this is all stuff ive recorded as clips before when i first watched the movies so the subtitles will be different, also i didnt even like spiral but this is like my favourite part from it.

it will be on tenor too! the second part anyway, im gonna try making gifs and getting them on here and on tenor!

Season 4 notes

Ep 121: mmmm tape recorder turning on without them knowing goes brrr. AAAhjhdsjfhjdf "do you mind if i call you jon" its like "can i call you elias?" is this the dream guy with the tendrils? who wants to bet the boat is captained by peter lukas? big man if it killed yall how are you still here. oh boy the tape is doin that thing. who do we think it is? did he wake up? hmm. ep 122: lol jon. 6 months!?!? bruh quit movin big man. he just Knows things sometimes you know how it is. nah b/c i can relate to feeling like other ppl/ things arent real, thats the biggest mood BUT i think it is kinda pretentious to entertain the idea that youre the only Real person. If you dont see a body dont believe it. i'll hold out hope for a bit. theres not a new archivist is there? surely i wouldve heard about that. oh god peter what changes did you make. ep 123: web development. hope its about spiders. she blames him. bruh why. if they hadnt done anything the world would've ended piss off melanie. why are ppl acting like he chose to be in a coma for 6 months. we know this they just appear. no longer "head archivist of the magnus institute, london" now he's just "the archivist" covered in spiders? cuz ik the spider has to do with controlling what youre doing and all this stuff but i cant think of how this connects to that. ep 124: ugh vertigo. is michael crew an old man? oooh. fairchild. how did he know it was martin? hmm. GRR I LOST MY NOTES AGAIN. FROM EPISODE 125 - part of 131. ep 131: bruh he's so hard to understand big man ur voice is so low. Jared Hotworth. the boneturner. "the ones i helped find their proper bodies" name a better top surgeon? our favorite trans ally? ep 132: woo field trip into the coffin! static lol. he says "chill out im just poppin in for a quick recall mission" is the rib thing actually gonna work? bruh it feels so odd and contrived but he's an odd man with some odd powers so idk. rip that archivist ayyy statement time. voices? recordings? are those tape recorders? was it the tape recorders? did they pull him back? i hope so b/c if the rib thing actually worked im gonna be so disappointed. ep 133: predicting the lonely? tundra. like the lukases. hmm. sanikova! like sanikov land. so its the hunt? i suppose? yeah. so daisy's clearly rejecting the hunt, which makes sense cuz she doesnt seem to like the entities that much. wait so are we just not gonna talk abt all the tapes playing on the ground?? no? ep 134: not an archival assistant anymore? Adelard Decker (or however you spell it) i recognize that name. 15th power. i was right there are 15. the extinction? im trying to remember what ive heard. oooh spooky. no i gotta be real i dont understand this fear but i'll believe you that its a thing. ew lukas is so squealy. lukas can turn invisible? oh boy. oooh martin put the tape recorders there. lol lukas is worried he's gonna be an avatar of the eye. ep 135: yoo its the third Daedalus statement! maxwell rayner (reiner? reigner?) i dont know who that is but ik its somebody. is he the cult leader guy? church of the divine host? 4 people?? what? did they kidnap somebody and keep them up there?? oh dear jon are you dying? did he try to See or Know or whatever? why does everyone call basira detective lol. ep 136: he was the one from the spider movie that ate ppl right? the special effects artist? is it annabelle cane? "its a joke jon" lol. hmm they wanted to record the therapy session with melanie? i wonder who that is. i almost wanna guess annabelle cane but im not sure. ep 137: this is the one! he went to the other place and read the war statement but it wasnt the one she took. not the music again. sounds like the slaughter. who the heck is eric lol. "the watcher's crown" like the crown of eyes we saw in the piccrew ep 138: oh boy Robert Smirk time. is that elias? as unhelpful as usual. if new powers can be "born" can others die out? did jonah magnus wear the watchers crown? maybe they were born from our fear or maybe our fears were born from them. ceaseless watcher does ceaselessly watch so. idk what you want

