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Labyrinth | s.r x gn!reader

summary: You're scared about your feelings for Spencer. Insp by labyrinth from Taylor Swift.

genre: fluffly and hurt/comfort. pairing: spencer reid x gn!reader (I'm a girl so I wrote going on this way, but I think I didn't gave any descriptions abt being one, so it's totally safe for gn!readers <333 if I did, I'm sorry, I didn't notice.) words: 1,3K warnings: family issues, inexperienced!reader, reader never being in a relationship before, insecurity, anxiety, mention of toxic relationships (not between reader and anyone else) notes: hiii, this is my first oneshot so plss be nice 😭✋🏻 im not used to write like this, but I'm so obsessed with Spencer and I had this idea and I couldn't just let go. English it's not my first language, so forgive me if any mistakes or if u guys don't understand smth. not proofread. hope you guys like it !! <3

It only hurts this much right now

Was what I was thinking the whole time

You've never trusted relationships, not that you had experienced any, but what you saw growing up? What you were used to? Didn't make you want to get into one in the first place.

You never denied that you've dreamed about that; finding a true love and a nice, healthy relationship since you saw all your friends living it. That hurted you a little, but you learned how to live with it.

Breathe in, breathe through

Breathe deep, breathe out

I'll be getting over you my whole life

You tried to catch your breath, adjusting it as much as possible. You were used to unlearn the ability of breathing when you were around people who made you nervous, especially if you had a slightly crush on them. Actually, you unlearn every normal thing that humans do when they interact, it's like a part of your brain stops working and refused to turn it on again. He loved to make you embarrassed, especially in front of pretty nerd ish boys.

The first time you met Spencer it consumed all of your brain chemistry. Day and night making fantasies of how it would be meeting the boy again with the help of destiny, falling in love and maybe being obsessed with you the same way you were with him. But you knew that it was just a fantasy and it would never happen, it was just your brain trying to distract you from the real world and your real problems.

It was a nice escape though.

You know how scared I am of elevators

Never trust it if it rises fast

It can't last

Everything happened so fast in your time vision, it terrified you of how easy he was able to get through it. You were always scared of relationships because, yeah, it was nice and easy to fantasy about it, but to actually live it? That scared the shit out of you. All your Inexperience, insecurities and traumas couldn't be fixed from one day to another.

Everything that you learned from your parents was that if you dived in too quickly, it would be a mistake. Not only from your parents, but also from people you were close to, seeing their relationship rise too fast and going effortlessly and awfully down.

You never understood why they keept doing it, sinking into the same situation over and over again, sometimes with the same or a different guy. How they kept being pulled and compelled by it? You didn't understand because you never felt it.

It was so scary how relationships could rise so fast and sink at the same speed.

Uh oh, I'm falling in love

Oh no, I'm falling in love again

Oh, I'm falling in love

You understood why they kept like that in the worst — best— way possible.

When it first hit you that you were falling in love with Spencer felt like a harsh slap in your face, leaving red bruises and a terrible burning in. You didn't want to accept it, it was frightening to actually let it in.

Was getting hard with the passing time, he wasn't getting any easier and neither were his loving and caring acts. I mean, how could someone like him be so.. careful with you? You felt like a broken piece who would never be loved and receive this kinda of treatment, it was starting to confuse you.

You knew he wasn't the type of person who liked being touched or touching other ones, but with you? Every possibility of being close to you, hugging you, touching your hand and giving a sweet cuddle in that same spot was driving you insane. He made sure that any free time he had, he spent with you. Or even at work, in his free time that he used to call you.

Reid talked to you about his mom and his abandonment issues with his father so openly that made you open yourself with him too. You didn't want to scare him telling him about your family situation or make him think you're a weird, problematic person, but you couldn't let him vent to you and not say a thing. He hasn't change with you. In fact, it only bought you both closer.

You ended up accepting what you felt for him, you didn't want to fight against it, deep down was a comfort feeling. For the first time you felt what everyone around you always talked about. And oh god, it really was an amazing feeling. But no, you would never tell him that. The thought of how this could end so fast after telling him that because probably it wasn't reciprocal, hurted you so bad that keeping it to yourself was the best decision you could make.

I thought the plane was going down

How'd you turn it right around

“Why are you looking at me like that?” His voice called you off of your own thoughts, his Cheshire Cat smile growing as he saw your face turning into a shade of burgundy.

“Like what?” You asked.

“Like a deer lost in the headlights.” He snorted a laugh.

