The worst part of coming out of the PMDD Hazard Zone is that everything feels fine. It feels like you can handle the next wave and you'll be alright, as if the inescapable existential dread and loneliness that almost drove you mad 5, 6 days ago didn't exist.
Which is dumb because it /did/ and there's blog posts and ARTWORK to prove that it did and it was absolute hell.
And then we start talking ourselves out of following up with medical professionals. "It wasn't that bad". "Next time it'll be better".
You forget how difficult it was to climb back out of that, how hard you had to fight yourself and every little nasty thing your brain would throw at you while you did it.
And maybe in some ways, that's the real dangerous part.
Because you think it's fine....
...until suddenly it's not.
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It's probably bc my meds are fucking with my moods, but I was so weirdly upset last night with the last ask, bc I felt like I had just expressed it made me kinda sad when my non-clone characters didn't get as much attention as the clone ones do, and the phrase 'it kind of reminded me of your blog with all the cloning stuff with Pep' - like at that moment it was like 'okay, but clones tho???'
Which I highly doubt that was the asker's intention, and idk if they even read those tags, or if they did, got the impression I felt that way
And this probably sounds so selfish to be like 'I want attention on all my guys, all the time' and get upset when I have made myself to be 'the clone guy' and that's how people see me
I don't know, I am Going Through It Right Now, and it is not a fun time
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here it is, the unwanted encore —
+ MHA WATCHPARTY !!
pt. 2 electric boogaloo —
for the second session, we'll be watching the second of three movies: My Hero Academia: HEROES: RISING ! dates for the last movie will be determined at a later date, but will most likely take place around the same time as this one, as determined by poll.
here's the important bits !!
date: SATURDAY, 3/2
time: 4:00 pm, EST ( ⭠ handy dandy time zone converter )
to keep things accessible, we'll be watching the english dub with english subtitles.
the movie will be hosted on WATCHPARTY. the link to the room will be posted the day of. you do not need an account to use watchparty, but perhaps changing your chat name to your url or screen name would be helpful in identifying you.
everyone's invited ! feel free to reblog this if you're into that i guess — and invite your friends !!
that being said, i have no idea how many people will actually join in. it very well may be just me lmao but i know big watchparties can get out of hand sometimes. let's keep things safe and enjoyable for everyone, yeah ? blatant disregard of this statement will earn you a swift kick and potential ban from future watchparties hosted by me.
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