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hacawijo · 3 years

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Oh YEAH 😂 We’re Allowed to Just Support Our Ships Because We Like Them (Or, some reasons why I WANT Elriel to be endgame)

Tagging alternate ships because I want to hear from others why they love the ships they love!

Last night I asked myself a question I haven’t asked about a ship in a really long time: Why do I ship it (Elriel)?

I think that fans and shippers get so mired in evidence and proving that something will or won’t happen that we forget to sometimes just think about why we are in fact so passionate about the ships we like. Don’t get me wrong, I love evidence and theory and proof and close-reading posts - I’ve made a bunch, I’ll continue to make them, and I love reading them - but I’ve forgotten that it doesn’t always have to be about proving myself right or others wrong or about the great conversations/debates I have with other respectful, whip-smart shippers.

So, this post isn’t really about why I THINK Elriel will happen, it’s about why I WANT Elriel to happen. And I would love to hear the same from others about their own ships (Elriel, Gwynriel, Elucien, Vucien, or otherwise!).

1. As far as I can tell, it’s what the characters want. I really love Elain and Azriel. I think that Elain is different from pretty much every other Maas heroine and I’m always interested to see how she reacts to things. I also admire that she embraces small acts of kindness and thoughtfulness over grand gestures. I think that Elain’s love language is often thankless, and that’s something I want to learn more about. I also love Azriel. I especially love his relationships with Feyre and Nesta, and that, similarly to how I feel about Elain, I’m never exactly sure how he will react to something.

Setting aside those things, and many other little bursts of personality and character that I’ve enjoyed, I also think that both Elain and Azriel have suffered greatly in their lives, and I just want them to be happy. From everything I’ve read, it seems like the thing that is going to make both of them happy is if they are able to spend their lives together as partners.

Don’t get me wrong, I deeply care about Lucien and Gwyn as well (more thoughts on their characters in other posts will be coming). I want Lucien to be chosen and to feel valued and essential to another person’s life, and I want him to have a real home. I want Gwyn to continue to have agency over her life and claim the things she wants to claim (whether they be skills or friendships or recognition or what-have-you). But, as I see it, the scenario in which the most characters whom I love will be happy in the longterm is if Elain and Azriel are together. Which leads me to number...

2. I want Lucien and Gwyn to have their own stories, and as it stands right now, there is no way for Elucien or Gwynriel not to have a bunch of space taken up by Elriel. Angst has been established and it will need to be resolved before any endgames beside Elriel can happen. I don’t want the first half of Elucien or Gwynriel’s story to low-key be about Azriel and Elain. I want Gwyn to avoid that car crash altogether and have something totally new and her own. Obviously it’s more complicated for Lucien - he will be involved in Elriel no matter what because he is Elain’s mate. But from what I can tell, Elain just doesn’t want to be with him, and I don’t believe that Lucien wants someone who doesn’t want to be with him (again, I’m not trying to prove anything in THIS post, this is just what I think based on my readings of the books 🙃).

What’s more, I’m definitely not convinced that Lucien has any feelings for Elain beyond the mating bond - I don’t think they’re compatible. I think Lucien is good at talking to and figuring people out and that he likes to banter and flirt and be in the middle of things. I think it’s possible that pre-cauldron Elain could have vibed with that, but post-cauldron Elain is a different person. She is often content to listen and love and take up her own little corner of the world (and it’s not just being meek, she stands up to Nesta and PROTECTS that little corner of the world when it is threatened both then and when it comes to danger from outside forces). I just think Elain and Lucien would each be happier with someone else, and I think that Elain’s choice should be respected, and it’s pretty clear to me that she’s choosing Azriel right now.

You might be saying that Feysand’s early life was steeped in the angst and resolution of Tamlin and Feyre’s relationship, but here’s why it seems different to me. Feyre and Rhys’s relationship felt so separate from Feyre’s relationship with Tamlin because he was an antagonist in that story. In this case, any kind of love triangle/rhombus/word cloud is going to be tangled and far messier because all of the characters involved are beloved. And, Feysand had 2.5 whole books to build their story - whichever of the couples I’ve just talked about that end up endgame will pretty much only have one book and second- and third-hand hints that range from fairly numerous (Elriel) to hardly developed at all.

3. I want a love that flies in the face of the mating bond. I’m kind of over the mating bond thing. I think that I loved Feysand because Rhys and Feyre grew to love each other alongside their bond. Feyre fell in love with Rhys without knowing that she was his mate, and the mating bond was like a fulfillment of that love, that love was not really a fulfillment of the mating bond. Cassian and Nesta actually feels like a much more traditional mating bond story, in that they were deeply connected from minute one. The angst in that relationship came from Nesta’s inner turmoil and need for growth and independence to know and accept herself.

I’m ready for a bond that doesn’t work! I’m ready for some great people (who are apparently very different from a lot of previous nobility and significant figures in the courts of Prythian when it comes to respecting agency and being kind) who don’t let the cauldron dictate their lives to them. I don’t want to watch Lucien and Elain succumb to the bond, and I don’t really want Azriel to be chosen because of a mating bond with Gwyn. I want him to be chosen above a mating bond. And I want Elain to do the choosing!

4. I want to see Elriel because I think a relationship between them would be wholly different from Feysand and Nessian - and I don’t think that’s as true with Elucien and Gwynriel. I think that Lucien is more similar to Rhys and Cassian attitude-wise than Azriel and I think that Gwyn is more similar to Feyre and Nesta attitude-wise than Elain. I want to read about a love between two people who aren’t sassy and flirty and bold. Not that I don’t LOVE those ships as well, but I like it when Sarah does something a little different. Elorcan, for example, is one of my absolute favorite ships of all-time partially because it feels totally different from everything else in Throne of Glass (albeit in a different way).

I want to see how someone as kind and thoughtful and modest and romantic as Elain handles her intense lust and the massive potential for conflict and harm in pursuing a relationship with Azriel (and to be clear I don’t want to see her treat Lucien like trash, I want to see her use strengths that belong only to her to prevent harm that might have otherwise occurred if the bond was between Lucien and another). I want to see how someone as closed-off, controlled, cynical, and often melancholy as Azriel handles desire that contradicts his loyalties and the qualities on which he prides himself, and how he handles someone who sees him- really sees him, and just makes him un-complicatedly happy.

5. Also, as I said, I’m not going to get far into evidence or proof, but I do think the bread crumbs are pointing toward Elriel, and I do like to be right lol

Thank you for reading, as always I want comments and dialogue and thank you for being fans of these books with me!

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sushisama · 5 years

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Longing for Clarity, Chapter Seventeen

Pairing. Bakugou Katsuki/Midoriya Izuku (main, pre-established), eventual one-sided DekuBowl, other pairings hinted at Part. Seventeen/Twenty-Three Rating. Story has overall NSFW tones and mentions, but the sex scenes will be left as side stories. Synopsis. Slice of life AU. Check chapter one notes for details. Katsuki is in his senior year, and though he’s dealing his own questionable mental condition, he can’t help the excitement of the upcoming graduation. But his boyfriend, Izuku, has been acting strange, being almost a little too intimate. They come to find out that Izuku is going through the fermin, a predicament certain Quirk holders go through. Now Katsuki is being forced into considering relinquishing the secrecy of their relationship, if only to keep all he wandering eyes from Izuku. Notes. Katsuki and Izuku get ready for the festival and their coming out. Second Note. I’m still work on this, and I still have every intent on finish it. Thank you for those sticking around. I appreciate it and hope you continue to enjoy!

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Hope you enjoy!

Chapter Index

Katsuki tapped his foot impatiently. The disinterest on his face was clear as he kept his arms crossed and his eyes anywhere but at the task at hand. He was standing in the middle of the locker room, glaring at the floor, his lips in a deep grimace.

"You have some of the worst clothes, Katsuki-kun," Ashido's voice came from further down the row. She was sifting through a pile of clothes Katsuki had brought down for her to go through.

"Not really something on my mind," Katsuki snipped out.

Ashido came back to him, a few things in her hands. "I just don't understand," she commented as she dropped them on the bench next to him. "How can you live without being presentable?"

"Deku likes it," Katsuki muttered.

"Oh, honey, of course he does." She held up one of his button-down shirts and inspected it. "You could be wearing a rice sack, and he'll still think you're cute. That's how that works." She hummed and picked up a different shirt.

"He'll still notice the difference, though."

Katsuki scoffed. "It's not like it matters."

Ashido looked over at him, brow raised. "Haven't you ever dressed up for him before?"

Katsuki hesitated with his answer. He didn't really dress up ever unless he was forced into it. He much preferred being comfortable over anything fashionable. And he never felt any need to be anything other than that around him: comfortable.

Izuku had never asked for anything more. Sometimes he dressed up a little bit for a date, but it was nothing extreme, just as well-fitting shirt and tighter fashion pants. He always looked wonderful in those outfits, and even Katsuki had to admit he enjoyed it.

But Izuku never brought it up, and on the days he was more presentable, he never side-eyed Katsuki for not doing the same. Now that Ashido brought it up, though, was it something he secretly wanted from him? He just wasn't into that kind of thing, and he figured Izuku understood that. But maybe he should try it. What would his reaction be later in the night, when they went to the festival? He guessed he would base it off that, and try in the future to make more of an effort.

Should he have been already, though?

"Our first date," Katsuki said.

Ashido turned to him fully, holding a pair of pants. Her eyes were full of intrigue, and she clearly wanted him to continue.

Katsuki rolled his eyes but decided to indulge her. "My mother made me," he said. "She wouldn't let me go on that first date with being presentable."

"Your mother knew about it?" Ashido asked. "She knew you were--?"

"She knew I was before I did, according to her," Katsuki said. "She's actually... she's always been supportive about it, never treated it like a phase or anything."

He knew someone already whose family wasn't as understanding, and knew too well what it was doing to him. He was grateful to his parents who never questioned who he was, but just loved him the way he was in almost every facet.

"And when I told her it was with Deku, she was ecstatic."

Ashido chuckled. "She's always approved, huh?"

Katsuki nodded. "She's like him since we were kids, always saying he'd be a good influence on me."

She gave him a knowing smirk before turning her focus back to the clothes. "She sounds wise."

He huffed. "Yeah, yeah."

"So, she made you dress up? Where was the date?"

"It wasn't like formal or anything," Katsuki said. "It was just a little café for coffee and cake." He toed at the ground, ignoring the flush on his face. He had never told anyone these things; it was something left just between him and Izuku.

But there was a point to friends knowing, right? So, you could share these things? Not all memories should be private, he could Imagine Izuku saying. Wasn't it a good thing that happened? Shouldn't others know how far they'd come, how they were happy despite the hurdles they faced?

Katsuki twitched. It was still strange to share things he considered so private. But the smile and the soft expression on Ashido's face eased the tension some: she wanted to hear it so she could show her support. That's what real friends did, just as Kirishima and Izuku did.

He scratched the back of his neck. There was still so much about friendship that felt foreign to him.

"Aww, so cute," Ashido cooed.

Katsuki scoffed. "More like awkward."

She hummed and shrugged. "But still good, right?"

He blinked. It had been good, despite the awkwardness of it all. They hadn't talked much at first, not sure what the topics of a first date contained. It didn't change until Izuku started to nervously talk about the plastic decoration on his pastry, and something about it led Katsuki into a rather silly but still entertaining conversation about food presentation. From there, they eased more into a natural conversation that led to louder voices and laughing.

That stupid piece of plastic could possibly be thanked for things going so well after. How stupid was that?

"I'm going to go ask Eijirou-kun," Ashido's voice invaded his reverie.