big man. yeah jonah for sure did something. ep 139: agnes!! lol that one dude threw off all their plans thats so funny. BUT this does tell us something. the tree in the backyard of the hilltop house? not made by her. it going down didnt kill agnes. im guessing gertrude tied agnes to the house using the tree? u good jon? cuz every time you try to Know smth intentionally it seems like it causes you great pain. how come he can do it accidentally with no problem but the second he wants to know smth of plot relevance he gets a headache or whatever ep 140: lol pagan exultation. classic. "oh thats my rib" lmaoo. ppl are always so mad at jon and his Eye powers except when it benefits them. they're like "oh you shouldnt do that its not right" and then all of a sudden they want to know something and its all "oh cmon jon its the only way" ep 142: oh god jon what did you do. its interesting she's giving her statement in the way that they do when jon Asks. did he see her in the Coffin? and so he's following her? ok cmon jon you're supposed to let them come to you. lmao ikr martin. "start to hear the blood" "suure." lmao ep 143: lol that awkward moment when gertrude is already dead. big J if you die im gonna kill you. bruh. ayo helen? i guess it worked? ep 144: lol this reminds me of that one edgar allan poe story where he kills the old dude with the weird eye. spooky music stuff. lol thats my favorite symptom of a heart attack its hilarious. so its smth abt the location probably? bro i feel like you should write down the numbers idk. 162830165049 564846474827. seems like the distortion? like the kinda thing that causes you to go crazy because of the numbers. oh boy is it the extinction again. bro what?? im?? his dad just died and he's like eh. martin dont be mean. he's being all lonely again. big man ur pushing ppl away. oh god its fucking squealy boy. ep 145: that almost sounds like breekon/hope... Arthur? agnes. aah was he from the lightless flame cult. a tree. lol he's just ranting rn. hehehe fuck landlords amirite. yay someone tells jon outright to go to therapy. now do it big man. ep 146: oh great! the distortion! i'm making a spiral themed building in mc right now! jon maybe accept you did a bad? nah this goes back to what i said before. they're fine with him compelling ppl when its convenient for them but otherwise its "no jon you cant, youre a monster jon" the tapes didnt turn on. i spose that means its not important? i agree with daisy, this seems unecessarily dangerous. ep 147: is that a tape? the first tape? well that went better than i expected tbh. BAHAKJASHDJKF she did the "can i call you jon" like nikola says "elias, can i call you elias?" damn annabelle is such a girlboss. oh! the one thing from the picrew. its been a while since ive connected smth to that. lol all the other avatars always talk abt their patron so lovingly and the jon just. absolutely hates the eye. ep 148: lol thats the most elias thing. "i just like the way it sounds" ep 149: did he disappear? bruhh. ur lonely powers are popping off i guess. oops i accidentally deleted my notes for 150 - 152 ep 153: thats the cult right? yeah. it doesnt sound like the church of the divine host? idk. if it is the church of the divine host then they worship the dark right? so is the eleventh the dark star or wtvr? it almost sounds like the corruption b/c of the oil or grease or whatever. oh dear what happened. oh its the hunters. theyre so annyoing. not an "it" he has a name. he's a person. is this a page from the skin book? ep 154: oh shit this is gerry's dad! oh shit he quit! oh dear god. jon don't you do it. haha martin. yeahhhh... is he gonna tell the others? cuz you know theyre gonna get mad if he doesnt. oh also picrew connection! the bandages over the eyes? yeah thats this im guessing. ep 155: oh good he told them. oh my god what did you do. lol i have no mouth and i must scream. nah you get none of my sympathy you're straight up murdering ppl. its like the desolation, destroying lives to sustain your own. ok but taking their statements doesnt

kill them. oh... bye melanie. ep 156: lmao imagine if the tape recorder spoke back. oh boy decker! i swear we got a statement from him already. oh god mirrors scary. They're gonna eat the body arent they. Yup... sounds like the flesh or the slaughter, but I'm not sure. Could be the extinction for sure. Smth at the center! Like Helen mentioned. God Peter you dick. Ep 157: peter's just so :/ another decker statement i see. a statement about the corruption? hmm. maybe its not abt the corruption. the extinction. lol pandemics. topical. John Amherst. helen? lol i can hear admiral purring in the background. oh cmon helen dont be like that. im trying real hard to like you but you make it so difficult. ep 158: did they fucking free the stranger? im gonna lose it. you absolute dumbass. im sorry who is that? jonah magnus? my guy. peter. you absolute dickhead. that's elias. (im p sure i had this spoiled for me that elias is jonah) oh dear this is her death. god peter you prick. i hope this is a pop off martin moment and not a "martin you idiot" moment. i hope the hunters kill the stranger entity. or she kills them. furry daisy pop off! yeah fuck you peter martin can make his own decisions. you know that clip from Twisted where jafar says "ok what the fuck was that" martin D: ok like i know its gonna work but still D: D: ep 159: peter you bitchboy. because if im alone i cant hurt anyone else. imnotgonnacryimnotgonnacryimnotgonnacry do it do it do it do it. pop off jon. ok its a pretty good idea for a ritual i gotta be honest. she didnt even have to blow it up lol. oh dear that was certainly a noise. "he gets you" did he not have jon already? he's back! our boy is back! awwww thats so cute. ep 160: oh right this is the thing in the safe house. i love him. "obviously im going to tell you if i see any good cows" martin my beloved <3 :)) oh boy who is this. fuckin. people. jonah you dick. gahh. you can tell he's trying to resist so hard lol. ohh. hehe keep an *eye* on him. altho if the extinction is a real thing he needs to be marked by that right? lol he sounds so intense im sorry- i want martin to just burst in and be like "look at this cow i saw!" its so dramatic and for why.

