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The IW premier is ur fav look?

Hmmmmm

No, not my all-time fave look

That would absolutely be Ari

I am very very into the beefy looks of his, and he's so hairy and the tan looks great on him too (even if it is spray-on, idgaf). Like the hairy chest, the fuller waist/stomach, more of a dilf vibe instead of like totally toned. He looks older, hotter. Proper daddy fr.

But of his premiere looks, I'd say IW premiere is def up there

Look at the hair!! and those cheeks UGH. The color is also perfect for his palate, he looks healthy and a lil thicker in a good way. I'm into it.

I also really liked his looks for Lightyear and TGM.

For Lightyear, he again looked a lil beefier. The gray in the beard is *chefs kiss*. He also had a very confident air about him during press for that one, and I know there's some debate about his outfit choice, but I adore this shirt (my Chris sim even has it.) For TGM I liked the black/white. I also liked the tank top and the tattoos peeking out (bless him) and the focus on his necklace. I feel like that look is very understated so we get to "appreciate" his natural good looks a little more. Nothing about the outfit is distracting.

But ngl, the main reason I like it is bc of this picture:

Bulge supremacy. I don't even care if it's bc of saggy balls or going commando (I like balls so I'm in LMAO) it's hot. And he looks confident and thats HOT.

Maybe that's also why the SMA shoot threw me off. He only ever looked kinda confident in the green shirt pics. The rest he looked off to me.

quick favorites go!!

animal, scent, color, season, food, video game, book, place, weather, temperature, texture, alcoholic drink, soda, board game, tv show, music artist

this or that

lace/silk, cloudy/sunny, tea/coffee, korean food/thai food, cat/dog, pop music/rock music, leather jacket/denim jacket, rings/necklaces, pastel/neon, italian food/mexican food, candy/ice cream, loud/quiet, beach/mountain,

FAVORITES

animal: dragon (cat)

scent: Vanilla

color: Blue/purple (depends on the day)

season: Hmmmmm...tough call but I'm gonna say winter

food: Chili!

video game: current top spot is held by Metroid Dread.

book: as mentioned the other day...I think it has to be The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe, TBQH

place: Lake [REDACTED] in Massachusetts.

weather: hehe thunderstorms...

temperature: a solid 55 degrees Farenheit

texture: honestly I think machined ultem has a really really pleasant texture to it, like seaglass, it's really nice, I have a kbone and a plank and a begleri set that all includes the stuff because it's so nice to fiddle with

alcoholic drink: Buffalo Trace bourbon. Maker's Mark and Eagle Rare are also nice (as is that one local lemon beer that I forget the name of, and the Montauk Brewery stuff), but Buffalo Trace has held that position for about six years now

soda: Cokey-Cola. Coke. The Refreshing Taste Of An Ice-Cold Cocal-Cola™.

board game: prolly Sheriff of Nottingham, if not Skull, but also Ticket to Ride, Hanamikoji, and Radlands get shout-outs as well for being that damn good.

tv show: Currently still held by The Expanse, although I did very much enjoy Reacher and Dungeon Meshi is currently not counted until it's over but it might just well take the spot from The Expanse.

music artist: Oooooh, this is tricky but given her latest EP release I'm gonna go with bad snacks, she's just...such a good producer, every release from her is just...*chef's kiss*

EITHER/OR

lace/silk: silk, silk is real nice, v smooth, nice on the hands, I have a few begleri sets strung up with it for this exact purpose (one of my favorites is machine ultem outer shells on silk cording with steel and titanium inserts for weight and polish, it's a set that cost me like $60 to put together but it's probably my second-favorite set I own)

cloudy/sunny: cloudy, but sunny *does* give me excuses to wear my sunglasses, so I can't complain about either, really

tea/coffee: Tea. Don't like coffee all that much outside of a few specific edge cases.

korean food/thai food: Korean.

cat/dog: Yes. But also cats.

pop music/rock music: Electronic music.

leather jacket/denim jacket: Leather (one day I will get myself one)

rings/necklaces: Yes. Add some bracelets to the set while you're at it.

pastel/neon: Yes.

italian food/mexican food: I think as a New Yorker I have to say Italian by law. But both are good.

candy/ice cream: Sweet cream ice cream pls

loud/quiet: Headphones, so I can control which one.

beach/mountain: mountain, easily, beaches have sand and Anakin Skywalker was right.

My personal aesthetic... hmmmmm...

Sharp winged eyeliner // painted nails // oversized shirts // strong vocal tracks // sugarless coffee (I know there’s a name for this but I’m blanking rn omg) // blues, dark reds, and shades of black // heeled boots // rings and necklaces

(Is this how aesthetics work?? Halp??) -🍙

a/n: I THINK THERE IS A NAME FOR IT BUT ITS ALSO AT THE TIP OF MY TONGUE HELP 

duo: shoko ieiri and getou 

omg pls you and ieiri would be THE power duo: both badass, both talented, both *chefs kiss* iconic

I feel like your aesthetics would match so well, ieiri just pulls off everything so flawlessly without even trying, and that’s exactly the vibe i’m getting from you ,, plus with the addition of getou there to smooth things over but still capable of being snarky chaotic <3 he just cares so much and is always looking out for the two of you  // spending time with them just feels so natural, and safe, and warm. 

i can see you three hanging out on the rooftops a lot, the wind nipping at noses along with the faint scent of smoke as you all laugh above the city, making fun of silhouettes in the distance, painting nails fun colors, or sharing amusing stories in the dark. bonus points if ieiri manages to sneak up charcuterie, in addition to pulling out three fancy wine glasses from underneath her leather jacket. 

