All Because of a Jacket
Stiles x Reader
GIF Not Mine
Summary: A collection of the times Stiles lends Y/N his lacrosse jacket.
Warnings: None.
Word Count: 2,039
A/N: I have no idea where this came from guys. Actually, I do—I ordered myself a Stiles lacrosse jacket and I’ve been living in it since it came, so that’s most likely what inspired this little imagine. I hope you enjoy it! Leaving a link HERE to the jacket I got off Etsy if you’re interested—I cannot recommend it enough!
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It started off subtle, something I didn’t notice at first, and was merely grateful for. The pack had met in the middle of the lacrosse field on a Sunday evening, the location chosen as a way of avoiding any police cruisers who were out enforcing the town-wide 9pm curfew. Still, I didn’t understand why we couldn’t just have met at someone’s house, though I suppose that did run the risk of neighbours ratting us out.
I’d been trying to listen to what Scott was saying, and the whole reason we were gathered in the middle of the freezing cold lacrosse field in January, but I couldn’t bring myself to focus. It was my own fault, really. I’d assumed we’d go inside the school once we’d all gathered together, which was why I’d forgone grabbing a jacket as I left my house. Now, I was there, scrunching the sleeves of my jumper in a vain attempt to retain some heat and reverse the cold settling in on my bones. I had my arms crossed over my chest, and was seriously considering just wrapping my arms around Derek and burying my face into his back—he wouldn’t have minded and the man gave off more heat than a damn space heater, but I was startled out of my thoughts by a curtain of warmth being wrapped around me. I blinked, surprised and my eyes fluttered closed for a second in complete and utter relief, before my brain registered that the wonderfully warm jacket hadn’t just landed on my shoulders of its own accord. I looked to my left and straight into a particular pair of honey brown eyes that I was more than a little fond of. His eyes were soft at that moment, and when I murmured a quiet thank you, he responded with a bashful smile that made my heart skip a beat in my chest.
As I slid my arms through the long sleeves of Stiles’ lacrosse jacket and buttoned up the front in an attempt to retain the warmth the sarcastic boy’s body had provided, I found myself grateful that Stiles, like me, was one of the only humans of the group. It meant that I’d been able to successfully keep my more than platonic feelings from him. Of course, he was the only one who didn’t know.
I narrowed my eyes at Derek’s teasing, barely there, smile and discretely flipped him off by scratching my nose with my middle finger. The action didn’t go unmissed by the blue-eyed wolf and he breathed a chuckle before returning his attention to the alpha in front of the group.
My cold state now taken care of, I was able to concentrate on Scott’s words, subconsciously stepping closer to Stiles as I listened, my body seeking out the comfort his presence always provided me with without my consent.
That was the first time Stiles gave me his jacket.
//
The second time had been during a “stake-out” with Liam and Stiles. The honey-eyed boy was adamant that there was something off with Theo, and honestly I hadn’t got the best feeling about him popping into our lives out of nowhere for one, adding in the fact he was also a werewolf… well it was just too much of a coincidence.
‘I’m telling you, there’s something not right about him, Y/N.’ Stiles said, for what must have been the hundredth time in the last four hours.
‘Stiles.’ My hand covered his on the steering wheel, and I felt us both immediately relax at the touch, ‘I believe you, okay? You don’t need to convince me of anything. If you say there’s something off with Theo, I’m not going to question it.’
His usually honey-brown eyes were dark with emotion as his hand squeezed mine, ‘why? Why do you believe me?’
‘Because you have great instincts and I trust you and your opinions more than anyone else’s.’ I told him honestly.
I felt my heart beat pick up the longer his eyes bore into mine, but I refused to look away, even knowing that Liam was probably smiling in the same smug way all the werewolves had mastered whenever my heart misbehaved around Stiles. What felt like hours later, Stiles blinked and bought my hands in-between both of his.
At my look of confusion, he elaborated, ‘you’re freezing.’
‘Huh, I didn’t even notice.’ I shrugged, trying to fight the blush forming on my cheeks at what felt like an intimate gesture.
He opened his hands a little so he could blow some hot air onto mine, and the warmth generated from the act seemed to travel through my whole body.
