for LGBTQIA+ identities to be presented on fairly mainstream shows for/about young people. The show is also definitely going out of its way to be representative, featuring a Muslim Syrian immigrant character who navigates a complicated same-sex relationship and also a popular Latina, lesbian character. The show also has a character that negotiates the process of coming to terms with your gender identity and who was born female but goes on to identify as non-binary.

Show: She’s Gotta Have It

· Season 1

· This show is important because the protagonist identifies as pansexual. This is not an idea discussed nearly as often on main stream platforms like tv but is very popular on tumblr. I saw communities on tumblr really excited about embracing pan identifying celebrities and characters and this show may not mainly feature sexuality but the visibility of a young black woman identifying as pansexual is really cool.

Show: Master of None

· Season 1-2

· I love the few episodes I have seen of this show. I really like how the episodes are often reflexive and show adult characters thinking back to their youth together. The representation of how Denise navigates her sexuality as a kid and as a member of a black family won her an Emmy for the episode “Thanksgiving” which I saw references to all over tumblr. Lena Waithe is also making waves all over tumblr as a popular queer celebrity and I love her role in this show.

Books:

Book: They both Die at the End

· I liked reading this book a lot. It takes a gay love story and puts it into a different setting, a fictionally possibly dystopian portrayal of our own world. I think it is important in introducing YA lit as a space for socialization just as much as social media can be. Learning about coming of age, youth problems, and how to navigate relationships is one of the main purposes of YA lit in the United States it seems (as compared to other countries that have only recently started advertising literature within the category of YA).

Book: Boy meets Boy

· Okay I guess this book isn’t that bad. But I think it serves an interesting comparison for the types of queer stories being told about young people. A little bit older, this book really shows a gay love story in a perfect world. Focusing more on the relationship, the characters go through little to know problems that young people identify with, like coming out or dealing with conservative family. The characters live in a utopia of gayness. So this is nice and all, but besides giving young people a hope for what life could one day be like I don’t love how it portrays the experience of being a young gay. But it can be a nice escape from reality I guess. But I mainly included this book to think about how it compares to other books on this list that are more representative of struggles the characters face.

Book: Dreadnought

· This is another current book I really liked reading. The story of a trans super hero has it’s flaws but I think it is an important representation of trans youth in YA lit that we don’t see a lot of. Trans youth is definitely active on tumblr as a safe space to navigate gender and I think seeing a book character doing the same is really interesting.

Book: Not your Perfect Mexican Daughter

· This book also had some elements I liked and disliked. I think it is an important portrayal of sexuality and race even if the queer character is just a supporting character. I love how the book deals with young mental health and really gets into the issues presented for various young people rooted in their identities.

Book: The You I’ve Never Known

· This book seems so interesting. Between a character that might have been kidnapped at birth and another who is pregnant, we see two young women navigating complex problems all the while falling in love and discovering their sexualities. I think it will present a complex and modern take on youth lesbian relationships.

Book: Sea of Strangers

· Written by an asexual author, this fantasy book takes place in an island world where the default sexuality is bi or pan, but the main character interacts with a spectrum of asexual and aromantic other characters while trying to save her brother and defend her clan.

Book: We Are Okay

· This book takes place from the perspective of a college age woman, who is dealing with loneliness and mental health far away from home. The depiction of romance, longing, and desire are unique in this emotional piece of YA fiction released this past February.

Book: 10 Things I can See From Here

· This book is another great example of portrayals of young adults facing mental health struggles, anxiety in particular. This book places the protagonist in a complex family life and forces her to navigate her internal anxiety as well as the development of her feelings for a care-free, seemingly worriless neighbor.

Book: Queen of Geek

· This book is interesting for how it relates to social media. Following the life of a vologger, her relationships and sexual identity are out in the open for all of her followers to see. The book also heavily features an autistic character and navigates the complex spaces social media can create for various characters and their romantic relationships.

Book: Little &Lion

· This book features a love triangle between a main female black and Jewish character, her bipolar brother, and the girl her brother is in love with. Another interesting portrayal of young adult relationships, this book also provides a portrayal of young LGBTQIA+ coming of age and discovering their sexuality.