He looked up at her, brow raised. "Ask him for what?"

Ashido clicked her tongue but smirked. "You weren't paying attention, were you?" She tsk'ed at him. "And I thought I was distracted by that scent on you."

Katsuki glared a little. When Izuku had come to him the night before, questioning only why he was so upset, he had smelled it on him. Izuku had been in need, but he was too gone in the conversation with his mother to give him any proper attention.

They had stayed up, talking more about Katsuki's mental stability and his mother hiding hers from him. Eventually they moved to Izuku's room to take the kimono and hunt it up. They discussed a little more before falling asleep, and at no time before were they intimate, despite the aroma in the air. They fooled around at some part during the night, but nothing too intense. Katsuki was far from a mood to enable such things, and Izuku wasn't going to push it.

The smell was still in his room, so long after Izuku had last been there. It had been so strong the night before, Katsuki wondered how he controlled himself during his breakdown. He was grateful for it, though: he needed him so desperately, needed the ground he was before he flew too far away.

"I'm going to go see what Eijirou-kun had," Ashido said. "You two are about the same size, right?"

"I guess." Katsuki wasn't completely sure. They looked to be, but he thought Kirishima might have a little more to his chest, but that was about it. Otherwise, they had grown at the same rate and were the same height.

"Stay here," she said. She was already at the door and taking a step out. "I'll be just a few moments!"

Katsuki watched her as she left. The moment she was gone, he let out a long breath. He ran his hands over his face a few times as a groan left him.

He didn't want to do this. It wasn't the dress up or the fuss over makeup that he was bothered with: it just wasn't his thing. He had been with Kirishima and Kaminari too much to not be used to wasting time to being presentable. He had let Kaminari put makeup on him more than once, after all. The attention it would bring him didn't exactly bother him. He was used to eyes on him in public, had craved it on better days.

But when people looked at him, they were at a hero. That wasn't the goal they were going for this time. He wasn't a hero that night, he was Midoriya Izuku's boyfriend. They were deliberately calling attention to that. All eyes would fall on him, and everyone would know.

Katsuki felt sick.

It didn't help that he was still down from the night before. He was still thinking of the night before, of the conversation with his mother, of the words that spilled out to Izuku. Ever fear, every worry, every concern came falling out, after he had spent so long trying to keep it in. It wasn't just the fear of the future, but the vulnerability that fear brought that had kept him holding it in.

But it was foolish of course. There was a part of him that always knew he could tell Izuku. He knew. Like so many things, though, he couldn't bring himself to believe it. But when Izuku held him, let him cry, let him pour out every last thought burrowing into him, he didn't judge. He would never judge him.

Izuku would just be glad to know him.

Being seen as Midoriya Izuku's boyfriend was the least he could do in return for everything he brought to his life. Izuku wanted everyone to know. Izuku held no shame in showing him off, held pride in the idea of holding hands in public. The least, the very least Katsuki could do was give him that.

Katsuki tapped his foot again. How long was she going to take? He wanted to get this over with, get on with it, before he started talking himself out of it.

He pulled out his phone to help keep himself distracted. He found a message waiting for him, and he couldn't help but smile at the name of the sender.

How's the torture going?

Katsuki smirked. Long. I apparently have terrible fashion sense.

The answer wasn't immediate, but still came. You do.

You're not much better.

That's why I let Uraraka and Yaoyorozu take me shopping once in a while.

Katsuki laughed at that. He could always tell the difference between the clothes Izuku already had and the ones he bought with the girls. Both looked good on him, just in different ways. The loose, nondescript comfortable clothes were meant for more casual things or more in-depth activities; where the fashion clothes looked perfect on him without losing any of his masculinity. They showed how taunt his body had become over the years, hinting at the muscles beneath the stylised fabrics.

He was silently grateful for the way they picked his clothes. Katsuki was the one who got to reap the most benefits from it.

I'd hate to see what wardrobe Kirishima or Kaminari would give me.

Maybe let Hagakure and Ashido dress you?

I don't know if that would be worse or better.

"Ba~ck," Ashido called from the entrance of the locker room. She had a few things in her arms and was inspecting them as she walked back to him. "Only so much, though: he has so many colours in his wardrobe, and I just don't think that's you."

Katsuki was silently grateful for the consideration. He wasn't looking forward to any bright colours.

Getting back to the torment, he quickly typed. See you in my room and go from there?

Perfect. Have fun getting dolled up. Love you.

Katsuki put his phone away as Ashido stepped up to him. She held up shirts to his chest, but he wasn't really paying attention to what they looked like. She hummed and considered and finally snapped her fingers. She parted from him as she started to rummage between the two groups of clothes. Finally, she handed him a set. He took it as it was thrusted into his arms, and for the first time, he looked over some of the garments.

"These are leggings," he said, his tone even.

Ashido nodded. "They go under the jeans."

Katsuki furrowed his brow. "These aren't—"

"They're mine," she interrupted. "They'll be short probably, but they shouldn't be too tight."

"What's the point?"

Ashido raised a brow. "The colour?"

Katsuki looked over the garment again. The crease in his brow softened as the understanding fell over him. "...right."

Ashido smiled wide. "Well? Go on!" She shooed him toward the stall area. "Let's see what it looks like!"

Katsuki rolled his eyes. "Stay out here."

"You're no fun," she said with a laugh.

::*~~*::

"The pink looks so good on you!"

"You think? Not too much?"

Uraraka and Hagakure spoke to each other in excited tones, going over their outfits for the festival. Iida had joined them thankfully; giving Izuku someone to talk to while the girls did their own thing. He didn't seem that bothered by any of it, and just smiled and made small comments when asked.

Izuku didn't particularly care either. It wasn't the first time Uraraka had dragged him along or made him sit for makeovers. She liked doing it, and he wasn't one to say no, especially to something so harmless. When it came to the makeup, she was subtle with what she did, giving him more neutral colours that just matched what he was wearing. She took pictures, but only shared them with Izuku.

And then he would share them with Katsuki. He would smile at them, but Izuku was never sure how he really felt about it.

Uraraka spent time with Hagakure first, putting some light, sparkling eye shadow on her that matched a warm honey highlighter. She finished with a soft lip gloss and the look came together to give her an almost ethereal look. She was ghostlike, transparent in everything but her kimono and the makeup. But all of it was warm colours, matching her personality. She was a spirt of good fortune, Izuku thought.

Uraraka had come with her makeup already done. She was covered in shades of pink and blue, all of it light and shimmering. It matched her kimono and the furs she had set aside for the festival. It was clear that some of the blue was for Iida, matching his kimono, and he had come pink in his. It was rather cute, when Izuku let himself think about it. Maybe a little silly, but he could see the appeal of maybe occasionally being so obvious.

After all, hadn't it been part of his decision for the kimono he would wear?

Iida had agreed to a little himself, getting just a touch at the corner of his eyelids. He sat perfectly still and moved as if he anticipated her actions. It wasn't a surprise, though: he'd probably been roped into it even more than Izuku had.

When it finally came to Izuku, it was getting late and closer to when they were supposed to leave. And he wasn't even in his kimono yet, not wanting to go around the dormitory in it. Uraraka had made it clear she only wanted to do a little to him, but was insistent that they do it. He thought it odd, but he wasn't going to speak against it.

She started with his hair, doing as best she could with the unruly locks. There was some attempt to get it flattened, but she settled for getting the most of it into a small ponytail at the top of his head. She accented it with a comb accessory that was almost glass looking and vibrant red. She clipped it in just behind his hair, and he could feel the shorts rows of beads against his skull.

"Isn't this a little too..." Izuku met Iida's eyes, and he could tell he was thinking the same.

"I like it," Hagakure said. "Doesn't it match the kimono you borrowed?"

"Not the only thing that matches," Uraraka murmured.

Izuku looked at her, brow raised. "What do you mean?"

She gave him a wide smile as she held up a colour pallet. "This will only be a moment, I promise."

Izuku held her eyes for only a moment more before closing his eyes. He twitched at the feel of the brush against his eyelid but instantly stilled himself. He always had trouble sitting still during these makeovers. The bristles felt weird, almost like they would fall off in the cosmetics and cling to his lids.

It was even worse when it came to the eyeliner. He was always worried that the pencil would go in his eyes, especially when he was told to open them and look up. Uraraka was always careful, but he couldn't stop the hesitation that came.

How did she do this every day?

"you can relax, I'm done with your eyes."

Izuku let out a long breath. He opened his eyes slowly and looked over at Uraraka. He gave her a small smile. "Thanks," he said. He started to stand up, but he was surprised to find a hand pushing him back into the seat.

"Umm, Uraraka, I still need to get—"

"One last thing." She was smiling as she pulled out a small compact and a flat, fanned out brush. There was something almost mischievous about the look on her face. Mischievous? No, maybe not that... just... knowing? It was more than a little off-putting.

"Just need two seconds."

Izuku gave a reluctant hum, but he kept still. She was honest about how fast it would be done: she took two swipes over each of his cheeks, only separated by passing the brush through the compact. She settled back, looking over him, inspecting him, before she nodded.

"Wonderful."

Izuku turned when he heard a sound of uncertainty from Iida. He looked almost unsure, but hee said nothing.

Uraraka clicked the compact closed as she took steps away from him. While she was putting all of her makeup away, Hagakure leaned in to look over the final result. Though she didn't have it caked on, there was enough of the cosmetics on her face for Izuku to see the worry in her brow.

"Does it look bad?" he asked softly.

She shook her head. "I don't think so, just an odd choice."

"It's meant to match," Uraraka spoke up.

Izuku raised a brow. "Match what?"

Iida's brow knit in some concern. "Should you be so--?"

Uraraka waved him off. She grinned at Izuku. "We'll let you finish getting ready," she said. "You think you'll be long?"

Izuku was still uncertain but forced a smile. "Go on ahead if you want," he insisted. "It'll take me a moment to get my kimono on, and I'd hate to have you wait on me."

"Do you need any help?" Iida asked.

Izuku shook his head. "I'll be fine."

Uraraka picked up her makeup case. "Don't be too, too long," she said. "It should be a fun night. I'd hate for you to miss out on anything." There was something in her voice... she knew something but wasn't saying it...

Izuku stood up and nodded at both of them. "I'll be quick, I promise."

Uraraka smiled and gave him a peck on the cheek. She waved at him and Hagakure. "We'll see you soon, then."

Iida waved as well before turning and heading off with his girlfriend. Hagakure chirped a parting and Izuku just gave a wave as they left. He sighed and turned to her.

"It's not that bad, right?"

The earrings swayed as she shook her head. "It looks good," she said. "Subtle, fits you... it's just..."

"What?"

Hagakure paused. "I'm just going to..." She leaned forward and took hold of his chin. She lifted her other arm, sliding down the billowy sleeve to reveal her long sleeved undershirt. She wiped at his cheeks, applying pressure, but not enough to hurt.

"What are you doing?" He didn't stop her but he was stiff as she moved.

It was all but a moment before she was pulling away, having scrubbed his cheeks. She held up her sleeve to show off the cosmetics she was wiping off. He had to stare for a moment to get exactly what he was supposed to be looking at. The colour looked close to something, but he couldn't quite put his finger on it.

"I don't--?"

Hagakure waved the white-blue shimmer in his face. "To match."

It was another second before it clicked into place. The colour was just like—

"Was this supposed to match Todoroki's...?"

She nodded.

"...why...?"

"Ochako mentioned... I think she's going to try and get you two alone tonight."

