#and they were like reallyyy cheap
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one of my favourite aesthetics is buying cheap old second-hand books with pages grown yellow and the words bringing back floods of memories, from a small broken stall that's basically just piles of tattered books and nostalgic smell
#so basically i bought two books today#one enid blyton and another hardy boys#and they were like reallyyy cheap#and i spent like half an hour browsing them
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See you again,
Bada Lee x fem reader
Summary: After you both agree to part ways, your paths cross unexpectedly.
Cw: exes :(, angst (?).
Wc: 6k.
Pls read : I’ve decided to put all parts (1 2 & 3) into one single fic because it’s not that long. For the babes that already read the first 2 parts, before the beginning of every chapter I added numbers so I’d be easier for you to scroll to your desired chapter🤍
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(1)
''So, you're going to be back soon. Right?''
Soobin asked, her tone uneasy. Even tho you told her numerous times that you won't just disappear forever and once the leaves begin to fall and change colors you'll rock the streets of Seoul again. Until then, you'll fly as far as your wings take you. It's not like you did anything wrong. You decided to leave after all.
''Wild, young & free'' as some would describe, as she would describe. Until you weren't free anymore, your thoughts kept you imprisoned in your mind.
''Yeah girlie, you know how hard I worked to get in.''
For a long time, you've wondered what you're into—having an identity crisis every time you see her dancing with such passion. You admire her wholeheartedly, but you can't help feeling jealous since there wasn't anything there for you. Your mom took you to piano classes, swimming, and even judo. She tried her best to expand your horizons and you're grateful for that but it never really worked out. Until in your early teens, you discovered your burning passion for writing, having the power to control every reply, scene, or character you desire. It's like the alphabet was made for you just to write cheeky stories that she would giggle at. Words being placed thoughtfully in your love letters to her.
''I can't wait for you to get back home. I will get reallyyy mad if we don't go out drinking before uni." The younger girl giggled over the phone. But the word ''home'' stuck to you like a bandage. You're the type of person that considers ''home'' wherever the heart is but where is your home when your heart is all over the place?
You're just lying to yourself. You know exactly where home is. Home was the queen-sized bed you once shared, with the messy sheets you were too lazy to arrange since you knew in less than 24 hours it would be the same. Home was the kitchen where you would fail yet another recipe trying to surprise her with a yummy meal after her dance class. Home was anywhere she was really. Too bad she’s so far away now. That doesn’t mean you’re homeless tho. Many tried to offer you a room in their hearts, but it just wasn’t the same. The best you could do was try. Going on dates, even being a fan of dating apps until you gave up. Her presence scarred you so deeply that you subconsciously compared every romantic interest to her, her jokes, her compliments, her touch, her way of being.
“Did she get in?” the girl who once was your biggest relationship enthusiast asked, knowing how the story unfolded.
“How am I supposed to know? Is there any reason I would be interested? I haven’t spoken to her in months.”
“Forget it, why are we even talking about her? Call me when you arrive. I’ll talk to Seoyoung and Taeyoung and maybe we can go out and have cheap drinks like we did back in the day!”
You had a happy childhood, loving parents and lots of friends and you even had a best friend since primary school! Funny how a best friend turns into someone you love and then into someone you don't know at all-isn't life funny?
During the past two months, you traveled around Europe. Finding beautiful places that make you enjoy the moment, finding beautiful people, beautiful moments. Peace. Traveling was one of the things you truly enjoyed. She once promised you’d go to Lyon and Basilicata together. You ended up going by yourself. Maybe it was better this way.
Even though you were surrounded by people there were still moments when you felt alone and rather than being sad, you tried to enjoy being by yourself and embrace the quiet. Your life was so noisy until it all just stopped. You just accepted it.
The familiar streets make the corners of your mouth turn upright. The convenience store right around the corner from your childhood apartment, the sun shining brightly on your street, and the kids that just left school flooding the now-crowded street gave you a familiar feeling. Comfort.
“You are so beautiful.” your mother said while embracing you tightly, clearly noticing the subtle changes in your looks. Your skin is now sun-kissed thanks to Sardinia beach, your hair is slightly shorter and darker since you couldn’t skip the hair salons in Paris, and your cheeks are more plump since you’re not the one to refuse a delicious dish.
“You just came back and you are leaving again in a few days. If you don’t come to visit me on Sundays I won’t send you any food ever again!” your mom said sarcastically. Truth is, you would like to spend more time with her but now you’re too caught up with the new school year starting.
You’re officially a student in creative writing & linguistics and even got accepted as #13. Your mother couldn’t help but brag to her friends about your success in joining such a prestigious university. She was shocked. She wasn’t aware you planned to join this university a long time ago, alongside her.
“How’s Bada? Are you guys still mad? Is an 11 year old friendship worth throwing away?”
Bada was well acquainted with your mother. Sometimes you thought your mom loves her more than she loves you. Bada infiltrated in your life so well that it came as a surprise to everybody that the two best friends who held hands just stopped talking. No reason behind it.
“You still haven’t told me what happened.”
“Mom please I just arrived home don’t make me wanna leave again” You came off as a bit harsh but Bada was a dead subject to you. At day you would pretend you never came across Bada Lee, at night you would remember the way her hands softly caressed your waist and how your lips perfectly fit hers. You cut her off exactly how your hair stylist cut your split ends in Paris. But hair always eventually grows back.
Your childhood bedroom became the center of your attention for the next seven days as you discovered many random things while packing for uni. Old textbooks from high school, many hair accessories, polaroids with her, some dried up hand cream. Small things that were core memories for you. Your room is being filled up with 2 types of carton boxes: to take & to throw.
