gathering source material for my presentation about the early icos fandom's treatment of boyd beaulieu. here is my thesis from my twitter.

if anyone remembers any cursed posts PLEASE jog my memory.

i want to be held i want to be read to i want to be cradled i want someone to hold my hand i want someone to cup my face that i feel like melting into a puddle or combusting into flames i want someone to sing to me i want someone who won’t turn away i want

omw to getting some new facets at the store anyone wants something

tfw........ in bed

huh

kassian in session complaining abt this guy hes had an on and off relationship w who treats him like a fuckboy who is incapable of feelings and then ann going to lunch with her brother and hes like kassian trovosky has been up in my business lately. its annoying as hell waiting for him to lose interest. and she cant even say anything so shes just like

hsin liu vega, who was raised on classics and paradise lost instead of fairytales and bible stories spends eight years of his life waiting to be rescued by a God-like father figure before he cant anymore. and he has to take his salvation into his own hands. and when hes free, finally free, he meets his father and realizes just how misguided all his hopes of a safe, comforting relationship are. but that doesnt stop him from not only taking his fathers abuse, but internalizing it. not just rationalizing his behavior but loving him for it, because in a way, it is what he had wished for, to be safe, to be cared for.

got me feeling some kind of way thinking abt how the first time boyd gets outraged at something hsin did its when he fucks another woman. not. yanno. the atrocities

kitten i need you to promise daddy something. promise me you wont interact with posts i made on tumblr.com when i was 14. unless theyre really funny

cant believe carhart really never noticed that emilio was hiding a whole ass child from him.

carhart, opening emilios fridge: why do you have like, three boxes of yoo-hoo

emilio, 24 yo with a 10 yo who doesnt drink water, only chocolate milk: its a drink mixer

thinking fake lexington is in massachusetts is out. thinking fade took place at bard college is IN

i miss tatsuya suou

i know the sex ryan and kassian had after hsin died was crazy

putting this under a readmore cuz im talking about chronic illness but also cuz my medical special interest is showing