ALSO I JUST KNOW ALL THREE OF YOU WOULD DRINK BLACK COFFEE WITH SERIOUS FACES JUST TO PISS OFF GOJOU WHO LIKES SUGARED COFFEE WITH MILK 

The Best Intentions - Part 13

He smiled behind her finger. “But, I’m always crass,” he said. “Something you will come to learn in short order, darling.” He caressed her arm, ghosting his fingers along the fine hairs he found there, and wrapped his hand around the back of hers. She moved, but he held her hand in place, her finger still extended atop his lips.

“Crass and crude and vile,” he murmured. She opened her mouth to speak but he silenced her, transforming her words into a deep, moaning growl as he took her finger in between his teeth. He closed his mouth around her, pressing his tongue, wet and warm to the pad of her finger, drawing in his cheeks to suck hard. “And you are delicious.’

There was a quiet rap at the door, and Ansgar, her finger still poised on his lips, said, “Come in.”

Gustav himself brought the dessert – thick coffee accompanied by two towering slices of white almond cake served on a wooden platter, and decorated with sugar ivy leaves, small flowers, and a bright red rhubarb sauce. The man’s eyes went slightly wide at the sight before him, of Ansgar’s wry, hungry smile, of Jolene’s flushed breast and cheeks. The head chef cracked a grin of his own, shared a knowing glance with Ansgar, bowed gracefully, and backed out of the room, closing it behind him with a soft click.

Jolene turned in her seat to face the table, and lifted her fork to tuck in to her dessert. Ansgar, a hand on her arm, stopped her. “No,” he said. “Don’t eat that yet.”

She frowned. “Why?”

“Because I get my dessert first. Face me.” He turned her chair so that they sat knee to knee behind the table. “Stand up,” he commanded, tugging at her hands. “Now.”

Her breaths came sharp and hard at his commands, but she obeyed.

“I have a query of you, Jolene,” Ansgar said, his voice heady and rough. He stayed seated, but scooted himself closer to her, taking her hands in his. “And I want an answer, maybe not straight away, but you will give me an answer.”

“Oh– okay,” she said.

“And don’t worry, it’s not that question. I’ve only just met you.”

“Oh. Good,” she breathed. “You had me worried for a minute there.”

“Trust me. Yes?” He peered up at her, his eyes intent and narrowed as he curled his hands around her thighs, just above her knees. “Trust me,” he repeated as he pushed up and inside the fabric of her skirt, as he hooked his fingers into the silk of her knickers. “Trust me.”

“Y-yes.”

His gaze still burning upon the hearth of hers, he pulled, dragging his fingers back down their previous path, taking the prized garment with them. He bent, then, carefully lifting her feet one at a time to remove it, and to surreptitiously tuck it away in his jacket pocket.

“Are you ready for the question, now?” He returned his attention back to her, insinuated his hands beneath her skirt once again and squeezed, his palms cupped hard into each muscled side of her bared buttocks.

She squirmed under his touch, braced her hands on his shoulders and threw her head back with a low, deep moan. “Yes.”

He shook her gently. “Look at me.”

She did.

He spoke slowly, dangerously, carefully, his words clear and intent, his meaning echoed by the dance of his fingers between her legs, upon her now bared flesh. “How… do you want me to fuck you, Joline?” he said. “How, when you were making love to your vibrator, ah ah ah, no! Don’t you move….”

“No, you bastard, I – “ She’d tensed up, piqued at the perceived ridicule about her prior admission, about how she’d wanted him so badly that she’d spent hours alone, in her bed, bringing herself to the peak of pleasure by way of a plastic sex toy.

“Shhh, now. I’m not scoffing at you, Joline,” Ansgar soothed her. “I truly want to know.”

She relaxed, and he began his explorations of her most intimate place anew. “I will ask again,” he said. “How, when you were in your bed, with your vibrator, making yourself come, did you imagine me? What was I doing to you? What images did your beautiful mind conjure up to bring you to the peak of pleasure? Did I fuck you slowly, gently? Or was I rough – my hands about your throat, or against the wall?”

She moaned, her eyes clamped shut and her mouth dropped wide open. “Hmmmmm. All of it.”

“Tell me. Be specific.”

“Mmmmm, Ssssgar,” she whined.

“Tell me, Joline. What can I do to bring your fantasies into reality?”

“Just,” she hissed. “Just… touch me. Just touch me.”

“Touch you… like this?” He sat her back down and spread her legs wide, such that they were hanging off the sides of the chair. He drew his long, thin middle finger up between her southern lips, shifting them apart – up up up up to find the pearl at the top, where he pressed gently, circling the tip of his finger over her. “Should I touch you here?”

“Hmmmm hmmm,” she writhed, her hands clamped around the chair edges, her hips thrust forward, pushing herself further into his ministrations. “Yes. Yes, you were… were touching me there. T-touch me there.”

“Or better yet,” Ansgar’s voice cracked with desire. He couldn’t help it. The feel of her, slick and warm and inviting, the scent of her want of him…. oh! As much as he wanted to play the suave, debonair seducer, his want of her threatened to overpower his intellect, cloud his mind. “Or better yet,” he repeated, more smoothly, “in your dreams, was I kissing you here?” He spread his fingers, widening her flesh as he lowered himself to his knees before her. “Were my lips on you, just here? My tongue inside you? My teeth grazing over the centre of your pleasure? Did I… bite?”