owo I'm curious. But like could order like all the pmd and why you like/dislike each one?

AHHHHHH !!!!! okay hope ur ready for a lot of rambling this might be one of my favorite asks ever fjlsjfJTKFJ

1.) pmd2 !! this is my favorite by far and my first pmd game , specifically explorers of sky !!!!

the story is SO good , the characters are really good and interesting and memorable , theres a lot to do main game AND post game , not to mention special episodes [ theyre ALL so good but i give my life to special episode 5 . ive replayed it so many times ] !!! i could go on forever ahfjsjkfkg . the only negative things i can rlly think about rn are fixed in the later games [ moving in dungeons can be slow and depending on ur type a lot of dungeons can be hell + teammates can be a nuisance rather than helpful ] but !! a rlly big plus is you can make your own missions thru a generator online and get literally any item you want , its super helpful [ reviver seeds are super important to have ] !! i havent replayed it in a while so i might have more to say later but i really could write papers about this game i love it so much alfjskfk

2.) psmd !! the most recent pmd game , and my second favorite !!!

this game has every pokemon gen 1-7 and every single one has a different mission AND theyre all connected to each other . you can get missions from characters from previous games [ grovyle + celebi mission ; __ ; ] . i recommend playing this game last tho if you plan on playing them all !! the story is pretty good and has some rlly good twists , theres post game but not a ton [ unless u want to do every mission ] , you can befriend and play as any pkmn you want which is rlly cool !!! also theres a pushing mechanic which is not only super helpful but rlly funny to me [ shoves an entire line of teammates out of harms way ] . for the negatives ... the characters are interesting but i dont remember them as well , i wish there was more character development . i dont hate the final boss but ... its kinda a reused concept from pmd3 which i wasnt fully a fan of in the first place [ spoilers ? the final boss isnt a pkmn , its just negativity ] . they bring back apples which isnt rlly bad but i sure didnt miss them . leveling up is HELL . i rlly dislike the fact that you have to buy saves for dungeons though , no quicksaves if you have to do something all of a sudden , no saves at rest stops mid dungeon . you gotta buy em and bring em along , im pretty sure its only this game that does it but i hope they dont keep it . nevertheless its a solid pmd game !!!

3.) pmd3 !! gates to infinity !!! i gotta be honest im barely putting this above red/blue rescue team but i WILL bc despite its very big flaws it also has a lot of ups !!

okay this game along with everything gen 5 gets a lot of hate and i can sure see why with this one but i still think its rlly good !!! im actually gonna start with the negatives on this one to get em out of the way but . paradise building does not interest me . no stacking missions [ you cant do more than one at a time ] , the rewards are just supplies that go towards building paradise , the final boss doesnt rlly interest me [ again spoilers same as psmd: its not a pkmn ] , and it just has so many differences from the usual pmd formula and i cant promise that theyre all ..... positive . plus the VERY limited choices for hero and partner [ i wont complain much bc i wouldve chosen the given pkmn over other starters anyways but . no quiz , only 5 pkmn compared to other games 15+ ? oof ] A..... ANYWAYS now that thats over . POSITIVES ..... i rlly like the characters ! the main ones and even the villains have a little development !! [ dunsparse emolga hydreigon ILY ] the story itself is good ; im not a fan of concepts that appear for one game and are never even mentioned later but the entercards [ ? ] are interesting and the frozen chasm recorder thing may have made me want to cry . i dont want to specifically spoil anything but this game can be a little brutal at times too ? leaving friends behind , being chased down by the villains , being split up from your friends , not gonna say the exact scenes bc of spoils but when things get rlly bad and how desperate the hero and partner can get when theyre trying to protect each other ..... [ cries ] . while some mechanics of the game arent my favorite , the story is good and can make u damn emotional .......