Most of the items you decided to throw were just straight up trash, one of her baggy t-shirts that still had her scent on it being included. Some stuff you decided to keep was necessities, toiletries, some pictures you took together just in case you made up again, etc. She was already half out of your heart, the other half made sure your heart was beating rapidly only for her. Did she also throw out your stuff? Did she keep it??
Across the street, things were pretty much the same.
“Make sure you eat well. Did you pack everything?”
Mrs. Lee made sure to check up on her daughter. She was indeed a very caring mother.
The girl let out a loud sigh saying, “Yeah, I’ll check again before leaving. There's still plenty of time left."
“You always do that honey, wait until the last minute. Go check it now! We won’t have time to add everything to the boxes in the morning!” said the older woman worriedly.
She went back to her room. The framed picture on her desk watched her every move, constantly reminding her of what was. Something in her not being able to throw it away, it was already there for 2 years. But sometimes she did turn the photo upside down, usually when she had other women over.
It was her 17th birthday. Your smiles were brighter than the flashlight itself, your cheeks flushed after so many shots your mother would destroy you for drinking. It was the night your relationship exploded.
“Is it wrong that I really want to kiss you?” You asked quietly, embarrassed by how close she was, her body firmly pressing against yours.
“Why would it be?” she says flatly.
As you take a deep breath, you think to yourself: ''Fuck it.'' It doesn't take long for your hands to reach her face. You lean in and kiss her, feeling her heart racing against yours. She melts into your arms, immersing herself in your arms as you explore each other's lips. You pull away and look into her eyes, feeling a connection deeper than anything you've ever felt before. You both smile, savoring the moment and knowing that this is the beginning of something new. The color of your lipstick now staining her lips and her mind. She runs her fingers over your lips feeling the warmth and softness of your skin, as she says softly:
''This is how it's supposed to be."
You lean in and kiss her again, this time with more passion and intensity until you have to pull away to catch your breath. That was the first of many makeouts in Bada's bedroom.
In the first place, you were just supposed to change your shirt since somehow a glass of champagne ended up on your clothes, and Bada one way or another managed to trap you in front of the closet. Shit happens.
That night the now dried shirt stuck to your skin, the idea of anything else instead of the girl in front of you being long forgotten.
To be sincere, you always held the power to pull anything you wanted without really trying. And you pulled Bada Lee into a complete black hole that night. Unaware that your souls are tied so tightly that at one point they'll burst. And unfortunately, that happened faster than any of you anticipated.
(2)
''You're Y/N, right?" the thrilled girl asked. She had a unique appearance. The mole on her nose easily distinguished her from a crowd you thought. Flashy nails, long hair, bright clothes, and a bubbly personality were the main characteristics of your new roommate.
''Yeah! It seems like we're stuck together for a while. And you are?''
''I'm Hyerim, I'm in the dance department! I love your outfit! Where did you get that cardigan? This color looks flattering on you!" she says rapidly with a wide smile.
You hit the jackpot for the first time in a long time. On your way to the dorm, your thoughts are filled with the idea of having a demon as a roommate. You had already created a scenario of what to do just in case the person you need to spend the whole school year with together is insufferable. Thankfully, that wasn't the case. For the next 2 hours, you and Hyerim had a blast, talking about anything & everything while unpacking. You both laughed and joked around, and you felt a sense of relief when you realized you wouldn't have to deal with a roommate who wasn't pleasant. You two got along great and you were excited to spend the next year together. You just clicked. As the first week of school passed you realized Hyerim was the hyperactive little sister you never had.
''There's this party next door, one of my friends invited me.'' Your new friend proposed as her eyes sparkled with excitement. ''Do you want to go with me? My friend will bring her girlfriend and I don't want to be the third wheel." The girl pouts.
''Sure, I feel like drinking anyway.'' You said chuckling. Back in the day, you attended every party you possibly could, earning admirable alcohol tolerance. You're making people take notice of you tonight since you have the whole pack to survive a frat party.
You and Hyerim took your time carefully arranging every rhinestone around your eyes. There was a heated debate about what lipstick color would look best with her charismatic outfit.
As you stepped into the party, vibrant energy engulfed the house. The music filled every corner, blending with the laughter and already sweaty bodies of many young adults. The dorm was a mess, filled with more alcoholic drinks than you can count. The smell of vanilla body spray and cheap cigarettes reeked in the living room. You genuinely wondered how so many people could fit into such a small apartment. As you scanned the room, you noticed a familiar face. You smiled and waved, and Soobin quickly made her way to you, giving you a warm embrace.
''So it seems like our drinking plan is finally happening." she laughed while scanning you up and down. ''Who are you trying to attract tonight Miss Martini? If I was into women you would've been my first choice.'' Soobin said while smirking.
Earlier while Hyerim went to touch up her makeup, you wandered to the kitchen where you found some unknown version of martini that was already half empty. You didn't care that the now-empty drink would be the cause of your headache tomorrow. All you wanted was to have fun. The alcohol helped you to keep your thoughts foggy. You grabbed one drink after another and gulped it down in one go. You felt a rush of warmth spreading through your body and you felt yourself becoming more confident and daring. You felt like you could take on the world. You danced and sang along with Soobin. You were living in the moment, without a care in the world. You were having the time of your life.
''Y/N I'VE SEARCHED FOR YOU EVERYWHERE!'' Hyerim screamed trying to make her voice louder than the music. The girl next to her looked dumbfounded. ''This is my friend Dohee. I've told you about her before! Her oreo girlfriend will arrive later so until then it's the four of us.'' She said while showing Soobin a big smile.
Meanwhile, Hyerim and Soobin were discussing a movie you've never heard of and your eyes couldn't stop traveling to Dohee's sour expression. It was such a shame, a beautiful girl frowning. Her red-coated luscious lips are paralyzed, the leather jacket accentuating her small figure so well. Whoever is making the alluring-looking women wait is a real loser, you think. But you're here, with her, right now, in the moment. Who can blame you for wanting to steal a smile from the girl's face?