“Yessssss,” she hissed. “Bite.”

“Hard?” He snapped his teeth together.

“Yes!”

“Do you want me there now, Joline?” He moved closer to her, and wrapped his arms around her backside. He tipped her forward and situated himself between her legs. “Do you?” He huffed, his nose flared, his breath coming hard and fast in his chest. He licked his lips and sneered, transformed from man to beast in a bespoke suit. “I want this. I want my dessert, and I want it now.”

He didn’t wait. He dug his fingers into her flesh and lifted, bringing her to his mouth. He growled at the first taste of her, his moan deep and long and keening. He ravished her, his tongue working, pressing, curling, pumping inside her, his lips closing tightly around her southern lips. And, as promised, he bit, nipping gently and not so gently at her apex, soothing the flesh with flicks of his tongue, with short bursts of air. He growled as he feasted upon her, lifting himself higher on his knees, bringing her roughly with him so that her shoulders rest upon the chair, her torso suspended high above.

Her arms flailed for a moment before finding Ansgar’s elbows. She clutched to him for dear life as she cried out, as she moaned and writhed and kicked, her Louboutin heels digging roughly into the silk of his Takahashi suit, threatening to tear and rip.

And… she screamed.

“SSSSSSSGGGGGGGGAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!”

All the tension soared from her body in a long exhale. The quake began somewhere behind her bellybutton and rippled outwards, increasing with every pulse. The seismic charges beat through her flesh and then echoed through her bones. Pleasure, absolute, complete and all-consuming rapture ripped through her, fraying her nerves until she felt like a mass of sensation. Nothing more.

Even as Ansgar lowered her back into the seat of the chair, his smug grin glazed with her release, Joline was still in the throes of blissful tremors. Her body thrummed, specks of light and fire pinged along her pores. He was better than her aroused brain conjured on the artificial high of her plastic toy. Silicon couldn’t read her moans and strains like he did to create such a tumultuous response within her.

Ansgar’s fingertips lingered over her sex as the pulsing within her slowed to a stop. His thumb brushed over a decorated piece of flesh along her hip, above her sex, near the crease of her leg. A single pink magnolia graced her skin. He bent into her once more and pressed a kiss to the center of it. While there, he gnashed his teeth into her thigh claiming his territory with a mark.

Above him, the panting woman cried out again wordlessly in pleasure pain, the sting a craving, the heat a base desire, the want of it surprising.

The lion roared back, unfolding himself into his throne. “Another hidden treasure.” His eyes zeroed in on her left hip and the pink petals that colored her skin.

A rare attack of modesty and vulnerability seized her, Joline suddenly adjusted her skirt and shut her legs. She shrugged, her eyes following the grated steel trellis behind his head. “Reminds me of my more feminine side… that I’m a woman.” The shadow of something deeper crossed her face, a hint of something she didn’t want to bring into their night.

“Joline,” he broke into her inner musing, “Make no mistake. You are all woman.” Her eyes finally met his again from the wall behind him, as he shook his head, “It’s a beautiful tattoo but nothing more than a weed compared to the woman who wears it.”

As stealthy and as graceful as a feline, Joline was back in his lap, the demure quiet reflection gone as quickly as it had come. She hiked up her skirt, the material pooled around her hips. Painting her fingers down the length of his face to land on his broad shoulders, she murmured, “You’re surprising.” She nibbled at his bottom lip, tasting a tease of herself there. “I shouldn’t be shocked that you made me come in a restaurant.” She tilted her head to swipe her tongue over his lips, moaning in the process. “I shouldn’t be shocked that you’re not the selfish prick when it comes to sex.” She rolled her hips over him as her teeth grazed the bristles of the goatee on his chin. “But somehow I am.”

“Why is that, do you think?” He smirked for he knew the answer, but he fancied her loose tongue and means of seduction.

“You’re sexier than any man I’ve ever been wi - ever met. If you’re that talented with your tongue…” She hooked her elbow around the back of his neck and yanked him into her hungry mouth. She fed him her tongue and desirous moan, her hips canting slightly below. The furious kiss softened into a sensual dance, his hands scooping her ever closer. “I m-may split in half when you give me your cock and I’ll only beg you to do it again.”

His hands snaked up her body to clutch her head roughly, one hand fisting her hair. “I’m generous for purely selfish reasons. To keep you coming back to my tongue, myfingers, my cock and my bed.”

She whimpered when he bit her neck, not because he hurt, but because she wanted to be devoured by him. One of her hands raked down the expensive threads to reach for the stiff flesh beneath her.

Ansgar shut his eyes, growling lowly at the press of her hand against him. When she caressed the length of him, he swallowed hard, fighting the beastly animal in him to tear into her flesh and seek the end to his torture, to finally sate their craving for each other. A quick fuck on the floor wouldn’t do much to quench his thirst for her. He wanted… no, needed to indulge in her for hours. The anticipation made it all the sweeter when he finally had her.

She nuzzled against his thick neck at the line of his collar, “What details you need,” her hand pumped him, her fist tighter, “I’d rather give you all of them than talk about it. Take me to yours and fuck me into your mattress.

“Fucking Christ…” he exhaled, the suave seducer losing some of the playing field in her offensive.

