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That feeling when you have a really and awful piece of writing but it marks a huge mark for your writing progress in general so you just kinda have to deal with the fact that it exists.
#me rn#and has been me for the last few months#trying to deal with the fact that it exists because it's such a huge and proud milestone in my writing overall#even if I will despise the nitty gritty bits of it so much#it's. it's so bad but it's impossible to not be proud of it because it marks a writing achievement I will never be able to just.#take back and smack on something else.#I'm so proud of it because of what it means for me but it's an objectively bad piece of writing#because it has no consistency#however! it has more consistency than most of my writing before it!#and probably is the point when my characters actually started being more consistent and not just like.#what I felt like in the moment#it was still inconsistent as fuck mind you but#it was also when I started planning stuff#having actual plotlines in my head#stuff and things it#it means so much for me as a writer#BUT IT'S SO DAMN BAD#SO I CAN'T SHARE IT WITH ANYONE ACTIVELY ANYMORE AND I WILL STILL PERISH ON THE SPOT IF I FIND ANYONE IS READING IT NOW
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The idea that uni protesters are "elitist ivy-league rich kids larping as revolutionaries" on Twitter and Reddit and even here is so fucking funny to me if you actually know anything about the student bodies at these unis. Take it from someone who's going to one of the biggest private unis in the US, 80% of the peers I know are either from the suburbs or an apartment somewhere in America, children of immigrants, or here on a student visa. I've heard about one-percenter students, but I've never met one in person. Like, don't get me wrong, the institution as a whole is still very privileged and white. I've talked with friends and classmates about feeling weird or dissonant being here and coming from such a different background. But in my art program, I see BIPOC, disabled, queer, lower-income students and faculty trying to deconstruct and tear that down and make space every day. So to take a cursory glance at a crowd of student protesters in coalitions that are led by BIPOC & 1st/2nd-gen immigrant students and HQ'd in ethnic housings and student organizations and say, "ah. children of the elite." Get real.
#also idk how to tell you this but even if it were true. wealthy children potentially sacrificing their educational careers to protest is#a good thing actually. idk how to tell you that caring about people from other nations is good#personal#“this war has nothing to do with most students cuz nobody's getting drafted” idk how to explain to you that we should be angry#that our tuitions of 10s of thousands of dollars that we pay every year for an education is being used to fund a genocidal campaign#also the implication that if you go to a uni institution you are automatically privileged by participation no matter your bg#i didn't /want/ to go to this school. i was supposed to go to a school with an art/animation program. but i realized my immigrant#parents have been working their whole lives to get me here. and turning the opportunity down would be a disservice to their sacrifice#this is getting into convos of “what 2nd gen kids owe their parents” which is different for everyone but. yeah#i just get pissed off at seeing people misrepresenting student bodies as “wealthy” and “privileged” and “elite” when it's such a blatant li#i remember a year ago a friend told me they can't fly home to hong kong for winter break because the plane tickets are too expensive#so they have to find temporary housing around the area#last quarter for a film doc class my film partner made a doc on a small group of marxist grad students from india discussing praxis#during a rally a few months ago in response to police presence the coalition invited palestinian students to speak about their experiences#and lead songs and read poems they wrote. these are STUDENTS. are they elitist too?#this is not to disregard my own personal privilege either.#this whole narrative's just to rationalize a lack of empathy to me. seeing a 19yo student get shot by a rubber bullet and your first#reaction is “HAW! HAW! bet richy rich didn't see THAT coming when she put on her terrorist hood!”#newsflash. these big uni campuses are HAUNTED by the violence of past protests and revolutions and police brutality. we know.#why do you think these coalitions have been making reinforced barricades at record speed
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I wanted to experiment with my coloring (I need to get more adventurous in that regard), so I just drew Akechi
Yup
He’s just there
Close up of his face + two silly expressions
#I’ve been using a new brush for the past month and I haven’t been drawing him so I guess this is me learning how to draw him again?#I love him though#my art style has not really changed… I guess improved despite me not making completed drawing in.. a few weeks#maybe more#anyways the last picture is so funny#look how angry he is lmao#goro akechi#persona 5#v’s art#I need to work on making backgrounds.. later
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Hyden feels he has a lot of wisdom he could impart upon Theo, if only Theo would take his excellent advice to heart.
