Thinking about "your weakness is how you always want to be the hero" and how the series returns to this at the end
Li Lianhua hated how he acted as Li Xiangyi and spent years trying to distance himself from it, but ultimately he still fell back into the similar patterns, for all his added experience
His main priority was always to "do the right thing" regardless of how that would impact on those around him. And it *did* impact those around him. From Qiao Wanmian and Shan Gudao as Li Xiangyi to Fang Duobing and Di Feisheng as Li Lianhua
Giving the Styx flower to the emperor so he could use it as leverage to guarantee Fang Duobing and his family's safety. Using the last of his power to save Yun Biqiu. Constantly putting others above himself whilst actively refusing to recognise that his self-sacrificial nature would hurt those he cared about most
And sure, he thinks he's going to die anyway. They're going to be hurt regardless and he can't do anything about that. His odds are low of the Styx flower even working. But ultimately, he refuses to even consider trying. Li Xiangyi has been dead a long time and Li Lianhua is just there to tide things over. What value is the life of a ghost
To the end, he lives and dies a hero. To the end, he refuses to live for himself.
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Next Round :D
-Vote for what you think is more underrated but also what you still like a lot-
Also! Fun fact, Dad 3 is the oldest video he's uploaded on Chonny Jash! The song is totally a very serious song, one of the most heartwretching songs he's covered.
Its likely you haven't heard it, so have at it here if you'd like.
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Even if you never look at the rest of the manga, just look - LOOK...
...at this one page of Tribe Shooting Star Rockman Battle Side Story...
It is literally the most insane of the 3 interpretations of Star Force 2 [game, anime, manga] that I've seen.
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okay so because previous anons asked about sex, I wanna ask about aftercare, how they act after sex? oh and i’m curious how their sex life change after being together for a while
xoxo <3
their aftercare isn't always aftercare-101, if i'm honest. theo is very bad at it and doesn't really... ever... do that for matthias. and matthias may be very good at giving aftercare but theo is incredibly resistant to it. i mentioned earlier that theo really gets off on praise, but... he also flinches away from it. he's so twisted up about so much of what he wants and he's really, uh... well. he makes it really hard to get close to him and offer comfort despite how much he desires it. matthias can't say certain things without scaring theo off (and i mean, like, theo will quite literally run away), so he has to talk around what he wants to say and what theo needs to hear to prevent theo from bolting before he can bring him down.
matthias takes a long time cleaning theo up and massaging his muscles after, and he'll hum or talk to himself in polish so theo knows he's still there touching him (but isn't stirred before he comes to himself on his own by english he can understand). when he's finished, he'll ask theo very simple yes or no questions that let matthias know how theo's feeling without outright asking how he's feeling. he also checks on theo throughout the day, but he has to be even more subtle there or theo starts to feel smothered. is your body okay? do you want me to get you dressed? does your head hurt? do you want me to read to you? he focuses on asking about the physical and what theo wants to do rather than theo’s emotions. matthias has learned that asking if theo's feeling okay after is a quick way to trigger a very, very negative response in theo. it's one of the reasons why i think matthias is constantly asking theo in the heat of sex how he's feeling, because that's when theo is so preoccupied by the physical aspect that the emotional effects leak out without him fighting to keep them in. it takes a few months for theo to get comfortable with the feelings he has after sex with him before matthias can really give him proper aftercare. that’s why the sex they have early on is never anything too crazy. matthias coaxes theo into a better place first.
i also think it’s important to clarify that it’s not like they’re always having kinky sex. still, theo usually needs physical touch after vanilla sex as well. matthias himself always craves conversation afterwards, so he waits for theo to stir awake (because he often falls asleep after sex) or come back into his body fully to talk to him.
as for changes to their sex life after they’ve been together for awhile… i believe i've talked about this before, but their sexual dynamic turns on its head after a few years. theo starts to take control of the reins and gets more comfortable asking for and doing what he wants. with theo he just has a lot holding him back and it's only after he's grown as a person and worked past a majority of his intimacy issues that he can act on the desires he's been burying waaay down. there's a sort of brattiness that theo starts to have a lot of fun with during sex—a lot of pushing and prodding, withholding, insulting... matthias is having the time of his life lmao, like he loves being challenged and pushed around. matthias takes on a more submissive role during sex as they age, which is fun for him. plus it's kind of the dynamic they've always had outside of sex anyway. of course, there are never any set roles in their sexual life so i'm not saying that it's always like that, but theo enjoys telling matthias what to do and how to do it. they have a lot of fun with it.
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small receipt because im seeing a lot of people comment on harrys state of mind when around jeff or olivia or the stunt crew. my new-ish bf recently took me on triple date with his two best work bros. one of them is married to an italian man, and during dinner we mentioned coachella and my bf made a joke about me loving harry more than him. the two guys (colleague and italian husband) casually said that they had met him over christmas in italy and that hes even more gorgeous irl. obvs i lose my mind a little bit but try to keep cool and they tell me the story of how the husband has this really good friend who has a house in the same town harry does. over christmas they went there with her, and then they went out to lunch and ran into harry, olivia and a bunch of other people, including some kids. nothing new here, but what i thought was interesting was that they said that their friend went up to harry to say hi because they've hung out before, and that he gave her a hug, introduced her to olivia and they all had a brief conversation. afterwards the three of them commented on the whole thing, and apparently the friend made a quick comment about how it had felt a bit awkward and he was colder than usual. i asked them if they had felt that way, they said he was very kind but def a bit aloof, and that the atmosphere felt a little weird, but that they wouldn't have noticed but their friend did because she said that he's usually super bubbly and happy and charming and that day he felt a bit off, and she had never met olivia before. i obvs was super interested in knowing more, but they didnt share anything else and also said that their friend barely said anything else about it so they didnt want to pry because shed basically never told them about him before and it felt like she didnt want to gossip. i just thought it was interesting that someone hes met alone would pick up on such a different vibe when hes with her. also the italian guy made fun of his husband because he had no idea who olivia was and when they told him they were dating he thought it was a joke for like an hour. oh also she was wearing the love on tour jacket which is how they were able to spot them right away and both husbands thought it was a bit weird lol.
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