watching ppl obsessively hate-watch others and interract w them is so funny to me like,,,, seek help?

kinda got scared thinking about my digital footprint and am considering deactivating my account , worried people i know are going to find out it’s me based off of the hints i’ve spilled about my personal life… plus is everything goes well and i end up in motorsports journalism the links i’ve shared linking to my personal tiktok account is pretty damn scary…

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don’t stress about it!! i’ve been thru various fandoms and only once has anyone i know irl ever found one of my accounts and i have had friends search for HOURS. and she only found my old twitter account after i told her i had been tweeted by twizzlers, and she went through a years worth of their tweets to find the reply and be like omg!! i found ur account!

also ive sold nudes n shit, they are def still out there, i think the twit acc i sold them on is still up and i just changed it into an anime twit acc lmaooo. let someone use my phone get on d*rk web to order … things … so i feel like that might be on there idk. i’ve posted on every hellsite available, literally tweeted that i wanted luke hemmings to cum in me While He Followed Me. ok i was an insane teenager. im pretty sure the tweets are still up and he still follows 😭 my digital footprint is a mountain range. anything u can do online ive done it.

trying to be reassuring that it’ll be ok bc im attached to u and dont want u to deactivate !! w tiktok, the app is gonna fade eventually and when they check ur digital footprint they’re not looking at links you copy/pasted and shit. if need be, make a burner tiktok account for when you send links so it’s not linked directly to yrs!! i doubt theres a way they could find every link you copied from tiktok then search the internet to see where you sent it and what you said about it, it’s like looking over public accounts you disclose to them or they find when they search your name and shit, so if tumblr doesn’t have your full name and shit it’s not coming up on any searches, i wouldn’t think.

also can i say i hate that tiktok does that its so fucking weird and intrusive imo.

So I made a burner account bc I want to bring up an issue I'm having without revealing myself but my anon doesn't work for some reason idk

I would use my regular account but the person this revelation(?) is about may or may not know my main account and I'm not going to risk it

Enough beating around the bush or justification or whatever but I think I have a crush on my friend?

We're really good friends and we have a lot of similar interests and we're both gay to some degree (I'm bi myself) so I know she could like me back but idk

We always send eachother the "us in another universe" videos (I feel like if she sees this that's going to give it away lmao) or like the videos that are lowkey flirting and we always send them as a joke but idk

Is it wrong of me to want more?? I don't want to ruin our friendship if she doesn't like me back and I'm was too anxious to talk to her directly about it so ig I just wanted to get it off my chest to someone

Idk if I need advice on what to do or not but idkk I haven't dated many people in the past and I've never liked someone this much? IDK AAA

i love that u guys chose me to give u advice. it kills me LOLOLOL

i mean it’s not wrong for u to want more, it’s def not ur fwult. but also if u tell her it def will change ur friendship no matter what. hmmmmmmmmmmm. u should do more hinting that u like her (i find personally, through subtle touches, but also some ppl hate that so LOL) and see how she reacts to it. or u could ask her directly but that’s bold asf and may fuck things up idk.

but i also have no idea what im talking about so idk

gonna expose u one day u piece of shit

gonna tell everyone about how you used to constantly ask for sex even after i said no. Gonna talk about that terrible day you wouldn’t stop asking me to make u cum that I just had u put it in while I lay there emotionless. Gonna talk about how the only time you ever stopped yourself from continuing to pressure me was because I started crying. Gonna tell everyone how u picked me off of a xan and the only reason I remember having sex is because of the videos you took of me that day drugged out. The only reason I even took that pill was bc I was so broken from the abuse I just wanted to be numb. The way you continuously touched me in areas I told you more than once I didn’t wanna be touched in, especially in public. You’re a pig. I have actual video of me telling you to please stop touching my breast and instead of listening like a normal person, you proceed to grab my breast harder and then punch it. You touched me as much as you possibly could and I hated it so much. I told u I didn’t like that and you responded with “it’s just muscle memory”. You’re disgusting.

Gonna tell everyone how you used to degrade me, how you used to yell at me, how you used to corner me. How you used to literally rip all my personal belongings out of my hands and kept them away from me so you wouldn’t leave. How you would lock me inside a room. I would have to start throwing things around in order to keep any sort of control. The way you would hold me down till I would stop fighting. How you would send me into panic attacks almost everyday. How you would keep me in the car, yelling at me, and refuse to drop me off home if I asked you to or refuse to leave my car if I was driving. I used to hate when you would pick me bc I always told you “you never let me go home” but you never just took no for an answer. You used to promise me you would take me home when I said so but never kept that promise. I’m gonna tell everyone how controlling you were, how you wanted my iCloud of years backed up to ur computer, how you wanted to watch my every move, how I felt forced to record myself sleeping or else I had to deal with you being a little abusive bitch. Gonna tell everyone how u used to threaten me, how you used to threaten to hurt anyone I loved or cared about, how you claimed u could get me jumped, how you claimed you could get my friend’s boyfriends hurt. I’m gonna tell everyone over the constant harassment I faced even after I finally left. The constant no caller ID calls that called me over 30 times in one hour. I have over 18 burner phone numbers blocked that he would contact me from. The fake Instagram accounts that I had to block or he would continue to contact me. I had to go off social media just to end this. The not feeling comfortable in my own home bc you just had to come by and leave things off near my home or near my car. And don’t even get me started on what you saw when u logged into my sc account. You’re cruel and vile for witnessing that and then continuing to tell me I don’t deserve anything. That night where you were literally yelling at me and pushing me down to the point where I finally snapped and slapped you across the face bc I had to fucking defend myself.

All of my “abusive” reactions were a response to you. A response to ur abuse. Ur a sick individual. You’re a manipulator, an abuser, a woman hater, a rapist. You’re a fucking rapist. Scum of the earth.

I thank a God I never accepted any money from u or asked you for anything because I know you definitely would have used that against me.

I didn’t love you. I never did. I couldn’t even stand to be around you. I was with you only cause I was so scared of you. I hated every minute I was ever with you. Although it was wrong of me, I hoped you went to jail bc that was the only way I thought I was gonna be free. You stripped me of absolutely everything I ever knew as a person. You broke and abused me in every way you possibly could.

I hope you’re actually getting the help you so desperately need. This is my story. This is my trauma. Whether it is chosen to be believed or not I do not care. I don’t write this for pity or to be relatable. I write this as a step I’m taking for myself, to take all my power that was once stripped away from me. I’m not scared of you, and I will never fear you or any man again.

I have evidence against you, I have a case against you. If you ever come near me or anyone I love I won’t hesitate to do something about it. I didn’t name you nor identify u in any shape way or form so leave me the fuck alone.

Go to hell sicko.