#Feels like I haven't drawn in forever...#I have a craft project that has been in the works for months and was just about ready to be posted except delays at Staples set it back#that is coming... soon...#that and my garden have really kept me from drawing#(also the feverish Wishbone schedule work of the last few months)#things are beginning to clear up now though phew#my ocs#hyden#others' ocs#theo#kwillow#verse: amaranthine#smoking //#(Hyden does not typically use tobacco and really shouldn't start)#(he's just doing it because Theo was doing it)#furry
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A little doodle of my hunter l4d roblox ava to slowly get back to using social media!
#my art#myart#zombie#l4d#hunter l4d#left 4 dead#left 4 dead 2#l4d2#roblox#roblox avatar#doodle#my mental health has been struggling severely but I'm slowly recovering to the point I feel a little comfortable using social media!#Thank you for those who have been patient with me with the last few months!!
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Love Is Fallen Angels
A solarpunk cowboy western concept art project I've been working on based on the characters and world of my comic by the same name!
Additional work can be found on my website
#cowboys#western#solarpunk#concept art#cowboy characters#cowboy art#piierrote draws#if u have been wondering what on earth ive been doing for the last few months#it has been this#u guys have no idea how much work and time and energy has gone into this work!! lots of learning#this is my professional please hire me work#but it still gets to be Mine and close to my heart aka about silly queer people#love is fallen angels#character design
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The messenger bag I made in 2019 finally started to wear to pieces after four years of faithful service. Time for a new one!
I made the original bag without a pattern, but this time I had something to work with. I took the old bag apart and made a pattern from the pieces.
It took me a while to find the right material. I wasn’t sure what it would look like, I just knew I’d know it when I saw it. I finally found this double-sided Japanese cloth in a shop in Portland.
Once I had the right cloth for the exterior, I found a fun pattern for the interior bag in a local shop. (I always use a lighter material for the interior so it's easier to find things).
The first bag was a struggle—I had no idea what I was doing! I expected the second bag to be difficult as well, but the process went surprisingly smoothly. I got stuck a few times and had to take a day or two to figure out a solution, but the solutions always worked better than I expected!
For instance—in spite of carefully measuring each piece, the outer flap ended up being too small. I ended up constructing a border to extend the edges.
With heavy interfacing and waterproof lining, the walls were very thick and tricky to work with. Having a better sewing machine than last time helped!
Lots of pockets and hooks on the inside—essential.
I found a leather camera strap I haven't used since college and added a couple of decorative wooden buttons a friend gave me and I'd been saving for the right moment. The blue webbing along the sides that support the leather strap are repurposed from the original bag. I like that a little bit of the old bag is worked into the new.
The whole process took... weeks—but I’m so happy with how it all came together!
