KUBOSAI SCENARIO KUBOSAI SCENARIO

Saiki's Parents are on a travel, he's home alone,aren lives alone and they're on school vacations,Saiki ends up staying with aren for a couple days bc reasons it's not important

SOOOO

When they're staying up late watching a Yakuza movie on the living room or sm that kubo can talk off (maybe infodump) saiki starts to close his eyes bc he has been so freaking sleep deprived lately he's almost hallucinating

Kubo notices so he puts a blanket on his back while the movie ends so he can let saiki rest on the sofa before preparing the futon near to his bed,saiki tries to stay awake but is just babblings inconsistencies and kubo says something among the lines "haha I never thought I could see you like this! I could even call you "kusuo" being this close" and saiki growls or proyects something that makes clear sm it's disgusting him but it's not specific and aren goes "uh?" and saiki is so dizzy and strangely calm that "[no…,I don't like it…]" and aren tries to convince him that it is a really good name until the things go "I think it's good,like,manly!" "[Mmm…that's the problem]" "…?" saiki thinks,kubo can keep his mouth shut most that the others and is sure that he wouldn't betray them on any situation so,why not? "[Kusuo is too masculine,Kuriko is too feminine,I'm…both but I don't like extremes…]" Kubo losses his FUCKING MIND,like hIS MOST RESERVED AND QUIET "FRIEND" HAS JUST COME OUT TO HIM ON HIS HOUSE WHERE HE–SHE(?),WHERE SAIKI IS GOING TO STAY FOR DAYS NOW

Saiki is regretting to say anything hearing the desperation in Aren's thoughts because he does not know what to do. Saiki settles down, hiding his face in the pillow he is hugging and Aren's head falls silent as a decent thing to say crosses his mind "So,if you don't like those is there some name that you like to be called?" Saiki hesitates on answer "[…(some neutral name that keeps the "ku" at the beginning)]" "oh that's…an excellent name!"

Then it's a "talk" (saiki is half asleep already) abt names and others things until they both fall asleep

+You can add nonbinary kubo too with breaking the egg or sm like "Wait- there is a term for that?"

The four alignments of Tummy Hurt

"why is there only 1 RB per planet. why dorsn't the moon get an RB. what even is a soul" are all good questions and i have another!

if john killing the planets produced the resurrection beasts, if the reason he killed the planets was to get a thanergy boost from their deaths, and a thing must have a soul for it to be killed, does this mean the fucking sun has a soul?

ugh you know before nona came out i was semi-convinced that alecto was actually the RB of the sun. which doesn't really make sense bc how could there be life on the sun. but john said he reignited the sun, and that he continued to power it, and his eyes kind of look like an eclipse, you get it. so YEAH i'm with you here, if john actually resurrected the sun then it seems like it's gotta have a soul right?!! IF john is telling the truth, which seems to be a big if, because in HTN right as we believe john's death is causing the sun to collapse he suddenly re-forms and tells augustine that he can't actually be killed by the RBs or by mercymorn, so no need to worry about Dominicus after all, except how it may have toasted the sixth a little bit there, whoopsie! BUT then in NTN john does say he "bit through the sun first" so like!! what is the deal!!

I DON'T HAVE TO LIE ANYMORE!

Today needs to be the day that I finish drafting The Paper of Doom. It doesn't need to be perfect; I just need to finish the last point and then come to some kind of conclusion. Hold me to it.

so tired of the 'they didn't show us every single tiny little detail unfolding in this story so I don't find it believable' take like... part of watching a story unfold is connecting dots between scenes and picking up on the general narrative and actually engaging logically with what you're watching not just letting colors flash before your eyes

i made my dentist appointment 😩

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A fundamental tension of Buffy's worldbuilding, which I dont think it ever resolves or ever can resolve, is that it needs vampires to be interesting characters without allowing them to be people.

If vampires and demons are just irredeemable soulless monsters who can be killed on sight -- if they can't ever be more than that, if the audience can't be allowed to empathize with them -- then they have to be … well, the Master. Or Luke, or Andrew Borba, or the Anointed One, or Zachary Kralik, or Adam. They have to be boring. The show could still just about work like that, keeping its focus solely on the human characters, but it wouldn't be as good.

But once vampires and demons start having personalities and relationships and character growth, once they start having flashbacks and inner lives and emotions, once we start seeing vampires like Spike and Drusilla? Well, then -- whatever the show says or doesn't say about souls -- they are clearly people. Which makes the fact that Buffy kills so many of them every week without remorse start to feel a bit weird if you think about it for too long.