Izuku frowned. Uraraka knew better. She was one of the only people that knew about his brief relationship with Shouto. She knew that it had ended and mostly why, though he left anything about Katsuki out of it, when he came later into the situation. She had always made her opinion known that she thought Shouto was good for him and maybe even get back together. But he wasn't, though he hadn't been honest about why.

That wasn't only because of Katsuki's request of silence. He hadn't been exactly upfront about reasons for the breakup. He had given some excuse about not having time for the relationship, that right then wasn't for the best. He didn't know how to explain that Shouto that didn't... click with him. And it wasn't from a lack of trying. He really had hoped that they could work out, but...

On paper, Shouto would seem perfect. A little aloof and in need of not only getting in touch with his feelings, but learning how to express them. It wasn't like he wasn't into that sort of personality.

Clearly.

But there was something about their time together just felt lacking. No matter the amount of time together, they never got as close as he imagined they would. For the months they were together, they had done little more than hold hands. They had never even kissed.

Katsuki had kissed him to show him how he felt, which led to their current relationship. The difference stood to him, for sure.

"Well, she won't get the chance," he said. "I'm going with Katchan, and no matter how he behaves, I plan on being very honest."

The glint of gloss moved up into a smile. "You two will be so cute tonight," she said. "And no room for questions, right?"

Izuku smiled and nodded. "No questions."

They spent only a few more moments making conversations of where to meet when they got to the festival before parting ways. Izuku went back to the men's side of the dorms to finish getting ready.

It didn't take him too long to get the pieces together and dressed. He was putting the haori on his shoulders as he made his way down the hall to Katsuki's room. He had a large smile on his face a jump in his step.

He was ready and he was excited. He finally got to show off his boyfriend. He got to tell his friends who had been with and for anyone else to get the hint that he was truly off limits.

He just hoped Katsuki would be just as excited.

Izuku knocked on the door. "Katchan?" he called. "You ready?"

"Door's open!" was the answer from the other side of the door.

Izuku came in, closing and locking the door behind him. His eyes fell on Katsuki and he couldn't help but raise a brow. "What are you doing?"

Katsuki came from underneath the bed, a decent sized box in his hands. "Needed to find something," he muttered as he set the box on the bed.

Izuku came further into the room, taking in Katsuki's backside, still bent over some. The jeans he was wearing were tight in all the right ways, and he could tell his shape through his top. He bit his thumb as he thought about the muscles underneath. He was strong, and he could certainly do something with that strength...

"Deku."

"Hmm?"

Katsuki was looking at him, still on the floor. His brow was raised, but he was smirking. Izuku flushed a little. Of course, he knew where his mind was.

Izuku coughed. "What's in the box?" he asked as he sat down on the bed. He barely lifted the lid of the thick and decorated cardboard. He recognised it as something from Katsuki's room back in Shizuoka, under his nightstand. It was just something that was there. Katsuki had never called attention to it, so he had never thought to ask about it.

But Katsuki had brought it with him. Didn't that make it important?

Katsuki crossed his arms on the mattress and put his chin on his forearms. He looked at Izuku from his spot on the floor. "Just some things."

Izuku rolled his eyes. "Things," he repeated. He put the box in his lap and opened it. Katsuki watched him but said nothing and didn't stop him.

The contents were odd at first glance. Pieces of paper, random trinkets, and...

"Is this your cast?"

Katsuki grunted with a shrug.

Izuku looked over the plaster covered in various names and well wishes. He smiled at the tiny hand drown into the palm.

It was strange to have such a strong memory to something that had cause so much pain to Katsuki.

He went through the rest of the box, noticing the ticket stuffs for each of the trains they had gone on for the Tour. There was a folded piece of paper that he found was a test with a high grade marked on it. But it wasn't Katsuki's name on it.

"Why do you have one of Kirishima's tests?"

"It was the first time he scored that well."

Izuku's gaze softened. He knew Katsuki could be sentimental, but he had no idea it could be this much. Even after a lifetime of knowing each other, he was still learning new things about him. He hoped that it would be that way ongoing.

He leaned in to kiss his forehead. "Were you just wanting to look through this...?"

Katsuki moved to sit on the bed next to Izuku. He put his hand in the box and started to sort through it. As he did, Izuku got a better look at his clothes. His dark red shirt was opened at the top, showing a black tank top underneath. His black denim pants had purposeful rips in them, and green fabric showed underneath.

"I was looking for..." He pulled his hand out, a chain in his fingers. He held it up for only a moment before putting it around his neck. "...this."

Izuku eyed the little trinket, a smile playing on his lips. He pulled on the chain lightly until the plastic piece was in his palms. It was a vibrant blue circle that had a piece looping out on top. He recognised it instantly, even if it had been two years since he'd seen it.

"You kept this?"

There was a flush on Katsuki's face. "Shut up."

Izuku chuckled. "It's cute," he said. "It's adorable you kept it."

Katsuki punched him in the shoulder. "I said shut up, nerd."

Izuku still laughed. "Or what?" he teased. "Show me how much more of a sap you are?"

Katsuki growled lightly. He pushed on his shoulders, and the box fell from his lap as he found his back on the mattress. The sound of the contents spilling didn't seem to deter him as he leaned over Izuku's body.

Izuku grinned up at him. "This how you going to do it--?"

"Quiet," Katsuki said before moving in and pressing lips together.

::*~~*::

The sun was starting to set when they got to the festival. It took up the park and spilled out into the streets around with food and game booths. There were snow sculptures everywhere of various sizes and shapes. Lights and music filled the whole area, giving it an almost ethereal presence.

Katsuki already hated it.

"Katchan, you don't have to hold on so tight."

Katsuki looked down at their entwined fingers. "...I won't go through with it otherwise."

Izuku smiled and kissed his cheek. "It'll be fine," he said. "Everything will be fine."

Katsuki grunted.

"Once it's done, it's done." Izuku gave his palm a squeeze. "Then you'll never have to do it again."

Katsuki sighed. He stopped in front of one of the larger sculptures depicting All Might. He looked up at it, his fingers still tight around Izuku's hand.

"Then I just have to deal with what everyone is going to say."

Izuku rolled his eyes. "You're exaggerating." He leaned against his shoulder. "The most people will be is surprised."

Katsuki said nothing, though it was clear he was still uncertain.

"Katchan."

"I'm still going through with it."

"You better." Izuku wrapped his arm around Katsuki's lower back. "Either this, or I'm just going to kiss you in front of everyone."

Katsuki scoffed. "The fuck you will."

Izuku fixed with a stern gaze. "Don't test me, Katchan."

Katsuki clicked his tongue but didn't refute his claim. Izuku had already been so patient, beyond what should have ever been asked of him. He could go in the middle of the crowd and shout about it, and he had no right to be upset about it.

No, this was the best way to go about it. Izuku was right.

Katsuki put his arm around Izuku's shoulder and kissed the side of his head. "This way is fine," he said sincerely. "...and if you want to kiss in front of everyone..."

Izuku nuzzled under his chin. "I won't," he said. "Unless you want to." He smirked.

Katsuki nudged him. "Don't push your luck."

Izuku chuckled. He rested his head on Katsuki's shoulder, silent for a moment.

Katsuki pulled out his phone when he felt it vibrate. There was a message from Kirishima, letting him know where they were amidst asking where they were. He looked around, following the lights to where the majority of the food vendors were located. He couldn't see them through the crowd, but from the directions given, he assumed that's where they were.

"Want a snack?"

Izuku considered that for a moment. "Not really," he said. "I wouldn't say no to a drink, though."

Katsuki let go of his shoulder, but kept a hand on his arm. "I'm going to go check in with the guys real quick," he said. "I'll probably grab something to eat, too. And drink."

Izuku gave him a look, brow raised.

"I won't be more than a few moments." He kissed his cheek. "And then we can go show off."

Izuku's expression softened. "Just say you need a moment first, Katchan."

Katsuki ran a hand through his hair. "...I need a moment."

Izuku smiled, his gaze gentle. "Go ahead," he said. "Besides, they all know what we're doing." He smirked. "They won't let you out of it so easily."

Katsuki scoffed. "Whatever." He was right. If he tried to back out, Kirishima and the others would force him into it. Not to mention, Izuku's threat was still there. "I'll be back."

Katsuki parted with a short kiss and headed off toward the food vendors. He had to go through a crowd to get there. It was just a bunch of people mulling around the centre of the park, admiring various sculptures. He had to push his way past when he couldn't find other ways around.

Was this so worth it for something he could take pictures of?

As he got closer to his destination, there was a large group taking up a walk way. The people on it were all cheering and making a loud commotion. They were excited about something they were all circled around. The sound was familiar, like whenever All Might was in a crowd.

Katsuki groaned and rolled his eyes. It must be some local celebrity. How obnoxious.

He moved, trying to find another way around. It too a moment, but he was able to get around the throng of people and get back on his way. He glanced back at the crowd, having come to the spectacle they were all yammering about.

It was indeed local heroes: specifically Brute Wall and Nabang. They were greeting the crowd, smiling and waving and talking pleasantly. Well, Nabang and one of Brute Wall's sidekicks, Road Train, were talking happily. Brute Wall stood close, her arms crossed over her chest. She was responding to people, but it was clear she didn't really want to be there.

Katsuki couldn't help but empathise with her. He had always wanted the fame that came with being a top hero, but he had found over his time at the UA that it wasn't exactly the way he'd expected. Talking in front of people bothered him when he knew they would talk back. Crowds were too much sometimes, and he didn't know how to handle them when they were too close. Not to mention his worse manias made him worse with people when he wasn't in control of the situation.

He understood why another Hero would hate going into public. It was the whole reason Brute Wall's agency had seemed so appealing to him. Even when she had first reached out to him in second year, he was already looking into it. But then his relationship with Izuku had gotten so deep...

He was making the right choice. He could always find an agency: there was only one Izuku.

Katsuki turned, taking a step forward toward the vendors. He stilled when he thought he heard his name being called. The voice was unfamiliar, though, and he started again, just ignoring it.

He only got a few steps before he was stopped again by a hand on his shoulder. He flipped around, ready to get into a confrontation. He was surprised to find Brute Wall there with Road Train at her side.

"Bakugou Katsuki."

Katsuki finally turned to face them. He nodded in greeting directed at both, but he kept his attention on Brute Wall. She was an imposing figure, almost as tall as All Might and built similarly. Her long, fiery red hair was tied in a long braid with several pins and baubles in it. She wore a masculine kimono in tones of purples and whites.

Road Train was short but had the same kind of build. His black hair was short and spiked, and his dark eyes were almost tired looking. He wasn't wearing a kimono, but still looked good in his button down and blazer.

"What is it?" he asked. He tried to keep his tone even, not let any of his crassness come out, but it seemed unavoidable.

Brute Wall smirked. "I wasn't expecting to see you tonight," she started. It was an odd statement: why would she expect him at all?

"I got dragged along," Katsuki replied. It was honest in most ways.

"Well, since I have you, we could hammer out some details, eh?"

Katsuki raised a brow. "Details for what?"

"For coming to the agency."

Katsuki scoffed. "What are you talking about?" he asked, brow furrowed. "I told you, I can't join the JH. I... I have to stay near Shizuoka."

"Then you shouldn't have said you were accepting the offer," Road Train chimed in. His tone sounded upset, but Katsuki could hardly place why.

"I didn't," Katsuki said with a glare to Road Train. "The last thing I sent was a declination."

Brute Wall frowned. "The last I got from you was reconsidering." She pulled out her phone and skimmed through it quickly before handing it to Katsuki. "See? From yesterday morning." The screen was a wall of text, starting with the subject about the offer and the send from Katsuki's email address.

