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My least evidence based headcanon rn... trans girl childe
#idk man theres just something about him. its crazy bc normally when i transgenderify a character in my mind i will take their canon pronouns#like. itto and shinobu are transmasc and transfem respectively to me#when i trans them its retroactive#because i never really had. a realization. the act of realizing you are trans has never really meant much to me but with childe#hehe. childe comes out of the abyss with his hair grown out and he looks at it and he says hmmm. no its cool. im definitely keeping it#because its cool. and not any other reason#fast foreward one year and she does rip your throat out if you misgender her on purpose. and YES with her teeth#to me the only change is that he is a girl and wants people to acknowledge that now. all of the freakishness NEEDS to remain intact#mikhail and lyudmila in mondstadt like 'finally. some normal fucking news'#board certified my post#childe
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it’s honestly kinda crazy to me that kel & co were literally the first OCs i ever made
#my test subjects if you will#& yet i am still obsessed w them after all these years#idk i just think it’s kinda special bc it’s like we grew up together almost?#the first iteration of kel & co were honestly very wacky. like the deviant art era of my oc making if you know what i mean#but they’ve changed & grown a lot over the years & that’s kinda fun!! they’re very dear to me tbh#sometimes i read through old notes for them & i’m just like. man what was i thinking#i could honestly write an entire essay on all of the scrapped lore for these guys. the kel & co multiverse is Very extensive lol#the original three the story was about were bow kel & a lil ghost i named tragedy (i was 12 lol)#her real name is isobel. she’s not in canon anymore but she IS in monster boyz. i put a lot of the old characters in mbz.#dhes wasn’t in the original story at first either. he was a character i made for an rp lmao#but once that ended i decided i loved him so much & had to put him in my main project#he has changed the most from his original design tbh. personality wise i mean#he went from very minor side character to the literal focus of the story#he’s essentially the main narrator. even more so than kel#idk. i was just randomly thinking about them & how long it’s been.#gives me feelings when i think about it all lol#i did not sleep last night at all btw#rainyrambles
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I want to write a poem about microwave mac n cheese (the girl who hated me in middle school always invited me to her opulent birthday parties where everyone either treated me like a zoo exhibit or ignored me) (the living room was always too loud with too many lights and I’d end up finding her pet budgies in the dining room) (her mom knew I didn’t like pizza and she made me mac n cheese when she realized I hadn’t eaten all night) (every birthday thereafter she specifically bought the same brand of mac n cheese just so I would have something to eat while sitting alone in the quiet dining room) (looking back it kind of feels like an apology for how her daughter treated me) (you want to be here but you hate it here. you don’t understand why they treat you this way but you keep coming back. you put a gift on the only piano you’ve seen outside of a church and spend the rest of the night watching small birds in a small white cage. I can’t stop this. I don’t know how to help you. but I can give you warm food and dimmed lights)
#ra speaks#personal#poetry#maybe??? idk man it’s been a long weekend how is it Monday tomorrow that’s not fair#I’m busy feeling shrimp emotions about the same brand of mac n cheese I ate at age 9#I eat it every week as an autistic college student I’ll never get sick of it#and it just. she bought it just for me. she made it when she saw me skulk away from the party room to sit by the budgies.#she was so so kind. her daughter was so so cruel. I hope she’s well. I hope she’s grown.