Book: You’re Welcome

· This book is about a deaf Indian graffiti artist, but features to same-sex parents. The representation of parenting and lesbian moms I think is interesting in how it potions ya readers to engage with their parents.

Movies:

Movie: Love Simon

· Movies are another realm where images can be taken and made into gifs with quotes and made super popular on tumblr. Love Simon is an example of a movie where that is happening a lot right now. This movie is also popular on tumblr for how young people are talking about how it portrays their experiences, accurately or not. I think the movie is interesting gin thinking about how young people learn about what it means to come out, be accepted, or be successful.

Movie: But I’m a Cheerleader

· This movie is so funny. It is comically used all over tumblr by lesbian and other communities as a source of a good laugh. The themes are also obviously also related to the idea of young people learning about whether or not it is okay to be gay or not and how that can work within the context of your family, but it is mostly popular for the humor element it brings to the usual queer narrative.

Movie: Carol

· Carol is definitely regarded as like the lesbian movie, despite how well it has gone over among lesbian communities. This means the characters and images are all over tumblr in one way or another.

Movie: Blue is the Warmest Color

· This movie serves as an interesting comparison for me to Carol. Produced more recently and centering on young women, I think it makes a fascinating comparison to generational portrayals of the lesbian experience. This movie is and has been popular on tumblr, but it has also been heavily criticized for giving young people unrealistic expectations for sex and body image.

Movie: Tomboy

· This movie centers on a young ten year old that is navigating a quite life of androgyny. I think it is an important representation of how youth interact with learning and portraying their gender through clothes, hair, likes/dislikes, etc.

Movie: Pariah

· This is an emotional movie that aims to really “tell it how it is” and I think that it is an interesting juxtaposition to movies like Love Simon in the themes they portray as pertinent to whom.

Celebrity Icons:

Person: Rita Ora

· Recently coming out as Bisexual, Rita Ora is all over tumblr with her new music that talks about boys and girls in a romantic context.

Person: Janelle Monae:

· Janelle has also recently come out about her sexuality and has blown up on tumblr. Becoming an icon for specifically for queer and pansexual young adults who identify with her free-spirited approach to love and relationships.

Person: Kehlani

· Kehlani is famous on tumblr for her relationship on stage with Demi Lovato. She later came out on twitter as being very queer in that she is literally attracted to a huge spread of identities. These tweets are also featured on tumblr and her fans are definitely not hard to come by on the social media platform.

Person: Alyson Stoner

· A former Disney star, Alyson has emerged as everyone’s secret childhood crush. Hearing her open up about her sexuality has made her relatable to tons of fans on tumblr who loving framing their favorite childhood shows and movies in a new queer lens.

Person: Katy Perry

· There is no denying that Katy Perry is all over the media right now but it is not mainly for her sexual orientation. Making controversial splashes in other realms, she has re-emerged as a common topic of discussion amongst queer tumblr communities who have continued to frame her and her music as an iconic part of the queer community.

Person: Kristen Stewart

· Originally famous for playing the teenage lead of a YA novel gone movie and dating one of teen America’s biggest heartthrobs, Kristen Stewart has moved beyond her fame on the screen to being a constant image on my tumblr feed. She is all over tumblr as a gay icon not only for her fashion but also for her relationships and quotes about navigating her sexuality and coming into the realization that she was also attracted to women.

Person: Demi Lovato

· She has appeared all over this list. She does not openly use any kind of sexual identifiers but claims her songs are all from personal experience and doesn’t think there is anything wrong with “experimentation.” This has made her popular on tumblr not just for other “experimenting” people but also for people who want to discuss what it means to include frame attractions within the context of experiment or the male gaze. So I don’t know how much of an icon she is, but she is definitely popular right now for how she is being discussed.

Person: Miley Cyrus

· Miley Cyrus is very popular for her music but is also embraced as a pansexual icon. More and more youth are identifying with the fluid sexual category and Miley coming out years ago has made her popular among this growing body of young people on tumblr.

Person: Kesha

· Kesha has recently emerged in the spotlight for a variety of reasons, but her insistence that she loves “people” not men or women has made her and her music emblematic and relatable for young queer identifying and exploring youth.

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