#but anyways im really sorry ive been away and stuff and idk if that will change because im still very tired
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well i think its finally time to open this box
#sorry gang apparently i am incapable of sticking to my word and am continuing to have a personality on main and subject you all#to all of my bullshit#i am doing my best but i am a weak bitch who does not know how to process feelings#so its a fucking miracle im opening this box tbh. ive wavered a lot around this one#this round of thinking is being brought on by the probable imminent break up between me + my gf 🙃👍#its been on the cards for a hot minute i mean. she hasnt sent me a message since the 8th of march until today and its like a.#we need to talk message so. like im not surprised. ans ive been thinking about it all a lot recently#i dont really want to realise im aro while im with someone so ive been avoiding it but like. ive been thinking. and ive been thinking if we#shouod break up too anyway because like. i get i am so hard to be around. but nothing. for a month. even a silly picture. it hurts dude#but i kinda didn't want to push because. i know i am. me. and a lot. and i know shes got stuff on her plate. but so do i#maybe we're both no good#to be around#nyxtalks#this is very not helpful in my whole. everyone i love leaves me eventually so i should isolate myself and push them all away thing i guess#but i dont think. i want to cling. i dont wanna be that pathetic.#she can do better than me (i cant do better than her)#i mean. idk ive been questioning if im aro anyway so. idk#i dont fucking know#honestly this is gonna be so cringe if this isnt what she wanted to talk about but like. what else could it possibly be i guess#dude i am so sorry if you read this this turned into relationship vent rather than my feelings around aromanticism#those are.complicated enough for their own post and i probably need to talk to some actual aromantic people about that
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actually, you know what ? im glad my ex gf ghosted me, i dodged a bullet it seems
#this was two years ago and just a few months ago i started getting over it#on the one hand yeah it fucking SUCKS i wish i had had some type of warning instead of radio silence suddently from one day to the other#on the other i was ready to move to texas (me: poc queer fem presenting nd bitch) and was looking seriously jobs over there#and like- i fucking HATE the usa but she was really scared about leaving the states to come to europe- so i was willingly to travel there to#be with her and not put her through that (ive been traveling since childhood so im used to it- but she has certain mental stuff going on and#taking her away from her family and her childhood city was going to be really tough- of course i'd sacrifice my life for hers)#and like im so sorry to everybody who is stuck in the usa right now bcs ur country is treating yall so poorly i feel genuinely bad#but as someone who was planninh to work over there as a teacher..... IM SO FUCKING GLAD I DONT HAVE TO SET FOOT THERE 😭#every single thing i hear about the education system there seems hellish- as well as the teachers' conditions and wages#like over here its not all rainbows and flowers but at least i dont have to worry about school shootings or getting fired for recommending#books from a banned list 💀#ESPECIALLY as a poc latino queer linguistics and literature teacher- i'd love to talk to students about a big range of things- i cannot#imagine having to censor myself or dance around a subject becs “kids are too dumb to understand queerness” “youre trying to groom them”#“dont brainwash em you commie” like ma'am im trying to help your child develop basic empathy and respect for those who dont look like them#like i hear some serious worrying stuff from teachers over there i hope u guys are holding up somehow 😭😭😭#anyways idk how the phrase in english goes but in spanish we say cuando dios cierra una puerta- abre una ventana#(<- trying to look for the positive in getting ghosted by the girl of their dreams)#its fine guys anyways#yeah that was the first LD relationship ive ever had- never trying that again#also i found out im arospec so im definitely not getting into a romantic relationship lmfaoooooo#only QPRs for me now if anything lol#vanya strawberry flavored
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dsmp if....they fell in love with you at first sight
lowkey this sucks im so sorry but number 6 has been written
dream:
- this happened before he face revealed
- so he went out to the grocery store or smth with a mask and sunglasses so if anyone recognized him they wouldn't like see what he looked like
- pulled a ranboo fr
- anyway he entered the cat food aisle looking for the best cat food for patches our beloved
- and was so enthralled in the cat food that he didn't hear you walk by with your cart trying to get past the aisle
- "excuse me sir can u please move???" "*is looking at cat food*" "sir?" "OH IM SO SORRY"
- moves immediately but not before he makes eye contact with you through the glasses
- his eyes widen comically, he thinks ur gorgeous
- takes advantage of that fact that you cant see his eyes and continue to admire your face as you laugh and wave ur wrist in the air, swatting away the awkward interaction just like that
- you walk away and he forces his mind to go back to the cat food
- but god ur imprinted in his brain and he knows he cant just let you leave
- so he grabs whatever cat food he sees and runs around the store looking for you
- sees you leaving and went "NOPE"
- in his head
- RUNS to you but slows down before he gets to you so u don't fucking murder him
- "hey uh" "oh hi!" "i thought you were really cute...and i couldn't just let u leave the store without tryna get ur number" "oh :) thanks! but idk what u look like.." "right"
- whips that shit off in the middle of walmart mask off challenge succeed
- ur face: :O
- "yeah u can have my number" "LETS GO"
- speedran that shit basically
sapnap:
- met u in highschool me thinks
- in the peak of his i play minecraft everyday era
- just showed up at school to be there yk
- and you were there but never really interacted with him
- until one day you had to sit next to him in english class
- life OVER for him tbh he made eye contact with you and nodded like an idiot as you introduced yourself
- “wow ur pretty im nick” *facepalmed internally*
- youre like aw
- u become friends
- seating chart friendships and romances >>>
- now he actually has a reson to go to school events like hoco and prom and stuff
- “sorry dream ive got to to go homecoming” “motherfucker with who?”
