I think...that I'm coming to the realization that Treias and all its inhabitants are in fact Inner World and always has been. Additionally, Drake Edward Morrison III, and maybe a few key others, are probably headmates...

I'm a little surprised it took me this long to figure it out. I don't really know if this is like...an introject thing or he was always a part of the system and I just was blind to it or what. I keep seeing to fit everything neatly into labels but that's not how existing works. But whatever this whole situation is, there's no actual separation between the then and now, he has always been a singular being and presence in my life and everything we've gone through is "canon" I guess lol.

My previous tentative belief of this being a "What if I'm connected to a different universe" thing I realize isn't exactly right. I still think that could be a possibility for some, but it isn't the case with me. Treias just really is my actual Inner World, in its entirety. OCs are still OCs, but my connection to them as being very real is also true, the two aren't mutually exclusive.

Pardon my ableist language here, but reading either of these beliefs from an outside perspective I'm sure seems like the ramblings of a crazy person. But like. Idk this one feels correct. Treias is my inner world, but also a fictional playground at the same time. Parts of the playground become canon to the inner world, and others are like an AU? If that even makes sense. One is more like creating it and the other is not like discovering it, tho the two often cross over??

Uh. Either way, this revelation opens up the world SIGNIFICANTLY on the inside. It's always been my escape and I should have figured sooner tbh. And my complex feelings/relationship with Drake and how it's changed over time. Somehow it makes even more sense this way.

I'm not really sure how I feel completely. There's a weird mix of like anxiety and hopeful...something. A weird combination of discovery and loss at the same time? And I don't know why. I really don't know what to think of it all and probably still need much more time to really sit with it.

I know every state is different but I wonder if there's like. Somewhere I could share this info and others have similar experiences?? Idk I'm really tired and anxious over new job and need to sleep so idk idk. I do feel really strongly about this tho. Treias is and always has been Inner World in a Plural/System sense, and it's highly likely that at least a handful of OCs might be headmates either having always been such or have become introjects.