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#but then i just went and rel*psed on literally everything
jumpthensfall
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#tw eating disorder
#tw self harm
#tw suicide
#i wish late 2018 had never happened
#about to majorly overshare feel free to ignore this
#i'd gotten to such a good point with my mental health that summer
#better than it had been since i was probably about 11
#and i was so proud of myself
#but then i just went and rel*psed on literally everything
#my ed suddenly got worse than ever when that summer had been the best i'd been with handling it ever
#i rel*psed w s*lf h*rm and got really s**c*d*l again and i'm just tired
#bc although i'm trying to get better and am definitely in a better place than i was then i am still having to hugely deal with the aftermath
#of that massive relapse
#and it just makes me feel so hopeless because i'm like.. it's never gonna get better ever again huh
#abd if it does (which it won't) i could mess it all up again by having ANOTHER big relapse like that
#anyway
#sorry for the rant i don't need anyone to read thisjdjsjsn i just am havkng a bad day and needed to get it off of my chest
#i'm actually doing okay and i know i should give myself credit for that like i'm in such a good place with my ed right now
#not perfect obviously but much better than i thought i'd ever be
#and i'm like 3 months clean from sh!1?3!4!!3
#and it's been like 7 months since i tried to Off myself and like 2 months since i last majorly Wanted to
#but it's just so Hard and it makes me angry that it was down to just one relapse of everything
#this doesn't make any sense but idk i was thinking about that part of my life and i hate it i can't listen to music i listened to then or
#wear clothes i liked wearing then or smell perfumes i used to wear then or eat things i used to eat a lot then and ugghhhhh
#i just hate thinking about that time of my life and i also hate having to try to get better bc it's impossible
#will probably delete this in a bitjajakxnd i just needed to rant
#okay sorry for massively oversharing sndndjdjd
#i just wish i weren't mentally ill
#my words*
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