- you ask him to hoco as friends cause yk he hasnt been out much and he gratefully accepts
- awkward dancing in the back
- as the year progresses the two of you keep in contact even as you got moved apart in the class you sat next to
- you met dream and george that was nice
- prom came around and he new brother knew he had to do SOMETHING
- so he made a prom posal that was like “will you be MINE(craft) at prom” or something like that
- and u were like “finally”
- fast forward some years and ur doing whatever u want and hes doing what hes doing now
- he never formally asked you out but its implied youve been dating for years
- this one sucked mb
george:
- god the british
- hate them/j
- youre not british in this story okay
- and if ur british irl,,,im sorry for ur ailment/j
- ANYWAY
- youre a tourist ur visiting the good old u of k
- ur in london obv
- and george never leaves his flat there
- except to get groceries
- so he walks to the nearest grocery store bc he literally cant drive
- and bumps into you its the classic omg so sorry i bumped into you romance
- except he thought that was awkward and kinda went “sorry” looked down at the ground and sprinted forward
- you were like “the british are.....odd”
- george then realized that was worse and turned around to apologize to you
- and then fell in love with you
- u were taking a picture on ur camera of just like the scenery of london
- and we like “omg theyre cute and they appreciate the little things”
- gets on discord and texts sapnap “im in love” and then sapnap goes “me too with ur mom”
- logs off discord now
- walks up to you sheepishly and was like “haha sorry for doing that it was a dare by my friend” and u were like “its ok:)” ad then hes like “yk what isnt a dare” and u were like “hmm what” and he was like “me asking for your number cause ur so cute”
- and u were malfunctioning cause u didnt expect cute british man to ask you on a date while u were in the u of k
- but u said yes and then he realized ur accent and was like “ar eyou not british” and u were like “no.” and he was like “thats okay! im skilled with long distance relationships ;)”
- unknowingly flirts with you
- you skull emojied and then joined him on his trip to the grocery store IDK this one was bad im sorry
karl:
- YOURE IN A MR BEAST CHALLENGE
- oh oh OH the amount of things in my brain running through
- anyway u were a subscriber of Mr jimmy beast so he was like "come be in a video"
- its one of those last to leave the circle loses
- each cast member is paired with a participant and whoever wins gets 50,000 and the cast member gets like 10,000 or smtn
- and jimmy had them all pick a name out of a hat to make it simple
- and karl didn't pick u
- nolan did
- but when they walked out to meet the participants and karl made eye contact with you for a split second
- god he fell right there
- couldn't help but imagine what loving you would be like
- knew he wanted to experience that
- but he couldn't do that if he wasn't even paired with you
- so he BEGS nolan to switch
- "dude please cmon" "what do i get out of it??" "if i win ill give you the money" "oh shit ok"
- now he's paired with you HE MASTERMINDED THAT SHIT LIKE TAYLOR SWIFT
- anyway you were like "shit he's cute ill win now"
- ur dynamic is amazing jimmy loves it for the video
- the whole time u both are playfully flirting and just being yourselves around each other its amazing
- he tries to cheat to help you LOL but gets caught with a sheepish smile on his face
- that's when u fall i swtg
- anyway
- the filming for the video goes for like 2 and a half days so you spend a lotttt of time with karl dearest
- you lose in the end tho bc in ur sleep u accidentally kicked ur foot outside the circle
- you're a bit defeated
- after thanking u all jimmy sends you off
- and u smile and thank him and karl and head off
- but then you hear a "PIT PAT PIT PAT" of feet slapping concrete behind you
- "wait can i have ur number? :)" "i thought you wouldn't ask :)" and u give him ur number number for number
- jimmy mischievously smiles in the background before returning to his beast lair
quackity:
- LAW SCHOOL LAW SCHOOL LAW SCHOOL YOU MET THERE STOP STOP STOP
- stop college romances kill me for real
- guys
- k I'm good
- met at orientation i feel
- or not met
- he laid eyes on you from across the room and he was like oh shoot this place is better than i thought it would be
- LOL
- runs across the whole room to snag the seat next to you
- "hey I'm alex, whats your name?" "oh I'm y/n!"
- bro squealed inside
- "i like ur name!" "thanks :) urs is nice too"
- u both talked for the rest of the welcome ceremony thing
- compared schedules and had...nothing together for the first semester
- thATS OK you still exchanged numbers
- and you kept talking and hanging out even if u didn't have class
- but as friends.
- AAAAAAAAAAAAA you fell for him somewhere in the middle but both of you were like
- we need to finish law school first in your heads
- so u both skated on the line between romance and friends
- like the song boyfriend by ariana grande
- but when the end of law school was in sight? quackity didn’t waste a single second
- BAM got ur number BAM took u on a date BAM yk
wilbur:
- fell in love with you at first sight except you didnt see him he just saw you
- here’s the thing right hes the biggest hamilton fan
- so when he went to see hamilton with tommy and all them
- YOU WERE THERE you were in the cast you played angelica/eliza/peggy literally one of the three female main characters
- ANYWAY you were screaming the lyrics to one of the songs and wilbur kinda just went “woah”
- didnt see anyone else on the stage but you when you walked out
- tommy was like “did u see the bullet wil” and he wa slike “no”
- forced tommy to stage door after the show
- prayed to all the theater gods that you came outside
- when you did? game over for him
- he stood there stawstruck awstruck jawstruck
- aND the same happened for you!!! bc u knew who he was ofc
- u had a lovejoy poster in ur dressing room duh
- so by the time you came round to him and tommy you were like “heheheh” and giggling “hi omg im a big fan of your music and stuff :)” and he was like “mIne?”
- his voice cracked
- you giggled and you both took pictures with each other on your phones
- then u invited him backstage
- and he wa slike LHJSKHFSDFKGHJERT
- LEFT TOMMY AT STAGE DOOR
- you showed him around including on stage
- and this went on for a while hed just show up a stage door and youd let him in
- one day you were both on the stage and he started humming helpless and you both started dancing
- and then he was like “i rlly am helpless for you, id like to try and make this something more if ur up for it”
- and you were like WOOOOOO yk
#dreamwastaken x reader#sapnap x reader#georgenotfound x reader#karl jacobs x reader#quackity x reader#wilbur soor x reader#dream x reader#mcyt x reader#dsmp x reader#x reader#shakira shakira writes#dsmp imagines#mcyt imagines
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hello! ur posts on the vagus nerve and its connections to digestions have encouraged me to do a lil mini dissertation thingy kinda focused on it/around it, ur big thread on PVT and everything really piqued my interest when i read it and i just held onto it for like a year or smthing until like last week when i started the project. Ik u said recently in one of ur posts i believe that ur not going to post the big dirk PVT post and im not here to be like yo post it because i also think u said that ur kinda moving away from like hs/dirky stuff rn ?? (im forgetting if i saw that sorry) but yeah i just wanted to say thank u etc etc, like ive never done an ask before so sorry if this is phrased weirdly but ur blog is just like one of those blogs that fundamentally changed how i view certain things in life for the better lol, like whether its ur beautiful representations / depictions of mental health in like just beautifully painted art (seriously the way u make it look like idk how to word it cartoony/really 2d but then it stands out against the background + if u zoom in and see the tiny pixel details == it makes me mad) or just like the huggeee long form posts that i like to chew on and save cuz theres so many details that AFFAAT like the way you talk abt the topics u portray has made me concious of how i would want to do so in the same way ig u get me. anyway this got really long and idk if i come across coherently, but ur just a random person on the internet whos art and written thoughts that u decide to share makes me happy when i see it == makes me pace around my room and distract me from this fat essay lmao so tldr: i really appreciate what u do + i hope like that ur doing well and that u keep arting and thoughting no matter what it is that u choose to focus on
(uve made me comitted to reading jthm, playing psychonauts and giving jjba w/ dio another go lmao) 🫶🫶
Hello! I’m sorry this reply is coming so late, this ask in particular is very sweet and has stuck out to me.
I’m really happy to have introduced you to PVT, this is something I’ve heard from a few different people on here and it’s very sweet… I did my thesis on it in college and the time really flew by while working on it, things you don't think could possibly attributed to "nerve issues" being nerve issues is always an eye-opener, isn't it? being able to research things that interest you & access information in general really is a privilege in this day and age.
