harlan guthrie can SING too????

@tea-em0​ tagged me in this 8D

Three Ships:

vi/caitlyn (arcane), aoba/clear (dmmd), towa/fujieda (slow damage)

First Ship:

i think it was some OTPs from Fruits Basket, Hana Kimi, or X/1999 but i can’t remember. i know my first ships when I got into yaoi were >_> Soubi/Ritsuka from Loveless or Yoite/Miharu from Nabari no Ou (even tho its not officially a BL) or Hiroki/Nowaki from Junkou romantica in some unknown order

Last Song:

The nexus by Amaranthe (i’ve been getting back into my rock phase from before 2020 lol)

Last Movie:

Wakanda forever. it was alright and i appreciated how they tackled the challenges the movie faced

Currently Reading:

I usually read multiple at a time. So currently Viral Airwaves by Claude Arsenault, Rebel Robin (Stranger Things), and Escape to Pirate Island by Niami murphy. But more frequently xD i’ve been reading ao3 xD and the occasional dojinshi scanlation >_>

Currently Watching:

most recent was the Chucky TV series, although my family is also rewatching the OG pokemon series (and we’re planning to rewatch the rest of pokemon + the movies)

Currently Consuming:

xD i’m about to go to sleep so the last thing i drank was water

Currently Craving:

food-wise? some gooood chocolate arrrrgh

Currently Listening to:

(So this year i mostly listened to sheridan tapes, woe.begone, desperado, malevolent, mission rejected, quiet part loud, hi nay, kingmaker, and trice forgotten bc they were ongoing/had new episodes. however i also discovered Vacant Arcadia, The Line, and Splintered Caravan, altho i only really recommend Vacant Arcadia as needing new listeners which i’ve relistened to 3x since i discovered it haha.) but as of the end of december, i would say i’m basically only listening to ongoing December shows, so that would be woe.begone weekly, although someone dies in this elevator, sidequesting, mission rejected have new episodes and [I WAS VERY EXCITED] Hit the Bricks and Keep It Steady’s newest episodes. You NEED to check out the latter 2 shows, i think they’re FINALLY out of hiatus.

oop this got way too long.

Tagging: @kahtiihma @boombox-fuckboy @yukirayu @artistic-w1tch @collegedruledzebra and anyone else who sees this i suppose xD

Concept: AU or headcanons (you decide!) where Athy grows up under Anastasius' tutelage meanwhile Jeanette grows up with Claude's in the royal palace. How much would that change them?

OHHHH ANON HOW YOU HAVE IGNITED THE FLAMES OF WAR WITHIN ME ISTG REVENGE REVENGE REVENGE DELIGHTFUL I- *insert incoherent rambling about how much I love smart! athy here*

WMMAP/Who made me a princess

Ship: Gen/no ship

Genre: AU/with lil headcanons sprinkled in 

Word count: 760

Jennette, known as the pure, the lovely princess of the Obelian empire, who with the love of everyone, her citizens and father included, she lives a life that everyone desires. Everyday she looks out the windows towards the lake, everyday she sits with her father to have tea with him, everyday she lives as if nothing is wrong because- there isn’t. 

But still. 

No matter how good, no matter how talented she was at dancing, or embroidery, or arranging tea parties, she could not take up father’s reins even as his heir. She tried, she really did try.

She sits down with those who graduated with the highest scores, and she looks at the numbers and words swirling on the pages, with their voices droning on in the background, and she just couldn’t.

She had the best tutors, the best officials, and everyone surrounded her with such high expectations she couldn’t get rid of them with her longing for a simpler day to follow. 

Her father looks at her work day to day, month to month, until one day, he doesn’t call for her to bring him the assigned work. Jennette later hears that it was because he had appointed a regent position in case something happens to him with his failing health.

Her heart falls as she listens to the couriers whispering in the hall. She sticks closer to father after that. 

But not long after, Claude de Alger Obelia dies, for reasons unknown to even the best and brightest Imperial mages. And Jennette became an Empress in name, and name alone.

