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Hi, I just found your blog and it was so liberating to read some of your posts!

We were together for 3 years. Now that I think back.... so much bad stuff happened and I kinda always thought it will get better. It didn't. Anyay, I ended it two weeks ago (tbh he kicked me out and helped me, i'm not sure if i would have ever left othervise...) I guess he thought I would come back and forgive and forget like I always did. But this time something inside me snapped and I actually left for real. I still don't know how I did it. :O

Anyway, after that came two weeks of begging for me to return, angry calls, coming to my workplace, coming to my parents house, crying, saying he can't and doesn't want to live without me etc. but I refused to go back.

It's hard thinking about good times and then remembering ugly stuff, things he said and did. I feel so stupid for not leaving the moment I felt something was wrong. The little me would be so embarrassed because I still miss him so much :(

All my friends and family are very supportive, they said they are proud of me... I couldn't do it without them.

I feel so damn tired from all that and I have a feeling it won't end for some time. Some nights are so hard, I never knew it was possible for a human being to cry so much.

Anyway, sorry for the vent, I just kinda wanted to say thank you for running this blog because your posts really helped me tonight. <3

Hi lovely anon,

I'm so proud of you for being strong and brave enough to walk away! 👏👏👏 You've already made the hardest step which is the first one.

I know it's really hard right now, but I promise it gets better. Maybe not overnight, every day little by little the pain will ease and you will be able to enjoy the small beautiful things again, life will regain its depth and colors and it won't feel this bleak for long. Right now you're tired because your body is exhausted from being in survival/fight or flight mode so long.

Here are some guides/articles on how to move on from a breakup. I think in the confusion and scary unknown of the grieving process, it does help a lot to have a roadmap on what to expect, how to heal & move forward. You heal best when you honor each healing stage and process/feel things accordingly.

And don't apologize for venting, your feelings are valid. I'm always here if you need advice or just someone to listen. My blog is a safe space, we're here to glow up and above all to lift each other up. 🤍

Best wishes,

-Lumen

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