SITTING HERE GRIPPING TH TABLE CLENCHING MY TEETH TRYING TO BREATHE AND FAILING THIS WAS SO SICK OF THEM TO KILL ME LIKE they did it TWICE in OC chapter 2 where the flame of his cigarette is lit and YOU KNOW YOU KNOW YOU KNOW IT WAS GUDA WHO LIT THAT FLAME (idk if guda did that actually in the part where it was a voiced line in the end by nobu but my extreme delusion tells me its fujimaru ritsuka bc why not light his cigarette one last time?). but especially where guda who came for the avengers just as the king of the cavern came for them during temple of time. then gakutsuou told them theyve grown and that was the same case as now as they face cagliostro like theyve been through so much together ohh im in tears im just sobbing please help me please please save me and it was also none other than a call back to the final singularity where he helped his accomplice, came for his accomplice and supported them and he did it again in shimousa and the lostbelts with aphrodite and in lostbelt 2 and even events like the summer camp and you can also see in some interludes and rank ups that he's helping with guda's trash heap by burning these residues that cling to them, that weigh them down even as they overcame them years ago i feel sick he lives in guda's shadow and in their mind protecting them almost everywhere they go and in this story that is about to end, i will light your cigarette one last time.

i ask that you lend me your flame just as you have borrowed mine. this is a goodbye. just as we met in that apartment, just as we met in that prison, this place is where we say goodbye. but this is for now. simply for now. it's been a long... long journey for us, ritsuka. but for now, this will be the last time i- no, we will push your back so you could reach that destination. all the stars under the heavens are watching. know that there is light wherever you go. so wait... and hope, my accomplice.

Thinks fondly of Guda joking about Edmond putting himself in their father’s role in ID, Edmond sighing and just opening his arms, “Wha— hey, what’ee you doing?”

Edmond slowly pulling Guda into a hug and Guda’s trying to deflect before they just melt in his arms and its just

Them just melting in his arms and sniffling and its just,,, UUUGHHUGHGHH

another dream sequence event successfully prevented

(double skadi off screen btw lol)

Hi i'm just gonna slide into the tag here and tell everyone PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE if you haven't to go listen to the Frank Wildhorn count of monte cristo musical (it's on spotify so)

the plot isn't 1:1 for the book ofc (mostly cutting characters for brevity) but the sONGS THE SONGS MY GOD THE S O N G S.

hell to your doorstep is the big avenger number and i cannot get our dantes singing it out of my head there's even such good fire/flames metaphors in it also its a fucking BANGER

but. more pertinently. two of the big love songs - i will be there, a dantes/mercedes duet after dantes is imprisoned, and the man i used to be, the finale song - USE STAR METAPHORS!! THEY DO!!!

i'm gonna post lyrics chunks under a cut but holy shit my god please go listen i had these songs on repeat for literally hours after oc2 while sobbing over dantes and guda

i will be there (its a duet but im only quoting dantes lines):

When you lift your gaze I will be like the shimmer of one small star Out there Shining everywhere

I will be there Beside you Through the lonely nights that fall So close your eyes Remember my embrace I will be there Like mercy I will find you through it all This do I swear I will be there

[Edmond] In the stone and mortar [Both] In the star that we both share

the man i used to be

For all the pain is gone Hope is what moves on I will be there As near as her next prayer As merciful as sweet redemption Once blind, now I see Once a slave, I'm free Give me a star To homeward guide my heart To resurrect a part of me The man who I used to be

JUST!!!! THAT LAST VERSE THERE!!!! HURGLES IN EDGUDA!!! O STAR/O YOU LIGHT THE PATH TOWARDS BRILLIANCE!!!! LIES DOWN

EDGUDA UTENA REFERENCE ! ! !

I kept seeing edguda posts that made me miss playing so i contacted support and got my fgo account back

FGO キスの日♥

※Please do not use, modify, crop, reprint in any form, or repost my works.

did u know,,, that I lov Ritsuka and would give my life for them at any given moment

NO WAY ISRFFGGTTGH USAGI ROUTO AGHHH SENSEIIII????? IM GOING CRAZY THIS IS TECHNICALLY OFFICIAL ART YOU CANT DO THIS TO ME.?!?!?????? EXPLODING EVERYONE????

the differences are making me crazy and crying... love how dantes is just straight up soft and even deadass nuzzling into dao meanwhile he who is resolve has that famous very small blush on his cheek like CLEARLY he loves it BUT as a man of Determination EX WHEN FACED WITH HiS DESTINY AND STAR he's reduced to this...............

ぐくんの背中の柄修正しますた

Sometimes I have a joy translating things I have no business translating because a lot of the edguda fics on ao3 are written by the chinese side of the fandom and the ending of this has me wheezing

“If you want next time, call me Lord” (which would be Count in this context?) he said almost with a little resentment. "No papa.”

SOMETIMES EDGUDA FANS HAVE A SINGULAR BRAINCELL AND—

a while back i felt like i needed some love so I drew a bunch of Servant/Gudako with my favorite Servants…yeah