A figure-head that had no real power but sat on the golden throne to look pretty as her appointed regent did things in her stead. A lifeless, forever lovely princess. 

That was all she ever was in life, and all she would ever be.

Athanasia at a young age learns from her uncle, with his dark Obelian eyes and hair that captures the sun in its locks, and a black heart that could rival the worst of malevolent demons, that her father was nothing to her.

He had abandoned her for her uncle’s child-a daughter he no longer hoped for, and instead of bemoaning her fate, she works on policies and sword mastery as if the devil possessed her, and her intelligence helps her soak up knowledge, endlessly.

Anastasius watches her fling her mana at a target and sees it burn up in a sea of blue flames, and smiles. 

She did not say of how she wanted to be a princess like her cousin, or how she wanted her rightful place back, she simply went on being herself, and her fist lights up in electric strands as she looks at the eyes of the Imperial family in the mirror and across from her at the table.

Just as how Anastasius didn’t tell her of how his eyes burned with black rage as he stared at the palace in the distance. The palaces that were supposed to be his, would always be his. 

He tells her of black magic when she was ready, because even if she wasn’t his own, he had raised her with all the feelings he had left. Their blonde hair and blue eyes were disguised with it, how her father was dying with Jennette by his side, and Athanasia seems to cover her laugh with her hand.

He asks her why.

She snickers as she throws out a, "Well, uncle- she was named as god’s most precious, but she’s doing exactly the opposite to the one who dethroned the tyrant, isn’t it ironic?"

They make it to the palace just as it is ready to fall, because even with her lovely name and appearance, Jennette would have never been able to stop a war. It had long been in motion.

 Their quiet army of troops standing ready to storm the doors, and their black hair and black eyes shimmered under the firelight and in a sweeping motion, their eyes and hair were plain to see.

Claude, who had fallen victim, was no longer there to protect his people, his heir. And with a relish that could not be put into mere words, Athanasia and Anastasius rip through them as if they were paper. 

The lovely princess falls at last. And there sits an emperor rightfully crowned, who once had sat in that golden throne before. Now with a new lovely princess at his side, one that was truly worthy of her name. 

              Long live the Imperial bloodline. Bow before their immortality. 

I need an ENTIRE afternoon wall of noise. 4/3 music library on shuffle until I hit a killdozer song.