“The topics [I] portray” are very important to me, so it’s heartening when others take interest in spite of the obvious deterrents. A lot of what I love making art about is unpalatable to most, and while I do understand the reasons for that on principle, it can make things feel a little insular. I genuinely believe there’s a lot of value in depicting tableaus of misery.
The last year has brought a lot of very unforeseen changes, and my life is quite different from when I initially made this blog to post about him! That’s also part of why I’ve been so sparse here…though I’m working to change that quite soon. I love sharing my work, and I’ve had the privilege of meeting some truly wonderful people through this website. That said…with where I’m at now, I’m not sure I’ll be posting the Dirk essay anytime soon, I’m afraid.
I’ve undertaken a few ongoing projects, one of which in particular is an original project I plan on sharing publicly here hopefully within the next month or so. I hope it’s something you & anyone else who’s stuck around with me here will enjoy, but failing that, I’ve really enjoyed working on it thus far.
Thank you for the sweet ask, take care, and good luck with your project!
#ask#I'm not afraid to admit that my fondness for dio is entirely contingent on things I made up about him in my head over the years.#there's a draft here filled with thousands of words about him that I started writing up in response to some ask I got earlier this year#but I never finished it... :( and I also never posted the dozens and dozens of pictures I frenetically drew of him either. maybe someday#on another note: I did my yearly reread of johnny the other month. I'll do something big with him one day but this year is not the year#similarly sasha answers in the queue. I'm glad you enjoyed psychonauts it's one of the greatest games ever visually and re: gameplay. etc#lucy art
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ok ive been wanting to ask this for a while but i didnt know if youd be able to answer since its giving a lot away.. but f it lmao. does ravenstan know jersey kyle is HIS kyle? bc he hasnt said anything but how many ginger jewish jersey boys are there named kyle matthew broflovski hsjjdks im assuming one
ooooooh. ok...Hm.
so, i stared at this for a while and...
you know what, my friend? i should, one, prolly stop randomly jumping the line of 34973 ask memes in my box whenever i get a new one bc i get super excited & have no attention span, but also this is...Important.
and tbh, one of the Big reasons that rm got so tricky for me was because i got overly anxious about the timeline, too worried abt what sequence of events the fic should follow/what things should you know and when, etc. so i actually have a lot of random rm itinerary/lore that i wrote that i was going to drop you guys in other chapters but wasn't sure if it was...Time yet?
buuuuut given that posting to my ao3 has been super stressful for me as of late/i'm still trying to ease back into it/i feel more posting comfortable stuff on here -- combined with the serious bummer that i can't really write updates in the sorry shape i’m in rn with settling into my new workplace and grappling with my mental health/healing my complex feelings abt writing
which is a Serious Bummer indeed because i try to be as fun and zesty as possible in my ask responses, but i really want to give you all something more solid to Read, you know?
so this is my little compromise for you. :)
basically i wrote this little scene thingy like a month ago and Almost put it at the beginning of rm6...but it was too complicated and i was like maybe i should wait, idk...
but i am feeling chaotic today!~
and the fact you guys care enough about my weird little fanfictions to regularly send me thoughtful, kind, excited messages abt it even when my updates are few and far between — idk, that means so much to me. you all mean a lot to me…and you guys know i am unhinged and cannot resist posting snippets/spoilery things.
so…i’m closing my eyes!! but also it’s not a spoiler if i was going to post this earlier Anyways…right? dhsksks
( if you want to read it it’s under the cut w/ more info xx )
it is however…a draft. it’s really…not that good. like i said i was going to fix it / rewrite it when i figured out where i wanted it to go, but i wanted to answer your question without saying too much about it sooo i think this little scene thing should tell you/give you the information you seek while also keeping you confused/interested?
maybe?? idk?? i’m sweating, smh.
( some of lines just ended up re-written in my actual fic so if they look familiar that’s why — ANYWAYS! )
the Context is actually abt Kyle’s CRIMINA LAUR class, which if you rem(ember), jersey was writing an essay that was due at midnight but got rizzed too hard by raven and passed out and couldn’t turn it in!!! jersey kyle was ready to fight for his life ( aka lie out of his ass abt why his essay didn’t get uploaded w/o mentioning crimson dawn bc Ew ) but mr. mackey said that a Compelling Case was submitted upon his behalf by a
Third Party
and waved the missing homework assignment, where, in the section where kyle would have uploaded a copy of his essay, a video had been uploaded and submitted.
here’s the beginning of it
also jersey is in his pajamas, his hair is up, he looks radiant, he’s red bc having some box wine and his eye is twitching btw — pls tell me you can see it — also this was either going to go up before the hate or after it so i don’t think the time frame matters — this is just part of what happened while kyle was passed out back stage )
anyways! *jersey vc* Cheers! Mazel <3
;)
-uncle nina
#tw for me spoiling stuff#JUST KIDDING IM NOT I SWEAR U GUYS#I WAS GONNA TRY AND FIT THIS INFO INTO ANOTHER CHAP#but u guys are the best and have been very patient#and so dedicated and invested in my work#which is so amazing so#here is some interesting information#and i hope it helps answer ur question a little#u will probably have 20 more#so sorry friend#hopefully this was a thrilling uphate#i sent this on my phone#so im sorry if this looks crazy this also might be a crazy thing to do right before i dip for an event#but i love chaos let’s go babey#i feel like 75% of this is not ground breaking but IT IS CUTE OKAY I THINK ravenstan my beloved#he was so worried oh my god pleaaase
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hi. this may feel a bit silly but i just wanted to say how much of an excellent writer you are and im really appreciate your work!
ive only really read ur toh fics but recently i read ur trolls fic and really, i know u may feel differently abt a fic u wrote at 18, but i was really blown away!! it was so fun and thrilling of a read!
ur style of writing has such a distinct voice for the characters you write, which makes me adore your writing for willow; my fave for toh fics!! but seeing how you wrote branch and poppy made me all the more appreciate your growth as a writer and really sold me to your story telling! ur just really get a lot of characters and their very complex personalities so well!
im sorry to just send u a big paragraph of this haha but i hope it lets u know i'm always excited to read anything u write!! (v excited for the aladarius, lalaland, or batb au whatever you decide to go!!)
ok im done sorry!! ☆ hope u have a nice day!!
WAHHHH!!! HI HELLO!!! I've been very down for this last week but reading this made me very very happy!! There's an effort to devote to writing a little paragraph like this and I'm so grateful that you chose to take the time out of your day to do it. You must be a very lovely person <33
Since TOH is my special little passion right now, I'm of course ECSTATIC when someone tells me they enjoy the fics I write. So thank you, thank you so much!!
My trolls fics are different but just as special!! Even tho I'm not personally all that connected to the stuff I wrote all those years ago, I find it very beautiful and meaningful when somebody says, after such a long time, that something you made brought them joy!! It's like drawing a smiley face on wet cement and then a stranger sees it immortalized like a decade later and they smile. A very sweet pleasant echo I think. Thank you for telling me!! I so very much enjoy feedback on my old stuff, to this day!!!