''I guess your girlfriend is not coming hm?'' You asked quietly, trying not to make the girl explode. She looks like she could burst into crying any moment now. While asking her, you carefully put your arm around her shoulders.
''Yeah. She stood me up again." Dohee sighed then went on and told you how the girl whose appearance won't be seen tonight isn't actually her girlfriend but rather a friend with benefits she's too scared to admit she has feelings for. She told you the unknown woman told her she wasn't interested in any emotional relationship and she just had to accept it. You wondered if the cause of her being so open about this subject was the cup full of plain vodka or if she just was so desperate for someone to hear her out, to look into her soulful eyes and say ''I care''. Regardless of that, you were ready to be there for her even if it was for a short time.
''She's such a fool. I hope you're aware of that. Someone like you doesn't deserve to be treated like that, tossed around like a simple washcloth. Forget about her tonight. Things will get better like they always have.'' You told her while giving a genuine smile, slowly putting your hand on top of hers.
''You really mean that?'' She says smirking while looking at your hands that are now intertwined.
One conversation led to another, and you and Dohee ended up outside sharing a cigarette she pulled from her bra. Even tho you met only 3 hours ago the silence between you two wasn't awkward, but rather comforting. The moon shone down, illuminating your faces as you stood together. Dohee couldn't help but ask you:
"You look familiar. Are you sure our paths haven't crossed before?" Her expression grows nervous. She knew exactly where she saw you before but was too drunk and confused to link things.
''If I had seen you before I would've remembered, but besides that, I doubt I would've let you go." You respond confidently with a grin.
''I've told you so much about me and I don't really know anything about you.." She told you wistfully.
You went on and told her small details about you, such as your 2 month trip and your passion for writing. Nothing too significant but enough to be considered an acquaintance instead of a stranger. She took a moment and studied your face, admiring the eyes she was jealous of every time her romantic interest forgot to hide the picture on her desk. No wonder Bada kept your picture somewhere visible. You were too beautiful to not be looked at. Maybe that's why Bada hid the picture every time she came over, to not fall in love with you instead of her. At first, she envied you for looking so happy next to her. She envied the fact that Bada's smile looked genuine next to yours. Two stars standing next to each other so closely couldn't be any good she thought, unaware of the fact that you and Bada eventually collided, merging into an even brighter star than you currently are. Unfortunately, that star didn't survive long as it was pulled into a black hole, but it died gloriously in a tidal disruption event.
She smiled and gave you a warm look. She took your hand in hers and brought you closer, her touch sending a spark of electricity through your body. It's been a while since you kissed someone but you sure wouldn't mind her touch. When the gap between you closed, your cherry lips met her strawberry ones. Weird combination of flavors but it works. One bitter and the other one sweet.
Your hands shamelessly roam her body, not knowing in the distance that someone is enjoying this as much as you. Instead of focusing on the one she spent the last night with, her eyes are only focusing on your figure, observing the way you fiercely grab the other girl's hips pulling her even closer to you. It's been a while since she last saw you, especially like this but you still managed to make her freeze on the spot. For a moment Bada recalled a time when you simply kissed her. It wasn't something meaningful at all, just how your plump lips sat on hers. At the same time, it was amusing for her that you just kissed the girl she casually used to forget about the emotions she drowned in because of you. Following her heart always leads her to you.
Dohee pulled away when her phone suddenly rang, her face suddenly becoming bitter. You went inside to give her privacy. In the living room, you find Soobin and Hyerim ''dancing'' if it even can be called that, barely being capable of standing on their own feet. They quickly pull you into their little dancing circle forcing you to dance with them. There was no choice other than to give in and take pictures to have a good laugh later on. The laughter didn't last long as Dohee came in with the tall, 2 colored hair woman holding hands.
''What the fuck..'' Soobin whispered to you while catching a glimpse of Bada.
You were drunk but not drunk enough to not notice Bada and her changed appearance. The once blue hair you encouraged her to dye was gone, now weirdly but cutely resembling an oreo and one thing about oreos is that you couldn't resist them, being ideal for your picky taste buds. The not overly sweet cookie fits your dessert criteria perfectly, just like you and Bada's hands fit each other perfectly but that was long forgotten.
''There they are! Let's play spin the bottle now!" Hyerim exclaimed while sending Dohee a wink. It was obvious she was trying to make her friend happy and maybe give her the chance to kiss the girl she spent sleepless nights crying over. However, Hyerim wouldn't let her teenagey thoughts win if she knew the way Bada used to smile at you, nevertheless, it was too late for that because you and a few other people gathered in a circle.
Hyerim went over the ''rules'' quickly, saying if you don't want to kiss the other person you have to take a shot of whatever alcohol was left. Everyone agreed, eagerly to kiss one another or just drink some more. In the first round, the bottle landed on Hyerim and Soobin. They shared a peck playfully without any hesitation. You were up next, the cap of the bottle stopped between Bada and Dohee, the in-love girl clearly not thinking it through because she was too excited to be staying so close to the woman next to her, obviously they won't kiss at all since they aren't sitting on the opposite of each other.
''Okay Y/N who are you gonna kiss??" Hyerim said full of curiosity, a little afraid of the decision you have to make.
''You don't have to kiss anyone Y/N. It's just a stupid game.'' Soobin babbled.
''Dohee.'' You said firmly while looking straight into her eyes. She couldn't handle all the eyes on her, especially yours and Bada's so her view dropped to the bottle in front of her.
''I-'' Dohee gasped trying to form a sentence unsuccessfully, not only because of her drunken state and emotions but because another voice chimed in.