the thermals - “god and country” reset - "double cross" nirvana - "polly" (1986-88 home recording) nirvana - "radio friendly unit shifter" (2013 mix) peterbuilt - "sateliteyes" the dickies - "got it at the store" apocalypse hoboken - "box of pills" fiona apple - "slow like honey" tex & the horseheads - "big boss man" everclear - "the drama king" anti-flag - "america got it right" neil young - "tonight's the night, pt. ii" everclear - "brown-eyed girl" noooooooooo oh my god no please millencolin - “israelites" listen you know that i'm p tolerant when it comes to this subject but why specifically did you boys do this. specifically you useless id - "note" never accuse me of pop punk nationalism again! that's three of global pop punk the selecter - "selling out your future" built to spill - "some things last a long time" holidays - "proof" let's wrestle - "bad mammaries" radhos - "one breath" ween - "boing" bracket - "g-vibe" local h - "'cha!' said the kitty" sublime - "40oz to freedom" failure - "saturday saviour" blink-182 - "don't leave me" (tmtts live take) why did they make this live album, they were so bad live shrimp boat - "melon song" interpol - "not even jail" the ataris - "angry nerd rock" 50 million - "superhero" skankin pickle - "violent love" the breeders - "put on a side" all - "honey peeps" the commandos (suicide commandos) - "weekend warrior" suicide machines - "friends are hard to find" the eclectics - "laura" good ska block! love this band pansy division - "jack u off" rocket from the tombs - "ain't it fun" dynamite boy - "devoted" young pioneers - "downtown tragedy" the breeders - "so sad about us" fenix tx - "jean claude trans am" fuck i love this song nofx - "bob" hickey - "happily ever after" bob dylan - "tangled up in blue" (bootlegs vol. 2) gas huffer - "king of hubcaps" tullycraft - "crush this town" atom and his package - "goalie" faith no more - "the real thing" carly rae jepsen - "tell me" bis - "listen up" one direction - "still the one" mtx - "she's no rocket scientist" eugene chadbourne - "roger miller medley" grouvie ghoulies - "carly simon" white town - "thursday at the blue note" gas huffer - "moon mission" rx bandits - "sleepy tyme" everclear - "rocket for the girl" failure - "kindred" blood on the saddle - "johnny's at the fair" the distillers - "red carpet and rebellion" cruiserweight - "dearest drew" stp - "plush" everclear - "wonderful" (live, from the closure ep) (don't hate it) new found glory - "sonny" everclear - "otis redding" (impure white evil demo) (BEST song) stp - "adhesive" incubus - "have you ever" cub - "tell me now" everclear - "short blonde hair" i simply do not hate it letters to cleo - "happy ever after" amazing transparent man - “the ocean is a fuck of a long way to swim” nerf herder - “(stand by your) manatee” kitty kitty - “ab tokeless” osker - “the mistakes you made” perfume genius - “hood” radhos - “shut up & deal” (welcome to the jungle take) osker - “the body”  gas huffer - “the sin of sloth” the fall - “bombast” excuse 17 - “code red” mad season - “lifeless dead” unwritten law - “differences” hanson - “two tears” the eyeliners - “anywhere but here” moby grape - “lazy me” brian wilson - “wonderful” 88 fingers louie - “something i don’t know” sicko - “wisdom tooth weekend” the replacements - “love you till friday” suicide machines - “green world” midtown - “another boy” hickey - “cool kids attacked by flying monkeys” the roman invasion suite - “carnations” the beat - “tears of a clown” local h - “24 hour break up session” okay i’m awake i want to end this now toots & the maytals - “funky kingston” local h - “strict-9″ his name is alive - “her eyes were huge things” nirvana - “frances farmer will have her revenge on seattle” slapstick - “almost punk enough” urge overkill - “bionic revolution” janet jackson - “you want this” piebald - “long nights” small brown bike - “now i’m a shadow” the story so far - “left unsaid” crj - “more than a memory” tracy + the plastics - “my friends end parties” liz phair - “6′1″“ fastbacks - “555, pt. 1″ this mix is feminist now swindle - “one track” shockabilly - “burma shave” temple of the dog - “say hello to heaven” amazing transparent man - “shove” cool soul asylum cover from dekalb illinois :)) the vindictives “eating me alive” midwests only!! the judys - “radiation squirm” gulfs only!! frogpond - “sleep” flipp - “rock-n-roll star” throwing muses - “red shoes” everclear - “santa monica” throwing muses on summerland??? mekons - “atone & forsaken” holidays - “take me home country roads” this is a good tone to lead up to killdozer... true believers - “all mixed up again” prince - “adore” beulah - “queen of the populists” eveclear - “rocky mountain high” (99x live acoustic--I don’t have a date for this actually) of montreal - “dustin hoffman thinks about eating the soap” heatmiser - “stray” rickie lee jones - “woody and dutch on the slow train to peking” tar - “viaduct removal” common rider - “carry on” the frogs - “u bastards” mudhoney - “this gift” hammerbox - “outside” fuck my mom would have loved this song if it had gotten the airplay it deserved in 1993... hammerbox on summerland!!!! letters to cleo - “little rosa” kay hanley on summerland!! nine pound hammer “wrongside of the road” hanson - “with you in your dreams” (3cg demo) hamson on summerland!!! fastbacks - “555, pt. 1″ again... fastbacks