And on my new stuff too!! DELIGHTED you like Willow!! I like her too!! Love writing her and spending time with her!!!
And I'm so happy you're excited. I'm excited too!! Idk when I'll get to the other stuff you mentioned but the batb fic is where my heart is at right now, so an update on that will likely be the next thing I post!!
Anyway, thank you to bits, MWAH
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another ask away but I’ll keep this one a bit shorter lol: I noticed after you got into getter you fell down the mecha rabbit hole which is awesome! But I’m curious how much you’ve watched since then and now other then mazinger and jeeg as I saw. (And it’s okay if it’s a short number bc despite me MASSIVELY hyperfixating on mecha especially because of its history, I’ve maybe watched six mechas now😭 which it ain’t six shows counting iterations but still)
Ive always been a big fan of mecha!
Ive watched stuff from the genre since I was little!
(I will admit I did lean more towards american animation tho. have alot of good memories of 70's Mazinger, Megas XLR and Symbionic Titan)
Sadly I did fall out of watching anime for a while tho... not out of hate or anything, I just didnt watch stuff as much.
aaand then tekkaman blade came and I fell into this spiral again
So... after seeing a bit of media with the character I said "hey why not! might as well go back to watching shows"
I watched like 15 eps and kinda forgor for a long while (I know Tekkaman Blade is not mecha... despite being in SRW- its a real big technicality)
Anyway then I saw armageddon in two days, neo getter in a week... then I rewatched getter armageddon with my brother (he really enjoyed it), then new getter (idk why I watched those three pratically back to back to back), saw Gundam 0080 a bit later, a bit of xabunble (I really want to go back to that eventually) and after that... a whole lot of lounging (just regular cartoons and so on, mission hill was fun)
a slight bit of 70s getter (10 eps), Mazinkaiser aaaand now shin jeeg
I am super slow with this stuff honestly but im planning on getting better at this to
Sorry if this answer is a tad scattershot.
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Ok..I've been thinking about making this for a while so... trigger warnings...I guess
If you do not want to listen about colombine then don't read this so if you don't like any of the stuff related to that then... please go away
If you do want to listen to this and you..... really like the two guys who did it like.....really like them...then also don't read this because it's just me yelling about how I don't like them
And finally 3....there is no grammar or punctuation and I don't wanna put it so without further adieu
MY THOUGHTS ABOUT ERIC HARRIS AND DYLAN KLEBOLD AND WHY THEY SUCK
Ok context I've been doing this thing where I get baked and watch disturbing hour long iceberg videos it's fucking awesome you should try it anyway I was watching "the disturbing and controversial video games iceberg"
Here:
https://youtu.be/sQ1wzo2Zh14?si=Dq74dIht-POE-anC
And on like...teir 3 I think there was this one game titled "super colombine massacre RPG" it's.... exactly what it sounds like and the last teir was doom maps made by Eric harris and idk after watching that video....it stuck with me not in a way that traumatized me but....I kept thinking about those guys their names and faces so often it's like....every other thought and I think a lot
And because I think about them so often I feel bad about it because I feel like one of the people who have a crush on these guys....I don't have a crush on them I have no positive feelings for these greasy mudballs
AND THEY ARE BOTH....JUST ASS LIKE THEY GENUINELY FUCKING SUCK IDK HOW Y'ALL EVEN LIKE THESE DUDES I HATE THEIR GUTS
SPEAKING OF WHICH.....HOW DO Y'ALL EVEN SIMP FOR THESE TRASHMITES
LIKE ERIC HARRIS IS THE MOST AVERAGE LOOKING MOTHER FUCKER I'VE EVER SEEN LIKE....I KNOW LIKE 5 DUDES WHO LOOK LIKE HIM
DYLAN ON THE OTHER HAND LOOKS LIKE THE DEFENTION OF GREASY LIKE THEY ARE BOTH.....JUST....NO
AND ME THINKING ABOUT THEM CONSTANTLY PROBABLY ISNT GREAT FOR MY MENTAL HEALTH BECAUSE IM SCSRED TO GO BUY A SODA AT NIGHT BECAUSE I HAVE THIS IRRATIONAL FEAR THELAT THEY'RE GHOSTS ARE GONNA GET ME....I KNOW THAT WON'T HAPPEN THERES NO WAY IT COULD
ANOTHER REASON IT SUCKS FOR MY MENTAL HEALTH I THINK LIKE.... ALMOST EVERY OTHER GUY MIGHT SHOOT UP MY SCHOOL THAT MAKES ME KINDA PARANOID
AND FINALLY I WAS IN CLASS AND A CLASS MATE OF MINE CAME A LITTLE LATE WEARING A TRENCH COAT AND SHADES I ALMOST HAD A GODDAMN HEART ATTACK ITS NOT OK
AND OH HO HO HO MAN....I FOUND SHIT I FUCKING FOUND....WEIRD SHIT I TRIED TO GO ON THIS SITE CAUSE I THOUGHT MAYBE THERE ARE OTHER HATE POSTS ABOUT THESE GUYS....THEN I REMEMBER ITS FUCKING TUMBLR I FOUND THE FANDOM....THID MADE ME FEEL WORSE LIKE....I FEEL LIKE I HAVE TO CONFESS THAT IM NOT ATTRACTED TO THESE FUCK WADS AT ALL LIKE 50 TIMES I FEEL BAD LOOK MAKE ALL THE DYLRIC SHIT YOU WANT MAN BUT FUCK....I DON'T WANNA BE LIKE YOU (wow that sounds mean I'm sorry)
THE FICS ARE WORSE MAN....THEY ARE SO..... IDK HOW TO SAY IT BUT I DON'T THINK I'VE EVER FELT TRUE DREAD TILL NOW
IVE BEEN HAVING DREAMS ABOUT THEM BRO ITS NOT GOOD
(I had this dream where Eric and Dylan lived in one of those influencer mansions like hype house or something and they were telling all the tik tokers about this thing called "cliff terroism" it's domestic terroism but better for the environment and JFK from clone high was there he approved this message)
THERE ARE.... CHARACTER AI BOTS OF THEM.....I-I HAD TO TRY THEM I HAD TO SEE I USED IT TO YELL AT THEM AND THEY WERE LIKE "ur mom" AND I ALSO PRETENDED TO BE A DOG BECAUSE I THOUGHT IT WOULD MAKE ME FEEL BETTER
I TRIED SO HARD TO GET MY MIND OFF THEM I GOT HOOKED ON WALLY DARLING FOR A BIT SO I GOT CHAT GPT TO WRITE AN ESSAY ON WHY WALLY DARLING IS BETTER THEN THOSE FUCKING ASS RATS
LIKE I..... I FUCKING HATE IT AND THEM AND WHAT HAPPENED AND MAYBE DEEP DOWN I HATE MYSELF A LITTLE TOO
Thanks for listening...I really needed this
#tcc tumblr#tccblr#tcc columbine#columbine 1999#Eric Harris#dylan Klebold#eric and dylan#dylric#reb and vodka#columbine massacre#columbine school shooting#columbine high massacre#rant post#vent post
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Keishin 100% dude, arguing and then realizing feelings then confessing mid argue? So keishin vibes
45 and 46 :p
HI AGAIN ANON SO it’s been a few days (so sorry about that btw.) And i have. Possibly the funniest news. i was thinking really hard about your ask and how to approach it because i tend to sort of…draft scenarios in my head before actually answering my asks? and i was like. hmmmmmm idk why im having such a tough time with this! i feel like no matter what i do it ends up feeling forced! and i genuinely DONT know how to tell you this but I THINK YOUR ASK MADE ME REALIZE YTR SHIN IS AROMANTIC????? LIKE I. I GENUINELY DONT KNOW WHAT TO SAY. THIS WASNT INTENTIONAL. I JUST REALIZED IT.