“Time for my dessert,” she announced with a slight tremor in her voice. She played rough, but she wasn’t immune to her own talk or his. Although she’d had one orgasm, she craved the next and the next and the next after that. She rotated a bit to the table, fetching a sugar ivy leaf from the neglected treat upon the table and smearing it into the red sauce. She brought it towards him. Instead of placing it to his lips, she swiped a slash of rhubarb along his neck.

She was quick to use her tongue and lips to wipe it away again. After her teeth grazed the path, she pressed against his ear, “We could fuck right here.”

“A quick tumble on the floor, Joline? Is that how you want it? Or right here in the chair?”

Comically, Joline reached to the table and grabbed a fingertip full of almond cake to shove into his mouth. “No attitude, Mister patient seducer. Only meant to take the edge off.” She pressed her fingers against his lips, his jaw working to swallow the unexpected piece of dessert. “You brought me to a three hour dinner, burgled my panties, went down on me, made me come, and you could’ve had me in the car.” Her eyes sparkled in her mirth as her mouth grew into a pleasing smile. “You’ve got me at your mercy, maddening bastard.”

Mako Mori for the ask me a character thingy 😊

favorite thing about them: i love. Her dkbjsklgjsjg like... i love her determination. she is such a strong character and is unlike how so many lead women are played to be: needing to be """"rescued"""" by a lead man. in her and raleigh's case, that's not true. they both have struggles and they work through that together. and the only reason mako was actually able to work through her trauma at all is because SHE was able to stand there and insist she had a place with the other pilots. because she fucking DID, she worked her ASS off to get to be one of the best pilots on fleet and she GOT THERE. not because raleigh insisted she deserved it, not because pentecost wanted to teach her a lesson about what a bad idea it was, but because pentecost saw how strong and determined and skilled she was and made the decision to say yes because of HER own merits. her own determination to get what she knew she deserved. and i FUCKING love that for her.

least favorite thing about them: it's really cheap to say "uprising" but like. uprising. the fact that she's dead. and the fact that they uhhhhhh practically nothing for her while she was alive. we get one (1) truly positive and sweet interaction between her and her brother to let us know they aren't ACTUALLY constantly avoiding or upset with each other for Feelsies and then the killed her. everything they did was for a plot point development and not. for her as a character to simply be and truly develop within the world. she felt empty compared to 2013.

favorite line: "it's not obedience, mr. becket. it's respect." or probably "it's not their problem, it's yours! your gambit! you could have taken all of them two moves earlier." UGH, YES MAKO, MARRY ME-

brOTP: hmmmmm. newt and/or hermann. i love the headcanon let me live idea that they were like uncles to her and that they took care of her sometimes in the lab while pentecost was busy or just when she wanted to visit the k-sci husbands to see what she could find or look for something to read/discover/learn

OTP: maleigh 🥺 they are just so Good, they work So Well and gdt's development of their relationship was *chef's kiss* i just want them to be happy and live on the japanese countryside with a kid and a pup and a cat

nOTP: idk mako and chuck i guess djgksjhfkslgj like. clearly???

random headcanon: i love the idea that she got a little fed up with pentecost being overprotective of her and they get into a little spat so she immediately rushes off to the k-sci lab and asks newt to help her dye some of her hair because she wants to give a big 'fuck you' to pentecost's overly professional façade and it. backfires and pentecost is just like "aw, you look good, ms. mori :)" and mako's like "??????? hm....... thank you..??" and that's how she ended up with the blue streaks. ik that there's likely some big metaphor because del toro is SUPER big on using colors that way but Just Let Me Live Okay 😭

unpopular opinion: uhhhhhh??????? idk??????? do i have one???????? man, i gotta get some controversy up in this bitch or something, i'm Weak and Normal. unpopular opinion... i don't know :( maybe my uprising take is unpopular idk

song i associate with them: circles by eden a bit tho that works pretty good in pacrim dread in general

favorite picture of them: it's not a picture but this head nod??? right here??? has me on the fucking FLOOR i FLAIL every GOD DAMN TIME i rewatch the movie and she does this

Rocketman Watch #4 Thoughts

i have so many MORE thoughts can you believe it wow here we go

(i wrote these as i watched it so they’re in order im p sure)

man, his intro monologue during group therapy is just as gripping as it was when I first watched it. And the transition to the bitch is back is so fuckin good. My palms are sweating.

There’s some commentary about forgiving and loving your inner/past child, but I don’t have the words for it at this moment. In the beginning he’s staring down, confused and scowling at his child self, but at the end, he embraces him in a way his father and loved ones never did.

Was he in therapy/rehab WHILE touring and doing music? Stomping into the room in his regalia would have me believe so. I know group therapy was a medium for storytelling. Was it just signaling the very beginning of his story, because we go through different stages through his actions and clothing changes?

Lmao I imagine it must take some pretty cool parents to allow their, like, six or seven year old child to be in this movie. He said bitch so many times.

Took me a hot second to realize the orchestra he’s conducting is playing Rocket Man. The violins are so pretty. Imagine being picked to be in the orchestra on set and getting smile up at the tiny little kid who played Elton. My heart would absolutely swell seeing a little kid being so fantastic at this really intense job.

Kit Connor did amazing in his role. He’s fifteen and he’s already done so much! Imagine growing up knowing you played Elton John as a kid. Getting to work alongside him and his husband and the dozens of incredible actors. Wowie. I’d never shut up about it.