Katsuki began to read over the characters. It was indeed an acceptance of Brute Wall's very generous offer, but none of the words looked familiar to him. He didn't remember writing this. Where had it come from?

"I was planning on coming by the dormitories on Saturday when you were more likely to be free," she said. "Nabang and I had a few from your year we picked out and were going to talk to. But since you're here..."

"I didn't send this," Katsuki said with a harsh tone.

Brute Wall took her phone back and glanced at the screen. "This is your email address, isn't it? This was sent from you, wasn't it?"

"It is, but I didn't send that email."

"If you didn't, then who did?"

"I don't know, but—"

"Why not just take it?" Road Train interrupted. "The offer is very good, one of the better ones we've given out. There's no reason not to reconsider!"

"Hatsukawa," Brute Wall addressed him. "Calm yourself."

Road Train huffed. "He's the one being ungrateful."

"I'm not being ungrateful," Katsuki snapped. "I have my reasons."

Road Train didn't seem to care for the vague answer. Brute Wall seemed disappointed more than anything. But Katsuki didn't care. His answer wasn't going to change.

"Is there nothing that can change your mind?"

Katsuki shook his head. "No. Not anything that remotely comes to mind."

Brute Wall sighed. "Fine, fine."

Road Train didn't look convinced, but he said nothing.

"If you change your mind, though, drop me a line."

Katsuki nodded, even if he was sure nothing would change.

"Enjoy your evening, Bakugou-san," she said with a wave. "I wish you the best in your career."

Katsuki just grunted in acknowledgement. Road Train opened his mouth to say something, but Katsuki had already turned, heading back toward his original destination.

::*~~*::

Izuku wandered around the festival, enjoying the sights and sounds of the lively decorations and shows. He admired the different sculptures, inspecting the more detailed ones, appreciating the artistry that went into it. He had seen plenty of pictures from the years before, but there was something more when seeing them up close.

Along his wandering, he came to thoughts about the prefecture itself. He had been paying close attention to the area all week, something he always did, but especially in the past couple of days. Since Kaminari had slipped up and told him of the offer Katsuki had gotten, he had reconsidered his own offer from Nabang. Between his fermin and during downtime at work he had looked more into the surrounding area.

He would have to bring it up to Katsuki, which Nabang would be its own trial. Katsuki clearly didn't want him to know about it, so there was the initial anger there. Izuku also wanted to discuss it without bringing up the offer from Yuchoen. He didn't want Katsuki's decision to be based on him anymore than he knew his current on to stay in Shizuoka had been. And though Izuku was just as guilty of making a similar selfish decision, he had to take a step back here. The JH was perfect for Katsuki, and Izuku didn't want their relationship to get in the way of his career. They could withstand some distance, if it came to it. He just needed to see if Katsuki agreed. Their relationship shouldn't be in the way of their careers, but work toward them.

Izuku also wasn't looking forward to Katsuki figuring out about the email he sent. Though he had Katsuki's best intentions in mind, he knew the meddling wouldn't initially be received well. He didn't blame him there, but sometimes he wished he could skip over Katsuki's first response to things and get to what the real conversation was about. He had thankfully gotten better about it over time, but over certain things that would be seen as too personal, Katsuki couldn't control himself at first. He needed to have that first outburst before he could even think about the actual conversation happening.

It was easier to deal with on topics he knew it would come upon. And there were times that anger was even justified, and Izuku didn't mind to let him have it. He was entitled to it, after all. It would just be easier to talk to him if they could get past it quickly and into what really needed to be discussed.

None of this discussion would start off simply, but they needed to have it. He was sure it would end well, it would just take a bit to get to that part. But it would be worth it. That he was sure of.

Izuku walked back to the spot Katsuki had left him at, hoping he had returned. He frowned when he looked around and couldn't find him in the crowd. He figured he would be a while, maybe got caught up talking to his friends, but he was hoping he'd make it back soon.

Hopefully he wasn't losing his nerve.

Izuku sighed. He shouldn't have let him go alone. He could just go back to the dorms if he got too anxious, and Izuku would never even know. No, he wouldn't do that, he wouldn't leave without telling him. At the most, he'd bring it up and maybe try to get out of it for just a moment, but then stop. He would do it for Izuku, no matter what it meant for him.

Katsuki promised. That meant he would do it. No amount of overthinking on Izuku's part would convince him otherwise.

"Ah, Midoriya-san."

Izuku turned, facing who had called him. He found himself in front of the head of the Yuchoen Agency, Nabang. His eyes lit with surprise, never having expected to meet them in such a place.

"Nabang-san, good evening," he greeted with a bow. "What a pleasure to run into you."

Nabang smiled and bowed back. "I'd have to agree," they said. "Have you been enjoying the festival?"

Izuku nodded. "It's wonderful," he said. "Such talent and love went into a lot these, you can tell." His eyes went over few of the closest ones. "It's quite a sight..."

Nabang looked over the same statues. They folded their hands together in front of them and their moth-like wings fluttered a little, shaking off the falling snow. "As long as I can remember, I've always enjoyed this time of year, just for this reason." They turned to look at Izuku.

"We have a lot of things like this here," they went on. "It's a wonderful place to live."

Izuku turned to them, a sincere smile on his lips. He thought the conversation would lead this way, and he was glad for it. He actually wanted to discuss his options with them, see what could come of it. He still hoped Katsuki would take Brute Wall's offer, but it didn't mean he couldn't hear them out in the meantime.

"I'm sure it is," he said. "I'm, ah... been looking at the paces around here."

Their eyes lit up a little at the information. "So you're interested?"

Izuku nodded. "I'm definitely considering it."

Nabang hummed and tilted their head. "Only considering...?"

Izuku scratched the back of his head with a nervous chuckle. "I, ah... am still waiting for an answer from somewhere else." They didn't need to know about his current conflict in full, right? "Not to mention, I've already been accepted to an agency in Shizuoka."

"Is it that much of a better offer than mine?"

Izuku had to pause at that. It was just as good an offer as what Nabang had given him. The benefits were a bit different, but the biggest difference was the change in location. He had looked at so many offers, and one of the things that came out was that they weren't in Shizuoka or Tokyo, and there was something alluring about it. Every offer he would look at the surrounding area and learn about it, gaining an interest in everything not only the job provided but also the city.

...should Katsuki really be part of the decision?

No, of course he should be. It was a selfish thought. They should talk about options, that was true. Izuku shouldn't feel bad about the offers he got. They should be able to have discussions about this. Though it wasn't like there was some spoken embargo on the topic. They just picked their agencies, that not a real discussion just assumed, and that was it.

It was a conversation they should have. Especially now.

"It's a good offer," Izuku admitted. "And... I'm considering it actually."

Nabang's smile brightened. "Is there anything you have questions on? Something to tip the scale?"

Izuku shook his head and gave a wave, but his expression was still soft. "I... I just need to go over a few things," he said. "See if some things would... work, if I accept."

Nabang had something like understanding in their faceted eyes. They nodded and tucked their arms into the fur of their kimono. "Some things have to be arranged, I see." They hummed, their gaze moved to nothing as if something was passing by them.

"Please let me know," they said. "And if you have any... concerns, just email me. We may be able to work something out."

Izuku nodded. "I'll be in contact," he assured. "Either way, I'll let you know."

"I appreciate it." They looked around and back toward a crowd some metres off that had gathered. "I need to get back to Tsuyomi. She doesn't do well in these kinds of things."

Izuku only give a short laugh at the information. "Yeah, I know someone like that."

Nabang chuckled. They gave him a light bow, saying, "Enjoy your evening, Midoriya. I hope to hear from you soon."

Izuku bowed. "You, too, Nabang-san. I'll reach out to you soon."

Nabang smiled and made their leave, heading to the crowd. As they left, people spotted them and started to cheer. They went into the crowd with an almost sereneness Izuku wasn't expecting. What it must be like to be so famous and loved. He had seen many heroes over the years greet their fans so happily, and there was something about it be always envied.

He was excited for his turn for it.

Izuku turned to the path of another set of sculptures. It was a bit away from where Katsuki had left him but closer to the food vendors. It should still be on his way back, so they wouldn't miss each other. If nothing else, they both had their phones. He had made sure of it before they left.

With a hum, Izuku started off to look at more of the carved snow.

::*~~*::

Katsuki despised the smug look on his friends' faces. He walked past Kirishima and Kaminari with a groan and an eye roll, wanting to postpone their negging. He was sure it was inevitable, but it would be easier to deal with if he had something to eat.

"You're late, Bakugou," Kirishima called after, hot on his footsteps.

Kaminari audibly sniffed the air. "And I bet I know what kept him..."

"Shut it," Katsuki growled. They just laughed in response.

Katsuki continued down the aisle of vendors until he came to one with something he wanted. He shushed the two of them as he made his order, telling the cook to put it all in one container. He stepped aside to wait and glared back at his friends. They had started talking amongst themselves, their attention firmly on each other.

Kaminari was close to him, his arm wrapped around Kirishima's bicep. It wasn't uncommon for him to be so affectionate with any of his friends, but it was always different with the red-head.

Kirishima was an idiot.

"Where's everyone else?"

Kirishima looked around before back at Katsuki. "A lot of them are over at the pond skating. I think Hagakure and Ashido are somewhere close by. They were playing some games at the midway."

"Where's Midoriya?" Kaminari asked. "Weren't you two going--?"

"We are," Katsuki interrupted. He ran a hand through his hair. "We are, I swear." He was speaking more to himself than them.

"You okay, man?" Kirishima asked.

Katsuki shrugged. "Whatever." He turned when he heard his order being called out. He took the large paper basket of fried foods with a word of gratitude and came back to the others.

"Aww, he's getting something for his date," Kaminari said with a chuckle.

"Yeah, yeah." He headed off to a beverage vendor he had seen on his way down the aisle. He got in line, muttering, "Might as well make this whole thing worth something."

"The sculptures are nice," Kirishima said. They were still close to him, Kaminari still on his arm.

They looked... good together like that. He almost thought he should mention it, but he didn't want to deal with Kaminari's disappointment when Kirishima inevitably said something stupid.

"Katsuki-kun!"

Katsuki just barely lifted his tray of food above his head as he was bombarded with the weight of layers of clothes running into him. Hagakure gave him an odd, one armed hug before pulling away. In her other hand was her phone, an image moving on the screen and a voice coming from the device. Only a few steps behind as Ashido, grinning as she took his free arm in a similar fashion as Kaminari and Kirishima.

"We were wondering where you were," Hagakure said. Even with the little he could see of her, he could tell she was ecstatic about something. The light makeup on her face revealed her large smile and wide eyes.

"Who's that? Is it Bakugou?"

Katsuki raised a brow and looked at her hand at her mobile. She held it up as though she were taking a selfie. She got Katsuki in the camera's view, and from there, he could see clearly who was on the screen.

"Hey," Ojirou said with a wave.

Katsuki gave a hesitant wave back. "...hi."

Hagakure brought the phone back down and started some conversation with him, getting into it quickly and walking off. He watched her before turning a glance to Ashido.

"So, I guess--?"

Ashido smiled and nodded. "Yeah, everything's... it's better."

The other two looked confused at the conversation, but didn't press anything.

"You never answered my question," Kaminari quipped.

"Which one?" Katsuki was getting to the front of the line. He picked up one of the yakitori sticks, hard as it was with Ashido still on his arm, and took a bite of it.

"Where's Midoriya?"

"Yeah, where is Izuku-kun?" Ashido asked before stealing a bite off his yakitori. "Shou'd'n he be wit' you, sh'n' off?"