like ok i know im the creator of this au and i can do whatever with the characters. but sometimes i feel like the characters are actually doing whatever they want to and im like a haggard reporter chasing after them trying to figure out what’s going on.
that said i still really wanted to answer this ask because i think it’s interesting and also because ive already put you through the ringer with the light mode debacle (😭) so its still keiji and shin but a more…platonic take on these prompts?? I HOPE THATS OKAY AUUUAUAUAU;;;
anyways just to offer you a bit of background: keiji and shin are a super interesting duo in ytr to me! keiji takes hinako’s spot, meaning he’s a human who tries to blend in with the dummies. if shin lives, he actually gets paired up with him (i know that doesnt actually fit the role swap but i wanted to anyways because they are the parallel characters of all time to me). i definitely see their relationship starting off with mutual suspicion, with shin being suspicious of keiji’s behaviors (what with him secretly being a double-agent for asunaro n all here <.<) and keiji being suspicious of shin kind of splitting off from the rest of the group. yet, i also see this evolving into a sort of mutual intrigue— they’re both invested in trying to Detective each other out and figure out What This Guy’s Deal Is.
a moment for 45-46 would, to me, definitely take place after it’s revealed that the dummies’ goal is to kill their partners. if shin already didn’t trust keiji, he would certainly not after knowing this info (i mean, come on, mr. 0.0% over here…). and i can TOTALLY see them getting into an argument over that, since a conflict of interests would be born from keiji wanting to keep an eye on shin while shin just wants to be Left The Hell Alone.
i think keiji would make the argument that if shin was really so worried about being targeted, why doesn’t he just make the first move to take out keiji? to which shin would be like are you stupid? then ryoko and everyone else would want me dead. to which keiji would point out…buddy….they kind of already do. he can Sense the antagonism in the air just from how ryoko and shin interact.
he then takes it a step further to observe that shin cant trust anyone, but he doesnt have it in him to betray anyone either. shin would actually be caught off guard at this, but also be like “bitch you too” and say that keiji also hasn’t trusted anyone, hasn’t revealed practically anything about himself.
i think this is where the “realization” part kicks in. shin desperately DOES want to trust others, in this case he even *does* like keiji, but he’s so terrified of letting anyone in (ESPECIALLY after the 2nd main game) when it’s so much easier to push people away.
i think…they’d be able to be a bit candid here. realizing that they’re at a bit of an impasse, i think keiji would be the first to open up a little about Why he acts this way (more of the traumatic past stuff, less of the asunaro stuff for. obvious reasons 💀) and shin would mutually confess how he felt about the death game and that he wants to trust keiji but just feels like he can’t.
the real fun (tragic) part is that i think after having a conversation like this shin would feel hopeful!!!! that maybe even in this awful environment he could find someone he might be able to call a friend(????!!!!) but of course that’s cut short because keiji dies in the banquet 💥💥💥 hence why this is the Worst time for him to realize he actually doesn’t think this guy is half bad. sorry i love making shin suffer </3
ok yeah i. i know this isnt really keishin. sorry anon </3 but shin aro icon remains true and real in my heart forever
#princesseevee answers#ask games#your turn ryoko#shin tsukimi#keiji shinogi#i feel like i let you down for a third time i am genuinely so sorry 😭#i just unintentionally heavily aro coded shin#ok small ramble because i love this headcanon ive decided#i feel like hed mistake his desire for platonic intimacy as wanting romance#and then he’d realize. he just does not feel that way about anyone#he just want friends. and hugs. and honestly he’s so so real for that#im not projecting i swear i swear i swear
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Something something requested post about gabby
Ive like talked a little about stuff related 2 her identity problems ☝️ ✌️ and everything but like. vague hand motions heres the whole thing:;;;
Tbh im not sure where it started but to me its a mix of her ties to dionysus being expression and emotions and me just projecting onto her. her powers are focused on influencing others and manipulating things rather than just nature or art so shes like. full of chaos. not even in a silly personality trait way its literally just built into her. thats what her powers are. chaos and change. thats what she embodies. [which contrasts angels motif of calmness and cowardice and brings a cool balance to their relationship]
so obviously that and having bipolar disorder can make things messy sometimes and she struggles with truly being happy with her friendships. which is bad on its own but these also make her really cling to predictability and the idea of being in control (most obvious ex. is taking the role of leader during the quest for herself and planning out everything they do) which like. is related to the uncertainty she feels towards herself and her future cuz shes like getting closer to being an adult [and also the age lots of demigods dont make it very far past but she hasnt had to worry much about that until now] but really isnt ready to do that nor does she have any real passion for any job or thing related to it. shes just focused on finishing highschool and then she’ll have to worry about that. which she hated cuz yk. Mentioned stuff.
so basically its lots of Wow this is a lot of emotions about stuff with me in it. But who am i even. What is my purpose what am i supposed to do. Why is the world like this i dont want to do adult things. I dont even know what those adult things are or how they work.
i wanna say there were some v small thoughts about this pre-demigod stuff happening [mostly just about if people like her or not or how tf to make friends rather than everything else] and it just like got 10x worse once they did start cuz it like ruined what good she had goin. duh
and going with the linked post where i apologize to gabby she also has the dumbest smart person in the room problem where yes she Is very smart and good at problem solving and fighting but she also feels like shes not very useful or impressive when in certain groups [like how angel and jade have more knowledge about greek myths and nature than her] so its like. Hm is she really all that if she can only shine when surrounded by people less competent than she. also the guilt mentioned in said post is like related to this too cuz she wants to look cool and be inteligent and awesome yet also could come off as stuck up or a showoff or something cuz of how much she wants to be looked up to by others and be complimented
i think the last thing i have to say about it is how she does a lot of avoiding like. as a coping thing. like 2 examples i have so far for p1 would be the whole forced quest thing as an excuse to leave camp and not deal with violet or jack or anyone else who could bring up the fight and then the breakdown talk with angel (though its less avoiding and more finally snapping from all the pushing away) … and like maybe the bedrotting on their first summer there could count since she didnt wanna go out and see her dad or engage in any camp things but idk. maybe the thing w her stepdad too
Anyway yeah this post took forever cuz i was working on it on and off lollll sorry been busy (so obv disclaimer sorry if it sounds weird cuz i kind of just continued my thoughts between hour long pauses. im not rereading my lore posts bro thats what ive got notes and memorized info for….)