on summerland!!! face to face - “sensible” soul asylum - “happy” soul asylum on summerland!!!! television - “see no evil” pinq - “careful not to mention the obvious” the dickies - “nights in white satin” tar - “mel’s” truly - “chlorine” babes in toyland - “deep song” hole - “berry” hellbender - “half driven” hammerhead  - “new york? ...alone?” everclear - “malevolent” guzzard - “last”  archers of loaf - “tatyana” hum - “stars” hum on summerland die kreuzen - “don’t say please” this is not fair joanna newsom - “sadie” down by law - “peace, love and understanding” nirvana - “aneurysm” (1990 demo) hovercraft - “endoradiosonde” modest mouse - “cowboy dan” rage against the machine - “born of a broken man” skatalites - “scandal ska” pylon - “driving school” the vindictives - “babysitter” jimmy eat world - “ten” the get up kids - “lowercase west thomas” oh we’re doing this now? hot rod circuit - “knees” fine triple fast action - “the rescue” FINE  full disclosure i do skip emo diaries tracks at my discretion the amps - “bragging party” everclear - “am radio” this is not fair mxpx - “middlename” MXPX ON SUMMERLAND chokebore - “your let down” bob dylan - “you’re a big girl now” helmet - “primitive” pond - “filterless” blink-182 - “all the small things” local h - “ralph” tar - “over and out” pearl jam - “black” the gits - “sniveling little rat faced git” local h - “eddie vedder” >:) tar - “flow plow” i always misremember this as a subpop single so i’m like “i’m not amphetamine reptile biased?” but it was an a/r release, lol. brad wood produced it. lake michigan as hell  unicorns - “jellybones” this song makes me sad ever since i didn’t get to adopt the jellybones cat oblivion - “clark” desmond dekker - “jeserene” veruca salt - “one last time” veruca salt on summerland!!!! dead moon - “dead moon night” extremely dead moon on summerland fishbone - “i like to hide behind my glasses” dead moon - “on my own” paw - “sleeping bag” tar - “goethe” doc dart - “casket with flowers” smashing pumpkins - “zero” i don’t want billy corgan on summerland and i am sorry for that kicking giant - “&” kicking giant on summerland lmao shockabilly - “pile up all architecture” ween - “sorry charlie” sublime - “april 29, 1992 (miami)” heatmiser - “blackout” the clash - “pressure drop” hellbender - “pissant’s retrospective” the queers - “i won’t be” the vindictives - “circles” the beat farmers - “selfish heart” screaming trees - “end of the universe” 7 year bitch - “second hand” bourgeois filth - “above” nirvana - “scoff” the breeders - “cannonball” saturday looks good to me - “save my life” cara beth satalino - “good ones” communique - “dagger version” soul asylum - “sometime to return” sublime - “jailhouse” tullycraft - “twee” nuns - “wild” beyonce - “countdown” the replacements - “sixteen blue” living colour - “what’s your favorite color” britney - “why should i be sad” mdc - “church and state” alice in chains - “junkhead” rage against the machine - “mic check” everclear - “nervous and weird” soundgarden - “fresh tendrils” helmet - “army of me” the gits - “it all dies anyway” pansy division - “smells like queer spirit” mtx - “i’d do anything for you” 5 year sentence - “just a punk” pennywise - “nothing” mudhoney - “thirteenth floor opening” yesterday’s kids - “eighteen” mxpx - “punk rawk show” small brown bike - “zerosum” incubus - “trouble in 421″ hanson - “speechless” incubus - “circles” dead moon - “my time has come” (!!!!) first of all is this killdozer blink-182 - “here’s your letter” everclear - “electra made me blind” (nervous & weird take) saves the day - “through being cool” groovie ghoulies - “don’t go out into the rain (you’re gonna melt)” babes in toyland - “never” husker du - “target” guzzard - “biro” fairweather - “next day flight” mcr - “house of wolves” broadcast - “until then” liz phair - “never said” the dicks - “rich daddy” quasi - “the iron worm” mustard plug - “not again” janitor joe - “boyfriend” snapcase - “new academy” neil young - “someday” blindsided - “spaceman” placebo - “without you i’m nothing” the creeps - “lakeside cabin” solomon grundy - “time is not your own” the clash - “the card cheat” silversun pickups - “common reactor” lagwagon - “leave the light on” denali - “where i landed” system of a down - “highway song” sprinkler - “personality doll” the vindictives - “structure and function” unplugged” the queers - “ursula finally has tits” we’re entering no repeats territory  buffalo springfield - “expecting to fly” hit squad - “pictures of matchstick men” cows - “almost a god” hop along - “young and happy” pixies - “i’ve been tired” the fall - “spoilt victorian child” camper van chadbourne - “knock on the door” queens of the stone age - “tension head” choking victim - “war story” cool that we have gotten to drop by the greatest song ever recorded :) guttermount - “happy loving couples” audio karate - “nintendo 89″ tad - “pork chop” the kelley deal 6000 - “where did the home team go” colorfinger - “hateful” :} man or astroman - “evil plans of planet spectra” pere ubu - “arabian nights” accepting repeats for  new found glory - “my friends over you” cool moving on american steel - “optimist” tom petty & the heartbreakers - “even the losers” meat puppets - “another moon” black cat music - “wine in a box” wallside - “ready” crucifucks - “pig in a blanket” the bananas - “my charmed life”