I LOVE how 12 year old Elton is playing the piano SO HARD and is trying to rock out as hard as he can while playing classical music. The boy wanna ROCK dammit.

HE GLANCED UP THE TINIEST BIT WHEN THE MAN ASKED IF ANYONE HAD A FAG (slang for cigarette)

SATURDAY NIGHTS ALRIGHT GIVES ME CONSTANT CHILLS FROM THE START TO FINISH

WOOOW SEVENTEEN YEAR OLD ELTON IS CUTE AS HEEELLLL. The hair, glasses, and front tooth gap fit Taron so well. Goddamn I hope I look like 17 year old Elton some day.

The choreography for this number is absolutely breathtaking. You have to get that many people all in sync! We followed Elton running through the crowd and AAHHH it was a lot! The athleticism! And they did it in the rain! Wow I’m blow away.

Elton is JAMMIN in the back of the stage. It’s really sweet to see his smile and enthusiasm and his brain thinking and working.

That guy in the back peed a LOT lmao

I was wondering where thank you for all of your loving came in.

Charlie Rowe plays Ray Williams, and he also plays LEO ROTH from Red Band Society!!! The first time I watched the movie, I KNEW him from somewhere, but I couldn’t place it and it was driving me nuts. Man. RBS was a big crutch during the worst lows of my ED. Had no idea he was English.

Love to see how shy Elton was as a teenager. It’s a hot ass mood. Also, those silk scarves? Ascots? idk but they’re a LOOK.

“One frothy coffee, no froth.”

The acquaintances-to-best-friends montage set to Border Song *chefs kiss*

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Lmao Elton is NOT phased at all when he gets accused of being gay. He’s just like. “Nah. I’m like. Not.” Not overly defensive and surprised, like I’m sure other people would be lmaooo

STUMBLING HOME DRUNK WITH YOUR BEST FRIEND IS A MILESTONE IN TEENAGEHOOD!!!!!!!

“You are a ssSSHHIIIITT HOT piano player—”

So delicate of Bernie the way he politely denied a kiss from him. It wasn’t weird or tense at all. Just a gentle “love you, but not that way. It’s okay” Some people may not be able to handle it that well even today.

Taron’s got nice thighs. That robe & underwear getup is a nice look.

Love love LOVE hearing him experiment with Your Song on the piano to find a melody that worked.

Honestly what the shit do these songs even mean. Bernie sometimes these words don’t make any sense. Don’t worry, they still slap. “See I’ve forgotten if they’re green or they’re blue” like what

AMOREENA IS A PERFECT SONG SEND TWEET

Doug flirting with Bernie makes me snort every time. “Oh, really? That’s.. cool.”

THE TROUBADOUR OUTFIT IS GOOD AS SHIT!!!!!!!!

“NO, BERNIE. YOU ARE UNDERREACTING.”

Taron was right. The overalls do make his ass look massive.

A week ago before this movie I was sick and fuckin TIRED of crocodile rock but now I can’t get enough of it. The movie transformed a lot of old songs I was sick of for me.

Imagine being a kind of shy, nervous kid, terrified to go on stage, but two and a half minutes later the entire venue is LOSING IT because they love the jam YOU WROTE. how cool for Elton.

I want a best friend platonic cheek kiss :(

Hmmmmm I’m wondering if they used the studio recordings that went on the album for the movie or have different movie-specific recordings. Tiny Dancer sounds a teeny bit different in the movie version.

Goddamn I sure hope Taron got to keep that jacket.

“So you liked the song, then?” “Not as much as the singer” *Elton glances away in gay panic*

LMFAO John said some weird colorful words to Elton that barely made sense and he was like OH FUCK GOTTA KISS HIM GOTTA KISS HIM

I’ve talked so much about the sex scene I don’t need to go on about it here. Go search the rocketman tag on my blog for my extensive gay thoughts about it.

Now I know glasses come OFF during sex

oh oh oh I was wondering where Hercules fell in the movie. I love how the songs he’s writing or getting notoriety for is played over the transition scenes.

Elton’s hand on his hip, knowing smirk as John enters the studio. “Hello.”

Bernie is like “HELLO are we RECORDING or are y’all gonna FUCK in the CLOSET?”

*vibrating* Honky Cat Honky Cat Honky Cat Honky Cat

Damn, the flowy white button down with the red pants really is a LOOK

The gestures, staring up at each other, leaning into each other, hands on each other’s chests, damn it makes me feel some typa way. Maybe their love WAS good and fun and exciting while they rode the high of everything before it all went so so bad.

Elton searching John’s gaze while he’s talking and looking like he’s not really paying attention, just looking for a kiss on the couch.. GOD I remember the honeymoon phase of my relationships. So much fun.

His dad going “N-Not really my thing.” That was a metaphor for his SEXUALITY TOO, huh.

Damn. He went to his dad’s to come out to him and he never even got to get to that part. He was just like “....nice shoes....” and even after all this time, didn’t show any interest in his music. If he never was into what he did, how could he even talk about being gay? I’m sure during that scene there were a lot of metaphors to sexuality but I didn’t bother to think much about them.

The eyebrow quirk after his dad says “ah—no. Could you make it out to Arthur?” DAMN Elton was like .. “really. This is what’s happening? Okay. Awesome.”

“What do you have to do to get a fucking drink around here, eh?” *cuts to Elton drinking straight from a bottle*

“Elton—” “Elton!”