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category 18 event (thinking too hard about the lions again)
#their paladins either dead or turned evil. separated from each other and scattered across the cosmos.#do you think they got lonely??? just sitting and waiting for their new paladins to come????#do you think they could all feel red's fear when the galra captured her but without paladins couldnt do anything to help her????#i hc that the lions are all connected emotionally to each other and they communicate w each other the same way#they communicate w their paladins. which is to say through the mindlink and shared emotions in the mindscape#but after ten thousand years of being so so so far away do you think they stopped being able to sense each other???#of course they can tell that their brothers and sisters are there but their connection is muted like its behind a wall#they can feel each others' presence and maybe a twinge of shared emotion here and there but nothing more than that.#the connection theyve all shared for millions of years has grown weaker than ever and theyre so lonely.#and then maybe when the galra did capture red they could feel her panic and fear and anger and distress#but the connection was so muted by then that they were unable to see specifics. if she was ok. if she was in danger.#and man. just thinking about black having to deal with the fact that her pride is scattered and in danger#and there's NOTHING she can do to help them. they rely on her and look up to her but she's utterly helpless to help them.#with all this in mind its kinda poetic that the black lion can only be released from her hiding place w all the lions present tbh#because she's powerful. sure. but without her siblings she's just as helpless as anything else#IDK. IDK IF I THINK ABOUT THE LIONS TOO MUCH I START SPIRALING.#i know they were only sentient in the loosest terms in canon but FUCK ALL THAT YKW. THEYRE SENTIENT <3#winter speaks#voltron#lions
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my mom isn’t letting my dad go back to his office bc him being out of the house stresses her out and makes her have a flare up and it’s like kind of insane. like i understand why the idea of him doing that would make her panicky and angry as someone who also struggles w separation anxiety and abandonment shit / has physical symptoms from that kind of stress (though not to the same degree ofc) but also he is a grown man. he should be allowed to go to his office and not have to shape his entire life around her needs. and she keeps guilt tripping him out of it and it’s impacting his quality of life a lot and the whole thing is kind of… hm
#purrs#delete later#also she’s guilt tripping me into coming to the stupid fucking potluck on sunday bc she needs the extra help and it’s like… what are you#gonna do when i move out. like i am a grown woman and i should be able to choose how i spend my two precious weekend days. and my dad is a#grown man and he should be able to choose where he works. like is that not a little bit insane. i get it but also….. i do think it s kind of#fucked ip that it’s her way or the highway and her needs take priority over all of ours and she’s asking us to bend to what she wants when#she wants it. like i get it bc she’s sick but it’s not fair for her to expect that from my dad especially. particularly when me and my#brother are back at work / school in more high risk environments than my dad who would be in a private office alll day. and the thing is no#one is brave enough to all her on it bc if we did it would be the END of the world. she even threw a fit on my dads bday and complained bc#the things he wanted to do were things she didn’t want to do like all the man wanted to do was go mini golfing and when that wasn’t good#enough he just wanted to go on a walk and my mom complained the whole time and also scoffed the movie he wanted to watch and said it was#boring and it’s like… wtf it’s HIS birthday??? but what do you expect from the woman who (and in fairness her friends got her these as gifts#but still) has TWO kitchen items that say some variation of ‘a marriage is when one is always right and the other is always the husband’ 💀#i look at that little plaque every night bc it’s in front of the sink when im doing dishes and it makes me so fucking angry. like my dad is#a whole fucking person and he can be right too and he deserves to make choices and be happy and not have his wife put him down all the time.#idk. and she puts down his family all the time too and complains when he wants to do the most reasonable things for his own enjoyment that#don’t align with hers and criticizes his interests all the time and it just sucks to see. he never shows hurt or anything so idk how he#feels about it but it makes me so angry and sad and when i tell her to stop she just lashes out at me so. 🤪. like how do we get her to stop#making her needs more important than everyone else’s bc… she may be our mom / his wife / whateger but that doesn’t make her queen. no one is#(andalso this has only gotten worse bc of covid / her being sick. like this has been a lifelong thing it’s just it’s a lot worse now bc the#circumstances gave her room / forced her to have to take up more space. and it’s just so frustrating. i get it. but none of us are pawns or#dolls or subordinates or anything. there’s 5 adults here and we should all be able to make choices and not be guilt tripped by her. lol#)