KILLDOZER - “EARL SCHEIB,” UNCOMPROMISING WAR ON ART UNDER THE DICTATORSHIP OF THE PROLETARIAT, 1994. KILLDOZER ON SUMMERLAND

Five Interesting Nonfiction Books:

Brother, I'm Dying by Edwidge Danticat - From the age of four, Edwidge Danticat came to think of her uncle Joseph, a charismatic pastor, as her “second father,” when she was placed in his care after her parents left Haiti for a better life in America. Listening to his sermons, sharing coconut-flavored ices on their walks through town, roaming through the house that held together many members of a colorful extended family, Edwidge grew profoundly attached to Joseph. He was the man who “knew all the verses for love.” And so she experiences a jumble of emotions when, at twelve, she joins her parents in New York City. She is at last reunited with her two youngest brothers, and with her mother and father, whom she has struggled to remember. But she must also leave behind Joseph and the only home she’s ever known. Edwidge tells of making a new life in a new country while fearing for the safety of those still in Haiti as the political situation deteriorates. But Brother I’m Dying soon becomes a terrifying tale of good people caught up in events beyond their control. Late in 2004, his life threatened by an angry mob, forced to flee his church, the frail, eighty-one-year-old Joseph makes his way to Miami, where he thinks he will be safe. Instead, he is detained by U.S. Customs, held by the Department of Homeland Security, brutally imprisoned, and dead within days. It was a story that made headlines around the world. His brother, Mira, will soon join him in death, but not before he holds hope in his arms: Edwidge’s firstborn, who will bear his name—and the family’s stories, both joyous and tragic—into the next generation. Told with tremendous feeling, this is a true-life epic on an intimate scale: a deeply affecting story of home and family—of two men’s lives and deaths, and of a daughter’s great love for them both. (Goodreads)

An Invisible Geography By Nadine Pinede - In this debut chapbook, Nadine Pinede traverses her own geographies of hope--from the glamour and grit of a Paris sidewalk that frames her parents' first meeting; to the scarlet plumes of the Bastille Day parades of her birth; to the turbulent historical wealth and mortal devastation of her native Haiti after the 2010 earthquake. Richly imaged and evocative, these are poems whose darkness is tempered with light. These are poems of a global citizen, who empathizes with the plight and struggle of her fellow beings, claims her identity and the integrity of her origins, and finds strength in all of our broken places. (Amazon)

A Sky the color of chaos: based on the true story of my Haitian Childhood by M.J. Fievre - A Sky the Color of Chaos chronicles M.J.’s perilous childhood during the turbulent rise and fall of Haiti’s President-Priest — a time of nightly shootings, home invasions, robberies, and the burning of former regime members in neighborhood streets. Haiti’s rich culture and breathtaking beauty are contrasted not only with the terror in Port-au-Prince’s streets, but also with the turmoil inside M.J.’s own home. Her father’s hot-blooded nature and unpredictable moods amplify her fevered need to escape a homeland where random violence and bloodshed are commonplace. (Goodreads)