‘Better?’ he asked after a few minutes of repeating the gesture.
I cleared my throat and kept my answer short, not trusting my voice, ‘much. Thank you.’
‘No problem.’ He released my hands and I slid them underneath my thighs to retain the heat he’d created.
My eyes moved over to where we’d been watching for most of the night, to see Theo was still playing his video game, like he had been for most of the night. It made me frown; sure video games were what teenagers usually did, but it just seemed too convenient to me. I was about to voice my opinion to Stiles and Liam when familiar cotton was placed onto my shoulders. My arms moved through the sleeves almost reflexively as I offered my best friend a grateful smile, and tried to resist the urge to bury my face into the fabric to inhale his sweet and husky scent.
‘Thank you.’
‘Can’t have you freezing on me.’ He joked his hand squeezing my thigh briefly before returning it to the steering wheel.
I couldn’t have stopped the blush that formed on my cheeks if I tried, so I turned my gaze to stare out of the window, my hand resting where his had touched me, and I wondered— if I were to remove the denim barrier provided by my jeans, would my thigh display a brand of his hand print?
Because the heat left behind by his touch felt exactly like I had been branded as his.
//
The third time had been in the cafeteria.
We were all sitting together, minus Derek and Liam, and all having different conversations in our own little groups. Allison and Isaac were making weekend plans, provided she could sneak out without her father noticing, Lydia, Aiden, Ethan and Danny were talking about something they could all do together on a double date, and Stiles, Scott and I were all talking about collages we wanted to apply to. Well, they were. I was trying not to fall asleep using my sandwich as a pillow; I’d been up late the night before, helping Stiles put together his criminal bored. Nothing had been solved, but we both found it helpful to have everything, every clue, and every detail all in one place.
Of course, time had gotten away from us, and our party had been broken up by the Sherriff returning from his shift and gently informing us it was past three am. I’d been too tired to drive home and had slept on the couch, but two hours sleep wasn’t enough time for me, unlike Stiles; he was as hyperactive as ever.
I pushed my tray away from me with a sigh, too tired to eat anyway, and laid my head down on top of my arms. I’d heard a few chuckles from the pack, but I ignored it; they knew how I could be when I was tired so they just left me to it. I was on the brink of passing out, knowing someone would wake me for our next class, when I found myself surrounded by what was becoming my favourite jacket emitting warmth and a scent I couldn’t get enough of. I slid my arms into the sleeves and nuzzled my face into the fabric once I’d returned them to my original position. Had I been fully conscious of my actions, I’d have been embarrassed at my audience, but the chuckles simply faded into nothing as I finally found sleep.
What I hadn’t noticed was Stiles’ fond smile, or the knowing and frustrated expressions the rest of the pack wore.
//
The fourth time had been during a lacrosse game.
I’d been standing in the bleachers, wearing a jacket that was not keeping me warm in the slightest and discretely trying to huddle closer to Malia—she gave off as much heat as her uncle did—when I’d heard Stiles shouting my name.
I’d frowned, but manoeuvred my way out of the row I’d been sat in and made my way down to the benches, where he was waiting. He was holding his helmet under his arm and when I reached him, he held out his jacket and I took it, but didn’t put it on in case I’d misunderstood his meaning. Did he want me to give it to Malia? I’d noticed they’d been particularly close since she had joined the pack, and as much as it made my heart ache, I was glad the female wolf had someone to offer her comfort when she’d been without it for so long.
‘I noticed it’s pretty cold and figured you could use a jacket.’ He said, seeming nervous.
I felt a genuine smile form on my lips as I slid the cotton on and buttoned up the front, ‘thank you. I feel like I should rent this from you with how often I wear it.’ I chuckled, pulling my hair out from underneath the fabric.
He joined me in my laughter, ‘nah, I wouldn’t have it any other way. I like seeing you in my jacket.’ He looked nervous again and my heart skipped a beat in my chest.
Did he mean…? ‘You do?’ I asked, my voice quiet to my own ears.