"Kiss her." Bada assented. "It's not like you haven't kissed her before. Kiss her." She repeated smirking while your eyes locked. You won't lie, the multi-colored hair really fits her, just as she thought about how well the rhinestones make your eyes pop.
You grabbed Dohee's face and kissed her. Now you'd blame it on the martini but you specifically bit her lip just right in order to earn a moan from her and a sneer from Bada.
''I'm so calling Taeyoung right now..'' Soobin mumbled trying to remember her passcode in order to call your friend to tell her the shit show she just missed.
(3)
The atmosphere in the room was thick with tension and unspoken words, especially between you, Dohee, and Bada. The game of spinning the bottle continued, but your mind was elsewhere, replaying the moment your lips met Dohee's and the mixed emotions that flashed across Bada's face.
After a few more rounds and a couple of awkward kisses, the game fizzled out, the participants either too drunk or too distracted by their own thoughts. Hyerim, with her ever-bubbling energy, suggested a change in activity, but the mood had shifted. The party was winding down, people were starting to leave or find a spot to crash for the night.
You decided to step outside for a breath of fresh air, the stuffiness of the room becoming too much. As you leaned against the railing of the small balcony, you felt the cool night air brush against your skin, sobering you up a bit. Your thoughts were a jumbled mess, images of Dohee's surprised face and Bada's unreadable expression swirling in your mind.
"Mind if I join you?" a voice asked from behind. You turned to see Bada stepping out onto the balcony, closing the door behind her. The noise from the party became a dull murmur, giving you both a semblance of privacy.
"I wasn't expecting you to be here tonight." you said, trying to keep your voice steady.
Bada leaned against the railing beside you, looking out into the night. "I could say the same about you." she replied. "Seems like we both can't escape each other's orbit, no matter how hard we try. Every time I forget about us you hunt me down." She giggled, earning a chuckle from you.
The silence that followed was heavy, laden with unspoken words and memories of a past relationship that had ended in a whirlwind of emotions. You both knew that whatever had been between you was in the past, yet the remnants of those feelings still lingered.
As the moon cast a shimmering glow on the sandy beach, Bada and you found yourselves walking hand in hand along the shoreline. The sound of crashing waves provided a soothing soundtrack to the unspoken connection between you. With each step, the love between you became replaced by a renewed sense of fear. It might be time to stop swimming into the Sea, maybe it's time to dry yourself off from the sticky saltwater that's been on your skin for so long that it started cracking. As your wounds started to deepen the saltwater couldn't be any good. The stinging sensation was trying to catch your attention, to alarm you that something was wrong but to no avail. You kept swimming and swimming until you couldn't see the shore anymore. That's when you realized you had got lost. In your next life maybe you'll be a fish, that way you and the Sea wouldn't hurt each other. In the one after that maybe you'll be a dog, sleeping at the foot of your owner's bed if it means you get to be on it. You will be just like how she loves you. You will continue to be patient, just as you were in this lifetime. Maybe in another life if it couldn't be in this one.
''I didn't think we'd grow apart so soon.'' Bada's husky voice made goosebumps spread all over your body as her face was now close to your ear, back hugging you. ''You're the first person who made me feel something. I'll forever cherish the moments I had with you.'' As Bada's whispered words reached your ear, a bittersweet mixture of longing and nostalgia flooded your heart. In that moment, you couldn't help but feel a pang of regret for the lost connection, yet also a deep appreciation for the love that had once blossomed between you.
''I knew you were going to leave me but it still hurts.'' Your breathy words managed to escape your throat.
''Thank you for letting me go Y/n because I would not have walked away.'' The emotions of longing and nostalgia washed over you like a tidal wave, reminding you of the way your soul intertwined with Bada's. Each memory, each stolen glance and each word you shared replayed in your mind, leaving you yearning for the future that slowly drifts away, as easy as it comes and as easy as it goes.
Bada hugged you one last time, her arms embracing you so hard that her scent lingered on your shirt-and that was the last thing she ever offered you.
"Why did you tell Dohee to kiss me?" you finally asked, breaking the silence.
Bada turned to look at you, her eyes reflecting a mix of emotions. "Because I know you, Y/n. I know that even if you're trying to move on, a part of you is still stuck in the past. With me. I don't want it to be that way."
You swallowed hard, the truth in her words stinging. "And what about you, Bada? Are you stuck in the past too?"
She hesitated, then let out the answer you already knew. "Maybe. Maybe part of me never really left our bed. But I also know that we can't go back. Too much has happened. And that's okay."
''There was a time when I thought I'd know you forever.'' your reply seemed to suck any thought Bada even had in the first place, leaving her speechless.
Finally, Bada spoke up again. "Look, Y/n, I don't know what the future holds for us, whether we're meant to be in each other's lives or not. But I do know that I want you to be happy, even if it's not with me."
Her words were sincere, and you felt a warm sensation in your chest, a feeling that maybe it was time to truly let go and move forward.
"Thank you, Bada," you said softly. "I want the same for you."
''Is this our goodbye?'' You dared to ask.
"You know I don't believe in goodbyes."
With those final words, you both shared a smile, acknowledging the end of a long and tangled chapter and the beginning of another. As you went back inside, leaving Bada alone with her thoughts, you realized that the night had brought more than just a party; it had brought a sense of closure you never got on the night when you and the Sea decided your love was too powerful so it might cause a tsunami. You felt a sense of uncertainty about what the future held, hoping that somehow she'd be at the end of your path.
That night was the last time you ever saw Bada Lee up close. Your eyes involuntary checked her instagram profile every once in a while or if you were lucky sometimes you'd spot her around uni, your sight being glued to her; your burning stare was never enough to make her turn around tho but still, you couldn't help yourself but think maybe, just maybe, there was a chance for something new to grow from the ashes of the past. Until you dropped that idea because you realized:
one fish would never be big enough to fill the whole Sea.