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I just realised I never thought about why they even have court at night. is that a thing? that sounds weird.

actually first ep of Voyager where Janeway talks to Tuvok about how his family misses him is that when she says they Worry about him Tuvok contradicts her and claims that Vulcans don't do that but when she corrects and says they Miss him he accepts this and admits he misses them too; implying perhaps a pedantic difference between 'Vulcans do not Feel Emotions' (false) and 'Vulcans do not Act Out of Emotion' (accurate) -> 'Miss/Longing' is an emotion, but 'Worry' is an action one does out of emotion -> one Vulcans do; one Vulcans do not.

Sara is the monster that won't be stopped by anyone, strong that discards the weak if she votes for Kanna, but wait... she could have voted for Nao instead! Then there would be no need in worrying for her life anymore, no dangers, no enemies... I hope that this thought is brought up in logic route to show that Sara wasn't entirely selfish. Maybe the group will find the bodies, including Nao, to reflect on that? Also that way Nao is mentioned and is not forgotten

How do you feel about other people making fan art or fanfic about your oc Asheera? Like interacting with other Tavs or writing their own scenes?

Art? Please do! If anyone ever wants to they can. I'd love to know what an artist is making, and I'd love to see it before it's out for the rest of the world so I can offer early praise as well as suggestions or corrections, but please go ahead!

I expect people to credit artists, so I would expect another artist to credit Asheera as my OC and link to my stuff. That's basically all I expect.

Right now I can't commission anything (holidays go brrr) so please don't solicit for them 💜 Also, I have a lil blurb on my AO3 profile that covers the things that people have blanket permission on! It's never come up, but I made it years ago so I think I'll add onto it now...

I really appreciate the love and interest in Asheera if anyone felt compelled to write fic with her in it, that's really flattering! I really do mean that. Like, I wanna express that up front. Super flattering and I'm honored. I love everyone (mutuals, followers, drivebys, anons, all y'all) that pours love out for her and asks questions about her. I really do! But there is a line.

This is the condensed version of what I've spent the better part of an hour writing.

In advance, you don't really have to do this but for people that don't know — it's considered common courtesy in fanfic circles to ask about using other people's OCs in fanfiction.

Also: this is about fanfiction specifically, not the fun asks that come in, and it isn't a permission thing. I can't stop people from writing about her. I also can't stop how I know I will react, emotionally.

I would be very wary of why people would want to use her in fic and, if it was on AO3, why they felt the need to publish it. My immediate answer to a total stranger doing that is: I would probably be demotivated and depressed by it.

Please don't do it if you respect me as a person. This is for me as much as it is for you. Trust me.

Asheera isn't a self-insert, but I am very emotionally attached to her. She has projections of my transition and experience with transition in her. I would be extremely uncomfortable/borderline depressed to see her depicted in ways that don't conform to what I think of her. I also don't know what "interacting with other Tavs" really means without hard specifics. I do mean literally word-by-word on that.

I'm not pretending that this is a moral high ground or a logical stance. It's all an emotional reaction. I've had experience with my OCs being written in strangers' fics and it never ends well. It's made me possessive and controlling and I recognize that. I also recognize that it is not anyone else's job to monitor my emotions or feelings, so take my word at face value here.

This isn't even touching on the part where I'm actively writing for Asheera, have lots of unused ideas that I wouldn't want to see someone else write, and the clusterfuck it can create on tumblr/AO3 if someone assumes a one-time pass equals free reign to fanfiction.

Please respect my wishes 💜

okay okay hear me out

ima put this under a read more because i know there are people around who are generally uncomfortable with content relating to alcohol

but! I had a revelation about Jigen and his alcohol preferences.

Disclaimer, I am mildly tipsy as I am writing this. I may or may not get lost in my own thoughts, so please bear with me here, alright?

Content warnings: alcohol (of course), alcohol abuse, maybe more. I dunno at the moment.

Okay. Jigen's alcohol preferences.

At first I couldn't wrap my head around Jigen's appreciation of wine, like that guy's a borderline alcoholic with the way he drinks (which I extend into full-blown alcoholism in my writing, I'll get to this later on), he cannot possibly like wine, wine is weak, why would he even like the stuff?