‘I do,’ he stepped closer and I felt wonderfully dizzy as a stronger wave of his heat and scent washed over me, ‘Y/N…I’ve liked you for a while. As more than a friend, and I’ve been too scared to say anything, but Scott practically threatened to kill me if I didn’t admit it to you.’
‘You like me?’ I repeated, dumbfounded. How had I missed it? Had I been so preoccupied in hiding my own feelings that I’d been blind to his?
‘Yes.’ He looked more nervous now and I found myself reaching out, my hands falling on top of his in an attempt to comfort him.
‘Stiles…’ I took a breath, finding the courage to say the words I’d been holding in for so long, ‘I like you too.’
His honey-coloured eyes bore into mine for what felt like hours, but in reality it was only a few seconds, before his lips formed a face splitting grin that made my heart warm in my chest.
‘So, will you go on a date with me?’ he asked, seeming more confident but not much.
‘Absolutely.’ I grinned, my face leaning into his hand as it came up to caress the side of my face.
‘Awesome.’ He grinned again, and I was sure that we would both be wearing these giddy expressions for the foreseeable future, ‘pizza after?’
‘Perfect.’ I laced my fingers through his and almost jumped a mile when coach blew his whistle. I’d been so lost in him, his touch, his warmth, and his smell that I’d completely forgotten where we were.
‘I should get out there before Coach kills me.’ He chuckled.
‘Okay.’ I replied, reluctantly releasing his hands.
He leaned forward and placed a gentle kiss to my forehead that I made my heart melt. Before he could leave me completely, I grabbed his jersey and with a teasing grin told him, ‘by the way, this jacket is mine now.’
He blinked, and when he’d processed my words a bright, fond grin broke out across his face. He leaned in, kissed my cheek and whispered against my skin, ‘you won’t find me objecting to that, sweetheart.’ He winked, waved, and left to join the huddle in the centre of the field.
My cheek didn’t stop burning for the rest of the game.
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I don’t know if she was handling it poorly or we were handling it poorly, but needless to say, it didn’t go well.
She was paranoid, I was sleep deprived and then later very distraught because of my own personal health issues.
Long chatlog under readmore. Again, I don’t know how to interact with someone with borderline personality disorder. I’m not going to pretend to know how it works. I could have been saying all the wrong things. It doesn’t work the same as my depression/anxiety. So I very well could have been the awful person in this scenario. I don’t know. I just know she needed help.
After everything, I ended up with this in my FB
HER-Yesterday at 11:02 PM
I don't know hwat I've done
I don't know
I don't know
I need to know
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm a terrible person
Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:03 PM
Did you always talk about negative things
That's
HER-Yesterday at 11:03 PM
She said she didn't mind
Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:03 PM
Not true
HER-Yesterday at 11:03 PM
that she could handle me
Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:03 PM
Even if people don't mind they can still be tired out by it
HER-Yesterday at 11:03 PM
I don't know what I did
She was going to visit
Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:04 PM
I don't see you as a bad person
HER-Yesterday at 11:04 PM
I've been saving coins
Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:04 PM
Calm down
HER-Yesterday at 11:04 PM
NO
I WANT TO KNOW
Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:04 PM
You are jumping to conclusions
HER-Yesterday at 11:04 PM
I WANT TO KNOW WHAT I DID
Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:04 PM
I will talk to her just calm down
HER-Yesterday at 11:04 PM
What if she removed you too
I didn't meant to upset her
I didn't know I had
Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:07 PM
She's not online right now so I can't do much until she shows up. If she does for me. Like you said she might have unfriended me too
HER-Yesterday at 11:07 PM
But why#
Why
She was going to visit
Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:08 PM
I don't know
Last I talked to her was in May
HER-Yesterday at 11:09 PM
I don't understand
Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:09 PM
I don't talk to her often enough to know, alright?
HER-Yesterday at 11:09 PM
I don't understand
People keep telling me they won't hate me
Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:09 PM
Worrying is not going to help
HER-Yesterday at 11:09 PM
but they do!
THEY IE
Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:09 PM
Stop it
HER-Yesterday at 11:09 PM
LIE LIE LIE LIE LIE LIE
Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:09 PM
Stop
You are jumping to conclusions again
HER-Yesterday at 11:09 PM
No I'm not!
Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:09 PM
Yes you are
HER-Yesterday at 11:09 PM
She just stoped my call
I know she did
Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:10 PM
?
HER-Yesterday at 11:10 PM
I tried to phone
Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:10 PM
Did you try to call her on here
HER-Yesterday at 11:10 PM
I called her phone
2 rings
hang up
Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:10 PM
Did you think about the fact that maybe it's kinda late to be taking phonecalls
HER-Yesterday at 11:11 PM
9pm
Is that too late?
Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:11 PM
For me yeah
After 8 I don't want my phone ringing
Look, she could be busy
HER-Yesterday at 11:12 PM
She hates me
Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:12 PM
Gimme her phone number and I'll call her in the morning
Stop worrying
HER-Yesterday at 11:12 PM
I don't know if she'd want her number given out
I don't know
Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:12 PM
Stop saying negative stuff like that
HER-Yesterday at 11:12 PM
It's true
I know it is
Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:12 PM
Look
HER-Yesterday at 11:12 PM
I've seen it so many times
Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:13 PM
If you keep having that mindset
HER-Yesterday at 11:13 PM
I form a connection with someone
They hate me
Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:13 PM
If you keep saying those things
You will make them come true
You will push people away
Because of your paranoia it will come off as you not trusting your friends
And nobody wants to be friends with someone if they aren't trusted
Trust in me and [blank] alright?
If she hated you I don't think she would have given you her phone number
HER-Yesterday at 11:15 PM
She gave it before the hate
The hate is recent
I truested [blank]
Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:15 PM
Look it's almost midnight here and I'm tired
HER-Yesterday at 11:15 PM
Please don't hate me too
Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:16 PM
Give me a log of your last conversation and I'll analyze it and see if there's any reason to doubt [blank]
I want you to stop acting like it's already over
Like I said, if you keep doing stuff like that
Keep saying stuff like that
You will make it come true yourself because you end up deeming yourself unworthy of friends
But you are loved
HER-Yesterday at 11:17 PM
no.. no no.. I don't like doing that
Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:17 PM
So stop saying bad things
Stop making it worse
HER-Yesterday at 11:18 PM
It is over tho... I've seen this before
Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:18 PM
Try to keep convincing yourself otherwise
I can't keep talking to a brick wall like this. You're unmoving
You really do not want to feel better apparently
HER-Yesterday at 11:19 PM
With Naomi.. with others.. I've tusted they might come back..
I've seen it too often
Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:19 PM
Sometimes people grow apart
It's not uncommon
It sucks but it's not the end of the world
HER-Yesterday at 11:20 PM
But we was fine a week ago... I just got worried about the idea of her bringing Bella...
Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:20 PM
I had a friend for nine years
And had to break off the friendship
HER-Yesterday at 11:20 PM
Because she's an illigal breed and I also don't trust her destructivness
Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:21 PM
My brother and his best friend stopped being friends last year. Childhood friends.
They grew apart
It happens
It hurts but it happens
Again I don't know what happened w you and [blank] so I can't say either way
Just give me time
Please be patient
It is almost midnight and I am very tired
June 12, 2018
HER-Today at 12:16 AM
... Another friend was back to add friend too... but I was on the phone to her when I noticed so it was confirmed she didn't hate me... and it must've done it its self..
Zeoia-Today at 12:16 AM
So it's a discord error
HER-Today at 12:16 AM
Maybe...
I don't know
Zeoia-Today at 12:17 AM
I told you that you were jumping to conclusions
HER-Today at 12:17 AM
I don't know
Zeoia-Today at 12:17 AM
Technology does weird shit all the time
Eating messages, removing friends, altering settings
It's not uncommon
HER-Today at 12:20 AM
"Your message could not be delivered because you don't share a server with the recipient or you disabled direct messages on your shared server, recipient is only accepting direct messages from friends, or you were blocked by the recipient."
Goes back to panic
Zeoia-Today at 12:23 AM
If it accidentally removed friends for you then it would also have removed you from her list
Anyway I'm sleepy
Gnight
HER-Today at 12:56 AM
I don't know if me and the other person were ever friends or just server buddies now
HER-Today at 5:05 AM
You still show as a mutual friend on her thing... it is clear now she hates me and this is targeted at me.. The worst thing is dreaming about it.. waking up and it's still real.
