pallas in book one is definitely at it-cannot-possibly-get-worse-than-this ABSOLUTE rock bottom but god. there is such a specific flavour to their despair in book two that only happens because of the realization they have at the end of lay me down. like. how do you move on after admitting that everything you believed in was a lie. how do you live with what you’ve done (with what has been done to you). is it possible to pull yourself up out of the pit you’ve dug. what do you do if it isn’t. what do you do if it IS. and once you look at the damage how do you stop looking. past the first layer of hurt there’s just more and more hurt and you were used by the one person who was supposed to keep you safe to cause even MORE pain and no matter how deep you go none of it means anything! it never meant anything at all!! motherfucker your worst sin is that you have destroyed and betrayed yourself for NOTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Day 31: Costumes! And with that.... we are done! I did every single day, and I feel super good about that. It was really fun. Definitely proud of myself.
Happy Halloween, brought to you by the Shibuya gang! Stay safe and have fun out there!
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yesterday i was talking with my friend who reads a lotta kindle unlimited het romance novels (ok girl live your truth) and apparently the sports romance market is like 80% about hockey players and she was like "I wonder why that is" and i, a little too fast and a little too loud, went
oh it's the violence for sure
and then had to pretend that was a conclusion i came to from a place of cold impersonal logic and worldly wisdom and not literally anything having to do with me as a person
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share 9 of your fictional crushes and let everyone guess your type
tagged by @mistysnat! (thank u!!!!)
tagging: @lionheartedmusings @gyfnos @loser-steve @bbbellamywrites @hangsawoman @jaketkunings @lottieurl @lesbianlotties @jokeson-u (@ everyone no pressure!)
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extra info:
i plan on doing a vampire costume for halloween and also im going to a halloween drag show/ party so like. you get the vibe.
by tits out i mean like.. i have a SHEER frilly burgundy blouse. if i were to just. not wear anything under it my boobs would be very very VERY visible
(id have my coat + emergency bra with me for my commute but like. this is for the party)
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