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tlou hbo s1 ep5 thoughts (spoilers)
i don’t know why but i was surprised that the fedra overthrow happened so recently? in the fourth ep it seemed like it happened years ago and that kathleen had been running the militia group for a while
the parallel of henry telling sam to look at him and not at the rebel activity and joel saying the same thing to sarah in the first ep
reallyyy liked the line about ‘burning the bodies’ because of how it connects back to ep4, where one of the first shots of kansas city was of a giant pile of ash and bones. like you don’t think much of it in that moment beyond maybe like ‘oh shit something happened here’ so getting that extra layer feel very fulfilling
kathleen sitting and talking with all those prisoners caused me so much pain mostly because it reminded me of like every shitty know-it-all teacher with a superiority complex i had in middle/high school. but honestly it kind of works for the character like the fixation on doing what she wants and getting everyone else to fall in line,, idk it was just a genuinely terrifying characterization tbh and for that i liked it
i kinda wish they explained the relationship between perry and kathleen more, perry is literally ride or die for her but we have no idea why and it makes that side of the story feel a lot more emotionless than it could’ve been
i like the fact that sam is deaf in the show, mostly because it’s a new perspective on how people navigate the apocalypse. it was cool to see the different ways he communicates with people, or the ways he and henry have to adjust their actions to account for his lack of awareness. i do think it felt a little cheap in the sense that they only did it to make him rely more on henry, all of the important scenes with sam were the same as the game so it didn’t feel as if making him deaf enhanced those scenes.
absolutely LOVE this henry’s characterization. in the game he seemed way older for his age because he had more experience and was a lot more intense about things, like not letting sam play soccer and that sort of thing. but in the show he actually feels more like his age, maybe even a bit younger. he’s inexperienced, scared, immediately looks up to joel in almost a mentor-mentee way. he’s more lenient with just letting sam be a kid (and this could also be due to the fact that sam is younger here) which gives him a bit of his own child-like wonder. idk i just liked that they made him a bit lighter, a bit more earnest
the re’s all sorts of parallels in this ep i love it. henry having ellie and joel at gun point and he tells joel to look at him, not at sam, the same way marlene tells joel to point the gun at her, not at ellie. just the same drive towards protection
i don’t know why it never occurred to me that fedra could be like. worse or better depending on which qz you live in lol. like the games always characterized them as like a shit government period but never really went into nuance, so it wasn’t until the scene where joel and henry talk about it where it liked clicked to me that some could be worse than others. really makes the whole kansas city storyline feel a lot fuller now
“you ran into two clickers and you’re still alive” this line hurt so much. like he didn’t mean anything by it but he doesn’t realize that actually no they lost so much for it
ellie sticking close to sam, keeping an arm around him or giggling with him or whatever :’) they really nailed their friendship i’m so glad for it
the ish reference 🤌
i had my doubts about the kansas city / kathleen storyline after ep4 but i’m a lot happier with it now that we have more of the backstory. knowing that kathleen’s brother was the leader of the resistance and that on multiple accounts he was a genuinely good man makes all of kathleen’s and the milita group’s actions make a lot more sense. that plus the fact that the revolt happened only like a week ago and like yeah okay i get it now. still think they could’ve afforded an extra 10-15 min in the last ep just to flesh out KC more but at least we got something here
“i am a bad guy because i did a bad guy thing” love this line because it’s like the antithesis of tlou’s main themes, first the idea that there are no bad guys in this kind of world, and then also the idea that joel doesn’t care about good and bad, he cares about keeping ellie safe.
the infected scene was so fuckin sick, i was cheering the whole time!! i get why they’re a little stingy on showing them, it keeps the horror and suspense up and all, but i really do wish we could see more of them. and the bloater!!!! so cool!!!!!! when he killed perry using the same death animation from the game i got so fuckin hype lmfao
the running theme of the superheroes throughout this ep, and then the way it all ties into ellie seeing herself as the hero and thinking she’ll be able to save sam,,, it’s so good but so painful. i could write a whole post about ellie’s characterization and how all the threads connect together (her naivety, her fixation on violence, the way all these things contribute to her hero complex) but i won’t do it here. i just love that we’re getting to explore this more, i feel like the game has more emphasis on the idea that being the cure is an obligation for ellie, so having this side of it helps fill in the gaps for her motivations (and also sets up the foundation for pt2, but that is also a separate post)
also really the love the parallel of henry asking sam ‘do i look scared’ and sam shrugs as if to say ‘i mean yeah kinda’ but then at the end of the ep ellie asks sort of the same question of ‘do i NOT look scared?’ and sam says never and i just love the differences there
i’m not gonna say much on henry and sam’s death, other people have already shared my thoughts in better, more articulate posts than what i can write. while i do wish sam and henry had a happier ending i don’t really know how they could’ve changed the story without impacting that narrative beat. and while i wish that didn’t come at the expense of black people i can’t say i expected them to do anything different. just a small summary of my thoughts
overall did like this ep better than the last, tho the complaint about pacing feeling too fast is still there and sadly i’m expecting it to only get worse through the rest of the season :/
#this has been sitting in my drafts all week bc i kept wanting to go in and add more or clean it up a bit and then just never got the chance#so i figured i’d just post it now before the new ep comes out#tlou hbo#tlou hbo notes#tlou 1x05
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Wally anon: Bi guys gotta stick together 🤝 It's honestly kinda wild to me howww popular they are in ~that~ way. No judgments, just a very, "Oh...okay" reaction from me. 🙈 Yesss. You know he would be very. attentive to the script he had planned for you. 🫣 And even to this day you can unpack all kinds of new ways of Jill's plans & manipulations. She was running Woodsboro like the Navy fr (& would've gotten away with it had Gale not noticed the ~matching wounds~ line). 🫡 Aw, I actually like him as Hughie. What makes you find him misplaced? But, yup, the beard just makes me 😮💨 I unpopularly think Ethan should've remained as the ~repeatedly accused as a killer, but turns out to be innocent & die~ type ala Liv just cause it would've funny if Mindy kept being wrong. 😂 But yeahhh, 6's finale with everybody trying too hard to give CRAZY!!! really did not work for me. Ghostfaces need to differ from each other to stand out & it was all just too samey to get much of an impression for me. 😶 Just like that pool scene for sureee. 💦💦💦 Okay, keep going @ handsy/strong. 👀 (4's mask is my personal least fav) It's sooo funny how. consistently bad the mask got when the OG just. DIYed the mask with cheap spray paint & scissors. 😭 The apartment is deffff the best sequence next to Gale's (as long as you don't think of some of the...dubious plotting, like Chad & Tara fleeing instead of all of them overpowering the single. killer 💀), but yeah, the bodega felt...Idk. Like, seeing tiny ass Jenna Ortega immediately. knock Ghostface over so easily before they run inside kind of undercuts all the tension for me dhskdb.
