HEY fellow ttcc laptop players if ur lagging try this

go into your shtickerbook, press options, go to video, switch everything with a dropdown menu to medium and turn off vertical sync and anti aliasing

then close out of the game and log back in and it should be a bit smoother! :D

31.October.2020-HELLOWEEN ENDS IT ALL

How should I start? Or if I have to say it right, how do I should I end it? (Spoiler: this post will be a little bit longer than we are all used to by me. So if you are willed to read all of my stuff, maybe you should grab a cup of tea or coffee and make yourself comfortable. I mean, if you have the possibility to do that, in the end, it's just a recommendation.) October 2020 was a beautiful month for me. I read more than usual, learned a lot about myself, found joy in things I didn't know about. Good news first: I finished "These Broken Stars". I liked it much more than I expected. I will definitely continue with the series. Not so good news: I still haven't succeeded in my personal challenge to read three books this month. ( mangas not included, unfortunately) But it doesn't border me that much. I'm really happy with myself. Just so you have a quick "overview" I've read two books this month. "The Name of the Wind" by Patrick Rothfuss and "These Broken Stars" by Amie Kaufman and Meagan Spooner. (What a surprise, right?) I liked both books a lot and I will post a review of "The Name of the Wind" hopefully soon. This book was a lot for me. And I have A LOT to share about my thoughts. Just if you're curious. I read a lot of mangas this month. But if you followed this "diary" you know what I mean. I read all published works by Kaori Ozaki and I just love her stories. You should give it a try. I was so teary at the end of every single one of her mangas. I'm a softie. So what comes next? I don't really know. Will there be a reading diary this month? Probably not. Maybe you heard something about NANOWRIMO. If not, just google it, but anyway, I will participate this year again and that means I will not have a lot of time to read. I will still post things on this blog, don't worry about that, but not every day. Which kinda sucks. I made a lot of good relationships because of this project. You have no idea how happy it makes me talking with you about books and stuff like that. I feel much more understood. Btw I also created a group chat, which I named after me, so if you want to join us, feel free to do that. ( group chats are only available for the Tumblr app!) But as I said, I will still post and repost things here. Will I try out my not-existing-skills in book photography? Ahm, yes. I don't know when but I will try it out again and hopefully get better. It's kinda fun. So we will see. Do you like Helloween? We don't celebrate it where I live but I like the atmosphere of it. Kinda spooky, but still there are all these warm colors. Another aspect of fall which I love. Today I had a great day, which I spend with my family outside. We took a little walk into the woods and our two dogs were completely freaking out because it's so rare that all of us taking them out. After that, I played a lot of chess with my brother and I haven't won once. This little *******! So one of my new life goals is to finally beat him in chess. And then I read the last 150 pages of "These Broken Stars". I also baked a braided yeast bread, which is a big tradition where I came from. It turned out really good. I made two, one with raisins, one without. My dad and grandma love raisins, the rest of the family...not really. Which team are you? But while baking the bread I realized how happy I become in the last weeks. I feel so calm and relaxed. I really detoxed myself a bit. And yeah, it was a process, which definitely hasn't ended yet. But I'm willed to continue this path. Take small steps towards your goal. Learn while walking how to run and discover all these corners in yourself. (does that make any sense? IDK) Life is such a huge journey and books help me to experience it with so much more joy, happiness, and peace, that I'm almost surprised. I love it when someone tells me a story and I hope one day someone wants to hear mine. I had some downs this month and they will come from time to time again. That's normal, but I think, I figured out how to handle them. Kinda. The taste of life can be so sweet and bitter at the same time, isn't that funny? However, with this post, I'll say goodbye to October 2020 and this public diary which is very precious to me. Thanks to everyone who discussed different topics with me.  To everyone who liked my stuff or even reposted it. Thanks to you who are reading these lines. I want you to know, how wonderful you are. Not because you are reading my blog or you have the same opinion as me. You are wonderful because you are alive. Remember that with every breath you take and do what brings you joy (without hurting other people). Thank you for listening to my confusing thoughts. I feel honored. We'll see each other soon. Goodbye October 2020, goodbye 20-year-old me, goodbye guys! I wish you all the best and a lot of health. Yours sincerely The Bookspace

