So far the best movie I've watched this year is still puss in boots the last wish, with del toro's pinocchio and weird: the al yankovic story probably tied for second

how do i summarize the last year in isolation.. 2/8

2020 was literal hell. the worst year of my life to date! in february i got into boston ballet’s summer program, which would mean five weeks surrounded by serious ballet students and living on my own in boston. ugh im still so upset it got cancelled. covid happened in about march cancelling everything for the rest of the year.. spring show, amira, boston ofc and i couldn’t see my friends for the longest time. i am super glad i had anna though. we would just go on the longest walks to feed the baby geese all spring long and well into the summer. we gossiped about basically anything besides the actual shit we were dealing with in our own lives. it was too hard to have to talk about dad getting diagnosed outside of my house anyways. i mean i still haven’t told the vast majority of my friends that he has cancer? i don’t even know how to go about it, and im literally an expert oversharer. idk, its something about the way you can tell the looks on peoples faces even through a screen, especially when you are telling them your dad got diagnosed with stage four lung cancer in april of 2020. once summer came things got a little bit better? i started seeing dance friends again slightly, and i still saw anna a lot. we would go to sunrises and stay up all night in anticipation since we all know i cant wake up for the life of me. i started dancing again for the first time since march and it felt really good to finally have that release that i really missed. once school started up again, some routine started kind of entering my life again! i started getting close with nina, which has been probably the only upside to this entire pandemic. she completely gets me, and i really don’t know what i would do without her and my other closest friends. nutcracker season started and i was so so happy. my friends were dancing their dream roles and i got to be their biggest supporter which is truly what i do best. dancing in snow will forever be one of the highlights of my life. it was so magical and i really think it’s one of the core things that motivates me to continue dancing. when dance went virtual again, my life kinda started going downhill. i don’t even know how to put into words how painful dancing in your living room is in front of your entire family, but it is simply the worst. they have zero boundaries, and i am too anxious to try and set them. taylor released two albums in 2020 and i re-entered my obsession. also i have become a full fledged l****e , so you can probably tell that i am unwell!! ao3 has its own category in my screentime.. anyways. weekly hangouts with the roitmans + maiya + sarah have truly been my saving grace. it’s the only thing that feels even remotely normal and it’s still super modified. i am super glad we are still allowed to do them even if it means freezing our asses off walking home alone at 1 am every saturday.. maiya and fiz <333 in january i auditioned for three of the best ballet summer schools in the entire country and i got into all three!!! boston ballet with partial scholarship, miami city ballet with full tuition, and pacific northwest ballet with half tuition!!! this literally was insane to find out and i think that my parents are finally understanding how big of a deal this entire thing is? i have decided to do miami city ballets spring break workshop to adjust to strict balanchine, and then hopefully pnb has in person stuff in the summer? school stuff has been alright, i ended 1st semester with all a’s, but i don’t think i’ve retained nearly anything.. also i am in love with someone i havent even spoken to in person please. thomas gostch is literally perfect in every way. jones junior jazz musician, HE/THEY, percy jackson stan, olivia g’s little brother.. stop playing oh my god. anyways i am obsessed but its never going to happen ugh. i am hoping for things to start looking up for second semester and the summer! trying to be the emotional support im sure my friends will need once college stuff starts getting sent out. lol until next time!