#long post#pictures i took#stuff i made#i am not a sewing expert#i've been slowly learning and teaching myself to do things with a sewing machine over the last ten years#it's hard and i still struggle#but make no mistake: i am very fucking proud of myself#there are a few small quirks that i didn't get right and annoy me but overall it came out so well#i love it#and i'm glad it's done this project has been eating my brain for like a month
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boy in silly sitting positions compilation
#cats#I especially like the last one where he just has one single paw poking out of that box for some reason lol#I still have costumes to post and like a billion other things.... grr... constantly failing at staying active on social media aughh#I think because currently my Main Focus is on trying to get my game done and stuff.. which basically just means sitting and writing all day#so there's not much to post about. Though I know the Good At Social Media thing to do would be to post about the#writing and share progress and talk about the game and characters or whatever to try to build interest or something but that is SOOO weird#to me.. I could maybe get it if it was like a tiny tiny discord groupchat of playtesters with like 5 people in#it.. But something about talking openly about things before they happen is weird to me?? Like presumptuous feeling or something#''oooo guess whats gonna happen LATER!!!'' like.. how do you know.. what if it doesnt. what if you dont finish it. what if its not the way#you think it's going to be. what if something changes. etc. Like I literally avoid movie trailers and game trailers for the same reason ghj#Even if it's not ME doing it it just feels... weird.. Maybe it has to do with my OCD and how I just don't like talking about ''future''#things in Certain Terms. Like if I was going to say ''Oh yeah sure. come over to my house in a few months''. I would have to follow it up#with like ''HOPEFULLY you can come over to my house in a few months'' or 'They'll come over in a few months MOST LIKELY''. Because just#stating that something will happen matter of factly takes for granted like.. what if somehting horrible happens and I DONT have a house#in a few months? or what if something bad happens to me. or to the person coming over? I can't ever DEFINITELY say with 100% certainty#that one could ACTUALLY come to my house in a few months. anything could change. So I have to allot for that in my phrasing. hbjjkn#There are a lot of situations where you're expected to just Assume Things but for some reason that bothers me. My brain literally does not#even Assume the most basic things.. like how do *I* know that just because it's someones birthday that they want to be wished a happy#birthday? what if they dont? everyone is different and has different preferences. I should check with them first. or wait until they public#ly announce that theyre accepting birthday wishes. I have to allot for all 5034859069 rare possibilities at any given time and never take#anything for certain. etc. ghjbjhbh.... ANYWAY.. I have been feeling a bit sick lately as usual.. but still slowly making progress on some#things. Moslty I need to edit costume photos. make sculptures. and work on the game. Going back reading some of the old writing from like#2018 and suprisingly I don't have to change that much of it? In fact I like it mostly. so that's good. I would be very interested if I were#playing the game myself. Though that doesnt mean much since my tastes are so niche lol..#Still really want to clear some of my million tumblr drafts as well... alas and aughh and ooughh and so on and so forth. Between all of my#evil appointments other such things...why cant I have one billion dollar to retire into relaxed hermit artist life of no stressors.. bleas
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I don't work tomorrow . Or for the next month ... which means I can draw again ..?
#you guys have no idea how fucking awful it has been for me the last few months 🚬😑#tai talks#i dont think anybody ever really truly notices how little art i put out when im working overtime every week </3#but I do. for sure. i notice it.#ive worked like 50 hour weeks for so long i dont even remember how long.#i feel at rest now and im so. so excited to get back to my projects <3333333
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Well ladies (gn), it might have been unexpected but funemployment isn't starting off too bad.