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i know its not quite the same scenario as navy seal, but ive highkey avoided ever talking about or publicly enjoying poly pirates content for the same kind of reason, but instead bc it involves shipping jay and chip.
like. yes, i know many people (including the jerboys) interpret them as having a more sibling-esque bond. I fully acknowledge it and I can even agree w it!* but i hate how it has been made that any other interpretation is not only wrong but also bad.
idk man like. i just hate how it feels like enjoying any dynamic of poly-pirates outside of fnc is wrong-- bc at that point, what is the point?
*i personally tend to see the two as very close, but the specifics of whether that closeness is platonic/familial or romantic depends on interpretation (whether of the individual, author, etc). they're two people who've found connection and safety in each other and also enjoy ribbing the other for jokes- what specific type of connection that is can vary for me, yknow? the type isnt the Core of their dynamic to me
(sorry the asterisk part got so long i just want to properly explain myself and dump a bit fjkdsjf)
Oh yeah, I'm 1000% with you on this. I mentioned navyseal cause that's my personal guilty pleasure that I am highkey obsessed with but had to keep it on the downlow after twitter decided it was just as bad as inc*st apparently (as someone who is very very deeply uncomfortable and revolted by that type of stuff in genuine, that shit pissed me off!!!), but this absolutely applies to Chip and Jay and polypirates as a whole. Hell, when I first started the show and didn't really have much fandom influence in my first 30 something episodes I was actually way more of a poly enjoyer
Anyways, as a whole I do sincerely think Chip and Jay work better as a platonic bond, I like this interpretation of their relationship better than romantic, but that doesn't necessarily make the ship bad or wrong you know? Literally ditto to everything you said in your asterisk I couldn't word it better myself.
Like bruh it really felt like these characters are stuck being bitchless fr LOL that whole twitter debacle made it feel like the only CORRECT ships were fnc and pistolwhip (as if fnc doesn't Also have some of the same dynamics listed in navyseal and chip/jay!! (although im certainly keeping my mouth shut further on that since people have started gunning to convince people fnc is a Bad Boring Ship, Actually, and it's better platonic (unrelated to the wlw vs mlm take that just happened there, big disclaimer (I spend too much time on twitter can u tell... there's so many shipwars there for no reason...))) anyways yeah there was just too many people trying to police these ships and instead of just being NORMAL and saying "oh X isn't my cup of tea I enjoy a familial/platonic bond between them instead" they start bending over backwards to prove that ACTUALLY it's PROBLEMATIC, SEE? And sourcing the boys' opinions on it doesn't Wholly matter to ships (unless it's in regards to boundaries, in which it Absolutely Matters) cause Bizly regularly dunks on fnc and that hasn't changed anything
This got very long winded sorry LOL I've been holding onto this irritation for a while now, it's one of the reasons why I'm trying to move away from twitter and come back to tumblr tbh. It is simply fandom culture to ship, and while I love fnc to absolute death as my main ship here, it's nice to explore some variety yk? navyseal has CRAZY potential cause of their parallels and their journey of self discovery and how much they deeply care for each other, polypirates is just a lot of fun altogether cause of all their personalities and that shared strong bond, then you have swordfish, fish² and chips, caspian/chip, marshall john/gillion, like, multishipping is FUN dude. Unless it's GENUINELY problematic or Actual Proshipping like twitter Claimed, I don't see the big idea. There is such thing as "Don't like, don't read". There is such thing as muting/blocking words and curating your own experience. You don't have to put down others because their enjoyment of something clashes with your personal interpretation of it. It's fandom bro!!!
#bheart talks#answered#shit man even typing this out i get nervous hitting post but man i KNOW im not wrong
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OH HELLO IM BACK （＾∀＾●）ﾉｼ
uuugh sorry for 3 month hiatus lmao (enjoy this lil drawing i made :D)
Ok RL update time: was busy with figuring out my finaid situation for college, then getting scammed by a dude and having to create a whole new bank account :( which ultimately just sucked the money from my wallet the motivation to draw out of me and then when i was pulling myself together, i was suddenly busy celebrating my friends being back home from their college (wooo!) and then my roommates and i were apartment hunting for college. We managed to find a decently cheap apartment (well as cheap as it can be for a city on the outskirts of LA lmao) and we finally got approved and accepted and signed the lease! Most of my college stuff is getting figured out and ive been getting more motivated to art and now i luckily have more free time on my hands too!
Ive been having more personal time now, so hopefully i can draw more fandom fanart (lately ive mostly been doing OC stuff but honestly idk if i want to include my OCs here or just keep it fandom only) I do have some bad news, my Summertime Comic will continue to be put on hiatus just cause i need to do more research :') Looking over my outline, i was very ambitious with the story and topics i wanted to juggle. I do want to make it relatively accurate well as accurate as it can be for a made up town inspired by 1970s Germany can be So i dont want to continue the story right now with my half assed research and possibly offend/possibly hurt anyone with my ignorance on these sensitive/political topics and worldbuilding. That being said, I understand hiatuses kinda suck so i might just create an alternate ending that strays away from these deeper topics and try to keep the plot strictly "Forger family reconciliation" just for the sake of having closure to the story, and then when i have more time to do ample research, I'll draw out the "true ending" of what i wanted to happen. Or I might even just take parts and pieces of the original plot and simplify it to make it more easy for me to draw and so it'll have the remnants of my OG vision of the story. I'm still undecided but i really really do like the story and i dont want to entirely abandon it :)
I think mentioned it in my last comic post that i already had the draft done of the next part and that is true, so now that i have more time ill clean up the linework on that part and post it at some point (hopefully by this month) ((let me give you a lil sneak peak. also ik it looks angsty but i swear its a sweet wholesome part with family feels <3))
Anyways TDLR: im back and i got most of my rl stuff figured out and i want to use the rest of my summer break to draw fun comfort fanart things that ik i wont have as much time for when i attend college. So yea get ready for an influx of fandom brainrot ผ(•̀_•́ผ) Hope yall enjoy the art and have a wonderful rest of the day and remember to stay hydrated in these hot summer days!
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I am so sorry to my group members holy shit
I just realized im turning into Alex Kralie help-
I have this project for school where I have to record this video thats supposed to basically be like a commercial in summary and uh
I have so many other projects for other classes right now that ive been stressed out and so I've gotten mad at them and all this stuff multiple times now and I just saw a picture I took of me and my friend before we really got into starting the project
We were just so silly and like wow like thats the first friend I made since the way start of the school year and im being so shitty honestly like I need to calm down before I completely push them away from me
anyways yea wow thats just wow idk crazy like I dunno
#Im the one recording the thing cause I have multiple cameras#also im the only one who can hold one steady#and I also have to edit the videos#also to be fair#ive done most of the work on this project#like the rest of them have done way less than me and ive even had to do/redo some of their parts they messed up#not rlly an excuse tho im so bad at like calming tf down#id add like a mh tag or alex tag but im not gonna on purpose simply cuz this is mostly a rant but idc
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someone broke into my apartment. I havent been on because the only thing i have that i can access the internet on is my work computer ( i can get into trouble for using even spotify on that) and my switch ( just got it last monday. in another situation id be ecstatic about getting a new game system, but right now im just glad i didnt leave it out in the open)
Firstly, sorry if the formatting weird, im not used to my new phone yet.