So Spoke the Earth (English Edition): The Haiti I Knew, the Haiti I Know, the Haiti I Want to Know by M.J. Fievre - This multilingual anthology of literature about Haiti explores the country's past, present and future as experienced by its diverse inhabitants over the past four decades. Presenting each work in its original language (English, French, and Haitian Creole), SO SPOKE THE EARTH features the accounts of both Haitian and non-Haitian writers and their attempts to grapple with the impact left on them by their personal experiences with the island-nation. Through various narratives and poems, the literary legacy and unique history of the island are highlighted in content and style. This is an important anthology about Haiti in that it is a celebration of Haitian spirit, multiculturalism and diversity. 54 contributors include Edwidge Danticat, Jan Mapou, Marilene Phipps-Kettlewell, Joanne Hyppolite, Kathie Klarreich, Margaret Papillon, Gariot Pierre Louima, Nathalie Foy, Marie-Alice Theard, and many more, for an eclectic, international combination of established and emerging writers. (Goodreads)

Haiti: State Against Nation: The Origins and Legacy of Duvalierism by Michel-Rolph Trouillot - In the euphoria that followed the departure of Haiti's hated dictator, Jean-Claude Duvalier, most Haitian and foreign analysts treated the regimes of the two Duvaliers, father and son, as a historical nightmare created by the malevolent minds of the leaders and their supporters. Yet the crisis, economic and political, that faces this small Caribbean nation did not begin with the dictatorship, and is far from being solved, despite its departure from the scene. In this fascinating study, Haitian-born Michel-Rolph Trouillot examines the mechanisms through which the Duvaliers ruthlessly won and then held onto power for twenty-nine years.Trouillot's theoretical discussion focuses on the contradictory nature of the peripheral state, analyzing its relative autonomy as a manifestation of the growing disjuncture between state and nation. He discusses in detail two key characteristics of such regimes: the need for a rhetoric of "national unity" coupled with unbridled violence. At the same time, he traces the current crisis from its roots in the nineteenth-century marginalization of the peasantry through the U.S. occupation from 1915 to 1934 and into the present. He ends with a discussion of the post-Duvalier period, which, far from seeing the restoration of civilian-led democracy, has been a period of increasing violence and economic decline. (Goodreads)

NO MOVIE??? NO MOVIE FOR JOHN??? OH! OH! JAIL FOR ARTHUR!! JAIL FOR ARTHUR FOR ONE THOUSAND YEARS!!!

i thinkthe sheer amount of times some variation of fuck is said in malevolent really contributes to the realism. i too would be saying what the fuck every minute and a half if confronted with eldritch horrors beyond my comprehension.

ough. okay i'm all caught up on malevolent now. i'm never going to be normal again. sorry.

OH GOOD LORD WHAT THE FUCK OH MY GOD WHAT THE FUCK WHY IS KELLIN HERE. WHERE IS JOHN. WHAT IS GOING ON.

NEW MALEVOLENT??? NEW MALEVOLWNT???????? IM LIKE 8 HOURS LATE BUT NEW MALEVOLENT!!!!???!!!!!!!!!!!!!!?!?!?!!??!!!!!!

Arthur. Arthur i love you but it may not be the best time to get into the details of how your daughter died. you are in a life-or-death situation. i think this can wait.

JOHNS THE KING IN YELLOW??? WHAT???? THEYRE IN THE FUCKING DREAMLANDS???? WHAT ON GODS GREEN EARTH IS GOING ON/

i feel like arthur is forgetting that he's a wanted criminal.

IVE COME TO MAKE AN ANNOUNCEMENT. THE KING IN YELLOW IS A BITCH ASS MOTHERFUCKER.

i don't think i'm ever going to recover from malevolent part 20. what the hell was that. (<- meant in both a very positive way and an incredibly devastated way)

IS ARTHUR GOING TO BE OKAY??? I MEAN HES OBVIOUSLY NOT OKAY MENTALLY BUT PHYSICALLY???? ITS LIKE HIS FIFTH OR SIXTH TIME GETTING SHOT AND I'M ONLY ON EPISODE 9. IM A BIT WORRIED FOR OUR GUY.