Hi I have been a fan of your work for a very long time and so I sneak into your tumblr from time to time.I counldnt help but notice that you post a lot of political/sjw stuff and I know it is none of my business but since I am probably absolutely opposite in my political views I can't help myself and ask: I understand that you are Asian, but you don't seem to be interested in real or imagined injustices in your country/continent and are mainly interested in USA, why is that?

Hi, anon!

First of all, I am not Asian and I’m very sorry if I ever did or said anything to mislead people into thinking that I was. It was unconsciously done. I have no intention of offending anyone or appropriating an identity that isn’t mine, so if I did something of that sort, please let me know and I’ll do my best to correct myself. I often reblog stuff about China because I think it’s an amazing country, I’m learning Mandarin (not making much progress, though), love their culture, nature, architecture and am a big fan of their historical/fantasy dramas. Also, the two fandoms I was the most active in (coincidentally) happen to be a Japanese anime and a Japanese video game, so I have a lot of love for their art and aesthetics.

I’m actually very surprised that you would ‘notice’ that I post a lot of ‘political/sjw stuff’, considering that I mostly use Tumblr to repost Merlin gifs, cast/crew news and fanworks. There is maybe one reblog on just about anything else for every fifty (perhaps even more) Merlin posts, so I really have to wonder which of the RL issues I posted about bothered you so much that you would describe them as ‘a lot’.

I may be misinterpreting the tone of your ask, so forgive me if I misread your intentions and am responding too harshly, but in my experience, ‘SJW’ is a term that is used to be dismissive when people are talking about real social issues, plus I found your wording of ‘imagined injustices’ very… interesting.

Also, I find it odd that somebody would unironically ask me why I’m ‘mainly’ interested in the USA.

First of all, the global market is oversaturated with American media, American products, American news, American movies, TV series, music, you name it. It’s everywhere. Of course I’m going to know more about it than, say, Lichtenstein. The exposure of American public figures is insane and it just happens that the stuff that appears on my dash is most often related to the USA because that is what the people I follow also follow (and for the record, on Tumblr, I mainly follow the Merlin fandom and to a somewhat lesser degree, various artists, baby animals, Chinese traditional outfits, Buzzfeed and NASA news). I absolutely do reblog pure evil, injustices, hypocrisy and intentionally inflicted misery in other countries too when I see them, but I don’t actively go looking for them on Tumblr, just like I don’t actively look for the USA posts either. The USA posts are simply there, without much active input from me, while other countries are not. An important point, of course, since we are having this weird discussion about why a random person outside of the USA is consuming so much American media, is that English is the only foreign language I am fluent in, so when it comes to foreign content, I am primarily going to read and interact with posts in English. And which country creates the most content in English? Yup, you guessed it!  

On a similar note, everything that happens in the USA affects other countries too. Nothing that goes on there takes place in a vacuum and the USA has made damn sure that it has its fingers in each and every single pie all over the world. Everything, the good and the bad, spills over and trust me, we feel the effects acutely in my unstable, politically fraught little country. The economic and cultural implications are enormous, so you can bet American issues are very personal for me, even if I don’t live there. My country’s government consists of puppets in the hands of various world leaders playing tug of war with actual human lives. My literal paycheck depends on the stability of the dollar. The survival of the entire human species hangs on how we deal with climate change right now and that ignorant, illiterate orange shitstain Americans voted into power is now standing on a global platform, spouting nonsense that is barely one step removed from Creationist bullshit and Flat-earther conspiracies. And you seriously ask me why I’m interested in the USA? 