Katsuki pulled his food away, only to have Kirishima take a bite of it. He growled and snapped it away from him.

"He wanted to look at some of the sculptures," he said. "I was just going to get this, and then we'll... you know."

"Come out?" Kaminari offered.

"Katsuki-kun's already out," Ashido corrected. "Who would think he's straight?"

"Thank you," Katsuki said sarcastically.

The conversation paused as Katsuki got to the front of the line and made his order. He only got on drink, something large that was more what Izuku would like but he could also stand. Behind him, he heard the three talk, but ignored it as they made his drink. When it was handed to him, he thanked them and led the group away.

"Should we go get him?" Kirishima offered.

"No, I... give me just a second, I'll get him." He looked at his hands and frowned. He couldn’t get to his food like this...

"You're stretching it out," Kaminari accused.

"Shut up."

"You already wasted time getting here," Kirishima added.

"And messed up your makeup!" Ashido was looking over his face with some scrutiny.

"I bet he sweated it off."

"Ha, I bet!" Kaminari agreed. "That's what kept you, after all, wasn't it?"

"I will kill all of you," Katsuki growled.

Kirishima took the basket of food from his hand and stuck one of the takoyaki in his mouth. "Brought it on you's'lf."

Katsuki glared at him and reached for it. Kirishima held it away, and Kaminari took something from it. He growled but stilled for the moment.

They came to an eating area where a few of their classmates sat, talking together in a group. Kirishima and Kaminari headed to them, all smiled and greetings. Katsuki didn't look too thrilled about coming to the others, but he couldn't get out of Ashido's grip without making a scene of it.

Uraraka was talking to Todoroki and Iida when they came up to them. She was quick to turn and greet them, even giving a somewhat genuine one to Katsuki. The other two also acknowledged them, but Todoroki seemed to barely pay attention. He was looking over them, as if he was looking for something.

"You guys get tired of skating?" Ashido asked.

Iida answered, "It was getting a little too crowded."

"And someone was getting anxious," Uraraka said low, glancing at Todoroki.

Katsuki raised a brow as he turned away, something like a blush on his cheeks.

"Do you know where Izuku is, Bakugou?" Uraraka asked him. "Kirishima mentioned he was coming with you."

"He already did," Kaminari said under his breath, getting a snicker from Kirishima and Ashido.

Katsuki shot them a look. The others looked confused. He cleared his throat and said, "He wanted to see the sculptures in the northern part of the park."

Uraraka smiled wide. "Oh, good. I was worried he decided not to come or something silly like that."

"No, he was just waiting on Bakugou's slow ass," Kirishima said.

"Didn't want to come alone, right?" Ashido added.

Katsuki glared at them. He noticed at some point during the short exchange, Todoroki slipped away. Good riddance, he thought.

"Want some?" Kaminari offered the basket of food to Uraraka and Iida.

They both said a word of gratitude and took some of the fried foods.

"Are you fucking serious?"

"Running out of excuses, Bakugou," Kirishima teased.

"Excused for what?" Iida asked, his eyes moving between them all.

"Nothing," Katsuki growled. He finally got his arm from Ashido and snatched his food back from Kaminari.

"Might as well, right?" Kaminari mentioned. He took one last stick of yakitori before leaving Kirishima's side to sit down on the table Uraraka and Iida sat at. "No point in keeping it secret anymore."

"...not without Deku," Katsuki said quietly, not looking at any of them.

"What are you guys talking about?"

Katsuki shot a glance at them, staring daggers and willing their silence. So much of this had been beyond his control. The only person he had told was Hagakure, and that was because he felt almost guilty that point he hadn't. This whole night was about control over how they came out. Izuku had even given him this moment away to get ready. It was in his control.

He just wanted to keep it that way.

"Hey, everyone!" Hagakure chirped to the group as she approached them. She was putting her phone into her purse, giving her undivided attention to them all. "What's going on?"

"Bakugou was about to tell us some secret," Uraraka said. She scooted over an let her sit next to her on the bench.

"Oh? What secret?" she asked, though her tone gave her away.

"Oh, you know..." Kirishima led on.

"Quit it," Katsuki snapped. "At least let me get Deku first."

Iida raised a brow. "What do you need him for?"

Katsuki snapped his jaw shut. Thankfully, the others did the same, finally waiting on him to speak.

"Look, it's just... I need to grab him, okay? Just..." Katsuki shook his head. He handed the basket back to Kirishima and turned to leave.

"Ah, Bakugou! Wait a second!"

Katsuki turned, glaring at Uraraka. "What is it?"

Uraraka hesitated. She scratched at her cheek almost nervously. "Um, well.. you just hold up a second."

Everyone was looking at her, their expressions questioning.

"Why?" Ashido asked.

"Well, see... he just needs some time..."

Katsuki blinked. "Who needs time for what?"

"Are you talking about Todoroki?" Hagakure asked.

Katsuki's brow only knitted more. "What about half and half?"

Uraraka looked taken aback by his tone. "He needed to talk to Deku."

"Oh, no, not about--?"

Uraraka looked at her, surprised. "How did you know?"

"Izuku-kun was worried about it..."

"Worried about what?" Kirishima spoke up. He moved closer to Katsuki and put a hand on his shoulder.

"It's not that bad," Uraraka said. "I think it'll go well."

"No, Ochako-chan, I don't think it—"

"What the fuck is going to go well?"

Uraraka gave him a stern look. "It's not really your business."

"I'm pretty sure it is."

Kirishima squeezed his shoulder. "Dude, you're getting a little—"

Katsuki shrugged him off. He took a step away from the group. "That fucking..."

"Maybe you should let Midoriya handle it," Kirishima suggested.

"Yes, you should," Uraraka interjected. "Todoroki had been trying to get him along for a while and—"

"For what?"

"Oh, that was the wrong choice of words," Kaminari mentioned softly.

Uraraka's eyes were wide at the tone of his voice. "He was just—"

"Go after him like a piece of meat?"

"Katsuki-kun, calm down," Ashido touched his arm, but he swatted it away.

He shot her a dirty look. "Let someone else act like it's open fucking season on him?"

"Seriously, man, you know it's not—"

Katsuki broke away from his friends. He said nothing other than growl as he turned from the group and disappeared back into the crowd, Kirishima calling after him.

::*~~*::

Izuku started his way toward the food vendors when time had started to crawl on too long. He had planned to give Katsuki the moment he clearly needed, but that moment was long past due. He was getting worried that he would pull back on his promise, and he just couldn't let that happen.

It was time everyone knew the truth. That, and he just wanted a date with his boyfriend where they could finally act like boyfriends around more than just Katsuki's friends.

He was passing a Mount Lady sculpture when his phone chirped at him. He pulled it out of his sleeve and swiped at the notification.

Where are you?

He raised a brow at the abrupt message. Shouldn't he be asking that of Katsuki? He was the one taking forever to get back to him. Getting food shouldn't have taken so long and he posed his fingers over the screen, ready to tell him so and that he was on his way to him.

"Izuku?"

Izuku looked up, hovering over the barely started message to turn his gaze to Todoroki. He smiled at his friend, lowering his phone after a hastily written response where he was stalled. (The weeping willow next to the bridge, though his text only barely resembled that answer.)

"Shouto." Izuku put his phone away and turned his focus completely on him. He gave him a soft, friendly smile. "Has the evening been good?"

Shouto returned the smile and nodded. "It's been rather enjoyable. Did you just get here?"

"Oh, no, I've been here for... an hour, I think?"

Shouto gave small 'oh.' "Have you been--?" He hesitated, as if he was considering his words.

Izuku tilted his head, but he didn't continue right away. "I guess I got caught up looking at all the sculptures."

Should he mention Katsuki? He almost felt he should, but they promised to come out together. But they were supposed to by now... If it came out, he was sure Katsuki would be okay with it.

Shouto's smile spread a little. "They are something."

Izuku relaxed a little, thankful he didn't press further. "They are!" His excitement was coming back as he looked about at all of them. "I mean, I saw pictures, but looking up close, there's such incredible detail." He glanced back at Shouto. "Isn't it awesome?"

Shouto nodded. "It really is." He put his arms in the sleeves of his kimono as a wind came by.

Izuku shivered and he wondered where Katsuki was.

"Do you know where everyone else is?" Izuku asked. "I wanted to—"

"Izuku, I..." Shouto stepped forward, closing the small distance between them. "Give me a moment? I wanted to talk to you about something."

Izuku took a step back. He tried to keep a pleasant smile to his features, but he couldn't help but fret about where the conversation was going.

No, no, no, don't bring it up, please, please... I don't want to do this...

"Shouto, I really don't think—"

He quieted when Shouto's hands were suddenly on his. His cheeks were flushed, his left hand was too hot and his right hand was too cold. His eyes were stuck on Izuku's and they were so serious.

No, no, no, stop, stop, stop.

"I know we haven't talked about it in a while," Shouto started. "But it's almost graduation, and I just can't... I can't let us part ways without fully discussing it."

Izuku found himself frozen. He was always able to get out of this topic since Shouto only hinted at wanting to talk about it and not actually saying anything. But he was being so forward, leaving no room for him to wiggle out of the conversation without directly engaging in it. He was caught off guard and Shouto was taking advantage of it.

"Izuku, I still... I know we tried, but it really wasn't for that long." Shouto scratched the back of his hands. "And I still, you know... I still like you. I get that before, before we were still getting to know each other, and there was so much going on in the first year..."

Just let him get it out, Izuku thought. You've been avoiding it so long, it's time to just let him have it. He's going on too much now to be cruel.

"...and we could make it work," Shouto went on. Izuku hadn't paid attention for a moment, and he wasn't sure what he missed.

He just knew Shouto was leaning in more.

"I'm not going to be in Tokyo," Izuku said without thinking, as if it would deflect his words.

"But you're staying in Shizuoka, right? That's not far. It wouldn't be that hard to keep up."

Difficult if I go to Sapporo, with or without Katchan.

"This isn't... Shouto, really, this won't—"

Izuku's eyes widened as Shouto made the space between them to press his lips against his. He squeaked against him, his mind spiralling. This was the first time they had kissed, even during their small time together, and it was nothing he wanted anymore.

He had then, but things were far different now.

Izuku was surprised when he wasn't the first to pull away. Shouto was just as quickly away as he was there. He was about to say something, about to correct him, when Shouto was turned around. Before he could say anything, even really think anything, there was a sound of flesh on flesh and Shouto was stumbling back to be caught by Izuku.

The kiss to the sound to Shouto in his arms all happened within a space of just a few seconds. So focused on Shouto, it wasn't instant for Izuku to catch what was going on.

It was the sight of Katsuki pulling his arm back that it connected in his mind what had happened.

"Katchan!" Izuku exclaimed. He helped Shouto straighten up and get his balance back. "Are you okay?" His attention was on Shouto again, looking over his face. He could tell where Katsuki had hit by the red around his non scarred eye.

"Yes, I'm fine, just—"

"What the fuck were you doing, half and half!?"

Shouto shot him a glare. He had removed himself completely from Izuku to face Katsuki. He did not take any offensive action, but his body was tense, ready to defend if he was attacked again.

"I could ask the same of you," he quipped back.

Katsuki's face was red and he was glaring daggers at him. "Stay away from him."

"I think he can make that decision for himself."

"Don't fucking start with me," Katsuki growled, taking a step forward. "I'm sick of you assholes trying to take advantage of—"

"Katchan, it's not like that." Izuku had moved, stepping between the two. He put a hand on Katsuki's chest and pushed him further from Shouto. "He wouldn't... this has nothing to do with that."