#I was fired! Truly unexpected and truly proof that April is not my month!#(the break-up was last April)#anyway i was not passionate about investing which is true but also stupid because they were happy with my work#they kept telling me they knew I'd be spectacular at any job I wanted but they could tell i didnt really want this one#which is vaguely true but like i enjoyed it enough. i probably would have left in about a year but#for once! i would like a few months! where do i not have to make a life changing decision!!!#I'd like to just live for a bit!!#so I'm home now going to travel going to italy going to read and write and we'll see#s narrates her life#truly April 23-24 has been like... Blow up your life 2k19 HARD MODE#and more like have your life blown up really#c'est la vie#they're paying me for six months so I cant actually complain complain#it's the sabbatical i wanted but better because im being paif#paid*#but worse because im unemployed haha
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langa special
#sk8 the infinity#hasegawa langa#kyan reki#renga#sure. every shrimp is a prawn etc#man. listen. langa is my core ''freaks make the world go round'' baby rn#I have like. a Thesis in my brain abt skateboarding and how its viewed in sk8 and like. deviancy and social norms and#the intrinsic relation between being cool and being a weirdo. gods I did Not shut up at mim abt it last night#or two nights ago. time is fake#fuckign brought up adam in relation to warfred bartosz too that was embarrassing#(for the record my opinion on adam is ''he is too rich and being less rich would literally cure him'')#but yeah I'm laying a bit of ''purposefully thick'' on langa here. its not that the boy doesnt know its that he doesnt care#guy who deals with anxiety by simply not thinking#every day in langas brain he walks into a room full of smashed cups and vases and he like. picks up a few pieces at a time#and puts em on the counter. hes been doing this for months#bet kid has set fire to something in a steel barrel at least once. langa youre a real one to me#anyways! the ''tastes like ant'' thing is real I just experienced it. idk why but I think? oolong caramel?#can smell Really close to the ant smell. it is Very weird#(I did finish that piece of cake anyway. paid for that shit)#last night has been full of events! that I am still digesting. theater very good. hangin out with friends very good too#heres to freaks. makin the world go round. gotta be weird to be cool!#have a good night! I pass the fuck out now. goobaba. tilt ur stage a little bit it makes a world of difference
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You should draw some treebark stuff tmrw. For. Reasons
69 : i must confess… i am a fake rendog fan
#i only watched last life and thats all my knowledge#please forgive me#rendoodle#rendog#rendog fanart#also next few days will be clearing my inbox that has been untouched for months
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Sulfur on your breath
Granite in my chest
Photos under the cut
Listen, I know the lyrics refer to sulfur's smell, but you can't just put two crystal/rock names next to each other and expect my crystal/rock loving ass to do nothing about it
The original idea did not include a box at all, but since we have one anyway, I am thrilled to inform you that i've accidentally chosen a box in which a package with minerals and rocks came to me, so the box went full circle and it's such a fitting thing for a sleep token fanart that i've literally freaked out when i've realised that
me @ the box: get euclided, idiot
#ok this thing has been sitting in drafts for way too long#anyways the whole thing is dumb!! and imperfect!! but i've had SO much fun making it i don't remember the last time art made me this happy#i chose the most scrumptious piece of granite i could find for this piece and the ribs are hiding the best parts of it :(#(someone please ask me about the journey of me becoming obsessed with granite [the rock] after i've got this idea a few months ago)#sleep token#sleep token fanart#alex vs the mortifying ordeal of having her art perceived
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i love making text-heavy stuff tbh. i think i've realistically "outgrown" weirdcore at least with regard to the more heavily edited stuff, but i still deeply love the idea of making my writing pieces look like they're fucked up pieces of old web lost media, so i think i've found a way to keep going despite that
#not edits#this is not a disparaging statement to any editor or concept btw i just am at a point in my life where i wanna make stuff that has#more textual meaning and less visual surrealism. call it traumacore or whatever but that's where i'm at with it lol#i've been kinda doing poorly mentally these last few months and i honestly consider it a blessing for this blog cuz like#even tho the growth on here has slowed to a fucking snail's pace. i feel like i make the most Potent stuff in this state#my sillier and more heavily edited works generally just frustrate me ngl. feels like i'm phoning it in a lot of the time#all of this is to say that the textcore is here to stay basically. at least for now#i've edited like 15+ edits in a single sitting tonight which is like. unprecedented for me nowadays so yippee
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karaoke was SO MUCH FUN!! thank you (and one more thank you and one more thank you and one more thank you. maybe even one more thank you. maybe one more)
#vtuber#holostars#holotempus#regis altare#magni dezmond#i have been reborn#I hope they get lots of rest btw#I cannot explain the emotions that have run through me today#subjecting everyone to this bc I'm overrun with it all#following these boys 6 months ago#has made these last few months shine ever so brightly#though they may never see this#thank you for everything you've done <3
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I wish tumblr actually loaded the images from posts 🫤
#this has been happening to me for the last few months. and yes I have it updated#so funny that the the only thing it loads are ads 🙄
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