Zeoia-Today at 5:05 AM
Stop it stop it stop it.
Your negative thinking, your constant pessimist views on everything, they're exhausting, even for the people who still love and care about you.
I got a response from her and she told me herself that she doesn't hate you
But your behavior is extremely upsetting
It's exhausting
HER-Today at 5:08 AM
I don't know what I said
Zeoia-Today at 5:08 AM
I don't know either
HER-Today at 5:08 AM
I didn't know she was getting upset
Zeoia-Today at 5:08 AM
Give me a moment I am on mobile
HER-Today at 5:09 AM
She told me if there was problems she'd tell me first
Zeoia-Today at 5:10 AM
I don't hate her. I am managing okay. I unfriended her for my sanity. I've told her in the past what my problem was and she hasn't done anything to stop. I cut her from my life so I wouldn't keep getting upset. I can't demand her to change. I can't expect her to change. I've told her my problem and hoped she would improve. That never happened. What I can do is remove myself from the situation.
If you want you can reassure her that I'm managing okay, I don't hate her, and I already told her my issue. I am removing myself from the situation so I don't keep getting upset. She should accept that and stop dragging others into her messes.
Directly from [blank] herself.
HER-Today at 5:10 AM
I don't understand
Zeoia-Today at 5:11 AM
ARE YOU READING WHAT I JUST POSTED
look I just woke up to go to the bathroom but I decided to check on you before going back to sleep
Excuse me for being blunt but I'm not sure beating around the bush is going to help.
You need a lot of mental help from a counselor. Your behavior makes people very upset. You are always talking about bad things and are always upset about something.
HER-Today at 5:14 AM
I can't think what promote
Problem
Zeoia-Today at 5:14 AM
I don't hate you. I don't think anyone hates you
LISTEN TO ME.
I am telling you right now
Stop thinking. Stop typing. LISTEN.
HER-Today at 5:15 AM
She told me she was able to handle it better
Zeoia-Today at 5:15 AM
She thought she was
Look
Stop
Stop typing
Do not make any more thoughts with your brain on the subject
[blank] is a strong person. She has been through a lot of shit. But even when people are strong, there are some things that weigh them down and they will wear a smile anyway, even if they are hurting
I'm in a similar situation with someone where I have to limit contact for my fucking sanity
I don't hate them. There wasn't just one instance of a problem
Just overall we don't mix well
Until you get help, you are probably going to end up pushing people away again
I don't want to upset you. I don't want you to think that I hate you
But I have to be honest
You keep saying stuff like "it's going to happen, I know it" and inviting yourself to just fucking fulfill that prophecy
HER-Today at 5:21 AM
She proved it
Zeoia-Today at 5:21 AM
Get. Some. Help.
See a counselor
HER-Today at 5:21 AM
THEY DON'T WANT TO
Zeoia-Today at 5:21 AM
Your friends are not counselors
HER-Today at 5:22 AM
They see me all fine.
Zeoia-Today at 5:22 AM
What kinda fucking bullshit counselors are you seeing that don't see that there's a problem
HER-Today at 5:23 AM
They don't see me on the floor screaming because I've got emotional intensity disorder
Zeoia-Today at 5:23 AM
I DEMAND you to go looking into more counselors
I DEMAND you to show them our chat log from today
Like, save this chat log. Fucking save all of it
I want you to get better because at this rate you are going to believe yourself into a permanent state of"the whole world is against me"
HER-Today at 5:26 AM
I want to talk to [blank]... We was going to do adventures... she told me we'd do adventures... does she think I was being emotionally manipulative.. that was her big issue before..
I'm already there
Zeoia-Today at 5:29 AM
Yeah, you are emotionally manipulative. I'm sorry for being honest but you are literally right here right now, in my direct messages, demanding to know what you did to make [blank] upset. You are extremely clingy from what I can tell, and it is probably because you have abandonment issues.