This only seemed to aggravate him more.

"Then what is it like?"

"This is between Izuku and me," Shouto asserted.

Katsuki clicked his tongue. "The fuck it—"

"Katchan is my boyfriend," Izuku said bluntly. "So it does concern him."

Shouto looked shocked by the response. Katsuki smirked at the reaction, but it was clear he was still enraged.

"I'm sorry, Shouto," Izuku said with sincerity. "I... should have told you, I know, but..." He glanced to Katsuki.

"How...? But when?"

"Does it fucking matter?"

"Katchan," Izuku chided him. "Shouto, please... we'll talk about this later, okay? I promise, I'll explain everything."

"Izuku..." Something sullen came over Shouto's expression. "Can't we just--?"

"Later." Izuku took Katsuki's hand. "I promise, later." Izuku started to drag him away. "We need to talk."

Katsuki's eyes didn't leave Shouto's face until they were well and away from him. Izuku pulled him through the crowds until they found a secluded spot off the main path and among a few trees.

"Deku, let—"

"What the hell were you thinking!?" Izuku turned to him, his hand falling from his as he pinned him with a livid expression.

Katsuki was initially taken aback by his reaction. He then got his bearings back so he could say, "What are you talking about? He was fucking kissing you!"

"One kiss, one, that I didn't even have time to react to!" Izuku crossed his arms over his chest. "It's not like I wanted it or anything."

"He sure thought you did," Katsuki retorted. "You didn't really stop him from getting the idea he should."

"Oh, fuck you," Izuku said bitterly. "I wasn't expecting him to. And if I hadn't been hiding us, he would have already known! It wouldn't have even come up!"

"Everyone else you could shrug off without saying anything, why is that bastard different?"

"No, I told all of them when they hit on me either about you or at least that I'm taken," Izuku was quick to correct. "And Shouto was different. Shouto wasn't hitting on me because— this has nothing to do with my fermin."

"Of course it does," Katsuki said. "He's been after you for years, and the fermin just—"

"We dated before," Izuku interrupted.

Katsuki fell quiet and his eyes were hard on Izuku. "What?"

"I mean... we went on dates is a better way to put it," Izuku said. "But we were... something like together for a few months during first year." He quickly added, "Before you and I..."

"Why the fuck didn't you tell me?"

"You already don't like him, why add fuel to the fire?"

Izuku could almost hear Katsuki's jaw clench tight.

"I deserved to know."

"Did you?" Izuku's brow furrowed. "Just so you could have another thing to be overly involved in?"

"What are you--?"

"You thought this was just about the fermin, right?" Izuku moved his hands to his sides, his fists balled. "So what were you going to do, swoop in and protect me?"

"Deku—"

"Even if that were true, I can take care of myself!" Izuku's voice rose. "It isn't that bad! So what if people are attracted to me!? They get what 'no' means!"

"Not everyone," Katsuki snapped. "And not everyone can help themselves, especially around yours. And if you listened to anyone, you would know that!"

"Oh, come on." Izuku rolled his eyes. "You're just blowing what everyone has said out of proportion. I doubt anyone has had the problems you're trying to put on them."

"Do you not remember the other night? Where I chased you across town?"

Izuku huffed. Katsuki had told him that he couldn't control it, couldn't help having to 'hunt' him down. But he let himself get that bad. He knew he could with Izuku; that they could be together without inhibition.

Izuku had seen no problem with it. Why couldn't Katsuki let it go?

"That was no big deal. It was fun."

Katsuki let out an angered sigh, and he threw up his hands. "What do I have to say to get through that thick skull of yours!?"

"There is nothing to get other than you don't trust me!"

A silence fell between them, Katsuki's eyes wide and Izuku's brow furrowed.

"You... you don't really think that." Katsuki took a step forward, reaching out for him. "Deku, that... do you really think I don't trust you?"

Izuku stepped back, keeping out of reach. "Isn't that what this is about? You don't think I can help myself during the fermin. You think I'm going to slip up."

"Listen, if you talk to—"

"Isn't that why you pre-emptively forgave me?"

"That..." Katsuki almost seemed to shrink at the accusation. "There's a reason for that."

"So you can think about and justify being so involved?"

"Deku, fuck, just let me—"

Izuku didn't care to hear it. Not now. He was seething. Katsuki meant well, he knew, but punching Shouto was not part of that, it was part of a possessiveness he wasn't entitled to. That wasn't what they agreed to when they said they belonged to each other.

"No, you listen to me, Bakugou."

Izuku ignored how he visibly flinched at the use of his surname.

"I'm not some fragile thing like I was in middle school." His voice was harsh as he spoke. "I don't need protection from anyone. No fermin, no exes, and not from you. I can defend myself. If I don't want it, it won't happen.

"And if you can't understand that, meet me somewhere with it..." Izuku shook his head. He didn't think that but maybe he should start.

"Deku..." There was something desperate in his tone. He made another movement to him.

"Give... give me a moment." Izuku stepped away. He was pulling his phone from his sleeve. "Please... we both should calm down. We need..." He took in a deep breath.

Katsuki kept his eyes on Izuku, his expression almost lost.

"A moment," he reasserted. "We need a moment... Katchan."

Katsuki breathed a small sigh at the return of the nickname.

"...okay, Deku."

Izuku was thankful for his agreement.

"I... I'm going to go find Uraraka," Izuku said softly. "I..." He shook his head. "Later."

Katsuki said nothing, but Izuku could feel his eyes as he walked off, leaving him alone among the snowfall.

#katsudeku #bakudeku #bakudeku fanfiction #bakugou #deku #fermin

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kendrixtermina · 5 years

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Diamond Fusions Headcannons

First there’s the question of whether they ever fused at all in the past, since they only do it for fighting on homeworld, and the Diamonds would probably have been considered too powerful to “need” it

If that is the case, and the others eventually become cool with it in the present day (which might take until Steven reaches adulthood), they will probably really come to regret that they never fused with Pink while she was still alive and that they basically have only their own attitudes to blame for it.

Then again though the chances are low it’s not wholly impossible since they’re all the same gem type. Perhaps in the context of combat training (in which case there might be a situation where Steven asks them what their fusions are like, personality wise, which they probably never considered)

Which is in itself an interesting question - were they ever taught to fight?

One the one hand they would probably have been considered way too important to get on the front lines and have legions of soldiers to do the fighting for them - on the other hand they’re expected to have and project power

They DO seem to make the choice to toast the rebels themselves when they land on Earth without much of an entourage since they’re only expecting a small remnant force and have a personal vengeance thing going on. Same thing when all three of them blasted the earth.

When Blue and Yellow got into a fight with the CGs, you get a sense that while they’re equal in durability and raw power, Yellow has a lot more actual combat experience. They don’t land any actual damage on Blue apart from messing up her hairdo, but they did briefly have her somewhat cornered, you get the sense that she’s mostly used to just disciplining her underlings and that her lasers and pathokinetic aura usually do the trick there; Meanwhile Yellow punches her way out of the ship with her bare hands and proceeds to knock off half the opposition within the first minute. It’s amazing that our heroes were able to hold out as long as they did, but there’s a strong implication that they would have been toast if it weren’t for Steven’s intervention.

And of course it makes sense given that Yellow seems to be in charge of the conquering and has been for tens of thousands of years, you bet there were a few times were she would have been forced to defend herself, or at least want to be ready for it in case.

As for White, I wouldn’t peg her too far above Blue’s level in terms of skill, she has the (thought/motion controlled) mecha pull off a couple fancy kicks so she’s probably not doing it the first time, but they get her with relative ease once they form obsidian. Granted, she was probably fairly confident that they weren’t an actual threat since she could always just mind control them.

Did they have some attendants doing that, or did White teach them herself? I suppose by the time Pink came around, she would’ve left it to Yellow and Blue to prepare her. And, if fight training was a thing, that would come with the painfully ironic implication that Pink used everything they taught her against them once she rebelled.

So, back to fusions.

General Thoughts

I think that Blue and Yellow could already do it if they wished to, not so sure with the rest - but in any case I don’t expect any of them to hold much better than early-series Opal (perhaps slightly better than that for Yellow and Blue) because for all that they do care about each other they’re a dysfunctional bunch and have very different approaches to things.

Any fusions involving Steven would hold slightly better because he’s just good at it. One wonders who’d fuse with him first, Blue or Yellow. He generally tends to get along best with Blue (She’s usually the one carrying him around, the first he wins over and the first with whom he tries to talk about his own life in ways unrelated to accomplishing his mission) but she’s a lot more squeamish and proper and seemed akinda repulsed by the whole fusion thing, like there’s a long way between decriminalizing it and being willing to do try it. - Out of the three Yellow seems to be the most no-nonsense, experimental one,judging by the peace sign and so on.

A lot of ppl draw the fusions with extra eyes etc which would follow the general logic of having ppl with diferences in their pvs have four eyes etc. but then again they’re the same gem type so they might just come out larger but humanoid. Do the various Diamonds ‘count’ as different enough? I guess we won’t know unless we see it. though I think even the crew decides this more based on what looks the coolest.

If their markings around the eyes don’t combine somehow in a cool fashion, what is even the point.

Also, remember in the early seasons where Pearl and Amethyst would tend to clash with Sugilite and Sardonyx respectively, and be lowkey intimidated by them and both kinda provided an insight in how Pearl and Amethyst would act if they were more confident and/or in charge?

Pretty sure that at least early on or pre-Steven, the same would be going on whenever White fused with one of the younger Diamonds. (if not more so - while Garnet just happened to be the most powerful one, was upset when that got in the way of her friendships and is self-aware about her limitations, White is legit terrifying. Even when Steven wins her over she just goes straight to “creepy cute”, she doesn’t know how not to be. ) So basically Blue and Pink would be fundamentally creeped out by White’s and Yellow’s fusion, and likewise Yellow and Pink would like not to have to deal with White’s and Blue’s fusion.

White alone is at least “polite crazy” and prefers to leave the threats implied and “break them by talking” if she can, but a fusion with Blue or Yellow in the mix wouldn’t be nearly as distant so the crazy would be closer to the surface - besides you’d probably see more of Blue, Yellow and Pink’s negative traits manifested with less of the positive ones present because, after all, White is the one who brought them up to be villains rather than heroes.

This could probably be softened with some character development once White actually gets to a point where the other two can trust her again and not be on edge around her, and at that point she’d perhaps be adding something more like a playful whimsy and a bit more animated surface-level expressiveness than Blue and Yellow have on their own.

Individual Fusions

Yellow and Blue: I quite like that idea someone put forth that they might have an edgy mid 2000s goth thing going on - (in canonland a lot of the fusions have a ‘theme’) but if they go for ‘elegant’ instead it would probably be in more a modern-artsy than a fantasyesque way. One wonders how the round vs blocky shapes would be blended like it would have to be a midways point between them but also not look too much like White. (who might be a bit miffed if this fusion winds up taller than her)

With these two there’s some potential that they might complement each other in a positive way and sort of balance out some of their shortcomings like they would patient like Blue but responsible like Yellow, but still probably rather intense as both of them are in their own ways like the fusion would probably embody the sides of them that they show when they’re in private together without either of their facades, but also their dynamic of supporting each other through adversity, so they would probably be someone you can count on despite their sour demeanor.

White and Yellow: Cersei-Lannister esque metal dress. Hair is basically like White’s but shorter and spikier so it resembles are crown more than a star. All of Yellow’s pragmatic utilitarianism and harshness but not much of her consideration. As unreadable of White but with a hard frown instead of a smile. Big operatic voice.