You were, yup. ♥️ (Luckily, it's pinned on his acc, so super easy to do; probably not as. excessive as I made it sound, but it's still reallyyy hot: https://twitter.com/griffinbarrowsx/status/926924161817202688 🥴) (And imagine him pinning you up on a wall with it, with it leaking all over you, to make it easy for him to relentlessly pound up into you + use it as lube 😮💨)
(Exactlyyy. And sometimes he just wants to spit on you to see how it looks like on your skin 🫣) And you knowww that just works Wally's nerve more cause it makes him incredibly jealous, thinking that you might choose over him. 😶🌫️
I have a few other reasons to tune in off & on, but those reasons have slowly but surely waned so I feel you (cause he was for sure one of the best parts of TFATWS). Unfortunately, I never watched Daredevil even though I've seen how popular Murdock is. 🙈 But yesss Steve was my MAN before Endgame. I stuck through for sooo long just for him & they just...blew it all away in the span of one movie. 🙃 yupyupyup @ the Get Out comments. He really did. 🫣 (also did not see Kin so I am very unfamiliar with Charlie's work djdhdk) I actually enjoy Jill a lot, but it's difficult to fully. get into what she's doing for the reasons we've listed. I just love a ~shady, mysterious character~ & they reallyyy needed to capitalize on that behavior instead of making her inconsistent as hell.
And there's nothing wrong with a healthy. expression of one's feelings/anger/etc. but if it's just nonstop, it's like...why even bother engaging with things you know will piss you off?
I shockingly have not seen those videos for myself. 😮 But you knowww in this scenario, he's gonna cum everywhereeee from how much you're teasing him with him unable to do anything held down like that.🫠 uh oh @ 45 mins left. You'll have to let me know how the rest went for you cause I know what's coming. 👀 A complete whore for him fr.
So true🫡 we gotta keep the numbers strong. Yeah, I can’t see that. Sometimes the hype just isn’t there but it feels like it affects everyone else. Yesss Roman would make sure it’s very on script and no room for improvising🤭 JILL WAS SO CLOSE. wes craven was too scared to not kill her off because he knew she would be too powerful fr. Maybe I just don’t like Hughie, and Jack sells it soooo well that I extend the critique to him. But idk, it’s mostly the fact that he looks older than he is in the show and is a bit too buff to fit it to me. It’s mostly physical, because the acting is pretty strong. Yesssss Ethan should’ve never been a killer because, while 3 killers is cool, it lessens the kill count and overshadows the other killer’s motivations. He should’ve died towards the end with Chad (gay roomies plot supremacy idc.) The only person selling crazy was Sam, because she ate up that “I need to go killer mode on all of yall nowww.” Honestly, Mindy being wrong would fix the movie geek problem somewhat… but still not enough😪 Handsy and strong and ready to make me feel like if I use my teeth while blowing him… it’s not gonna end well for me. That’s part of the thrill, being so intimate yet so close to danger by gravitating to a man of his size🫣 And yeah, maybe it’s because the were using a high budget to look low quality, but ended up making a dumb abstract art piece sksjsk. EXACTLY it was one guy and a room full of five or six people I think? Just tackle him and take the risk instead of letting it be one on one😭 Chad can take Ethan and I think it was Ethan attacking them because Bailey was at the crime scene and Quinn was obviously in the apartment sooo. Yeah. Could’ve been tackled by Chad (gay lovers romance continues)
THANK YOUUU i will be watching🫡 Ugh I love when a guys dick is just… backing you against the wall because he’s that big and hard😮💨 ready to cum in or on you🫣
Casual spitting> just letting it sink in as he spits on you 🫣😮💨 Wally tries to do it too, using it in his hand to make your dick wet while they’re both thrusting into you omfg
Exactly!! No one gets a good ending in the MCU.. Scarlet Witch fans were betrayed by her sudden exit in MOM (which wasn’t even her movie!!) and neither has Bruce Banner (still mad that he’s just a joke character now + same with hawkeye. two good characters from the start of the MCU ruined for younger, and worse characters to take their place😪) Bucky still has his strengths, and has surprisingly been respected in recent years of Marvel. Steve… oh my blonde beautiful baby what did they do to you😭 It’s so criminal that he was done so dirty at the end of Endgame. Again, missed potential for Stucky!! Right there!! (So glad tony was gone by the end of Endgame, I didn’t like him much at all.) Sebastian had his whole rack out for that scene and I wanted to suck them as much as his dick sksjsj. Charlie is sooo🥴 One of my fave dilfs with a fat ass and… woof that picture of him in white boxers and you can see everything in the front in the outline. I’d suggest looking it up because it’s a sight🤭 He’s really good as Matt and is my favorite iteration of the walking religious mess and morally conflicted hero. Jill is tough to describe. She’s got a good motive and association to John and his accomplices but they really threw it out the window😭
Exactly!! Their entire culmination of the online experience sounds negative.
