#bc i feel like although sports are very male-fan-dominated | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

fortyfive-forty · 1 month

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i’m tired. why can’t i consume things normally. or at least consume them abnormally but in the way that other people consume them abnormally and not in this weird isolating way where i feel the need to overexplain myself whenever i talk about the thing i’m consuming so people understand me and my thought process

#it’s the social anxiety or something idk i know it’s in my head #i want to talk abt the things that i like but i feel like i can’t explain to other fans my process of being a fan?#does that makes sense?#bc i know i approach it a bit differently #which is fine by itself but then i feel the need to justify lol #which is literally what i am doing right now 💀#also why i write a lot in the tags all the time lmao #and realistically is probably connected w being trans and always feeling like i’m intruding on spaces that don’t belong to me #bc i feel like although sports are very male-fan-dominated #spaces like tumblr *tend* to have more women #and a lot of the ppl i interact with (though certainly not all) are women so i always feel weird talking abt my interests/opinions #bc i think it makes my perspective difficult to related to sometimes which j understand #but it still makes me feel shit sometimes

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