John saying “don’t you ever put your hands on me” when he was the one who yanked him from the phone booth AND directly after punching him... woof man. What a shitty dude.

Damn, just noticed John talking very quietly and closely to another man right before he goes on and plays Pinball Wizard. Was this the first sign of him having fun with other men when Elton was indisposed?

Pinball Wizard is absolutely intense and loud and fun, but it DOES carry the tone of “god im SO miserable” under it all. You knew Elton wasn’t having fun.

“It is next week.” Jeezus.

LMAO I just caught the “mom, you’re ON my GOWN” when he reluctantly complies to give the Anderson’s a tour.

Damn, flowy, loose dress shirts with the first few buttons undone is a LOOOOK.

How did they do the overdose scene, you think? Surely the pills Taron took had to be like. Empty. Or placebo affect drugs? Idk. He did take a big drink directly after stuffing his mouth with them. I don’t think he spit them out.

God, there is SOMETHING symbolic about how he meets his child self at the bottom of the pool. Rock bottom? Apologizing? Wishing he could be better? Telling him he’ll never be better?

OH I watched a behind the scenes cut about the pool scene, and none of it was CGI. Taron was weighted under his robe and a SCUBA diver was on standby to provide oxygen. The singing and bubbles coming out of his mouth and stuff underwater was all real.

Dying to know about the choreography around the second chorus, about the undressing and twirling and dressing and injection and handing off of the bat and stuff. That sequence was incredible.

Bennie and the Jets. Damn. It fucks. I listened to it almost the entire time on my run today. (Five miles; I felt like garbage the entire time but it was good anyway.) The scene is wild. He’s in the middle of a drug induced haze orgy. He SHOULD be having the time of his life but he’s so goddamn miserable. (Also, the juxtaposition between Chris Fleming’s Bennie and the Jets is so funny.)

Part of the problem was that John never understood Elton. But, Elton broke it off with John, not the other way around like he said it was. He wasn’t the victim in that regard. John did treat him like shit though.

Victim of Love plays right after that lmao

Renate and he aren’t even close when they do the duet to don’t let the sun go down on me. They’re separated in different rooms, mirroring literally how closed off their relationship was.

The shot with them waking up in different rooms.. damn

His shirt is so LOUD I’m going crazy

Watching Taron down that orange juice made me a little nauseous I gotta say

“Not really I’m gAy”

It’s CRAZY to watch Elton and his mom interact at the dinner scene. He gets accosted and accused of so much by his mom, claiming SHE’S the victim of his actions, making it all about HER and then he turns around and does and says the exact same shit to Bernie.

He yells “Oh, don’t be so dramatic!” at Bernie as he gets into a taxi. THE PROJECTION!! THE DEFLECTION!!!!

I know there’s only so much they can put in two hours, but I wish they showed more of Elton’s eating issues. He had bulimia for sixteen years before he got help. It’s Absolutely the Man With Anorexia in me, but seeing that even men deal with eating disorders quells the lonely aching something in me. I feel that much less alone, you know. Eating disorders aren’t a “woman’s disease.”

How do you think they did his hair? A wig adds more hair, not take it away. He didn’t get his hair cut for it did he?

Seeing Elton’s first love fall apart because John was such a selfish, heartless prick in reality makes me sad.

Elton hugs his inner child when he reconciled with everyone in his past. Goddamn. He found peace and forgiveness for himself, who he was, even after all that time.

When Elton asks him not to go, Bernie refuses, saying this is something he had to do on his own. Healing comes from within alone. No one can help you do it. People can guide you, but you have to work at it. It’s fucking lonely sometimes, but it’s so, so worth it.

I used to loathe I’m Still Standing since i heard it so much at work, but the movie changed my entire perspective on it. I love the slow build up as he exits the rehab center. You don’t get thrown into something so happy and fast paced and fun after a cathartic climax you need to drink in. And the pan to his hat with the rainbow stripe to his smile. I get chills every time. Elton feels so right and secure and happy in himself. At first I thought it was a bit cheesy, but accepting your sexuality, especially after all the hell he went through during his life, grappling with unresolved trauma and fear of abandonment, he absolutely should wear it loud and proud. It’s easy to think times are much easier now being gay, and it shouldn’t be such a big deal. Relative to 1975, it is easier. But it doesn’t mean it’s not such a rough personal thing to work through if you’ve been spit on and resented all your life. Being gay, coming out, and accepting and being comfortable with that fact must’ve been such a HUGE milestone in Elton’s recovery and self-esteem.

Love me again after I’m still standing is perfect. The credits make me tear up every time. Jeez. What a good movie. What a good movie. Hit me up if you wanna talk about Rocketman because I absolutely will with you.