White and Blue: Maximum Winter Witch aesthetic. Or possibly “The Fair Folk” instead. Probably rather introverted and somewhat apathetic but capricious if angered and relatively eerie/inhuman looking.

White and Pink: There’s just no way this wouldn’t end in a Sugilite or Malachite level debacle, there’s just way too many knots in that particular relationship. Might not even get her own voice. If this ever happened, they tried once or twice, it went south, and Pink got all the blame. Would hold together well enough but not in a good way. Looks and personality wise, the fusion would probably be like the ultimate bratty gremlin.

White and Steven: probably also gremlin-like but in a positive, playful fashion. I don’t think the outfit would be much less frilly, if anything you’d probably see a lot of Steven’s “fabulous” side surfacing here. Perhaps a doll-like theme?

Blue and Pink: Adorable as fuck and probably somewhat dreamy. Somewhere between princess classic and alice in wonderland. Probably holds harmonously enough while they’re doing Shenanigans, but prone to unfusing quite abruptly and inelegantly whenever Pink chooses to do something that would not jive with Blue “proper” sensibilities. (”Why don’t we sneak out of the arena like this-” “PIIINK”)

Blue and Steven: At this point so much character developement would need to have happened that it’s hard to guess where things might go. I mean could you picture Blue in pants? Would be nothing like the 1.0 version apart from the color sheme, probably on the sweet and reserved side and would reflect Steven’s influence a lot. Maybe they would have an “eerie psychic child” thing going on? Like if you put Blue and Steven together the result would probably have rather strong but somewhat volatile psychic abilities that would, to them, feel sigificantly different from their usual ones.

Yellow and Pink: Drawing a bit of a blank here since their aesthetics and approaches to things are so different. I guess you could say (and that correlates with other orange or red gems we have seen) that they would be somewhat fierce and impassioned, but I think they too might get some complementarity going on, if the result was more focussed than pink but not as uptight as yellow.

Yellow and Steven: Hm. Perhaps this would look like something out of a sci-fi comic/ video game, since Steven has a bit of a taste for that. He’s never really done serious except in momentary, over-the-top lapses so heaven knows what style of speaking that fusion would end up with. That said though it’s subtle Yellow is the one out of the bunch who does have a sorta funny, dorky side to her somewhere, and another commonality is that Yellow sure tends to look out for those around her (though not so much those outside her inner circle) - Like perhaps you’d get some of that, but their way of going about things would include some of Yellow’s more pragmatic approach.

#steven universe #diamond authority #yellow diamond #white diamond #blue diamond #pink Diamond

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misdre · 7 years

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i said a few days ago i could just write a post about my rei/max headcanons and why i ship it and such, and i just really love rambling about these two, so here is my little reimax brainstorming post that i spontaneously felt like writing. (this is all based on animeverse, obviously.)

☆ well, first i'll say that despite whatever headcanons and interpretations, i first and foremost ship characters just because it's fun, so basically It's Not That Deep and i never claim anything as canon at all, i can literally list my first reason for shipping them as rei and max being so nicely complementary characters design-wise (long dark & short fair hair, light & dark eyes, different skin tones, purple-red & yellow-green, white & black, my self-imposed cat & dog and moon & sun allegories all that kinda stuff that just works out nicely) that's all i need to enjoy a ship honestly. i don’t like the practice of undermining other possible pairings because yours is “correct”.

☆ rei and max both basically come to japan as foreigners pre-series (max speaks the language with an accent so i take it he's not too adapted to the country yet, even if he got some of the culture from his dad’s side) which i like to think brings them together early on, since they have a shared experience of not quite belonging. i like thinking of it as a sort of over-arching feature of their friendship that sets them apart from the rest of the team. (on the other hand though, there's the obvious clash of max being a rich kid from new york and rei from the backwoods of china..... i haven’t explored that much, other than rei being completely clueless about technology and max eventually forcing him to get a cell phone because he cant keep writing letters forever for cucks sake)

☆ really obvious from my art and all but i headcanon rei as sensitive and easily flustered, based on his gentle personality and how he tends to be swayed by emotions (and lack of self confidence which isn't exactly ever laid out i think, but that's how i read him losing his way so easily), and his arrogance especially at the beginning is just him putting up a front and looking down on people at first out of wanting to feel superior himself. i actually headcanon rei to underestimate and brush max off big time at first over his favour for takao whom rei is totally amazed with at first - i mean, is ever since, but in s1 takao is still New and Exciting. max on the other hand is seen impressed with rei's strength from the start, and he isn't fazed by his arrogant attitude, nor does max ever particularly put himself on a pedestal so he doesn't mind the one-sided sentiment. max is also really patient, and i like to think that his smarts and personality gradually draw rei in, especially because rei wants to think of himself as rational and mature and a big brother of sorts -- since he’s got so much experience travelling, and has had the big brother-like role in china (i headcanon him as a bit older than the rest of BBA, i mean how else would he ever have had the time to travel) but, as said, he’s easily swayed by emotions instead. the fact that max seems so childish but has this surprising depth to him gradually makes rei acknowledge him as a blader too.

☆ the thing about their friendship is that it's very stable and sort of subtly constantly on the background. i don't even headcanon there to be any dramatic turning point of them suddenly becoming closer or anything, they're just naturally drawn to each other and end up spending time together a lot. i think of them as the observant half of the BBA team, and they work amazingly well as a team early on (synchronised moves already in s1 like wow) as something that just comes very naturally to them from thinking alike and being together. (during the domestic bits of s2 they are basically always together, like just sitting in the dojo by the two of them tuning their beys together, it’s actually really cute) there isn't the sort of dramatic element in their relationship that there is between them and takao, and kai to an extent, because they never consider each other rivals but rather are always on the same side. half of g-revolution is them banding together (in spirit) to position themselves as takao’s rivals and they work for a shared objective (which they, by the way, apparently agree on just between the two of them and meet up at like death o'clock in the morning without telling anybody else before leaving together in the beginning of g-rev. and then they return to the same place later in a dramatic sunset to reminisce about that morning, i've always wanted to write a fic about how gay that actually looks) ANYWAY point being...... what was my point. that rei and max are just forever low-key together, even when they physically aren’t.

☆ basically my canon-compliant reimax includes a lengthy friends-to-lovers mutual pining of them making the perfect pair for a really long while and being close to the point of others probably thinking they're already dating when they themselves haven't even discovered or admitted they have romantic feelings yet and everyone’s just "what".

☆ back to headcanon land, also pretty obvious from my fanworks, but i hc max as the more assertive one by a mile, and my usual depiction is that he actually is aware of his feelings for rei (starting from wherever i choose that to start. “forever” is a good pick) and probably knows that rei feels the same, but max just loves teasing the hell out of him for it because rei's reactions are so emotion-based (against his own will. he'd want to be a calm and rational adult so bad) and he takes himself so seriously. max sees through rei's tough act pretty much from the start and only finds it endearing. and max is the kind to perpetually surprise everyone else, either on purpose or just by the virtue of being so much more than he seems to be, so in turn rei is infatuated with the complexity of max's character (and also just his cuteness but you know) but somehow repeatedly finds himself fooled by max anyway, e.g. rei would sure as hell think max is all innocent and cute and would probably think it scandalous if max ever found out he's having such INAPPROPRIATE thoughts about him, but then it's max making the first move by casually throwing some pick-up line at rei (....or slapping his ass or whatever) which max isn't ashamed of doing in the least. that's the sort of dynamic i headcanon them to have.......when it's not just a smooth sailing of them easily moving from friends to boyfriends, anyway, which i can also more canon-compliantly imagine. like one day they just end up making out and go "oh" and it makes perfect sense to both. that also works. which do i like better?? i love all of it. (alternatively, they're just both too dense to make the first move and the girls, hiromi and mao usually, wind up being their wingwomen who have to spell their obvious feelings out to them. girls because they are so much smoother at this stuff than guys. also, it's somehow a running thing in my imagined settings that kai is the only other BBA member who knows of them, just because he's the only one actually sitting there quietly observing everyone. and he is groaning internally all the time because these idiots just don't get it. like i could literally write a fic like this from kai’s POV. actually i have a zillion different settings for how reimax could happen and this post isn't supposed to be a masterlist of them, but that's a couple of thoughts)

☆ not a surprise but i have like a compulsive need to depict max being crazy about rei’s beautiful hair, and also his build in general (the tips of rei's ears are an erogenous zone by the way) -- i guess i headcanon max to be much more actively *attracted* to people (pan max is my way of max) and it’s very natural for him to find rei’s characteristics attractive, while at rei's end it's more of a "i have no idea why i feel this way about him what is this we're both guys it shouldn't be like this ohmygod did i just think he was cute for a second no it can't be oh no." i also think that rei would have a harder time dating another guy and dealing with what other people would think about it and all, being from the boonies as opposed to max being from a big american city. which then could also contribute to rei addressing his feelings much more slowly or being alien to the whole concept altogether. but i don't care to address real world issues in my 100% fictional noncanon fanworks, so i don't think about that aspect much.

this is probably enough rambling for one post, tl;dr i sure am attached to an imaginary relationship of a couple of cartoon boys

#bey things #this is like an invitation for the world to judge me

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distantidea · 7 years

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Paladin’s horoscopes & compatibility

4 out of 5 are confirmed and Keith is Scorpio. He just is. SO, why not let my inner horoscope whore out and talk shit about them. I’ll cover all ships and take neutral stand with all of them.

= If you don’t like a ship, just don’t read it = = AKA stop being a big baby about ships =

Hunk - January 13. - Capricorn

So, we’re starting with Hunk! Capricorn is honestly interesting choice for Hunk, as Capricorn wouldn’t have been my first choice, but it’s decided on so there’s no changing it now. Strengths: Responsible, disciplined, self-control, good managers Weaknesses: Know-it-all, unforgiving, condescending, expecting the worst Likes: Family, tradition, music, understated status, quality craftsmanship Capricorn dislikes: Almost everything at some point The thing is, if you have list of typical traits of horoscope, it’s not hard to connect them to character. But I mean, that isn’t that far from Hunk if you ask me.

Shiro - Febuary 29. - Pisces

Shiro’s Pisces. While all of these don’t match Shiro nowdays, it’s possible pre-Kerberos Shiro was much more like this Strengths: Compassionate, artistic, intuitive, gentle, wise, musical Weaknesses: Fearful, overly trusting, sad, desire to escape reality, can be a victim or a martyr Likes: Being alone, sleeping, music, romance, visual media, swimming, spiritual themes Dislikes: Know-it-all, being criticized, the past coming back to haunt, cruelty of any kind ... does anyone remember that post about Shiro liking ballet?

Pidge - April 3. - Aries

Katie, Katie, Katie. Strengths: Courageous, determined, confident, enthusiastic, optimistic, honest, passionate Weaknesses: Impatient, moody, short-tempered, impulsive, aggressive Likes: Comfortable clothes, taking on leadership roles, physical challenges, individual sports Dislikes: Inactivity, delays, work that does not use one's talents You know, I wouldn’t have given Pidge a fire sign, but now it feels just obvious?

Lance - July 28. - Leo So, Lance. Yay. Strengths: Creative, passionate, generous, warm-hearted, cheerful, humorous Weaknesses: Arrogant, stubborn, self-centered, lazy, inflexible Likes: Theater, taking holidays, being admired, expensive things, bright colors, fun with friends Dislikes: Being ignored, facing difficult reality, not being treated like a king or queen Well, Lance is literally Leo. Lance’s confirmed to believe horoscopes, it’s canon now.