The USA loves to dub itself as ‘the leader of the free world’ and ‘a global superpower’, and has managed to stick its nose into everybody’s business everywhere (usually with no good intentions), but somehow you question why the rest of us are now going to be interested in what is going on there, not to mention critical when the US government spouts absolute rubbish not just on a domestic, but also global scale? So, yes, I am personally invested in what is going down next in the USA and am sitting here, half the world across, cheering Americans on as they fight to have that shame they elected removed from power and, hopefully, incarcerated, along with all his corrupt cronies, advisors and family members. I’m going to be genuinely celebrating here when he finally goes down!

Secondly, I come from one of those countries that the USA and its allies have destroyed for their own gain and where they have ruined countless lives over multiple generations. I have every reason to notice, take a personal interest in and comment on the hypocrisy, the grandstanding and the false moral high ground that is assumed by the USA (and any of its bootlickers) when I see it.

For any of my USA followers here, I would just like to note that I am perfectly capable of distinguishing between ordinary people and disgusting government policies enacted by corrupt or incompetent politicians. I realise this post sounds angry, but I wish only good things for you all, people are people everywhere and the stuff I’m talking about is way above the average person’s paygrade. I also realise that the USA has screwed over so many of its own citizens; including its war veterans, PoC, minorities, the poor, the weak and the disabled. My heart goes out to you all, truly, and I love you all!

(BTW, I intentionally have not said which country I’m from because I’ve stopped publically stating my location online, simply because it makes it too easy for malicious people to identify me IRL that way. I don’t necessarily hide my RL identity if I have a valid reason to reveal my true name and location, but please forgive me for not stating it outright here, on a public platform, to satisfy the curiosity of an anon ask. My country is misogynistic, homophobic and hostile to all who are non-conforming and my job prospects are hard enough without my online pseudonyms being generally known in my RL circles. I used to be much less secretive about it, but have since learned the error of my ways and am now taking the most basic of precautions.)

With that said, yes, my country has issues! And, fyi, I have ranted and raged and cried about them before online, IRL and in private. I have posted about my country’s political problems everywhere, including here, when I was just too angry to hold it in because I’m absolute shit at being careful even when I make a conscious effort to be. Most recently, I raged about our elections which were a punch to the gut. If I was to start typing about the corruption, injustices and absolute evil going on around me, I would never stop, but I’m not going to do that because that’s not what I come to Tumblr for. This is primarily a fandom space, mostly for fandom stuff, where I come to look at other people’s things and almost never create content of my own. Just about anything political has been reblogged from someone else because it showed up on my dash and touched a nerve. Very little of that is stuff from my own country because nobody creates and reblogs posts about it in the fandom circle I mostly interact with.

I’m now trying to think back to what ‘SJW’ issues (as you put it) I reblog the most often and how any of them are ‘imaginary injustices’. Off the top of my head, the ones that usually touch a nerve are about the oppression and discrimination of women, patriarchy, sexism, various kinds of abuse, sexual assault, overworking, capitalist brainwashing, mental health issues, LGBTQ issues, freedom of speech, resurgence of Nazism, the gap between the rich and the poor, climate change and criminal religious institutions regaining power in society. I can assure you that none of these is ‘imaginary’ and the negative ways in which they affect me and the people around me are very, very real. Also, none of them is unique to the USA, which is what you seem to be the most concerned about, and even if the post is from or about the USA, these problems definitely overlap with things that I, and countless people around the world, are personally experiencing and have a lot of feelings about. The only social issues ‘unique’ to the USA that I often reblog are the ones related to the particular US brand of racism and the appalling, still-ongoing genocide committed against the indigenous people there, and how can you not empathise with that when it’s so egregious? I will reblog them every time they cross my dash to spread awareness since the US government is actively trying to stifle it and rewrite history and idc who is uncomfortable.

With all that said, I’m open to corrections and have no problem admitting to being wrong once I realise I’ve made a mistake. So, this goes for all the people following my blog: if any of the posts I shared are about ‘imaginary’ issues (just… wow at the use of this word) or contain false information, please feel free to let me know and I will take it under advisement. I’m always willing to learn.