100 questions

Tagged by the miraculous @bookwormcheerleader

1. Coffee or tea? tea 2. Black and white or color? color 3. Drawings or paintings? Uhhhh drawing 4. Dresses or skirts? dresses 5. Books or movies? Books despite the fact that I haven’t read one in a while 6. Pepsi or Coke? Coke man! 7. Chinese or Italian? chinese 8. Early bird or night owl? Easily night owl 9. Chocolate or vanilla? Chocolate!!! 10. Introvert or extrovert? introvert 11. Hugs or kisses? kisses 12. Hunting or fishing? hunting 13. Winter or summer? Summer. I get SAD in the winter 14. Spring or fall? Spring, everything is growing 15. Rural or urban? Urban. Most of my life has been rural and as an only child it SUCKED. 16. PC or Mac? pc 17. Tan or pale? tan 18. Cake or pie? Mmm... pie? Depends on the pie and cake. If we’re talking basic cake, then pie. 19. Ice cream or yogurt? Ice cream tastes better but froyo has less calories so 20. Ketchup or mustard? Ketchup...¦ mustard is gross if it isn’t Dijon and lightly applied 21. Sweet pickles or dill pickles? Sweet, but preferably bread and butter. 22. Comedy or mystery? comedy 23. Boots or sandals? Flip flops my man. 24. Silver or gold? Ugh this question is SO hard I can never decide which I like more. Gold I guess. I guess. 25. Pop or Rock? Rock!! 26. Dancing or singing? Dancing by far 27. Checkers or chess? Checkers is easier but chess is more fun 28. Board games or video games? Vidya games 29. Wine or beer? wine I guess but neither are my fav lol. 30. Freckles or dimples? freckles 31. Honey mustard or BBQ sauce? bbq 32. Body weight exercises or lifting weights? Hmmmmm.. lifting weights 33. Baseball or basketball? baseball 34. Crossword puzzles or sudokus? Sudoku usually asks too much out of me but it's more entertaining 35. Facial hair or clean shaven? Clean shaven 36. Crushed ice or cubed ice? Crushed is best 37. Skiing or snowboarding? Snowboarding..? Because like 4 people in my family have broken their knees while skiing. So. 38. Smile or game face? You can SMILE agaiiinn 39. Bracelet or necklace? For ease? Bracelet. For look? necklace 40. Fruit or vegetables? fruit 41. Sausage or bacon? bacon 42. Scrambled or fried? Poached :3c 43. Dark chocolate or white chocolate? dark chocolate. White is gross 44. Tattoos or piercings? Tattoos 45. Antique or brand new? Antiques are cool but only certain stuff 46. Dress up or dress down? dress up is fun! 47. Cowboys or aliens? Literally I can’t answer this because of @niceanimevibes adfjhdjlfh aliens I guess I hate them though 48. Cats or dogs? cats 49. Pancakes or waffles? Pancakes. With peanut butter. 50. Bond or Bourne? Bond cause I haven’t seen any bourne movies lol 51. Sci-Fi or fantasy? fantasy 52. Numbers or letters? Wtf is this asking 53. Harry Potter or Lord of the Rings? Oh.... Oh man... hp I guess 54. Fair or theme park? The F A I R 55. Money or fame? money 56. Washing dishes or doing laundry? Laundry requires little effort 57. Snakes or sharks? Snakes are cool. I like them. 58. Orange juice or apple juice? apple 59. Sunrise or sunset? sunset 60. Slacker or over-achiever? Slacker personality, over achiever results B) 61. Pen or pencil? Pencil for practicality but I like the feel of using a pen 62. Peanut butter or jelly? pb 63. Grammys or Oscars? Oscars I guess 64. Detailed or abstract? Detailed. I love details 65. Multiple choice questions or essay questions? Multiple choice simple because less writing is required 66. Adventurous or cautious? Adventurous! 67. Saver or spender? Save. Must save. I have more moneys than probably all of my friends and it’s awful because no one can do things with me 68. Glasses or contacts? I look so much better in contacts, but they’re uncomfortable so glasses 69. Laptop or desktop? Desktop, alas I am stuck with a tablet 70. Classic or modern? Uhhhhh classic? 71. Personal chef or personal fitness trainer? A PERSONAL CHEF WOULD BE AWESOME but a personal trainer would be better for me 72. Internet or cell phone? Internet 73. Call or text? Text unless its time sensitive  74. Curly hair or straight? Curly is cute 75. Shower in the morning or shower in the evening? Shower at night since I was like 9. Don’t have to get up as early. 76. Spicy or mild? spicy 77. Marvel or DC? marvel 78. Paying a mortgage or paying rent? What kinda question is this. Neither. 79. Sky dive or bungee jump? Sky dive! 80. Oreos or Chips Ahoy? chips ahoy 81. Jello or pudding? Pudding. Jello is kinda.... 82. Truth or dare? Truth 83. Roller coaster or Ferris wheel? roller coaster! 84. Leather or denim? Leather but im in the desert so.. denim 85. Stripes or solids? Solids. Never liked stripes 86. Bagels or muffins? Muffins. Bagels are boring, dense bread. 87. Whole wheat or white? whole wheat 88. Beads or pearls? pearls 89. Hardwood or carpet? Hardwood is nice 90. Bright colors or neutral tones? Uh bright I guess 91. Be older than you are or younger than you are? Younger. I don’t wanna grow old :( 92. Raisins or nuts? Nuts. Raisins are gross chewy grapes 93. Picnic or nice restaurant? Restaurant although nothing can replace the feel of a picnic 94. Black leather or brown leather? Dark brown. Tan is a no go 95. Long hair or short hair? Long but I can really appreciate short hair 96. “Ready, aim, fire” or “Ready, fire, aim”? ready aim fire! Good song 97. Fiction or non-fiction? fiction 98. Smoking or non-smoking? Smoking is gross 99. Think before you talk or talk before you think? Think before I talk 100. Asking questions or answering questions? Asking, if I can come up with them. If they’re very interesting I like to think about my answers too.