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why is it so hard making teen sims look like teenagers
#i swear ive tried everything#i looked at guides on tumblr i look at other ppls teen sims i make their cheeks chubby MY SIM STYLE ALREADY INCORPORATES CHUBBY CHEEKS!!!#and nothing works. my sims look like tiny little grown ups UGH 😭#shakes caspian by the shoulders WHY DO YOU LOOK 25 WITH TWO KIDS AND A MORTGAGE!! YOU ARE 18 AYOUR FRONTAL LOBE HASNT EVEN DEVELOPED YET!!!#off topic but i thought about this yesterday and since breanna was turned when she was 20 her frontal lobe has never fully developed#she’s stuck in 20 yr old brain mode forever which is a horrifying thought#WHY ARE ALPHA SKINS SO AFRAID OF CHUBBY CHEEKS AHHHHHHHHH#my sims are like when you watch idk the vampire diaries and every teen character is played by someone comically older than a teen#so you have a 16 year old being played by a 29 year old man. that’s my ocs#i never saw vampire diaries but i have watched the jenny nicholson vpd video many times so that counts
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#started a new book series today and I just#it’s okay????? but I cannot get over how the main girl will NOTTTTTTTTTTTT stop mentioning#how much she loved the main male character when she was a minor#and how ‘he never kissed me :(((((( he didn’t want me like I did him :(‘#bestie u were 17 and he was a grown man he shouldn’t have wanted you ?#it’s just like on every page it’s hard to get into w that#and then just thrown in there is that in this world adulthood is 16:)#like#idk it’s still not sitting well in my brain ngl#but we will see#other#mine.#books#to delete
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Mahi: thanks for coming with me man. You're pretty cool
Baja: Yeah it's no problem. So do we just knock on the- oh, you're just going to walk in? Okay that's not illegal....
Mahi: Oh please it's just Neta. He's not going to care...... I just need to see that picture. It can't be a coincidence it just can't be!
Baja: hmm you know I didn't expect his place to be sooo
Mahi: Nice? Yeah me neither... Seems like ikkan did some redecorating....a lot more purple
Baja: *gasp* is that ikkan's bass from the first squid squad tour?! The bass that started it all!?!?? Holy shit it is! It even has the little scratches from when he dropped it at camp triggerfish!! Oh my Cod!!
Mahi: yeah yeah so cool where would the picture be?
Baja: look they have Neta's introduction poster!!.."Neta, the bass player. This big guy is the notable newcomer of the group. His slap bass licks bring a bounce and funkiness to the songs that we know and love... don't let his cool and calm appearance fool you. This guy is wild and ready to party anytime, any day. He stands at a whooping 5'7 His favorite color is green. His favorite meal is a sweet and spicy lobster dog with a sugar free mango lemonade and his birthday is August 7th"....Cod It almost feels nostalgic
Mahi:..... It's not down here. It's definitely not in that brat's room...
Baja:.*ugh* look at the vinyl collection some of these are signed! No way!
Mahi: Maybe it's up in the loft in his room.... I'm going to be right back.
Baja: Holy shit! How the fuck did they get crippy chips's album is not even out yet?!? What does it say?...."For my future brother-in-law, I thought you would want the first copy of our album. does this count as a wedding gift? lol :-P" - Noji........... No way am I holding the first copy.... Ghhghhbgffh
Mahi: hay can you stop fangirling for a quick sec and come up here!
Baja: yeah I'm coming...... his room is pretty cool..... He has his bass mounted?! Did you know that bass has been on 9 tours. 4 squid squad and 5 diss-pair!
Mahi: yeah. No wonder it looks so beat up...... He did know my grandfather. Look! That's him. I know his face anywhere, even when it's not wrinkly. That's my grandpa Behi..... That kid he's with must be Neta..... He looks so small and.....frail.... How old is he in this......
Baja: oh he must be in the E ward..
Mahi: hm?
Baja: E ward is where they take soldiers who are affected mentally and emotionally. Most spend a year there and go back serving.
Mahi: that doesn't seem right... Did you ever-
Baja: I'm not telling you my trauma Mahi we barely know each other.
Mahi: that's fair
Baja: Give it a year.... Damn you gramps was admiral? Must have been a strong man
Mahi: yeah he was tough but really kind....*sniff* I really miss him.... How does he know Neta tho? How do I even bring that up to him?
