#Repost .. I found this and thought it fit my situation. Today didn’t go as planned ... they are going to have a discussion & see if admitting me after Easter WOULD Benefit Me. I feel like they are not listing too a Word I’m Saying. I only have until Monday.. 28 days of Crisis Accomodation & then I’m Homeless. I was hoping between the tears when I could actually get a word in that they would admit me tomorrow or at the latest Monday ... Obviously MY LIFE Doesn’t Matter. We have a Serious Problem in 🇦🇺💯.. with Domestic Violence & the Government NOT supporting the Vulnerable... They are more concerned with the Election & The Royal Baby.... and after what I went through a week ago today I DONT Care.. about Anything Anymore. I am genuinely happy for Meaghan & Harry but it’s making me worse. And too add to it off I got horrible looks from 3 of the ED girls .. only 1 Whom I’ve know for years came up too me , gave me a hug & said she was sorry for what I went through... which she will never know how much that meant to me , at a time when I feel so alone, unloved, Depressed, A sadness I can’t describe & I really don’t care if I live. I would rather be dead than homeless.. out on the street to be raped, robbed or possibly Killed... I have been through Enough in my life ... I don’t deserve that. And when I was weighed & told him how little I have been Eating... it was like it didn’t matter. #overit #severelydepressed #18weekspregnant #latemiscarriage #beyonddevastated #sad #mad . If I don’t get the Help & Support I need & Deserve... I will be the next Eating Disorder Fatality. @nomoreorg @thejhf @therealmariskahargitay ... I have No more Words . If people can’t here me, see me, listen to me .. then I I guess ?? #anorexia #anorexiafighter #edawareness #eatingdisorderskill #eatingdisordersupport #anorexianervosa ... I have Nothing Left . 💯🥺🇦🇺🙏🤷🏻‍♀️❤️ (at Sydney, Australia) https://www.instagram.com/p/BwHUbtCnJI-RFi3Qk4r5xHohmqYaDOZYIeU-Bg0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1t7sdus4fsayt

So True ... I had a Horrendously Traumatic Childhood... #survivor #metoo ... Childhood Sexual Abuse, Gang Rape & An Severe Eating Disorder since Age 11... but I went on to not only Complete a Masters Degree in Registered Nursing and Health Sciences.... but I graduated with Honours. Unfortunately due to My Anorexia Nervosa I only worked for 4 years & Casual Work here and there but at least I have achieved something in my life . And in light of what happened a week ago today, something do horrific that I’m severely depressed, sad, Mad at the World 🌍... hopefully I will get there. I’m at the My Psychiatrists right now waiting . Because I have lapsed back into that Anorexic Vortex Again!! I will wait and see what he has to say, and what he recommends 💯. #18weekspregnant #latetermmiscarriage #beyonddevastated #protectchildren #kidsdeserveachance #anorexia #anorexiafighter #anorexiafight #edrecovery #eatingdisordersurvivor #loveyourchildrenunconditionally #loveyourchildrennomatterwhat 💯🥺🇦🇺❤️ (at Sydney, Australia) https://www.instagram.com/p/BwGBWp_n4TDB1L6ldlabSOoBAwsJ0_fQBdk0uU0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=q59fhv3343of

@cafeels.au ... After My Appointment with the Specialist Psychologist a Concerned Friend took me for some Food... because I haven’t eaten in a Week.. so I attempted something that Anorexia would let me have. So I had the Gluten Free Organic Açai Bowl, minus the Granola & Banana. I Managed too have nearly Half... not nearly enough but better than Nothing. It was Delicious 😋. I know Açai Bowls are all the rage , but I had my first one 25 years ago in 1994, when I was 15 in Japan . #acai #glutenfree #organic #freshisbest #18weekspregnant #latetermmiscarriage #beyonddevastated #anorexia #anorexiafighter #fuckeatingdisorders #edrecovery ... Going to see My Eating Disorders Psychiatrist Tomorrow.... I really need an admission to Northside after what happened, but really Don’t want to go to the ED Unit, Mood I think would be much better but everyone I know is telling me I need it .... I’m in a daze ... I really don’t know what I need atm. I’m just so teary ALL the things me , and can’t think straight. I’m expecting some online shopping this afternoon, will put up when it arrives . 💯🥺🇦🇺❤️ (at Cafe El's) https://www.instagram.com/p/BwD3IWfHiXV0iGmwRsvGy6pVQSsOcpDxbgj5EY0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=19e8wg9ly5thf

The unbearable has happened.... Yesterday I lost the most precious, unplanned Miracle that has ever happened too me. To say that I’m devastated or upset is even too little. You were my baby & always will be. I felt you move, I heard you beautiful heartbeat on 2 different occasions. I had hoped and dreams for our future. I can’t stop crying thinking what I have done wrong !!! As I have stated before I don’t want people to ever feel sorry or pity me.... I don’t even want Empathy. I will be going into hospital in the next week or two as my Former ED Psychiatrist is Extremely concerned for my welfare . If this miracle ever happens again...... and I have a feeling it won’t I will not be saying anything until I have had the baby. My heart is breaking , my legs and arms are shaking . I have not been able to stop crying since I can home from the hospital. My Beautiful Baby unfortunately DIDNT Make it ..... I don’t know if I will now either . #beyonddevastated #latemiscarriage #crying #nowords #mypreciousbaby #brokenheart . All I ask is for respect and space at a time that without going into hospital, the support of my treating team .... I would probably End my life.... because the pain is just too much.💯🙏😭😭😭😭❤️ (at Sydney, Australia) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bv1lCR2n8WPLuru9ZSm9R7UbbEinSeP8pl-feA0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=18y3sqo8qkf92