4.) pmd !! red/blue rescue team !!! i cant even call this my least favorite bc i have no real least favorites when it comes to this series but i just like the others a little better ahkfjsjfkc

im a little more biased bc this is the last game of the series i played even tho its the original . BUT i still have so many good things to say about it and i would probably recommend this first ? i dont remember there being a lot of characters compared to the other games but they sure leave an impression on you . i also like how the partner is kinda sassy and like , they just met you but would literally do anything for you and believe in you even when you dont believe in yourself . every pmd game has good twists but i RLLY like the one they pulled here . also you spend a good amount of the game being on the run from people you trusted literally trying to kill you which is fucked up but i really like how they played the story . i didnt even play it that long ago but writing this makes me want to play it again smfjkskfj ... the main negatives i can think about are all stuff fixed in future games again [ and you can also do the same make your own mission generator and get items to make the game easier ] . a lot of the bosses are the same type / resistant to the same type so depending on your hero / partner it could go rlly smoothly or rlly badly [ to anyone choosing grass type pkmn . godspeed ] . i think this might be the shortest pmd game and it might be hard bc its the first , but if youre looking to rlly get into the series id go with this one first . if you just want to test the waters id go with pmd2 !!

T.... TYSM FOR THE ASK and these are all opinions of course and its just my thoughts but if you got all the way down here . ily

new quick info dump on what sylvia’s powers are currently -

short ver.: reality warping

slightly longer ver.: reality warping with Conditions(TM) except me being me these conditions are way too loose to count as being restrictions so its practically like unlimited op ass reality warping and no im not sorry for giving her literal universe-breaking powers i Do What I Want To Heck With The Rest

*(edit: added a note expanding on my hc for energy/power/idk) *(edit edit: ^ but Longer)

long ver.: technically, she has the power to “bring possibilities into reality”

right now, i have the idea that among my version of Heaven’s............ stuff, nonsense, whatever, they have this kinda. archival thing? place? idk point is there’s some Thing in heaven that’s recording literally everything within the universe. people and activities, all that.

however, this archive also has a (currently limited?) capability to record what Could happen - aka possibilities. but What Could Be is logically not the same as What Is, which is to say that when a choice is made the choice that plays out is What Is and the choice not taken is What Could Be but neither exists in tandem, there is Only What Is and while What Could Be ‘exists’ within the archive’s capability and capacity to record how the unchosen route plays out to an extent, it is nonetheless not a thing that Actually Actively Exists within the universe unless whatever portion of the universe in question has the right type of magic/physics to support alternate possibilities but for my own hc purposes alternate timelines and the like arent supported in the entirety of the whole gigantic multiverse of the universe, just some parts of it.

ANYWAY, point is, archive has a record of reality and possibilities, albeit the latter is limited to what could feasibly happen and these possibilities generally do not sprawl into never-ending histories of their own, tending to terminate themselves eventually. (there are exceptions, of course, but thats not important rn.)

so sylvie’s ability to “bring possibilities into reality” is a very............... literal thing - she can summon/recreate aspects of otherwise non-existent possibilities as recorded into heaven’s funky archive within the objectively and truly existing reality. her sole restrictions on this ability is that so far she can only bring objective existences into reality (aka people and things; she can’t rewrite history and its timeline of events), the energy required (which can be little or entropy-inducing if shes recreating a flower vs. an entire planet), as well as being restricted to just what’s in the archive (so anything 100% impossible is indeed 100% impossible; tho ive been thinking like. shes. part fae? maybe she can literally create the outright impossible and yknow what heaven wouldve slaughtered her on the spot if so so yknow what maybe not maybe she isnt that op nevermind-)

*note on energy requirements: i hc energy here almost kinda sortaaaa in terms of electronics aka for things to function they require a stream of electricity, and so for things to Exist they also need energy. But, there is a v distinct difference between function and existence here - for example, humans can go on just fine so long as they have their nutrition, but the energy thus gained through food isn’t what lets them keep existing, only functioning. for humans to keep Existing as humans, to keep their forms, for their cells to have their forms, for the very molecules and atoms to keep their shapes and predetermined functions of their own—to exist at all, essentially, requires energy. and for this hc, the energy required to keep something in existence can be any kind but nonetheless there needs to be a constant steady supply of it.