I came at the issue from the point of view of someone who prefers liquor. Stuff like vodka, whiskey, borovička. You know, the heavy artillery. Poisons that dull the mind and destroy the liver.

But I've tried wine recently. Got the explanation of the ritual of wine-drinking.

And then it suddenly clicked.

Wine has its purpose in Jigen's toolkit of escapism. You have the cigarettes, a way to remind himself that he's not in danger, that he's out of the fight and just vibing, passing time, relaxing. Then there's scotch, the first-aid kit, when everything is too much and he's antsy and nervous and he needs to dull the edge. It's the painkiller, in a way. The glue to mend those invisible wounds, the cause and solution of all of world's problems.

And then there is wine.

It's not to be wielded like a sledgehamer known as liquor. Wine is a delicate tool, when liquor is too much, when he wants to relax, but he doesn't want to dull his senses too much. There aren't any demons to suffocate, he doesn't want to get drunk, his only intention is just to sit down, lean back, have a moment to himself.

To Jigen, wine is like classical music. It's not something to binge, but to immerse himself in, soak in it, have slow, ginger sips. Relish in the taste, the warmth. There's a reason the ancient Romans and Greeks had a god of wine.

Now, how does this tie to my 'Jigen is a barely functional alcoholic' headcanon?

It's the antithesis of liquor. Liquor is the main poison, Jigen pours it into himself to drown out the noise in his head, the lingering pains, to keep his limbs heavy and limp to keep himself from doing something worse. It's his salvation and his downfall, it frees the demons lurking in his mind, yet it keeps them docile, harmless. It allows his mind to swim along, face his fears, it frees his feelings... but it's also a pathway to destruction. With his thoughts and feelings freed comes a different danger - self-destruction. Liquor becomes not only the tool of healing, but one of destruction too. When a heist goes off the rails and they make it home, when the crushing weight of failure sets in and Lupin looks at him with a gaze full of apologies, that's when Jigen grabs his poison of choice and takes his anger out on himself. While Goemon subjects himself to gruelling training to make sure he doesn't fail again, Jigen instead drinks himself mute, lies on the ground staring emptily at the ceiling, reliving every past mistake. That's the start of the cycle, he falls into the drink, struggles to get out of it for months on end. Until his body starts showing the withdrawal symptoms when he's sobering up, the headaches, the feeling of a thousand ants marching all over his skin, the shadow people staring at him, the music plaing from the walls, the muffled conversations from other rooms that never happened, the way his hands shake...

Wine is a way for him to pace himself. His philosophy around wine is basically if someone drinks wine like liquor, there ain't no use hanging around them. Jigen doesn't want wine to become just another tool of thorough self-annihilation. Jigen sees wine as a way to regain control again. It's much weaker than liquor (if we ignore port wine, but I suspect he wouldn't like such wines), and, unlike the heavy artillery he relies on, wine has personality. While liquor is the path of scorched earth, wine is so much calmer. It has a soul, personality, it evolves like classical music. It has elaborate constructions, just swap the musical tones for taste ones.

He reaches for the wine when he doesn't want to fall into that horrible spiral.

Wine - along with food - marks the line between functionality and destruction.

Wine isn't something he can drink quickly. He tried, and found out it only makes him sick.

So he grabs a bottle of a four-year-old italian merlot. Pours himself a glass. Takes a sip. Feels the slight sourness at the back of his tongue. The woody tones playing at the rest of it. The sweetness at the very tip.

He stares down the beast. Sleeping, yet aware. And while he stays with the wine, it'll remain asleep.

I don't know where I was going with this. I blame the wine.

I can see how the regional phenomena in totk is basically totk's version of a modern 4 horsemen of the apocalypse: pollution (the sludge), addiction (marbled rock roast), climate change (the extreme blizzard; admittedly this one is a bit of a stretch), and pestilence/infectious disease (the giant mosquito boss and the undead gibdo). Which, hey, references to real life issues, great, but what I didn't like so much was how you can just solve puzzles and fight bosses--basically have a handful of big name heroes running around doing tasks--and the water will magically clear up, the addicts will magically become normal people again, the extreme storms will magically dissipate, and the pestilence will magically disappear. Real life does not work that way. I know, I know, it's a game why you taking it so seriously blah blah, but I'm just saying, we have to remember that for any of these problems to be solved, it takes a lot of effort and cooperation from a lot of people to accomplish, and that's definitely an understatement.