Wow this was long. Taggin @calm-shy-social @thatoneonfire @niceanimevibes and anyone else that likes doing these

i got tagged in this like a month ago and forgot about it, as i knew i would

@fearthepandas (who is lovely and amazing and wonderful god bless) tagged me in this and then I spent a month thinking about this and absolutely NOT doing it so... yeah. hey @bitsandshits​ you gotta do it now

1. Coffee or tea? Tea 2. Black and white or color? Color 3. Drawings or paintings? ...paintings 4. Dresses or skirts? i’m not sure i understand the distinction? but dresses 5. Books or movies? the book 6. Pepsi or Coke? I Am Not A Heathen So Obviously Coke 7. Chinese or Italian? Italian, gotta get those carbs in 8. Early bird or night owl? my brain is ready to fucking go at 9pm like clockwork 9. Chocolate or vanilla? Chocolate 10. Introvert or extrovert? Hella introverted 11. Hugs or kisses? hugs for sure 12. Hunting or fishing? fishing. i’m the only one in my family who doesn’t hunt actually 13. Winter or summer? summer, the midwest can kiss my sunburnt ass  14. Spring or fall? F A L L  15. Rural or urban? ughhhhh fine, urban 16. PC or Mac? Mac 17. Tan or pale? what does this mean 18. Cake or pie? but WHO’S MAKING THE PIE? 19. Ice cream or yogurt? ice cream 20. Ketchup or mustard? mustard on the hotdog, ketchup on the fries 21. Sweet pickles or dill pickles? dill  22. Comedy or mystery? mystery 23. Boots or sandals? boots  24. Silver or gold? lets go with gold 25. Pop or Rock? have you considered Pop Rocks? 26. Dancing or singing? i’m terrible at both thanks (dancing) 27. Checkers or chess? checkers, but only played outside of cracker barrel 28. Board games or video games? board games 29. Wine or beer? listen... i am a huge Cork Dork  30. Freckles or dimples? Freckles 31. Honey mustard or BBQ sauce? honey mustard 32. Body weight exercises or lifting weights? body weight 33. Baseball or basketball? basketball, hit me up with court side seats yo 34. Crossword puzzles or sudokus? instead of taking notes in bio lecture i just did sudoku all semester 35. Facial hair or clean shaven? Clean shaven. i don’t trust beards 36. Crushed ice or cubed ice? crushed 37. Skiing or snowboarding? skiing, but like, badly 38. Smile or game face? game face 39. Bracelet or necklace? necklace 40. Fruit or vegetables? fruit 41. Sausage or bacon? bacon 42. Scrambled or fried? fried, but not runny 43. Dark chocolate or white chocolate? Dark chocolate, can’t stand white 44. Tattoos or piercings? hmmmmm tattoos, but I have piercings 45. Antique or brand new? antique 46. Dress up or dress down? Dress up 47. Cowboys or aliens? uh aliens 48. Cats or dogs? cats 49. Pancakes or waffles? Waffles Are Superior 50. Bond or Bourne? Bourne probs 51. Sci-Fi or fantasy? Sci-Fi 52. Numbers or letters? Letters? 53. Harry Potter or Lord of the Rings? why is this a question (LOTR) 54. Fair or theme park? theme park 55. Money or fame? $$$$$$ 56. Washing dishes or doing laundry? ok i’ll do both but don’t make me put anything away 57. Snakes or sharks? pet snakes, wild sharks? 58. Orange juice or apple juice? apple  59. Sunrise or sunset? Sunset 60. Slacker or over-achiever? Over achiever 61. Pen or pencil? Pen 62. Peanut butter or jelly? peanut butter 63. Grammys or Oscars? hngg oscars i guess 64. Detailed or abstract? Detailed 65. Multiple choice questions or essay questions? essay - partial credit 66. Adventurous or cautious? i’m just fucking reckless 67. Saver or spender? i save more 68. Glasses or contacts? glasses, i have an eye phobia - can’t do contacts 69. Laptop or desktop? laptop 70. Classic or modern? classic 71. Personal chef or personal fitness trainer? trainer 72. Internet or cell phone? internet 73. Call or text? text (why would you ever call a deaf person - be honest) 74. Curly hair or straight hair? i got curly hair don’t care 75. Shower in the morning or shower in the evening? evening  76. Spicy or mild? spicy 77. Marvel or DC? marvel yo 78. Paying a mortgage or paying rent? rent?  79. Sky dive or bungee jump? you will never convince me that bungee jumping is safe 80. Oreos or Chips Ahoy? oreos 81. Jello or pudding? jello 82. Truth or dare? dare 83. Roller coaster or Ferris wheel? roller coaster 84. Leather or denim? Denim 85. Stripes or solids? Stripes 86. Bagels or muffins? bagels 87. Whole wheat or white? Wheat 88. Beads or pearls? Pearls 89. Hardwood or carpet? hardwood 90. Bright colors or neutral tones? neutrals 91. Be older than you are or younger than you are? older i think 92. Raisins or nuts? Nuts 93. Picnic or nice restaurant? Nice restaurant 94. Black leather or brown leather? Black 95. Long hair or short hair? i just cut 4 inches off my hair 96. “Ready, aim, fire” or “Ready, fire, aim”? one of these phrases is real and the other is not 97. Fiction or non-fiction? fiction 98. Smoking or non-smoking? i aint never smoked a cig in my life my dude 99. Think before you talk or talk before you think? Thinking first is important 100. Asking questions or answering questions? answering