Keith - ? - Scorpio (you aren’t taking this away even from my dead body) Keith isn’t confirmed, but like, if Keith isn’t Scorpio I’ll delete and all that what antis say when they are whining Strengths: Resourceful, brave, passionate, stubborn, a true friend Weaknesses: Distrusting, jealous, secretive, violent Likes: Truth, facts, being right, longtime friends, teasing, a grand passion Dislikes: Dishonesty, revealing secrets, passive people Keith seems like a person that wants you to say things straight to his face without softening them.

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I’m using this chart because 1. visuals are nice 2. it’s not gendered 3. It’s pretty much first actually good one I found

Capricorn & Pisces = Hunk & Shiro = Shunk You know, Capricorn & Pisces is actually the third best match out of Paladins? Capricorn and Pisces form friendship fast. They’re also somewhat opposites, Capricorn being more down to earth and Pisces being more idealistic, but work well together and teach lot about meeting halfway at a lot of situations. Compatibility: 85

Capricorn & Aries = Hunk & Pidge = Hidge

Capricorn and Aries is challenging relationship. Both are strong willed, to make relationship either work or break. If they get over their differences early, the relationship will be glorious but might not always pay back. Compatibility: 50

Capricorn & Leo = Hunk & Lance = Hance

Putting earth sign with fire sign doesn’t usually end well. While Capricorn and Leo understand each other well, they tend to have very different plans for future goals. It’s good to notice that if both of them are stubborn enough they’ll get over problems fast and will shine together. Compatibility: 45

Capricorn & Scorpio = Hunk & Keith = Heith

Capricorn and Scorpio is pretty great match and they bring the best out of each other. Both are hard working and loyal, Capricorn grounds intensive Scorpio without problem. Compatibility: 65

Pisces & Aries = Shiro & Pidge = Shidge

For Aries and Pisces pair to work out, they need to figure other one out and grow to accept their differences. Both need to be open and truthful to other as well as to themself. Compatibility: 65

Pisces & Leo = Shiro & Lance = Shance

This match had a lot of potential once they get over their differences. If Pisces is ready to give Leo the attention they want and Leo can recognize Pisces’ needs, they will be happy for a long time. Compatibility: 75

Pisces & Scorpio = Shiro & Keith = Sheith

Pisces and Scorpio are literally soulmate material. Scorpio’s usually possessive and loyal personality helps Pisces feel needed and Pisces can easily read Scorpio and understand them perfectly. Only way for them to fall is jealousy, which isn’t rare but with great communication it rarely gets on that level. Compatibility: 95

Aries & Leo = Pidge & Lance = Plance

Aries and Leo are interesting match. Neither are that romantic but their passion is neverending together, even their fights seem to just light new passion between them. Which is good because fire signs need daily fights to be healthy. Compatibility: 90

Aries & Scorpio = Pidge & Keith = Kidge

They get well together and Aries’ willingness to share almost everything will keep Scorpio’s jealousy down. And possessive Scorpio understands well Aries’ possessiveness. Very likely to live with ‘’You lie, you die’’ deal going on between them. Compatibility: 80

Leo & Scorpio = Lance & Keith = Klance

Their relationship is heavily based on battle between two strong personalities. Scorpio tends to be controlling and won’t always do what Leo needs, while Leo doesn’t always understand Scorpios dislike towards the way Leo acts. Leo and Scorpio will start with rocky relationship, but it can end up burning bright. Compatibility: 75

While horoscopes match some people perfectly, it won’t happen to everyone. Guess why? Because everyone is different.

That’s how it’s with relationships too. These are just avarage data and honestly should not be taken too seriously. Horoscopes are fun and can give good ideas when writing relationships, but in no case should they be taken as always right.

Sites used while writing this: http://www.astrology-zodiac-signs.com/ - While they have signs listed pretty nicely, their relationships are usually bit wonky and I wouldn’t recommend using them, but each to their own. http://www.compatible-astrology.com/index.html - They have better relationship break downs and I generally recommend them if you’re reading about horoscopes for fun. http://www.findhoroscope.com/love-compatibility-chart/ - The chart I used is from there. They have other interesting stuff too, if you have free time going through their site isn’t bad idea.

#voltron #klance #sheith #shance #heith #plance #kidge #hance #hidge #shunk #shidge #lance #keith #shiro #hunk #pidge #also im ust saying #but hunk will be taurus to me #miss me with that capricorn shit

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Mars Retrograde 2018: Revising How We Take Action

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The planet Mars is going retrograde on June 26th and will last until August 27th. This is something that occurs every two years, with the last one occurring in 2016 from mid-April until late June. This energy started building up when the pre-shadow began in mid-May as Mars started slowing down. Some of the themes of this retrograde may have begun sometime since then.

Retrograde periods are when a planet appears to be moving backwards in the sky due to its position around the Sun relative to Earth’s position. It is a period of re-working how we orientate ourselves with the themes and energies of that specific planet. The most significant retrogrades are those of Mercury, Venus, and Mars.

Mars: Assertion, Willpower, Courage, Desires, Sex, Aggression, and Anger

Mars is a yang/male planet that is associated with how we apply action in our lives. When retrograde, its energies get amplified as it ends up being opposite the Sun and appears at its brightest when looking at the night sky. This is like the ‘Full Moon’ for Mars as it receives the most light from the Sun.

During this retrograde, Mars themes will be highlighted very strongly which ultimately help to facilitate some sort of adjustment. This could influence where to best apply our efforts, how we use our willpower, our motivations, our desires, a shift in our sex lives, and how we deal with aggression and anger. When a planet goes retrograde, the circumstances that manifest help us to ultimately express the energies of this planet in a new way.

Due to its energies being amped in retrograde motion, this can also be a time where many people can get more easily angered or irritated. This can be potentially the most negative manifestation of this period. People who have strong Mars energy or many of those who are dominant Aries or Scorpio may notice these effects the most.

There can be a build-up of inner tension which eventually can be expressed outwardly, sometimes in a passive-aggressive way. If this applies to you, it would be wise to find a healthy way to release anger and ease tension in a way that is not harmful to you or the people in your life.

Any frustrations that occur at this time could be as a result of things not flowing smoothly and wasted efforts. If this occurs to you, it would be good to consider that something needs to change with the way you are applying yourself and pay attention to signs from the Universe.

Usually, this occurs when taking new initiatives, but not in every case. If so, it may be better to revisit old tasks, projects, and efforts and you may find that doing this can be more productive. However, this will not make you immune to all of its effects which ultimately should help you in your personal development.

As Mars is also associated with sex, sometimes what happens is that a shift in our sex lives could occur or could involve getting back together with someone from the past. In some cases, there can be a change in a relationship or even a friendship.

For example, some people may begin a sexual relationship with someone who they are already acquainted or friends with. In other cases, the opposite may occur or some may try to rekindle a relationship with an old partner. However, this won’t apply to everybody and everyone will experience this retrograde in different ways in which many are expressed throughout this article.

Mars Retrograde In Aquarius and Capricorn

The majority of this retrograde will occur in Aquarius with it ending in Capricorn where it will move forward again. Its themes may be oriented around the collective, groups, colleagues, friends, as well as humanitarian and social issues. It may even be connected to how we assert ourselves with our intellect or how we apply our innovative selves.

Mars will then return to Capricorn on August 12th/13th where Pluto and Saturn are currently located. This can bring in themes of re-orientation connected to our goals, ambitions, careers, responsibilities, and perhaps apply ourselves with better structure, resourcefulness, and in a more solid way.

Mars Conjunct South Node and Out Of Bounds

In the weeks leading up to this period, Mars has been travelling near the South Node of the Moon and will also pass over it again during the retrograde. The South Node is associated with the past and could be connected to what can be holding us back. It is even considered to be a place where energy can dissipate. This could be about letting go of old approaches of how we use our Mars energy, but in this process, themes connected to the past may resurface during this time to help us make the changes.

On July 7th/8th, Mars will be going ‘out of bounds’ and will stay like that until September 24th which is almost a month after the retrograde ends. At that time, we will still be in the post-retrograde shadow period (until October 8th) which is when things related to Mars begin to move forward more smoothly.

A planet is ‘out of bounds’ when it travels beyond the limits in which the Sun travels in from our vantage point on Earth. This is generally a time when that planet expresses itself in unusual, unique, independent, unconventional, innovative, and even creative ways. It is sort of like it is exploring new territory beyond the normal constructs of society or how it usually expresses itself.

Mars Square Uranus, Eclipses, and Mercury Retrograde

A major factor of this Mars retrograde is that it will be in a square with Uranus which will be strongest during the last week of July and the first week of August. Uranus has similar energy to a planet being ‘out of bounds’ so therefore this aspect emphasizes what was mentioned above. This configuration can also trigger rebelliousness, impulsive actions, disruptions, sudden changes, and perhaps a need to break free out of inhibiting situations.

Circumstances that can come up can make it even harder to focus and direct our energy, and therefore it is best to be adaptable and to surrender that what isn’t working. However, it would be wise to be cautious about taking impulsive action in case you may do something you may regret. It would be wise to think things over and reflect when triggered. Mercury will also be going retrograde at that time so we may easily not see things clearly.

This entire Mars retrograde period will also be occurring while three eclipses take place. We will have partial Solar Eclipses taking place on July 12th/13th in Cancer and on August 11th/12th in Leo. However, the most potent one, which is also strongly connected to Mars retrograde, will be a Total Lunar Eclipse in Aquarius on July 27th/28th.

The Lunar Eclipse will be aligned with Mars while it is in a square with Uranus which can carry some of the Mars/Uranus themes mentioned above over the following months even after the retrograde is over. Eclipses in general trigger changes which ultimately depends on how it is interacting with your natal astrology chart (personal astrological blueprint) based on your exact birth time. These themes of change are strongest in the month of each eclipse, however, they still can unfold over the following 3-6 months.

Due to the fact that the eclipse in late July is a Total Lunar Eclipse near the South Node, combined with the Mars/Uranus configuration, this really emphasizes the fact that this is a period of really letting go of certain aspects of our lives that are not serving us. Perhaps any wasted or challenging efforts we experience as a result of Mars retrograde may help to show us this. This Lunar Eclipse, also referred to as a ‘Blood Moon’, will be the longest Lunar Eclipse of the 21st century, lasting just over four hours.

I will be releasing more content about these Eclipses and Mercury retrograde as we get closer to those dates. You can join my mailing list here to ensure that you are notified when I release my latest content.

What To Reflect On During This Mars Retrograde?

Are you asserting yourself appropriately in your life? What are you being shown by the Universe? How is the outside world responding to the way you take action? How do you feel inside? What adjustments do you need to make in order to proceed more effectively with your goals and aspirations? Which of your past decisions, ideas, or initiatives should you revisit and experiment with? What do you need to bring to an end? How can you express yourself in ways that are unique, creative, and unconventional? What are your true inner desires?

These are some examples of what to reflect on during this time. The retrograde ends on August 27th. From that point on until early October, many of the challenges of this summer will dissipate and most (or all) of the areas that were triggered during this period should move forward more smoothly with increased clarity. Any changes that have occurred will help to facilitate a better way for us to express ourselves.

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Looking for insight on how this period is affecting you? Or perhaps looking to better understand your life and its potentials? Get a personalized astrology reading with Carmen (author of this article) specific to you based on your exact birth date, time, and location. Click here for more information or to order. You can also follow me on INSTAGRAM, FACEBOOK, YOUTUBE, or join my MAILING LIST for more astrology related content.

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