Yeah you’d be lucky to have him not mess up your icing patterns with some extra from his own coating whatever you’re making. (I assume it’s pastries or something in the realm of baking if you need his milk. Or maybes it just something like scrambled eggs idk.) IT WAS SO SAD BJT SHE GOT REVENGE IN THE END YAYYYYY‼️‼️ Awww you’re so sweet🥰
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i reallyyy like your writting and trust your choices , i agree that the cliffhanger could be better having into acount the situation of having missing already important characters soo if you don't mind which direction with cliffhanger would have you taken?
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Dare I say that cliffhanger felt very cliche? I’ve never felt that way about the show but it feels like they are struggling for ‘wow’ factor and took a cheap way out.
So when you're writing a cliffhanger, the thing you're trying to achieve is to create a narrative tension strong enough to hook people into coming back for the conclusion. And that tension needs to be positive enough (not pleasant and happy necessarily, but more !! than :(( ) to not make your viewers/readers/listeners go "Actually you know what, you're just toying with me goodbye."
The issue with the cliffhanger ending of anything is that it also works in concert with everything else that's come before it in the season. It shouldn't come out of the blue and it should be a continuation or a sudden shift of a storyline that's been in play in order to make it pay off.
The other cliffhangers we've seen in 9-1-1 are, for the sake of this analysis, the twist at the end of 2x10 when we find out Chimney's new sort of friend is actually Maddie's evil ex husband, the shock at the end of 3x10 when we find out the reason for all of Michael's weird behaviour is that he's got brain cancer, and oh-holy-shit-I-can't-not-tune-in-they-SHOT-Eddie-in-broad-daylight-holy-fuck at the end of 4x13.
Season 5, which is already somewhat bleak and disjointed and darker tonally, needed a slightly different cliffhanger, because Eddie theoretically leaving was just...more of the same that we've seen already this season. Maddie's gone. Chim's gone. Buck tried to leave. Michael and David are gone. Toni left. And now Eddie's leaving. It's not a twist, it's not even truly a shock at this point because that's just what people do in this season.
And it doesn't provide the dramatic tension of "OH MY GOD THEY SHOT EDDIE" because unlike with 4x13, they immediately walked it back. I cannot tell you the amount of time I spent between the end of 4x13 and the airing of 4x14 checking every single TV source for information. Surely someone had the season 5 renewal information along with a starring cast list. Surely Ryan was seen on set somewhere. SURELY THERE WAS SOMETHING. (there wasn't, in case you were wondering.)
This time, however, all 883k of Ryan's instagram followers know he's still in firefighter costume. The producers immediately put out articles with TVLine et al that said "Eddie's coming back, Ryan's signed for three more seasons" which takes any remaining possible tension out of the choice.
With the exception of for the portion of the General Audience who don't necessarily follow Ryan on Insta or read TVLine articles and don't know that, and so instead of taking a bleak, tense, season and adding a spark of hope at the end -- which is what I would have done -- they just get more...bleak. Which imo -- and ymmv, this doesn't have to be everyone's reading of the situation -- is a bad writing choice.
Now, you asked what I would've done (aside from the entirety of the Better Season Five that lives in my head) and I would've added a spark of hope. The midseason cliffhanger after a bleak half that I think would've added positive, drawing in tension, would be to tease Madney's return. In some capacity. I'm really not picky as to how. But Maddie and Chim are fan favourite characters and finding some way to tease "They'll be back but you don't know how, you'll have to tune in come March to find out!!!" would've added much more of a draw than "Tune in this March to find out just how much more broken TV's favourite found family of first responders can get!"
#the ghost ship answers questions#anon#anon(s)#911 spoilers#fandom negativity#<- will be tagging all my posts picking fights with the writers with that#should you wish to block
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AAAA YES IM SO EXCITED TO SEE MY GRANDPA I HAVENT SEEN HIM IN SOOOO LONGGG :') i have this reallyyy old box thing my and my sister made and we left it there sadly :( and he kept it the whole time!! so we're gonna get it back whoo!!!!
MMM BEACH TRIP WAS SO NICE?? LIKE NOBODY WAS THERE (except this shoogar dadee and his shoogar baby who were actually so nice!!) ITS IN INDONESIA (lol because im indonesian uiwja) its a small island thats not too popular because we didnt want to go to a crowded place you know :| BUT ITS UHHH PULAU ROYAL? OR KELAPA IDK at first when i heard it i was like ooo this is gonna be a cheap place because ???? royal????