Secondly im sorry for the people who wanted drawings from me, im gonna try my best to recreate them and post them.
Thirdly, this is really fucking long, tldr, someone broke it, let one of my cats out stole my tablet, phone, and a bunch of my games so thats why i was gone. read for details? I guess? I wouldnt lol.
also fuck you theres typos, of course theres gonna be typos.
SO…
small town does not equal no crime. After the (insert wherever the power comes from) was fixed, it has some issues and shut down again a few days later. idk why. My rm and i decided to walk to the gas station for lunch, they had power, music, cold drinks and food, and bathrooms that have functioning lights. Our landlord said it would only be a few hours, so we used our backup battery packs ( yes the ones we’re only supposed to use for work or incase of emergency) to power a fan and opened a window (the little net thing closed) for the cats and left.
because we were only going to be away for an hour, i left my phone (by accident) and tablet on the couch. in plain view of the window.
well, we have a lot of college students who walk directly by out porch ( i even had a girl threaten to call the cops on me for smoking… on my own fuckin porch) and two other girls who decided it was public chatting place and were upset that interupted them wheni asked them to leave.)
we dont know if it was a college student, or someone else, called the cops and got it all sorted there wasnt much they could do ( figures)
they came in through the window, and we think they either left it open, or that Patches, one of my cats, got out when the opened it, because she was gone when we came home, and she liked to hang out by the window. Thankfully, miso hates going outside, and katsu is scared of everyone and hides when people come over. we still havent found patches. im not worried about her, she didnt really like us, she isnt declawed, and she was orginally an outdoor cat anyways. we left out food and water and liter for her, but if she comes back she comes back. ive lost enough animals not fret over it. (tbh if it was on of the other two id probably sob)
but whoever broke in stole a bunch of my game stuff. we dont think they even went into out bedrooms, cause nothing was out of place. it took me realizing some of out stuff, the cat and the askew window (what the fuck is that thing called??) to realize we’d been robbed. ( well me actually, my roomate keeps all his stuff in his room which is fair because other than HBO i pay for all the streaming services, and i (thankfully still have) 4 consoles, which wont fit in my tiny ass room.)
they took my phone and tablet. (not worried about the phone, it was some dinky burner phone) a package off our porch ( it was mario kart, i got a switch like last monday, and the only game i have is animal crossing. very fun. thankfully, id left it on my desk.) they also took a few of my games, thankfully i have duplicates of most of the ones they took and digital copies.
ironically, the version of TLOU and FO4 (i have 4 copies of fo4 including the digital copy) were the scratched up versions, they did take my copy of infamous for the ps3. and they also took my unopened copy of RDR2. so like, pricey items but the only thing im upset about are my tablet and my cat.
for those wanting the drawings i promised, i will still get them to you, thankfully i had a warranty on it and its getting replaced after the police finish whatever it is they say they do. ( doubtful) so it may take a hot minute.
however it also means i have to completely restart my issue 2 of my comic, as i hadn't saved the final pages and the wips anywhere other than my phone and tablet. personally, im frustrated, but it gives me a chance to change a few wee details and try out a style ive been thinking on.
so im probably not going to be super super active for the next few (idk how long, im sorry) but i will draw what i said i would.
As for patches, i told my mom if she comes back pregnant ( again -_-) that we are going to yeet her into a rocket to live with the martians, and get a new cat. (or if she doesnt come back. we work best with a three cat ratio) if its boy we are probably going to name him garbanzo. (this is mostly a joke, but she was intended to be temporary as a friend of mine couldnt keep her anymore and we had been looking for a home for her. surprisingly, nobody wanted a super chill calico who enjoyed nothing but food and sitting directly on your trachea.)
anyways, im tired. ill be patiently waiting for my new tablet and trying to make my ACNH island as destroyed and apocalyptic as possible. (new squared? i got the other one for my birthday last year, so its been almost a year exactly. my birthdays on the 28th <_< >_> if anyones interested in knowing.)
sorry if this is a ramble. im high af and somewhere in between pissed off, depressed, and overly happy about tiny little animals and bells.
#ps#cant stress enough#wherever she is#im 100% sure patches is ok#shes a hardy take no shit cat#i feel nad for not getting her spayed but she came to us pregnant#and the vet hasnt had an opening for spaying
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hey I have life advice to ask and if it's not cool then just go ahead and delete this-
I'm gonna be 17 soon and I was pulled out of school due to stuff I couldn't really control, so I dont really have a college/university to expect in about 2 years ish if I cant pull through out of my depression/anxiety and take the GED tests (american testing, its like a substitute for a highschool diploma, which is.... shit idk the differences to england but either way if I cant study and complete 4 giant tests, colleges/universities wont be available to me. I think.). I really could just move about anywhere I'm able to, and there's this place that I really, really love. I've done everything I can to know about it besides GOING there, because it is incredibly far away from my home. Really fucking far. It's been smth of an idea of mine I've held on to a year, like all the towns and places I dive into I just keep coming back to that spot. It feels like the one, like I can't really see myself growing old because of my depression but I can SEE it there, and I've never felt that.
The thing is I know from a few older mutuals of mine (and just other adults in gen) that things can change and while you might go to uni/college for [X Thing] you'll come out with something else you found so you'll now have [Y Thing]. like what you're expecting or want is going to change as you learn more or delve into it. I don't know how much I should take that to heart really? There's this fear that's been placed into me that I can't actually think for myself if I'm always going to be changing. I'm so confident about this rn but what about later? Sorry if this freaks you out too JFNSJMW like we're about 2-3 years apart but it just feels like so MUCH, I wanted your advice since you've got the uni experience I might miss out on
(My family is fine really like they're not going to kick me out or anything, they've just got other problems ig that I'd like to escape from because a lot of what they do has me just.. stuck with myself. It sucks being a teenager because I'm just in the middle of it all)
hi anonstie! sorry for the slow reply to this, i hope im not too late to any decision making. thank you so much for trusting me with this, it's a really scary situation for any teenager deciding on something that seems so defining, let alone with mental illness factors and possible family pressures. trust me I GET THAT. so everything i say is my opinion very tainted by my own bias and personal experiences, but you know that and asked me anyway so im gonna assume we're clear on that okay:
so as someone who not only has the uni experience but overall LOVES uni like could not have picked a better option i love my uni life i love my friends i love my independence so much that i stick doing a subject i HATE bc i love my life here so much - coming from someone in that position, you want to know what i think? if you're not sure about going to uni and genuinely think you'd be happier elsewhere, do not go. im being so serious. university is a challenge, and people know that, but you have to take what you think it's gonna be like and double how hard it really is. it's a fucking culture shock and a half and even those who settle in well (i like to think i did) still have trouble finding their feet, and it's fucking scary. you have to have a level of certainty to manage it. idk maybe im being too extreme here but ive seen so many people who regret uni and are the loneliest they've ever been, and if you already have mental illness weighing on you that's not a boat you want to be in even if you might not end up like that.