Baja: he must have been a good guy.. Maybe you can slip it in the conversation now. Casually..... Is that a crabby!!?? He has his awards in a case!! Look he has squid squad's platinum records!!
Cirrina: those are only copies. The real ones are at ikkan's
Baja: aaahhhh!
Mahi: great
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Candi: Mahi you can't just walk into Neta's place like this! It's wrong and you Left the door unlocked! What if something happened! What if someone walked in? what if his pet got out?
Mahi: nibbles is at ikkan's
Candi: you know what I mean! This isn't ok what if cirrina was here by himself. Two strangers just walked into her home when her dads aren't here. That's scary for a young girl.
Mahi: I don't know the little shit seems fine to me.
Cirrina: hi Baja heheheheh how are you doing today?
Baja: I'm good.......Your tentacles were fully orange last time I saw you. That's a unique color you picked. I like it
Cirrina:.... Heheheh he noticed! Hehehehe thank you!!
Mahi: see she's fine. Why are you here?
Candi: if you must know Neta asked me to take her shopping for her mom's wedding. They're leaving next month.
Mahi: I forgot about that
Cirrina: you want to see the tux I picked out?
Mahi: no
Cirrina: well it's a good thing I wasn't talking to you! Seeing how you dress, you wouldn't know taste even if it punched you in the face! I was clearly talking to Baja.
Mahi: mmmmm.... You're so lucky he's my boss
Candi: hehehehe I love her
Baja: I like the tux. Never thought gray and navy blue combination. That explains the silver tentacles and blue figures. Looks great!
Cirrina: hehehehehe thank you! You're too kind!
Mahi: oh barf
Candi: awww she has a crush.
Cirrina: you like music right Baja? I have my cello I can play it for you. I'm second chair in my orchestra and planning on attending a school for the arts. I'm actually playing at my mom's wedding. It's going to be an original song ikkan's helping me write it I-
Mahi: we don't care! we only came here to check something out. We're done now so we're bouncing. See ya Candi.
Candi: bye Mahi. Bye Baja
Baja: bye guys... This place is really Nice. It wasn't my intent to break in without his knowledge. I was just dragged into this
Mahi: let's go!
Baja: ok!.... Bye cirrina
Cirrina: bye!... Hehehe.... I think he likes me!
Candi: ah ha...*sigh* yeah .....hehehe... Sure.
@fish-at-fish-fish-resort saw Mahi drag Baja by his finn out of an apartment complex
#yay a Mahi and Baja duo#Baja is a fandoy for bands#not necessarily the music. I mean he likes the music but mostly the history behind the music artists he's interested in#cirrina is a catty bitch and I love her for that#“if you're dad wasn't my boss and kinda fucking scary it would be on site” - Mahi at some point#Aunt Candi#i kinda forgot Neta's ex wife was getting married anyway her color choice is gray and navy blue#cold and dreary color scheme completely contrast Neta and ikkan's color scheme#cirrina wearing a blue tux with gray detailing#truly serving delusional she/they energy#like babe that's a grown man he don't like you#I just guessed on what rank Behi would be I wanted him to be a little powerful#when I started the ranking system for the splatoon military it was the marine rank system I'm going to switch over to the Navy rank system#It just makes sense because.......... think something water#5'7 is like 6'5 in Splatoon#I really think they're much smaller than humans I think that's canon idk I need to reread lore#it's 4am I going to sleep or just stare at the ceiling until I have to go to work#I changed his apartment layout. he has a loft now it's that nice
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Lillllll give us the tea. Give some of that horrible Hero and Kel mom crimes we need to know more of it✨✨✨
Boy oh boy -LiL
#first of all it's worth stating that hero is a GROWN ASS MAN#That bitch is 19 YEARS OLD#He has no obligation to spend time with her#also again fuckass just got home from college#''oo you don't want to spend time with me 😢 you're helping me do dishes for a week then''#BITCH IS AN ADULT WHO JUST GOT HOME FROM COLLEGE LET HIM RELAX#and not to mention hero is a huge people pleaser#I'm SURE she knows that by now#And lets not mention the favoritism???? Their dad is guilty of this too#The way they immediately went to comfort Hero when Kel was the one getting yelled at??? bro hero's not your perfect golden boy maybe idk#give the YOUNG CHILD some attention?#and I'm SURE Kel is gonna be even more ignored with sally in the picture (no hate to the child ofc)#anyways i hope their mom explodes#out of character