additionally, there needs to be a ‘will’ - a force/mind/SOMETHING(? ABSTRACT CONCEPTS ARE HARD) to literally conceptualize concepts (and thus, the idea/blueprints for an existence) to exist—tho this is assuming that the subject in question isnt............... uhh, kinda. ‘locked’ i guess, in that they can stay in existence without something/someone else to constantly ensure that the idea/concept of their existence well, uh, exists at all. (despite the phrasing the energy to exist and the will to exist are v different things - everything, with a few categories of exceptions, can exist without a secondary will conceptualizing and thinking their existences into existence. but everything does, no matter what, need a steady stream of energy to ensure that those concepts of an existence are allowed to manifest at all.)

tbh the requirements for energy and will isnt a problem for anything in the universe because, as far as most of heaven is concerned (AKA THIS IS BASED ON THEIR OWN UNDERSTANDING AND CAN BE FAULTY AKA AKA ME THROWING IN ROOM FOR WORLDBUILDING CHANGES IF I FEEL LIKE IT) it is the Highest’s will that allows things to exist, and the Highest is drawing power from higher dimensions to keep sustaining everything. with sweetie pie sylvia tho, she’s Technically summoning/recreating something completely new and outside of the Highest’s purview whenever she does her thing and whatever it/they are they cant sustain on the usual sources of existence-y energy and so sylvie kinda instinctively substitutes it with the energy in the area. or herself. depends on the au eh

ANYWAY ANYWAY ANYWAYYYYY this is really just an entire worldbuilding thingywingy just to explain how sylvia got herself an imaginary friend that became her best friend because she unintentionally summoned/recreated a dead person’s soul from one possibility into reality and like. never banished them or anything so like yeah thats. Yeah

Dbdbhdhdh feel bad now

Got some anxiety n it kinda spiralled a lil bit

Sucks

Also i have a headache now

Idk

I just dont feel. Necessarily wanted? Idk if thats th the right term

I feel anxiety bc im worried they dont like me or dont actually want to be there or talk

Esp bc ive been nagging for a bit on wqnting to call n do stuff w them n i just. Dont feel very good abt it bc i feel like they dont actually want to do those things

And ive already had issues w like. Feeling a lil bit abandoned bc theyre talking to so many people and im not a part of it? But thats kinda unfair bc i dont talk anyways, even if i want to. Idk i just feel like theyre drifting away ig or like. Dont like me anymore or as much

Which is also kinda funny bc they just said the other day that they were thinkin abt marrying me again

And i just. Idk i feel like they arent telling me everything either, be it abt their other relationships or abt their own emotions, and its been bothering me for a while now. Like?? Im ur moirail ;; i wanna do my job and make u feel better but its not rlly like u believe anything i say anyways since im always “biased”

Idk im just. Feeling not too good. I dont feel like. Their partner properly ig? Like. I dont feel like im actually dating them sometimes, or that were serious

Which is dumb bc weve been together for like five years

I just wanna like. Feel good and not anxious ig

They also got upset earlier this week bc i kept my system discord from them but!! I was anxious abt it bc its kinda like my vent blogs where i figure things out and then edit them and talk it out w myself and its literally only there to record my system and stuff

W a vent channel i dont rlly wanna use anymore bc i feel anxious sharing my emotions w them rn for some dumb reason but. I do trust them. Its just dummy anxiety and abandonment issues and im scared

Idk i feel like theyre focused so much on wveryone else when im like. Right here. Not getting much attention. As they call others and talk w them while kinda ignoring me bc they assume im always going to be there? Which i mean. I am im not planning on leaving anytime soon but it sure doesnt feel good when. Ive been pulling teeth to get them to call me and then when they do call me i feel unwanted or anxious abt it bc i dont think they want to be there and its dumb im dumb

I just. Want to feel actively wanted. And i dont rn. But i also dont want them to feel bad bc ik theyre going through a time i just. Wish theyd realize im here and that i want attention to? Like. They focus so much on Luci and Emi and they . Barely talk to me anymore. I dont think they even noticed i left the call? And it just. Doesnt feel good when theyve been my entire world for years but ive almost never felt like theirs. Idk i know a lot of it is my own issues but. Idk

Idk i just. Miss them. Theyre right there but i miss them. Like they always want me to chase them but maybe i want to be chased back for once? Even tho the idea of chasing each other is kinda . Idk how to feel abt it bc i dont feel like i should have to chase someone who rlly wants to b with me but. Thats beside the point

I rhink if they left me id actually spiral so hard? Even if i was allowed to continue talking w them

Bc i just. Deadass dont know what id do without them and its not funny anymore when they hold my entire heart in their hands and its very scary bc nobody has ever? Treated me gently?