This behavior probably upsets [blank] a lot more than you think because she just got out of a very toxic relationship with someone. Y'know. The one where she had to move because she was abused
HER-Today at 5:30 AM
I know
But I can't even think when I was doing it
Zeoia-Today at 5:31 AM
I'm aware
That is your problem.
You don't realize when you are upsetting people
You don't know how manipulative you can get. You are tugging at me currently, because [blank] is no longer there for you
I didn't just go through a terrible divorce with a manipulative lying prick so I can handle your manipulative behavior a bit better
But you have to fucking get some help
Do not just give up
Look at it like a video game. Do you get further in a video game just by being all like "oh, the characters told me I can't go this way even though it's the only way to the next area"
You need to get better and the only way you can get better is to demand that someone fucking help you
Who is currently in your life right now? IRL I mean.
HER-Today at 5:35 AM
No. I do give up. I can't do this. I can't do this screaming.. I didn't try to manipulate her into anything. I always told her things were ultimately her choice. Yes I got upset with the dog idea but it was still ultimately up to her. I just might've liked her to stay elsewhere...
Zeoia-Today at 5:36 AM
You are too upset all the time
HER-Today at 5:36 AM
It comes with the fucking disorder.
Zeoia-Today at 5:36 AM
I know that
And you need to get more help for it
Don't tell me they won't help
Because I know there's someone out there who can and will help
HER-Today at 5:37 AM
The government has cut their resources so much
Zeoia-Today at 5:38 AM
Okay? I live in shit hole America where we have to pay out the ass just to get a fucking checkup
Use your fucking resources.
HER-Today at 5:38 AM
I'm fucking trying
Zeoia-Today at 5:39 AM
You are on the internet right now
Google shit. Look for local support groups.
Look for meetups..group counseling. Something
I can't do this for you
I'm also mentally ill
My mother is mentally ill
My mom went through abuse and is also manipulative and doesn't always see what she does wrong
HER-Today at 5:41 AM
calls 999
Zeoia-Today at 5:41 AM
But she still has her shit together to the point where she can try to get some fucking help
What city do you live in
I'll Google shit for you but don't depend on me to do everything for you
HER-Today at 5:42 AM
Crawley west sussex
Zeoia-Today at 5:42 AM
Because if I end up having to babysit you, you will in fact end up pushing me away
HER-Today at 5:43 AM
I'm getting a bloody ambulance
Zeoia-Today at 5:45 AM
What is your disorder
I'm going to make our conversation publicly available and ask around for help because I really don't want you suffering like this
HER-Today at 5:46 AM
Boarderline
Zeoia-Today at 5:46 AM
Okay
Borderline personality disorder?
HER-Today at 5:47 AM
Yes
Zeoia-Today at 6:00 AM
I will try to find someone who is also living with borderline personality disorder
But is taking steps to get better
Because it's clear to me that you are not
And I don't know how to handle someone who has the disorder
I made a post but I will try again later. We aren't going to see instant results
This shit takes time
But you yourself need to try to get hel
Help
You have to want to get better
Again, I don't know how to deal with the disorder so I'm probably not the best person to be telling you what to do
But there are plenty of other people out there with the disorder you can talk to and get help from
But I'm not one of those people
I must sleep. I have been getting headaches due to lack of sleep. Good night.
HER-Today at 6:10 AM
I'm in an ambulance being taken to see an emergency psych
It was the only way I could think to get help now
The thing is they take so long to see you I'll be slightly calmer when they talk to me. Then decide I'm ok..
I'm scared of things being public.. they'll think I'm stupid
HER-Today at 9:25 AM
Been given the mental health line number (again) and a thing to calm me down and sent home. No follow up.. but they think my GP should review my medication.(edited)
https://sussexrecoverycollege.org.uk/
Also this..
Zeoia-Today at 12:02 PM
I can't today. Please don't keep messaging me about your problems today. I need help. I'm suffering and hurting and I won't be able to see an affordable doctor for three fucking months. I'm sorry but I just don't have the mental stability to deal with both of our problems. Not right now.
Zeoia-Today at 2:03 PM
I’m not going to be responsible for anyone else’s emotions, actions and behaviors. It’s impossible. I have pointed out the problem previously to her. I will not keep myself in a situation that constantly hurts both of us. I can’t change her but I can change the situation.