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Hot take but going off of my latest tag rant, Encanto actually is so mid beyond the technical milestones and pretty colors
#it NEEDS to be said by ME bc my opinion matters and is fucjing important#it had huge plot faults and basically excused years of abuse bc the grandmother had a hard life#it wasn’t a good movie tbh#like give me a fucking break she didn’t even apologize to the wall rat man like#they shoudlve killed grandma#the music SUCKED. the music sucked so hard. nothing about it was memorable#it’s cute for little kids but idk it’s like super grown adults when they put too much faith in Steven universe right?#I’m not saying you can’t like it but I’m saying it IS mid and even bland. lackluster. entirely insubstantial#like singing a song is not going to heal ur trauma#i hope I get to fight a Disney adult in my inbox today bc of this post :)
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succubus who has no idea what sex is
#thinking babies are made when parents get married#or like from a stork so she tries to catch birds to find out#or like how a kid would think a man and a woman would just fall asleep in the same bed and thats how it works#or something like kissing#i think it would be funny#shes trying to get her wings so she has to take her first virginity or she'll be suck with the small stump ones that don't work#so every chapter it is her learning something new#she found one guy but his computer settings were set to child lock so she cant actually search up sex stuff#so she's basically getting all her info from kids who have no idea how it works#or something like that#or she stole a laptop but it was for a kid so it has child settings on it or something idk why a grown man would have it#she's like a full on adult but raised by anti-sex succubi parents or something lol
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mike's "we're not kids anymore" line and his whole attitude to will in s3 is so ironically funny because he was the Exact Same Way in s2, which takes place less than a year earlier
mike wanted nothing to do with girls in s2, he just wanted to be hang out with will and the rest of the party and got so upset when lucas and dustin wanted to invite max
it's only when el gets back (aka the person he had traumatic experiences with, the first girl who ever treated him nicely and someone he literally saw die in order to save his life) that he suddenly cares about girls again.
it's like, is it just him growing up like he claims? or is it maybe because he's formed trauma bonds with el and is throwing himself into a romantic relationship (and trying to act all mature and not like a child) in order to try and escape that trauma, and pretend everything's okay?
#stranger things#mike wheeler#its just. its interesting#mikes change bewtween s2&3 is just so drastic??#lucas and dustin don't because they showed interest in girls from the start of s2 when they both hd crushes on max#and then in s3 theyre in relationships and it feels normal and shit#but mike goes from being anti mx and soending his time trying to care for will to a romantic relationship and refusing to play dnd and stuff#cuase 'oh were not kids will' but YOU ONLY DECIDED THAY WHEN THE GURL U TRAUMA BONDED TO CAME BACK#if el Hadnt come back you know damn well that he wouldnt be all 'oh were grown up were gonna get girlfs' hed still be trying to protect will#cause thats what mike does. he thrives in positions of leadership and nurturing and protection#he jumped off a cliff for dustin in s1 and was insistent on looking for will#in s2 he sticks by wills side ever second that he can and is the onky one there for him#s3? s3 els back and he throws himself into the relationship and just. refuses to be who he was in s1&2 and so he's completely chabged#his relationship with el just screams trauma response on both ends. he has. little crush on her in s1 sure but then he watches her Die#and like. that ucka him up and hes traumatised but shes gone so he projects his need to protect onto will#and then ince shes Back theyre both just. trauma bonded. and push the relationship because its what they know and its 'safe'#idk man i just dint think tgeir relationship currently hs heakthy bond and foundation ls#i think he's protecting himself#mike#st
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google :)
love u goog <3
