Also with Nikki ‘changing,’ I think it’s very synonymous with how so many young girls in this age are expected to look ‘very feminine’ by wearing tons of makeup, following skin routines, and conforming to otherwise very toxic standards at a VERY young age so they don’t appear ‘ugly’ since tween culture is basically dying out 💔
The latest Camp Camp episode makes me wonder why they didn't try making a parody of the Lord of the Flies before. The whole plot is so funnily ridiculous.
I don't know what emotion I'm feeling, I'm just going to say I feel seen with the whole gender part of this episode, especially with Nerris's whole journey with gender and feminity.
Now normally I keep my personal stuff on the down low for obvious reasons, but when I was a little "girl" I remember going to my father's wedding in a dress and hating every minute of it. Wanting to play with the boys more because they normally had epic Nerf wars.
I couldn't use slang at my dad's house because it was not what girls do, I had to use long words for anything. An example would be he wouldn't let me say hi, I always needed to say greetings or hello while my twin brother could say hey or hi.
Now in the episode the whole symbolism with the flowerscouts and woodscouts, the hyper feminity of the room, just struck me hard in my memory cord, it's embarrassing to admit but I began to tear up at seeing the pink and flowery wallpapers, the daintiness of it all, and how I hated it. I still haven't come to terms with the fact that feminity isn't this huge beast that wants to swallow me whole that I need to destroy, I know it's just like anything a form of expression., but just because you know, doesn't mean it doesn't hurt to see.
This got way too personal, sorry about that. You look pretty/ handsome. Oh and go hug something or someone if you need to. The world is scary and you shouldn't deprive yourself of a little comfort.