AND THE DUDE WHO MADE THE FOOD THERE WAS SO NICE???? AND HE WAS LIKE 'o im sorry if my attitude was bad :(' BUT HE WAS SO NICE THE WHOLE TIME I WANTED TO CRY???? OH AND THE GOGGLES REEKED OF CIGS?? BUT LIKE I GOT SO ATTACHED TO THEM THAT I LIKED THE SMELL??? NO NO I SWEAR I JUST LOVE THE GOGGLES AAA
ufwrojwioa enough before i start telling my whole trip LOL
PLSS YOURE CUTE? NICE?? TALENTED??? AND YOU'RE SMART TOO????? HMM SURE MAAM ID DOUBT IT IF ANYONE SAID THEY WEREN'T EVEN INTERESTED IN YOU UHFWARUOD
-ccsa anonnn!!!!!!!
wait also miss lana would you believe if i said i was literally that anon who asked about the link in the first place but my goldfish mind just completely forgot to check if you answered?
well you should because its me 💀💀
- ccsa with a goldfish brain <33
FJDSJK IM GLAD YOU CAN FINALLY GET YOUR BOX!! i'm not sure if you've gone yet bc this response is kind of late, but when do you go???
omg stop it hurts to see someone live the sugar baby life you want so bad 😔 AHHHH THAT SOUNDS SO RELAXING??? when i went, it was super crowded rip. imagine having royal in your name 🤩 superior beaches only
OK BUT WAS THE GUY CUTE !?!?! ewww omg why did they smell like cigarettes 🤢🤢🤢
NO PLS TELL ME MORE!! IT SOUNDS SO FUN!!
STOPPPP PLS YOU ARE SO SWEET!!! IM GLAD I WAS ABLE TO HELP YOU SDJAJDKFA!! dw i too have a goldfish brain <333
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Havana
“It’s frozen in time,” they said. “Unlike anything you’ve ever seen.” “The taxi drivers make more money than doctors.” “Bring tampons because they’re impossible to find.” “The safest country in LatAm.”“Keep some hot sauce in your bag.” “Sometimes they run out of eggs.”
I’d been dying to go to Havana ever commercial flights to the city became available. I had a few friends who’d gone and loadsss who were “definitely” going to go soon. The ones who’d been had some interesting “tips.” I needed to see for myself and a few weeks ago I did.
I spent three and a half days in Havana with a friend, staying at an AirBnB in Habana Vieja. It’s definitely not your typical LatAm vacay but I loved every minute.
What to know before you go…
1. Cuba is a communist country. You know this but maybe it doesn’t really mean anything to you. In a capitalist society, you make as much money as people are willing to pay you for the goods or services you provide, and you spend as much of it as you want on (pretty much) whatever you want. In a communist society what you make and what you can spend it on is controlled by the government. While there has been growth in (licensed) private enterprise in recent years, and a thriving black market exists, it all runs in parallel to the historical communist structure put in place by Fidel Castro in the early 1960s. This means…
2. Yes, doctors (employed by the government) really do make less than taxi drivers – 30-40 CUC a month vs. 20-30 CUC for one 30 minute taxi ride from the airport to Habana Vieja (1 CUC = $1), and yes, there are more doctors in Cuba than in all of Africa and healthcare is free for all (just don’t lose that Visa). Speaking of which…
3. You are there for “Educational” / “People to people” purposes. Got it? Buy your visa at the airport when you check in for your flight. Ours was $75 which felt expensive given what I’d heard so maybe prices are going up? Also I’ve heard that as recently as a few months ago a lot of flights to Cuba were going half empty but ours definitely was full so get on it.
4. Getting back to taxi drivers - taxis are expensive and took up the bulk of our spending. You feel kind of ripped off but then your taxi driver tells you he’s actually a doctor but that doesn’t pay him enough to get by so he does this on the side and you’re kind of like “fair enough” and round up anyway…
5. Yes don’t expect to find your Nars creamy concealer in Biscuit should you run out, but bring your essentials and you’ll be fine. Carry hand sanitizer / wipes and some toilet paper (though, maybe I was just lucky, but every public restroom I used had some), but also appreciate the fact that you can walk down the streets without ad after ad bombarding you. There is literally no public advertising! With every major city these days overflowing with consumerism, not seeing a Starbucks or McDonalds on every other street corner (or, you know, at all) was really refreshing.
6. Is it the best culinary experience you’ll ever have? No. But you do not need to carry hot sauce in your bag! (You can ask for it :) - though fyi it might be imported from Thailand and carry quite a punch). There are some really “nice” restaurants where a meal can cost you close to 100 CUC, but I will say that our most expensive meal also happened to be our worst, so don’t make a huge fuss about hitting up each of the top ten restaurants on TripAdvisor. If you do want to do the top ten thing however, I would highly recommend making *advanced reservations.“ We were turned away from two restaurants on our first night (a Wednesday!) because they were fully booked. If you don’t make reservations - ask for recommendations! We did this throughout our trip when we didn’t know where to go and it never failed us.
7. …And the reason we asked for so many recommendations is because we never had any internet to look places up and data is $$$$. It’s honestly a blessing. You can go through the process of getting a wifi card or pay your carrier an absurd amount of money per MB if you reallyyy need to (3G does work), but it’s not worth it. Use it as an excuse to unplug and make friends!
8. Mojitos, daiquiries, Cuba libres, rum on the rocks…if you’re a drinker you can do it well and cheap here. And if you’re a cigar smoker, well hellooo! Don’t buy cigars from a shop though. Go to Plaza de Catedral and wait for a seemingly (but not actually) sketchy guy named XXX to offer you some and then take you to his house and sell them to you for less than half the price. I know it sounds sketch but you gotta support these little capitalist ventures where you can!
9. Cuba is SAFE! Did not feel unsafe for a single moment. Not even when we were cruising down the highway in the back of a 50 year old car filled with ramshackle replacement parts thanks to that little embargo thing that’s been in place for a few decades. It won’t last forever - appreciate the 1950s Cadillacs and Oldsmobiles that give Cuba the "frozen in time” feel everyone talks about. If nothing else it makes you realize how long you can keep something working with a lot of upkeep and a little innovation.
Things to do…
Playa de Santa Maria
Fuer house
Habana Vieja
Todos las plazas - Catedral, Arc
Mercado San Jose
Daiquiri place
Mojito place
Places to eat…
swedish place
place we went the last day..
obama place
rooftop place
place we had eggs
Places to go out…
Fabrica de Arte
French place
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