I don’t like the statement about being her favorite person. It’s a type of manipulative wording used in the guilt game. I don’t play that game. HER is the only one who can fix this and it is her choice to make and act on. I suggest you don’t try to talk me into ‘fixing things’ because if it’s worded like the above statement I am going to get annoyed.
[blank] told me this. And I told you the same thing. You need to help you.
Anyway do not respond to this. I really don't want to talk about your problems right now because I'm in a super shitty health situation and the last thing I need is something stressing me out to the point of hospitalization.
https://www.westsussexconnecttosupport.org/s4s/WhereILive/Council?pageId=988
Hi - this is a link to information re Mental Health Services in West Sussex, hope it helps. Your friend can call the Samaritans on 116 123. Hope it all works out.
Zeoia-Today at 6:27 PM
"One of doggos turned out to be a professionally trained service dog. Eddie wasn’t a perfect match but he helped me so much. I had to put him down on the 31st of May. I’m trying to train my other doggo (a pittie) to do some of the similar tasks. I mentioned bringing Bella with me when I go to the UK (pitties are banned there). She freaked out and tried to manipulate me into not keeping my doggo with me. I had put down my service doggo the other day and I was hurting so badly. I told her to drop it, that’s my problem. She complained to others who called her out for being selfish. I do my DnD with friends on Friday nights. She tried to call me and tried to get me to drop DnD to calm her down from a meltdown about being called out for being selfish. After that she still didn’t drop it and called Bella an illegal dog.
I was so hurt and disappointed. I got livid. I avoided her for over a week because I knew I would lash out and be mean to hurt her. She kept trying to contact me with increasingly manipulative statements until I finally blocked her before I hurt someone.
I had talked to her before about my issues with manipulation. I tried to wait and calm down. I am done with that kinda treatment.
Now you know what made me so mad."
From [blank] herself.
She tried to explain. And I tried to tell you. But it's like it goes through one ear and out the other. You need serious help from mental health specialists. You can't keep on attaching to people the way you do because it hurts them.
HER-Today at 6:28 PM
I had paranoia about the dog.
Zeoia-Today at 6:29 PM
Drop the thing about the dog.
Stop focusing on the dog.
HER-Today at 6:29 PM
I was struggling myself
Zeoia-Today at 6:29 PM
That is not the only issue.
[blank] has been through too much shit to be able to handle someone with borderline personality disorder.
She literally just got out of a manipulative and abusive relationship and you are here, saying manipulative things. She tried to be patient with you. But she didn't have to. She tried to because she cared. And she still cares.
But your dependence on her was not healthy for either of you. And if you try to depend on me, I guarantee you I will drop you like a hot pan.
I am not here to be manipulated. I am not here to be used. I am not here to be a counselor. I'm trying to offer advice, but I can't help you seek assistance. Especially when I'm trying to figure out how to deal with becoming physically disabled. So stop it. Just. Stop complaining. Stop trying manipulate other people to deal with your problems. Stop depending on others to do shit for you. Keep going to therapy. Going to groups. Looking up resources. It's your life. You have control over what you do. not me.
HER-Today at 6:33 PM
I WASN'T TRYING TO MANIPULATE TTHINGS(edited)
I was nervous about having a dog!
Zeoia-Today at 6:33 PM
Lisa.
Lisa.
It's not about the dog.
HER-Today at 6:33 PM
It clearly fuckiing started it
Zeoia-Today at 6:33 PM
Let me tell you something.
You say sad and upsetting things a lot.
It is very very tiring.
HER-Today at 6:35 PM
I AM NOT MANIPULATING HER
I AM NI
OT
Zeoia-Today at 6:35 PM
no you aren't.
because you aren't in touch with her anymore.
HER-Today at 6:35 PM
She is making shit up!!
Zeoia-Today at 6:35 PM
nor are you in touch with me. get some help.
HER-Today at 6:35 PM
I DID TODAY
Zeoia-Today at 6:35 PM
NOT JUST TODAY. ALL THE TIME. GET. SOME. HELP.
Goodbye.
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