the option does not vanish just because you didn't do it at the 'correct' age. i can see ur stress around the exams and while i know fuck all about american education, i refuse to believe there's no ways around it or ways to redo at a later time, or even if you do just wind up with not very good qualifications, somewhere will take you. i was convinced that if i didnt get out of my hometwon at 18 with the natural progression in academia then i would be stuck there forever, and part of me still believes that no matter how silly it is, which is why i outright refuse to drop my subject even on the days when it eats me alive, because i think if i drop out i'll get stuck in my hometown. uni was an escape for me and that's one of the reasons i love it so much. but over time, while it still lingers i wont pretend it doesnt, ive realised how wrong that mindset is. there's so many types of people at university. some people come onto campus with their children. some people are middle-aged. some people just did a gap year. my own flatmate is a second year uni student just like us but she's a year older bc she dropped out of first year bc of covid and reapplied. uni made me realise how common MESSINESS is. i hardly know anyone who got here on the really straight and narrow route, and maybe that's just part of being the covid cohort who knows but there's not a 'correct' way of doing things.
idk i think school is very rigid UNTIL you reach eighteen, and bc the universe is such a bitch you only realise how fluid everything gets post-eighteen ONCE YOUVE MADE THE DECISIONS.
so yeah, if you want to know what i think? chase that place that's calling to you. worst case scenario is it lets you down but you finally scratch the itch; that alone is something to live for. if you ever change your mind, university and that path isn't going anywhere. there's always so much choice, we just sometimes box ourselves in until it feels like there isnt
#i feel for you genuinely you couldnt pay me any money in the world to be 18 and scared again#it's truly fucked how little guidance we get just to turn a corner and realise everything truly is fine#like geniunely things work themselves out and adulthood teaches you that#there are scary awful horrible horrible times of course. but you have autonomy and there's always options#it's not as overwhelming anymore#ask
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STAR TREK: DISCOVERY | S1E8
"Si Vis Pacem, Para Bellum"
[I will react to each episode individually and in full, raw reception and then post as is unrevised here onto my tumblr for the full span of every and all NuTrek episodes and series that have been and will be released. If this falls under your field of interest - I welcome your company in joining me. Enjoy the ride.]
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"High Ranking Vulcan".
heh.
This intro though - it jkust makes me wonder the sheer potential of what couldve been for Trek.
Bryan Fuller made a masterpiece called Hannibal.
Not too sure on his hand in Trek - imho, it doesnt compare.
ANYways.
ugh i love seeing hte discovery warp downwards like that
Owosekun - love her name
such nice colours.
consistenty good colours in this show for sure.
i like how goldy inside the bridge is
oh interesting.
what an odd source of warp power
its insanely cool though.
that CANT be good for stamets.
is that foreshadowing
did you call her what she will become
damn stamets can you be like idk a bit likeable tho please.
like plenty of characters who are catty af but likeable in some way if even 1%.
ugh.
hi tribble.
keep tribblin
OO
SO BLUEEEE
SO PRETTYYY
This is so weird to me in how
this show literally comes out 2 years AFTER AOS3 in terms of production quality.
very pretty landscapes though
Saru. aint no way you walkin this terrain with them feets of yours
love the trees.
saru is so scrawnyyy
Saru literally looks amazing in any lighting no joke
damn
classic trek mist creature
living rorschach blot
Kol is so cool looking
those red accents work beautifully on his face
such lovely colour grading
everyones GLOWINGGG
there are certainly some wonderful visuals in this show ughhhh
Saru, the dust speaker
is that a klingon archery set
what is that
HAHA
i wish
nah
its a torture kit
sorry
cornwell yelling like that was kind of cringe lolll
this pretty blue dust dome that ash and burnham are in is so pretty
ugh something im gonna just never take seriously, "Ash x Burnham" nah get out
yeah yeah however, Kirk delivered this line beyond any other human's capacity
what an empty ass kiss
god its so forced.
another huge problem with this show is
they treat these characters like we know them already
but bruh everyone feels so much the stranger to me, even though we are past the halfway point of season 1.
is just so weird.
i am not invested in like any character, even ones i really thought i would/wanted to be
but its liek the show takes them away from me
i like how the klingons have a definite accent when they speak terran now
L'Rell is so striking looking
i love her eyes
such a piercing look
see like
i WANT to like this away party
but like
i kind of dont have any real reason to like any of these characters
especially with the utter animosity stuff that never got really properly resolved.
like between saru and burnham.
it feels almost uncomfortable.
to me the viewer watching from outside ofc.
thats a really pretty flower
i dont like this film style
it feels too tacky
so many stupid zooms
so cheap feeling
it feels like
star trek, Teen Wolf edition.
literally feels like its filmed int he same way as things like Teen Wolf that were almost 10 years earlier.
its so janky.
zero patience and sense to appreciate the scene itself without all this ridiculous cinematic embellishment.
its so unnecessary.
if even this show did this less, this show would legitimately be 7x better.
saru looks so beautiful with that warm white rear light
this is such a gorgeous instance of practical effects
and they got the PERFECT actor to don saru
Ash looks like someone ive literally known in my own life 😭
i love these red jewels on L'Rell's armour/clothing
costume and design department did a great great job in this show's production - i have no beef with them.
i like saru's mouth shape
its so odd. idk why i feel so detached from this show.
oh dang
angry saru.
ferocious oml
yo these are such pretty crystals]
saru running in THOSE?
HAAHAHAH damn
had to CG him hahah
that one camera shot was funny though
it almost looked like the show said "yes. he can run in these".
lol
oh damn convincing gore
i like how we continue seeing blood in trek with DISCO
when i t really started in Enterprise.
oh shit ANGRY SARU
BRUH
HE BACKKICKED HER LIKE A HORSE
this stick man being so strong
the way hes breaking that device literally looks like classic trek style
bundle two hands together and bash DBZ style XD
really pretty tree thing though
oooo the transporter circles at the bottom look SOO nice
dude
look at his detail
up close
its fucking amazing
oh my god
such masterfully done painting
speckling
im genuinely impressed
damn, im sorry saru.
though i think, who DOES live without fear.
man costume design is wonderful.
these red markings are really good
they compliment their faces really well
This is so odd. I have NEVER had this kind of feeling of "detachment" from a Trek production before.
The fuck is happening.
Ugh.
Not liking Bryan Fuller x Alex Kurtzman directing style in this show, like,
at all.
I am just waiting for when this show gets better.
Cuz it's lost a lot of my anticipation.
We'll see. Hopefully.
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