#to explain the dotted squares: Why Are You A Redhead When You Are Bing's Clone.#and the other is like. lets get one thing straight i love goog to death everything in season 2? wouldnt change a damn thing#but i feel like the susan thing was resolved too quickly. and his relationship with mac has gone. underaddressed.#goog was raised by dr. order and i love that he defects right away when shown a first glimmer of something more meaningful#it works well to demonstrate the point that kindness is what we're. as people. most naturally drawn to when circumstance allows for it#but i think how easy it ultimately comes to him even when that's challenged by his personal hurt later kinda. cheapens it a bit?#kindness is easy but its also very hard sometimes when we are faced with the desire or need to protect ourselves from being hurt#and susan letting goog get his catharsis from attacking her even though it wasnt Her her that hurt him#is something i feel should've left him feeling a bit more. conflicted a bit longer. the resolution was sweet but not fully earned imo?#and then theres mac. your little brother almost kills you in cold blood chasing the same meaningless victory you were raised to achieve#and then just. befriends your platonic partner's little sister and becomes part of the family while changing very little of his outlook#just changing who he answers to because he got his ass kicked. and you're just supposed to feel fucking NORMAL about that???????#idk just think google should get to bite people and be dysfunctional a little more he was raised by doctor order hes not even two years old#he's a shonen protagonist with anxiety but the anxiety doesn't even really interfere meaningfully with anything narratively best i remember#machi has the excuse of being baby to explain why he's so innocent and even he's distinctly self-centered at times#google is a grown man and chooses kindness every day after he got out of there#and that rules. but id like to see him struggle with it just a LIL more#a bit too much of a perfect victim after he gets out for my taste. i had a similar problem with adora in she-ra#lots of not having a frame of reference for a different normal than theirs but always choosing the Right™ thing to do the first time anyway#but thats a mild 'show dont tell'-y writing gripe#its been a good bit since i watched the eps referenced so my feelings might change when i get to them in my rewatch#i simply think meeting a version of your shitty mom that's largely the same but not shitty should make you feel. a lot of different ways#and we didnt really get to see goog wrestle with that after finding out susan wasnt Really her and i think thats kind of a shame#and i dont remember if mac and goog have even shared any screentime after that time Mac Injured Him Terribly with plus ultra
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honestly i've learnt that literally no celebrity is worth defending to the degree that some people do. we don't personally know them. what they're like in public might easily be the opposite in private, and it's very easy to put on a front
#this can apply to anyone#but here im talking about j//hnny depp#idk i think it's important to watch the trial and do your own research before posting about it online#whatever side u are on i find it so strange that people are deadass babyifying him#he is a 58 year old GROWN man#and aside from the trial etc he's really not that great of a guy 😭#he dated winona ryder when she was 17 and he was like 25#as well as a whole host of other things#i admit i havent been keeping up with the trial or done much research myself#which is why i havent really engaged w content about it#ive been too busy doing my own thing ygm#but there are things i know about this guy n i promise he's not some angel lmfaoo#he's a 58 year old male celebrity#come on now 😭
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crazy how these girls in hollywood date a man twice their age and no one near them seems to bad an eye about it
#yes this is abt b*llie e*lish and j*sse r*therford like ......#man..... idk what to say#like idk how people can't see the obvious power dynamic#and how it never goes right#especially when sht hits the fan#what bothers me is that the grown ups around her are fine with it#which makes me feel gross... like 😃#especially bc he knows her since she was a minor...#my brother in christ......#tris.txt
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I love my dad I really do but it’s so funny to hear him talk about things he doesn’t understand
#We were talking about taxis earlier and he was like ‘idk why you’re so nervous to take a taxi by yourself#I’ve taken taxis by myself all the time and I’m fine’#Like yeah dad you’re a 6ft tall grown ass man no one’s going to try to kidnap you😭😭😭#its even funnier when my mom’s in the room because she’s just shaking her head lmao
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