I worked in the rain while i was sick today. That's why i prefer to work for small businesses, and often have been the only employee of some proprietor run business. Because I will be dedicated and try my absolute hardest regardless of who i'm working for, and I need that to matter.

At a big business you're just a small part of the machine, and they'll use you until you break and absorb the loss of you until they can get a replacement. And that works for some people because they can be as selfish (complimentary) as this world can often demand we be just to stay healthy. I've done it. It's a valid choice, and sometimes a necessary one.

I do tend to fair better at places like where i work now. Run by a single mom trying really hard to make this work for all of us. Out of the last three years i've worked for her the first two years were spent as her only employee. Now i'm senior over two more employees. And that means things like: my input has helped form policy, and: whether or not i do my job well has a big impact on how well the business does.

The flip side to that is, if i call in sick, the business looses a big chunk of income and has to cancel clients last minute, and this business isn't big enough to take hits like that lightly. I gotta clock on. And even though boss would totally let me call off sick (and even has five days of sick pay saved up per employee, because she's trying really hard to be a legit business and a good boss) if i'm still willing to offer it, she needs the help.

But the truth is, i was always going to come in when i said i would and do the work i said i'd do unless i'm 100% unable anyway.

So i usually do best in a situation where that level of effort 100% matters

also, never you fear, i work 99% outside and alone i'm not getting other people sick (and i took two covid tests to be sure i felt comfortable risking that [and i wore a mask the 1% of the time i was at all near any other people])

ANYway. i worked sick in the rain today to keep the ship afloat. sniff hack. i'm a good thing.

My boss ran some errands and went to a Thai restaurant and told them i was sick and they made me a soup that isn't on their menu <3

hold on my notes from my last post are like some kind of poem. almost. or something idk here

(my boss stopped by her favorite Thai restaurant and told them i was sick and they made her a soup for me that's not on the menu)

#i worked as a cook for a long time so i can tell what's in it #it's like a very fresh barely cooked bisque of mostly carrot and ginger - delicious btw #and the ginger is in little tiny shredded fresh bits all through it and don't really pop their heat unless you sort of chew a little #which of course with little bits in a puree you naturally do #and i didn't pick up on much of the ginger in the first taste so i added a whole bunch of sriracha to it because hot sauce in soup is the best #and that particular hot sauce is made mostly of garlic and jalepeños #and they used a shit ton of ginger in the soup actually #so basically i just downed a mug of ginger garlic jalepeño soup and wow dude it Lit Me Up #i wish there was more of it