“What?! I'm not-“

He interrupted you, getting up from the chair where he was lost doing his usual puzzles. Spencer walked over to you, resting one of his hands on your face while the other one brushed away a few strands of hair that fell into your eyes. You automatically snuggled your face between Spencer's hands, smirking and closing your eyes, enjoying the gentle caress his fingers made on your cheeks.

“Tell me, please.” He begged you, you could easily hear the smile into his words. He was always so polite, it made you want to scream into a pillow and kick your feets in the air.

You sighed, tired to hide how you felt.

“Honestly? About you. I think I already fell for you.”

It only feels this raw right now

Lost in the labyrinth of my mind

You were scared of his reaction, to look at him and see his eyes falling in pity for you; About him suddenly telling you to go home because he didn't felt the same and saying that this wouldn't work between you two. But to be honest, you couldn't hide anymore, not for him and not for yourself. You needed to break free from this labyrinth you created on your mind, there's no way you could keep up with this and stay cool like it didn't made your chest burn everytime you looked at him.

He surprised you by just laughing softly.

Break up, break free, break through, break down

You would break your back to make me break a smile

“Well, i’m pretty sure i am terriefiedly in love with you.”

You swore that if this was a joke you would combust and turn into a million pieces of yourself, no one would ever find you again.

Your eyes caught up at his sparkling hazel irises that conveyed how much he begged for the same answer. You always felt something carving like a dagger inside your chest when he looked at you like that, like you could break him with any wrong do.

It was absolutely terrifying how easy he broke you to this, to this situation where you could never lie and deny that you felt the exactly same for him. You were head over heels for him. Not in a million of worlds you could imagine that Spencer Reid felt the same thing you did for him, but you were also pretty sure that you were the one who would end up with the heart completely shattered if this ever come to an end.

“I love you so much, Spence.” You said, and then his lips parted open and you were able to feel his sweet taste coming into yours.

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ihugzminseo · 4 months

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INTRODUCTION ⋆·˚ ༘ *

hihi, I'm bbyong! im 20, and im a sophomore at pvamu majoring in juvenile justice (working towards getting my master of science!!)

NOTES.

• i write mxgn, fxgn, mxm and fxf so long as all idols requested are of legal age (my idea of "legal age" is a little different from society's.. just because they're 18, does not mean i will write about them. i.e. i'd feel way more comfortable writing about hyewon or sakura than i would yujin or wonyoung, so please request idols over 21 or i will ignore you!)

• all my work is written in a second person perspective (you, your, yours, etc..) and i will by no means write in first person (feels weird..) or third person (just not my writing style) so if that doesn't appeal to what you want please dni!

• i do cheer, step, volleyball and i babysit so i cannot write/respond to requests in the snap of a finger so please don't be upset if i post anything a little bit late!

• any (very) specific requests might take a while cause my writing is not too advanced (i.e. pervert!idol, dom!idol, etc..)

• i have gps (grammatical pedantry syndrome) so i am VERY particular about my writing but english isn't my first language so please be kind and respectfully let me know if you see any errors (yes i proofread but i read a little fast, any hateful comments pointing out errors will be deleted and the OP will be blocked.)

• im very new to writing on tumblr (i used to write on wattpad, but all my old fics are deleted/in my notes app because oh my DAYS they were bottom of the barrel doodoo dog water writing..) so please be easy with me!

RULES.

• as i stated before, i do NOT write about idols under 21; so if you request anything about idols under 21, even fluff, you will be blocked.

• majority of my works will be smut in one form or another, so minors PLEASE do not interact.

• do NOT follow if you have an ageless account, i will assume you're a minor and block you.

• please don't spam me with your thoughts; i get mentally overstimulated very easily, and if someone spams me i take that as pressure to write and i do NOT work well under pressure.

EXTRA.

• as aforementioned, im new to writing on tumblr so obviously my works aren't gonna be perfect while i learn the swing of things but take it easy cause im not a terrible writer im just not used to writing on here! ^^

• i know someone will say something about my name (it's inevitable), so yes i do know bbyong is an onomatopoeic goodbye in korean!! but you can't lie it is so much fun to say 😭😭

• im getting into so many new groups so if you request a nugu idol and i don't describe them to a tea like you imagined im so sorry, but atp my memory is deteriorating so bad that i barely even remember my ult biases birthdays </3 (august 11th and may 28th. I WILL NEVER FORGET THESE DAYS I JUST NEEDED AN ANALOGY)

BYE-BYE!

• im currently working on a 3-part changbin and jisung x reader fanfic and im still on part one so please wait for that!!! it will be uploaded piece by piece, and part 3 should be uploaded before april 30th if my writers block doesn't kick in too bad..!

– signing off, this has been bbyong! bye-bye! 💋

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